Black and White Mindset?After the government shutdown post I made yesterday I started thinking about something... Is it at all possible that the reason why internet opinions and interactions are so blindly polarizing and extreme is because the American political system is so polarizing and extreme? Could the reason discourse online is so black and white be a result of being seeped in such black and white political mindsets for so long that we have difficulty breaking out of the mold?Black and White Mindset? in Personal More Like This
It was just a thought I had... what do you guys think?
Parody vs Pastiche and other Humorous ExamplesJust for fun I thought I'd do a rundown of the most common forms of humor, their definitions, and examples. This is not a complete list by any means, but they are a list of many forms of humor and literature discourse which often get confused of mixed up.Parody vs Pastiche and other Humorous Examples in Personal More Like This
An imitative work created to mock, comment on or trivialize an original work, its subject, author, style, or some other target, by means of satiric or ironic imitation.
Example: The movie "Airplane" is a parody of 1970's disaster movies. Many of Weird Al's music videos are parodies of other more famous music videos.
A work of visual art, literature, or music that imitates the style or character of the work of one or more other artists. Unlike parody, pastiche celebrates, rather than mocks, the work it imitates.
Example: The movie "Super 8" is a pastiche of 1980's adventure films, specifically imitating the style of Stephen Spielberg's early career,
tumblr Safety Followup4chan v tumblrtumblr Safety Followup in Personal More Like This
I mentioned it briefly yesterday, and thanks to some people filling in the blanks I didn’t have at the time I feel the need to update this with more information for everyone’s sake.
Apparently what happened is that a couple feminists on tumblr (most sources only mentioning on average 4 people) tried to start a “let’s take down 4chan” campaign. 4chan (the source of some of the lowliest, filthiest, scummiest people on the planet), didn’t like that. So they’ve retaliated with a “take down tumblr” campaign. Please bear in mind that there is no real evidence to support this and it might all just be 4chan stirring up shit themselves for the lulz.
4chan users created multiple accounts and then proceeded to spam the popular tumblr tags with excessive amounts of gore, porn, child pornography, and have been taking “selfie” images of underage tumblr users and photoshop them into porn. They've also
Objectification of MenAfter reading through the comments on my last journal about Tropes Vs Women in Gaming Part 2 I noticed a lot of people are angry we're even talking about sexism because (as they put it) "men are ALSO sexualized and objectified in gaming so women shouldn't complain that they are too."Objectification of Men in Personal More Like This
And while that's a nice thought that sounds logical at first... any causal observer to gaming and most media today will be able to recognize that the two sides are not equal enough to make that sort of comparison. Here's the difference as I see it: Men are objectified and sexualized, yes, but it's not done for women. It's done for men. The objectification of men in gaming and other media is a self image fantasy FOR men. In other words, both the objectification of men and women are done for the benefit of men.
Not only that but again a casual observer will note that the standards of "beauty" are not at all equal on both sides. Female heros are all designed to be attractive, sexy, thin, sensual, pure,
Tropes Vs Women in Video Games - Part 2Let's get this part out of the way first...Tropes Vs Women in Video Games - Part 2 in Personal More Like This
Yes, comments are disabled on her YouTube video. But honestly, why does everyone see this as a "problem?" I know it's common wisdom to assume that if you hide comments you're "scared" of receiving criticism or some other bullshit, but think beyond that please.
1) Comments enabled would just allow hate speech and actual sexism to persist because the internet has already determined that everyone hates Anita. No matter how thoughtful or constructive your criticisms might be, YouTube's 500 character limit isn't the best place to give it, plus it would be drowned out by the trolls and haters spewing negativity.
2) Her videos are also meant more as a teaching tool, not a vlog series, and as such are potentially going to be used in classrooms. Probably a good idea to keep nasty comments of homophobia, racism, sexism, etc off of the main source of the video. I think that's backed up beautifully by having her tell parents to preview the
Miyazaki vs OtakuIn case you haven’t heard this, renowned Japanese animation icon Hayao Miyazaki was quoted as saying that the reason the anime industry is suffering is because it’s overrun with “otaku.”Miyazaki vs Otaku in Personal More Like This
You can read the full article here: http://www.animenewsnetwork.com/interest/2014-01-30/miyazaki/the-problem-with-the-anime-industry-is-it-full-of-otaku
Naturally, such a high profile artist such as Miyazaki coming down hard on Otaku has offended a lot of people and a bit of backlash has sprung up because of it. I’d like to try and reassure some of you that it’s not as bad as it might sound, and here’s why (please keep in mind this is from an American perspective).
“Otaku” in Japan is (or was) an offensive word, usually embodying the worse traits of obsessive basement dwelling collection completing socially inept geeks. It gained widespread negative connotations after the 1989 “Otaku Murders” carried out by Tsutomu Miyazaki (which are to
Stuff From E3 That I -Personally- Find InterestingI’ll be honest. I haven’t really been “in” to gaming in quite some time. Chock it up to the fact that I don’t own ANY of the current gen consoles and that my job has taken up too much of my life to really dedicate much time to playing anything. Even still, I browsed the announcements at E3 this year and this is what I have to say about some of them.Stuff From E3 That I -Personally- Find Interesting in Personal More Like This
Wayforward’s success has allowed Shantae to finally get an ending to the 3 part storyline that spans decades. Starting from the Gameboy Color, going to NDS-ware, and now finally as a new game available both on the 3DS and Wii-U eShop. Wow... that’s kinda impressive for a small series that not many have heard about.
Open World Zelda
So... imagine Skyrim’s open worldness... mixed with Zelda.
Ok, I’m sold.
The unnamed Zelda title that will be releasing next year (pfft, yeah right...) is going to be open world. Meaning you can go and do and see t
Real Scientific Danger of My Artistic InfluenceOne of the many complaints lobbed at me is that I have enormous influence on a younger generation and therefor it is incumbent upon me to shape up and fly right so these young tikes get the best artistic advice possible. IE: People worried that my “bad art and methods” are corrupting the next generation of artists and therefor I should stop making art altogether to prevent this.Real Scientific Danger of My Artistic Influence in Personal More Like This
Setting aside the ignorant and harmful messages that this sends to young artists (such as the ignorant concept that all young artists only ever follow ONE artistic influence their entire life and aren’t influenced by ALL the art around them at all times), I decided to see how much credibility this “fear” actually had... using MATH.
So I have about 57,790 watchers on DA. I’m not counting other sites like Facebook or my website because there’s obviously some overlap, and some of the people who hate me will fill in that gap. So roughly 57,790 people on the planet watch me.
SMC, Duckula, and Minecraft Pocket, Mighty No 9Past couple journals have been a little heavy. Let’s look at some fun stuff!SMC, Duckula, and Minecraft Pocket, Mighty No 9 in Personal More Like This
Sailor Moon Crystal
While I like the more manga consistent character designs and animation... I just can’t help but fall back on the 90’s cartoon. It’s not just nostalgia talking either. The 90’s cartoon had much more personality and energy and conveyed emotions far better than the remake so far. Something tells me it’s gone take a whole ‘nother reboot before that mix of the old and the new finally gel into something truely awesome... kinda like the new Nickelodeon TMNT cartoon.
Don’t get me wrong, both the 90’s cartoon and the new version have its merits and you’re entirely free to enjoy whichever you like. Personally I just like the simpler more expressive designs of the 90’s, that’s all.
Speaking of 80’s, there’s going to be a new Danger Mouse cartoon soon. This announcemen
Objectification vs Sexuality?That Tropes vs Women in Gaming Part 2 video sure has brought on a lot of serious discussions hasn't it? I don't mean to keep wading deeper into all this, but one question begs another and this is something I'm really curious about: What's the difference between objectification... and just being sexy?Objectification vs Sexuality? in Personal More Like This
For me this is a really tough question to answer. Speaking as a heterosexual male it's a bit of a double standard. On the one hand, objectification of women and the constant sexualization of women in the majority of media around us is, I think, overwhelmingly bad for us as a society (and I've talked at great length about this subject in the past). But on the other hand there's absolutely nothing wrong with being attracted to women or finding them sexy. Speaking from a male perspective of course, this concept can be applied to how both men and women see things.
I think our tendency to over simplify things is why so many people don't take feminists seriously, because the
Comics Are ArtComic-Con Journey to the Heart of The New Summer VacationComics Are Art in DeviantART Announcements More Like This
Americans have a long summer vacation tradition of visiting the foreign capitals of the world and being sure to spend at least one day in each nation’s most iconic art museum. In Paris, we visit the Louvre. In Madrid, the Prado. In Rome, the Borghese. We feel far more comfortable in identifying the different peoples of our planet through examples of their greatest art works than we do about identifying ourselves as being represented by any one iconic “American” art museum or artist. Maybe the country is just too big for one musuem and so it has always fallen to our pop arts to carry the true visual narrative of what’s going on in the hearts and minds of the masses.
Comic-Con has become the new arts and culture go-to in domestic summer vacation destin
SurrealismWatch depthRADIUSSurrealism in Art Features More Like This
orld War I (1914-1918) was a human catastrophe that devastated Western civilization and mocked the hope inherent in “modernism”. The sheer volume of the war’s slaughter was beyond belief. The horror of it all destroyed the trust in science, medicine and technology as the golden gateway to a harmonious and peaceful future for humanity. All that was thought to be good had been twisted to the evil purpose of a global war. A global sense of hopefulness was replaced with a global sense of fear and loathing.
untitled 14by Peterio
Salvador Dali autosodomizedby neofotistou
Rain Spellby temporary-peace
The Monster in The MirrorWatch depthRADIUSThe Monster in The Mirror in Art Features More Like This
A Pop Culture Interpretation of The Supernatural
Every culture around the world created gods and other mythical beings by mixing and matching fanged and taloned animal parts—e.g., enormous eagle heads on lions’ bodies—human beings have always seemed to need to believe there are powerful and usually quite vengeful supernatural beings lurking just beyond the candlelight.
Supernatural beings come to serve several purposes:
They kept people on the lighted path of truth and goodness, fearful of exploring beyond;
They were a reminder of the punishment we deser
The Tree as Beautiful MachineThe Tree as Beautiful Machine in DeviantART Announcements More Like This
While searching deviantART for images for the Earth Day article, I became intrigued with how trees have become not only such a central focus of our current environmental concerns, but also how they play such a central role in our art, whether as background or actual subject matter. There are so many Enchanted Forests on deviantART that it made me wonder if trees, so mundane and taken for granted yet at the same time so vital to life on earth and so steeped in myth, have always been the revered subjects of the world’s artists.
GratitudeGratitude in DeviantART Announcements More Like This
November 21, 2012
I believe in deviantART. Which is to more accurately say I believe in the concept and the reality of the deviantART community.
When in contemplation of the eternal wellspring that is the deviantART project and how it has become the engine keeping my heart and mind on a full burn as I strive to be an upstanding member of the community as well as a helpful architect and eager participant in the conversation -- my thoughts inevitably settle upon my attempts to define my concept of Gratitude.
Marma Lisa by *HenrySchreiber
No matter your medium of choice as an artist, your artistic intentions or the mystic guiding force that has led you to this community, there is one thing all constituent members have in common:
A first step into this world consisted of a simple return to the practice of
Street Magician: The Photography of Chris Weeks→Street Magician: The Photography of Chris Weeks in DeviantART Announcements More Like This
The Street Photography of Chris Weeks
It was only after many long frustrating hours of trying to describe what’s so special about the photographs of cweeks...
That I finally realized I was trying to describe something that wasn’t there.
I finally realized that the magical something that sets cweeks’ works apart from others is that his camera disappears. There is no sense as you look at his photos of street scenes and other captures that you are looking through a lens, even the lens of a particularly talented photographer. There is a sense of simply walking through a town and seeing what you happen to see – without the
Beauty as a Force of Energyby techgnoticBeauty as a Force of Energy in Art Features More Like This
Louie Schwartzberg has made it his life’s mission to use his cinematic artistry to raise the alarm for public awareness of the dire situation we are facing in the possible collapse of our taken-for-granted natural resources. The “colony collapse disorder” currently decimating our honeybees was the prompt for Louie’s new movie, Wings of Life, which at it's essence, is a love story that feeds the earth.
Disney is rele
SuggestivismSuggestivismSuggestivism in DeviantART Announcements More Like This
Birth of a New Category or Beginning of the End of Categories?
:icontechgnotic: by techgnotic
Just when you thought there couldn’t possibly be another “ism” on the art world horizon, what with the growing accessibility of all
art technique and technology rendering all the “schools of art” equally available and doable and therefore making impossible the dominance
or even existence of any current art “movement” … comes “suggestivism,” the “ism” best summing up what art is in our lives today, defined
more by what it is not, rather than what it is.
"Suggestivist" art is not slave to any on
Secrets of Superman's UnderwearWatch depthRADIUSSecrets of Superman's Underwear in Art Features More Like This
ACTION COMICS No.40 coloredby JoeJusko
Bloody Crowns, Diaphanous GownsWatch depthRADIUSBloody Crowns, Diaphanous Gowns in Art Features More Like This
Game of Thrones spearheads resurgence in sword & sorcery fantasy art of Warrior Kings & Queens.
Game of Thronesby Asidpk
A very small man can cast a ver
Sometimes...I wish I could be more like this one girl I know,Sometimes... in Personal More Like This
she's crazy fun and spontaneous and always gets the guys tripping over their feet to get to her...
the only thing is, she uses them...that's the only thing I wouldn't do...
she uses them for money, for rides, for food, for attention....I only want to find people who mean alot to me, not get a whole lot who only lust for me...But I wonder what it's like for a girl who finds her boys so easily...she labels her boys by flavors and claimed tonight that she has a boyfriend all of a sudden....I just smile and shrug as she asked why I didn't have one yet...I told her that I was working on it but that I just like to wait and see who takes a second glance at me before I let them put their lips on my own.. I want a guy who gets me, who knows me....who wants me but not only in a lustful way....so I guess that's why I take my time....and I don't like to rush through all of the "flavors".... Because I don't want to be used....I want to be treasur
Dorks and Damzels 2New one ,Yay!!!Dorks and Damzels 2 in Personal More Like This
Guy♥: "When I get older, I'm going to name my child Pikachu. And I would completely homeschool him and brainwash him for a number of years before sending him off to highschool."
*everyone looks at him confused*
Me: "um...why may I ask?"
Guy♥: "So that when a teacher calls on him, he'll just go, PIKAAACHUUU!"
Bestfriend: "Look there's a cricket!"
Me: "Oh, where?!"
Guy♥: *gets up and looks at it and sharply turns around and comes back* "Ha, I was gonna get that, but that things walking like a
Me: *Putting sculpture together*
Guy♥: "Psst, Meg, don't mess up!"
Me: "...Hey, you know, it would be a shame if your sculpture just randomly combusted."
Guy♥: "Well, it would be a shame for your bookbag to magically burst into flames."
Bestfriend: "I told her (the school administrator) that I wasn't going to change out of it."
Me: "Really? You told her that?!
Finally :)Going to see Warm Bodies today ^_^Finally :) in Personal More Like This
It's going to be sweet
HAHAHA!!!!Monday is my last day as a senior at my highschool and then it's off to CSU!!!! Woot ^_^HAHAHA!!!! in Personal More Like This
Plus, that academic scholarship never looked more awesome, I'm so excited to graduate, and THAT'S in two weeks!!!!
I'm dancing. Yes. I. Am. Dancing. And I'm so freakin' happy I can't believe all I've accomplished this year as a senior, mind if I make a list, No? Good
I was president of our school's National Arts Honors Society,
I designed the yearbook cover this year,
I designed the completely metal, 12 foot sculpture outside our school,
Finished the mosaic inside our school,
Worked on the mural inside our school,
Won a TON of ribbons and awards at the fair on my sculptures,
Painted a canvas picture for our schools library,
painted decorations on the walls of our school,
Made hanging sculptures for the cafeteria of our school,
Got a job at an educational store,
And I'm graduating with an academic scholarship to an awesome college so I can become an awesome artist/art teacher in the future!!
My own thoughts...It seems like I can never truly believe anything...I have trust issues that run too deep to know. I guess it's one reason why I'm so go-with-the-flow on most things because I expect things to be what they don't seem to be. I expect the change, the lies, the misinformation. I've always expected it. And then there's the matter of believing in myself, my own thoughts...it's like I'm always questioning... "Is this what I'm supposed to feel? Is there more to feel? Am I feeling this for another reason? Am I fooling myself? Is this true? What if I'm wrong?" The questions buzz through my skull like hornets from a disturbed nest, worrying me and troubling me at the easiest and simplest of times.My own thoughts... in Personal More Like This
I may not seem like it, but I question everything. I question the reason behind everything, the motive, the idea, the plot, and ultimately, the hidden scheme. I hide my own tracks, but I look for evidence of others doing the same. I've just learned not to trust in anything, because what is though
Well...It's not the end of the world, so I guess I'm going Christmas shopping afterall, lol xDWell... in Personal More Like This
I'm just playin', I love Christmas and I love giving out presents. It's my favorite thing about winter <3
Things are good....Like a puzzle we tried in haste to solve, and have at last figured out completely....we all fit together, and every smile is greater than ever before...Everything is perfect,as we have found our places in each other...I don't think I've ever been in a happier mood to be honest. ^^Things are good.... in Personal More Like This
Good God...So according to my mom, even though I hug ALL of my friends when I see them, I'm not allowed to hug Guy♥ because he's black....Because heaven forbid the school get a bad idea about me because I'm hugging a black guy....Good God... in Personal More Like This
Please, I mean really. If anyone thinks bad of me for hugging black guys, they might as well think bad of me for hugging my girlfriends too.
Not everyone is focused on image like you Mom. I wish you would just open your eyes already and realize that love isn't wrong. and that it transcends skin color. even gender on occasions.
I swear. I get tired of her bullshit...excuse my language, but I really am. I haven't cried in weeks and just because I slip up and mention that I hug all my friends, she starts getting suspicious and has to make that racist joke.
Stuff that just makes me grit my teeth and want to pull my hair out in the shower....
I don't understand how I can hate and love her at the same time....I just wish she would accept me...and the fact tha
Score one for me ;)So yeah sure, Mom's suspicious of me now....seeing as how I changed the password to my laptop this morning before school.....probably shouldn't have done that....but still, I felt like I needed to. So it turns out that she had wanted to get on it while I was at school, and surprise surprise, she couldn't. So I gave her some crap about how I just didn't want my sister to get the password and passed it off as me being obsessive compulsive about MY PROPERTY that I earned with MY MONEY from my last job. I mean, seriously, can't I just own something? I know I'm not an adult yet, but dang. I just want something of my OWN. :/ Oh well....so yeah, I might not be getting on dA as much anymore, because I've got to be even more careful now....she just might threaten to search my laptop for "what I'm hiding"....she won't find anything though, I've gotten good at pretending I'm "normal" under her means.Score one for me ;) in Personal More Like This
Ok, so here's the deal: Tracing/copying/stealingBefore reading on please bear in mind that this journal is not written in anger. It's where I stand on these particular issues.Ok, so here's the deal: Tracing/copying/stealing in Personal More Like This
Please, try to have an open mind here and respect this journal as a statement, not a personal assault on someone/anyone.
Also please refrain from posting comments about how stupid, immature, rude, selfish, crazy, dramatic this kind of journal is.
Please stop stealing my characters, stop tracing my artwork, and stop copying my ideas and pawning them off as your own.
I realize I probably sound like an asshole but honestly I don't know how else to put it other than just flat out 'stop it'. I've tried to be nice and sugar coat it but that doesn't seem to work. Not ever watermarks and bold lettering do. But at least this way I can say I did say something about an
Forget I said anything.Forget I said anything. in Personal More Like This
You do not have to read on any further from this point and please just don't if all you're going to do is make a stink about having read it in a comment. If you read it and regret it, that's your problem. I did say you didn't have to. This won't really be anything bad but if reading things that are negative triggers you to be angry/upset then don't. I mean it, don't.
I should have just not said anything.
Sorry. I'm not apologizing for saying anything but rather for the fact I often forget that 'people on the internet don't care'. -- Funny thing that, almost seems a bit backward compared to what I've actually read and seen. Then again, who knows, maybe I'm reading it wrong?
From now on if you want to read anything I write, go to Tumblr.
No one pays attention there, so I'll post there or on a private blog where no one can read it.
If you have me on Skype we'll talk there.
I'm not leaving but seriously, as great
::Some words of advice::Maybe this is just for my own personal review later on down the line but I just thought to post this. This may jump around a bit and I apologize for that. I've written parts of this at different intervals so, heh, sorry if it's hard to follow completely. I'll edit it eventually.::Some words of advice:: in Personal More Like This
As an artist our aim is to create.
Our goal is to envision and then usually visually invent things from our own mind's eye and as such we often overlook the fact that not every mind thinks the same as our own.
Everyone has their own unique imagination with is fabricated and cultivated by our own live's unique experiences, events, and past. Now, while those things may be similar in nature at their core, no one event is the same for every person.
As such we have to realize that despite how much we want to, we cannot ever please everyone's tastes with our work.
It's not because there's persnickety people or that another artist is better than we are at our chosen
Can we just take a moment...To 'SQUEEEEEEEEE'?Can we just take a moment... in Personal More Like This
Okay, not gonna lieBut this new 'page layout' for Deviations is kind of hideous.Okay, not gonna lie in Personal More Like This
It just suddenly showed up out of nowhere and confused the hell out of me... I was like 'I can't fave stuff anymore?!'
The buttons are all over the place! O_O
They just changed the layout not that long ago!
I was just getting used to that layout and KABOOM, they go up and do it again!
And they were all sneaky about it too!
Just suddenly 'oh look, I think I'll look at this and favourite it' *clicks* 'WHAT THE F*CKING HELL? Where's the bloody button?'
I literally had two images open a second apart... one had the 'old' layout to it and then other the 'new' layout. It confused me to no end.
I thought it was a glitch or something so I kept refreshing it...
Why isn't this layout optional damnit! Stop confusing us old folks with all your hyped up doodads and shiny button rearrangements.
You just can do that to us... we get confused and upset and wind up crying in a
Frequently asked questions: (updated)What program(s) do you use for your artwork?Frequently asked questions: (updated) in Personal More Like This
-- I use Paint Tool SAI for almost everything and I use Photoshop CS5 for some minor edits or sometimes to do some backgrounds.
Where can I get Paint Tool SAI? (and) Is it a free program?
-- You can get SAI here -- http://www.systemax.jp/en/sai/ -- SAI is not a free program, it costs about $60-$70 (around €40 or £35 give or take depending on currency exchange rates).
(DO NOT get it from here even though it will give the program to you for free -- painttool -sai.en.softonic.com/ or sai .detstwo.com/ as both of these download sites are notorious for viruses and downloading SAI from these sites will also install a virus.)
** There IS a free program out there that will give you a similar experience to SAI (not the same, but similar) called Firealpaca and it can be found here -- http://firealpaca.com (Site update as the other one wasn't worki
dA thing... (fixed a few answers)EDIT: Fixed a few answers because I'm an idiot and misread them. Multitasking is great... when you can do it properly. Gdi.dA thing... (fixed a few answers) in Personal More Like This
1. How did you join dA?
A friend told me about it in highschool years ago when it was still new, but I didn't join until 2004. Mostly joined because 'why not?'...
2. What does your username have to do with you?
Well, it's pretty simple really... Ninja = I like ninjas... and Kato = a nickname I've somehow developed (which oddly enough is also my cat's name, haha!)
3. What is your current avatar of?
TRON from "Tron: Uprising".
4. How many watchers do you have, and how many do you watch?
Hmm... HOLY SHIT -- 26,252!! (WHAT!!?!) -- I watch 1,618 artists.
5. Do you have more than one account?
I have an old account that has been inactive for a few years and a side writing account Sterling-Kato which is also pretty inactive.
6. Name three of your favorite artists on dA.
YoWell... I'm back to find 2 notes in my notes about theft First one is about 'Howrse' or whatever -- http://ca.howrse.com/joueur/fiche/?id=152047 I have no idea how to even report on that site but I contacted them about it. Not sure how they even deal with theft on their site but eh, we'll see.Yo in Personal More Like This
Obviously I did not give permission to use my piece as a background OR to have it so poorly edited. PERSONAL USE means use for desktop backgrounds and phone backgrounds... not backgrounds on websites and stuff. Come on now...
The second one may be about a glitch in dA's system, I'm not sure... I noted the person in question so here's hoping they answer.
Anyway... I'm alive kinda. The day after I left I wound up getting sick with some wicked flu bug. Spent a couple days in bed feeling pretty awful. It was that 'come and go' kind of flu where one moment you feel okay and the next you feel like dying. Had a fever of 102-103 too =/ Kind of sucked but at least I got so
Read this [#2]Trigger warning: This journal will mention subject matter and words that could be considered a trigger for some people.Read this [#2] in Personal More Like This
Since my journal here 'Read This' I have gotten some comments, notes, and even a few emails mentioning how it helped save some people from committing suicide.
Now, while I am very grateful that my words can have such an impact and that you have chosen to continue on living life I feel it is only prudent to say that although I'd love to give you the help you so desperately need/want I am not a professional and although I DO care it would not be right for me to offer guidance and advice too far into the subject of suicide prevention because I do not know how to deal with it on such an impacting level.
If you are attempting and seriously thinking about suicide being your only hope and way out: seek out professional help!
Knowing someone cares about you out there and seeing your are not alone; u
Things have taken a turn...I've spent years of my life in a pretty huge pool of regret. Most of the time I was told I wasn't worth the dirt I walked on by the people who supposedly loved me.Things have taken a turn... in Personal More Like This
There was a lot of fear, longing, confusion, and honest to God disappointment in my youth and it led me to develop some kind of complex over the years.
I went out tonight with my mum to go shopping. For the most part we get along sometimes, mostly dependent on her moods. Some days I'm nothing to her and others... I'm a friend. I never really know what day will bring what kind of reception. Today was one of her good days I guess.
The journey started out as usual discussing random crap about her work and the car and then the rest of the time I'm sitting there listening to her hack her lungs out before she goes into another bit of conversation.
Something was different tonight though...
To understand what I'm about to just say you'd have to understand this woman I live with. As I mentioned some
CONTEST TIME! Art prizes this time! Be sure to check the comments if you have a question! it might already be answered!CONTEST TIME! Art prizes this time! in Personal More Like This
All entries will be added here http://griffsnuff.deviantart.com/favourites/51796505
now that my todolist is much smaller, I can finally offer art as prizes in a contest. Might add points later, but I have to earn up some first xD
You are to choose one of my active characters under to enter in my contest. You can enter as many times you want.
Deadline will be may 3rd
Have to be one of the characters over.
Be sure to mention what cathegory you enter.
You must include colors ( shading isnt important)
No backgrounds allowed.
The drawing needs to be transparant
Must upload the picture to deviantART
Animation is allowed.
OK PEOPLE Statement of the day"Art should be cheap. It's just a bunch of paint on a page." - Random kidOK PEOPLE Statement of the day in Personal More Like This
Icon contest! Many point prizes and some art EDITEdit 2: Added in some more prices and two new characters that you can draw.Icon contest! Many point prizes and some art EDIT in Personal More Like This
Edit: Slight update since some of the rules were not very clear! be sure to read again if you havent made an entry yet! Sorry!
I will also add contest entries at the top journal area in a custom widget! and they are also added to the favoruite folder!
IM SORRY IM OBSESSED , icons make me all happy xD....sorry for having another icon contest...
ANYWHO.. ILL jump right to it then!
Crisp pixels only, like I have in my own icon.
50x50 pixels only.
Fullbody icons only
Background needs to be transparant/seethrough
No backgrounds or elements floating around in the icon
This means, no text, no objects, no floating pixels around the character
if you do outline, I prefere white.
You can only choose from characters listed futher down.
You can enter as many times as you want.
One character per icon.
I will add all entries to a fol
ICON CONTEST EDITEdit: Have some more points now to give away, and seeing so many entries, im adding two new cathegories you can win in.ICON CONTEST EDIT in Personal More Like This
8D I love icons, I love them so much *squirlms* So why not do a icon contest for them icon/pixel artists out there!
No bases allowed sorry. It has to be entierly your work.
Crisp pixel lines have a higher chance of winning.
You can do with or without background, that is up to you.
Choose one of my animal characters for the contest http://griffsnuff.deviantart.com/gallery/24055808
(snuffen and jonston has their own folders)
You can enter as many times as you want.
I will judge four diffrent parts, animated and non animated, Headshots and group icons. ( All these still needs to be 50x50, so if you are doing a group icon, all characters needs to be inside that spot, or it will count as seperate icons.
Post your entries in this journal
OMG! LOOKOMFG SDGSDG!!! GO LOOK AT THESE CUTIEPIEs <333OMG! LOOK in Personal More Like This
made by the awesome and wonderfull PhuiJL
Characters:'D FFF I find it so awesome that many of you looked up the characters in my animations xD <33 I should write more about them now that I know more of their personalities haha <3Characters in Personal More Like This
If you are curious about my animal OC's you can find them here http://griffsnuff.deviantart.com/gallery/24055808
If you havent seen the animations yet, here they are aswell 8D <3
I made so many thanks to you all xD <3 You gave me motivation to work hard haha <3 My voice was all sauce after the first day/second day from singing so much ahha
Another entry in my blog!*u* Ill try to write about stuff! Give me suggestopns about what you would like me to write more about in the future! My head is a derp I dont know what people find intresting hehe :'DAnother entry in my blog! in Personal More Like This
And if theres anything more than my art you would like me to share on there ^^
Soon done with todolist!! and labradorite trade?8D eee I am so happy to soon be done. I have two contest prices and the voice acting contest results leftSoon done with todolist!! and labradorite trade? in Personal More Like This
( there are more, but the people have left/deactivated, so if you read this let me know, ill keep it on hold til you respond)
IF I have forgotten someone, let me know xD im a herp.
ANYWAAAY Before I open commissions after finishing what is left above. I wanted to see if anyone would be intrested in doing a special trade with me.
I am really inlove with labradorites (the rocks), and I really want to get some more xD I am obsessed.
SO I was curious if anyone wanted to trade labradorites for a drawing by me. My quality of art ofcourse depends on the quality of the labradorite for the trade. I will set up some ideas later on if people are intrested in this. And ofcourse Iwould have to see a picture of the one I am getting before I accept the trade, best held so I can see size.
let me know if this is something that you would be intrested in doing!
I would love either raw or tu
Minecraft paintingsI Just wanted to make a journal to thank everyone for the amazing feedback! And thanks for all the features and shares and thank you reddit!Minecraft paintings in Personal More Like This
Made an account on reddit to thank them aswell!
I just do not have time to thank every one So I wanted to just make this! I will be making more in the future for sure! If you ever come over a epic place in minecraft you can always take a screen shot and share it with me, maybe I will find more that I would love to draw! I wont promise anything, but who knows
Again thanks! I need to be working on my commission list now ^^Thanks for being patient with my saucey days and waiting for me xD <3
FAQ journalFrequently asked questionsFAQ journal in Personal More Like This
Ai am Noreeegan
I make typos
IF you have questions about how a program works/were to download/minecraft/anything I havent made, try to google it first instead of waiting for me to reply
Might give you an answer faster haha
TEXTURE I USE
[Bullet; Green]How do you get that texture on your art?
- Click for the tutorial
- Click for the texture
lovely texture by cgarofani
[Bullet; Green]What art program do you use?
I use photoshop Cs3
I use Flash Cs3
Home maker!!!So my pants fit nicely i just need to sew the bottom hem line and add a zipper and im finished that then all i have to do for my romano cosplay is the coat and tie and ill buy the shirt. Im so excited. But tomorrow i am going to make a rucksack bag my back pack is starting to frey at the bottom and i have tons of left over fabric. and i think i am going to incorprate hetalia some how. We'll see.Home maker!!! in Personal More Like This
Man i have been in such a sewing mode since i bought my sewing machine. Its nice.
OH MY GOD!!!!! I HAVE A BABY BROTHER !!!!!!!!!! HIS NAME IS GAGE!!!!!!!!OH MY GOD!!!!! in Personal More Like This
CanadianSo i am sitting here in my blue plaid shirt, wearing my grey plaid winter fur rimmed coat, eating a burger with shit tons of bacon and maple syrup on it while my desert is tim bits and my drink is hot chocolates from timmies.......i dont know what to do with myself.Canadian in Personal More Like This
......Ugh....i have not been doing so well lately. My sleeping pattern is so out of wack, diet is going sown the drawn, im sick, and recently my stomach has really been hurting. Ugh i feel like a run down piece of road kill.......i cant wait till my body forgets the school day pattern and become used to adult life......now that would be nice....... in Personal More Like This
About timeI am going to be writing an official story. It will not be a reader insert story but a legit character story. So i will be cancelling the crimson sentinel (or change its plot line) and use the main idea for Brandeis Lullaby. Sitka is going to also be a main character. Might take me awhile but i can do it.About time in Personal More Like This
Kinda grumpy.And so not looking forward to tonight.Kinda grumpy. in Personal More Like This
Ets start from the beginning. Around the beginning/middle of october i left a note for Melissa stating that i wanted remembrance day off. That not was seen by Melissa and she kept it by the schedule. When the new schedule came out i saw that victor, mike and a couple other people have tonight off yet im working. We also have a reservation tonight for 20-30 people.
Melissa and her schedule planning is really starting to get stupid. Like for example, last wing night. She only had 3 people on. Only fucking 3....and she was out doing a wedding convention and so that means that richard will be going with her, so that meand that if victor and them start getting ass raped, they have no means for help.
And it has been going like this for awhile now and she is majorly taking shit out on us. She "loves treating us baddly" (legit words from her mouth) and with garret around, everyone becomes ass holes. Even i have to admit, i have gotten mad before and have
Looks like im going to paris.Its official made my first payment todayLooks like im going to paris. in Personal More Like This
ExcitedI have tomorrow off so i should have my pants and military coat done by the end of the day for my romano outfit. Then all i have to do is buy a burgundy shirt, black tie.....and ill be complete. And if so, i am so dropping by my old highschool and visiting all the underlings i left behind. Im sure they will be impressed.Excited in Personal More Like This
Future life.So me and my friend are talking about how we would be in the future. Ye know things like how many kids we want, when we want them, awesome carriers, marriage, and lastly engagement rings.Future life. in Personal More Like This
Now i am pretty nerdy myself and .....i dont know about you but i would probably die if i was asked to marry someone and they gave me a triforce ring. Zelda for life biotches!!!
Witch house in real life!HelloWitch house in real life! in Personal More Like This
What you will read now is about supernatural/paranormal stuff, don't like? don't read
After have been playing Witch's house the RPG horror game by Fummy (Yes I actually manage to finish it xD) I have been interested if there are any witch houses in real life 8D So I tried to do some research and found one house that is very cool! It calls Exeton witch house and is somewhere in 'Murica! Here is the story about it taken from http://www.strangeusa.com/articles/59106/_The_Witch_House__Exton__PA
The Witch House, located off of Rt. 100 along Gordon Drive in Exton, got its name from the witches' graves that sit on the property. The graves lay next to each other face up and it is believed that the corpses are buried in standing position, in accordance to the witch's burial. There are four tombstones that sit on the property that consist of the Ferrell family, who consisted of a husband named Jessie, a wife named Mary Jane, and two children named Annie and Walter. It is reported in old
Bullying + my experiencesHelloBullying + my experiences in Personal More Like This
I wanted to take the time to write about bullying and what I have been through, and also how I dealed with it.
Unfortunately bullying is very common. You are not alone about being bullied. It happens to most of us.
People bully you because of how you look like, or that you have something that they don't have, maybe that you are good at something they're not. It can also be that they are jealous and just want to put you down to feel better about themselves.
I was being bullied around 3rd grade to 5th grade I think. Which was after my best friend switched class. There was this girl who used to call me mean words and also talk behind my back. There was one day when she turned all the girls in my class against me. I think why she was mean to me is that I am very sensitive, if someone call me something I will easily get upset. And I was young back then so I was almost about to cry. Of course I told my parents about it and they just told me to ignore her. I did that and tried not to
AWESOME NEWS FOR YOU GUYS!!I seriously don't know where to start x'DAWESOME NEWS FOR YOU GUYS!! in Personal More Like This
Alright so this morning I found a little spoiler of hetalia manga vol 6. It was translated into english by two hetalia fans
Here is the link! http://www.horror-vacui.net/vol6/eng/005.jpg
So if you might have noticed how fanbased the newest season is x'D Next year they will release the first nyotalia (I spelled it right, right?) episode. So here are the character that will appear I'm sure you will recognise who is whom
And finally I will soon update my Gakuen Hetalia series I haven't updated it for a long time and now when I am feeling inspired to do it. So I hope I will release the next part very soon
Right now I am browsing through the web to look for things that I want for christmas. I stumble up on the PSP game gakuen hetalia -_- I still debating about if I want it or not, it is in japanese after all. But I belive that you will somehow
Guys, Don't give up on your life!HelloGuys, Don't give up on your life! in Personal More Like This
First of all I want to give you guys an update of what is going on with fanfics. I am very happy that you like my latest Hetaliaxreader series so far Because of how popular it seems to be, I will try to make as many parts as I can. So each part might be a little short so it will make it easier for me to do more parts. Before I write the next part I need to to a little request that I got a few weeks ago. It is a Pirate!Spainxreader oneshot, since it is pirate theme which is my favourite I want to wait until I have the right motivation to start. I'll see if I can finnish it until next week at leats. And tomorrow my winter holiday will start which means no school work until 7th of January :'D (whoop!)
Alright there is one thing that I have stumble up on on many people's da pages about their life. Many of us and I think it is typical us teenage girls. That we feel lonely, depressed and other stuff like that which makes us unhappy and sort of feel lost in this world. What I b
Sverige, SVT WTF??Hello sorry kids this will only be in swedish, it's just me braging about some things that I am upset about and only want swedes opinionsSverige, SVT WTF?? in Personal More Like This
Så jag antar att ni har sett den första delfinalen i Melodifestivalen. Vet inte vad jag ska säga ärligt talat om hur SVT har lagt upp det...
Skäms att jag skrattade som jag gjorde, efter att ha läst andras kommentarer om vad de tyckte på melodifestivalens Facebook sida fick jag en tankeställare. Att använda Sveriges största underhållnings program till att göra narr av ett land måste vara det löjligaste ever! Visst jag vet att det är typiskt oss att skämta om oss och andra länder men det här var för mycket. Visst man kunde säga ett skämt om danskar en gång men inte att göra narr av vinnarlåten och också om de som jobbar med esc just nu. Och det där med att elda upp flöjtar?? Nej fy skäms Svt! >: (
Oh god why?Hello :3Oh god why? in Personal More Like This
:iconGodWhyplz:I don't know if it is only here but. In all the stores here people are already selling christmas things I mean it's still November for crying out loud! Why can't they start sell things at least the last week of November or something? And you can also buy christmas trees xD I know that people love christmas including myself but still x'D We haven't got any snow yet Dx It is really cold here so I hope the snow will arrive soon 8D I will tell you guys how we celebrate Christmas here in Sweden. But I will wait till December
Another thing that has been going on here, is that people are copying others people's fanfiction. Why are people doing that? And of course if you tell the person who have copied your stories, He/she wouldn't listen -_- this is just so tragic.
Do they have any ideas how hard it is for us to write? It takes a lot of time to write. For me it takes around an hour or so. It might have something to do with my dyslexia. Writing fanfiction is not
Melodifestivalen!Hellu :3Melodifestivalen! in Personal More Like This
Melodifestivalen which is Sweden's national selection for Eurovision song contest will start this saturday! I can't wait! It is a very famous Tv show where singers compete in I think 4 semi finals. 2 artist with most votes will be sent to the final and 2 other songs will be sent to the second chance which is before the final. That is the last chance for us to vote which 2 songs we want to send to the final ^^ I really like the concept where SVT let us pick the songs compare to most countries where their broadcasts just pick a random song xP The thing that I find adorable is that not only swedes watch this x3 people from most of all Europe watch and follow it too.
One singer that I and most of us are is Helena Paparizou She has competed in Eurovision two times representing Greece in 2001 and 2005 where she won with her awesome song "Number one" And now she will fight to represent Sweden She is actually half swedish ^^
And of course the winner of Melodifestivalen will r
*.*I have to tell you all about an anime that I found yesterday!! 8D*.* in Personal More Like This
The anime is called Uta no prince sama. It is about a girl called Nanami who attends to an academy where she one day want to become a composer. She meets 6 guys who have a dream to be Idols and they all falls in love with her (why does this reminds me of Hetaliaxreader fan fics? xD).
But on her first day the teacher announce that they are not allowed to date or anything like that. I think this has something to do with how Japan is irl. I've heard that celebrities are not allowed to be in a relationship.
Anyway I watched half of the first season the whole night x'D the series is hilarious and all the charatres are so cute and the music is really good! Especially the opening theme for season 1. I've finished season 2 today and I hope there will be a third one ^^
So I recommend you guys this one!
Here is the opening theme for season one! I freaking love it!!! :'D
Take care everyone and I see you later!
Question time!Tagged by one of my swedish friends :iconKokoMollin: so I will answer the questions in swedish and english. Just for fun 8)Question time! in Personal More Like This
1. Have you ever died of happiness? Nej (no)
2. Fav band/artist? Finns inget band som jag "följer" men jag tycker om några låtar från Blackmore's night och en massa random musik! (There is no band that I "follow" But I like some songs from Blackmore's night and many other random songs!)
3. Fav food? Lax!! sallad (Salmon and salad)
4. School or Homework? Måste man välja? -_- (Do I have to chose? -_-)
5. When did you get your first kiss? Räknas min hund? haha nej är för omogen ^^ (Does my dog counts? haha no I am too immature ^^)
6. Fav fan fiction ever? För många!! Dx (Too many!! Dx)
7. One has good looks but is evil, the other is ugly but hella nice. Who would you be friends with and why? den fula för han är snäll, sk
Questions!Tagged by :iconcallamoon14:Questions! in Personal More Like This
001. Real Name : Lovisa (you guys are allowed to call me that ^^)
002. Nickname[s]: Used to be called lollo and I have different nicknames on the online games that I play x)
003. Zodiac Sign : Aquarius
004. Male Or Female : Female
006. Middle School :
007. High School:
008. Hair Color : Brown
009. Long Or Short : Long
010. Loud Or Quiet : Quiet
011. Sweats Or Jeans : jeans.
012. Phone Or Camera : phone
013. Health Freak : Not really
014. Drink Or Smoke: none of it
015. Do You Have A Crush On Someone: No
016. Political orientation: ?
017. Piercings: in my ears
HAVE YOU EVER [BEEN IN]:
019. Airplane : Yes
020. Car Accident : No
021. Fist Fight : No
022. First piercing: my ears
023. First Best Friend : Ella
024. First Instrument played: guitar
025. First award: no
026. First Crush : None >: )
027. First Language: Swedish
028. First Big Vaca
HiI'm going by the name Jordan now.Hi in Personal More Like This
I figured it was time for a change, so yep.
I might change up some stuff on my page, like the ID but I'm not sure c:
I also might change my fursona ((I'd probably keep Indie, I'm hesitant to changing)).
I also might sell Dev's old old old bull terrier/monster design. But I am not sure yet.
I'll keep y'all informed on what happens with that!
Me in 10 yearsI'll have learned to play guitar- hopefully will own both an electric and an acoustic.Me in 10 years in Personal More Like This
All tatted up and will have gotten my labret.
Same fashion sense- skinny jeans, denim jackets, button up shirts, hip-hop attire, plaid shirts, Converse, huge t-shirts, hoodies, hoodies with a leather jacket over them), leather jackets, etc.
Short, dark chocolate brown hair.
A better body.
Hopefully both contacts and black-rimmed glasses. ((Nah probably blue))
This will happen, I'm going to make it happen.
Devious Journal EntryThe gay is strong in this oneDevious Journal Entry in Personal More Like This
I don't bother naming these lil shits anymore
NamesSo, since I'll end up having male and female fursonas, and since Bender's actual name is Jordan,Names in Personal More Like This
I decided that the male fursona's name will be Jessie.
Two fursonasMy main fursona will be Jesse.Two fursonas in Personal More Like This
I'd prefer getting art of Jesse, because she's my baby. <3
So if I do any art trades or commissions, there's a good 99%
chance it'll be of her.
My second fursona will be Quin.
Quin is more of a fursona to draw for fun.
Jordan/Bender is no longer a fursona. Might keep her as a character, might sell her, not sure yet.
AssholeYou know why you're laying low? Because you're a coward who started a hate blog about one of my best friends, and you don't want to get called out for it. All you've done is talk shit about my friend because you're upset. Get off of your high horse and grow up.Asshole in Personal More Like This
Which is better?I've been looking at guitar straps since I want a new one. (Currently I have a cobalt blue one.)Which is better? in Personal More Like This
I like the look of the straps that are woven or have some sort of picture on them, and while
browsing I found Joe Satriani straps.
I'm looking for a strap that would look good with the guitar I plan on getting, which is this
There's this ghost one, which I'm kind of leaning towards.
And then there's this bone one.
And finally there's this one, which is also pretty cool.
So happyI brought my guitar to school today and FINALLY got it tuned!So happy in Personal More Like This
Now it sounds beautiful <3
I think the last time I had gotten it tuned was 5th grade (I'm a Junior now) o.o
Anyone wanna talk to me..I'm up for anything.. SnapChat, FaceTime, Skype, texting.. I don't even care..Anyone wanna talk to me.. in Personal More Like This
I just want to talk to someone..
.my words keep failing. in Personal More Like This
me; they are sick of the same
old shit too, i guess
(and if you're only in my head because you don't wanna be in your own, well that's okay, that's okay)
.even the heavy rain bounces. in Personal More Like This
right off your skin, i wish i could
sharpen my tongue to match yours
but it's blunt no matter how much i grind it
on the whetstone, time keeps hearts
unmalleable, insists that i must close the doors
before i open the windows, i think
i broke into a dream that wasn't mine, i climbed
the fence, i hopped the gate, i came upon
something good and i stole it - a natural disaster
grew out of my chest, a watery trail of
green, i still remember that corpse
in the oven and i know she would have loved
you all the same, don't blame yourself, i think you would
have hated the taste of spring,
just like your mum
something has happened
i can't think your name, much less speak
it out loud, you know the air won't give it
time of day, and now i'm keeping count
of all the plots i've lost, and i think that
this might be one of them, keeping a count of
the times that death has said don't fuck
me over, and i can make small talk with god but
it's so much easier w
.she says. in Personal More Like This
you weren't made
for anything else
(cutting this cord day by day)
.you've. in Personal More Like This
tied a knot
end of your
(there's a fish with a hook in it's eye, screaming no, this isn't how it's supposed to go)
.i want. in Personal More Like This
to know about god,
he would prefer to go by
i want to know
about the stairway
up to heaven,
and why sliding down
the bannister into hell
is much more fun
(think i tried to climb a step that wasn't there, think i might have died more than once)
.there are a million different worlds. in Personal More Like This
that have been built on top of this one,
and i know this cause they whisper through
the cracks of doors in secret
to each other -
i heard you're never more than six feet
from a rat, eight from a spider and
seventy from the sea, please, don't let
yourself drift any further out from me
(holy ghost, are you flammable?)
.confess;. in Personal More Like This
(i'd rather walk myself home, bare feet cold on pavement)
.i remembered. in Personal More Like This
the conversation with the anesthetist,
he said place your thumbs over your eyes
and press gently, and i replied isn't that
and no i can't feel my hands but i'm
not really bothered, i will sleep
sleep and sleep, i won't need them,
and please keep an eye on the sea til i
wake, it might pack up its fish and
go travelling, it might leak through
the holes in the earth like a sieve,
all the shipwrecks and sharks will
(i don't believe in anything, and that makes me a liar because i believe in that)
.i know an angel. in Personal More Like This
tired of holding
up his halo, says
he's thinking of
trading it in for
(and i'd do the same but the boss says, you're not goin' anywhere bitch)
.night stalks. in Personal More Like This
through the streets
he is collecting -
i lay my bones
on the pavement
evenly spaced, but
i know that he won't
really like this,
my spine whispers,
i think you need
to stand up for yourself -
you bottomless pit
you're small small
enough to push
into that lake -
i wonder how much
rain i could fit in my mouth
before it's considered
half full, and
how many branches of the family
i could fell
before it's considered
and the black
it starts in the top left
hand corner, i see it when i lay
on my bed,
it splits itself four
the first to my eyes,
my mouth, my hands
then my head
on the metal, i lay
in the bath
i breathe out and i feel
(they aren't quite clean enough)
I don't know why!I have this bad feeling that my Crush doesn't like me! -.-"I don't know why! in Personal More Like This
Well , he looks at me in the Lessons but what is if he is NOT looking at me and I'm just dreaming?!?!?!?!?!??!
And my "Best Friend" is in the near of him and he asked me if I could draw a picture for him but I said no , because I HAVE TO LEARN AND STUFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And she said yes!
I'm really afraid! But I really like him!
What can I do , this is like a crises when you're under 16!!!
I can't stop thinking about it!
But really, what can I do?
I don't want to talk about it with her!
One time our German-Teacher was shipping some people from our form. xD
And then he said : " Who would be good for Neil ? (My Crush)"
And you know the class was loud and stuff and she pointed at me!
SHE ALWAYS MAKES FUN OF ME!
I DON'T KNOW WHY!
SHE REALLY SHOULDN'T BEHAIVE LIKE THIS!!!!!!!!!!
Please help me with this Problem I'm literally FREAKING OUT!
Suicide...I know it's not good to talk about it.Suicide... in Personal More Like This
But if you are cutting your self then I want to talk about it with you.
I don't know if it helps you to just talk about it but if you do it can make you feel better to talk.
Please remember : You're NEVER alone! It doesn't matter if many people hate you... They're just jealous!If you think of killing your self please : Think twice! You can't solve problems by cutting yourself or strangle you!
I know you might think : What do you know about killing yourself?
But I once tried to strangle me... But I thought twice.And I'm still alive.
And I'm 11 years old.... I know it's stupid to write my age here but what can I do?
If you want to talk about it then just write a comment or write me a message.
I hope it helps you!
WAS I REALLY GOING TO?!Hey my Chocolates!WAS I REALLY GOING TO?! in Personal More Like This
This is really searious!
If you're happy right now : Please don't read. I don't want you to not be that happy anymore. That happens to me a lot... D:
I was going trought the kitchen. I was like : Why do I exist? What is the meaning of ME? Do people care if im not here anymore?
Then IT happened...
I saw a BIG BUTCHERKNIFE and I'm like : This is my chance! But I can't do this, I would not only hurt me , I would hurt my family too!
And then : WAS I REALLY GOING TO DO THIS?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
Sometimes I just want to end my whole existance right now!
Do you know this feeling?
And today I had THE SAME feeling.
I mean : I have a roof over my head. I have clothes , I have food. I have warm water and a room.
WHY DO I HOLD A KNIFE IN MY HAND TO END MY LIFE?!
I'am going to end my life when im SUPOSED to dye , when I'm old I mean.
But why? WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY?!
I have even cutten myself , but not with a knife!
Don't worry I don't want t
Psp and Game...YEAH!!!!Psp and Game... in Personal More Like This
My father bought me the Game : Hatsune Miku Project Diva 2nd for Sony PSP!!!!!
I'm waiting and I'm so exited!
I promise that I take some photos of it!^-^
Hmmm....How should I call you? (My Watchers)Hmmm.... in Personal More Like This
Everyone has a Name for they'r Watchers!
If you have a Idea then leave a comment!
And if you don't......Then leave a comment anyway !
And if you don't know who I'am then....... Just look at my Profile
I would be really happy if you have some Ideas.
If there are 2-3 Ideas I have to choose one.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! DxMY GREEN HEADPHONES ARE DEAD!!! DxNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! Dx in Personal More Like This
THAT MEANS MAYAKO KAGAME'S COLOR HAS TO BE BLUE!!!
Because I have to use the blue Headphones.
If I buy new grean Headphones Mayako Kagame's color will be green again!
I promise! >.
10 Things About Me (Idea from KokoMollin)1. My favorite color is Light-Blue not Green!10 Things About Me (Idea from KokoMollin) in Personal More Like This
2. My favorite food is Lasagne
3. I mostly forgot how to speak russian!^-^"
4. I only bought 4 Mangas (07.11.2013)
5. My Sister hates Animes and Mangas, so she doesn't want me too read them (But I do it anyway!)
6. My BFF is my Cousin!
7. I'am scared of the Dark ^-^"
8. I know that this time had to come! I'm eleven years old.... BUT DON'T TELL ANYONE OK?! I don't want to get kicked out!
9. My Sister doesn't know about Deviantart , and PewDiePie and Cryatonic and the other Youtubers I like
10. I have iron deficiency and Problems with my spine.
SO that was it. But really (8) don't tell anyone!
If you want to know more or I wrote something wrong , then leave a comment!
And don't worry if I don't post Pictures and that so often I work on the Calender for 2014.
If I wrote iron deficiency or another word wrong.... Then say that to Google-Translate
Anyway , I hope thats enough information about me. If not just read my DeviantID there
MMDI now have downloaded a MikuMikuDance-Program and can u tell me how I can make my own Character there?MMD in Personal More Like This
Or can u make a MMD-Model from Mayako Kagame please?
If you can help me then thank you !
HACKER IS GOING AROUND!!!There is a hacker going around posting pornographic images on random artists' pages, particularly of a male's "nether regions". If you post this in your journal and he sees that you know what's going on, he won't hack you. Pass it on!HACKER IS GOING AROUND!!! in Personal More Like This
Copied this from one of my friends :iconKokoMollin:
APPARENTLY THERE IS A HACKER ON DEVIANTART, CALLED 'LIFE OWNER'.....
TELL EVERYONE ON YOUR LIST BECAUSE IF SOMEBODY ON YOUR LIST ADDS HIM THEN YOU WILL GET HIM ON YOUR LIST. HE WILL FIGURE OUT YOUR ID COMPUTER ADDRESS, SO COPY AND PASTE THIS MESSAGE TO EVERYONE EVEN IF YOU DON'T CARE FOR THEM AND FAST BECAUSE IF HE HACKS THEIR EMAIL HE HACKS YOUR MAIL TOO (I think what it means by that is that he could assume the identity of your friends, and FOOL you into opening the letter since you think it's your friend that's sending it )!!...
Anyone using Internet mail such as Yahoo, Hotmail, AOL and so on. This information arrived this morning, Direct from both Microsoft andNorton. P
I got taged! O.oOk anyways... Let's do this! ^-^I got taged! O.o in Personal More Like This
10 Things about me :
I actually wrote this in another journal... xD
Questions and Answers :
1. Have you ever died of happiness?
Yes , when my father bought me that Vocaloid bag , now I just have to wait...
2. Fav band/artist?
My favorite band is : I don't hear them much (ONLY WITH MY SISTER) but Green Day!^-^
My favorite artist is : (Music) Artist = Who would have thought? Rin & Len Kagamine! xD And 2nd is Miku Hatsune.
3. Fav food?
My fav food is : Lasagne! Absolutely !!! LASAGNE FTW!!! xDDDDDD
4. School or Homework?
School! Because I hate homework cause I can't stop singing!!! D: But in School I (ALMOST xD ) sit and just listen.
5. When did you get your first kiss?
I'm to young for my first kiss! ^-^"
6. Fav fan fiction ever?
I actually don't read fan fictions but I love : Flowers for my Valentine (Pewds & Cry) xD
7. One has good looks but is evil, the other is ugly but hella nice. Who would you be friends with and why?