Merry ChristmasMerry Christmas (or whatever you celebrate ^^)~ Hope you have a great time doing whatever you do with whoever you do it with. :iconchristmastreeplz:More Like This
Catching Fire *heart* and some other junkIt was so amazing! Way better in compairison to the book then the first one was. I can't wait until the disk comes out so I can buy it and watch it again.More Like This
After the movie I went to :iconArynneRSkywalker:'s house, which was fun enough. Ate a bunch of junk and she fell asleep before I did. Though, that isn't surprising, since I didn't fall asleep at all. I got stuck in this extremely depressed funk, and I could not sleep, just try to breathe. All I could do was lay there and wish I could find a blade and just ruin myself. Unfortunatly I couldn't find anything.
So now I'm extremely tired because I watched the sun come up again and I'm still stuck in that depressed state. But the movie was great.
Torn in TwoMy scars do not define me.More Like This
They are all I am.
The madness is waiting to take me.
It already ate me.
I do not know who I am.
I am a monster waiting to strike.
You all need to leave me before I hurt you.
Please do not leave me alone.
I was alone before I was born.
I do not think I was born alive rather dead.
This mind is waiting to die.
This heart is pleading for life.
Someone please save me.
Leave me to die on my own so you don't have to see.
Someday I hope I can take my mask off.
I know not to hide is to wish for punishment.
I do not deserve anything but pain.
What did I ever do to deserve this.
My agonized cries go out to be heard.
I can never ask for a voice.
I do not know what to do.
I know there is only one thing to do.
Shadow Girl Chapter Ten I look at him.More Like This
"The first time I saw you I couldn't look away. Others may not see you as special, but I see a gem inside you." He places his hand overtop of my heart. "A gem so beautiful, but hidden, scarred. The only gem I could ever be happy with, the only one I want." He removes his hand and rubs the back of his neck again, his nervous tick. His whole face is red with blush.
"We all see that gem inside you, so pure, only we don't want it the same way he does."
"Please don't shut us out."
"We want to be your friends, we want to help you."
I don't even say anything. I just wrap my arms around my waist and start sobbing. They all get up and come over to my spot, hugging me and holding me, murmering comfort and promises to me. Tyler's holding me the closest. This is all I've ever wanted... Maybe they do truely care. I don't know how long we stay there like that, but they don't leave, letting me cry out all the times I've ever felt alone, h
Healer but not Healed Part 10 I pause, wondering if I heard her right. "My sister. I have a sister?"More Like This
"Yeah, and you're the missing one, the one my parents could find, couldn't figure out."
"Wait wait, what did you say, your parents? You just said we were sisters. Shouldn't it be our parents? And if we're sisters, how come I've never heard of you, never seen you?"
"Of course. Well, not my parents exactly, addopted parents is more correct. Do you not know them? Who did you stay with? I mean, you're right, if we had lived with the same parents we would have known each other, but my parents never found you. So, who had you?"
I feel anger bubbling up in me. "I stayed with my-our real parents, until I ran from them and grew up on the streets."
"Really, you got to stay with our parents? You are so lucky! What are they like, wha
Shadow Girl Chapter Nine I don't hear BlueEyes following, there is no sound of shoes hitting the cement, only my own, mixed with groans of pain, and my left leg - improperly healed from a beating - shuffling slightly. I stop running when I get half way to Shae's house, clutching my sides in pain - still sore from yesterday - and looking behind me for any signs of BlueEyes following me. Nothing. After a few seconds I straighten and start walking down the street, scaning the streets and alleys for shadows, waiting for anyone to jump out at me.More Like This
No one does, however one couple glare at me and shake their heads in disgusts when the pass me. I reach Shae's house, wondering for a second if this is really what I want to do, wondering if they really do want me here. Gelba's words come rushing into my mind as I approch the white door, "make some friends, it helps more then you would think."take a deep breath and hope she's right, as I re
Shadow Girl Chapter Eight I hobble my way to my apartment, locking the door behind me as always when I enter. I walk further in and throw my pack on the couch, seeing the knife I had thrown on the floor after cutting again still laying there. With a growl I walk over and pick it up, take it to the sink and clean it off, then stick it back under the couch cushion. I know I should get rid of it, lessen the temptation, but I can't bring myself to do that. Besides, it's not like I can't just go to the kitchen and get a different blade.More Like This
I stumble my way into the kitchen and make myself a small supper, then collapse in bed, too tired after all of today's ordeals to do anything more. It's almost eleven anyways, why stay up later. I just manage to crawl under the covers when sleep pulls me under, easier then I thought it would, with all the sore and aching spots on my body, and the thoughts of what BlueEyes said to me.