TrappedTrappedMore Like This
Have you ever felt trapped? That feeling when something is happening and you can't breathe.
You can't move because there is nothing you can do. It's frightening. It's frightening when people argue and fight. It's unbearable when it happens right in front of you and you don't try to stop it.
I have never liked this feeling. I hate being powerless. I know I'll always have this urge to make things right. I'll always have the habit of pretending to be okay when I not. I'll always have the issue of pushing people when they want to help. I always ask myself..why do you pretend? I pretend because I don't want pity, I don't need people to feel sorry for me.
I don't want people to look down at me.
Even if someone says I'd never do that...it still happens. But that's why I don't pity others. That's why I don't like it when people complain about how terrible their life is.
It makes me feel queezy..and ill. It makes me be ashamed of writing this.
I guess you can say I'm hasty and a bit nai
A Letter To My BodyDear my body,More Like This
Here I bestow an official apology for all the things I put you through.
The spirits, substances and so-called foods that you are forced to consume and digest against your will.
For every last hormone-changing pill.
For every time I slide a razor across your tender skin to cut back hair again and again.
For every time I deprive you of sleep when you are already so deprived of energy. And then the days when I refuse to get out of bed and so you miss the sunlight.
I apologise for wanting to hurt you when I'm in need of emotional rehabilitation.
For biting the skin on your fingers when I'm nervous.
For previously feeding you the carcasses of once living beings even when deep down I felt it was wrong to do so.
I'm sorry for putting you in such danger of hearing damage - through all the times I listen to my iPod with the music blaring loudly through my earphones, and the times I spend at the front rows of concerts, the speakers so powerful I can feel the vibrations running thro