Who or what is Anode Circus?You've probably been noticing my series of bizarre--More Like This
--sorry about that. That was, uh, weird. Well, anyways, you've probably been noticing my series of bizarre deviations that have been centered around the theme of--
--well, yeah, Anode Circus. I don't know what they mean. Nobody does. I've just been--
--sorry, I can't say what they mean, and I only know partially myself, but--
--why does that keep happening? Well, at any rate, what I can tell you is that whatever Anode Circus is, it will be arriving soon. Very, very--
Dear meDear me,More Like This
Well there are several me's
A future me, a present me and a past me
Let’s start with the past me
Dear Past me,
I know it’s been a long time since we have spoken
It seems like forever, don’t you agree?
I’d like you to know that I’m no longer soft spoken
No longer afraid of silly things
Like monsters and heights
Or water wings
But I’m still afraid of the ominous night
I’ve made more friends
Learned much more than you could ever think
I’ve lost even more pens
And developed that teenage stink
And don’t worry about the world ending every day
That silly test won’t ruin your life
Instead, try to be happy when everything’s gray
You don’t have to make everything strife
Don’t forget to be more confident
I learned that the hard way
Dispose of your malcontent
And I promise you’ll make another friend today
Dear Present Me,
I know I can be a bit loud
Or even a bit weird
Even if my head is stuck in those clou
DesperationNothing exhilarating ever occurs. In what way can I have hopes and dreams if all I become is just another minion in this communist world full of greed and jealousy? We always do the same thing every day, no changes in life, no nothing. In our non-philosophical world full of unreliable people there is no hope for change. No hope for anything. So why do I care? Why should I live out my life like everyone else, only to be apart of a plan to conquer the insufficient world. I don’t have an answer to that.More Like This
Maybe I’m just one of those people who wonders of another future.
Who am I kidding; no one else feels this way.
No one feels the terrible loneliness that has grasped itself onto my soul, sucking all hope in a frenzy of power.
In this day and age, that’s what everyone wants. Power. Our simple minds were made for a lust of strength, to feel as if we have more authority than everyone else. Sadly, I am like everyone else, with the exception of loneliness.
With power comes a g
Your Words Make Me SmileNot a friend but I am in love with the way you place your wordsMore Like This
as they slip out your sleek split-tipped tongue
The way you make me smile,
snake like ecstasy squeezing curled around my throat,
and I feel blessed for my way too easy laugh,
even as I choke on the breaths I’m trying not to forget
I need to take like medication, now forced like
an iv placing oxygen rich blood cells into my self-neglected veins,
like how I forget to feed myself.
I’m in love with the way you tie my head up,
as though it wasn’t a mess before,
the way you feed me your sadness
and my sadness never aches.
I’m overfed and loving everything about my loneliness
a high only it can achieve.
I don’t want to let go for a life of more.
A Ballad to Wasted LoveWhoever said that love was easy, wellMore Like This
I doubt their wisdom now, and yet I know
I hear her voice, clear like a shining bell
And see her face, and like heaven it glows
Forgive me, muse, when I say that I tire
Of trying hard to love, only to fail
But when I look into your eyes, the wind
Of life renews itself upon my sail
Oh love! The words spill out my stupid mouth
Not to be brash, and yet it's just insane
To love like this, I think it's going south
Who cares? And yet it causes me much pain
In fleeting light I remember your face
But remem'bring has brought only disgrace
set the sunyouMore Like This
poetry in motion
and i'll give you
rhythm and kisses
two lonely drifters
into the blinding sun
and we'll float
all the time on Sundays We are soundMore Like This
all the time
on Sundays. - “I remember you!” so we talked
till twelve o’clock,-- no grace, no
delivery; and very little to remember.
more for the magnetism than anything
Paris at night Three matches one by one struck in the nightMore Like This
The first to see your face in its entirety
The second to see your eyes
The last to see your mouth
And the darkness all around to remind me of all these
As I hold you in my arms
Alien ConceptI am the daughter of the Devils rageMore Like This
You are a disease, infecting my brain
Time moves on, but revenge doesn’t age
I pray for the day you burst into flames
I watch you silently, filling my boots
Become my hair, style, and the music taste
If I had a gun, you know that I’d shoot
Without hesitation, split second haste
If you think I’m bitter, I’m not – I’m fine
If I had a knife, I’d cut you in two
Straight down the middle, been walking the line
When looking back, I could look you straight through
You’ve warped my mind; I’ve been twisted, cut loose
Alien concept is me not being you
Just JealousI hope you can’t stand the sight of me.More Like This
I hope every photo makes you sick,
In the pit
Of your stomach.
I hope there’s a stab every time I’m mentioned.
Please say my name with a silent vengeance.
I pray that jealousy eats your insides,
A swift twist of the knife,
And when you’re troubled for life –
Please remember my smile.
Sugar, I won’t think twice when I dance on your grave
Life is for losers, living’s for the brave.
This is a cut you couldn’t quite make.
My ValentineYou're wonderful in every way,More Like This
and whether or not you believe,
I know for a fact,
that you're the perfect guy for me.
Your laughter is contagious,
your smile makes me grin.
When we play those sexy games,
I love it when you win.
There's your dopey sweetheart look,
and the way you turn me on.
The warmth of your embrace,
and my wonder where time's gone.
Days I wake up next to you
are days I smile right away.
With you I'm at a loss for words,
though there's so much I want to say.
I love how natural we are,
how I never feel I have to try.
I love our violent tickle fights,
and I love that you're my guy.
When I look into your eyes,
I feel safe and content.
And when you leave I love
how my bed lingers with your scent.
Let's cuddle on the couch,
watching all the movies on our list.
Let's try again to make milkshakes,
though we may need some assist.
I want to hold your hand
while we walk to class.
I'll let you poke your fun at me,
and I'll tease your lack of ass.
I love your goodnight texts,
i love you..As I lay here in bed, I think of you.More Like This
I think of how everyone else’s
relationships are falling apart at the
seams and here we are.
We’re still going strong.
You haven’t any clue what you mean to me.
Even though you think
you do, you will never know
quite the way my heart beats
when I see you or the way my
stomach gets butterflies
when you look into my eyes.
I love you so much baby and I’m glad
that it’s just you and I. You’re
the only one who has ever
meant this much to me.
You’re the only one that can.
I want us to be forever, and I know we
will make it through the good and
the bad, for I’ll love you
until the day I die.
Idiom of a cruxNothing wrongMore Like This
in broad daylight
But in the dark
Under flashing lamps
Blurred by smoke machines
Bottles of water
Half a glass of beer
Pills, powder and drinks
Dances and touching hands
What do you do
When wanting is wrong
Reading in between
The touches, the words
Breathing in ears, in hands
Jealous sayings, nothing more
Dirty looking eyes
A lore of exclusiveness
Shy, but at it
The thing we share
That we’ll never have
But in my mind
You want to see me
With my skin only
I want to see you want it
Make your head spin
Afraid to try
Can we melt down time
Freeze the world
In sweet sultry of longing
After years of turning and watching
But only thinking
Frozen CloudsSnowflakes fall as dropsMore Like This
Through fangs of ice blades,
With a stare that chops
Courage and its shades.
Tough, under the worst
Of all that's around;
Yet, in tears--could burst
When its dears lose sound.
A snow wolf fellow
For its cold bellow
Freezes who interfered,
To steal its precious gem
Which takes place inside,
A heart in condemn
Out of death, it's dried.
Tender CompassionIn her embrace, lies an odorMore Like This
Of love, care, and support
An engine that fills my dead soul
Only for a short time.
Since fate separated us both
Under a combustion
Caused by my actions and future
Which I did not expect.
Why, curiosity took over
My knowledge and senses
Although I was the one in charge
You still stretch your two arms,
For another chance to renew
All that got lost in burns
Such love is so spontaneous
Mother, you bring me life.
Something WickedIts coming silently, its running violently, its cunning and stunning its prey in disarray they're gunning wildly - desperately fleeing seeing the vicious trail its leaving. Its malicious scale, all hail, growing rapidly, its dastardly this catastrophe, the agony binding and blinding with fear all those here beside me - I can feel it inside me, the dark heart of dread sunken and frantically beating apart, last function, when all else are dead. Alchemy or blasphemy surely responsible for this reprehensible fallacy of sanity, this tragedy, casual faculty for pageantry in its actual natural apathy, fragile insanity, collateral brutality in totality the depravity seems too fantasy for reality.More Like This
Here it comes, its searching and finding everyone whose still hiding! The horrors' heightening, its frighting, its watching lightning revealing shadows on the ceiling it shows it knows its concealing. Slow deaths they're feeling each breath releasing, it wont rest, unceasing its best to keep dreaming
Four EverSugar coated, and devotedMore Like This
To the bright side of life.
Optimistic, and artistic
With a blessed soul and mind.
May God bless you, for breaking through
The darkest side of death.
Keep your smile clear, my precious dear
For it brightens the sky.
Wishing WellSlowly, the clock ticksMore Like This
As my mind and heart mix,
Into the beauty
Of these frozen moments.
Which are stored inside
Drawing a smile, so wide.
Over my dry lips
Forming a spark of flame.
Within each embrace
Around my heart, you place,
Pieces to complete
The puzzle of my own.
Only I can just wait
For you to reach the gate.
Perhaps I may change
But I pray to remain.
Unrequited LoveIt takes a falling tearMore Like This
To truly love a dear.
The more these droplets grow
The less care they did show.
For My Best Friend's Gift 2Your room is safely lockedMore Like This
Though we are quite distant,
Still, everyone was blocked
From stealing your home's key.
Which takes place in my heart
Away from any harm.
Even if you depart
I would await your call.
Fleeting MeditationAs I face the bright sheet of the skyMore Like This
With a chase attempt from my view,
Failure strikes away my eyes
No matter how hard I try.
Limited abilities, we were given
Tricking us into faulty assumptions,
The same way how you would trip and fall
When the sun and the lights set off.
Pull upward the curtains off these two balls
Widely, to the point your grasp is loose,
Release your focus, and observe
The difference--a peaceful embrace.
Let your eyes fall upon the unseen
Where no being can catch your sight,
Nor even understand why
Which is how I see my flaws.
Moving OnThe beauty of silence lies under noisesMore Like This
With melodies, that vary in voices,
It only depends on where your zero is
Except it did not work when I was his.
Was I blindfolded by his mask all along?
A pathetic guy known as Ben Headstrong,
Who made sure I cry every time I smile
Ignoring my feelings in every dial.
My love for him was beyond the seven skies
Which can be seen through my watery eyes.
His departure was too heavy to carry
Stating that someone else, he will marry.
It took a week for my tears to stop streaming
And a similar while to start dreaming,
About the freedom which I have been yearning
Inside, that never stopped burning.
Keep in mind that I am no longer your slave
Lord knows, though--you, I already forgave.
Let me live the life I have always deserved
I'm sure, for a darling, I am reserved.
Mirth in Solemn ReminiscenceThis dear heart knows no boundaries, my love -More Like This
Let us pray that the night will be our guide,
a solace I sought, granted, from above.
Let nothing stop us – spread your wings, my dove,
and follow the gentle wind breathing its stride;
this dear heart knows no boundaries, my love.
A loud tempest strikes! Wraps in a cold glove
a chance for ascension, spread far and wide:
A solace I sought, granted, from above.
Therein, you found, the mirth you had dreamt of;
a smile on your face – purity deified –
This dear heart knows no boundaries, my love.
Thus must I leave now; a sadness I shove
aside, for this void is where I reside
this dear heart knows no boundaries, my love.
I plant the rose on your grave, made thereof
from our dreams together, for you I cried:
“this dear heart knows no boundaries, my love -
a solace I sought, granted, from above.”
TogetherIf I were lost, who would find meMore Like This
But you, the radiant angel, you
And if I were to fall, who would catch me
But one who has fallen too
Because you hold a greater fate
Than me, a lowly dreamer, and yet
Your arms, outstretched, kind words, and love
Set my broken heart strait
And the beauty in your silhouette
Perhaps you were sent from heaven above
In better days you held my hand
In worse we were arm in arm
Together, always, we could stand
To the world's unyielding harms
But such is life, and don't despise
The ones who assailed us, no,
For they were the ones who loved us most
But they never saw into our eyes
Never knew what lay below
The irises, but lonely ghosts
And now your love goes wasted on
Some crude and distant man, he who
Knew not of your day except the dawn
Never saw your eyes of blue
If fate has bound us to the end
Then why are apart today?
But I know, no matter the weather
You'll always be my dearest friend
And no matter how I'm lead astray
Forever, always, we'll be together
OpenIf I opened my heart just like a book,More Like This
how would you see me? Would you even still look?
Would you push me away and pretend I'm not there?
Would the honest me be just too much to bear?
If I threw away caution, let it fly in the wind.
Told you my secrets let all of you in.
Would you still look at me kindly, even still care?
Would you hold my hand gently and still be there?
If I looked at you with anger and sadness or fear,
with you, knowing the reasons, still lend an ear?
If I was to cry and fall down on my face,
would you lie and say nicely it was done with some grace?
With all of my faults laid out to see,
could you accept them and love them honestly?
The price you would pay seeing me under the light,
all the imperfection's and scars no more out of sight.
If you knew me, all of me, open and whole,
would you still say you love me, with all of your soul?
Would you look at me, the same as you do,
when you think that you know me,
when I know that's not true.
We are the...Friendless andMore Like This
you saw and
only thought to
Random-ass Poem, shut the fuck upSilenceMore Like This
Surrounded by silence.
Its claws dig into my skin
make me shudder
make me crawl
make me beg for mercy.
It hurts more than anything.
I can't call you
Why can't I hear you?
They say you're there.
I see nothing.
Silence surrounds me, laughing as I
trying to fill the empty silence
trying to get it to leave me alone...
I'd rather die than listen to the silence any longer.
Human CostsCells we divide now divide our massesMore Like This
One becomes two, God help us.
Don't you dare question what
Science has deemed is good for us -
Things never were this complicated before.
The human costs of cloning, they claim,
Are morally repellant. Slogans yelled,
Placards raised against a vilified enemy
One we will never fully understand, nor
Hope to, they claim. Pitiful. Shameful.
Absorb our eyes, skin, the feel
Of rain, sensations, broken, absurd.
We comment, socially, societally, upon
The biology of our technology, but never
Do we consider what we ourselves say.
Lost upon our nameless sea of guilt,
Pentagrams repeated 'cross our skies, burned
Into our retinas, our genetic code;
Our hearts beat poisonous cells though
Our arteries, corroding our morals.
The Battle We FaceToday, there is a battle which we must inevitably face.More Like This
Unite and assemble, to fight the mighty foe!
Verily, we fight against form and thought.
We cannot desert our posts, we must be vigilant.
Xenophobia, Lies, and Hate are the foes, against whom we must fend.
Yes, it will be difficult, but if we endure,
Zion will rise, and all will be healed.
PromiseDidn't see the lightMore Like This
Always in the dark
Then I met you
You brought me up into the light
I wouldn't be able to do anything
Without you on my side
But then I left
You and I both went to the dark side
Back to pain and hurt
I said we would see each other
But that might not happen
I promised but now what?
I pomised too much
I saw your pain, you saw mine.
But I never thought
You really ment it
I wanted the best for you
You wanted the best for me
We never thought we would be stuck
Like this in a black hole
Never to come back.
But when we DO see each other
I will apologize for everything
We will be friends again
Nothing will go wrong, I promise.
I cry for you every night.
I cry because of you every morning.
I miss you and that will never change.
I cry when I see your face.
My pain won't stop till yours does.
I love you with all my heart.
That is a fact.
I still sit here thinking of you.
That will never change in my life.
The only thing I have to do
Is look for you
Grope around and finally see
Now, dear children, pay attentionNow, dear children, pay attention:More Like This
Monsters and Daemons rule the world!
Their names are Society and Conformity.
They slice your heart with their rules.
They drink your blood, your tears!
They love to kill your personality!
They inject poison in your veins
through their bitch: TeleVison!
Now, dear children, pay attention:
They want you to be polite!
They want you to be trendy!
They want you to be beautiful!
They want you to follow their (crazy) rules!
They want you to act normal!
But what normality is?
And what do you really want?
Now, dear children, pay attention:
I am the the Artist,
and I have a gift for you:
Use it to destroy your Monsters!
Use it to destroy your Daemons!
Use it to be yourselves!
Use it to be free!!!
SensesI see her beauty.More Like This
I hear her song.
I taste her food.
I smell her perfume.
I feel kissed.
I see her mask.
I hear her cries.
I taste her alcohol.
I smell her cigarettes.
I feel high.
I see his strength.
I hear his tales.
I taste his sweat.
I smell his musk.
I feel embraced.
I see his bravado.
RipHearken not to the wordsMore Like This
Of the beauteous, ungodly saint,
Or linger like a swimmer
In coagulating paint.
Sharpest nails scrape the night.
Perfect cuticles in your day dreams.
Has all been lost?
There are many things that may be found,
Like insects, wormlings
But that sound...
It infiltrates the sodden ground
To penetrate the coffin bound.
The saint sings on,
Drowning out Nirvana.
yet so ungodly.
Tinkling notes can fill my soul,
but won’t touch it
Have no illusions
- What you cannot attain
Never truly leaves.
Merry-Go-RoundIn a quiet park, there stands an old, rusted merry-go-round. Once, its happy song and beautiful horses attracted many a visitor, both young and old. Round and round, the horses would fly as the music set a gentle rhythm. Now, it sits, rusted, with the horses dulled by the light of the sun and the speaker long gone.More Like This
In the light of the setting sun comes a young couple, wandering away from the trail in the park in search of a quiet place. The young woman spots the broken down merry-go-round and wanders over to look, much to the young mans dismay. She walks around it once, before she sets her eyes on her favorite horse. A dinged up white horse, the only one on the whole ride, with an elaborate saddle design and decorated head that was elegantly shaped. The young woman reaches her hand out and gently runs it against the cool cheek of the plastic horse. The young man walks up to her and sees the small smile that plays along her lips. He picks her up and gently places her on the horse and wa
Right Nowbreath by breathMore Like This
heartbeat by heartbeat
i hold on to each and every one
record it as it goes
make it count
i don't want to waste a second of this moment
everything we have here is everything i want
all i ever need is you
right here with me
and never go away
stay for as long as we can
don't make this end any sooner than it has to
will never come again
never the way that they are right now
all i want is you
just this way
and i'm not going to let you go
until i've gotten everything i can
in this world of ours
this chaos we walk through
day by day
with blood and pain and tears
moment by moment
if we'll find our way to tomorrow's sunrise
i don't know if anything can be perfect
i don't know if that's possible
but if it is
even if it isn't
it's the only word that i can use
whatever it is right here
i feel so safe
right here in your arms
to a girl who learned the hard waydearest Cass,More Like This
should you ever
come across a man who
calls you a poem,
i know at the time,
it'll seem like the most
anyone has ever said to you,
but later in the day,
your own reflection
will call you
a bland piece of prose
and you'll cry till you're only weeping salt.
it will hurt enough to make
your wrist scars bleed again,
so run away before he
blames your reading addiction
for the hunch in your back.
my dearest Cass,
men will caress you while
ravaging you between your virgin legs;
just don't mistake it for love.
even storms don't rage
with thunder alone
and it is often just the rain
that floods entire homes.
you are not a concept.
men will tell you
that you can save them
by the truth in your
crude words and a lit
pressed between your cracked lips;
don't believe them.
they will never understand
that you smoke
to wake up in the morning
and sleep soundly the night before;
they will never understand
the things you do
A friendly message~I may be just a little boulderMore Like This
But if you cry then here's my shoulder
I will listen to you and hold you tight
And even do this in the darkest night
I'll be there whenever you need me
Just call and soon you will see me
And I don't need anything in return
Seeing you smile is everything I earn
So smile for me my dearest friend
Smile for all the time we will spend
Be a star and glitter in the sky
And now spread your wings and start to fly
Girl Leaving a Barthe wind picked paceMore Like This
she could feel the sound
of the music, very
he was telling her
about his sister
through her hair
saying, "You remind me,"
"You remind me."
it was too early
stir with a sudden
turn of crooked fingers
as a car passes,
on broken glass
last night she dreamed
I promiseI love you for the unique reason that you are you.More Like This
I don't think anyone else is you-er.
Please don't change.
People will point, laugh and hate us. They'll gossip, share lies and make up their minds over things they've heard instead of seen. They won't understand and they won't want to. They will hurt us and make it impossible to see the stillness after the catastrophe. They will not kill us, they can't kill their favorite form of entertainment, they'll burn us, setting us ablaze to watch us dance to our death. They and the rest of the world will turn on us because they failed and we, in the darkest corners of hatred, found something to live for, found someone to live for.
So, I love you. If, for you, love is enough, don't change, stay here and I promise the aching will end and forever will have passed.
Please, don't ever change, no matter what happens because in the end, it will be worth it.