The Raised SunThe raised SunMore Like This
I’m not angry. I’m not hurt. I have no problems, no tragedies have happened to me. There won’t be anyone to blame, don’t even look for a scapegoat. Be nice!...
It’s not enough, is it? Should I write some more? Yeah, I might change my mind. I won’t.
The sky is beautiful scarlet from up here. The Sun will rise soon, and that will be even more beautiful. I don’t know, what else could I say.
When did it start? I don’t know, maybe I was born this way, maybe it’s not important at all. But I do remember when I found it out. Because I did not decide, but found that I’ve been heading this for a long time now. It was last week, weekend, to be precise. On Sunday.
Now it’s Monday, and millions of scarlet roses are blooming on the sky. I had my birthday on Sunday, the eighteenth, and my Granny has given me a bucket of scarlet roses, and this was the sign.
I was anxious in the morning, not excited, but anxious, but I di
BreakEverywhere I look, I see boneMore Like This
Bones of my family
Holding up my friends
Bones that make us
I look and I do not see bone
Sagging and world weary
The boy in the mirror has wasted away.
But that is all we really are, bone
A skeletal frame struggling under a weak body
Pretending at the dinner table chatting, laughing
Everything is all right
The permanent smiles of emaciated panic
Manic under the flesh
Hiding their feelings, emotions in a petrified state
The look of the cannibal coming at your throat
Hiding until we break.
Everything is all right.
Skin is the best liar of us all.
Bipolar DisorderSometimes I am very happyMore Like This
I feel so anxious
I feel that i can do things that sound impossible
I feel so imperative that costs me a lot relax me
Sometimes I feel very depressed
I feel so empty and lost
My brain just tells me to kill myself and that hurt me
I feel so tired that I can hardly get out of my bed
And the only thing I can say is I'm sorry
I'm sorry to be a burden to all
I'm sorry to be so irritable
I'm sorry to hurt myself
I'm sorry to be me
I'm sorry to hurt my family, friends, etc.
But this is not my fault
All this is because of my illness
I'm not a monster
I'm not crazy
I'm not a freak
I'm just ill