I Forgive YouYesterday, I told a story,More Like This
Of the person that you used to be.
And he said that you disliked yourself,
And that’s why you have scolded me.
My anger has been twisting,
Growing, boundless, ever-hunting,
As you crawl back into my life,
Just to haunt me, spite me, taunt me.
But then I think of your hands,
And how they held my arms too tightly,
As you yelled into the void,
Of the people that you wished I was.
And how you used those same hands,
To wipe the tears from your eyelids,
When the silence hit you,
When you lashed out on yourself.
All the nights the bottle pressed to your lips,
Your days were spent with laughter, cold,
But your eyes always heralded a pain,
Your feet would linger far too long.
I wonder if then you knew,
If you planned to cut me then,
If you planned to be the ghost that
Fills me with dread in the night.
But then I see the little boy,
Lost, friendless, empty and cold,
His mother, distant, skin-deep love,
His face was sunken, trembling lips.
I wonder if you admit it
Alone in the DarkI'm sitting hereMore Like This
Waiting for someone
To call me home
I want them to notice
That I am not there
I need to know
That somebody cares
Out here in the dark
I'm in need of a friend
Someone that will be
With me till the end
My body is shivering
My fingers are numb
All I want is
For someone to come
I need to feel loved
My heart hurts right now
I need someone
To help me somehow
Life is so lonely
When friends seem so few
I want to be happy
But I don't know how to
I've been depressed for so long
And lonely and scared
To be anything else
I'm still unprepared
So please help me out
Dear friend of mine
If you don't help me now
We'll run out of time.
Being BraveSo you think you know meMore Like This
You think you've got me all figured out
But you don't know what it's like
To have all this insecurity and doubt.
So you want to know what's wrong
When tears are streaming down my face
You say you want to help me
But some scars you can't erase.
You plead for me to explain
As you squeeze my trembling hand
But I don't know what to say
That will make you understand.
These fears that haunt me daily
May seem small and dumb to you
But they control my mind
And there's nothing I can do.
You tell me to get over it
To step outside my cave
But you see, I cannot comprehend
This concept of being brave.
I'll LieI don't want to hurt youMore Like This
I hate making you cry
But there's only one way to prevent it
I'm going to have to lie
I'll lie about the loneliness
I'll lie about the pain
I'll lie about the hurt
I'll lie about the shame
I'll lie to protect you
I'll lie so you don't leave
I'll lie to keep you happy
I'll lie till you believe
It's not that I don't want your help
The fact is I really do
But that is not the point at all
The point is it will hurt you
I'm sorry it has to be this way
But I can't burden you again
'Cause if I do I'm scared
I'll lose you as a friend
CutThe fear in her eyes.More Like This
The pain in her heart.
She picked up the blade
And all she wondered was:
"Where do I start?"
Tears mixed with blood;
Metal with skin.
As she cut deeper
her soul was numb within.
Smiling at the escaping pain,
She cut deeper
Again and again.
What was once just a way to cope with life's friction
Became an overcoming addiction.