Big thanks to......well, some nice people here who have helped me through some bad times:More Like This
:iconmaxdefolsch: - :iconHoneyGoddess57: - For being there when I've been having my violent moods swings and being there to listen and be a friend.
:iconclaudia-r: - For producing a lot of cool comics filled with erotic fungschway! (is that even a word anymore?) And also for the mention.
:iconpaulibis2001: - for the the brutal honesty to snap me out of my apathy.
:icondmlxo21: and :iconleif-j: - for sharing in the pains of having to work on art, knowing how much a burden a lack of free time can be.
Until next time...
How do you make it stop?How do you make it stop hurting!?More Like This
Right now, I am in so much grief...the grief of knowing I've hit an artistic dead-end; The grief of knowing I have to put less time into what I 'used to' love; The grief knowing you've pretty much plateaued; And the grief of knowing people around you just get better and better and you sit there and flounder?
Every time I come here, I feel like I've somehow failed. I feel like a boxer who had been beaten in a such a one sided fight, every time I try to rise, I just fall flat on my face. Nothing makes me feel complete, hell, I even can't leave my house because there's a blizzard outside. Someone once said: "if there was no one else in the world, would you still draw art because it makes you happy?". Well, yes and no. Art made me happy, but life telling you: "sorry, it's not for you!" keeps bitch slapping me.
This morning, I was actually pondering what, if anything, I could do--After much thought, the though
Over one hump.Some good news for me...More Like This
It's been 8 days since I drew anything and the urge to draw has slowly faded and I'm now able to think about non-art related stuff. I've also gave up caffeine a week ago and I'm on my way to being off that crap.
It's one day at a time....
RIP Paul Walker.Paul Walker from the "Fast and the Furious" franchise was killed riding with a friend when their car crashed into a tree and burst into flames. Both Paul and his friend were pronounced dead at the scene. Paul was 40.More Like This
Meh Final Answeh.fNOTE: warning, some ranting...More Like This
Well, it's another Thanksgiving and well, I don't have a whole lot to be thankful for. I can be personally thankful I haven't fallen ill, my Dad's going to be okay, but that's about it. 2013 has been a really shitty year. I've been through enough turbulence to last me the next decade, and this place shouldn't be another cause of more.
Before, I never put a lot of effort into my art because I always put it behind family and work, but this year I made the mistake of trying too hard to get good at this and the time and effort I put to get better cost me some friendships, nearly got me fired and killed a lot of my social life. Worst of all, trying to keep up with the Artistic Jones's left me in the position of a jealous asshole which killed my friendship with :iconmissfuturama: . (I will always miss you.)
Obviously, I'm aware I'm never going back to my life in early 2013 when things seemed to get better everyday, but also, I don't see things get
Weekly stuff.Tomorrow night, a quick picture that's been sitting, waiting to be done once my real life settles down.More Like This
After that, MAJOR non-Groening style painting will be started.
Wait, an original, non-fan art picture on my page!?!?!?!111!? It should take about a two-weeks to complete.
Devious Journal Entry List 10 of your OTPsMore Like This
~Two person pairings only
~No combining names
~Can be Het/Yaoi/Yuri
~Can be CanonxCanon/OCxCanon/OCxOC
1. Enjolras and Grantaire
2. Dean and Castiel
3. Castle and Beckett
4. Percy and Annabeth
5. Sam and Gabriel
6. Combeferre and Joly
7. Robin and Barney
8. Éponine and Cosette
9. Kirk and Spock
10. Darcy and Ian
1) Who gets along better? Pairing #1 or #5?
Probably 5. I don't know. They both get along with each other.
2) According to you, does the first person in pairing #10 truly love the second person?
YES. I mean Ian saved her from dying.
3) Oh no!! The second person in pairing #4 sees their boy/girlfriend with the first person in pairing #7!! What happens?
Annabeth almost kills Robin.
4) What would you do if pairing #8 was 100% canon?
I WOULD FUCKING SCREECH I MEAN LIKE NO ONE FUCKING SHIPS IT AND IT'S SO GODDAMN AWESOME THEY'RE SO CUTE TOGE