the kingdom of life and deathtwo weeks ago i threw a stoneMore Like This
at the water and watched it skip three times, thinking
it will never do to grow old and content.
somewhere beneath this river
there is a castle built from stones i've thrown,
and all of the fish are kings and queens.
they've never been asked about their royal decrees.
no one has ever wished them a happy birthday.
they reign over the kingdom of life and death, and even the river
refuses to stop and mourn them when they go.
one week ago i found a moss-covered stump,
and instead of crying, i counted its rings.
if you were to cut me crosswise, i don't know
what you'd find. perhaps severed arteries
pouring out gold and poetry,
ancient cave paintings splashed across my vertebrae,
or the secret to immunity brewing
in the cauldron of my hips.
maybe you wouldn't find anything.
i cannot grow rings, after all,
and i am no queen.
today, to celebrate my birthday,
i will head down to the river with a saw
slung over my shoulder and
chop down a t
To Beauty From AshesI've been wondering for a while now.More Like This
When did my life become like this, why and how?
When did I start to soothe myself to sleep while drowning in my sorrow?
When did I stop waiting for a miracle, knowing there was no better tomorrow?
When did I start living in this world on my own?
And when did I become detached from the strangers in my home?
I look up at the sky and pray for a sign from above.
I'm praying for the old days when life was good, and it was easy to find love.
I'm praying for the day when my heart feels whole again.
I'm reminiscing on the days when sadness wasn't my only friend.
They tell me that people come and go, my wounds heal, and it all passes.
But, I'm still waiting, God, I'm waiting for you to turn everything into beauty from all of the ashes...
IM SORRYIM SORRYMore Like This
for being me
I know that I'm not perfect
And you seem to know it too
You always throw it in my face
Whenever you get to
It's like nothing that I ever do
Will ever make you happy
Because Your always comparing me
And it's makin me feel crappy
You lower all my self esteem
And all my self respect
You act like you are helpin me
But your makin me a wreck
Not good enough
As far as you can tell
It's driving me insane
And you make me want to yell
For being me
I pray every day and night
That somewhere in the world
Awaits my shining knight
But then my head begins to whirl
Maybe I'm just crazy
And everyone was right
My future looks so hazy
I wish I had some light
Maybe I can prove you wrong
And reach my biggest dreams
Conquer all my biggest fears