DreamsDo you have these dreams too?Dreams in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
A darkened room and only you
Walking towards you as you fade away
I make a grab for you as I scream "Stay!"
My grip weakens on your wrist as I look into your eyes
And see relfected back at me, all my own lies
You're faded now, you're almost gone
Leaving me to weep and mourn
Because, my dear, I still love you
And all I'm wondering- do you dream these dreams too?
You'll Never GuessYou can't fill every silence with sinister glaresYou'll Never Guess in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
You can't spend every second pretending you care
You can't spend your whole life feeding people lies
Because I can see the truth when I look into those eyes
You can't expect me to care when your world falls around your ears
You can't expect me to help, to fight away your fears
You can't expect me to answer, to listen to your cries
Because I can find no light when I look into those eyes
LoveLove is upLove in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Love is down
Love is going through
When you want to go round
"Love is never having to say you're sorry"
But you say it anyway
Love is all those secret smiles
When there's nothing more to say
Love is having scars on your feet
From wearing the shoes they bought you
Love is listening to 'I love you's
And knowing every word is true
Love is writing silly poems
Exactly like this
And love is not actually knowing
Exactly what love is
The FlowerHana:The Flower in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
That boy is looking at me again
Admiring my beauty, I guess
I must admit he has good taste
Because I simply am the best
With my tall and slender figure
And petals of yellow, so bright
And the way I sway and move around
I am quite a sight
All the other flowers
Are envious of poor me
But I can't help that I am better
Beauty rivals jealousy
He's still looking at me closely
And I wink as I sway in the breeze
It's never going any further
But I know he likes what he sees
There it is again
That flower keeps catching my eye
Something so beautiful...
It makes me want to cry
But as I watch it longer
I am filled with violent fury
This flower reminds me of Her
And all the lies She told me!
Look at its perfect petals
And that tall and slender stem
God, She always thought she was gorgeous
That She was better than them
I can't stand this any longer!
In this flower a painful memory remains trapped
My cheeks either ached from smiling
Or stung from where I was slapped
No, I can't just leave i
I Could Work For HallmarkI had to do this againI Could Work For Hallmark in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
This writing to you thing
Give it one more shot
Hey, I might get lucky this time
(And I'm not gonna make this rhyme)
((Besides that last line...))
I could tell you a million things
Describe you in a tacky explosion of clichés and over used expressions
But I won't
Because you're better than that
You deserve the truth
And the truth is...
I love you
Missing YouMissing is a strange thingMissing You in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
That I never thought applied to me
But now you've left, truly gone
I miss you with a fiery intensity
It burns and burns
It has no end
But when it comes down to it I know we're only friends
Missing is unfair
It creeps up sneakily behind me
And leaps to my side whenever you're not there
To hold my hand silently
I miss the warmth in your eyes
And the smile that plays on your lips
I miss fussing over your jumper, holding your hand and arguing over the colour of the sky
I just miss telling you things like this
There's a cold shiver this morning
Now I realise this is true
Please don't leave me now
Now I've fallen head over heels for you
Time To GoMemories start to fadeTime To Go in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
And soon it takes more than your name
To make me smile again
I know you don't love me
I can't deny it anymore
Have to stop playing these little games with myself
Stop saying you'll soon love me for sure
You're standing with that girl again
The one with lip gloss smudged all over her face
You move your hands to her waist
And keep them there.
To show her off without a care
Or a single thought
As to how I might feel
At least I'm not a floozy and what I feel is real
To be honest I smile to myself whenever you get hurt
Then think of ways to mend a broken heart
Some homebrewed remedy for a fresh start
You're taking up needed space in my heart
Sitting there, gathering dust
There should be nothing left for you,
No love or lust
Just pure obsession
And it's time to let go.
Repeating MyselfJust say itRepeating Myself in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Say you love her
Go on, admit it
Tell me what I already know
Whisper it before I go...
I don't think you realise just how easily you make me smile
And how easily my heart will shatter
Into a million pieces when it comes in contact with the ground
Where you dropped it from some unimaginable height that I built you up to be
Always too special for me to see
But what's saddest is that I'll gather up all the tiny pieces
And stick them back together with glue
And though it's a fairly dodgy job
I'll still use it to love you
I guess I ignored the 'Out of Order' sign
Hanging above your heart
I thought maybe I could call you mine
Though that was a terribly naive start
You're the drug that keeps me moving
You're running through my veins
It's a life full of emptiness, but a life all the same
What would you do if I stopped breathing
If my blood suddenly ran cold?
I can't imagine the look on your face
Your reaction when you're told
If I had the chance
I'd tell you with my very last breat
Hate, hate, hateI hate having to speak to youHate, hate, hate in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
But I hate when you ignore
I hate when you don't return my emails
And I hate when you don't call
I hate the way you avoid my eyes
When I'm trying to look into yours
And I hate what you say behind my back
And all the trouble that you cause
I hate the dot to dot acne just above your nose
And I hate your nearly-a-monobrow too
I hate the way you're so selfish
And how it always has to be about you
But mostly I hate that none of this is true
And the fact that I hate myself
For not being to hate you
Just Like The MoviesLove isn't like the moviesJust Like The Movies in Free Verse More Like This
If it was you would've realised I was
For you and we'd all be living
Happily Ever After
Love isn't like the movies
If it was you would've noticed all
And have fallen secretly
With me too, but be
To act on it
Love isn't like the movies
Not everyone has a
They can fall for
And not everyone is secretly
But hidden under
Glasses, braces or clothes
Love isn't like the movies
Lies and Deciet
Can be so easily forgiven overnight
Not all problems can be solved with an
"I Love You"
And sealed with a Promise and a
Perfect First Kiss
Love isn't like the movies
Isn't staring me right in the face
While I pursue someone who
Isn't Worth My Time
Love isn't like the movies
Because if it was you would read this
And chase me as I speed away in a
To tell me I was wrong
That you love me
And that love is
Just Like The Movies
You and IWhat's the point?You and I in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
As the branches go back and fort
As the leaves fall from the tree
As I see life going on
And then I see you an me.
And the past? It never ends
And our life? It has to change
And the memories? Stay on a trunk
And the kisses would have to fade
So know, what's the point?
It's just pointless.
Let's talk tonightDo you see my eyes?Let's talk tonight in Free Verse More Like This
They play back the memories of yesterday
Can you hear my fake smile?
Im trying to hide the moments we had.
Can you still feel the beat of my heart?
I am so scared because I know you read my mind.
So let's talk tonight ok?
Show me your last try.
You give me your hints
I'll give you a lie.
Closed Til JuneAnd she held her breath... and she smiled.Closed Til June in General Non-Fiction More Like This
She was sure he was going to come.Yes, she was. Was she?
The wind gently touched her face, she could feel every beat of her heart as time went away.
Trying to keep track of every second while seated on that bench, every movement, every noise, every smell.... trying to take photographs in her mind but this feeling didn't let her concentrate well.
As her thoughts escaped and this infinite number of qualms came to her head, as she kept doubting.. that's when she felt a tear coming down from her eyes.
But nothing was better than this agony.
Every second felt as an eternity, every step resounded in her head.. noises, people talking, yelling!; she could hear every time the clock ticked, she could listen time rushing and at that exact moment she knew her life was about to change.
A cold rush of blood invaded her entirely body –now she could trap the moment- and all the world stopped.
... she felt his warm hand on her shoulder, and she h
AlleinThe wind whispered somethingAllein in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
It sounded so remote, so silent
I could barely get
I think I didn't want to listen
But the wind just blew in
No one really called for his help
Help is what I need today
Something to make me understand
In despite of all I've dream
Silent whispers makes me think
"Listen you, naive"
"Get now what I mean?"
Mean wind dont ruin my life
Today you didn't make me fly
Naive I've been for trusting you
The way you played with me is just so cruel
Think of everything you said
Dream of things that haven't been
Been so lonely this past days
Life is hard and wind is fresh
Said leaves just listened to you
"Fly freely, never complain"
Cruel wind let me stay here
You don't want so see me happy
Happy and mournful
Days never change
Fresh breeze bring me good news
Here I'm waiting squealing friend
Complain and hurl, I don't care
You worth the waiting, worth the pain
Change my mind
Friend of mine
News are coming, wind blew out.
Meaning of My SilenceMeaning of My Silence in Free Verse More Like This
I did not tell you
that I wrote 'till three in the morning
for I couldn't find
my sleep last night
And I may not tell you
that I waited
'till midnight tonight
for the phone to ring
I tend to have
these monologue-like conversations
when I say all those words
a part of me wants you to hear
But I will tell you
I'm doing ok.
I wish I could say
I am curious
but I did not tell you
My pain is inmense
Do you really
need to hear the words
I'm not strong enough
to stand tall right now
under weight shame I cower
chained in apprehension
I will not tell you
that I'm writing past midnight
-again- but I'll try
to find some rest
Insomnia's PrisonerInsomnia's Prisoner in Free Verse More Like This
I'm finding it hard
to find my sleep
It's Wednesday already
around 1:53 am maybe...
I wonder if insomnia
has anything to do with you
the answer is to terribly obvious
that the question seems ludicrous
A deep hunger-
that yearning for peace
my longing to settle things down
cries out loud
they say, but how
do you find sadness joyful?
Sometimes I'm almost fighting...
fighting against...depression (?)
or the desire of wanting to give up
to go on with my life
and erase you
like an unfortunate mistake.
The present struggle is the one
that always seems impossible to get out of
I misunderstood you
and my mistakes are so crass...
If I only understood
that some go through life
with a somewhat
If only I learned
to shape some words
to people and what they prove to be
That "everything" at times
is to be zoomed out of
that "the whole world"
is sometimes a small town
If only I learned
to mentally remove
now and then the weight
of those all-encompassing expre
Wishing WellWishing Well in Free Verse More Like This
"I wish you well"
is all I have
the power to muster
I think of you perhaps
because I'm lonely
I remember you
because I might need
some reason for torture
for you it's been two weeks
it's been ten months
I like to think of it
as a revenge of life
on you for the way
you played with me
but I truly wish you well
and I would love
to see you saved.
those wounds were deep
skin, muscles, vein-deep
but I've recovered
those wounds no longer bleed
perhaps I am tough-skinned now
for sure I've become
because of your cruelty
I've gathered the courage
to be more honest with myself
to be bold enough to accept
being head over heels
being swept away
and having a stone back
turned on me
It's been about two years
for me for us
and I understand it
every day a little more.
I can't think of you
without a hint of melancholy
because I suffered so much
because your life is tragic
but I wish you well
what about those forty poems
of rain and night
and a hopeless moon
but I wish you well
Solar System SomethingsIve always thought the death of baby birds wasSolar System Somethings in Free Verse More Like This
sadder than finding the heart of a cats kill
feathers indicate one went down fighting
but the baby bird just went down
jumped too soon (jumped the gun and the nest)
As a child, I had to recognize that sometimes
people hurt people
because they love:
(he moved because he needed the job, but I still cried
the entire month he was gone filling elementary journals
with wheres daddy wheres daddy why did he go)
people hurt people
because they dont:
(I heard about a husband who threw his wife into a tree shredder
now I can only listen to the sounds of machinery at work and
the cries of trees rent asunder and think
what did his wife sound like?)
At a young age I learned that
old dogs, in fact, dont learn new tricks and
sometimes they die overnight like grandparents
We can easily mistake death for sleep, but
that Saturday morning my dog was dead dead dead
had finally given up when everything gave out
Late Night StudyingWhen we lie on the couch, a tangled mess of limbs and blankets, she teaches me calculus. With better lucidity than a Figure 8.3a text book illustration, she shows me how curves meet tangent lines, and where and, Why? and, Because. When she shifts, her shoulder emerges from the confines of her loose pajama top, and on her skin, I imagine the pattern of graph paper and decorative graphs of soft trigonometric functions.Late Night Studying in Philosophy & Perspectives More Like This
When my back presses against the sofa cushions, she teaches me limits, and when she pushes all other objects off the couch to allow more room, she offers me infinity and all its numeric implications.
Without meaning to, she delves into the harder subjects of calculus, inadvertently demonstrating the related rates of temperature [loss] and a blanket slipping off us to carpet the floor. To compensate, she nestles her head on my chest and teaches me continuity and the simplicity of filling gaps.
Before I join her in a n
BuryMEBuryME in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Can you see me, amongst the crowd?
Between those faces
Would you notice my depressing expression?
Detect my sad smile?
Perceive my silent stare?
Do you care about my torn heart?
There's something between us
A wall fixed in place
What more can I do?
Cause I've been replaced
You've chosen someone else
You've moved on anyway
Sometimes I wish I could run
Escape into a different world
If only someone locked me in a coffin
As if I was a carcass
Trapped me and there was no way out
I wouldn't care if someone buried me
Deep down under the earth
Forgotten without a trace
Just so my memories would be erased
Could someone just rip my heart out?
My heart can't take this heartbreak.
My mistakeMy mistake in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
What if I made a mistake?
A mistake that couldn't change now
I was so wrong to let you go
It breaks my heart in two
A mistake on giving you up
To say you weren't the one
A mistake cause to be honest I never really got over you
What if I made a mistake?
To say you were wasting your time
O, how I regret saying those foul words to you
What if I made a mistake?
A mistake to say I didn't love you anymore
To admit I can be without you
A mistake because I still love you.
I still love you.
compulsive liar.once i asked you your favouritecompulsive liar. in Free Verse More Like This
colour, and you said, "the brown
of your eyes," so i put in one green
contact and told everyone that i
came out of the womb as a factory
defect, half-priced, damaged goods.
sometimes i am from canada and
sometimes i am from england and
sometimes i am from spain.
i've carefully tempered my accents
and plotted out my stories with
yellow and purple coloured pencils
on index cards. my origin changes
like the seasons.
"why do you lie to everyone?" you
"why not?" i reply.
i wear nametags that read "alicia"
and "liana" and "samantha," because
i want to know how it feels to be
someone else for a day.
you make me a nametag with my
real name on it, and i just laugh.
(later i slip it beneath my mattress
and spend the night staring at the ceiling.
see, i've tried myself on one too many
times, and the fit is never right.)
you call me your little compulsive
liar, and i guess that is supposed
to be somewhat affectionate.
i spin before the mir
fifty-seven degrees.i.fifty-seven degrees. in Free Verse More Like This
it is summer and i want to write you poems
about how it is fifty-seven degrees and i am shaking.
it is summer and i want to crawl through your second-story
window and tell you about the butterfly i saw and named "cloudcityscandal,"
but you are always asleep and dreamless.
it is summer and whenever i sleep i only dream about you, so how is that fair.
it is summer and i don't go to church but spend all my time confessing.
it is summer and i don't discharge static before pumping gas.
it is summer and where is my paradise. where is my sanity.
where is my personal weight-loss consultant and complimentary iced beverage.
it is summer and i am already wishing it were spring.
when i was five i made a green and purple
friendship bracelet at summer camp.
i don't know where it is,
but sometimes it's all i want.
you and i hike up past the clouds until
the rain and cold can't touch us.
we have three bruised shins and two quiet
arguments between us, and we name them summer.
(you climb moun
you dont knowyou dont know in Free Verse More Like This
snap off fall's another fragment of my sanity, you dont know how much you mean to me being away from you tears at my emotion's.Not hearing from you scares me,how can i be close to you when you are so far away,will i see you again? will we be more than friend's?
You dont know how much i love you, as another day passes i can feel my heart start to die i need you in my arms,your smile against mine, i am bleeding away my sanity,bleeding away my heart,bleeding away my very being.
Give me a moment and i will give you my heart,give me a life time and i will give you my love. As i stand alone in this broken old tree with the crisp wind biteing at my skin all i can think about is you and the last time i heard your voice!
As i stand hear my jacket blowing around like the torn fragments of my heart, i watch the world pass by and think 'why am i so alone in this wasteland of emotion',i wish you could be here with me to make me feel whole!
As i tighten the rope around my neck from the highest branc
someone anyonesomeone anyone in Free Verse More Like This
bleed me dry these emotions make me cry inside i begin to die through this romance i feel numb to the heart bitter and dark!
bleed me dry i die to know im not with you i bleed to know it's true the fact i love you!
Burn black the fire in my heart bitter and dark through this emotional placebo we call romance!
I cry in my bed wishing i was dead friends begin to turn hate me and cut me with there word's!
My mind isnt clear this emotion is my only fear i avoid everyone so you dont see my blackend eye's and blooding wrist dripping with blood from my fist!
So pure this blood like the emotion i feel for thee my heart burns like and emotional tree dry and dieing!
Cut my wrist open my soul see my emotional and heartfelt devotion all i need is you for my heart to be true cure my sickness for you are my drug i need to stay alive!
AMERICANIZATIONThis is why we were waitingAMERICANIZATION in Free Verse More Like This
This is the ULTIMATE war!
Prepare for revenge and disaster
Who could ask for anything more?
We asked for this!
For what we are about to receive
Die for your country!
Just a kid, am I?If people are gonna treat me like a kidJust a kid, am I? in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I may as well start acting like one!
They'll be the ones dying in a hole
When I'm the one that's gone
They'll live to regret the heartache they brang
And the lies, deceit and pain
They'll soon be the ones cowering
From the wrath of my soul once again
But this time I'll show no mercy
I won't allow them to defeat me once more
I will not rest 'til everyone's dead
And the city's a heap on the floor!
DIE YOU BASTARDS DIE!
You mean nothing to me
Leave this place and bury yourselves
In a place where no one can see
Broken?Broken? in Free Verse More Like This
The silence is never silent enough
when it's just you and me.
I secretly pray for quiet,
so I can hear your heart beat,
hear your eyes blinking,
hear you falling in love...
When the darkness comes
and it's just you and me.
I watch the night cover your
chiseled jaw, your brown eyes
and your melting heart.
Our fingers entwined,
grasping so tightly -
I can feel your heart beat.
Leaning in - I try to hear it.
Don't let go.
Please hold my hand through
these paths of broken glass
that wind around my heart.
I pray that you can cope -
with cuts and bloodied legs,
just by looking into my eyes.
Ice QueenIce Queen in Free Verse More Like This
Her eyes are oceans
with waves that crash like a thunder
you'll never forget.
Her skin is snow
that melts whenever you're near,
though she'll never show.
Her lips are mountains
you'd never walk over
in fear of getting lost.
Her hair is wind
that brushes against your cheek
on the coldest day in summer.
The ice around her heart is still frozen,
and the mistrust in her eyes glows like blue fire.
Just when you're on the edge
of falling in the deepest kind of love -
she'll push you
and you'll drop from the greatest height,
because she'll never love you back.