ComaI've fallen into an endless pit of fury and despair,More Like This
I stumbled- I'm sorry, do you hear me- I stumbled and fell in,
Head first, arms tightly tied behind my back,
wrists held together by the ropes of confusion and burning hatred
of all that I wished never to have done.
I am mindless, a slave to you all,
nothing but a spirit restlessly lurking in a world, unloved and alone,
had wished for nothing but another to walk along my path, the both of us, hand-in-hand,
as we watch the sun take its cache behind the world.
The breath of life slowly flows through my arms, then seeps out of my fingertips as I struggle
to take another breath, just for another glimpse of your flawless face.
Wishing to never have been born, never to have lived to see another day,
because all is lost, my world has been drained of color,
and is slowly collapsing underneath the weight of my own agony.
This suffering- I deserve,
all the more as you deserve your peace and love,
and though I'd do anything to release myself of
time is a tornado.time is a tornadoMore Like This
that brings destruction and demolition
as all tornadoes do
they rip holes in brick walls
carefully sealed together
by the calloused hands of man
once it was a simple breeze
that breathed upon the sunshine rays
of my fresh apple childhood
before it was ridden with worms
that rotted its thick skin
slowly, slowly, the wind
and began to swirl
stealing away my held breath
so time is a tornado
and it's all
small enough?Am IMore Like This
Small enough to fit
inside your heart
like the pain you hold so near?
small enough to fit inside
that bottle you caress within five shaking
that can't stop what they've started.
Small enough to hide inside
the bruises and cuts that
you can't forget
and still think you deserve
Small enough to be the one you put into your back pocket
like the cents you ask to borrow to get on a one way train
and you don't want to go where it's taking you.
small enough to add to your collection
of people who didn't leave you
small enough to fit in the tear that falls when you
reach inside of your heart
to find the razor blade has taken the place
of the words you had but are now gone
because it's over
am I small enough
to not cause you more than a pin-prick of pain
when I make a mistake
because I may be small
but I love you
more than the space I don't want to
where I come fromMaybe tomorrowMore Like This
Maybe next month or someday
I will be able to stand up
and tell you where I come from.
Until then, my words are my
they are my bravery and courage
hope and life. They are me.
I would say
that I come from
two lungs buried far beneath musky dirt
two hands wrapping around faith and fear
two intestines; one big enough to devour
your every thought
and the other small enough to cradle
what you say is love.
But I realized that you cannot make
homes out of humans
and I should've known this was not acceptable.
I come from
two small windows peaking out over
an empty lot
two small eyes staring out at me
from the night
two small street lights to light my way HOME.
I come from a little white box
just big enough for my sister's eyes,
my mother's hands
her lovers smoke
and my words.
In this place
I am who I want to be
and I can tell you I am strong
lie and say I have my thoughts
because I come from a place of make-believe.
I come from a speck of l
Coolingmy plans broke apartMore Like This
like hard packed snow
beneath your heel
like soft charred wood
in a cooling flame
like fragile glass wings
in a child's fist
I broke apart
like ten thousand hearts
when I stopped loving you
Phantomsdriving to schoolMore Like This
still half in my dreams
the road seems way too bright
have you figured out yet?
I am nonsense
so my borders shake and veer
my heart almost beats a rhythm
to and from your door
why am I
to these phantoms
IllusionIridescent illusions fleeting across a crumbling path,More Like This
as trembling hands sew
what is left of
a lovely visage.
that send the world
falling to its knees,
as the backdrop of the universe
bends against the will
of its god,
and the fear-stricken children
of this realm are demolished
upon swimming in never-ending flows
of hate and ignorance.
Open your eyes,
all that seems to be beneficial
to your rotting human existence,
will drain you of your will to live.
Your body, like the discards of a dull record
on a lifeless day,
will be disposed of
like the waste of flesh that it is.
You and ILingering through my dreams,More Like This
Grasping my hand,
in a gentle dance,
across the field of swaying flowers.
Holding you close,
embracing against the shine of the sun,
soothed by the touch of the wind.
And laying in the rain,
just you and I,
hoping to be yours till the end of time.
I close my eyes,
till the beating of the rain
WaitI have to take a second look,More Like This
delve into the past that has shaped the sufferings of my mind,
I stepped on the shards of the mirror,
my blood covers the floor.
I realize that I am barefoot, that I am not breathing.
Who is this?
A scar sits upon my chest, from where I attempted
to pierce my lungs,
but the few tears I cried
were those of happiness.
What have I become?
I am confused,
all the papers have been scattered, and I search
for the one that bears the truth,
as soon as the building is set to flames.
I inhale the smoke.
Too familiar of a feeling.
I Love YouI love you more than anythingMore Like This
more than anyone,
I'll miss you more than I miss anything,
even the bliss that I had lost
I want you more than my hidden desires
that tug at my aching heart
But it seems that you have ran off,
out of my arms,
and out of sight
And I'm sorry
for saying all the wrong words,
and being all the wrong things.
I love you
so even if you don't come back,
my love will forever be for no one but you.
Je suis CharlieExpressing one's opinionMore Like This
has turned to be putting a target on one's head.
What has become of freedom of speech?
If for every disagreement we have
we'd use guns instead of words,
what'd be there left to live?
A community is a gathering of people:
different ideas, different beliefs but a same family.
If some of us are pushed
we will stand up together and continue to use
the right we all have not to stay silent:
We are not afraid.
Those who have left
showed the best model there is of freedom;
making them martyrs of freedom of speech
will encourage us more than ever to follow their steps
and not be afraid to express what we think.
Je suis Charlie
Exprimer son opinion
fais de nous aujourd'hui des cibles ambulantes.
Qu'a-t'on fait de la liberté d'expression?
Si chaque désaccord
devait se résoudre par les armes,
que nous resterait-il?
Une communauté est faite de gens rassemblés :
des idées différentes, des croyances diff
Bleedlet's walk on glass & shed our skin,More Like This
releasing blood until we're raw,
until bones scrape against the sand,
until we become nothing more than dust.
slit my wrists & feed me nothing but pomegranates;
perhaps i'll believe that i'm eve, dancing around the garden of eden,
wrapping my arms around your neck & whispering 'hello my liege';
choking on cigarette fumes & hollywood lies because 'that's just what people do'.
grab my knuckles painted green & purple with bruises while i read from my journal of pretty words-
deconstruct them into letters & give them personal meaning as i challenge you to be artistic;
'confusing' does not equal 'stardom', sweetheart; no matter how hard you try to explain.
though you did write 'no, no, no' with my name infused within the ink.
let's cage ourselves up in iron bars without food,
discovering how appetizing the flesh cascading upon our cheekbones can be;
let's find out how to shape our tibiae into knives & slice our hair
A Reason to LiveSometimes I look up at the ceilingMore Like This
And wonder if I stare at it for long enough it’ll mean something
I don’t really know anymore
Don’t feel like I got a reason to wake up in the morning
Don’t feel like I have a reason to live
Not like I had
Each day feels like rinse and repeat
Each as pointless of an affair as the last
Part of me just wants to run,
Run and not stop
And maybe I can find a reason to live
But, I look over and think,
Maybe a reason to live,
Is closer than I think
i found all my copper coins in the dishwasheri write ectoplasmic kissing scenes andMore Like This
substitute our names like a secret i am
the only one to know. i am standing at
the arcade penny-pushing but i have
run out of copper coins. out of all the
things i regret you are my favourite.
there's a mathematical formula here
somewhere that i am missing. i thought
i put it in the dishwasher but there's
nothing there, i just wanted to take out
the recycling and give you something of
mine that you will have to give back as
surety that this won't be the last time.
the pavement is crawling along the
earth, i watch it moving very very very
slowly -- i want to go back and check
the dishwasher again, to see if that god
damn answer can be found in the sink
or swim. so much of this weight doesn't
even belong to me. this kitchen doesn't
even belong to me. i want to put the
weight in the dishwasher, whiz it clean.
i want everybody to stop calling me a
girl. i am selling things for free, buying
air and internet spaces. i think i will only
eat on thursdays,
like water, stagnanti am caught within a group of soft-shelled silences,More Like This
the street lights too busy burning my convenience
to colour my incarceration;
illuminated misconceptions fluster,
broken in every way.
i have become lost in places,
and i cannot taste your lily on my tongue any more.
that's what it's about,
i love-- no,
i miss the ways in which you have broken me,
the soft curdle of your flesh,
and i find myself bitter at the thought
of spending the future pondering their loss.
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21-12-2012I close my eyes,More Like This
I'm walking in the rain.
Clouds gather inside my head,
Tears are falling from the sky,
Onto my head.
I look up,
The sky above me is grey,
Like all hope had faded from life.
I hate to break it to you, but…
They don't appreciate life anymore,
Or their own.
And for that,
They steal, too.
They take someone's belongings,
Or their own.
The world is near it's end.
Everyone has his own troubles,
And only few really care about others.
Their own happiness,
That's all they care about these days.
That's all the world cares about.
When the world ends,
I will be glad everything's over.
Tell me you love meMore Like This
Tell me you love me,
Tell me you care.
Tell that it doesn't matter,
That there's blood in my hair.
Tell me you don't hate,
When my ribs show through my skin.
Tell me please that,
You think I look thin.
Tell me that you don't see,
All my cuts and scars.
That you'll never be,
Behind the wheel of that car.
Tell me you care,
That my voice doesn't annoy you.
Tell me now please,
That my screams hurt you.
Listen to me cry,
Don't just shut the door.
Where are you going dear?
I'm laying on the floor.
My bottle is opened,
The pills had spilled out.
My eyes roll back,
I lost the ability to shout.
I want to scream,
I want to scream.
But it's done,
Or so it seems.
Love me forever.
This feeling...More Like This
This feeling is mutual, or is it more terrifying than that?
The way you make me feel is so estranged, so confusing, so warm…
Your words pierce my heart
But when I see your face
I just want to be held in your arms
Tell me what to do, because in this place, I don't know where I am
All I know is that you're there
With all these broken pieces around me
I fade away
But won't hesitate to give you a piece that tells a message
Saying, "Even with this broken heart I'll still love you"
And as you take a piece
This heart is surrounded by darkness in which you invoked
But yet so warm when I hold your hand in this dark place
My love no matter how deep we go
I will still hold on to you
Until I finally reach you with your arms around me
Her...Her smile was like sunshine in the expanse of a pitch black universeMore Like This
Her eyes were lights from the heavens, showing it's brilliant, white blinding glory to the world
Her laughter was like bells, twinkling in the summer breeze
Her smell was like a toxin of dew in the early morning with a scent of chocolate
Her personality was as vast as the galaxy, reaching to the ends of the earth with the warmth of the sun
Her company was like the steady flow of a river, forever flowing, forever there
Her smile is nebulous in the expanse of the pitch black universe
Her eyes are darkened by the endless abyss of the Underworld
Her laughter is like silent rocks, unchangeable by the wind
Her smell is like a stench of rotten carcass and mold
Her personality is confined in the walls of her room, unwilling to appear behind that dark facade
Her company is like an airplane, forever taking off from one place to the next
What happened to the light of my world
My world has turned upside down as the things ar
CareNo one cares,More Like This
No one cries,
My broken body, dead inside
Break me up to fit together
Pieces of your life that shattered,
Use me and abuse me,
Hit me while I'm down,
Put together emptiness,
That is my mocking crown.
Lonely OneThe spiteful beastMore Like This
That once was caged
Is now unleashed
His anger freed
No longer tamed
The victims bleed
Thus rightly named
The lonely one
A darkness son
With frigid heart
And mighty wrath
He'll rip apart
All in his path
The Secret MessageI Sit here this morn', thoughts on my mind.More Like This
Love, said - not said, perhaps may be truly blind.
You met me one day, and a book you did send.
More impressed I became. Didn't want it to end.
'Than you could ever know', pfft! Man what a phrase.
You are too real to be quick phase.
Will this end happily, or sadly? Who knows.
'Ever' is a word on my smile and it shows!
Know that I do care's what matters to me.
Each time you're blue, just think about 'we'.
Minute by minute, I write in the dark.
Without thoughts of 'real life'. Just of this spark.
You, yes YOU, prolly grinning right now,
Is a picture I've mind-painted. I'll now take my bow!
An honest lil poem I write just so you know,
Eternity ends soon, so ironically slow.
Thank You My FriendsHome away from home.More Like This
Happy away from the sad.
My safe haven.
Thank you all for being you.
Thank you for protecting my smile.
Thank you for saving me from sadness.
Thank you for making me happy.
Wasting Time'WASTING TIME'More Like This
The last three days
Were spent in agonising daydreams
And the scent of fresh sheets
Waiting to be crumpled;
In wishes and exchanges
Lost in sideways comments
That we should regret but don't;
In salt and pepper whispers,
In Jaffa Cakes,
In out-of-fashion jokes
And in your arms.