SecludedMore Like This
My mother is always asking me why. Why do I seclude myself from everyone? Why don’t I go out and socialize? Why don’t I hang out with my friends or family? Why do I always just sit in front of my computer all day and night. She thinks it’s because I don’t care. She thinks it’s because I’m “too good” for anyone. She thinks it’s because I want to be alone.
I do care. I’m not “too good” for anyone, if anything I’m far from it. I don’t want to be alone. The answers are so obvious and yet no one notices. They don’t notice I’m secluding myself for them. They don’t notice that I care so much for them. They never do.
But that’s okay. I don’t want them to notice. It would only hurt them. I don’t want them to be hurt. If they got hurt because of me then I don’t deserve to be there, no matter how much I want to.
They don’t notice, but I do. I