I Am Your Clockwork DollLay me out on the table and open my eyes,
Peel back the skin and reveal my porcelain heart,
Like a clockwork doll, made in secret from the mountains,
A lock is encased in its center,
And the key was lost long ago
Given to a man of a name I've never known
You play music of the sweetest notes,
Stories of love and devoted trust
Love I don't deserve
Love I can only give away
What a truthful night it has been for this doll,
Every heart spoke its truth,
And she nearly cried from her shock
So much love and care,
From those she's never met never known
Her crystal blood flows freely now,
Warming up her ceramic skin,
Her glass lips shining,
Her bright eyes sparking,
You all have awoken me, once more.
I'm just the clockwork doll brought down from the mountains .
Basking in the unimaginable, unexpected love of your words.
Don't Let Me Fall / Just Hoping / In This DarknessIs it true?More Like This
Or is it exaggerated lies?
Can it be real?
Or it something misunderstood?
I just hope,
That if it's true you'll help explain,
Because here I am wondering at your name,
Just hoping that you changed.
Babe, I'm stuck so far deep within this darkness,
I can't see any light and I need to know the truth,
Please don't turn away,
I need you to prove to me what is real,
I just don't see a way,
Out of this terrible decay,
And every moment spent,
Of a love so deep,
So deep within this darkness I still hide,
Knowing that I'll never see the light…
And every hand reaching out to me,
Telling me theirs is reality,
Makes me want to scream and turn away,
Because I could never believe a word they say…
Babe, I'm stuck so deep within this darkness,
Just hoping that they're wrong,
Just hoping it was a misunderstanding,
And I'm not crazy for loving you…
Babe, I just wish that I could hold some proof within my hand,
Because your stories seem so wild,
So wondrous and to a child,
A Wild AnimalSlowly the angel stood,More Like This
Watching his wild lover shake,
Her mind tormented by two separate souls,
One wild, one tame,
Both to fight for their own name.
Chained to bedpost,
Clawed hands bound behind,
Her hair fell across her weary face,
Her eyes burning with fire found in cats alone.
Crouching near her panting form,
He brushed her hair from her face,
A small smile twists his lip,
And his eyes trace her shivering skin.
"What do you want from me?!" She whispers hatefully,
"What are you going to do? Destroy me like the others of my blood?
"I never knew you hunted my kind!" She spat at his feet,
Her teeth glaring in the bedroom light.
The angel reached for her jaw,
Gently cupping her face,
He looked into her eyes.
"I wish to tame you.
"And to love you.
"I wish for you to see the pain you are causing yourself,
"And I wish for you to listen."
Startled and scared,
Wary and untrusting,
Her heart pounded in her veins,
The thrum of their heartbeats combined in her ears.
For one mom
Love like Saphire LightningHidden trails and wooden pedestals,More Like This
Whispered secrets and shivering promises,
A finger brushing her hair from her face,
A voice deep and wonderful to the core.
Like the sun grinning through the mossy trees,
The crackling leaves surprising her senses,
The scent of lust heavy in their breath,
And the taste of true romance on their lips.
His hand on her waist,
He pulled her close...
Chuckling as she turned, arching her neck for her request,
Trailing kisses on her ivory tone,
Every pause evoking shivers in her desire,
His eyes like the warmest promise,
The color brightened and heightened,
His voice a waterfall of ebony crystal,
His touch like sapphire lightning.
In their secret circle, unbeknownst in the setting sun,
Unsatisfied sighs quivered on their tongues,
As they knew love like this,
Was more rare than any known.
Whisper a prayer for the spirits of celestials,
As star-crossed as they do become,
Hoping to one day be completely consumed,
In their burning love for the one carved b
How Dare The FoolSpitting hate burning my tongue,More Like This
Clenched fists believing in ghostly strength,
Nails biting pinked crescents into my palms,
The anger stirs and tenses,
She gathers her energy from behind my eyes,
Tinting everything red and hazy….
My head tilts forward,
My eyes singe any unfaithful soul in my sight,
And I feel my teeth grind,
My voice carrying hateful, malicious words of revenge, retorting and twisting every misdirected phrase,
Clawing the air with electrifying negativity…
How dare he,
How dare he,
How DARE he say such things to my kin, my family…
Taking short, unfulfilling breaths,
I raise my gaze to search the crowd of unconcerned idiocy,
And see the crown of my treasured human…
Somewhere beneath this crimson haze,
I hear the slow chant, "Kyubbi, Kyubbi, Kyubbi….I need...him…"
His name circles my mind uneasily,
And the voice of the fool draws back my insanity,
Instantly I have left, and she takes over again….
This anger overcomes me, my skin shaking and hurting,
Her frustration is so
A Therian Curse or BlessingWhen I'm near you,More Like This
And close my eyes,
I can feel my claws,
My phantom tail weighing on my spine,
The twitching ears perked,
The flattened ridge above a small nose,
I can imagine everything,
And it feels so weird and amazing and startling and perfect in the same second.
She may have called me a freak, but what I am is more than that.
I am not human, she cannot call me that much for my spirit.
I am feline trapped in a human masquerade,
My slitted irises burning under frosted glass,
And as I close my eyes,
And let you trace my jaw line,
Let you pull back my hair and chuckle,
I'm stuck between two worlds…
One is telling me it is better to shrug off this human skin and be my true self.
The other is telling me that I was meant to be yours in this way,
that I am stuck between two worlds to befriend you…to be here for you and you for me….
For if I was truly feline, I would not be able to speak to you.
I would not be able to laugh at your jokes,
Or play with you the way
Please....Remind Me...Falling through their split-laced curtain,More Like This
Their venom-gilded web,
I extend my hand towards their bitter cackling,
Trying to hold on to my existence .
They are my blood,
They are my family,
But every glance is two-faceted,
And every remark is double its original worth.
They will never accept me,
They will never understand,
And the metallic sharpness,
Creates acid from their lips,
And the stinging denial,
Gives birth to underlying hatred.
I dance between both worlds known to me,
But I'd prefer to be in only one.
I lie through my teeth daily,
I put on a show and pretend,
And I constantly remind myself I am stronger,
I will survive their sickening trials .
If I know that I am stronger,
That I can do this until I am free,
Then why do I find myself holding myself together at night,
Crying in the corner of a chilled shower tile,
Wondering why I never feel like I have a future,
Where they will accept me for what I am doing and have been doing
Thoughts of FlameWhen your lips touch mine,More Like This
A fire builds inside,
Forcing me, reminding me,
How much I need your touch.
You ignite my blood,
And scar my neck with tempting burns,
I fear if too much is revealed,
Your love will disintegrate my soul.
Please try to understand,
that you are what burns my thoughts at night,
You are mine, and everyday, I become so much closer to losing my name,
Sweet, tempting, smirking man, I crave your special touch.
Hold me closer, still,
With every thrum of your heart,
My flame grows brighter until,
I become fire itself.
Drifting MemoriesPulling covers over chilled shoulders,More Like This
Closing my eyes to the setting sun,
I feel my lips pinch in a small smile,
As I remember everything about you that makes my days special.
Every moment spent, every text sent,
I smile, knowing that you are mine,
And I sleep into dreams of holding your hand,
And kisses in courtyards,
Darkened rooms and bleachers,
Special memories take my hand,
And guide my heart to the reasons why I need you.
As long as I can dance the dance of both worlds,
Tread that fine line and remember my lies,
You'll be mine, and I'll be yours.
No PDANo PDA,More Like This
If only they knew what it is like to love someone forbidden...
We cannot love at home...
We cannot love at school...
Where are we to hide our affections?
The shadows I suppose,
will keep our secrets faster than that of spiteful teachers' lips...
If only they knew what it's like to need someone you cannot possess...
To have an unpredictable foundation of life,
Knowing, that if caught, everything would fall...
At least where they can see,
I am fighting for something of worth,
to love both worlds known to me...
At least where they can see.
DesperationYour spine is a secretMore Like This
my fingers can uncode.
Your vertebrae cracks open,
your secrets are exposed.
I suck out the tender marrow
and scrape flesh off the bone
hoping; if I absorb you
I will no longer feel alone.
Survival of the FittestHear me read itMore Like This
I am crack'd. Open to the pit
with the nub and root exposed.
I am silver pierced and punctured
with holes and protruding pieces
of rocked raw wounds rubbed open.
I am barely shattering my lungs
by inhaling the same air as you
even long after your departure.
With a bile-laced smile I pave
and fill in crack and crevices
I am more than disfigured limbs
and disillusioned heart muscle,
scraping a breath down my trachea.
More than the mess you have made.
I hold in my innards, and survive.
Take ThisTake this kiss upon your hand,More Like This
For the ones who starved themselves,
Because "ugly" was written all over their mirrors,
Because "fat" was the only thing in their way.
Take this hug around your shoulders,
For the ones who cried themselves to sleep,
Because, unlike everyone else,
Their pillows kept their secrets.
Take this wish for your success,
For the ones with wounds blanketing their wrists,
Because physical pain gave feeling,
And feeling was so hard to find.
Take this whisper in your ear,
For the ones who live through pain,
Through sorrow, through regret,
Through loneliness in crowded rooms,
Through nightmares and judgement and hatred...
Take these words, darling,
These words I say to you.
Stay strong. Never give up. Keep breathing.
Let's keep going,
For the ones who starved themselves,
For the ones who cried themselves to sleep,
For the ones with wounds blanketing their wrists,
For the ones who live through pain,
For the ones forced to survive...
And for the on
December 1000 Points GiveawayWho will win it this time ???More Like This
Maybe it's you .. Only if you follow the following rule:
1) Fave this journal
2) Become my watcher
3) Spread the word about it (Optional)
4) One of you will be selected randomly (Via a random number generator software)
5) Deadline will be on 15th of December 2013.
Goody good luck to all :iconcocoloveplz:
Check my free Xmas skins in here:
Ripe With JealousyIts kind of something that rears up inside me without warningMore Like This
It jumps up like an attacking dog and sends a ripple through me
Emanating from my rib cage like an explosion of some sort
And it throws my entire body off kilter
I don't know why I let it happen when it does
Because I should be so much older and more mature than this
I don't like the way it makes me act
But I can't seem to stop it from happening even if it is all I want
But why the hell do I think I have the right to feel that way
There is nothing tethering me to that person really
If they wanted to they could walk away
Leaving you to stay where you are forever watching them leave
And maybe that is why you allow that ripple of anxiety
That pull of paranoia at the back of your brain
That terrible feeling of jealousy as it rips into your soul
And leaves nothing left inside of you because all you had was envy
And sometimes you have these thoughts full of hatred
Like you want to paint them all red and set them on fire
Wayward ShipIts very cold and my chest hurtsMore Like This
I've been listening to this music all night
Remembering memories and past words
Just trying to breathe through each bite
There are so many things that have happened
I really miss just being a kid
I don't know when this will end
And I don't know the wrong I did
Here and there is the wreckage of another life
Somehow I helped break them against the bank
Its as if I held the very knife high
And just watched until their ships sank
And I wished so hard to join them
That I waded out into frozen waters to drown
I let the water in even as my tears began to brim
And I filled the sea with my pitiful sound
Because I was a lonely ship worth nothing
Wrecked on one too many islands
But still found no place for me
Even as I crawled onto the sand
But that is only a day dream
When I haven't the strength to sleep
Remembering my life is busting at the seems
And the music helps me ignore my heart when it gets weak
Downward DirectionYou don't know, you're disconnectedMore Like This
You can't see how I've been infected
You raise your head but you dont see
What the fuck is happening to me
Your head phones are pushed so far in
That you can't hear my heart rend
Your eyes are so distant when you look up
That it's almost as if they are actually shut
Its not all of your fault
Because I have hidden alot
Because when you see the truth in the light
All you can say is sorry or tell me it will be alright
But that is not what I want to hear anymore
Because you've said it all before
And I can't believe those words again
Because of how many times I've been broken
I know I say how much it hurts
I think and think these useless words
I tell you how much I cannot breathe
And reiterate all the things I see
But I don't want you to believe you're the reason I sink
The reason I try so hard not to blink
I want you to be just happy in the end
Even if I blow away with the wind
Structural DamageIts all the memories that make me sickMore Like This
The I don’t knows and I’m sorry's
All the apologies couldn’t atone for all the atrocities
How do you do it, keep moving forward?
Don’t you remember what happened in the end
Ah yes, how could I possibly forget
All the faces of those who would hurt me with love
Get that love out of here, stop waving it in my face
You rejected my gift, the one I thought you would love
I tried so hard yet you wouldn’t even open the door for me
Do I have to keep shoving my way inside?
Do I need to continue to be such a forceful person until you get it
I don’t know anymore, my life is just a spiraling lie
How can I even think about continuing
How can I begin to wonder how I would fair in the end
And yet I long for the end like a lost lover
But I hate the endings so very much
I don’t want to wrap my tongue around the syllables
Like a viper they strike and leave me tainted with poison
And then I see you again, so fair and beaut
In A Dark RoomHis eyes widened and filled with tearsMore Like This
Because this dark room held his greatest fears
It was cold and bleak
And he had no where to go when he felt this weak
The walls didn't talk to him
But the shadows filled his eyes to the brim
So they spilled over
And bled out all the worlds color
The stone walls he was surrounded by were cold
Cutting him off and making him fold
In on himself, hugging his arms around his skinny body
Because no one was there to hold him closely
He was stuck in this place that smelled of death
Whispering things under his breath
Making friends with the shadows on the dark walls
Waiting, just waiting to fall
Because this was the place of his greatest fears
The place where he shed all his bloody tears
The only place he made friends with nothing
The place of his death, and final resting
UntitledIf I can wake upMore Like This
And not even care
Then how is still loving you fair?
If I can forget them and how I feel
Then why do you still seem so real?
I SpyWhat do the fish seeMore Like This
At the bottom of the sea
When I float there
Without anymore air in me
What do the birds see
When I flee from the airplane
And fall a thousand stories
Because I've gone insane
What do the cats see
When my noose pulls taught
And the rope refuses to snap
Heavy with all the things I never forgot
What do the dogs see
When the air has gone thick
With the stench of death and rotting
That makes them all sick
What do the people see
With my blood on the ground
What do they do at a funeral
With a closed casket and broken sounds
What do the worms see
With my body in the ground
Six feet under and their teeth in rotten flesh
Falling off pound by pound
What do dead eyes see
Covered in blood, set in a bloodless body
Staring into the fires of hell
Gone cold, no longer lovely, always lonely
Now what do you see
With your eyes set so intently
Tell me if you can see my future
Tell me if you see what I see
No SatisfactionA stab to the heartMore Like This
Where'd that pain come from
A stab to the gut
All the air leaking from my lungs
I swear I didn't mean it
I didn't get any cruel satisfaction
I'm not trying to toy with anyone's heart
You are not just a distraction
Please don't think less of me
I already hate most of myself
Tell me what I can do or say
That will take back what I have dealt
I do not know myself
But I am trying to get everything sorted
I'm trying to play fair with hearts and minds
Without leaving all of us so tortured
Never WeI know I shouldn't be so happy in my positionMore Like This
Where you only want me and you made it your mission
I love leading you on and seeing you blind
You think you'll win me over by being kind
I make it difficult and play hard to get
You keep trying and think you'll have me yet
I have only one option that I may choose
And that one person has become my muse
You're the one that loves me with all of your heart
But I don't feel bad at all for tearing you apart
You say that you know I'm trying to be mean
You understand I'll rip you at the seams
And yet you still hold on to your idea so odd
You'd rather avoid the carrot and stick with the rod.
Never BeI'm trying really hard to be happy for youMore Like This
But it's the opposite of what I want to do.
I want to scream and beg and make you see-
That all I wanted was for you to choose me.
I don't make it hard. At least I try not to-
And it's a pretty easy thing for you to do.
You've got two choices the way I see-
You can chose her, or you can chose me.
One of us loves you, with all of her heart
And she's felt this way from the very start.
Which you claimed to already know.
The other.. pretty much a no-go.
And yeah, I do wish it was me
But it's not. It won't. It'll never be.
LunarThe sun set beyond usMore Like This
saying goodbye in its path
taking the souls of the living
and never turning back
the flame in its heart
drops to a simple thimble
as the wings of the phoenix
become noble and simple
flames ignite the world
as the generators hum
the world is set ablaze
by the rising moon and sun
and the eclipse to come
is a rarity of wonder
as the ocean quakes
our hearts will plunder
and as the sun says goodbye
and the moon says hello
our souls will depart
into the dark abyss below
I. You. We.I amMore Like This
I am in love
I am in love with you
I am in love with you and only you
Are you in love
Are you in love with me
Are you in love with me and only me
We are in love
We are in love with each other
We are in love with only each other
I do love you
You do love me
We are in love
Therefore I am okay.
Beautiful NothingBeautiful nothing in my dreamsMore Like This
bright in darkness so it seems
I've lost the dark in which to hide
all the horrible evils have died
into the light I will follow
never again to feel hallow
I will be whole once again
be freed from all this pain
into beautiful nothing I will fall
until I feel nothing, nothing at all.
Our writing-TARDISWriting takes you through space and timeMore Like This
and is bigger on the inside:
It needs no more than 8 letters
To condense a whole UNIVERSE
Or contemplate ETERNITY.
Writers believe that they can drive
Their own writing where they have planned,
But in the end, the writing goes
Quite often in unforeseen lands,
Which is the beauty of it all.
Your writing transports you alone
With all your quirks and your two hearts
(The real one and the fictional),
But you'll soon want to share the fun,
The fears, the laughters and the cries,
With friends or strangers passing by—
And chances are your companion's
A clever girl with strong temper.
Fade To Black"you're weak"More Like This
leave me alone
"why continue to weep"
you dropped me like a stone
"you need to let go"
i can't stay this way
"you're just falling so slow"
i want to end this today
"you're just pathetic"
you don't need me in your life
"i guess that's genetic"
get away with your knife
"you know she'll hurt you"
i know that
"so what are you going to do"
fade to black
Black Sheepdreams went from sorrow to violentMore Like This
all those that hurt me remain silent
fear isn't a word i should use
for that my mind is too much abused
what i get from those dreams is joy
something i can't easily deploy
in this moment 2 things are what they give
hatred and dreams are something for i live
when reality only gives you pain
the dreams are those that clear your stains
so don't wake me from my sleep
in there, i won't be the black sheep
Twisted Up InsideWould you ever know the feeling,More Like This
Of being twisted, over and over.
Much like a string of high-tension cord;
Ready to snap at any moment.
You are barely controlling this swell of emotion.
Keeping it taut, lest it burst from the surface.
A plastic smile serves as your only defense;
Witty banter, to stave off a deeper inquiry.
You hide the signs of your sickness;
Quickly easing the pressure.
Whilst appearing to adjust the suit,
You move through the crowd like a fading wisp.
Rushed, sweating and just barely contained.
You duck into the shadows, so you might breathe again.
-Chen Yuan Wen, Broken World Series, 13th November 2013
Thankful contestThe new "thankful contest", starts today and ends on thanksgiving, Nov. 28. The folder is already up. If I can get more than 2o to enter, I will have a prize for the winner.More Like This
This is a easy contest, just write a poem about what your thankful for.
What I want to say to my Dad...You lied to me,More Like This
but I'm older now
and I'm not buying baby
demanding my response
don't bother breaking the door down
I've found my way out
and you'll never hurt me again...
Um hello?Yeah i have no idea what i am doing so first i would like to say hello, My name is shannon and my REAL friends are few but they are the best, they are Sabrina (RavensXGirl), Abbie (Bubzygum) and Chloe (Kaicero). I know i am not good at art so please no haters. If you want to see real art go to my friends websites ^_^. I am new to all this computer stuff and i am kinda new to this type of website. Hello again cuz no one really reads what i write so yeah..... i dont know how to put up pictures so it will take me awile... yeah....bye...More Like This
BulimiaI put my head up,looked at the mirror.More Like This
"Look at you",I said.
"Your eyes are red of crying,
Your face blushed of pain,
You have a scar on your hand,
Thanks to your teeth".
I really tried to be perfect,mama,
I really am trying.
Why do I keep hurting the ones I love?
And my heart is beating fast.
I think I am gonna fall.
Catch me,darling,don't disappoint me.
I need the smell of your skin on me now.
I love you.
My thoughts are lost in the paths of their perfection.
I am a stranger there.
And I was still looking at the mirror.
Talking to myself.
Staring at my own bulimic reflection.
"Look at you!You are beautiful even when you cry!".