time is a tornado.time is a tornadoMore Like This
that brings destruction and demolition
as all tornadoes do
they rip holes in brick walls
carefully sealed together
by the calloused hands of man
once it was a simple breeze
that breathed upon the sunshine rays
of my fresh apple childhood
before it was ridden with worms
that rotted its thick skin
slowly, slowly, the wind
and began to swirl
stealing away my held breath
so time is a tornado
and it's all
small enough?Am IMore Like This
Small enough to fit
inside your heart
like the pain you hold so near?
small enough to fit inside
that bottle you caress within five shaking
that can't stop what they've started.
Small enough to hide inside
the bruises and cuts that
you can't forget
and still think you deserve
Small enough to be the one you put into your back pocket
like the cents you ask to borrow to get on a one way train
and you don't want to go where it's taking you.
small enough to add to your collection
of people who didn't leave you
small enough to fit in the tear that falls when you
reach inside of your heart
to find the razor blade has taken the place
of the words you had but are now gone
because it's over
am I small enough
to not cause you more than a pin-prick of pain
when I make a mistake
because I may be small
but I love you
more than the space I don't want to
where I come fromMaybe tomorrowMore Like This
Maybe next month or someday
I will be able to stand up
and tell you where I come from.
Until then, my words are my
they are my bravery and courage
hope and life. They are me.
I would say
that I come from
two lungs buried far beneath musky dirt
two hands wrapping around faith and fear
two intestines; one big enough to devour
your every thought
and the other small enough to cradle
what you say is love.
But I realized that you cannot make
homes out of humans
and I should've known this was not acceptable.
I come from
two small windows peaking out over
an empty lot
two small eyes staring out at me
from the night
two small street lights to light my way HOME.
I come from a little white box
just big enough for my sister's eyes,
my mother's hands
her lovers smoke
and my words.
In this place
I am who I want to be
and I can tell you I am strong
lie and say I have my thoughts
because I come from a place of make-believe.
I come from a speck of l
Coolingmy plans broke apartMore Like This
like hard packed snow
beneath your heel
like soft charred wood
in a cooling flame
like fragile glass wings
in a child's fist
I broke apart
like ten thousand hearts
when I stopped loving you
Phantomsdriving to schoolMore Like This
still half in my dreams
the road seems way too bright
have you figured out yet?
I am nonsense
so my borders shake and veer
my heart almost beats a rhythm
to and from your door
why am I
to these phantoms
ComaI've fallen into an endless pit of fury and despair,More Like This
I stumbled- I'm sorry, do you hear me- I stumbled and fell in,
Head first, arms tightly tied behind my back,
wrists held together by the ropes of confusion and burning hatred
of all that I wished never to have done.
I am mindless, a slave to you all,
nothing but a spirit restlessly lurking in a world, unloved and alone,
had wished for nothing but another to walk along my path, the both of us, hand-in-hand,
as we watch the sun take its cache behind the world.
The breath of life slowly flows through my arms, then seeps out of my fingertips as I struggle
to take another breath, just for another glimpse of your flawless face.
Wishing to never have been born, never to have lived to see another day,
because all is lost, my world has been drained of color,
and is slowly collapsing underneath the weight of my own agony.
This suffering- I deserve,
all the more as you deserve your peace and love,
and though I'd do anything to release myself of
IllusionIridescent illusions fleeting across a crumbling path,More Like This
as trembling hands sew
what is left of
a lovely visage.
that send the world
falling to its knees,
as the backdrop of the universe
bends against the will
of its god,
and the fear-stricken children
of this realm are demolished
upon swimming in never-ending flows
of hate and ignorance.
Open your eyes,
all that seems to be beneficial
to your rotting human existence,
will drain you of your will to live.
Your body, like the discards of a dull record
on a lifeless day,
will be disposed of
like the waste of flesh that it is.
You and ILingering through my dreams,More Like This
Grasping my hand,
in a gentle dance,
across the field of swaying flowers.
Holding you close,
embracing against the shine of the sun,
soothed by the touch of the wind.
And laying in the rain,
just you and I,
hoping to be yours till the end of time.
I close my eyes,
till the beating of the rain
WaitI have to take a second look,More Like This
delve into the past that has shaped the sufferings of my mind,
I stepped on the shards of the mirror,
my blood covers the floor.
I realize that I am barefoot, that I am not breathing.
Who is this?
A scar sits upon my chest, from where I attempted
to pierce my lungs,
but the few tears I cried
were those of happiness.
What have I become?
I am confused,
all the papers have been scattered, and I search
for the one that bears the truth,
as soon as the building is set to flames.
I inhale the smoke.
Too familiar of a feeling.
FluffThe Diary of His Supreme and Condescending Majesty, King Stalwart Prettipaws, the One and OnlyMore Like This
The housemaid has just given birth to a second child. It really is too much. So much noise. So much commotion. The footman appears to have forgotten I exist. I had to give the order twice this morning before I was fed.
However. I am the King - I must be gracious about the situation. They may be just servants but it is their home too. It would be cruel of me to expect them to leave at this stressful time. Perhaps I will go and stay in another palace for a while. My kingdom is certainly large enough for me to be able to find something to my liking.
Of course, there have been all those skirmishes with local pretenders to my throne recently. But I think the situation is now in paw. (No-one can yell and fluff themself up like I can.) It has undeniably been stressful though. And now with the staff reproducing… All in all it might be a good idea to get away for
21-12-2012I close my eyes,More Like This
I'm walking in the rain.
Clouds gather inside my head,
Tears are falling from the sky,
Onto my head.
I look up,
The sky above me is grey,
Like all hope had faded from life.
I hate to break it to you, but…
They don't appreciate life anymore,
Or their own.
And for that,
They steal, too.
They take someone's belongings,
Or their own.
The world is near it's end.
Everyone has his own troubles,
And only few really care about others.
Their own happiness,
That's all they care about these days.
That's all the world cares about.
When the world ends,
I will be glad everything's over.
Tell me you love meMore Like This
Tell me you love me,
Tell me you care.
Tell that it doesn't matter,
That there's blood in my hair.
Tell me you don't hate,
When my ribs show through my skin.
Tell me please that,
You think I look thin.
Tell me that you don't see,
All my cuts and scars.
That you'll never be,
Behind the wheel of that car.
Tell me you care,
That my voice doesn't annoy you.
Tell me now please,
That my screams hurt you.
Listen to me cry,
Don't just shut the door.
Where are you going dear?
I'm laying on the floor.
My bottle is opened,
The pills had spilled out.
My eyes roll back,
I lost the ability to shout.
I want to scream,
I want to scream.
But it's done,
Or so it seems.
Love me forever.
This feeling...More Like This
This feeling is mutual, or is it more terrifying than that?
The way you make me feel is so estranged, so confusing, so warm…
Your words pierce my heart
But when I see your face
I just want to be held in your arms
Tell me what to do, because in this place, I don't know where I am
All I know is that you're there
With all these broken pieces around me
I fade away
But won't hesitate to give you a piece that tells a message
Saying, "Even with this broken heart I'll still love you"
And as you take a piece
This heart is surrounded by darkness in which you invoked
But yet so warm when I hold your hand in this dark place
My love no matter how deep we go
I will still hold on to you
Until I finally reach you with your arms around me
Her...Her smile was like sunshine in the expanse of a pitch black universeMore Like This
Her eyes were lights from the heavens, showing it's brilliant, white blinding glory to the world
Her laughter was like bells, twinkling in the summer breeze
Her smell was like a toxin of dew in the early morning with a scent of chocolate
Her personality was as vast as the galaxy, reaching to the ends of the earth with the warmth of the sun
Her company was like the steady flow of a river, forever flowing, forever there
Her smile is nebulous in the expanse of the pitch black universe
Her eyes are darkened by the endless abyss of the Underworld
Her laughter is like silent rocks, unchangeable by the wind
Her smell is like a stench of rotten carcass and mold
Her personality is confined in the walls of her room, unwilling to appear behind that dark facade
Her company is like an airplane, forever taking off from one place to the next
What happened to the light of my world
My world has turned upside down as the things ar
CareNo one cares,More Like This
No one cries,
My broken body, dead inside
Break me up to fit together
Pieces of your life that shattered,
Use me and abuse me,
Hit me while I'm down,
Put together emptiness,
That is my mocking crown.
IndecisionI want to slap youMore Like This
And I want to kiss you
I'm not sure which
Or whether I'm craving both
Then the question would be
In which order?
Hopefully one will be
The answer to your ignorance
Lonely OneThe spiteful beastMore Like This
That once was caged
Is now unleashed
His anger freed
No longer tamed
The victims bleed
Thus rightly named
The lonely one
A darkness son
With frigid heart
And mighty wrath
He'll rip apart
All in his path
The Secret MessageI Sit here this morn', thoughts on my mind.More Like This
Love, said - not said, perhaps may be truly blind.
You met me one day, and a book you did send.
More impressed I became. Didn't want it to end.
'Than you could ever know', pfft! Man what a phrase.
You are too real to be quick phase.
Will this end happily, or sadly? Who knows.
'Ever' is a word on my smile and it shows!
Know that I do care's what matters to me.
Each time you're blue, just think about 'we'.
Minute by minute, I write in the dark.
Without thoughts of 'real life'. Just of this spark.
You, yes YOU, prolly grinning right now,
Is a picture I've mind-painted. I'll now take my bow!
An honest lil poem I write just so you know,
Eternity ends soon, so ironically slow.
First Names I Like (D)Unisex Names:More Like This
First Names I Like (C)Unisex Names:More Like This
First Names I Like (B)Unisex Names:More Like This
I ChangedTrying to cover the tears, trying not to show my fears.More Like This
Why do I keep it all inside? My pain getting harder to hide.
I used to be cheery, it used to be real.
But now it's different, and they're making some big deal.
Saying "Why are you so sad?" and "You look depressed."
Can't you just leave me alone, let it rest?
So maybe I've changed...what's that got to do with you?
Just because I've changed? Well maybe you have too.
EscapeI'm trying to escape,More Like This
trying to get away,
trying to ignore what they do,
forget about what they say.
No move I ever make,
can ever be one right,
every simple thing I say,
always starts a fight.
I'm sorry I'm not perfect,
the way I'm supposed to be,
the thing is your slowly killing me,
why can't you see?
I'd really like to run away,
where someone would understand,
to someone who could see my pain,
and gently take my hand.
FlawedInsecurities.More Like This
Screaming at me,
clawing at every inch
of my body.
That little voice inside my head
sounding strangely like my own,
tearing me down,
from the inside.
Each hate-filled blow,
hits harder than the last.
Each self-inflicted cut,
hidden in shame,
nonexistent to the piercing eyes of others,
visible only in that lonely mirror reflection.
little dotted lines drawn
over every flawed bit of me.
Not pretty enough,
There is not a perfect inch
within my being.
Why can't I be beautiful?
Is It Love?If I hugged you,More Like This
would you never let go?
If I kissed you,
would you cherish that moment?
If I reached for your hand,
would you take mine gently?
If I needed a shoulder,
would you let me cry on yours?
If I needed to talk,
would you really listen?
If I needed to scream,
would you do it with me?
If I needed to go,
would you come with me?
If I fell for you,
would you catch me?
or just let me hit the pavement?