What I Should Have SaidI should have said "thank you"More Like This
Instead of "I'm sorry"
And if you asked why
Replied that it was for everything:
For putting up with me at my worst
And smiling with me at my best,
For trying to throw solid-gold praise
Into my black hole of self-hatred
When you knew that nothing would come of it,
For still caring even when I never did the same
At your moments of greatest weakness
And instead said that you should leave the
Immobilizing self-pity to me.
I should have grinned
"Take your time"
Instead of demanding results
And stopped tapping my foot anxiously.
And, when you said
"You know, I like you a lot",
"As a friend, right?"
(What if it hurt when your heart hit the ground?)
I should have stopped dreaming and hugged back,
Stopped stammering "sorry" and just breathed.