Bloody MaryI'm terrifed of my own selfMore Like This
but I'd never ever take help
no one notices that I'm something else
and all the evil feelings I felt
when you're mind is cut in two
one side devilish, otherside you
I don't know what to do anymore
all I see is flashes of blood on the floor
a mirror catching my eye
what I see must be a lie
its me but something different
built up on the hate I never listened
I stuffed down so very tight
so it only showed at night
I wore a mask like the best
smiled when I wanted to cut their neck
said nice things when I wanted to rip them apart
I got tired of it, so I gave up my heart.
deep inside me lies a monster
and she looks just like me
same hair, same face, same posture
same body but as evil as can be
Her eyes they're black and dark
evil grin, she has no heart
she whispers words into my ear
"They can't hurt you if you kill them dear."
She hates what I've become
and that I no longer feel numb
She remembers when I did as she said
and tries to get in my head
she wants everyo
Already DeadFuck it, I'm dead insideMore Like This
there isn't any need to lie when I know just why
no matter how hard I try I'll always watch myself die
when I look at myself straight in the eye I'm not who I used to be
Lost at least fifteen pounds but still fucking ugly
Yeah my eyes are red and pretty much dead
they show through to the fucked up things in my head
I shake like a addict, back hunched and skin pale
Crazy-eyed, they keep saying I'm gonna end up in jail
Maybe I should have rang their necks
like the thoughts and demons sugguest
Fuck sleep, I don't need rest
and I'm fucking happy in my mess
and my bloodstains on the sheets
are just bitter reminders of what will never be
and all those promises I could never keep
everytime I look in the mirror all I see is a freak
I don't know me anymore, but I know I was much worse
five fucking years ago I swore by now I'd be in a hearse
And theres a curse, written in each verse
if you look close enough It'd suck you in
cause these stoned rambles are more than words
LockA appearance like a strangerMore Like This
that has you feeling danger
Hunched back, narrowed eyes
with nothing inside, no surprise
Pure evil - but no pain
killed off the feelings, no more shame
I'm not a person but I look like one
some find it disturbing, I find it fun
to look at the bloody web of evil I've spun
to catch them all and eat each one.
Eyes bloodshot but not from the pot
it becomes a lot when it just won't stop
and it boils up over the top
until I feel like I'll pop
Headaches and cold shakes
going to sleep hoping to never wake
In dreams where I'm a freak and they're coming at me with stakes
They have familiar voices but no face
so I stay awake, and count each mistake
take them all down, and throw their bodies into the lake
for fucks sake, I think I'm losing my mind
But its already gone, I left it far behind
and the sick brain that replaced it wasn't even mine
and I seem to be getting worse with time
Thats why I keep this lock so tight
Always on edge, ready for a fight
closer to the ledg
I amI am broken and empty.More Like This
I wonder what the point of life is.
I hear the pounding of my heart telling me Im still alive.
I see the grim reaper behind me sharpening his scythe.
I want to stop hurting the people who love me.
I am broken and empty.
I pretend to be happy.
I feel like the time for death is here.
I touch the stone of my soon to be grave.
I worry someone will see the cracks of my breaking shell.
I cry because I miss my loved ones and long to be with them.
I am broken and empty.
I understand what its like to want to die.
I say no one will notice that Im gone.
I dream for the day all these painful tears go away.
I try to act happy so no one will see.
I hope it gets easier to hold on.
I am broken and empty.
My demonEventually my demon starts to call.More Like This
He begs me to pick him up, Caress him with my skin.
A part of me wants to listen.
Another part of me disgusted.
I don't want to listen.
"get out of my head" I scream.
But the demon doesn't listen.
He never listens just keeps begging.
It's to much I give in and run to him.
I push him into my skin.
One line of blood.
God it feels so good.
I can't stop.
I won't stop.
I need this.
I push him in again and again.
One cut becomes two and two becomes ten.
I set him down gently.
Then grab a rag to cover the bloody mess.
My demon is gone for now.
He's stopped begging me to do the one thing I hate but love so much at the same time.
Daggers In My Backthey all want to seeMore Like This
the death of me
the breath all leave
and the last heart beat
I smile at them
as they pretend
They're so innocent
like liars tend
I stand my ground, stare my eyes
They've all gathered around to watch my demise
already dead inside with a back full of knives'
pull them out one by one and end their lives!
All these voices wanna talk about is killing
and the choices I could make so willing
trying to rip open the wounds I'm healing
To cover up whatever the fuck I'm feeling
I know I may be a bit insane
just a bit fucked up in the brain
I feel pain but its all the same
I deserve it, I'm drowning in shame
And I guess I can't blame anyone else
I just wish they'd fucking leave me alone
i don't need help
To be perfectly honest
I hate it all
Every single thing
Thats why I build such a wall
Because if you get close
I know I'll hurt you too
because I'm honestly just a ghost
and I really don't love you
I'm a monster in my own ways
probably because of the demons that bother