When I SaidWhen I said I wanted a fairy taleWhen I Said in Free Verse More Like This
I meant I wanted a prince.
I didn't want to be locked in a
I didn't want to be fought by a
I didn't want
When I said I wanted a fairy tale
I meant I wanted to be a princess.
I didn't want to watch a rose
I didn't want to wear the gown
I wanted it
When I said I wanted a fairy tale...
I expected it to end in a
But i never expected it to end like this.
When I'm GoneI don’t want you to remember me.When I'm Gone in Free Verse More Like This
I don’t want you to think of me.
I don’t want you to hurt over me.
I don’t want you to dream of me.
I don’t want you to cry for me.
I don’t want you to miss me.
I don’t want you to love me.
I don’t want you
CastleCome with me, little girlCastle in Free Verse More Like This
Let's watch the rose pedals fall
Let's bury your castle
And put up a brick wall
Lets rip off your butterfly wings
And place them in your grave
The demons have come to get you
You better start to behave
Come with me, little girl
For you can only have the gown for an hour
Do they love you, or love you not,
Ripping pedals off a flower
Come with me, little girl
Let's open your scars
And bury your castle,
In the girl you no longer are...
To some people.To some people, it’s called breathing.To some people. in Free Verse More Like This
To me, it’s called inhaling poison,
Which drenches my lungs and sinks into my bones
And melts into my mind.
To some people, it’s called anxiety.
To me, it’s called an unbearable shakiness in my soul
The nervousness preventing my from ever escaping
This disease in my heart.
To some people, it’s called living.
To me, it’s called never being able to run away.
Never being able to truly go, truly leave.
To me, it’s called being caught in a nightmare,
While struggling to dream.
Chasing a mystery with no solution.
Escaping your own sanity to reach more sanity,
Freeing yourself from your happiness to find more happiness.
To some people, it’s called life.
There’s no such thing.
Suicide NoteAll I ask is, when I die, please do remember meSuicide Note in Free Verse More Like This
Not for things I've done and not for things I've heard or seen
Not for what I seemed to be, not even for the truth
Not for what I have accomplished in my shortened youth
Please, just let my feelings hit the cold, damp, moldy floor
I know my emotions didn't matter much before
All I ask is, when I die, don't worry over pain…
All I ask is, when I die, just treat me much the same…
The reason I stopped tryingI'm just going to stop trying.The reason I stopped trying in Free Verse More Like This
Because you'll never understand.
I carry dreams inside a fist
While you hold cruelty in your hand.
I'm just going to stop trying.
Because I've been through so much hate
I've been through knives and ropes and scars
And wounds and blood and blades.
I'm just going to stop trying.
Because through all I've had to do..
The ignorance of people
Is the worst thing I've been through.
I'm just going to stop trying.
And you want to know the truth?
The reason I've stopped trying
Is because of those like
Mind, oh MindSmiley face, smiley face, can't you ever see?Mind, oh Mind in Free Verse More Like This
So much to be sad about, so much that could be
Going wrong for everyone, going wrong for you.
Smiley face, smiley face, don't you feel it too?
Sad face, sad face, can't you ever tell?
So much could be going great, going oh so well
Sad face, sad face, can't you ever see?
Life is spend much better when your thinking thoughts of glee.
Mind, oh mind, why can't you agree?
Thinking everything at once is slowly killing me...
No Longer a Little GirlDear imagination, can't you be the thing you wereNo Longer a Little Girl in Free Verse More Like This
Butterflies and daffodils and happiness so pure
Sunny skies and lullabies and dreams of what could be
Hidden worlds and wonderlands of things they couldn't see
Shining gowns and silver crowns for dancing with the prince
Twirling with excitement, though the others weren't convinced
Dear intimidation, did you find it to be true
All I ever needed was an overdose of you
Silly stares and laughter slowly flood a child's mind
Making me abandon every daydream I could find
Lost beneath the shadows of the sky so dark and dead
Far too weak to turn around, yet scared of things ahead
Dear destructive tendencies, I feel it's time to hear
You were all I had when nothing else seemed to be near
Everything so out of reach, too far for me to see
I decided I would choose the needle next to me
Slicing through my very skin to feel something once more
Weeping through the satisfaction I could not ignore
Dear imagination, can't you be the thing you were?
So much time, so little to doI have seen the beauty of a dove beneath the skiesSo much time, so little to do in Free Verse More Like This
I have told the harshest truths, and I have told some lies
I have seen a child cry into its mother's arms
I have been that weeping girl who held onto self-harm
I have heard the laughter of a man about to die
I have seen the anger resting deep within their eyes
I have been the victim of my own disgusting thoughts
I have seen the best of people slowly start to rot
I have felt the heartache; I have seen a love go blue…
So much time is left to spare, but so much less to do…
Get Over It“You’re just sad.”Get Over It in Free Verse More Like This
“Suck it up.”
And the worst?
“Get over it.”
I’m not just sad. I suffer from depression
Waiting for happiness’s resurrection.
I can’t just forget it, it’s in me for good
I can’t do the things that I know I should.
I’m not just sad. I’m broken. I’m lost.
I’ve tried everything to fix it, no matter the cost.
I’ve carried a blade just to hold to my wrist.
I’ve carried a dream inside of my fist.
I’ve talked about it, like they say I should do
But all my efforts are stopped by ignorant people like you.
“You’re just sad.”
“Suck it up.”
And the worst?
“Get over it.”
.a spider weaves. in Free Verse More Like This
his silver lies on my
front door, and i
walk right in;
the flies laugh
.your heart. in Free Verse More Like This
not to beat
.i feel change, the way. in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
the birdsong changes when the
cat goes out for lunch
.death says he's a busy man. in Free Verse More Like This
got places to go and
people to see
book an appointment on the way out
.the sea spits. in Free Verse More Like This
me back onto
the shore -
the waves say
this is not the
right tide, the
.the reaper plays. in Free Verse More Like This
solitaire when he's got
some time to kill
but when your time's
up it's back to work, cos
he's gotta make a living
like the rest of us
.death has a way. in Free Verse More Like This
of assuring you
that he is your
he's the only
one that will
stay with you
reach the end
.in the night. in Free Verse More Like This
time you are
skin and stitches
you up with a
purer love, until
the morning comes,
the sun runs his
teeth through your
seams again, splits
I Know You Hate Me Now But...I Know You Hate Me Now But...:I Know You Hate Me Now But... in Free Verse More Like This
Just give me a chance alright, I'll explain
To me, you're the girl that I notice everything about.
The way you laugh, the way you smile;
We got along great back then, even if we don't now.
And to be honest, I miss that...
You had the most lovely silky smooth hair
You'd give me the cutest anime girl smile
I wish I'd talked to you more about Manga,
Hell you got me started on the whole thing.
You were fantastic at drawing too
Man I was always jealous of that talent,
And I loved your drawings, like I once loved you.
I wish that you could have been a professional.
I would have bought your book every month y'know...
You encouraged me to write.
Back when my stories were shit,
Back when my poems were still baby's rhymes.
You taught me not to give in and I was grateful.
Now just let me finish alright?
I know that you won't speak to me.
That's okay, I admit to being an ass,
But the reason that I'm writing this poem to nobod
I've Changed (Yeah right)I've Changed (Yeah right):I've Changed (Yeah right) in Free Verse More Like This
You know, I tell myself everday,
That I'm going to change - that I'll be different.
'This isn't the same; I'm not the same,' that's what I tell myself...
As I sit in front of the computer, praying time doesn't move.
Coward, you're weak and you'll always be weak! You bloody disgrace...
I pick up some new magazine, get inspired,
'I want to be like that guy,' is what I think to myself.
I give it a try for two or three days - I quit.
Same old shit again...
Making up excuses? It's what you always do, you gutless wonder...
I try to reach out with my hands,
Seeking something, anything that I can find to help myself hold on...
But I don't find it - I just find myself,
Sinking back down into the same black swamp - I'm drowning.
Awww, what's the matter? You gonna cry, you gonna cry?
Yeah, I've hit rock bottom,
And you know what? It feels pretty damn good down here.
Nice, warm, comfortable, familiar.
No pressure, no problems - just like everb
Things I Do When I Feel Down :cThere are times in our lives,Things I Do When I Feel Down :c in Free Verse More Like This
When we hit the all time low.
When the second-hand serenades no longer cut it,
And when simply 'letting it burn' no longer works for us.
We roll upon our beds like a roly-poly collection of rolltastic things;
And we lay face up toward the ceiling, slaying monsters on our portable consoles.
But that my friends is when inspiration strikes!
That is the moment when I rise up from the covers,
When I take a marker pen in my hand and use it as a microphone.
When my neighbours wonder what the bloody hell is going on,
Because I've started singing songs by Nightwish.
And when I get bored of that, IRON SAVIOUR,
Heavy Metal never dies!
Marylin Manson, The Beautiful People.
Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, Your Guardian Angel.
Because truly when I see you smile,
Though tears may not run down my face,
I would never in this world replace:
The feeling of a success, and the smile it might brings
When I entertain you, with the way I sing.
And if you've gotten
DieDie:Die in Free Verse More Like This
Such a simple word, spewed without thought.
"I wish you'd die, I wish you'd be killed."
But what if we actually gave meaning to those words?
Can you understand the emotion, the magnitude, the weight,
Of actually seeing the life of an individual depart?
Can you look them in the eyes, as they bleed into your hands;
Observing their final moments, as the light fades from their eyes?
Or are you simply a soft-hearted coward,
Sitting fat behind a computer, wishing death upon others?
To say that one is deserving of death,
Suggests that you are ready to kill.
And if indeed you are ready to kill,
Then you too must be prepared to die.
"Now please, stop those tears my good man, we've only removed three of your toes so far (^_^)"
-Chen Yuan Wen, 9th July 2013
DesperationI wonder how many days you've spent feeling lost.Desperation in Free Verse More Like This
Thinking that you're going somewhere.
Never actually getting anywhere.
You look at the same four walls over and over again.
You can paint them in different colours,
But you know they're still the same.
And you convince yourself that you're making progress,
Nothing's changed, but you're making progress.
Things are getting worse, but you're making progress.
And then you wake up and realise,
That shit has hit the fan...
Suddenly you're forced to do the things you couldn't,
The kind of things that you were never comfortable with.
And you find out you can do them.
You find out that the only reason you couldn't,
Was because you were afraid to try.
It's hard - trying to take that first step.
It's hard - trying to convince yourself to take that chance.
It Came From The DarkIt Came From The Dark:It Came From The Dark in Free Verse More Like This
Amongst the ashes, swirling from the darkness of the pit,
Emerged a hand, dragging a battered body across the rocks.
Blood leaked from the wounds so callously self-inflicted,
And teeth ground with a focused determination and seething anger.
It cared not for the warm rubies - staining the jagged rocks,
It cared not for the sensation of pain...
All that it remembered was a dream, An obsession -
One that drove it ever higher; ignoring all else!
Eventually it emerged from this shadowy hole, this dreary depth,
And in that moment, it learned of the truth.
For this creature, denied sunlight and warmth -
-Chen Yuan Wen, 11th December 2012
Being A Good Person is a CHOICE!Now, imagine this situation for a moment:Being A Good Person is a CHOICE! in Free Verse More Like This
You are a good father, a wonderful husband.
You go 'pray' every Sunday, doing a wonderful lip-service.
You've taken your kids to soccer practice
And you are ready to enjoy your Sunday.
Tui bu qi, ni ke yi pang wo ma?
You turn around and see an old Chinese lady.
She can't speak English and needs assistance.
You pretend you cannot hear her and drive away.
Smooth-stuff dad, you should return that #1 mug...
To me however, there would be no question.
I was late to a part-time job, it would actually cost me money;
And did I mention I can't speak Chinese either?
Instead I communicated with gestures and signs.
She wanted to go to the train station, as I later learned.
With your car it would have taken five minutes.
But we walked and that is also okay.
To be honest, you might think you've done more good than evil.
You might think there is a welcoming committee for you at the pearly gates.
I regret to inform you however, that
I Believe In YouI Believe In You:I Believe In You in Free Verse More Like This
You feel like things have gone into the ground
When everything is gone and crashing down.
You took your pain and tried to make it end
But give me one more chance to hold your hand...
See I will believe it...
I know you're strong inside
Just try once to see it
You will believe that-
You will be alright,
And we are all here by your side
We'll take you through those painful days
We soar like birds and fly away hey!
You will know that we're here,
Cause when you open those eyes my dear;
We will all be here
We will all be here
We will all be here...
See once it was so hard to carry on,
But take my hand, my shoulder; we'll be strong.
Don't think about the things that are all behind,
Just look ahead and hearts will heal with time.
Yeah live and believe it
Cause I know you're strong inside
Just try once to see it;
You will believe that
You will be alright
And we are right here by your side
Throw away those painful days
Take a breath and step away hey!
This is a SongThis is a song for the lost, the broken and the damned,This is a Song in Free Verse More Like This
This is a song for the hopeless, the outgunned and the outmanned.
This is one for the sinners, and the non-believers too,
This is a song for all those people, people just like YOU!
This is the anthem of the normal, the oppressed and the abused,
This is a song for those people hidden from everybody's views.
This is the prayer of the unwanted, the unneeded and the small,
This is one for the unheeded, so let's give it our all!
This is a song for the people, who always just want to cry,
This is the anthem for those who have once wanted to die!
This is a song for all the people, that are dead inside,
This is a song for everyone, who has ever cried.
-by Forgotten-Reaper, 24th July 2012
These Tears Would Come:These Tears Would Come:These Tears Would Come: in Free Verse More Like This
If my tears could tell a story of two -
What would they have to say about you?
Of a boy who spent his whole life seeking
And a girl who found it in the arms of another…
Would they tell us of laughter? Beneath a starlit sky,
Or of harsh words exchanged on bitter nights.
Would they speak of moments, so beautifully captured;
To be enjoyed in memory, like a perfect wine.
Or perhaps they would tell us of an untampered truth:
Of the lonely nights spent longing, for an Eden lost.
Captivated, habituated, to this lonely habit of you;
For her alone, these tears would come.
-Chen Yuan Wen, 31st march 2013
Journey To The NewJourney To The NewJourney To The New in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
The sound of familiarity permeates from behind my ears,
You come from my right, from behind, your beauty stunning my vision,
Voice of pure silk and eyes of effortless allure,
Give me your hand, honey; let me get it started,
Let me caress your arms and kiss your fingertips,
I’ll just admire your frame for a moment,
Then search for that button on the nape of your neck,
And hear the subtle sound of agreement,
Breath escapes your lips like wind flowing through trees,
I smile at your reaction and continue on, going a bit further
Kissing and nibbling ever-so gently,
I then move upward to your cheeks, now we’re getting warmer,
I peck your cheek and you smile against my embraces,
I graze your nose, then your forehead,
Your breath against my face is just amazing;
I then touch your right cheek with my lips,
Then look into your beautiful grey orbs,
They’re instructing me to “go ahead,”
And I do just that, brushing my lips against your
Don't Be AfraidDon’t Be AfraidDon't Be Afraid in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Don’t be afraid of the darkness
That may sometime inhabit your mind
Because through the dark you can see the light and learn valuable lessons
One doesn’t need to be afraid of sadness or pain
When they know how to deal with it in a healthy and prosperous way
I may be young, only 16 years of age
But I sometimes feel like I have a 40 year old brain
Because I’m not afraid of talkin’ about my darkest days
And putting them out for everyone to see, I want them to learn from my mistakes
My anger, sadness, apathy and pain are all a part of me
And this is why I’m not afraid of it, because I’m finally learning how to handle it
And this is why I refuse to tread personal issues, lightly
So when I write, I want to add emotions and my pain to it because this is my outlet
Because this poetry is my story and I want people to want to read it over and over again
To put my lines and rhymes on repeat as their eyes fly from left
Look Into The MirrorLook Into The MirrorLook Into The Mirror in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Look into the mirror and tell me what you see,
You see eyes that are lifeless; your soul isn’t there anymore
But how is that? Mirrors reflect without emotions or feelings, so how can that be?
You feel out of place, like seaweed from the ocean floor being washed ashore
And left to decompose to a hard, dying shell of a leaf
Alone, and it will never return back to the ocean, and it will die with no one, without remorse
This is how you look at yourself, how you feel
A decomposing piece of seaweed as you look back at your reflection
Your wounds are not evident on the exterior, but they control your psyche
And with your sanity, your soul has left you as a desolated combination,
Of isolation, aggression, dejection, abjection, degradation and depression
And as you look into the mirror, the tiny shred of hope you had left has now been devoured,
And you fall towards the bathroom tile in a crippled, crushed heap of sadness
Downtrodden, you fall into
All Love (For Any Ethnicity)All Love (For Any Ethnicity)All Love (For Any Ethnicity) in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
I got love for everybody, any ethnicity
Any color or creed, it doesn’t matter to me
‘Cause at the end of the day we’re all human beings
I personally don’t believe in minorities or majorities
‘Cause I got love for you, if you have love for me
Every color is beautiful, every person is incredibly unique
But isn’t it funny, the definition of race?
“A vying with others for victory”
So when you’re fillin’ out your hospital forum for race, or ethnicity
You’re essentially battling for supremacy
But you and I both know that doesn’t sound quite right
It actually sounds pretty wrong, if ya’ ask me
And while ignorance and racism will always exist
It’s inevitable really, and there’s no way to destroy it
The old cliché, “Treat others how you want to be treated,”
Isn’t valued anymore, ‘cause we’re all battling for dominance, a
Bite Your Tongue Till It BleedsBite Your Tongue Till It BleedsBite Your Tongue Till It Bleeds in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Speak now or forever hold your peace,
Or is it piece?
‘Cause if I hold this piece of my mind,
To myself, there will be no peace,
Only an explosion of the mental mine
That riddles mine.
I’m no man, I’m a mime,
Holding his hands over his mouth,
Biting my tongue so these words have no way out,
With my eyes half-lidded, the other half brimmin’,
With tears near the bottom half of the rim,
Ready to fall like rainwater races down a windowsill.
Angry to the point where I wish I could control the skies,
Rain down Hell and fury that has built up inside,
And watch my furious vision destroy the night.
But this is not me,
This not how I am,
Nor how I will ever be.
It’s just that I’ve been holding my peace
For such a long damn time.
Now it just seems the only “peace” I’m holding,
Are pieces of my mind.
Never Feel AloneNever Feel AloneNever Feel Alone in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
For those in need; help them
So they don’t feel alone in this sometimes evil and sick world we live in
No one deserves to go live a life alone or feel like they’re by themselves,
Because as a team, any group of people can fight on through this,
And with love they will prosper through these dark and critical times
Let people have someone to lean on, something that will help them moving forward
And help them return to comfort; so someone can comfortably live their life
Give them something to strive for and look towards,
Because with a set of goals it can give one’s life meaning
It can give a lost soul some direction
And with love and determination, we can get through this phase of testing,
Tests that will forever help mold us as people; difficult times will be our defining moments
And I know those that have lost or feel hopeless may not see this,
But there’s hope, there’s life; somehow, someway we’ll find positivity throu
Deceit (It Can Kill)Deceit (It Can Kill)Deceit (It Can Kill) in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
One of the worst things you could do a to person,
For me, is to abuse and take advantage of their trust
And once a small lie is created, it could become a toxin
Poisoning and killing any and every relationship it’s able to touch
And once the disease known as deceit touches a family
It can break one’s spirit and make little boys weep
Deceit, it can kill……….when a father says he’ll always be there for us,
When your father swears to never deceive again and does it even though he PROMISED
He promised and it was a lie, now the hate for him follows you like an aura of darkness;
Resentment and hate builds towards a man you love and you hate yourself for having these thoughts,
Towards a man that helped bring you into the world, but love cannot be bought,
Not after the act you committed against the mother, and for the son, the hate will stay
Till you get back on the narrow and straight
Deceit, it can kill…
At Night, I CryAt Night, I CryAt Night, I Cry in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
At night, I cry because I can’t stop thinking about the old me
When no one’s around, I weep warm tears that slide down my cheeks slowly
And it’s odd, I feel so unsatisfied but I refuse to use the word “unhappy”
I think back to the times where I would just laugh with my little friends, gleefully
Now that I’m older, I feel myself constantly over-thinking
Just constantly thinking of bad habits and fears
Maybe it’s something I did; maybe I’m the bad seed
Maybe I do deserve this horrible treatment by my peers
Or maybe I’m just doing what I do best, over-think
I do it everyday, think to the point where it sickens me
Now I’m physically sick from staring at this laptop screen, constantly
‘Cause now it seems it’s all I have left
Everyone knows what I crave but I can’t seem to do anything about it
And I can’t share my innermost thoughts with them, in-depth
Because my mom will
What's RealWhat’s RealWhat's Real in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
What’s real? Is it something you have to see to believe?
Is it something that HAS to be concrete to accept?
Something you want, something you need?
Is everything you see real? Or is it a façade that needs to be forgotten?
I often have these questions, how I’m perceived
If people believe in what I say, what I mean, along with what people expect
If you’re not by my side can you truly put your heart on the line and trust me?
I proudly say that I have with people, and even though it’s been broken at times, I have no regrets
Trust isn’t easily given and if it’s broken it isn’t easily recovered
I naively expected the truth,
But the only thing I found were lies that were covered
So I admit, I’ve played the fool,
That’s why when I finally found someone I believe in; they should believe every word I utter
Because I know what it’s like to be lied to,
And no one deserves to feel that disappoi
DoubtsDoubtsDoubts in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
At the base of most of my insecurities comes from a bad habit of mine,
Where I’ll think little things to death and continue adding more stress,
I’ve gotten a bit better at not over-thinking, but I’m still not completely satisfied,
Sometimes my insecurities will creep up on me at most pivotal moments,
Mainly when it’s late at night and I’m just trying to wind down,
That’s when my thoughts go into overload,
And I’m stuck pondering many sporadic trials and doubts,
And more often than not, the uneasiness I feel will show,
Like Texas lawns after a severe drought,
And this is why I write as much as I do,
To release any negative energy that may become something more than just dark clouds,
And my doubts always seems to come back to the same thing, too
How I handle myself in personal relationships,
Whether I’m conducting myself in a manner that’s appropriate,
Or if I’m simply a burden,
And that it’s ju
How did you get those scars?And I asked her,How did you get those scars? in Free Verse More Like This
"Do you remember
why I counted tiles-
sat in silence for hours,
wishing on the black holes
in my pockets?"
Stuttering against quiet delusions,
She bit a vintage tongue.
I tried to bury myself alive that night,
just to engrave the taste of rose thorn monsters
between the cracks of my glass skin."
Licking dry lips,
She asked to taste them.
Heart:a rebellionHeart: in Free Verse More Like This
in her chest.
she's got skin
unworthy to write
she tapes those
to her limbs
Writer ScarsI have told my secretsWriter Scars in Free Verse More Like This
through loves ink -
painted them to my skin
with watercolor defiance.
& writers, we sometimes
write about our scars
in riddles, layers upon
layers of thought, -
care for them
on the warlands
of our bodies.
we give them faces,
we give them names,
we give them gravestones.
We kill them off
in our stories,
make them villains,
make them heroes.
I have wrists that roar,
& I will be damned
if I don’t let them
tell their stories.
Please, forgive me.Like lies, you saidPlease, forgive me. in Free Verse More Like This
I make breathing the cosmos
through rose colored lungs
look easy- vertebrae stretched
toward the moon.
& I'm hanging my bones
out to dry, carving Saturn's
rings into my wrists- my
star burst ankles.
I swore then I'd keep my
black tongued poetry
& uprooted limbs far,
far away from you.
But, like lies, galaxies,
& night fevers, you
are the destination
on my star map skin.
To be a writerYou taste like decaying leavesTo be a writer in Free Verse More Like This
and October's bad habits-
when it’s halfway through February
that still haunts these bones.
I have allowed you to
claw your love
into my arms
and chant into my
for much too long.
I wish I was one of those girls
who could say wild flowers
grow up through my nooks
and my crannies just to tear
through my skin, screaming.
I’m just that dead eyed deer
on the side of the road dreaming
of shoving a pen down my throat
and writing these verses inside out.
I am no scribe, prophet, or spell caster.
I know it.
My skin knows it.
My pen knows it too.
Years and years
my mind will dwell
on the way your fingers
chain linked between my ribs
and shook my
to be a writer
is to be a masochist,
and I refuse to get off
on the pain anymore.
Show me what the stars look like tonight.I’ve fallen in love with wars & darkness.Show me what the stars look like tonight. in Free Verse More Like This
The kind of darkness said to have made
shadow monsters of seen-too-much eyes
& the kind of war lands made of
desecrated, dandelion wrists.
I am the wind, the morphine pump
& I’ve carved my bones into stars.
I wear them around my neck
like outward sun marrow
warming my carotid pulse.
These little glow-in-the-dark blankets
aren’t enough to stifle the sounds;
but my anatomy never seemed to fit
together the right way anyway.
Are you Gay?My heart threatens to gag me.Are you Gay? in Free Verse More Like This
Needing to exorcise a demon,
these speechless fingers tremble
against silent computer keys.
Voice hiding, far off
in one of those dusty shelve books
with the yellowed pages, smelling of
age and wisdom's of years past
one finds in a 25 cent bookstore.
I think I'm dying, gagging and choking
on words that lock themselves willingly away
behind a worthless, self loathing poets tongue.
"I don't know."
I. don't. fucking. know.
I must hate myself, or this demon that breathes
its hot, angry whispers inside my head
would set me free from a castled prison
built within the marrow of these cowardly bones.
Spit, and tears, and beady crow eyes
have me shaking in my own skin.
Skin I once thought worn tough,
dragon scaled and fire proof.
It flakes, and it peels
leaving me in naked, bleeding layers.
A cowardly lioness, fearing wrath
for sins of the flesh she can't help but commit.
Judge me not,
For even that is a sin.
When Your Best is Not Good EnoughDon't speak.When Your Best is Not Good Enough in Free Verse More Like This
Don't hold yourself together.
Don't fall apart.
Don't pretend it is all going to be okay.
Don't act like it won't be all right.
Don't touch me.
Don't look away from me.
Don't be so needy.
Don't be so grateful.
Don't act silly.
Don't be so serious.
Don't have so much fun.
Don't be so sullen.
Don't love anyone too much.
Don't be so selfish.
Don't ignore me.
Don't love me too much.
And hope? Hope is just a lie you tell yourself so that tomorrow, you can do it all over again.
Body Speak, Mouth Don't."I need a favour. You got a minute?"Body Speak, Mouth Don't. in Free Verse More Like This
No. No I don't.
My heart feels ripped out of my chest and trampled on too often.
My ears open to screams in the morning.
My eyes close crying every night.
My mind always turns dreams into nightmares.
My lungs contract too soon for me to catch my breath.
My worries far outweigh my years.
My brain feels overworked, overwrought, so tired.
My stomach cramps every night and I curl up in pain.
My knees weaken often but I'm still standing.
My mouth goes dry and I can't speak.
My hands dampen because I have too much to think about.
My bones feel weaker than they ever have before.
But I don't think it's anything to be worried about, really.
"Sure. How can I help you?"
Wistful"I am the boy who wants to loveWistful in Free Verse More Like This
your misshapen words,
your broken hearted pieces,
your ink split fingers.
I am the boy who wants to kiss
those scar tattooed arms,
that tear stained face
mend what has been broken.
I am the boy who can
make your heart
sing poetry again."
If only he would say it
like he had
Lying, Cheating Harlot“I have issues.”Lying, Cheating Harlot in Free Verse More Like This
“That’s a revelation.”
“No. Seriously. I have issues.”
“All right. I’ll bite. What’s going on?”
“I don’t think I’m ever going to find someone who’ll love me.”
“What? Why're you looking at me like that?”
“You aren’t serious, right?”
“I am glad my pain makes you so incredulous.”
“All right, let me try this again. If you can't find someone who loves you, who am I to you?”
“Don’t answer that. That was rhetorical. I am the girl who spends hours huddled in a corner of a library, trying to find what you love the most about Marlowe, just so I can write you a poem worthy of Shakespeare. I’ve made books my lovers, hours my enemies and you the only story.”
“You do that for-”
“I am the girl who will split her fingers in two and let the ink fall on pages and p
One Like WaterWe speak.One Like Water in Free Verse More Like This
We all live.
We all die.
So tell me again.
make us so different
from each other?
Introductions"Hi, I'm-"Introductions in Short Stories More Like This
"I know who you are."
"You're the guy who thinks he's invisible."
"I have a name-"
"It isn't important. Because you really don't think it's important."
"All right. Since we've started out this way, let me just tell you, I know you too."
"You're the girl who is broken."
"I am not broken."
"You're the girl whose eyes close every night and open the next morning, only to find you have never slept at all."
"I sleep well. Besides-"
"You're the girl who dreams of a happy ending even though she has seen seventeen...no, eighteen unhappy ones in her eighteen years."
"Happy endings are over rated. And you're-"
"You're the girl who wants something bigger, something stronger, just so the weakness in her body becomes something so much more."
"You don't understand weakness the way-"
"You're the girl whose heart broke when she was so young, and she fixed it back together with superglue, but cannot ignore the cracks."
"Superglue makes for a good companion, especially when-"
Seventeen (In Phases)1.Seventeen (In Phases) in Emotional More Like This
It was because her parents had named her for the grandmother who had broken her mother’s heart. The grandmother whose heart was supposed to have melted from her birth and hadn’t.
That was why her mother barely looked at her. That was why she called her ‘girl’.
That was why she liked to pretend she was the quiet woman in the background of an old black and white movie. Because everything here was like an old black and white movie.
[And if she really looked back, her mother had never appreciated the elegance of the 1950s enough.]
It was because she hated surprises. The surprise she got on her sixth birthday when her father left taught her just how a single person had the ability of taking your soul, splitting it in two and wearing it on their breast pocket like a white carnation waiting to die.
That was why when she lifted a book, she looked at the last page first.
That was why her namelessness had become a comfort to her.
That was why sh
I'm Not the Marrying KindI'm not the marrying kind.I'm Not the Marrying Kind in Free Verse More Like This
I have stones in my hair instead of flowers,
And a rosebush of thorns is more poignant to me.
I'm not the marrying kind.
My words aren't pretty or wise,
And I can't sing about anything but a broken heart.
I'm not the marrying kind.
I am the sort of damaged you see in an old recorder,
And the kind of old in an instrument that breaks into a billion pieces at a touch.
I'm not the marrying kind.
Neither neat, nor tidy, nor correct in my behavior,
And yes, I did in fact tell you to fuck yourself.
I'm not the marrying kind.
I do not stay silent in arguments,
And I like to lie compulsively, just to see your face change.
I'm not the marrying kind.
I am not the ideal of any lady, nor her likes,
And I do not allow any man to walk all over me.
No. I am not the marrying kind.
But I do like the idea of a little girl with her mo
Blame Me.It's my fault we met that afternoon.Blame Me. in Free Verse More Like This
It's my fault that I wasn't looking for anything.
It's my fault that you were good to me then.
It's my fault that you told me that you would love me.
It's my fault that I fell in love with you despite not wanting to.
It's my fault you couldn't commit to me.
It's my fault that despite everything I had been through, I trusted you.
It's my fault I spoke about the rape.
It's my fault that I mentioned the pain.
It's my fault she died just when I had thought I could keep her.
It's my fault that you treat me like someone who needs you.
It's my fault you don't want me.
It's my fault that you never loved me.
It's my fault that all I am is a game.
It's my fault that I am damaged.
It's my fault that I am used goods.
It's my fault that I am unlovable.
It's my fault.
It's my fault.
It's all my fault.
What it wasn't.No, my love. It's not the way you don't listen when I speak.What it wasn't. in Free Verse More Like This
I've realized that you do listen. You just forget.
No, my sweetheart. It's not the way you don't find me witty.
I've learnt that our senses of humour are different.
No, my darling. It's not the way you pick on my flaws.
I've understood that you love me despite them.
No, my dear. It's not the way you always ignore me like I'm just a girl.
I've figured out that I'm more even when your friends ask who I am.
No, my pet. It's not the way you never call me back when I need you.
I've come to the conclusion that you won't be there when I need you.
No, my sweet. It's not that you do not say it at all and when you do it's forced.
These are not the reasons why I've finally realized you don't love me.
Maybe years from now, when you sit and wonder about me, you'll realize
The reason I left was not words or sentiment or ideas or feelings
It's because your eyes are always wide open when you kiss me.
Here With YouYou're right on the edge,Here With You in Free Verse More Like This
But you don't want to fall.
You're grasping in the air,
For anything at all.
Finally you find,
A place in my hand.
I begin to pull,
Bring you onto land.
Don't you worry.
You're safe here.
You'll be okay.
There's nothing to fear.
I see you crying.
You think of the end.
You feel so alone,
But I will be your friend.
Just talk with me.
You can even cry.
Just tell me everything.
Please don't be shy.
I just want you to smile.
I know it's tough to do.
Please just remember,
That I am here with you.
I Can't Take It AnymoreI can't take it anymore.I Can't Take It Anymore in Free Verse More Like This
Make it stop.
Is life worth it?
Why do I bother?
Would you care?
Would anyone care?
Maybe life isn't for everone.
The razor and the slice.
Slit my throat.
In Another StateIn another state, all alone.In Another State in Free Verse More Like This
I Moved out on my own.
Family seems like a curse,
But being away is so much worse.
What to do, I'm not sure.
Maybe support is part of the cure.
Thinking about leaving this place.
Return to the familiar faces.
A great job, I'll leave behind.
At home, what will I find.
There's all the money that I earn.
And the money I have to return.
What if things fall back to before.
I really want something more.
A change in my life is what I need,
Instead of focusing on this greed.
What if things just don't turn new?
I'm not really sure what to do.
Maybe I'll go back and get my PhD.
I could even switch to psychology.
I guess I'll just wait and see.
Things can only improve for me.
I Am So SorryI am so sorry for what I do to you.I Am So Sorry in Free Verse More Like This
I just can't help some of what I do.
I can tell in your eyes, you're in pain.
In your shoes, I would be the same.
I wish I could show, how much you mean to me.
When you look at me, I wonder what you see.
I want to say it's over; do it no more.
In my head I'm fighting a terrible war.
I promise I'm trying as hard as I can.
Please believe me. I promise I am.
You still accept me; hold me tight.
It will be tough, but I will win the fight.
I hope you know how much I really care.
I can't believe that you're still there.
Staring In the MirrorStaring in the mirror.Staring In the Mirror in Free Verse More Like This
Is this all I'll ever be?
Please don't call me beautiful.
Bones are beautiful.
Starving for perfection.
Beauty is pain.
No pain, no gain.
One day I'll be beautiful.
Happy BirthdayA place where I can be me.Happy Birthday in Free Verse More Like This
Where I can share myself,
Without being judged.
Where I found that I'm not alone.
There are others like me.
There are others worse.
So much confidence,
In my poetry.
For the first time,
I feel like I'm doing something right.
Thank you, everyone.
Happy birthday, deviantART.
I Love YouI don't know you, but I love you.I Love You in Free Verse More Like This
This isn't something you have to do.
I see you staring at that knife,
Thinking about ending your life.
I don't know what's made you bitter,
But please just reconsider.
You are loved no matter what.
No ifs, ands, or buts.
I just want to see you smile.
I know it might take a while.
Remember that someone cares.
I wish that I could be there.
I'll talk whenever you need me,
No matter what it may be.
I may not know what to say,
But I can listen any day.
Just remember you're not alone.
Let my love always be known.
Silent ScreamsSilent screams.Silent Screams in Free Verse More Like This
If only you knew.
If people could see.
If only I could tell you.
Don't want to ask for help.
The cries you never heard.
I need help.
Someone please help.
You can't tell.
Tears I've shed
When no one's around.
My heart is bleeding
Behind my wall
Deep inside me.
I just want someone to care.
August-Skylines Title PoemConfessionAugust-Skylines Title Poem in Free Verse More Like This
The monster in me
How I feel
With the tears
Don't Talk to MeDon't talk to me. Just leave me alone.Don't Talk to Me in Free Verse More Like This
I was doing fine all on my own.
You ask me all about my day,
But I don't know what I'm to say.
I try turning my body around.
I face my head towards the ground,
But the conversation goes on still.
I wonder if I can fake being ill.
And as I knew all along,
My words start to come out wrong.
I feel my mind begin to trip,
And out my lips the words slip.
I wonder if my face is sinking.
I wish I knew what you were thinking.
I replay the scene over in my head.
All day I hear what I have said.
Why couldn't you just let me be?
I told you not to talk to me.
ii am nothing but a specki in Free Verse More Like This
of dust, nothing special,
nothing noticed, nothing
i am nothing but an ignored girl,
the one that no one wants to notice
the girl that struggles to make it
i'm nothing but an invisible being
who yearns so desperately for love,
who wants nothing more than to finally
i am a silent being who
silently wanders the night
looking for others but
i walk about through the day
hoping that someone will
finally accept me instead
of walking away.
i roam the night and lay on
sidewalks, searching the night sky
for the moon and stars, the only
ones who seem to understand.
i am the girl who sometimes wishes for death
i am the girl who wants to be loved for once
i am the girl who stupidly shuts people out
i am the girl who constantly forgets what
she already has, i am the girl that
people seemingly regret to know
i am the girl who wants nothing
more than to exist by his side.
my apologyi'm sorry that i gotmy apology in Free Verse More Like This
so angry when you left
i forgot about us
its not just me alone
in this never ending
its us and i took your
beautiful prized possession
and turned it into a disgusting
mess of shattered pieces.
do whatever the hell you want to
but please understand that i did
this because i waited... so long
all day and all night... just for YOU
and then YOU FORGOT about US and this...
this WORLD IT JUST DRIVES ME INSANE
BECAUSE I HAVE NO OTHER FRIENDS AND
and... and I'm sorry... I was mad
and I just.. I'm sorry. can we please
pretend that this never happened?
can you please accept my apology?
i just don't want to be
playing a guitardarling lean on meplaying a guitar in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
while i catch a shooting
star, and we can figure
out just what it means
and if you stay by my side
perhaps for just tonight
you can take me away again
to the grainy sand
and maybe if we try you
can play my heart again,
strumming and pulling my
heartstrings just like the
strings of a guitar
and if we keep the rhythm
up, we can keep the moon lit up
all night long just gazing
up above, dancing to the imaginary
just stay away, here with me
and you can see just how
better we could be
when we take our time
and when the dancing starts to slow
and the moon starts to rise higher
and the night starts to darken
the tunes will slow down
and i can catch us a shooting star
and maybe you can play my heartstrings
like it's your favorite guitar
and all this happens when
we take our time.
feelingsometimes i get the feelingfeeling in Free Verse More Like This
that i won't be like you
healthy and whole surrounded
sometimes i get the feeling
that someday soon instead
of being out with you, i'll
be hooked up to tubes in a
tiny hospital room.
sometimes i get the feeling
that you just don't care
anymore that i'm on my own
with no one but myself and
that's probably true.
sometimes i get the feeling
that at this point, no one
would even notice or care if
one day i just slipped away.
sometimes i get the feeling
that i was just something
that everyone has come to
sometimes i get the feeling
that this won't ever end
and that i'm just stuck in this
game with no escape.
an object of love.she's out on the curban object of love. in Free Verse More Like This
the wind rustling and slinging
around her hair while she watches
the leaves twirl round and round
like children playing games.
as the rain starts to pour down a little
she opens her umbrella and still sits
alone remembering the days she spent in
this small little place playing games,
communicating, having fun with the other kids.
she sighs and remembers it all, the fun times
she had but the sadness she felt when the friends
she loved began to fade away and find someone new
when they moved away and she never saw them again,
and she could only dream of talking to them again.
the rain picked up it's pace, twirling her thoughts
round and round and other memories began flashing in
her mind, as she remembers her fallen and cracked dreams
her disregarded feelings and her life as it began to fall
and soon her tears fell in rhythm with the rain.
she didn't choose to feel it all over again,
in fact if she had a choice, she'd erase it all
but it's not her, really her, choosi
skipping, cutting, jumping.emotions are likeskipping, cutting, jumping. in Free Verse More Like This
bubbles that fly about
and one person can pop
emotions are bubbles that
float on the surface but
are hard to recognize because
of the masks that cover it all.
emotions are the things that are
easy to form, but are sometimes
hard to let go.
a fallen leaf has left the tree
and it's taken my hope, and i'm
walking along wondering why things
can't be simple.
a sudden jump, a sudden leap
and yet they all happen so
what's the time, what's the year?
when can i see you again?
question, question, question
and yet they just aren't that
important to me.
lie, lie, lie, lie, truth
what's the truth, and what's the lie ?
i wouldn't know, for i'm not you, and
you're not me.
ramble, ramble, ramble,
the typing never seems
life is just a puzzle that's
hard to complete.
if the truth equates to a lie
then why are we still together
walking side by side?
repeat, repeat, repeat
and the time, oh the time
it starts to run out
repeat, repeat, repeat
why do we try?sentences are just wordswhy do we try? in Free Verse More Like This
written on paper
words are just letters
that have been put together
life is just a beating heart
and a thinking brain
so is everything is as
simple as that
then why do we have to
make things seem
so goddamn complex?
if the wind can sweep us off
of our feet
why would we ever want
if the walls separate us
and you can no longer
hold my hand, then why
do we continue to play
these repetitive games
over and over again?
if the words get stuck
and your brain shuts off
then why bother
trying to tell me why?
if i lose myself and decide
to end it all
then why bother saving a
hopeless, helpless case
you deserve a treasureshe's got nothing else to doyou deserve a treasure in Free Verse More Like This
and she needs to blow her time
but she might as well make it worth it
because she doesn't want to ruin things again
like it happened before in the past.
she grabs his hand and stares into his eyes and says,
you deserve a treasure...
but take my heart instead."
"it's all i've got and it's
better, you know. So please...
take my heart instead."
i'm sorryi'm sorryi'm sorry in Free Verse More Like This
that i wasn't there to
watch you grow older and smarter
i wasn't able to go to your
i wasn't at your birthday
i disappeared before your very
eyes without a single trace
it was all too much
and everything just built up
and i couldn't take the burden
of living a lie anymore.
i'm not happy
i'm not great
i'm not okay
i'm not here.
i hope you know that i love you
and that i care
and that i only wish best things
for you in my absence that'll
i'm very sorry that you got stuck
with me as a sister
because i know that i let you
but i didn't think it would matter
because i didn't think anyone would
i'm very sorry that anyone else got stuck
with me as a friend.
i know that
i failed you all.
and i'm sorry
for your troubles
i know that
it was all
but take my death
as a gift
i know that it will
resolve all your issues
and i hope
that you can all
finally be happy
Beautiful Sadnesssitting there all aloneBeautiful Sadness in Free Verse More Like This
a wonderful, shy, sadness
hanging about and there
all alone is where she rests.
she's sitting there day and night
different activities all the time,
and you always feel the same thing
in the air.
the same routine everyday, the same
sadness but sometimes felt in a different
way, and though it may be hard to believe,
there's something special about the feeling.
the only thing felt by her, and nothing but
sensed by anyone else, there's something about
her and the way she moves, the way her hair
and one day she's gone and you can't help
but to feel it, the sadness drooping about
and you miss her and the sight of her hair.
you just can't help but
to miss the
that she used to bear.
Fake How are you?Fake in Free Verse More Like This
I am fine, thank you.
How was your weekend?
It was great, tons of fun!
Besides the nights I spent crying….
Are you sure you’re okay?
Thank you...I keep my feelingsThank you... in Free Verse More Like This
All bottled up inside me
And sometimes it was nice
To stare into that bottle
To see the yellow of happiness
And the red of love
But even I should have known
Putting too much emotion into that bottle
Turns it grey and murky with confusion.
You who has shown me nothing
But kindness and love…
I am afraid to hurt you…
That you will see my dark past
And it will swallow you whole
Like it did to me.
So therefore I hide my bottle
From everyone and everything
So as not to feel the violation
Of a simple peek inside
I trusted someone once
Told them everything there is about me
And to my demise
They used all that against me,
Hurt me in every way possible,
Made me think that being myself was
So I built my masks
A new one for every day
And put them on.
Little did people know
Should they take one mask off
Another was there underneath
And another one under that.
So many masks laid on top of “me”
Conflicting LoveSometimes (I) can’t stand this…Conflicting Love in Free Verse More Like This
This distance between us…
(W)ill it ever close?
Will (i) be ab(l)e to handle it?
I don’t want it to tear us apart.
You were a(l)ways there for me
Even when I f(a)iled you,
P(l)ease hear me no(w).
Don’t turn (a)way from me.
(Y)ou are the one I need.
The one I want to (s)ee
In my darkest days.
(L)ove is all you need?
I’m n(o)t so sure that is true…
It seems like you a(v)oid me…
Not looking me in the eye.
You know my f(e)elings
Are for (y)ou and you alone.
No one else c(o)mpares.
Yo(u)r light guides me…
And even if you hate me…
A Fake LoveHey, wait…A Fake Love in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Please don’t go away…
I thought this is what they called fate
I thought that every day
Was supposed to be for
You and me…
I thought that this “love”
That was made so clear in my heart
Was always above
Every day we spent apart
Even though I seemed
To be falling apart
Deep inside, I knew
That all these things inside
I couldn’t hide from you
So now I reside
With the cold and hard
This wasn’t meant to be
This “love” between us
Wasn’t meant for you and me
So you can take your finesse
And leave me all alone
With nothing but your memory
Even if...All this hurt and painEven if... in Free Verse More Like This
It builds up inside me
Like water behind a dam.
And I know I said it was okay,
That I was fine,
But I still expected your gentle gaze
Your warm hand
Your calm words
And yet you say “okay”,
Like it was definite choice
Instead of a question hung in the air
Like snow falling from the sky.
I know if I wanted
I could’ve asked you.
I just put on the front
Of not wanting to bother you,
To take you from your friends,
But what hurts the most,
More than anything I’ve ever known,
Is that I thought you knew me
Better than I knew myself.
But you still
Bought the mask I was hiding under.
Why can’t you see?
I want to hold you,
To hug you,
To whisper those sweet nothings in your ear.
So that you may forget,
I know I shouldn’t be hurt,
We all say things
We don’t really mean.
But was I really that “pointless”?
Did I really “bore
Born to RepeatNightmares and bad dreamsBorn to Repeat in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Haunt me every night
and fill my bloodstream
with incurable venom.
Filled with all of this fear
for the inevitable feeling
that will be sure to appear
and drag me forever downwards.
Depths of black, formless,
Untouchable and surrounding
Make me feel worthless
In this void of life.
This is my obsession.
Forever only feeling
What comes from this depression.
A cycle born to repeat
to ease the pain I feel.
This is my technique.
JealousyI know I shouldn’t be jealousJealousy in Free Verse More Like This
But how can I help it?
She is always so perfect,
So… everything I’m not
I can’t help but feel
Like I am on the sidelines
Next to her.
Like I will never amount
Up to her.
That I am insufficient
Compared to her.
I see the way you look at her
And I can’t help but wonder,
Do you look at me like you do her?
Hug me like you do her?
Laugh and smile with me
Like you do
I am sure she is a good person,
A very nice person in fact.
It isn’t hard to tell she loves you,
That she cares very much about you,
I am sure she is a wonderful friend
To have around….
I know I shouldn’t be jealous…
But how can I help it?
I want a bond with you
Like she has….
Daily Poem #38Though I knowDaily Poem #38 in Free Verse More Like This
Many days are to pass
And each day as long
As the last
I'll still be waiting
Painfully at best.
The Darkness Behind the LieThe darkness surrounds meThe Darkness Behind the Lie in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Even though the sun is shining
It does not get through to me.
I’m one step behind
Either physically or in the mind
I feel no push from behind.
I want to scream at you
How could you even do
That from me to you.
This all feels like a lie
Even though I wish to die
It all feels like a lie.
I'm in Hiding...I didn’t even notice themI'm in Hiding... in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Didn’t even know why
But soon enough I felt them,
Those tears flow past my eyes.
No one has ever seen them,
Inside I had them kept.
Now it all pours out
My lock has snapped.
I try to hide and cover
For I see the faces you make.
You’ve never seen me upset
I hid it for your sake.
But now there’s no going back
You have seen it all.
I can no longer hide
My feelings behind a castle wall.
You tell me it’s okay,
I need to show my emotions.
I nod my head in understanding
I’m just going through the motions.
Truth is, it isn’t easy
For me to just show
What I’m feeling inside,
It’s a stormy mess, I know.
But little by little
I can try my best
To show you what’s inside;
I leave you to the rest.