Freedom is Never FreeThey tell me I'm free, but then they lock the gateMore Like This
The truth is a lie and it's lies that I hate
My tears of sorrow mix with rain on the cold slate
They tell my I'm wonderful, that I'm truly great
Then they go and seal my fate!
I feel so foolish, knowing I took the bait.
Don't let them catch you
You'll never escape
Or if you think that you are
They'll just lock that stupid gate
Goodbye and HelloThey tell me each goodbye means another helloMore Like This
But that means each hello brings another goodbye
I know I should move on and give the future a try
But I just can't accept that this is do or die
The paths we walk branch off and we each chose our own
We think we're in this together
Until we end up alone
They say all roads will cross at a certain place
Like we're all threads in a spiderweb of woven lace
I refuse to believe what cannot be proven true
If we go our separate ways will I ever find you?
Is that a risk worth taking?
Or a huge mistake we're making?
I hate hellos and I hate goodbyes
Because when we say the last one I'm always the one who cries
For a girl who writes a lotFor a girl who writes a lot and thinks to muchMore Like This
For this girl
I saw her everday
she sat in the chair
right next to
me in English
She had firey red hair
and bright baby blue
she smiled once or twice
but I knew she really
wanted to cry
she always wore this
beautiful black sweater
and never rolled up the
she only said things
like hi and ill be alright
but one day
just one day
was past her wrist
and I was the one who
saw the lines
I looked at her and said
I am going to hand you something
I wrote her a note saying
You are beautiful and
needed so please
just stop the hurt
on your skin
cause well someone finally
sees your beauty within
I saw her eyes start to
fill with tears
to the brim
and then she told
me thank you
I just needed a friend
Finally Lost AgainFinally, I am on my feetMore Like This
again, I feel free and alive,
for the first time in a long
while, I know where I stand,
I don't have you on my
mind, I am a better
person, but although there is still a slight
sadness, residing in my soul for your
loss, I now know who I can be without
you, and even though I truly,
loved you, I know I can move on now
I shall walk alone,
but that is ok,
I'll just keep wondering and maybe I shall bump into someone else,
until that day, I am happy you are gone.
NeedI don't expect a happy ending,More Like This
or a fresh beginning,
I don't want a new leaf,
A peaceful sleep,
A unconditional love,
and all the soppy stuff,
I don't expect you to smile,
or acknowledge my existence.
I don't really want to forget,
or be fixed,
What is it next?
Because I just feel tricked.
I don't need a happy ending,
or a love worth defending,
I don't need you, or us,
I am done, through and through,
I don't need to change,
and although this seems strange,
but I don't need it.
Burnt BackI could beg on my bruised knee's for you back,More Like This
But that doesn't sound very fun,
I could apologise and try to fill the cracks,
Beg you for your romance to come.
But that doesn't sound very fun.
For if I am burning,
so will you,
and if I am bleeding,
so should you.
Take my life,
cut it out with that smiling knife,
a blade for a blade,
I warned you, you could have been saved.
I could beg on my bruised knee's for you back,
but why on Earth would I do that?
You're a little pussy cat,
and after all these years,
I really don't want you back.
PaintingI have bought paints in red and blues,More Like This
in sunset orange and forest greens:
brushes in a thousand sizes,
thick, thin, and flat as stones.
So watch now as I trace the paint,
up and down my pale arms,
covering up the cracks and creases
formed as I wither away.
See as I paint my cold, blue lips red,
fill my dark, empty eyes with blue.
I paste on smiles, skies of blue on what once was grey,
laughter over the racking sobs,
put the dot of white paint-
the sparkle in my eyes- back,
from when I lost it long lives ago.
Learn to love the painted shell I make:
so beautiful in broken form,
perfect in its imperfection.
And I will leave this case behind,
when no one watches any more.
I shall wander where the willows sway,
I will search,
for the Light.
My Favorite PlaceTwilight hitsMore Like This
In my favorite place
The stars are in the sky
I let go of my troubles
They all go away
My life no longer falls apart
I drift away
To my favorite place
A place within my thoughts
I no longer feel like giving up
I finally feel alive
And free to speak my mind
Life is different
In my favorite place
I can dance and sing
And be crazy and strange
Without the world judging me
I can definitely be myself
I fall from a distance
Leaving my favorite place
I’m forced to go right back
I try my best
To stay in this place
But then I wake up
The stand offWho will be the one to buckle?More Like This
My icy exterior stares fixed ahead.
He doesn't know that inside I chuckle,
He thinks I won't pull the trigger
Though our love was already dead.