Jealous TearsWhy do I want to destroy everything with my own two hands?More Like This
I have a chance at a future with an amazing guy.
I had a great Christmas.
So why is it that I am jealous of suicides?
Why do I constantly have to fight off impulses to end everything?
I don't understand.
I scare myself sometimes,
because of how close I've come to following that path.
It would be so easy to just walk away.
Cut ties with everyone.
Run away in the middle of the night.
I could stab or slash my flesh,
and watch the rivers of blood.
If I have to be alone...
If I have no one to embrace when I feel this way...
I don't understand
I should be happy,
The fact that people care about me,
and I know I'm not worthless...
Shouldn't that fix everything?
Isn't it suppose to make life worth something?
I feel as if I could have the happiest day,
and then turn around and end everything.
I know I have issues.
I know this is messed up.
Why am I so jealous?
I'm holding back on my impulses.
I'm “Being Good
Blank Spaces"I can't love you. You were born from a strand of starlight. My soul was carved out of the millions of miles in-between each one. We'll never reach each other. I'm just a blank space."More Like This
"But my dear, we are both from the same night."