I surveyed the darkening sky as dusk settled in, the warmth of the (coffee/tea/hot chocolate) heating my fingertips. Karkat’s first two classes were canceled and I had free time on my hands so when he pestered me I didn’t think twice. Carefully balancing the two drinks, I slipped inside Karkat’s unlocked apartment.
I couldn’t help but beam as I thought about how I had managed to coerce Karkat into agreeing to spend our time watching movies, a horror movie at that. At first he had fought to see a comedy, romance movies had been out of the question the last few weeks, but offering to make (drink) had sealed the deal. He didn’t need to know I had already made it before he called.
With a bounce in my step, I sauntered down the hallway intent on waiting for him on his couch like normal but I stopped halfway. Karkat’s door was open for once, normally he was pretty particular about his privacy. Shuffling from inside drew me in. A mischievous smirk found its way onto my face.
I gripped the cups tightly before nudging the door open a bit more so I could poke my head in, no doubt startling the poor troll. After becoming closer to Karkat, I made it my mission to keep him on his toes. The stream of profanity was welcome, it seemed more like his normal self than the morose one he had been acting like lately.
Clothes were strewn throughout the room on his bed, floor, and chair. I couldn’t help but raise an eyebrow at the varying outfits. I normally only saw him in the same clothes, something about trolls not caring about fashion. Quickly I shook my head, trying to focus on the task at hand. I opened my mouth to alert Karkat of my presence but once I caught sight of him I couldn’t think.
He was facing me but his face was covered by the red shirt he was pulling off. Normally (males/males and females) taking their shirt off around me would have been welcomed but I couldn’t help but gape at the sight. My mouth moved faster than my confused brain could process anything.
“What the hell happened to your sides? Where are your nipples!”
Karkat let out startled ear piercing screech before yanking his shirt back down. Blindly he took a step back, only to trip on something littering the floor. He collapsed in a heap, eyes wider than I had ever seen. The shock wore off and indignant rage quickly set in. He glared hatefully at my still dumbfounded form.
“What the fuck (Name)! Why are you here already? You said you were going to make (drink).”
I could see the wheels turning as realization set in. I had tricked him, exaggerating how it would be a pain to make in order to get my way. He opened his mouth to snap an insult, but froze. A candy red blush engulfed his face.
“What are you talking about? Don’t you know anything about troll anatomy? They’re grub scars and what the hell are nipples?”
My jaw dropped at the last question. I didn’t know much of about trolls in general, the most contact I had was with Karkat and the one working at the coffee shop by my college. I wanted to retort but I couldn’t help but wonder how different our species were. I tried to stop that train of thought, recalling the confusing terms generally filling Karkat’s insults. The blood rushing to my face made me feel like I was going to explode.
“I… J-just google it alright. Not when I’m around. Just… No. Can we watch the movie? Please.”
I stuttered before I ducked out of his bedroom, making a beeline for the couch. Haphazardly I dropped onto the couch and set the glasses onto the table. Even though my hands were warm from holding the drinks, my knuckles managed to cool my face a bit.
There was some rustling coming from his bedroom as he finished getting ready. There was a creak and footsteps but I couldn’t bring myself to meet his eyes. He leaned over me and picked up a cup. By accident I did end up locking eyes with him as he grabbed the drink.
His face was still red and he seemed to grow even redder when our eyes met. I didn’t have a doubt that my own face was probably just as red. His eyes darted away from me to stare at the blank screen as he sat beside me.
Normally as soon as he would sit down I would scoot a bit closer, so we were shoulder to shoulder, but this time I remained in my original place. The embarrassment was justified karma for trying to sneak up on Karkat. It could have been even worse, at least he had pants on. I tried to calm my nerves as he started the movie. As the title screen appeared, I relaxed and let my face cool down. It could have been a lot worse.
In my peripheral vision I could see Karkat glancing towards me, a blank look on his face. The movie started and the speakers began to pulse with ominous music, setting the scene. My lips twitched ever so slightly up. Ordinarily I would complain about the volume, but on this side it didn’t seem obnoxious.
I tensed in surprise as Karkat’s shoulder brushed against mine. Questioningly I looked over at him, this was the first time he’d ever initiated contact. I liked physical contact and my personal space was generally smaller than some, especially Karkat’s. He generally seemed to just put up with my antics with a bland scowl on his face.
My eyes narrowed as I surveyed him curiously, but he merely continued to watch the film. His face was tinged a bit redder than normal but nowhere near as bright as before and he was biting the inside of his cheek. He must have noticed my staring because he started to fidget ever so slightly.
I had to try and bite back a smile as I reciprocated and shifted closer myself. If I had looked away I would have missed the subtle upward twitch of his lips as he relaxed in his seat. The residual embarrassment disappeared. If I had to think about it, it was kind of a bit funny and he didn’t seem angry.
My head fell onto his shoulder and his arm slowly wound around my shoulders. Despite my original interest, I couldn’t quite focus on the movie. I was more and xmore distracted by the warmth emanating off of him and his fingers inching closer and closer towards mine.
My heart began to pound and I bit my cheek to quiet down my giddy nerves. The tips of his fingers brushed against mine, as if trying to determine whether it would be okay. The smile I had tried to hold back, hit me full force and my face became red once more. I went to move my hand towards his, to silently tell him I wanted him to but a loud noise made me freeze.
Surprised I went to move away but Karkat tensed and tightened his grip on my shoulder, holding me in place. I waited for his vice grip to relax, but after a second my shoulder throbbed in pain when he increased the pressure. With a hiss of pain I looked over and cocked my head to the side questioningly.
Karkat wasn’t looking at me or even at the horrific scenes filling the television. He was focused on the cellphone in his hand. His knuckles turned white as they clenched around the device. I stretched upwards slightly and caught sight of purple text filling the screen.
I could practically hear his teeth grinding together as he blindly tossed the phone onto the table. As it hit the tabletop with a crack I flinched slightly. Karkat took several deep breaths and it was like magic. He relaxed and loosened the anchoring grip on my arm. I nudged his side with my arm to catch his attention.
I watched carefully as he opened his mouth to reply, but stopped. It was quiet for a few minutes as he seemed to honestly think about it.
“Yeah, yeah… I’m alright.”
Without the hesitation from before his fingers entwined with my own. Instantly happiness welled up inside me and I felt a surge of courage. Purple meant Gamzee had messaged him about something or other. From what Karkat had told me, it seemed like he hadn’t talked to Gamzee or Terezi in a long time. The wounds were too fresh and the mention of their name seemed to leave a bitter taste in his mouth.
He may not have replied to Gamzee, but he didn’t seem upset like he would have weeks ago. Instead he was leaning against me, holding my hand. I prayed I wasn’t rushing or misinterpreting as I let my impulsive nature take hold.
I leaned upwards so I was sitting straight and not resting against his shoulder. I tried to calm my pounding heart before I leaned over towards him, inching closer slowly. He sat completely still, anticipating my actions. I pressed my lips lightly against his cheek, watching for his reaction as he had before holding my hand. I braced my hand against his chest as I pulled away slowly, trying to see if I had made a mistake.
Both our faces were flushed and I could feel his heart pounding underneath my hand. There was a brief pause and I tried to fight back the fitful anxiety to give him time to respond, to lean forward or away. I gasped as his arm pulled me in closer until I ended up straddling his waist.
His other hand tangled in my (length) (color) hair as he leaned forward, closing the space too slowly for my tastes. Rather than waiting I wrapped my arms around his neck and closed the gap. Before I closed my eyes, I saw his widen before beginning to close as he deepened the kiss.
I could feel him smiling against my lips before his tongue brushed carefully over my lower lip, quietly asking permission. My breath caught in my throat. Just before I could give a response a loud banging jolted us apart.
I scrambled backwards and if Karkat hadn’t yanked me back towards him I would have fallen onto the floor. The pounding didn’t stop, instead the landlord’s voice filled the air.
“I have already warned you once Karkat! Turn your movie down. Your feud with (Name) has to stop. You’re disrupting the other residents!”
The look on Karkat’s face was priceless. His face was flushed and he was staring dumbfounded at the door. I couldn’t help but start to laugh, utilizing Karkat’s arms around my waist so I wouldn’t have to worry about falling. He kept one locked around my waist and searched for the remote with the other.
Once he found it he turned down the volume, grumbling something under his breath the entire time. I couldn’t stop giggling as I pecked his lips quickly, leaning away teasingly before he could kiss back. He glared but the smile ruined the reprimanding look.