When I SaidWhen I said I wanted a fairy taleWhen I Said in Free Verse More Like This
I meant I wanted a prince.
I didn't want to be locked in a
I didn't want to be fought by a
I didn't want
When I said I wanted a fairy tale
I meant I wanted to be a princess.
I didn't want to watch a rose
I didn't want to wear the gown
I wanted it
When I said I wanted a fairy tale...
I expected it to end in a
But i never expected it to end like this.
When I'm GoneI don’t want you to remember me.When I'm Gone in Free Verse More Like This
I don’t want you to think of me.
I don’t want you to hurt over me.
I don’t want you to dream of me.
I don’t want you to cry for me.
I don’t want you to miss me.
I don’t want you to love me.
I don’t want you
The reason I stopped tryingI'm just going to stop trying.The reason I stopped trying in Free Verse More Like This
Because you'll never understand.
I carry dreams inside a fist
While you hold cruelty in your hand.
I'm just going to stop trying.
Because I've been through so much hate
I've been through knives and ropes and scars
And wounds and blood and blades.
I'm just going to stop trying.
Because through all I've had to do..
The ignorance of people
Is the worst thing I've been through.
I'm just going to stop trying.
And you want to know the truth?
The reason I've stopped trying
Is because of those like
Can't you hear the voices?Can't you hear the voices? in Free Verse More Like This
Can't you hear the voices?
As they ring inside my head
Can't you see the faces?
Painted in the blood so red
Can't you taste the poison?
As it rests upon your tongue
Can't you hear the voices?
Then you do not belong.
Dear Mommy.Dear mommy, please don't hurt yourself.Dear Mommy. in Free Verse More Like This
I need you to hold my hand.
From crossing the little old gravel road
To helping me find wonderland.
Dear mommy, please don't hate yourself.
I love the way you used to be.
Happy and joyful, so filled with love
Or at least that's how you seemed to me.
Dear mommy, maybe I don't understand.
But please don't let yourself go.
I need you now more than ever,
And more than you'll ever know.
Dear mommy, please don't leave me.
I love you.. Don't you understand?
Mommy, please don't kill yourself.
I still need you to hold my hand.
I'll Just Say What's On My Mind...I’ll just say what’s on my mindI'll Just Say What's On My Mind... in Free Verse More Like This
For everyone to hate.
I used to cry myself to sleep
And slice my skin with blades.
I wrapped a belt around my neck
In hopes of lifelessness,
And after failing even that,
I remained emotionless.
My mother used to cry all day
And my dad used to be ill.
My sister attempted suicide
By swallowing the pill.
My mother tried to kill herself
And we almost watched her fall.
She swallowed gulps of whiskey
And she blamed me for it all.
I have hallucinations,
And delusions, and depression
And fighting my own demons
Has become a slight obsession.
I’ll just say what’s on my mind
For everyone to see.
This is who I am, and hey!
I’m still okay with me.
CastleCome with me, little girlCastle in Free Verse More Like This
Let's watch the rose pedals fall
Let's bury your castle
And put up a brick wall
Lets rip off your butterfly wings
And place them in your grave
The demons have come to get you
You better start to behave
Come with me, little girl
For you can only have the gown for an hour
Do they love you, or love you not,
Ripping pedals off a flower
Come with me, little girl
Let's open your scars
And bury your castle,
In the girl you no longer are...
In My MindI like to talk to my best friendsIn My Mind in Free Verse More Like This
Whenever i'm feeling down.
A precious lick of happiness
From their sweet and lovely sound.
I cry the tears of melancholy
Upon their reliable shoulders
A kiss among my scars
As the night grows colder.
A feeling of pure pulchritude
As our friendship does prove true
Yes, i confide in my best friend
If only you could hear them, too.
Stronger than SuicideYou are so much stronger than suicide.Stronger than Suicide in Free Verse More Like This
You are so much more powerful than the cuts on your arm,
And so much better than your eating disorder.
So much more than your scars.
Please look me in the eyes,
And show me your wounds,
Whether they be on your forearm,
Or your heart.
Have you been skipping meals?
Have you been cutting?
Well, here’s something for you to try.
Think one thing,
Just one thing,
Just remember to prove to the world,
Are stronger than
.i feel change, the way. in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
the birdsong changes when the
cat goes out for lunch
.death says he's a busy man. in Free Verse More Like This
got places to go and
people to see
book an appointment on the way out
.the sea spits. in Free Verse More Like This
me back onto
the shore -
the waves say
this is not the
right tide, the
.there's an imp in my mind. in Free Verse More Like This
he's a lithe little sprite and
i'm surprised you can't see him
dancing around in there when
you look at me
he set up camp
with the ferns and ivy
built a tent and a
small log fire
he gets a taste for
kindness, truth, love
cooks them on the fire
swallows me whole
.you should have. in Free Verse More Like This
emerged with life; your
little roots should have
clutched the soil in their
tiny white fists, and
i did not mean to trample
you, i did not mean to
let my body kill
.he told me prayers. in Free Verse More Like This
and if i really want his
forgiveness, i should get on
my knees and beg
.when we talk. in Free Verse More Like This
we use our words
you roll them out
and they land at my feet,
i either choose to throw
or choose to run
cutsI don't cutcuts in Free Verse More Like This
Instead I mark
With colors black
And red and dream
And ponder about
What could've been.
playing a guitardarling lean on meplaying a guitar in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
while i catch a shooting
star, and we can figure
out just what it means
and if you stay by my side
perhaps for just tonight
you can take me away again
to the grainy sand
and maybe if we try you
can play my heart again,
strumming and pulling my
heartstrings just like the
strings of a guitar
and if we keep the rhythm
up, we can keep the moon lit up
all night long just gazing
up above, dancing to the imaginary
just stay away, here with me
and you can see just how
better we could be
when we take our time
and when the dancing starts to slow
and the moon starts to rise higher
and the night starts to darken
the tunes will slow down
and i can catch us a shooting star
and maybe you can play my heartstrings
like it's your favorite guitar
and all this happens when
we take our time.
de-pres-sioni need somebody herede-pres-sion in Free Verse More Like This
i need someone to care
i need someone to stay
i cry to the wind and
i cry to the air in hopes
that someone is out there
it's hard to be alone without
another soul and it's hard to
cry alone without anyone to help
and it's hard when you're not taken
and it's hard when you want to drown
it all out, when you stare silently
at your closest things
to think what you could do with that
bottle of millions of pills, with those
ropes and belts sitting alone on the shelf,
with knives that silently lie in the drawer
and it's hard when to spill yourself out
they don't give sympathy, but instead call
out your mistakes and tell you how to fix it
and raise the dosage to stop it all.
but maybe to some degree they're needed
but in my heart, i know what i need
to feel alive and the happiness to be
trying to find it is like lying down
and facing the sky, trying to catch
a shooting star.
it's seemingly impossible, and yet
it's achievable if you really try
to do it.
feelingsometimes i get the feelingfeeling in Free Verse More Like This
that i won't be like you
healthy and whole surrounded
sometimes i get the feeling
that someday soon instead
of being out with you, i'll
be hooked up to tubes in a
tiny hospital room.
sometimes i get the feeling
that you just don't care
anymore that i'm on my own
with no one but myself and
that's probably true.
sometimes i get the feeling
that at this point, no one
would even notice or care if
one day i just slipped away.
sometimes i get the feeling
that i was just something
that everyone has come to
sometimes i get the feeling
that this won't ever end
and that i'm just stuck in this
game with no escape.
an object of love.she's out on the curban object of love. in Free Verse More Like This
the wind rustling and slinging
around her hair while she watches
the leaves twirl round and round
like children playing games.
as the rain starts to pour down a little
she opens her umbrella and still sits
alone remembering the days she spent in
this small little place playing games,
communicating, having fun with the other kids.
she sighs and remembers it all, the fun times
she had but the sadness she felt when the friends
she loved began to fade away and find someone new
when they moved away and she never saw them again,
and she could only dream of talking to them again.
the rain picked up it's pace, twirling her thoughts
round and round and other memories began flashing in
her mind, as she remembers her fallen and cracked dreams
her disregarded feelings and her life as it began to fall
and soon her tears fell in rhythm with the rain.
she didn't choose to feel it all over again,
in fact if she had a choice, she'd erase it all
but it's not her, really her, choosi
my apologyi'm sorry that i gotmy apology in Free Verse More Like This
so angry when you left
i forgot about us
its not just me alone
in this never ending
its us and i took your
beautiful prized possession
and turned it into a disgusting
mess of shattered pieces.
do whatever the hell you want to
but please understand that i did
this because i waited... so long
all day and all night... just for YOU
and then YOU FORGOT about US and this...
this WORLD IT JUST DRIVES ME INSANE
BECAUSE I HAVE NO OTHER FRIENDS AND
and... and I'm sorry... I was mad
and I just.. I'm sorry. can we please
pretend that this never happened?
can you please accept my apology?
i just don't want to be
why do we try?sentences are just wordswhy do we try? in Free Verse More Like This
written on paper
words are just letters
that have been put together
life is just a beating heart
and a thinking brain
so is everything is as
simple as that
then why do we have to
make things seem
so goddamn complex?
if the wind can sweep us off
of our feet
why would we ever want
if the walls separate us
and you can no longer
hold my hand, then why
do we continue to play
these repetitive games
over and over again?
if the words get stuck
and your brain shuts off
then why bother
trying to tell me why?
if i lose myself and decide
to end it all
then why bother saving a
hopeless, helpless case
PeopleShe makes the mistakePeople in Free Verse More Like This
Of getting too close
To those she knows
She gets too close
She falls in love
And falls apart
No one catches the pieces
No one cares about the mess
She's broken and bent
And all alone
Because they all leave
And eventually, so will
Untitled like my emotions.you don't even knowUntitled like my emotions. in Free Verse More Like This
what you do to me
everyday when we talk
the sole reason of my
happiness, and i never
want it to end
sometimes i'm sad and sometimes
i'm angry, and sometimes i'm
rude as hell and yet you're
and you've saved me so many times
you don't even know
i'm getting the confidence that
i never knew i had, i'm getting
the happiness i never knew i had
and i'm slowly starting to accept
myself for who i am for the first
time in a long time
and i truly feel alive
thanks to you
and your silly, stupid
someone i can be weird with
someone i'm glad i have around
you don't even know how much
you mean to me, it's indescribable,
a rare kind of thing, because it's
more than anyone else could feel
thank you for being here
and thanks for being my sun
when i'm locked up in the snow.
sadnessthese feelings that rest heresadness in Free Verse More Like This
that'll never have a voice
they eat away at my heart
and it's hurts me deeply and brings
tears to my eyes
and i just want to hide
with hopes that they'll never
but i know that deep down inside
that my heart is where they'll
always reside, i'm the unhappy
owner of so many emotions
but don't you even know
you silly little fool
how much it hurts just
mentioning their names?
the jealousy in full overdrive
the sadness that fogs my brain
maybe i'm just in way too deep
with my emotions for you
and as i think, ponder, wonder
out here all alone
i begin to think that maybe
you're quite possibly an outlet
for my sadness.
I've Changed (Yeah right)I've Changed (Yeah right):I've Changed (Yeah right) in Free Verse More Like This
You know, I tell myself everday,
That I'm going to change - that I'll be different.
'This isn't the same; I'm not the same,' that's what I tell myself...
As I sit in front of the computer, praying time doesn't move.
Coward, you're weak and you'll always be weak! You bloody disgrace...
I pick up some new magazine, get inspired,
'I want to be like that guy,' is what I think to myself.
I give it a try for two or three days - I quit.
Same old shit again...
Making up excuses? It's what you always do, you gutless wonder...
I try to reach out with my hands,
Seeking something, anything that I can find to help myself hold on...
But I don't find it - I just find myself,
Sinking back down into the same black swamp - I'm drowning.
Awww, what's the matter? You gonna cry, you gonna cry?
Yeah, I've hit rock bottom,
And you know what? It feels pretty damn good down here.
Nice, warm, comfortable, familiar.
No pressure, no problems - just like everb
DesperationI wonder how many days you've spent feeling lost.Desperation in Free Verse More Like This
Thinking that you're going somewhere.
Never actually getting anywhere.
You look at the same four walls over and over again.
You can paint them in different colours,
But you know they're still the same.
And you convince yourself that you're making progress,
Nothing's changed, but you're making progress.
Things are getting worse, but you're making progress.
And then you wake up and realise,
That shit has hit the fan...
Suddenly you're forced to do the things you couldn't,
The kind of things that you were never comfortable with.
And you find out you can do them.
You find out that the only reason you couldn't,
Was because you were afraid to try.
It's hard - trying to take that first step.
It's hard - trying to convince yourself to take that chance.
Being A Good Person is a CHOICE!Now, imagine this situation for a moment:Being A Good Person is a CHOICE! in Free Verse More Like This
You are a good father, a wonderful husband.
You go 'pray' every Sunday, doing a wonderful lip-service.
You've taken your kids to soccer practice
And you are ready to enjoy your Sunday.
Tui bu qi, ni ke yi pang wo ma?
You turn around and see an old Chinese lady.
She can't speak English and needs assistance.
You pretend you cannot hear her and drive away.
Smooth-stuff dad, you should return that #1 mug...
To me however, there would be no question.
I was late to a part-time job, it would actually cost me money;
And did I mention I can't speak Chinese either?
Instead I communicated with gestures and signs.
She wanted to go to the train station, as I later learned.
With your car it would have taken five minutes.
But we walked and that is also okay.
To be honest, you might think you've done more good than evil.
You might think there is a welcoming committee for you at the pearly gates.
I regret to inform you however, that
These Tears Would Come:These Tears Would Come:These Tears Would Come: in Free Verse More Like This
If my tears could tell a story of two -
What would they have to say about you?
Of a boy who spent his whole life seeking
And a girl who found it in the arms of another…
Would they tell us of laughter? Beneath a starlit sky,
Or of harsh words exchanged on bitter nights.
Would they speak of moments, so beautifully captured;
To be enjoyed in memory, like a perfect wine.
Or perhaps they would tell us of an untampered truth:
Of the lonely nights spent longing, for an Eden lost.
Captivated, habituated, to this lonely habit of you;
For her alone, these tears would come.
-Chen Yuan Wen, 31st march 2013
I Know You Hate Me Now But...I Know You Hate Me Now But...:I Know You Hate Me Now But... in Free Verse More Like This
Just give me a chance alright, I'll explain
To me, you're the girl that I notice everything about.
The way you laugh, the way you smile;
We got along great back then, even if we don't now.
And to be honest, I miss that...
You had the most lovely silky smooth hair
You'd give me the cutest anime girl smile
I wish I'd talked to you more about Manga,
Hell you got me started on the whole thing.
You were fantastic at drawing too
Man I was always jealous of that talent,
And I loved your drawings, like I once loved you.
I wish that you could have been a professional.
I would have bought your book every month y'know...
You encouraged me to write.
Back when my stories were shit,
Back when my poems were still baby's rhymes.
You taught me not to give in and I was grateful.
Now just let me finish alright?
I know that you won't speak to me.
That's okay, I admit to being an ass,
But the reason that I'm writing this poem to nobod
I Believe In YouI Believe In You:I Believe In You in Free Verse More Like This
You feel like things have gone into the ground
When everything is gone and crashing down.
You took your pain and tried to make it end
But give me one more chance to hold your hand...
See I will believe it...
I know you're strong inside
Just try once to see it
You will believe that-
You will be alright,
And we are all here by your side
We'll take you through those painful days
We soar like birds and fly away hey!
You will know that we're here,
Cause when you open those eyes my dear;
We will all be here
We will all be here
We will all be here...
See once it was so hard to carry on,
But take my hand, my shoulder; we'll be strong.
Don't think about the things that are all behind,
Just look ahead and hearts will heal with time.
Yeah live and believe it
Cause I know you're strong inside
Just try once to see it;
You will believe that
You will be alright
And we are right here by your side
Throw away those painful days
Take a breath and step away hey!
I Once Loved...She was beautiful.I Once Loved... in Free Verse More Like This
And twas I who loved her...
I held her in these hands,
Like a warm blanket,
Comforting and kind.
But she was a bitter poison, toxic and deadly.
No antidote to her venom;
I wasted away with delirious eyes.
A coward they called her,
And it was the truth!.
But to save myself, I would have her bleed.
Her heart a raw panacea;
Crunched between my teeth...
-Chen Yuan Wen, 22nd July 2013
Memories of WarMemories of War:Memories of War in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
What is this long-lost memory inside?
Where oceans turn; what have we left behind
With star-burned wings out above the sky.
The sleeping sons are lovingly left to lie...
A thousand tears you've cried for all,
Now its time for you to fall!
Will you open up the door,
To the future we ignore?
Are you simply lying broken,
From the memory awoken;
Are you simply living lies,
Bitter taste with ropes you tie...
And the world will soon forget.
Fill my heart with this regret?
For the victims written in stone.
Unspoken sin you now atone...
Yeah I've seen this world where we livin' in pain,
Wrap my body round with chain.
Now we both know we be broken;
Give this man his smokin' token.
Held up guns with both his hands;
Not a boy he's cause he's a man.
Order comes by a suit and hand.
Will you flee or will you stand?
This is a memory of our war,
Of all the things that we can't ignore.
And staying blind to the cries of pain...
Will lonely ashes be what remai
Things I Do When I Feel Down :cThere are times in our lives,Things I Do When I Feel Down :c in Free Verse More Like This
When we hit the all time low.
When the second-hand serenades no longer cut it,
And when simply 'letting it burn' no longer works for us.
We roll upon our beds like a roly-poly collection of rolltastic things;
And we lay face up toward the ceiling, slaying monsters on our portable consoles.
But that my friends is when inspiration strikes!
That is the moment when I rise up from the covers,
When I take a marker pen in my hand and use it as a microphone.
When my neighbours wonder what the bloody hell is going on,
Because I've started singing songs by Nightwish.
And when I get bored of that, IRON SAVIOUR,
Heavy Metal never dies!
Marylin Manson, The Beautiful People.
Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, Your Guardian Angel.
Because truly when I see you smile,
Though tears may not run down my face,
I would never in this world replace:
The feeling of a success, and the smile it might brings
When I entertain you, with the way I sing.
And if you've gotten
How to Insult PoeticallyOnce I happened upon a callow young lass,How to Insult Poetically in Free Verse More Like This
Who apparently thought that it was cool to be crass.
And she turned her tongue upon the profession of writing;
Apparently she felt that it was in need of a smiting.
Though her raving and ranting made very little sense,
She seemed to be taking a rather harsh stance.
Apparently her pain was too great to be understood,
Far beyond the comprehension of this man from the hood.
So I stood there in swagger, clad in my bling.
While she behaved like 'Moon-Moon', in search of a thing.
She spouted some nonsense, some far fetched line,
About never idolizing the keen writer's mind...
If that is the case, then why ape my technique?
Why submit to several galleries; is your brain on the leak?
You are writing to be seen; you seek attention as I do,
What are we if not performers, is that not true?
Did you believe that you could use your past as a shield?
It counts, I'm afraid, for nothing, I feel;
For you see, I'm a killer, as bold a
At Night, I CryAt Night, I CryAt Night, I Cry in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
At night, I cry because I can’t stop thinking about the old me
When no one’s around, I weep warm tears that slide down my cheeks slowly
And it’s odd, I feel so unsatisfied but I refuse to use the word “unhappy”
I think back to the times where I would just laugh with my little friends, gleefully
Now that I’m older, I feel myself constantly over-thinking
Just constantly thinking of bad habits and fears
Maybe it’s something I did; maybe I’m the bad seed
Maybe I do deserve this horrible treatment by my peers
Or maybe I’m just doing what I do best, over-think
I do it everyday, think to the point where it sickens me
Now I’m physically sick from staring at this laptop screen, constantly
‘Cause now it seems it’s all I have left
Everyone knows what I crave but I can’t seem to do anything about it
And I can’t share my innermost thoughts with them, in-depth
Because my mom will
All Love (For Any Ethnicity)All Love (For Any Ethnicity)All Love (For Any Ethnicity) in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
I got love for everybody, any ethnicity
Any color or creed, it doesn’t matter to me
‘Cause at the end of the day we’re all human beings
I personally don’t believe in minorities or majorities
‘Cause I got love for you, if you have love for me
Every color is beautiful, every person is incredibly unique
But isn’t it funny, the definition of race?
“A vying with others for victory”
So when you’re fillin’ out your hospital forum for race, or ethnicity
You’re essentially battling for supremacy
But you and I both know that doesn’t sound quite right
It actually sounds pretty wrong, if ya’ ask me
And while ignorance and racism will always exist
It’s inevitable really, and there’s no way to destroy it
The old cliché, “Treat others how you want to be treated,”
Isn’t valued anymore, ‘cause we’re all battling for dominance, a
Never Feel AloneNever Feel AloneNever Feel Alone in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
For those in need; help them
So they don’t feel alone in this sometimes evil and sick world we live in
No one deserves to go live a life alone or feel like they’re by themselves,
Because as a team, any group of people can fight on through this,
And with love they will prosper through these dark and critical times
Let people have someone to lean on, something that will help them moving forward
And help them return to comfort; so someone can comfortably live their life
Give them something to strive for and look towards,
Because with a set of goals it can give one’s life meaning
It can give a lost soul some direction
And with love and determination, we can get through this phase of testing,
Tests that will forever help mold us as people; difficult times will be our defining moments
And I know those that have lost or feel hopeless may not see this,
But there’s hope, there’s life; somehow, someway we’ll find positivity throu
Deceit (It Can Kill)Deceit (It Can Kill)Deceit (It Can Kill) in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
One of the worst things you could do a to person,
For me, is to abuse and take advantage of their trust
And once a small lie is created, it could become a toxin
Poisoning and killing any and every relationship it’s able to touch
And once the disease known as deceit touches a family
It can break one’s spirit and make little boys weep
Deceit, it can kill……….when a father says he’ll always be there for us,
When your father swears to never deceive again and does it even though he PROMISED
He promised and it was a lie, now the hate for him follows you like an aura of darkness;
Resentment and hate builds towards a man you love and you hate yourself for having these thoughts,
Towards a man that helped bring you into the world, but love cannot be bought,
Not after the act you committed against the mother, and for the son, the hate will stay
Till you get back on the narrow and straight
Deceit, it can kill…
What's RealWhat’s RealWhat's Real in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
What’s real? Is it something you have to see to believe?
Is it something that HAS to be concrete to accept?
Something you want, something you need?
Is everything you see real? Or is it a façade that needs to be forgotten?
I often have these questions, how I’m perceived
If people believe in what I say, what I mean, along with what people expect
If you’re not by my side can you truly put your heart on the line and trust me?
I proudly say that I have with people, and even though it’s been broken at times, I have no regrets
Trust isn’t easily given and if it’s broken it isn’t easily recovered
I naively expected the truth,
But the only thing I found were lies that were covered
So I admit, I’ve played the fool,
That’s why when I finally found someone I believe in; they should believe every word I utter
Because I know what it’s like to be lied to,
And no one deserves to feel that disappoi
Journey To The NewJourney To The NewJourney To The New in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
The sound of familiarity permeates from behind my ears,
You come from my right, from behind, your beauty stunning my vision,
Voice of pure silk and eyes of effortless allure,
Give me your hand, honey; let me get it started,
Let me caress your arms and kiss your fingertips,
I’ll just admire your frame for a moment,
Then search for that button on the nape of your neck,
And hear the subtle sound of agreement,
Breath escapes your lips like wind flowing through trees,
I smile at your reaction and continue on, going a bit further
Kissing and nibbling ever-so gently,
I then move upward to your cheeks, now we’re getting warmer,
I peck your cheek and you smile against my embraces,
I graze your nose, then your forehead,
Your breath against my face is just amazing;
I then touch your right cheek with my lips,
Then look into your beautiful grey orbs,
They’re instructing me to “go ahead,”
And I do just that, brushing my lips against your
DoubtsDoubtsDoubts in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
At the base of most of my insecurities comes from a bad habit of mine,
Where I’ll think little things to death and continue adding more stress,
I’ve gotten a bit better at not over-thinking, but I’m still not completely satisfied,
Sometimes my insecurities will creep up on me at most pivotal moments,
Mainly when it’s late at night and I’m just trying to wind down,
That’s when my thoughts go into overload,
And I’m stuck pondering many sporadic trials and doubts,
And more often than not, the uneasiness I feel will show,
Like Texas lawns after a severe drought,
And this is why I write as much as I do,
To release any negative energy that may become something more than just dark clouds,
And my doubts always seems to come back to the same thing, too
How I handle myself in personal relationships,
Whether I’m conducting myself in a manner that’s appropriate,
Or if I’m simply a burden,
And that it’s ju
Takin' My Sweet TimeTakin’ My Sweet TimeTakin' My Sweet Time in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
I’m takin’ my sweet time
Just getting a good look at you
Your nose, your smile, your eyes
You probably don’t remember me
But I remember you oh so vividly
Tall, lean, soft features and beautiful golden blonde tresses
And your eyes, oh those eyes; an enchanting shade of green
The first pair of green eyes I’ve ever seen in my lifetime
When you sat next to me I tried to maintain my cool
I remember acutely what you were wearin’, a pink polo and jeans that were white
Now when I said something to you, I just had to focus on not sounding like a fool
After I uttered, “Hello, my name’s Enrique” things started to flow smoothly
You were so surprisingly easy to speak to
And you seemed to lead the way
Which I had no problems with; as long as I got to talk to you, I wouldn’t complain
You had a natural air of confidence, a social butterfly
Easygoing, bubbly and bright
And your style, like a plane; so high in the sk
Perfect AmountPerfect AmountPerfect Amount in Free Verse More Like This
Sometimes, six little words are enough.
I'll Get There....EventuallyI’ll Get There…..EventuallyI'll Get There....Eventually in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
It’s easy to analyze another
But it’s extremely difficult to break down yourself
The son, the friend, the brother….Me
I can break down practically any situation to its essence
‘Cept my own because I’m afraid of what I’ll discover
That I’m broken and depressed just like everyone else
So I stowed away my problems deep within
‘Cause maybe if I help others, I won’t have to face my own
To face my problems head on like I suggest others to do
And I guess that makes me a hypocrite too
But I know I’m not a bad guy
Just a stupid one, that doesn’t always think things through
And I mean this not to be self-deprecating
But it’s honestly something that’s true
Academically, I could be on the top of most, any class
But emotionally and mentally, I’m still learnin’ about myself
But like everything else, I promise to everyone I’ll pass……eventually
When Your Best is Not Good EnoughDon't speak.When Your Best is Not Good Enough in Free Verse More Like This
Don't hold yourself together.
Don't fall apart.
Don't pretend it is all going to be okay.
Don't act like it won't be all right.
Don't touch me.
Don't look away from me.
Don't be so needy.
Don't be so grateful.
Don't act silly.
Don't be so serious.
Don't have so much fun.
Don't be so sullen.
Don't love anyone too much.
Don't be so selfish.
Don't ignore me.
Don't love me too much.
And hope? Hope is just a lie you tell yourself so that tomorrow, you can do it all over again.
Sea of Liesi.Sea of Lies in Free Verse More Like This
My father never read me the story of Icarus. I found it for myself. I suppose he did not want me to know what it was like to almost touch the stars. But it was only after I had read the story did I even try to reach so far. It is a little like falling in love...and then drowning in the sea.
(I would be lying if I said the fall didn't break everything I had once believed was solid.)
My science teacher knew well that I was a dreamer. When I told her I believed fairytales were as real as love is, I could see the disapproval and disappointment in her eyes. I suppose thats why in her classroom, when I was asked what the greatest force in the universe was, I answered love. I suppose thats why she laughed and reminded me that love was as much a fairytale as the fairytales I believed in.
(She was wrong. Love exists...its just been broken into a million little pieces, set afloat in a sea of heartbreak.)
My mother didn't want to speak about t
Wistful"I am the boy who wants to loveWistful in Free Verse More Like This
your misshapen words,
your broken hearted pieces,
your ink split fingers.
I am the boy who wants to kiss
those scar tattooed arms,
that tear stained face
mend what has been broken.
I am the boy who can
make your heart
sing poetry again."
If only he would say it
like he had
Describe What We Have, He SaidWhat we have isDescribe What We Have, He Said in Free Verse More Like This
a little bit of a fairytale,
a part of a story
and a taste of a slightly star crossed romance;
mixed in a half written sad song
written on pages of blue ink,
carried away in the wind.
it's a little broken,
but it's strong enough
to stand on it's own.
Just like us.
Body Speak, Mouth Don't."I need a favour. You got a minute?"Body Speak, Mouth Don't. in Free Verse More Like This
No. No I don't.
My heart feels ripped out of my chest and trampled on too often.
My ears open to screams in the morning.
My eyes close crying every night.
My mind always turns dreams into nightmares.
My lungs contract too soon for me to catch my breath.
My worries far outweigh my years.
My brain feels overworked, overwrought, so tired.
My stomach cramps every night and I curl up in pain.
My knees weaken often but I'm still standing.
My mouth goes dry and I can't speak.
My hands dampen because I have too much to think about.
My bones feel weaker than they ever have before.
But I don't think it's anything to be worried about, really.
"Sure. How can I help you?"
After Words"I wish you would give it back to me."After Words in Free Verse More Like This
"Why? You'll just break it again."
"It's my heart. I will do whatever the hell I want with it."
"Yeah? Well, you take terrible care of things that are yours."
"Fine. Keep it. I am equal parts concrete and soul anyway."
"You say that, but I'm not entirely sure that you are. I think you're deep, and fragile and broken, and that makes you beautiful."
"Again, concrete and soul. "
"I wish you wouldn't make this so hard."
"So hard? I'm making this easy. You gave me dreams of half feathered swans and a stupid house on an endless beach and a city made of an ocean, and now you're taking it all away. But at least I had them for a while."
"Don't be that way."
"I am going to be awake every single night and wish for a shooting star, so I can wish upon that shooting star to wish thoughts of you away."
"I wish this could be easier on you. You gave me so much and so many too."
"So much of love and so many wishes?"
"No, so much wishing and so many love
FragmentsI call them fragments, the parts of me that were too exhausted to stay. He calls them flecks because I am a flake. I wish I was a flake. It sounds prettier than being a fragment. Flakes are like snow. Soothing, falling from the sky on the tip of his tongue that melt and disappear. Fragments are archeological findings of a scarred past we really should not remember.Fragments in Free Verse More Like This
I want to remember my scars. So I am a fragment.
I draw on my legs. When my skin dries out, I use my index finger as a pencil and draw what the clouds are trying to tell me. Sometimes it’s a dog, and sometimes it’s a bear and sometimes it is his face looking at me disapprovingly.
That is when I stop drawing.
At night, when the rain falls, I sit at the bay window and pretend to write stories whilst he pretends to sleep. “What are you writing?” he will ask in his asleep voice. “A funny story.” It is not. It is a pale, scary story, and it looks like my skin. “Were you dreamin
This is Not a Story about SuicideI am not here. These are not hospital walls. This is not a nurse who is speaking to me. That is not John unconscious, lying in a bed that faces due North, and that is not his mother trying to explain why his bed should always face North because he hates sleeping facing South.This is Not a Story about Suicide in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
This is not happening.
I am not taking a deep breath. I am not walking down the sickly white corridors with their bleach scent. I am not buying this cup of coffee from a cafeteria lady who is working at an hour that is reserved only for intensive care patients. This is not the way back to what is not John’s room.
That is not his heart rate dropping, and I am not running out of the room, screaming for help. We are not being pushed out, that door does not have a red light that claims intensive care, it has not been all night.
That is not John’s doctor explaining how they were not able to pump his stomach completely and it is not John who flat lined. That is not an empty hospital bed. That is not his moth
My Name is Hollow.Hello.My Name is Hollow. in Free Verse More Like This
My name is Hollow.
I live inside your soul.
Under the layers and layers of skin,
and tissue and muscle...
all the way down where nothing
and everything survives.
(I wish I knew before I trusted you
That lying is second nature to one
with as many regrets as you.)
My name is Hollow.
I live inside you now,
because you gave me the power
in all your virtuous belief
that the world was good
to survive your strength...
(I hoped to God you wouldn't
lie or steal or break what is already
a thousand pieces of a broken soul.)
My name is Hollow.
You let me in when sex
began to feel like an ache.
But the pain felt better than
dealing with the hurt
inside your head, your heart...
(This was always a world for those
that were harder than me
Strength is sometimes a very relative thing.)
My name is Hollow.
I am the jagged lines you draw
all along your skin,
your muscles, your bones...
The sharp edge of a knife,
the scarlet drops of remorse.
(Here's a question now for your
Bones"There are good days and there are bad days," you would say to me as you would try and explain away why the whiskey bottle was empty again this morning, why you smelled like her and why you thought it was best to let me know what you had done. At least that way, you were absolved of the gift of lying; the one your bones were too light to lift and just couldn't take, by bestowing me with betrayal.Bones in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
My mother would bring me an encouraging cup of tea in a giant pink mug instead of a cup and explain, "There are good days and there are bad days." Her eyes were always full of positive energy and strength and good will. I look back to those days and try and gain the strength she had in her bones from her words. I always fail.
They told me I had a disease within my bones. It started from the bottom of my knee and was moving upwards. Because that is what bones did. They broke from the inside out. "There will be good days and bad days," they warned me. I knew at that very point that it was going
To be a writerYou taste like decaying leavesTo be a writer in Free Verse More Like This
and October's bad habits-
when it’s halfway through February
that still haunts these bones.
I have allowed you to
claw your love
into my arms
and chant into my
for much too long.
I wish I was one of those girls
who could say wild flowers
grow up through my nooks
and my crannies just to tear
through my skin, screaming.
I’m just that dead eyed deer
on the side of the road dreaming
of shoving a pen down my throat
and writing these verses inside out.
I am no scribe, prophet, or spell caster.
I know it.
My skin knows it.
My pen knows it too.
Years and years
my mind will dwell
on the way your fingers
chain linked between my ribs
and shook my
to be a writer
is to be a masochist,
and I refuse to get off
on the pain anymore.
Heart:a rebellionHeart: in Free Verse More Like This
in her chest.
she's got skin
unworthy to write
she tapes those
to her limbs
How did you get those scars?And I asked her,How did you get those scars? in Free Verse More Like This
"Do you remember
why I counted tiles-
sat in silence for hours,
wishing on the black holes
in my pockets?"
Stuttering against quiet delusions,
She bit a vintage tongue.
I tried to bury myself alive that night,
just to engrave the taste of rose thorn monsters
between the cracks of my glass skin."
Licking dry lips,
She asked to taste them.
Please, forgive me.Like lies, you saidPlease, forgive me. in Free Verse More Like This
I make breathing the cosmos
through rose colored lungs
look easy- vertebrae stretched
toward the moon.
& I'm hanging my bones
out to dry, carving Saturn's
rings into my wrists- my
star burst ankles.
I swore then I'd keep my
black tongued poetry
& uprooted limbs far,
far away from you.
But, like lies, galaxies,
& night fevers, you
are the destination
on my star map skin.
OmegaThere is a wolf lurking in my doorway;Omega in Free Verse More Like This
our eyes holding breathless conversations
as secrets whisper through the stroke of my pen
into the awaiting lungs of strangers.
Soon young pup, you'll have nothing left to say.
My heart is woven together with tight-knit words,
blood red Poe, and thumping Hemingway-
Yet, no headstrong Omega sleeps
within this slightly cracked, ribcage embrace.
"I am unafraid of forests with teeth."
NaPoWriMo: Day 6It’s hard enoughNaPoWriMo: Day 6 in Free Verse More Like This
to love her skin on good days,
to wide eyed strangers
as if to fill the emptiness
in her own gut;
she lives on a diet of sad stories &
you must shed your own skin
to save it.]
I wish...I’ve been sitting on your doorstep for three days.I wish... in Free Verse More Like This
Here are the nothings I left under the mat:
i.I do not feel like a lion anymore,
an alpha wolf, a hyena or
any other strong-willed beast.
I want to take my scars
out to lunch,
feed them your eyes,
& your tongue
until it bleeds sorrow,
and “please forgive me’s”.
iii. You wish I never existed
as you grind those words
into my wrists like they are
red hibiscus blossoms.
& I’ll have you know
I am a flower, bloomed,
rooted deep into the soil.
You are just a combination
of 26 letters-
an “I wish…”
Silent ScreamsSilent screams.Silent Screams in Free Verse More Like This
If only you knew.
If people could see.
If only I could tell you.
Don't want to ask for help.
The cries you never heard.
I need help.
Someone please help.
You can't tell.
Tears I've shed
When no one's around.
My heart is bleeding
Behind my wall
Deep inside me.
I just want someone to care.
August-Skylines Title PoemConfessionAugust-Skylines Title Poem in Free Verse More Like This
The monster in me
How I feel
With the tears
Don't Talk to MeDon't talk to me. Just leave me alone.Don't Talk to Me in Free Verse More Like This
I was doing fine all on my own.
You ask me all about my day,
But I don't know what I'm to say.
I try turning my body around.
I face my head towards the ground,
But the conversation goes on still.
I wonder if I can fake being ill.
And as I knew all along,
My words start to come out wrong.
I feel my mind begin to trip,
And out my lips the words slip.
I wonder if my face is sinking.
I wish I knew what you were thinking.
I replay the scene over in my head.
All day I hear what I have said.
Why couldn't you just let me be?
I told you not to talk to me.
Here With YouYou're right on the edge,Here With You in Free Verse More Like This
But you don't want to fall.
You're grasping in the air,
For anything at all.
Finally you find,
A place in my hand.
I begin to pull,
Bring you onto land.
Don't you worry.
You're safe here.
You'll be okay.
There's nothing to fear.
I see you crying.
You think of the end.
You feel so alone,
But I will be your friend.
Just talk with me.
You can even cry.
Just tell me everything.
Please don't be shy.
I just want you to smile.
I know it's tough to do.
Please just remember,
That I am here with you.
Honest PsychiatristNormal, your brain is not.Honest Psychiatrist in Free Verse More Like This
Take a guess at what you got.
It's needed for your medication.
Label shouldn't cause frustration.
Guess at what pill to take.
So many that they make.
Don't know about your brain.
Could make you more insane.
Effects are usually small.
You may have none at all.
We warn just so you know,
Your pain may just grow.
Your brain isn't fried.
Just another to be tried.
Patience is what I need.
I promise it isn't greed.
So here's another pill.
Maybe now you won't be ill.
Love AgainI wonder if I'll love again.Love Again in Free Verse More Like This
I was so in love with you.
Love doesn't come easy.
It's not something I do.
I never loved my mom.
I never loved my dad.
There was never any love,
In any relationship I had.
I'm not alone in this.
There are other's like me.
I met a man who didn't love,
His wife or girl of three.
And so I'll find a man,
Who makes me smile.
I may be looking,
For a little while.
Happiness doesn't mean love.
My heart won't be his.
I don't just fall in love.
That's just the way it is.
Sitting Here Alone AgainSitting here alone againSitting Here Alone Again in Free Verse More Like This
Suffering in silence
Laughed at, picked last, and kicked around
Bent and dented
Everything has gone to shit
Do you really wanna know how I'm feeling?
Feeling blue and mad at the world
What the fuck is happy?
Now you know some of my secrets
Why the fuck bother?
I just don't care anymore
They say hope is a light at the end of the tunnel
I Can't Take It AnymoreI can't take it anymore.I Can't Take It Anymore in Free Verse More Like This
Make it stop.
Is life worth it?
Why do I bother?
Would you care?
Would anyone care?
Maybe life isn't for everone.
The razor and the slice.
Slit my throat.
Protect MeProtect me from strangers,Protect Me in Free Verse More Like This
Those that want to harm.
Protect me from liars,
Using me for their good.
Protect me from my heart,
It's so easy to break.
Protect me from the voice,
She has such anger.
Protect me from depression,
It can overwhelm.
Protect me from myself,
I'm the biggest threat.
In Another StateIn another state, all alone.In Another State in Free Verse More Like This
I Moved out on my own.
Family seems like a curse,
But being away is so much worse.
What to do, I'm not sure.
Maybe support is part of the cure.
Thinking about leaving this place.
Return to the familiar faces.
A great job, I'll leave behind.
At home, what will I find.
There's all the money that I earn.
And the money I have to return.
What if things fall back to before.
I really want something more.
A change in my life is what I need,
Instead of focusing on this greed.
What if things just don't turn new?
I'm not really sure what to do.
Maybe I'll go back and get my PhD.
I could even switch to psychology.
I guess I'll just wait and see.
Things can only improve for me.
Fake How are you?Fake in Free Verse More Like This
I am fine, thank you.
How was your weekend?
It was great, tons of fun!
Besides the nights I spent crying….
Are you sure you’re okay?
JealousyI know I shouldn’t be jealousJealousy in Free Verse More Like This
But how can I help it?
She is always so perfect,
So… everything I’m not
I can’t help but feel
Like I am on the sidelines
Next to her.
Like I will never amount
Up to her.
That I am insufficient
Compared to her.
I see the way you look at her
And I can’t help but wonder,
Do you look at me like you do her?
Hug me like you do her?
Laugh and smile with me
Like you do
I am sure she is a good person,
A very nice person in fact.
It isn’t hard to tell she loves you,
That she cares very much about you,
I am sure she is a wonderful friend
To have around….
I know I shouldn’t be jealous…
But how can I help it?
I want a bond with you
Like she has….
Daily Poem #38Though I knowDaily Poem #38 in Free Verse More Like This
Many days are to pass
And each day as long
As the last
I'll still be waiting
Painfully at best.
I'm in Hiding...I didn’t even notice themI'm in Hiding... in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Didn’t even know why
But soon enough I felt them,
Those tears flow past my eyes.
No one has ever seen them,
Inside I had them kept.
Now it all pours out
My lock has snapped.
I try to hide and cover
For I see the faces you make.
You’ve never seen me upset
I hid it for your sake.
But now there’s no going back
You have seen it all.
I can no longer hide
My feelings behind a castle wall.
You tell me it’s okay,
I need to show my emotions.
I nod my head in understanding
I’m just going through the motions.
Truth is, it isn’t easy
For me to just show
What I’m feeling inside,
It’s a stormy mess, I know.
But little by little
I can try my best
To show you what’s inside;
I leave you to the rest.
Daily Poem #7I would die for you,Daily Poem #7 in Free Verse More Like This
I would go through hell for you,
I'd do anything to protect you,
My best friend.
Daily Poem #41I guess it's time to goDaily Poem #41 in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Time to leave the nest
I'll be back soon I know
And I will try my best
The Darkness Behind the LieThe darkness surrounds meThe Darkness Behind the Lie in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Even though the sun is shining
It does not get through to me.
I’m one step behind
Either physically or in the mind
I feel no push from behind.
I want to scream at you
How could you even do
That from me to you.
This all feels like a lie
Even though I wish to die
It all feels like a lie.
Daily Poem #44I am sick to my core,Daily Poem #44 in Free Verse More Like This
Black goo that erupts within me
Tainting rosy skin
black and white.
Thoughts drown in depression
And I lose myself
in this sickness.
Thank you...I keep my feelingsThank you... in Free Verse More Like This
All bottled up inside me
And sometimes it was nice
To stare into that bottle
To see the yellow of happiness
And the red of love
But even I should have known
Putting too much emotion into that bottle
Turns it grey and murky with confusion.
You who has shown me nothing
But kindness and love…
I am afraid to hurt you…
That you will see my dark past
And it will swallow you whole
Like it did to me.
So therefore I hide my bottle
From everyone and everything
So as not to feel the violation
Of a simple peek inside
I trusted someone once
Told them everything there is about me
And to my demise
They used all that against me,
Hurt me in every way possible,
Made me think that being myself was
So I built my masks
A new one for every day
And put them on.
Little did people know
Should they take one mask off
Another was there underneath
And another one under that.
So many masks laid on top of “me”
Conflicting LoveSometimes (I) can’t stand this…Conflicting Love in Free Verse More Like This
This distance between us…
(W)ill it ever close?
Will (i) be ab(l)e to handle it?
I don’t want it to tear us apart.
You were a(l)ways there for me
Even when I f(a)iled you,
P(l)ease hear me no(w).
Don’t turn (a)way from me.
(Y)ou are the one I need.
The one I want to (s)ee
In my darkest days.
(L)ove is all you need?
I’m n(o)t so sure that is true…
It seems like you a(v)oid me…
Not looking me in the eye.
You know my f(e)elings
Are for (y)ou and you alone.
No one else c(o)mpares.
Yo(u)r light guides me…
And even if you hate me…