I Knew Youi'm sorry you had to goMore Like This
before anyone got to know you
before you could taste the air
and grow a full head of hair
it's just that she wasn't ready
and to her you were a mistake
but i want you to know that to me
you're someone beautiful i'll never see.
scarsthey caught my eye when he passed me a pile of papers.More Like This
i stared not too long & not too hard because i knew.
i asked are those scars? and he said yeah, did a little
laugh along with it. shame wouldn't let me look him in
the eye but i could see his eyes because see, i play
violin and that trains your peripheral vision. i said
sorry, don't know what for but i felt ashamed for point-
ing out flaws, he wasn't flaunting those scars but he
didn't do much to hide them either. i said sorry for not
stopping it, even though those razor blade lines adjacent
to the floor boards are old, they still hurt to look at
& they hurt to make. he said it's okay, don't worry about
it & my orchestral eyes spied him squinting in my direction
at my expression and i wanted to say what the fuck are you
looking for? you're not looking at me, you're looking inside.
i don't know your story, just that you write strong poetry.
you could break bones with your words but choose not to beca-
use somehow you know that i've
Digital CameraIn this digital screenMore Like This
Is a picture of your face
You look so pretty and happy
Forever and always
I click the arrow over
And the camera shows a slide
It’s you and me together
But also that other guy
He always made me angry
I never liked him around
I screamed and fought with you
Which only brought us down
The photo changes again
But this time only us
We’re holding hands together
In the park out by the bus
I remember that night clearly
And the picture changed once more
It was like it was yesterday
That I found you on the floor
I screamed out your name
And tried to find my phone
But my hands were shaking badly
And I felt completely alone
The picture on the screen
Was of your grave
There were flowers and were people
And the memories in my brain
How could I not see
That you were never truly smiling
And that all along it was
Your hurt that you were piling
Maybe it was that guy
Or maybe it was me
Or maybe it was your job;
Perhaps your family
I glare into the screen
As a recording c
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The wounds, now, are only sore
The pain, the pain I need
Fuels the desire for my greed
Use knives or use word
Don't let my torment go unheard
I deserve this and more
What else is a monster for?
Yes, I see myself like that
Red eyes and a soul that's black
I wonder if this is right;
To do what I do at night
With pins and scissors cutting
So at last tears; I am crying
This is what I always need
Salt water to grow the seed
That nestled in my heart does lie
The monster of my soul inside
When blood and tears do spill
I shall free it for my own will
I know I am no monster child
It is just my imagination's wild
But that does not mean I don't desire it
What is it again? Lost again to the pit
Another memory fades from sight
The futures only bright when you live at night
Why can't I remember my sin?
My memories are all so dim
Who am I? The question to me
Only to forget what the answer might be
I am fading away and yet tell no one
I don't want them to worry 'til I am done
he cheatedThe door bangs itself against the wall and rebounds,More Like This
no mercy from the girl pushing it open.
She walks briskly and a boy follows,
trying to catch up.
"Rea, I didn't mean for it to happen,"
"For what to happen, Ky? What do you mean by that?"
"That girl is MEANINGLESS. But you.."
This meaningless girl was worth
all the meaning in my life?"
Kyle stops running,
"Nothing and NO ONE is, Rea."
"I know that I made a mistake,
I love you."
"No you don't,"
The comment freezes the warm wind in place
and Rea stops walking,
then turns to face Kyle,
tears as heavy
as the sweat creased into the boy's face.
but Kyle walks up to her.
He notices how lovely she looks
when the breeze whips her short, brown fibers around.
She stares at her feet and whispers,
and you never did."