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FaintI don't care how many times you sayMore Like This
Come back please stay
If the rest of the world ignores my cries
Why shouldn't I be like that with you?
I actually want to look the other way
Close my eyes and sleep
I can't stop caring
I can't stop the aches and pains
The sudden outburst of memory
I walk everyday
Trying to find my place
Never seeing what's in front of me
Oblivious to the world around me
I know I am fading again
Into me and it's been so long
I can feel myself slipping
I read so many things
About how the world works
How people think
But I've experienced way too much that needs to be said
WaterAnd the water pounds down over me as if it were the waves of the sea.More Like This
The overhead light is as blinding as the sun
Alone in the world because of the sound
The embrace of warmth created by the water
A mixture between suffocation and comforting
The lines between eupbhoria and oblivion blur
Wash my scars away and heal the cuts and bruies till I am pure once again.
The smell of myself all around me
I am completely and utterly alone
The music in my head comes alive
All I've seen and dreamed dont really matter
I have a vision in my head
A happy place
A pure place, where for once I belong
Shown through the haze of pounding hard water
My hair and skin feel fresh and clean
My body alive, my heart beating
I hold my breath and let the water flow
So graceful and ellegant
So smoth and clear
So pristine and immaculent
Water can never be tainted
If mixted with darker substances it always rises above
So fragile. so unloved
So needed and craved
SO much that people die in its name
A peaceful tempest
Blackened SoulA darker world is the one i see.More Like This
Where frowns are the norm,
Trying to battle our internal storm.
As are masks of pain.
Smiles are always twisted
While the people borderline on insane.
The lights in our hearts are dim
As we're all enveloped in sin.
The eyes are bloodshot and empty
From ruined lives once held.
Lonely is our song
For their hearts are all gone.
Or broken beyond repair
Instead filled with despair.
Skin is marred and hate hangs heavy in the air.
While regret and fury, confusion and depression
are certainly all things that we share.
Hopeless thoughts are always twirling
In our messed up heads that take to swirling.
And all that inspires fear
Already holds us near.
Staring down the barrel of a gun,
We know our lives are done.
A darker world is indeed the one i see.
Wont you come and join it with me?
Letting GoIt was never about letting go. I could have easily walked away if I wanted to. It was giving myself up - everything I had. Especially my heart, and entrusting it to someone hoping that they'd take good care of it. But having that same sort of trust thrown away like it held no significant value felt more painful than having someone reject you right from the very beginning. It's hard because they made you feel what having someone love you was like. What having someone that accepted you for who you are was like, and to have all of that taken away was not something you can just understand within a blink of an eye. You craved it. You yearned for it. And you never really fully understand how they can walk away first before you do.More Like This
Love of a WerewolfAliveMore Like This
I could tell you the worst days of my life. But it wasn't just a day or a week. It was my whole teenage life. Not a damn thing of happiness. Crap, I can't remember a thing that brought me happiness. Parents that don't give a shit is what I just needed, or a brother that is worst, Keith was his name. I had done everything for that little brat desires. What do I get? I get a sponge and a list to do later on. I wish life would be diverse sometimes.
Walking Keith or what I like to call Boo, to school. "I mean we have a car cant that B^t%h just take us to school. I freaking hate her." I mumbled. Thinking Boo didn't attend to hear me, "what did you just say?" "None of your damn business. Now go already im going to be late for class." "When did you ever care about being there early?" Boo questioned in a grin, knowing I don't care. "Since . Since ugh stop questioning me?" I try my best to find an explanation, but failed.
Dropping Boo off I go to school. Missing my best friend Rose I
You make me happy.Well, first off, your adorable. Your laugh makes me happy. Simply seeing your smile makes me smile, and your eyes are so attractive. I find it difficult to pay attention to anyone else. But more importantly, you know how to brighten my day, no matter what. And the fact that you like me back warms my heart. Basically I just wanna wrap my arms around you and cuddle, and never let you go. You make me happy.More Like This
How badly do you want this?Would you be willing to give up everything just to get what you want? If the answer is yes, then by all means go for it. But I guarantee you, you're going to get hurt. No matter what it is you do you will get hurt. So tell me. Is it worth it? Even if you know you'll still get hurt in the end?More Like This
~Win Me Over-Chapter 3~~Three ~More Like This
First thing that happens, I'm breaking our promise, slowly and harshly hopefully I can stop myself. I didn't want to let Adam down though, even though I didn't know the guy, he seemed like a sweetheart. I just have to keep in my mind that I do have a boyfriend. His name is Alexander and we've been dating for 2 years now, and I made a promise, that we wouldn't let any other person get involved in our relationship. Hopefully, it will stay a promise and not change into a broken promise.
The night was restless; all I was thinking about was Adam. He asked me out on a date, or a lunch-get-away sort of thing, and I accepted and the tone in his voice just kept me from saying no. I had to say yes, but at the same time, the words my brother said to me made me feel guilty and forgetful. Yet again, I was also excited. That was mostly the reason I couldn't fall asleep, I was thinking on what I was going to wear, what was going to happen during and after lunch, what kind of
A SmileI'm waiting terrified for the last decision,More Like This
You gently touch the knife,
My heart is pounding, waiting for the lethal incision,
I almost see the blade shedding the liquid of life,
I hear myself choking with my own blood,
The sound of the knife rending my flesh - a deafening thud.
But your hand goes further; over the axe it leans,
Shining ruthless under your fingers,
I'm about to die, by all means,
A sick suspense lingers,
I almost hear the sound of my breaking bones,
The gushing blood, the moans,
But no; your hand, well, further it goes.
"A gun? "
With it easily it will be done,
Infix the cold metal and let me bleed to death,
"Will it be fun? "
Just imagine the blood outflow until the last breath,
"Or a hammer? "
My body you could simply mash,
But you'll need to endure the blood splash,
That will stain your hands and face.
But instead that, your fingers, they retrace.
"The most lethal weapon isn't any of these",
You say stepping back, as my heart is starting to appease,
"It would be to
my intoxicated veinsBoredom is the poison to my mindMore Like This
A silent killer, impossible to find
A slight itch that drives me insane
I try to rid of this continuous pain.
It's like ecstasy, but without the thrill
It sure does the job, as it moves in for the kill.
It's an overdose that has worked its way through
A contagious disease that stalks you too.
(My body starts to feel a bit rough)
As my intoxicated veins bleed this stuff.
It's like a migraine within my brain
I scream out loud, but to my disdain;
The virus...just continues to spread
Too numb to feel, am I dead?
Nah, that's silly; it's still creeping through!
Like the boogeyman; but he's got you too.
I'm trapped within a killer embrace
A fear that I just cannot face.
And after all of this nonsense said;
Forever it stays, within my head.
It's youI love you;More Like This
why can't you see?
It's written all over my face;
am I so hard to read?
I hate this feeling,
of happiness and fear,
I want you all so near,
but my body keeps trembling.
I can't say it. I can't tell you.
I know you'd reject me, just look at you!
But I still dream to acomplish it,
To go up to you and tell you I love you.
Have you realized,
and you do it on purpose?
Cause I just can't seem to find
a logical explanation.
Maybe you're Cupid,
you play with people's hearts.
Or maybe you're Thanatos,
'cause you're killing me deep inside.
HeavyMy chest is heavy,More Like This
As if something huge,
Something as big as the universe,
Is resting on it.
I can barely breathe;
It weighs too much.
I can see my heartbeat
Through my skin.
The worst part is
I don't know why this is happening.
And that means
I don't know how to fix it.
WaitNever enoughMore Like This
It's never enough
No matter what words I say
No matter how many times I pray
The will never goes away
It stay, it stays
And then it plays, through my skin I writhe in pain
The days creep by
And then they're gone
No sense of time
My mind is gone
I try to make sense of it all
But eventually my ambitions fall
Down wards they spiral
And all I can do is smile
I watch my heart break
And all I can do is wait.
PurestSuch a delicate soul,More Like This
A sweet spirit she has,
And how it breaks my heart
When she is hurt,
For purity can be scarred
And I hope I can provide
What I can.
Beautiful eyes, yes, very much so,
And how they fill me with joy when I
Glance at them,
Quite magnificent indeed.
I can'tI can't breathe,More Like This
I can't think.
I can't cry,
I can't feel.
What have I become?
I can't sleep,
I can't dream.
I can't write,
I can't smile.
What has happened?
I can't sob,
I can't laugh.
I can't scream,
I can't live.
How did this happen?
I don't know anything.
I don't know how to get help,
I don't know how to get better.
I just want to sleep.
To dream myself away...
She's The Girl.She's the girl,More Like This
with a smile on her face
but with pain behind her eyes
Thoughts in a whirl,
she can't seem to erase
the troubles of her mind
She blames herself,
for all but what's her fault
for all that has been done.
She's filled the shelves,
with diaries of thoughts
though all have come from one.
Can't you tell,
for her it isn't just an ache
it's with her yearround
She isn't well,
the hurt she cannot shake
so, she's always on the ground.
Drown Me In YouDrown me in love, rush ore me in tides of passionMore Like This
Care not that I breathe in a struggle of unknown fashion
Hold me under the waves of your touch till you feel my trembling start
Quivering of my whole is but the deeper beating of my heart
Reacting to the touch of your lips on my owns softness
Desire is the air I need, let me take it from you, let me gulp it
Gulp in the flame of heat that is filling up my soul's lungs in their need
Oh don't stop now; you are running ore in your sensual caress of me
Shivers of joy, tremors of absolute want, bubble up in persistence
In this tidal rush of gifting you teach me deeper passion without resistance
As further you take me under with traces of your fingers touch
You find on me and then in me those unknown crevices crying out for so much
So much more, take me deeper to unknown depths, show me treading in total sensuality
Capture me in your arms then in your heart; let your kiss be a joining completely
Then take me to the surface to rise and ride the
I Think NotThere are times when I look at her,More Like This
and i see what we could be.
That lovely potential,
that I've always believed
to exist there.
I look at her and she smiles shyly,
sending soft tingles through my fingertips.
The adorable movements that she makes,
make me adore her even more.
When she sees me,
does her heart race
the way mine does
when I lay my eyes on her?
I think not.
Does she recognize the potential
the way that I do?
I think not.
Because there is another
set of eyes that she gazes into
There is another set of arms
that she wishes to be held safe in.
There are other fingers that she
enjoys intertwining with hers and
Those eyes are not mine.
Those arms are not mine.
Those fingers are not mine.
Will they ever be?
I think not.
EternityWe stood on the brink of ForeverMore Like This
Already so far in, We were drowning in it.
No way to know where You stopped,
Where I began,
Or where We touched Eternity.
Time moved backwards,
We spiraled out on the tail end of Perfection,
Like it was meant to be:
As wholly Ours.
We stood on the brink of Forever
Already so far in, it was drowning in Us.
No way to know where it stopped,
And where We began,
The singularity that defines Eternity.
SMILES XD :L1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.More Like This
"after Dad scrubbed Turtle with this special"
2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
Got stopped halfway by a window and curtain
3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
"Alvin and the Chipmunks:Chipwreaked!!"
4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
Comp whrriinggg, skype notification thing, clock ticking, people talking on youtube , brother moving his chair back and forth...probably talking to his girlfriend...neighbours yelling
7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
About 12am...went shopping with my mum.
8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
typing my science notes for my test
9. What are you wearing?
t-shirt + shorts
10. Did you dream last night?
11. When did you last laugh?
yesterday...when my friend came over xD
12. What is on th
Landmines and sexy slow jamsMore Like This
Landmines and SEXY slow jams
before or behind its time, existing in the present
it solemnly dances alone, the dance of death
hoarder of work unfinished, merely abandoned
unable to create whilst pleasing its audience
passion-stripped, with befuddled concentration
stripped of soul, left with phlegmatic impressions
unmoved with calm disregard for moral decency
no longer good or bad, knowing there only is
gripping the poison, with generous sips
creates an illusion of increased social ability
sensory synesthesia, juggles his taste and feel
a euphoria of stimulation, aided by incompetence
its moves first intricate, holding awareness
its moves now indolent, losing its steps
of the landmines that lay in wait for weight
a single one lies adjacent to the soles of his feet
time is the enemy, as is the sexy song's progression
one off beat slip and he will leave this cage forever
passing and existing only through the mouths of men
whispering amongst prodigally enslav