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Dear Soul Mate,
If you really do exist, please make yourself known now. I've been through a few minor heartaches, and a single big one. Ever since, I'm slowly giving up hope that you're out there. In my mind, I keep imagining myself alone. I keep picturing my future self on her own in life.
I've been trying to keep down the loneliness. Every time I read or hear about a love, it's me looking on the outside of what I thought I had at one point. It turns out that everything I thought I knew was wrong. I wish I could turn back the clock, go to that self, and tell her to run. I feel I have wasted so much time on what I thought was real. Now, I'm alone, and I don't know how long I must wait alone once more. Once you're burned by the fire, you truly know just how cold it is out here.
I had to write this. I couldn't hold it back anymore. It's 4am, and the night is now beginning to affect my mood, naturally. I am now going to crawl into my bed, alone, like I've been doing every night si