Do I really have to say itSnorting this line,More Like This
as the particles
fly up the straw
and into my nostrils,
I find myself reeling,
as expected, and thinking of you
I remember the times
I ate so much acid
that you would say a little prayer
(thought I didn't know, didn't you,
well I did, every time).
And then you would
make it rain white powder
that shared your name.
And, Molly, when we would
find that perfect balance
of trippin' balls and rubbin' walls,
time would stop.
with your skin against mine.
But as the initial rush dies
you leave my headspace,
there's no room for you there anymore
because right about NOW
is when the demons attack
and they come from everywhere
wearing the face
of no one and everyone,
visually fucking me up
like I , once again,
filled my mouth with gel caps.
And the auditory assault
from some of the visions
and from nowhere
are almost enough
to make my ears bleed.
And I start crying.
And I realize
I haven't bumped that line yet
and all this shit
is just who I am now
Forgotten TruthsFaster and faster we move towards disaster,More Like This
an assume we can be forgiven by a corrupted Pastor
but who's the true Master?
I question, I wonder?
Does this whole world just lay claim to the plunder?
Can we really know whats right from wrong?
Or is it all survival?
bet that's why you can't find Darwin's theories in the Bible.
Cause if the rules were only the strongest survive,
How many of us would be alive?
Its Philosophies of submission,
and a Reality of Domination.
Shame on me..Shame on meMore Like This
For everything I’ve done
Everything that makes me who I am
Things that keep me sane
But one day I’ll go insane
From all the things you said
Still running in my head
Glass words cause tears of ice
Running down my face
Screaming in my mind
I’m running out of time
Shame on me
For letting the monsters in
They’re getting to me
Piercing my brain,
Hating You.You will never be sorry enoughMore Like This
Why should I accept that?
All that's left is nightmares
Blood should be leaking from my mind
You tortured it enough so
Why do I feel numb?
Should it be this way?
Was I really that dumb?
I really do hate you
You're the horror of my past
You're the chill that haunts the room
You are the scars upon my skin
What more damage could you cause?
Maybe you don't deserve this
But actually, I know you do.
Cut ItI’ve got so much to sayMore Like This
But not enough words to say it;
Perhaps I should scream it
Or cry it,
I should cut it.
Blood speaks so much louder than words,
Blades cry so much sharper
Pain screams so much softer
And it’s the only way I know how to talk
Even if it makes it hard to walk
For days after.
I think I’m going to hell,
Well, that’s just swell
Because ever since I fell
Pain’s all I’ve known anyway.
It’s like a blanket,
Hiding all the hate from view,
The shield between me and the monster,
The monster that is me.
Ever heard of freedom?
Yeah, so have I,
But I don’t know what it is
Only that I’ll never have it in breath
And the only key to my shackles
Love To KillHe whispered in my ear, "Baby can I hug you around the neck?More Like This
Your eyes really brighten up when you cry,
Judging by the marks on your wrist you already want to die."
Trying to recover and stop loving you,
But my heart has a mind of its own,
And I can never find better then you.
"You deserve everything that's coming for you.
Everything you do makes me rageful,
I can barely stand to see you breathe.
Now blow me a kiss as you're on your knees."
Each bruise is a mistake, and truly made of love.
I know how his heart of stone really feels,
I just have to mine through the bitterness.
"You won't ever leave,
Don't you know what my dad did to me?
You won't be another heartbreak.
Now cover up your black eye and fake a smile."
His past has formed who he is,
All he needs to change his ways is love and a tender kiss,
We can get past this because true love actually exists.
"I'm sorry for the blood and broke promises,
I swear it won't be like before,
A flood of love,
Followed up by punches."
I trust hi
Love is SuicideLooking into your eyesMore Like This
i see the pain you hide inside.
crying is your only weakness,
your painful tears make you speechless
"Just do it!
Kill youself like you said you would!"
he said "Im tired of waiting! maybe i should!"
"you cant stand to exist,
the knives the pills
you cant resist.
"Slice your wrists.
the pills make your stomach twist:
now its time, time for you to regret,
the painful memories you tried to forget.
was it worth it?
now they're flashing before your eyes.
now your remembering them as you die."
"I dont want to die." you said.
"I do not want to be dead!"
now its to late.
death is your fate.
Its been two days
since you passed away.
Everything that i said was true
even after all the pain you put me through
I will forever be cursed
with the sight of them
placing you into the hearse
I could have saved you
what have i done?
its to late now;
now that your gone
you wanted to live
i could tell
now death will forever stalk you
down in hell
I didnt think you would do it