.one day the earth will dim;. in Free Verse More Like This
the light in the sun will flicker and die,
and the moon will sigh and roll over,
keeping her back to the world
our shadows will say farewell
to our bodies, and go their own
way in the darkness
.green children. in Free Verse More Like This
up and out
of their beds -
the sun smiles,
and reaches down
to embrace them
.a lie. in Free Verse More Like This
the body in
.and like a stone at. in Free Verse More Like This
the bottom of the river
or the sea,
i think life might just be
flowing right past me
.you're afraid. in Free Verse More Like This
to let anyone
stoke the fire
in your chest
you will burn
Leaving the Day BehindLeaving the Day Behind in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
leave the day behind
to a night of peaceful sleep
stars will bless your dreams
When Dreams Aren't EnoughWhen Dreams Aren't Enough in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
wind and falling leaves
like whispered words that redeem
me and soothe my soul
Loki X Reader (Chapter 92)Loki X Reader (Chapter 92) in Romance More Like This
Mikayla sat on the bed as she looked around curiously, Bruce walked over to her and sat across from her.
"I'm going to teach you parts of the body..." Bruce said.
Mikayla looked at Bruce a bit confused.
"I am a man, and my name is Bruce" Bruce said pointing at himself, "And you are a women, and your name is Mikayla" Bruce said.
"B-Bruce... T-The m-man..." Mikayla said pointing at Bruce, "I-I am a women... a-and m-my name is M-Mikayla..." Mikayla muttered.
Bruce smiled nodded his head.
"Eyes..." Bruce said pointing at his eyes than Mikayla's eyes.
"E-Eyes..." Mikayla muttered softly pointing at her own eyes.
Bruce nodded his head, "Nose..." Bruce said pointing at his nose.
"N-Nose..." Mikayla pointed at her nose.
Bruce chuckled as he than pointed at his mouth, "Mouth..." Bruce said.
"M-Mouth...?" Mikayla muttered touching her lips.
Bruce nodded his head, "Your doing great" Bruce gave Mikayla a thumbs up.
Tony suddenly walked into the room, "So hows the teaching going?" Tony asked lookin
Loki X Reader (Chapter 90) [Bring her back!]Loki X Reader (Chapter 90) [Bring her back!] in Romance More Like This
You quickly pushed Loki off of you and ran into the living room.
"Tony!? Bruce!? What happened!?" You shouted looking around.
Loki came up behind you rubbing his head trying to ease the pain, Loki looked around the room.
Tony ran out of the lab smiling innocently.
"Tony? Where's my little girl?" You asked as you suddenly heard the crying suddenly stop.
"I uh... uh.. Bruce and uh.... hm... Hulk he..." Tony looked down.
You pushed Tony out of the way and ran into the lab, there you saw standing feet away from you was The Hulk holding your baby girl close.
Tears were streaming down The Hulk's cheeks as he looked up quickly backing away and holding your baby girl close, though he tried to hide her in his arms.
"Brucie... what's wrong?" You asked looking at The Hulk worried.
"Hulk sorry..." The Hulk muttered.
"What are you sorry for?" You now looked extremely worried.
"Hulk hurt baby girl..." The Hulk sighed sadly.
Tears clouded in your eyes as you walked up to The Hulk, "Brucie, let me see
LokiXReader (Chapter 35) [The Darkness Within You)LokiXReader (Chapter 35) [The Darkness Within You) in Romance More Like This
The next morning
You awoke finding Loki fast asleep beside you, you smiled and kissed Loki's forehead, you got out of bed trying not to wake Loki as you slowly got dressed wrapping a fur blanket around you.
You opened the door of Loki's room walking into the hallway, you suddenly felt the floor turn ice gold as you gasped looking around curiously.
"Hello...?" You asked softly walking into the dining hall.
You suddenly saw King Laufey standing feet away from you, you gasped looking at him surprised.
You were about to scream for Loki when King Laufey walked up to you.
"I am not here to hurt you, I am just here to talk" King Laufey said sternly.
"What do you want to talk about...?" You asked softly.
"About you..." King Laufey chuckled, "You are pregnant and hold a child, A Jotun child" King Laufey smirked, look... I shall make you a deal..." King Laufey said.
"What?" You asked rolling your eyes.
"You give me your child when you have given birth... and I promise never to disturb or harm As
Loki X Reader (Chapter 96)Loki X Reader (Chapter 96) in Romance More Like This
Director Fury dragged Mikayla down underground Stark Tower and into a secret lab where he made her step into a clear glass box; Director Fury closed the box and locked it.
"Let's see if you pass this test" Director Fury smirked as he walked over to a control panel and pressed a few buttons.
Bruce and Tony suddenly ran into the room.
"Let her go Fury!" Tony shouted.
The glass box slowly began to fill up with water as Mikayla looked down curiously.
"You’re going to drown her?!" Tony growled at Director Fury, "It is a test to see if she dies or not" Director Fury said.
“What if she does die!?” Tony growled at Director Fury.
“Then she doesn't pass the test” Director Fury said sternly.
“No! I won’t let you hurt her!” Bruce shouted as he walked over to the glass box kicking and punching the glass as hard as he could.
“Dr. Banner, that is Gorilla glass, you cannot break it” Director Fury said letting out a slight chuckle.
Loki X Reader (Chapter 65) [Odin's Blessing]Loki X Reader (Chapter 65) [Odin's Blessing] in Romance More Like This
You slowly awoke finding yourself in Loki's room, but it wasn't yours and Loki's bedroom, it was Loki's room in Asgard, you slowly sat up looking around as you groaned a bit.
"Take it easy darling..." Loki whispered to you.
"Loki..." You muttered, your vision a bit blurry.
"Don't go doing to much darling... you fainted back at the apartment" Loki said.
Your visioned quickly cleared as you saw Loki at the bed side smiling at you but also worry in his eyes.
Loki kissed your cheek, "Are you okay darling?" He asked looking at you worried.
"Yes... I'm fine..." You yawned a bit but smiled at Loki lovingly.
"I don't want to have to rush you darling... but the maids are here to dress you for the wedding, Mother Frigga made you a wonderful wedding dress" Loki smiled as he kissed your cheek than walked toward the door, "I shall see you at the grand hall" Loki smiled than left.
You slowly sat up as maids walked you over to a stool, they made you stand on the stool as they slowly put y
Loki X Reader (Chapter 73)Loki X Reader (Chapter 73) in Romance More Like This
6 months later
You still had not given birth, Both Loki and Odin were getting very worried, you usually spent your days in bed, will actually Loki never let you leave bed because he always wanted you to rest.
But one day, you slowly got out of bed sighing sadly as Loki was sitting in a chair reading, Loki quickly put his book down walking over to you.
"Please darling lay down..." Loki begged.
"Loki I'm fine..." You muttered softly looking at your stomach in the mirror, tears began streaming down your cheeks.
Loki wrapped his arms around you and put your hand on his on your stomach, Loki turned to Jotun form.
"Loki... it's not working anymore... the child hasn't kicked in months..." You looked down sadly.
"The child is still alive.... it's just quiet..." Loki muttered, "Look I know it's hard sometimes... but don't worry darling... everything will be okay..." Loki said.
"I'm afraid though Loki..." You muttered walking into the bathroom.
Moments later you walked out of the bathroom pantin
Loki X Reader (Chapter 74)Loki X Reader (Chapter 74) in Romance More Like This
Hours had passed and You had given birth to a beautiful baby girl, You ended up naming your girl ________.
Loki was holding his baby girl who still hadn't opened her eyes, Loki gently rocked her and kissed her forehead, Loki turned into Jotun form as he smiled at his beautiful baby girl.
The Baby girl opened her eyes, they went from a bright red to a bright emerald green as she giggled cutely at Loki.
You smiled happily but felt as if you were about to drift off.
Thor smiled grasping your hand, "Congratulations hunny" Thor smiled kissing your cheek.
You smiled looking at Loki, "May I hold her?" You asked.
Odin looked at Loki shaking his head slightly.
"I have to go clean her up and than I'll bring her back..." Loki smiled walking out of the room.
Odin walked over to you, "You should get some rest" Odin said.
"But I wish to see my precious baby girl, please I want to see her" You smiled happily grasping Odin's hand firmly.
Odin sighed pulling away.
"Master... please..." You sighed.
Loki X Reader (Chapter 39)Loki X Reader (Chapter 39) in Romance More Like This
You suddenly appeared in Stark Tower.
"Okay... that seemed to work" You giggled and smiled.
"_______!" Tony shouted as he popped up from behind his bar, Tony smiled at you happily, "hey! Where have you been?" Tony asked.
"Long story..." You giggled.
Tony chuckled, "Come apparently everyone else is at your house, so let me give you a ride..." Tony smirked.
"I'll race you" You smirked and disappeared.
"Hey... no fare...." Tony crossed his arms and pouted, "and... how did you do that...?" Tony asked as he looked around the room, "right... talking to myself" Tony sighed, "I'm here if you want to talk sir" Jarvis said.
"No I don't feel like talking to a robot right now" Tony said as he walked to his limo.
Loki X Reader (Chapter 33)Loki X Reader (Chapter 33) in Romance More Like This
You saw four Frost Giants walking toward you, "L-loki..." You muttered holding his arm firmly, "I cannot be the Tesseract now... I just want to be a normal girl that lives in New York that's in love with the God Of Mischief..." You muttered sighing sadly.
"Shhh, don't worry darling, everything will be okay" Loki whispered to you.
You turned looking at Loki hugging him tightly, "Loki..." You muttered softly as tears streamed down your cheeks.
"Can't we just go back home and pretend were normal everyday humans...?" You asked softly.
Suddenly one of the Frost Giants grabbed Loki.
You growled angrily, your eyes glowing a bright icy blue, "Let. Him. Go! Now!" You growled putting your hand up as suddenly the Frost Giants turned to ash.
"Loki..." You muttered falling to your knees feeling weak.
Loki quickly ran to your side, "Shhh.." Loki gently put your head to his chest as he held you close, Loki kissed your head as he looked at Odin worried.
"________?" Odin asked.
"No, that's enough! We w
Avengers X 12 year old!Reader (Part 1)Avengers X 12 year old!Reader (Part 1) in Drama More Like This
You were on the Hellcarrier hiding behind Thor looking around nervously, you were a small innocent 12 year old. Your mother was friends with The Avengers and helped them defeat evil, but sadly, your mother and father passed away leaving you with no one to take care of you. But luckily, The Avengers would take you in and take care of you.
Thor gently picked you up and put you on his shoulders, "Don't be scared, these are good friends of mine, they will take good care of you..." Thor smiled as Tony led you and Thor into a room where the rest of The Avengers were.
Thor took you off his shoulders and put on the floor, the rest of The Avengers stood in a line, "This is Dr. Banner..." Thor said.
You gasped and looked up at Bruce Banner, "Hulkie..." You muttered softly.
"This is Captain America..." Thor whispered to you.
You looked up at Steve Rogers who smiled at you, "The First Avenger..." You muttered to yourself looking down shyly.
"This is Hawkeye and The Black Widow..." Thor whispered t
Universe GirlsheUniverse Girl in Free Verse More Like This
fell in love
while he was
still a planet;
she could only manage
to fall in love
with shooting stars
in the glare of your eyes.
what more could you truly ask
from a universe girl?
Cancer has a smell.Old classics,Cancer has a smell. in Free Verse More Like This
the half cup of
peppermint ice cream
sitting in your freezer
for weeks, and cat litter.
He won’t eat anymore,
but there are
piles and piles
of dirty dishes
sitting in the sink.
before your eyes.
You can wrap
your whole self
around his tiny bones
You can hold him
like he used to hold you
all those years ago.
And you are angry.
You try to find
You hate doctors,
and you hate
You have to force yourself
to stop crying,
This is the one person
who’s always had faith
He’s read every poem
and hoarded every award
you ever won.
You ignore statistics,
dear,when i first met you,dear, in Free Verse More Like This
terror chilled down
& my heart
began to build
walls over walls
i won’t let them
hurt you, again.
i have a tendency
to get knocked
off my feet
& not know
how to get back up.
i’m still crawling around,
searching for your heart
beats under my bed
& between my tangled
i am pathetic.
you were all crooked,
& nights of forgetting
to take your zoloft.
i didn’t think I would miss that.
i didn’t think I would miss you.
you fell like a meteor
for him, hours after
you demolished me.
& i can’t hope you’re happy
because i’m still patching up
the war zone you left behind.
i taste bile in my throat.
i swallow it back down.
i won’t get sick for you.
You do not whore around,You spend your nightsYou do not whore around, in Free Verse More Like This
for Apollo’s robes.
You’re as hot
as New Orleans
in mid-July, and
as her gumbo.
But, he is light-years
away and your fingers
ache with tired
a disaster in
Even if it fucking hurts,
you can still taste
his heat on your tongue.
Gods be damned,
you’re a butterfly-
( even if mounted
to a bed. )
you will find yourself
and fly away.
i am a magenta february.Winteri am a magenta february. in Free Verse More Like This
is still clinging
to my skin,
sleeping within the tangles
of my night witch hair.
65 days to learn
& Icarus, with his
sun kissed fingers
my throat, giggles
knowingly in my ear.
I have misplaced my
of a heart
so many times,
I’m not even sure
it ever existed
they never lie-
Covered in frost
I am a magenta
the imprint of teeth
that bruised centuries
& bed sheets.
binge eatingi have a buildupbinge eating in Free Verse More Like This
of black holes
suffocating my arteries,
having swallowed down
the bitter taste of too many
girls with galaxies traveling
the length of their spines.
i ate them in mouthfuls,
gaping & sad like a binge
reaching for the skies-
unable to hold them all in.
i don’t think the universe
is as vast
as it used to be,
of my ribs;
i am hungry.
& with a collection
of moon sighs
as a reminder
in my pockets,
i will just have to learn
how to calm this swollen
I am girl.Other boys tell meI am girl. in Free Verse More Like This
I’d look best
& they know
I am girl-
from the curve of my hips,
to this jutting collarbone,
lonely of love bites
But, your hands shape
falsities out of my limbs
with a tongue speaking of me
Why do I allow your body
to find rest against these bones
when you don’t even recognize
the taste of my moon skin
between your teeth?
roses and brier“I’ve never planted roots-“roses and brier in Free Verse More Like This
believing her body to be
on a road trip
“Well—“ I smiled,
“let’s be like roses & brier.
We will go nowhere, together.”
( 4/01/2014 )I’ve been told( 4/01/2014 ) in Free Verse More Like This
ladies are supposed to
in flowers, fine wines,
ladies don’t have
upon a barstool
in my head
He’s telling me
to fuck her, poetically,
I can’t decide which
he is referring to,
( the new or the old )
on both ends
Why do I attract
Why do my words
not sit right
in my mouth
when I can’t
even stand up
I don’t deserve
to be a
whiskeyShewhiskey in Free Verse More Like This
in one slow,
I heard it plunge
into the gaping
emptiness of her.
drank the sun
from my fingertips,
licked me from her lips,
look better dead, plucked
from your November pores."
"They go down smoothest
with Writers Tears."
~Scared To Death~Briefly~Scared To Death~ in Free Verse More Like This
Without a warning
All my time has gone to waste
All my love to no avail
In the end we all end up alone
So what if i spend the rest of my life alone
In the end we all end up alone
A soul afraid of abandonment
Afraid of rejection, of being left behind
But in the end we all end up alone
So what if i broke down when he turned his back
So what if i died a little when he walked away
In the end we all end up alone
~Shapeshifting memories~~Shapeshifting memories~ in Free Verse More Like This
You’d push and push me ever more
You’d drug and drug me on the floor
You’d scream at me if I was right
You’d never leave without a fight
You’d claim and claim me as yours
And trust was never there of course
You’d feed and feed your greedy ego
Ignoring my hearts resounding echo
But in the end these all will fade
& only one thing will remain
Is that first time that you said
that in love with me you felt
~Sense of belonging~~Sense of belonging~ in Free Verse More Like This
i spotted them hanging all together
they fake a smile, a hi, whatever
with them i know that i don't fit
for them i'm an antisocial kid
they make me feel more and more alone
i can tell this is not where i belong
. . .
i spotted you hanging all together
you fake a smile, a hi, whatever
no point in trying to be kind
our stars will not even align...
Subtle hints~i can't be who you want me to beSubtle hints~ in Free Verse More Like This
stop focusing on the old me
that's just who i used to be
and i don't mind if you can't see
if you wonder ask me why
when the sun goes down i cry
in the corners of my life
what i crave and what i hide
why do you accuse me now
when i'm already on the ground
if you don't want to know the whys
don't dare to say that you care
your act is full of big fat lies
what you did there wasn't fair
so go ahead and turn around
leave me please without a sound
if you don't want to know me
then around you i'll be care free
a ghost of me you'll only see
and yes, sure that is fine with me
~Phychological Coercion~Your threat doesn’t even linger~Phychological Coercion~ in Free Verse More Like This
You like to play me on your finger tips
You fail to understand
Guess compassion doesn’t suit you
Your blinkers are such a curse
I don’t know how to deal with
How come you’re always justified?
But I must always report to you
You ask more than I can give
Have I not gave enough
Do I deserve to be questioned that much
Just because I’m being me
You think I have my mask on
The one I never even wore
You’re certain that I am a liar
You say my theories catch fire
You refuse to trust me
Blinded by betrayal
You claim to be broken
Well so am i
But you, you, you
You have your reasons
You have to know
Whether I’m a saint or not
Well, go on, doubt me
Show me how much you care
You should know by now, my dear
If honesty is the best policy for me
~Cendrillon, ou La petite Pantoufle de Verre~~Cendrillon, ou La petite Pantoufle de Verre~ in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I met a stranger at a ball
Told him I don’t dance at all
But he’d insist that I try
His eyes never leaving mine
He slowly took me by the hand
I was hoping I wouldn’t be that bad
He grabbed me firmly by the waist
And we danced till it was pretty late
Then clumsy I stepped on my gown
I’d trip and fall right on the ground
If he hadn’t saved me just before
My head was about to touch the floor
I thanked him for being so kind
But I had to leave before midnight
I met him again the other evening
I was so pleased with our meeting
I'd never guess I’d fall for him
Now I could feel it from within
We got so caught up with each other
That with the time I didn’t bother
"The clock is ticking, I must go
But be sure that I love you so…"
The rest he didn’t quite heard
I run on foot, trying to return
Lost my glass slipper on the way
Didn’t know what to do but wait
Then I spotted him one day
He came to visit our place
I found some courage and I a
~Wavering~~Wavering~ in Free Verse More Like This
He came right in frond of her
& then he walked away
He vanished & he didn’t care
Her trust he did betray
She only got a glimpse of him
And then he turned his back
She let her walls become so thin
And fell into his trap
Though truth is that she heard
Another girl that he preferred
But to his calls she’d always bend
And back to him she quickly went
Back and forth she paced
The truth unable to bare
And him she never faced
She’d drown in her despair
The butterflies seem to have died
When he left away from her sight
A butterfly collection on the wall
Dead pieces of her heart and soul
he came to close
just to shut her out
he let her froze
in shock and doubt
He knew she was attached a lot
still he watched her slip and fall
She felt the pain of being shot
Was there ever a love knot~?
Emotional self harm~Emotional self harm~ in Free Verse More Like This
emotional self harm
i guess you could call it that
to my self it was a treason
when i would do that for some reason
i wouldn't inflict physical pain
that i thought was quite vain
i'd rip my very heart & soul
i'd lay my essence on the floor
my every escaping sounds i would mute
& diminish in a deep depressive mood
i wouldn't speak even a word
hide in my own miserable world
my feelings i would lock inside
as they'd start their own fight
where i'd call myself a lot of names
they were my hateful & decietful ways
to trap my thoughts from leaking out
and in my lungs hear the echo of my shout
~my own saviour~~my own saviour~ in Free Verse More Like This
Crumpled up words
Fighting to be free
Imprinted in diaries
That none will ever see
Lost inside the labyrinth
Of my depths and widths
I found a salutary hideout in my room
Where i can express this hateful gloom
Seeking safety under my covers
So my sanity i can recover
I mumble while I let it all out
Croon my every scream and shout
I spell the details of every past scene
For clues and hints that may weren’t seen
A smudge of insecurities and fears
A knot of desires and fuzzy dreams
All the used to be’s, could be’s & what if’s
Curled up deep inside my minds abyss
I try my own self to pursuit
To embrace this simple & noble truth
I nestle closer into my pillow
realizing that I’m my own true hero
Stop putting words in my mouthYou shove your fingersStop putting words in my mouth in Free Verse More Like This
down my throat,
and insert words
I never spoke,
in desperate hopes
to make me choke
my pearly gates
that feeds me
Starlight kisses and bed sheet hugsMy teeth areStarlight kisses and bed sheet hugs in Free Verse More Like This
and my eyes
hold dark pockets
because of all
the late nights
I let the starlight
and my bed sheets
because I realized
you never had,
you never would.
VeinsI wishVeins in Free Verse More Like This
of ocean blue
flowed not just
to my heart,
Melancholy thoughtsI tasteMelancholy thoughts in Free Verse More Like This
in your words,
only to wonder
how many others
How to mend a broken hearti. I’m sorry to be the one to tell youHow to mend a broken heart in Free Verse More Like This
that bandages and Neosporin
fix cut knees, but not a cut heart
so put the rubbing alcohol away-
put the alcohol away
injected straight to your veins
is better left to a tooth ache
than a heart ache
Darling, let it throb
iii. I’ll crack open your ribcage
to find a shattered heart,
and a dragon
breathing fire in your chest:
keeping your heart inflamed,
turning your tears to ash
iv. Release the dragon
to release the pain-
throw away the first-aid kit,
and I know you’ll find love once again:
And I know you’ll be loved again.
On VulnerabilityI want to stealOn Vulnerability in Free Verse More Like This
the bark off trees,
and cover my
and only then,
can I protect
The tough gets growingI'm knee-deep in mud,The tough gets growing in Free Verse More Like This
grumbling and mumbling
about what I did
to deserve this mess
And my mother glares,
"When I planted you,
I put you deep in the dirt,
not to bury you alive,
but to teach you that
when the growing gets tough,
the tough gets growing."
SpacesWhen you saidSpaces in Free Verse More Like This
you needed space,
you meant more
between your fingers,
so you could hold
someone else's hand.
Barb WireYour barb-wired brainBarb Wire in Free Verse More Like This
won't let me in,
and I'm getting cut
trying to jump
You only fly for a little whileShe was just four years oldYou only fly for a little while in Free Verse More Like This
kicking her feet
harder and harder,
as the swingset creaked
She finally reached the peak,
"Mama, I'm gonna fly."
and so she did;
three feet into the air,
sticking the landing
like a gymnast
And I wonder everyday
if those were the same words
before jumping off that bridge,
unable to remember,
you only fly for a little while.
Silly GirlSilly girl,Silly Girl in Free Verse More Like This
Whose eyes rain crystals,
Why do you wish to heal?
Do you not understand the beauty
Of your ability to feel?
Whose grin’s so bright,
Why do you wish to change?
A soul with no emotion
Would appear to be quite strange.
Whose face is dull,
Why do you live this myth?
You choose to be a shadow,
Smashing daisies with your fist.
With wounds and scars,
Why have you chosen this death?
No, sinking into your own grave
Would be better than such regret.
You’ve started to feel,
Just recently you’ve started to cry.
You’ve been down this path again and again,
With a pain you’re designed to deny.
Whose eyes rain crystals,
Why do you wish to heal?
Do you not remember the torture
Of being unable to feel?
It's Not Polite To Lie.Hush, sweetie,It's Not Polite To Lie. in Free Verse More Like This
Do not let their judgments define you.
Do not let their hatred construct you.
Do not let their words build you.
Do not let your sorrow swallow you.
Do not let your pain devour you.
Do not let your loneliness change you.
Stop telling yourself lies,
Stop screaming in a whisper that you're
Inside and out.
Stop telling yourself that you're
Stop telling yourself that you're
It's not polite to lie.
Well, Honey...You think depression is a choice?Well, Honey... in Free Verse More Like This
Do you think I choose
To feel worthless?
To feel empty,
To feel sick to my stomach because I think too much?
To feel broken,
To feel hopeless,
Angry at myself..
To feel suicidal, sometimes without knowing a reason?
To feel the need to lay in bed all day,
Without moving a muscle,
Because getting up would just make me want to fall back down?
Depression is never a choice.
You don't choose depression.
Depression chooses you.
We don't need ignorant people to choose us, too.
Bipolar DisorderDear everybody,Bipolar Disorder in Free Verse More Like This
I’m not just moody.
I have Bipolar Disorder.
I don’t choose to have this unbearable depression,
Where I sob uncontrollably and the most unpredictable times.
A sadness that paints your entire mind,
Down into your soul.
And you don’t know when it’s suddenly going to
Change, from being a terrifying unhappiness,
To being such a fantastic happiness
That you can’t even connect your thoughts with your own brain.
Where you challenge the world,
Because you feel bigger than a speck of dust for
The first time in your
It changes from being such an incredible mess of emotions
To being the creator of no emotion at all.
And soon, the lack of emotion
Starts to eat away at your heart.
And you don’t choose to…
But it turns into an
A sadness that paints your entire mind
Down into your soul.
This is Bipolar Disorder.
This is me.
This is who I am.
Before you kill yourself...Before you kill yourself,Before you kill yourself... in Free Verse More Like This
Remember just one little thing.
There are places to go,
Where you have never been before.
How can you be sure those places are bad?
There are things to see,
Things you have never seen before.
How can you be sure those things are ugly?
There is a new tune to hear,
Something you've never heard before.
How can you be sure that tune is scary?
There are words to be said,
Things that have never been said before.
How can you be sure those words are hurtful?
There are dreams to be imagined,
Things you have never dreamed before.
How can you be sure that they are nightmares?
Darling, please don't give up.
Please stay strong.
Don't let go.
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Hatred is the problem.
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Eating our meals, and swallowing each bite,
Not hiding the chewed up remains under our tongue,
And not making ourselves vomit through the night.
We're going to try something new,
Bringing the liquor down from our lips,
Not turning to the alcohol for comfort,
Until the addiction rips.
We're going to try something new,
Throwing away the needles, the pins, and the blades
Not searching underneath our skin for emotion,
Watching the wounds and the scars fade.
We're going to try something new,
Darling, I challenge you, I dare you.
We're going to try something new...
Why does that scare you?
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Slide blades across your flesh until the blood
Stops pouring out.
Swallow the pills that make you
Spit out the words that make them
Daddy said never play with fire,
But the burns on your skin…
Don’t they feel
Bathe in your blood,
And write with wounds along your
Carry a nightmare in your
Because, now, little girl
You aren't so little anymore.
Bury your butterfly wings
Create a grave for your
Swallow the pills that make you
Spit out the words that make them
And drink till you’re dead, little girl.
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I'll be the princess filled with glee.
You'll be the king, you'll reign over the sea.
Daddy, daddy, come play with me!
Daddy, daddy! Let's play a game
I'll grow up and like magic, i'll change
Into somebody so odd and so strange
Daddy, Daddy. Let's play a game.
Dad, hey dad! Let's do something fun.
I'll pull the trigger of this heavy gun
After I've given you some time to run
Dad, hey dad, let's have some fun.
Dad, come on now, can't you see?
This knife in your back and this bullet in your knee
It's who I've become, who I've grown to be.
Daddy, come on...
Come play with me.
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“Suck it up.”
And the worst?
“Get over it.”
I’m not just sad. I suffer from depression
Waiting for happiness’s resurrection.
I can’t just forget it, it’s in me for good
I can’t do the things that I know I should.
I’m not just sad. I’m broken. I’m lost.
I’ve tried everything to fix it, no matter the cost.
I’ve carried a blade just to hold to my wrist.
I’ve carried a dream inside of my fist.
I’ve talked about it, like they say I should do
But all my efforts are stopped by ignorant people like you.
“You’re just sad.”
“Suck it up.”
And the worst?
“Get over it.”
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“All the clocks in the city began to wear and chime.
Oh let not time deceive you, you cannot conquer time.”
W. H. Auden
The fever broke the next day and from there Caedra’s health returned at a rapid rate. She was still the quiet child she had always been, but Loki could once again see the energy and life gleam in her eyes. She didn’t say much of Jotunheim and of course Loki would not mention it, but it seemed that Caedra would have little or no difficulty continuing in life. Loki had never doubted that the child was strong, but even he was surprised at how well she could handle something so traumatizing.
The days passed quickly and Caedra was becoming more and more impatient that she could not go outside. Loki could not explain to her why she could not leave, nor did he intend to try. He knew t
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“The difference between grace and mercy is simple.
Mercy is not getting what you deserve, and grace is getting
What you do not deserve.”
As Loki walked around the palace, he made his way to the gardens. He still couldn’t believe that Thor had simply let him go without a punishment. Yes, he had sentenced Loki to imprisonment in the palace, but it was no different from what his life had been before he’d escaped to Jotunheim. There was no added stipulation, there was no privilege removed. Nothing had changed.
He continued to walk, lost in his thoughts, until he heard someone come up beside him. Glancing over his shoulder he saw that it was Frigga.
“May I join you?” she asked.
Loki nodded. “Of course,” he replied, and the two continued to stroll through the variety of trees and flowers.
“I am pleased with Thor’s d
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A FEW DAYS LATER
The hours of the night passed quickly and the first rays of the morning light began to show through the window. The warm light on his face made Loki open his eyes slowly. He had found peace in his sleep, which was not something he could usually find when awake. Sif’s words from the prior night still haunted him. He wondered how much this man Gallan knew of his niece. Not much, it would seem since he had not come for her, and Sif insisted she was the only one that knew Caedra was even related to this man. But Loki could never be careful enough. His bargain with Sif could be easily broken by either person. Even so, Loki couldn’t say he was completely ungrateful that she was giving him something of a chance to keep Caedra.
He glanced down and smiled. Caedra lay curled up against his chest, her hair a tangled mess in her face. She breathed steadily and (more importantly) peacefully. Over the past week she’d had a few more night
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It had been a bloody battle, to say the least. Countless soldiers from each side had been killed all over the palace. The chance of finding survivors among the carnage was unlikely at this point, but soldiers were still sent out to search. The people still wanted the hope that all had not been lost.
Hope. It was such a weak sentiment. What good was hope in a time like this? Hope would not get them anywhere with retaliation. Revenge, anger, that was all one needed. But Thor is ever hopeful…and pathetic.
Loki strolled down what was once a grand hall in the palace, taking little notice of the desolation around him. He had wanted, no needed, to get away from the screaming and crying of those who had survived. Their screams were aggravating to him. It probably would not have bothered him so much if he had caused their screams…
In the silence he looked around, trying to remember how the palace looked before the attack. Even he had trouble remembering what it onc
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Loki took Caedra through the palace, weaving his way through the dark and empty halls until he came upon an empty room. He pushed the door open far enough to slip through, trying to make as little noise as possible.
The room was small for a bed chamber, and resembled that of one of the healer’s quarters. Sif glanced around skeptically. “Where are we?” she inquired, forgetting to keep her voice low.
Loki glared at her, his eyes darting to the partially opened door. He gently set Caedra on the bed and unwrapped his coat from around her, covering her with a warm blanket. He brushed her hair out of her face, his eyes searching as he listened closely to her breathing. Though still shallow, it was not as weak as before.
“We’re near the healers’ quarters,” Loki answered, glancing back at Sif, who had moved to shut the door completely. “After battles or whenever there was an excess of wounded, they would use these rooms to tend to
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The dungeon in Asgard was the same as it ever was. The place had been built by Odin’s grandfather, and though its foundations were ancient, its magic was strong and furnishings just as ornate and lavish as the rest of the palace.
Loki sat in the same cell as he had before, waiting. He sat close to the “window” of magic and leaned his head against the wall, tracing the runes that glowed across the window with his finger. Like always, he thought of Caedra. Though he knew she was safe wherever she was, he still longed to have her back.
He’d heard no word from Thor since he had been locked away. He expected it wouldn’t be much longer until Thor had decided his fate and would sentence him. Loki had little hope that Thor would show him any mercy. Though often in the past his brother had tried to reason with him and give him another chance, Loki was sure that Thor would not show him clemency this time. He should never have, but then again
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It had been hours since Loki had been dragged out of the throne room. Just how many hours it had been, he didn’t know, and at this point, didn’t care. He had been screaming and fighting the whole way back to his chambers, and even then he had banged on the door for hours after, all the while continuing to shout and scream. He didn’t care that ultimately it did him no good. He just wanted out. He needed out.
He only fell silent when from complete exhaustion he collapsed on the floor between the door and bed. When he awoke a few hours later, he was still alone, though he could tell that someone had entered while he had been asleep. A tray of food had been placed on the table, as well as a bucket of ice and a think, sturdy cloth.
Loki stood up and glanced down at his hand. It was badly bruised and slightly swollen, especially around his knuckles which had carried the brunt of the force as he’d hit Thor.
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She slowly paced her chambers, her arms crossed over her chest as she tentatively bit the tips of her long fingernails. She had no reason to be nervous or worried and yet despite it all she still was. What was wrong? Maybe it was that she felt alone, maybe that she felt lost. She was a girl of nineteen, but for now she simply felt like a young child separated from those she loved. But she wasn’t really alone. Her family was all nearby, so if she truly sought their company she could have. But that wasn’t what was wrong, and trying to figure out why was driving her mad and bringing her nearly to tears.
Finally she stopped pacing and leaned her back against one of the walls. She uncrossed her arms as she rested her head up against the wall, closing her eyes and sighing deeply. Why did she have to feel this way? Why her, of all people? She did not think that she was any more special than anyone else, but what had she ever done to have such a depression as this?
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It took no time at all for news of Frigga’s death to spread all throughout the city. Many, too many, had died in the Dark Elves’ attack, and while each death was a horrible loss, there were few as affecting as that of the Queen’s. Clair had been in the palace at the time, and she was one of the first to know, and she was stunned by hearing it. Frigga dead? There had been very few people in Clair’s life that had ever died, nor had they been murdered, and none of them had been anyone she had been particularly close with...until now.
In the time that Clair had come to Asgard, she and Frigga had become rather close – their shared concern, love, and care for Loki was a bond that was shared by very, very few. Clair and Frigga would spend hours on end talking, and quite often Frigga would tell stories about Loki when he was a boy. Clair had always enjoyed listening, and she never ceased to find it touching how Frigga’s love
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It was not until morning of the next day that Sif and Loki left their shelter and continued on their way through the vast land of Jotunheim. Loki was particularly upset that they’d had to wait so long, but the Jotuns had been very thorough in their search. Even leaving now was still a risk of being caught, but Loki would wait no longer to go after Caedra. If the Jotuns found them, then they would simply have to fight.
Sif gave a sigh as she stared out at all the land before them. “How far away are they?” she asked, glancing at Loki, who stood next to her, looking, watching – searching. He kept silent as he searched - his magic feeling for any signs of life of another master of magic.
“They are close,” Loki concluded as he turned and began walking.
Sif followed after him closely. Loki seemed more determined than ever, and much angrier than his usual self. “What is it?” she inquired.
“They are close to leaving,
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G - Gallant and playboy
They both had different approaches when it came to people. Steve was always polite and treated everyone friendly, but still kept a professional distance he learnt in the army. Tony was usually all over the place, able to make both men and women swoon, getting exactly everything he wanted. And if it happened that someone was immune to his charm, he could always piss off that person so much, that he/she was on the verge of killing him - he was good at that.
Sometimes it showed when they were together, and Tony was teasing and flirting and annoying Steve badly when he couldn't get what he wanted. On the other hand, Steve was driving him up the wall with those small, polite gestures, like letting Tony always go first through the door, and thank God, he talked Steve out of opening car's door for him.
But as much it was infuriating it was also sweet and loving and even if they both were yelling, they wouldn't ever change these little quirks about the ot
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Steve was sitting on the couch, mouth hanging open. Okay, he probably looked really stupid right now. Luckily no one was around to see it. He shook his head, trying to clear it.
He just saw a commercial of Disneyland in California.
And he wanted to go there.
Okay, he was a grown up man and maybe it was embarrassing, but he wanted. Badly.
Everything seemed so colorful, people were cheerful. It was just.. Magical. Yes, it was an accurate word. Magical.
Suddenly Steve wanted nothing more than go there. And he was sure that if he would ask Tony, they go, after a lot of mocking from brunet's side, of course. But he was embarrassed to ask. Again, he was an adult. A soldier, Captain. With a heavy heart he admitted to himself that he would never see Disneyland.
Steve started gently. Trying to give Tony small hints. So when one day, Tony walked into the living room and saw his boyfriend watching a Mickey Mouse cartoon, a black and white, with terrible animation, on
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M - Memories
Steve didn't have many mementos from his past. Most of them got lost with time, some of them were kept in the museums.
Now he was collecting everything he could from his shared moments with Tony, even things others might considered as trash - a cinema ticket from a movie they went together, a leaflet from an art exhibition Steve dragged Tony to. Steve kept it all hidden in his nightstand in a box with his old sketchbooks and drawing supplies, knowing that Tony will mock him if he ever finds out.
But the truth was that Tony was doing exactly the same thing, just he hid them in his workshop - in a safe, in a cigar box, next to his spare arc.
N - Nightmares
They both were having nightmares from time to time.
Steve's were about war, about Bucky dying in front of him, about being frozen all over again.
Tony's were about captivity in Afghanistan, and about being left on the other side of the Tesseract.
But no matter how bad their nightmares were, they
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Tony was walking towards the kitchen direction. It was 10 p.m. and he knew that he still has at least two more hours of work to do, but he was already sleepy and needed coffee. As he entered he saw Steve, his back facing Tony, doing something at the kitchen counter. Tony snuck up on Steve and wrapped his arms around his waist.
"Hi there sexy," he said in a seductive whisper. Steve shuddered.
"Tony! Don't scare me like that!" he scolded the brunet.
"Sorry" Tony murmured pecking his cheek. "What are you doing?" he asked looking over Steve's shoulder.
"I'm making brownies for you." Tony smiled hearing that. He always liked Steve's cooking and lately he also got into baking. Still, he refused to use the kitchen robot and preferred to do everything with his own hands, but it seemed that he found comfort in it so Tony was not trying to convince him to use the benefits of technology.
"I like your brownies" Tony said, nuzzling Steve's neck. Steve shuddered again, but this time from a different
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Tony was stomping loudly through SHIELD's corridor, fists clenched, teeth gritting, feeling some agent's puzzled looks on his back. Yes, Iron Man was pissed. He just got back from a meeting with Fury and didn't like what he had heard. No, he hated what he had heard. He punched the elevator button with his fist and when got inside, punched the button to his and Steve's floor. He had to do some talking with his boyfriend.
"STEVE!!" he yelled, when the door slid open, getting out on the floor.
"In the kitchen!" Steve shouted back in a calm voice. Tony took his steps there.
When he entered the kitchen, he saw blond preparing dinner. From the smell, he could tell that he was making tomato soup. Tony was sure that later on he will blend it, erasing the traces of any other vegetables he liked to sneak into brunet's food. But Tony was too angry to think about it right now.
"Hi babe, you have to wait for a while, it's not ready yet," Steve chirped, not turning around from the stove, mixing the
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S - Shared
If someone asked Tony what his favorite place in the Avengers Tower was, he would immediately answer with his workshop. If someone would ask Steve about that, he would say his gym. But the truth was that they both shared their favorite place, which was the couch on their floor where they spend many days, Steve drawing, Tony working on his tablet, always close and cuddled to each other.
T - Toppings
Tony liked more intense flavors - chocolate, caramel, sweet, overwhelming. Steve liked whipped cream and fruits. Nevertheless, they quickly found out that whatever they licked off the other's body, it tasted heavenly. Steve was thinking of using it to get Tony to eat some vegetables.
U - Underwear
Tony, being Tony, had all kinds of underwear, depending what kind of clothes he was wearing. When he was wearing a suit, he usually went with boxer briefs, finding them the most comfortable. On his free days, when he was running around his worksh
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There was some impact. A sound of water rushing. He couldn't move. He tried to get away but he couldn't. He felt a gust of cold. Next, freezing water laving his feet. It was so cold it hurt. He shut his eyes at the feeling. The water was getting higher. His calves, his knees, thighs, soon it will be at his midriff. He felt spasm shaking his body. Don't scream. The icy cold water felt like needles. It was beyond cold. But he couldn't do anything. He was just standing there, waiting for the water to engulf him. He could hardly breath. A scream escaped his mouth as water rose to his chest. He felt like the air in his lungs froze, causing him more pain. Any second the water will rise higher and he will start to drown. He opened his eyes, but it made no difference. It was dark. He closed them in pain as water rapidly rose to his chin. He felt as icy cold fingers were crushing his throat. Please no. He took a last breath before he was completely submerged. It was silent. He struggled to
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He couldn't take it. It was quiet. The Tower was full of people, full of life, but he was alone. Part of his heart was gone.
Tony Stark didn't have an easy life. He was successful in his job, had many lovers, many cars and more money than he could ever spend during his whole life. But it was just like Yinsen described him once - "so you're a man who has everything... and nothing." And it was the truth. But since than so many things had changed in his life.
Of course he went through more ordeals, but there were also happy moments in his life. Becoming friends with rest of the Avengers. Becoming friends with Steve. His first date with Steve. Their first night together. The day he had proposed to Steve. He wouldn't say that his life was perfect, but it was much better since Steve stepped into it.
But now Steve was gone.
No, it was worse.
Steve was still here, currently nine floors below him, sitting on the couch between Thor and Bruce, as the whole team gathered to watch a movie.
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"Tony, are you here?"
Tony grunted and rolled his eyes, hearing his boyfriend's voice. He pulled the covers over his head, hiding more into the bed. No, he wasn't here. He was somewhere else. Somewhere in his happy place. Like his private beach in Malibu. Sun, warm sand, sea shells..
A hand on his hip got him back from his thoughts, as Steve sat next to him. Tony didn't answer, just curled more in the bed, definitely pretending that he is not here.
"Babe.." soldier started softly, moving his hand to other's back, as Tony was lying on his side, completely wrapped in the covers. "Are you alright?"
"M'fine.." Tony muffled.
"I heard that you caused an explosion in your workshop."
Tony stiffened, and lowered the blanket, craning his neck to glare at his boyfriend.
"Who told you that?!"
Steve gave a timid smile, and rolled his eyes in the ceilings direction. Tony understood.
"JARVIS, who asked you?!" he growled, burying himself back under the cover
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Steve was going back from a mission SHIELD sent him a week ago. It ended a day earlier, so he was allowed to come back. Steve was a realist. He knew that Tony and their teenage son will probably go wild without any supervision, so he just asked Tony to not order junk food for every meal for both of them and make sure that Peter doesn't stay up late every night. Tony just smiled and reassured him that everything will be fine. Steve had no other choice as to believe him. So when he got out of the elevator on their floor, he did expect to see some mess. But what he saw, wasn't a mess. It was pure chaos. He dropped his bag to the floor, looking around the apartment.
The floor was trashed with bags of chips and wraps from take-away food. A whole army of empty alcohol bottles on the table told Steve that Tony recently organized a party. He saw some damaged furniture with scorch marks, probably Thor's doing. It was one of Tony favorite drunk games, to provoke the demigod that some ungodly pow