Missing ThingsMore Like This
"We were definitely playing with them."
She says this to herself, or to me. I'm looking at the empty cage, all my enthusiasm for the search gone.
"Definitely." She says again. Sighs and puts her head in her hands.
"My hands even smell like gerbil." Her voice comes out muffled from between her fingers.
The cage is made of plastic. The top half clear, the bottom part hot pink. It is, or was, the home of Lisbeth - one of the more recent additions. It was my turn to pick a name so I went with a character from the book I was reading at the time.
Claire looks pained which suprises me. Lisbeth was her least favourite from the last litter, not that she'd admit that. Then I notice the empty pill packet in her hand.
"We're out." I thought so anyway, we've probably been out for a while. I have the beginnings of a headache which will only get worse, and my body feels exhausted although my mind is still whirring.
Perdidazine is our drug of choice at the moment. Cheap blue an
Depression is an OptionDepression is a choice, my dear,More Like This
And happiness the same
You choose this illness, don’t you?
What a tragic little game.
Depression is an option, love
Just get up out of bed
Take your tears and worries
And just smile now instead.
Depression is a choice, you see,
And so is suicide.
Just sit back, kick your feet up, dear
Enjoy this perfect ride.
Get over your own standards
Of what everyone should be.
Just smile for once, and maybe
You’ll be living perfectly.
Depression is an illness
That we feel so deep within.
Why would anybody choose
To write poetry on their skin?
Unless there lies a reason, dear,
I would not choose to die.
If depression was an option...
I’d choose to say goodbye.
National Coming Out Day 2015Today, October 11, 2015, marks not only National Coming Out Day, but both the end and beginning for something big in my life. Today, after three years of realization and months of preparation, I've come out to my mother. The decision wasn't an easy one. Growing up in a conservative town did a number on me and my opinions for a long time. I thought it was wrong and weird to be transgender. I thought that I was straight and that it was just the normal thing to be. I've since changed drastically, discovering my pansexual identity, and scooping up one of the most important people in my life to date, my girlfriend. I was scared for a long time, and I kept pushing the idea of coming out further and further back. I was too scared of rebuttal. I was scared of rejection. Today officially marked the end of that.More Like This
I wrote a note to my mother. Writing allows me to express what my nervous and slurred speech cannot. I handed it to her,
Head's UpI'm leaving to go on vacation in a couple days! I have absolutely no idea if I will have internet or not, but either way I probably won't be on it much. I'm leaving Thursday night and won't be back until Monday night (yay, I get to miss a day of school!). I also get to bring one of my best friends which is pretty cool :'DMore Like This
It's only Tuesday night right now though so I have a couple days
Also!! My CT Scan results came back, and the lump in my neck isn't cancerous!! Hooray!! It's just a swollen lymph node that won't go down. The doctor said they usually go down after a month, and it's uncommon (but not rare) for it to surpass that amount of time. Who knows when it'll go down, lol. Go away lump D:<
commissions - open!!EDIT: it might take me while to get to your commission, keep that in mindMore Like This
C O M M I S S I O N S
I will draw
canines, felines, dragons & humans
kintaurs, kiamaras, & waterdogs (ask me about other cs)
anthro and feral
blood & a fair amount of gore
I will not draw
sushi dogs & cinnadogs
nsfw & tons of gore
gears or robotics
chibi - 15 points
regular - 20 points
chibi - 30 points