MeMy name is unloved,Me in Free Verse More Like This
I live in hell,
curled up in my shell.
I dream of death,
escaping this place
by ceasing my breath.
This is me,
crying in despair,
wishing to be free.
Will I ever know joy,
or will I stay here forever,
your broken little toy?
Not Good EnoughNot good enough for me,Not Good Enough in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
not good enough for you,
maybe all the insults
are simply what's true.
What can I say?
Nothing, I'm done,
so sick and tired
of having to run.
So this is the end,
the last puzzle piece,
the very last straw,
the pain will soon cease.
I won't have to struggle.
There will be no pain,
and everyone's lives
will go on quite the same.
Because I am just me.
The greatest disappointment of all.
So say good-bye,
as I start my free fall.
I Met MeToday I met a girl,I Met Me in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
and she asked, "How are you?"
"Just fine," I replied.
She said, "No, tell me what's true."
Perplexed, I stopped and stared.
She was young, no older than eight.
Her eyes were still innocent.
They knew no hate.
"What did you say?"
I asked in confusion.
"You know what I mean," she said.
This girl was in a delusion.
Trying to be kind,I replied,
"No I do not."
She frowned and replied,
"You lie quite a lot."
Now I was agitated.
What does this girl know?
Acting like she's so intelligent.
I'll just tell her to go.
"Let me explain!"
She exclaimed in haste.
"I know you're not alright.
I know you feel misplaced."
How in the world?
Who is this little girl?
"But I'm here to say you'll be alright.
Though your friends will leave,
leave you feeling alone and cold,
you'll find a reprieve."
"So just stay strong
because I know you can do it."
How? Who are you?
I wished she would quit.
Suddenly it was silent,
and I turned to see,
but there was no one there at al
My Soul to KeepHeart beats fast,My Soul to Keep in Free Verse More Like This
nerves are stretching,
so close to snapping.
Try to calm down.
Take a deep breath,
feel so weak,
so close to death.
and the clock's ticking slow.
When will it be over?
When's my time to go?
about to break.
God, I'm here,
my soul to take.
Take it now.
I'm really done,
tired of fighting,
don't want to run.
I just want to rest,
just want to sleep,
take me forever,
my soul to keep.
House of MirrorsThey say I spinHouse of Mirrors in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
a web of lies,
but webs are for spiders.
They catch their flies.
No, my lies are mirrors,
each a different reflection.
They fill up my house,
my sinful collection.
Sometimes I get lost.
There's so much confusion.
Which ones are real?
Which are illusions?
I try to back track,
but the mirrors turn me around.
I cry out for help,
but the mirrors block the sound.
I give up.
Hang another mirror.
In this one I'm cruel and cold
on the exterior.
How many reflections
will I become?
Which one is real?
Where have I gone?
My SongThe music swirls all around,My Song in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
till all I hear is the joyous sound,
twirling, spinning, moving me,
and the endless notes are all I see.
The beat becomes my hearts own.
I feel as though the light has shown,
and all the sadness fades away,
and I finally see a happier day.
My lips part, and I sing along
To such a redeeming, beautiful song.
These moments come and go too fast.
I enjoy them greatly as they last.
I laugh in glee.
I feel so free.
What magic is this,
this utter bliss?
Stay with me, my pretty song,
with you the days don't seem so long.
With you I am so filled with hope,
I know with you, somehow I'll cope.
Together we'll stay.
You'll scare the darkness away,
Yes, stay here my friend,
play your notes till my end,
and with your melody in my ears,
I'll go without any silly fears.
I'll meet my maker with you at my side,
then he'll hold me close, no need to hide.
Yes, my song, you'll get me there,
with your notes, and tune, so full of care.
You'll be my very dearest friend,
until my bea
Train to NowhereI'm on a train,Train to Nowhere in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Can't see through the rain,
I try not to care.
It's moving too fast,
but how do i slow?
Am I running from my past,
or just eager to go?
I know I should stop,
try to get a grip,
but this train is on lock,
and my sanity begins to slip.
Would it be so bad to ride,
to let this train go on?
We all know that I lied,
that I'm too far gone.
I can never be me,
no matter how I try.
Can't you see?
This has all been a lie.
So I'll sit and relax,
let the train run.
Maybe the train will crash.
Wouldn't that be fun?
Don'tDon't tell me I'm beautiful.Don't in Concrete Poetry More Like This
When i feel disgusting.
Don't Tell me I'm lovely.
When my heart is rusting.
Don't talk to me.
I'm not worth it.
Don't encourage me.
Just let me quit.
Don't touch me.
Don't wish for me.
I'm a prison.
I'm telling you.
Life with me is no fun.
My MaskI put my mask on.My Mask in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Time to face the day.
Time to plaster on a smile.
Time to pretend it's okay.
I want to crawl in bed.
Leave the world behind.
You're too ugly to go out,
whispers my mind.
I know I am,
I stifle a cry.
I want to leave,
I want to die.
My mask is done,
and I have to go.
Time to face the people.
Time to put on my show.
Secret WordsI know you need help.Secret Words in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
It's so plain to see.
Please don't hurt yourself.
You can count on me.
I'll hold you when it's tough,
wrap you up tight.
I know life is rough,
but I'll be your light.
I love you, I do.
You're everything to me.
you don't believe it's true,
but I want to set you free.
I'll be your rock
when all your strength is gone.
I'll be your lock
when everythings gone wrong.
So please don't cry,
my love, my life.
I know you want to die,
but I'll help you through the strife.
Because I'll be there to catch you
when everything falls apart.
I love you, it's so true,
with all of my heart.
PerfectI'm sorry I'm not perfectPerfect in Free Verse More Like This
I’ll probably never be
I’m sorry I’m so selfish
Once I was scared and now I’m damaged
It made me the way I am, cold-hearted
With the evil instinct to hurt inside me
I smile for the world to hide the horrible person I truly am
I pray to find my solace
Forgiveness I feel I’m not worth
So my sins would become as white as snow
It’s funny how the voice of reason is the loudest
When I’m curled up and crying
Reminding me there’s things to be done
Not caring I plead to be left so I can bleed in peace
I know I break promises and never learn from my mistakes
I know I’m insensitive and I talk back
I’m sorry I’m not perfect
If could, I would be for you
I’m sorry I can’t be the perfect daughter
I’ll never be
I’ll just be me.
A Little ThoughtThere was a little thought in my headA Little Thought in Free Verse More Like This
A tiny idea with outlines undefined
But it wasn’t long before its roots spread
And it crawled in every corner of my mind.
It whispered things that I pretended not to hear
Then it made a mess of my already deluded brain
And led my actions as a skilled puppeteer
With thin threads stronger than an iron chain.
Soon it showed itself in its whole beautiful bipolarity
I dug my nails deep into my lips to chase it away
But after a few seconds gone would be the painful clarity
I’d lure it back, staring at the lines and observe their play.
It’s the thought that sings soft lullabies until the dreams come
And you continue to haunt me even when I’m asleep
So when I wake up my heart plays like a drum
Nothing I do seems to scare this confusion so deep.
I both hate and love the power you have over me
I’m terrified of the feeling I’m getting, that I am incomplete
I feel as if I need a mind wipe to once again be free
But then I wou
SomedaysSomedays you just want to quitSomedays in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
people tell you to get over it
they don't care about what you say
all they care about is their day
sometimes you feel you've lost control
stuck inside a twenty foot hole
the sun doesn't shine and you can't see
the way things are supposed to be
you better go and watch your back
cause at any time paranoia can attack
you think you know what is said
it' always stuck there inside your head
I feel like--- I have lost control of myself
no matter what I do, it's hard to trust you
after all the things you have done
you may have had your fun
but look, what you have done to me!…..
UnderstandLife is full of many placesUnderstand in Free Verse More Like This
And so many different faces
Finding all the pieces is hard to do
Looking for your rightful purpose
Like a never ending circus
You wonder when your life will break through
One day you will hope to see
Everything that you can be
You scream up to the starry sky
Never understanding why
Why are you here?
When will things be clear?
Will the sun ever shine on you
And all of the things you have to do
Will you ever find that day
when things will be okay
Just ask yourself this question
When you're feeling lost
"When will I understand?"
"I have my life in my hands! "~
ConfusionLooking up to the sky to seeConfusion in Free Verse More Like This
What will become of me
I am worthless, broken inside
After all of the different things I have tried
Sometimes I just want to fall
Feels like nothing matters at all
Sometimes I just want to cry
What does it matter if I even try?
One day you told me that was it!
That you were tired, you want to quit
Leave this place and leave this town
You lift me up, but then you hit me down
What was I supposed to say?
That everything would be okay
That everything was my fault
And I brought everything to a halt
You make me feel like I am sick
Like you pulled another trick
A hideous disease of the mind
That makes me feel left behind
You always did say, it was my time
To listen, and go to a different rhyme!
Now what am I supposed to do?
How do I make everything like new?
It still..confuses me!
Change the world..This world is so crazyChange the world.. in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Why is everything so hazy
Why is it hard to see
The person inside of me
No matter what place I go
I can't seem to fit in with the flow
As my life passes me by
I wonder if it is a lie
No matter how much I try
All I ever do is cry
Why can't I see
How I am supposed to be
I want people to know
that I have something to show
I want to be the one
to change the world...
I try to keep a smile
but it is hard after a while
this obstacles in my way
almost every single day
this life is full of bliss
and some happiness
why is it so hard to find
especially if you rewind
back into my past
I was always there last
for the one's who needed me
It was hard for me to see
that I am living today
trying to make things my way
living life staying strong
as I move along
I want everyone to know
that I am here to show
that I want to be here
and change the world..
Today, Mummy...Mummy, I felt bad today.Today, Mummy... in Free Verse More Like This
I thought... And thought... And thought.
Mummy, I was crying today.
I hid by myself... The tears wouldn't stop.
Mummy, I saw their pain today.
Why... It's so bad, it's so wrong.
Mummy, I saw it again today.
Why does it happen... It's not fair.
Mummy, I ran out of words today.
I felt empty... There was nothing inside.
Mummy, I found a knife today.
I pressed... The purple veins so close to my skin.
Mummy, I scratched myself today.
There was a line... It was white.
Mummy, I saw some blood today.
A small red line... It was my own.
Mummy, I cried some more today.
Except the tears were red.
Mummy, I cut myself today.
The blood shone like rubies... I smiled.
Mummy, I did it again today.
The knife was red... Glistening.
Mummy, I cut deeper today.
Blood was flowing... It didn't hurt.
Mummy, I lied to you today.
I'm not happy... I'm bleeding.
Mummy, I took some pills today.
It's late now... It hurt so bad.
Mummy, you lost your daughter today.
Mummy, I wish yo
Reach out, my friendThe shadow in the corner,Reach out, my friend in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
His eyes are all cried out,
His mind and body crumbling,
His heart laced with doubt.
She lingers at the doorstep,
Crying red tears of her own,
Speaking of her story,
When happier days were known.
Suffering is so clearly written,
In the tired lines of the face,
Pain is clear as daylight,
The scars they can't erase.
But recovery is a road,
That's better traveled together,
With a rock to support you,
And a post to tie the tether.
So reach out with kindness,
All they need is hope,
A hand up and some loving,
A listening ear to cope.
Tell them this; "My friend,
Life is always worth living,
Everyone makes mistakes,
And god will be forgiving."
"And my friend, in the darkness,
When not a soul is in sight,
The sun will rise in the morning,
And bring a beautiful light."
"So, my friend, keep faith,
Hold on and stay strong,
For you have more to give,
And in this world you belong."
The Angel-GirlYou shot her down,The Angel-Girl in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Wings stained with blood.
Rusting in the mud.
Why, you wondered,
Did she stand strong?
When you clipped her smile,
Strung her along.
And how, is it,
Her smile returns.
After beating and torture,
Does she not learn?
But you never knew,
Her hidden light.
Inside her chest,
Still burning bright.
The light was hope,
Lifting her wings.
Shining her halo,
Of joy, it sings.
Her glow kept secret,
Until her escape.
Her day of glory,
The turning of fate.
She spread her wings,
Later that night,
And once again returned,
To glorious light.
But I will.Fight me.But I will. in Free Verse More Like This
I promise not to fight back.
I promise to smile, I promise to laugh.
I promise to be nice
Even if it's a sacrifice.
I promise to be strong
Even when you treat me wrong.
Because I've learned how to deal with ignorance
Better than you've learned how to use it.
And I promise to smile, and promise to laugh.
Yes, I promise.
I won't (but I will) fight back.
To some people.To some people, it’s called breathing.To some people. in Free Verse More Like This
To me, it’s called inhaling poison,
Which drenches my lungs and sinks into my bones
And melts into my mind.
To some people, it’s called anxiety.
To me, it’s called an unbearable shakiness in my soul
The nervousness preventing my from ever escaping
This disease in my heart.
To some people, it’s called living.
To me, it’s called never being able to run away.
Never being able to truly go, truly leave.
To me, it’s called being caught in a nightmare,
While struggling to dream.
Chasing a mystery with no solution.
Escaping your own sanity to reach more sanity,
Freeing yourself from your happiness to find more happiness.
To some people, it’s called life.
There’s no such thing.
Before you kill yourself...Before you kill yourself,Before you kill yourself... in Free Verse More Like This
Remember just one little thing.
There are places to go,
Where you have never been before.
How can you be sure those places are bad?
There are things to see,
Things you have never seen before.
How can you be sure those things are ugly?
There is a new tune to hear,
Something you've never heard before.
How can you be sure that tune is scary?
There are words to be said,
Things that have never been said before.
How can you be sure those words are hurtful?
There are dreams to be imagined,
Things you have never dreamed before.
How can you be sure that they are nightmares?
Darling, please don't give up.
Please stay strong.
Don't let go.
Stop asking me...Stop asking me what's wrongStop asking me... in Free Verse More Like This
Because I'm never going to answer.
Stop telling me it gets better
Because I've accepted that it'll never change.
Stop begging me to let you in
Because even then, I'm just going to fake a smile.
I'll Just Say What's On My Mind...I’ll just say what’s on my mindI'll Just Say What's On My Mind... in Free Verse More Like This
For everyone to hate.
I used to cry myself to sleep
And slice my skin with blades.
I wrapped a belt around my neck
In hopes of lifelessness,
And after failing even that,
I remained emotionless.
My mother used to cry all day
And my dad used to be ill.
My sister attempted suicide
By swallowing the pill.
My mother tried to kill herself
And we almost watched her fall.
She swallowed gulps of whiskey
And she blamed me for it all.
I have hallucinations,
And delusions, and depression
And fighting my own demons
Has become a slight obsession.
I’ll just say what’s on my mind
For everyone to see.
This is who I am, and hey!
I’m still okay with me.
Hurt...Why is it,Hurt... in Free Verse More Like This
That when you try your best
Not to hurt a soul...
You end up getting hurt
More than anybody else?
CyberbulliesI know you, but you don't know me.Cyberbullies in Free Verse More Like This
I know what I've heard, and I know what I've seen.
You're such a slut (at least that's how it'll seem)
I'll spit at you with hatred until you start to bleed.
I know where you've been and I know what you've done.
I know who you are... now let's have some fun.
"Did you hear about that girl?"
"Yeah. She's so disgusting."
I know you, and I know where to call.
I know you, but you don't know me at all.
I'll dial your number, and hey, it's ringing!
I can't wait to hear your cries singing.
"Slut." "Whore." "Freak." "Weirdo." "Loser."
Well, you're all mine now, so where do i start?
I know! I'll start at the back of your heart.
That guy that you like? Well, we'll pretend we're him.
What should we make him say? Oh, where to begin?
"You're so ugly." "Anorexic!" "Do you always look this bad?"
Next day at school, and you didn't show up.
The teacher comes in with a horrible look.
"She killed herself. Last ni
The reason I stopped tryingI'm just going to stop trying.The reason I stopped trying in Free Verse More Like This
Because you'll never understand.
I carry dreams inside a fist
While you hold cruelty in your hand.
I'm just going to stop trying.
Because I've been through so much hate
I've been through knives and ropes and scars
And wounds and blood and blades.
I'm just going to stop trying.
Because through all I've had to do..
The ignorance of people
Is the worst thing I've been through.
I'm just going to stop trying.
And you want to know the truth?
The reason I've stopped trying
Is because of those like