I'm Fine"Are you okay?"I'm Fine in Free Verse More Like This
No. I'm dying. I have to push myself to wake up in the morning, and when I finally do, I want to go back to sleep. Even my best dreams are becoming nightmares. I can't taste food, I can't stand the things I used to love. I'm breaking. I'm fading. I'm dying.
DisappearWishing to disappearDisappear in Free Verse More Like This
never to existed in their mind
no reason to cheer
this is why I was designed
there's a cloud over me and its raining knives
all smiles are faked
no one hears his cry's
as he sits there shivers and shakes
doesn't even try to reach out because there's nothing there
only my own numb stare
no desire to fight the devils wrenches
would anyone notice if I could disappear
because Im starting to feel warm in these trenches
would they even shed a tear?
Sick of the acting
let me compost with the dirt
live????..... ill think Ill be passing
lets make sure this hurts
still wishing to disappear
lets seal this coffin with a drop of blood and a tear
Me.Anorexic.Me. in Free Verse More Like This
What Happened?I used to think make upWhat Happened? in Free Verse More Like This
Made people ugly.
Now I think I'm ugly without it.
I used to think people
Always loved me.
Now I think everyone hates me.
I used to think everybody
Was my best friend.
Now I think no one truly is.
I used to think
Boys were icky!
Now I wish I had one.
What happened to being
AsylumWho are you?Asylum in Free Verse More Like This
Where are you?
What... are you?
The blinding white walls
Closing in on you
Who are you?
Certainly not that
happy little girl
jumping through fairy tales
as a sunset paints the silver sky.
Where are you?
Definitely not where
you'd want to be.
What are you?
Blood, scars, wounds.
All you see are shadows
In a room of white walls...
AnorexiaMeet a girl named No One, with a heart of shattered stoneAnorexia in Free Verse More Like This
Staring at the other girl, the one that's not alone
Girl with skin that glistens, with the eyes of crystal seas
Grin of shining diamonds and a laugh like a disease
Flashes just a glance and soon, she's every trouble's cure
She has everything… and No One's off to be like her.
Eating turns into a crime, she'd rather be away
Thrusting fingers down her throat to make herself okay
Watching as her very bones are seen behind her flesh
There she drowns in tears, for she has not yet seen success.
Minutes turn to hours, and these hours turn to days
Every moment slipping, slowly fading into grey
Rapidly, her body turns to nothing but her bones
As she fights for beauty, as she battles for the throne.
Broken hearts must learn to beat, and this she came to know
Learning it the hard way when her heartbeat grew too slow
Yet, she somehow managed still to shine from what's within
Lying in her casket with her hidden, unseen sin.
Final thoughts ins
Hurt...Why is it,Hurt... in Free Verse More Like This
That when you try your best
Not to hurt a soul...
You end up getting hurt
More than anybody else?
When I SaidWhen I said I wanted a fairy taleWhen I Said in Free Verse More Like This
I meant I wanted a prince.
I didn't want to be locked in a
I didn't want to be fought by a
I didn't want
When I said I wanted a fairy tale
I meant I wanted to be a princess.
I didn't want to watch a rose
I didn't want to wear the gown
I wanted it
When I said I wanted a fairy tale...
I expected it to end in a
But i never expected it to end like this.
You'll Never Understand...You'll never understand...You'll Never Understand... in Free Verse More Like This
But I'm glad you don't.
Because that would mean
You'd have to go through my pain.
And I'd never wish that
Magic WandDragons fly through poison skies, their whispers in the windMagic Wand in Free Verse More Like This
Ladybugs in black sandcastles, scratches on your skin
Hopscotch over quicksand, and a castle made of dirt
Shining silver crowns and dancing 'round in spinning skirts
Bloody, ruined princesses locked up in towers tall
Watching as the prince quickly begins to fall
Slowly, as the innocence does take her darling life
Please do watch now, as the magic wand becomes a knife...
You Are BlindYou see a picture.You Are Blind in Free Verse More Like This
A girl with a smile on her face.
She looks beautiful.
She wasn't going anyway fancy.
But she wore her black make up.
And her brand new top.
But that isn't what I see...
Look a little closer...
Can't you see the tears that have just been wiped away?
Look a little closer...
Can't you see her right fist clenched,
Fumbling for her over strap bag?
Look a little closer...
Can't you see the left hand grip her long sleeve for dear life?
Look a little closer...
Can't you see her mind is running with thoughts tonight?
Look a little closer...
And maybe you'd have seen the warning signs....
Protect MeProtect me from strangers,Protect Me in Free Verse More Like This
Those that want to harm.
Protect me from liars,
Using me for their good.
Protect me from my heart,
It's so easy to break.
Protect me from the voice,
She has such anger.
Protect me from depression,
It can overwhelm.
Protect me from myself,
I'm the biggest threat.
Only MeWhat would it feel like,Only Me in Free Verse More Like This
To just disappear.
You wouldn't know,
If you just weren't here.
There is no feeling,
Because you can't feel.
You can't interpret.
You just aren't real.
It's so lonely here,
Where you used to be.
I look around,
But it's only me.
Happy As Could BeThe boy was as happy as could be.Happy As Could Be in Free Verse More Like This
A joy to everyone he would see.
Stop and chat for a while.
He could make anyone smile.
Everyone wished they could be him.
So pure he was, without sin.
But he loved to be by himself.
He had hid from everyone else.
All the smiles were in vain.
His mind was filled with pain.
He didn't know how to end.
Known not by a single friend.
Everyone thought he was fine.
He gave a smile for the last time.
Happy BirthdayA place where I can be me.Happy Birthday in Free Verse More Like This
Where I can share myself,
Without being judged.
Where I found that I'm not alone.
There are others like me.
There are others worse.
So much confidence,
In my poetry.
For the first time,
I feel like I'm doing something right.
Thank you, everyone.
Happy birthday, deviantART.
Don't Talk to MeDon't talk to me. Just leave me alone.Don't Talk to Me in Free Verse More Like This
I was doing fine all on my own.
You ask me all about my day,
But I don't know what I'm to say.
I try turning my body around.
I face my head towards the ground,
But the conversation goes on still.
I wonder if I can fake being ill.
And as I knew all along,
My words start to come out wrong.
I feel my mind begin to trip,
And out my lips the words slip.
I wonder if my face is sinking.
I wish I knew what you were thinking.
I replay the scene over in my head.
All day I hear what I have said.
Why couldn't you just let me be?
I told you not to talk to me.
Come BackWill you come back?Come Back in Free Verse More Like This
I wish you'd return.
But your hatred,
I always seem to spurn.
That's why I did it.
I made things this way.
You know that I had to.
What else can I say?
I really do miss you.
It's so lonely here,
But your wrath,
I really do fear.
Is there a balance.
Maybe I'll ask.
Finding the sweet spot,
Will be quite a task.
If we can be happy,
Just me and you.
There isn't anything,
I wouldn't do.
Leave.Leave me alone!Leave. in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Is that so hard to do?!
You don’t care about my feelings,
They are nothing to you!
What have I done wrong?
I just want you to leave,
You hurt me more and more,
So how can I believe?
Your words mean nothing,
Your apologies are fake,
Just stay away from me!
How much pain can I take?!
You got what you wanted,
But what about me?
I only want one thing,
I want to be free!
I can’t take it anymore!
Every night and day,
You just refuse to leave,
So at least stay away!
Mask.I am not happy,Mask. in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
But I still smile,
I am stuck here,
In constant denial.
“Yes, I am fine”,
I smile and say,
I lie to your face,
So you go away.
I hide my face,
Behind this mask,
Keeping the lies,
Is no easy task.
I take it off,
You do not care,
And if I complain,
“Life is not fair”.
Call me a friend,
You do not even try,
Leaving me alone,
Leaving to die.
Time's up.The clock is counting down,Time's up. in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Your moments pass bye,
There is nothing you can do,
You’re about to die…
Grabbing my knife,
Aiming at your head,
You have no last words,
Since you’re already dead…
Asking you the question,
Like I asked before,
You gave me no answer,
So you are no more…
Looking in your eyes,
And your tears fall down,
I will have no mercy,
You will be long gone…
Slicing you down,
From bottom to top,
You had your chance,
But your time is up…
Between The LinesSix years old,Between The Lines in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
tired and cold
a girl stood with rags and bruises.
She turned to stare,
tried not to care
beside her the mommy who always uses.
She happened to see,
a mother of three
tied down by the 'devils' on her sleeve.
The little girl asked,
desire well masked
why must they ruin Christmas Eve?
No answer ever came,
only silence to blame
and mommy walked on without one word.
The little girl followed,
a large gulp now swallowed
left her question hanging and simply unheard.
Mirror, MirrorMirror, mirror, on the wallMirror, Mirror in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Why can't I be nice and tall?
Mirror, mirror, hear my cries
Everything they've said are lies.
Mirror, mirror, do I dare
Ask for longer, prettier hair?
Mirror, mirror, can't you see
This fat is really hurting me.
Mirror, mirror, did you know
This sadness isn't just for show?
Mirror, mirror, let me shrink
Just force it all down the sink.
Mirror, mirror, I can't eat
Does that mean I am petite?
Mirror, mirror, look at that
All I see is tons of fat.
Mirror, mirror, fuck it all
Won't they love me when I'm small?
Mirror, mirror, feel my thighs
I want to be a smaller size.
Mirror, mirror, do you care
About how this world is so unfair?
Mirror, mirror, hear my plea
There's just too much I can't be.
Mirror, mirror, I'm called 'hoe'
Just for wearing a dress cut low?
Mirror, mirror, I won't drink
I'm getting closer to the brink.
Mirror, mirror, please press delete
Am I slowly realizing defeat?
Mirror, mirror, let us chat
Listen for why I want my stomach flat.
Creature ComfortDown into the depths of her mindCreature Comfort in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
lives a creature who's not very kind
His fangs are sharp and ready to slice
been there, done that more than thrice
This little monster isn't all that rare
he shows up in school, dreams, nightmares
The teachers always said she was out of tune
already gone but much too soon
In their thoughts they held her soul close by
made sure she was fine but hoped not to pry
Now, she's still alive, hanging by a string
a tired angel flying with only one wing
You'd think her peers would want to stop in
Take a little time to wash her of sin
Maybe tell a tale or grasp her hand
stare for a while at her wristband
As much as I'd love to tell you a lie
they never said anything but “try not to die”
Her parents, oh God, they were the worst
only came once to sit and to curse
A phone call or two, but that was the end
they were scared their little girl wasn't on mend
This made her sad, afraid of it being her fault
that she had to go and bring her life to a halt
CheersHere's to the mother who never caredCheers in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The brother and sister who wouldn't share
Here's to the teachers who never asked
The students and peers who always passed
Here's to the man who sat on the road
The homeless and weak who cracked the code
Here's to the animals who sat by my side
The big and small ones who held me as I cried
Here's to the father who wanted to know why
The nieces and nephews who waved goodbye
Here's to the counselors who wanted to hear
The faculty and staff who shed not a tear
Here's to the woman who grasped the hard truth
The doctor and nurse who labeled my papers “Ruth”
Here's to the teddy who grasped my hand
The lions and tigers who could understand
Here's to the bully who prayed for my death
The mean and cruel who still called me “Seth”
Here's to the people who prayed not for me
The good and evil whose 'morals' I couldn't see
Here's to the gates who opened their arms
The angels and guardians who meant no harm
Here's to the God who opened his
Never really can fix a heart...I've already hurt because of youNever really can fix a heart... in Free Verse More Like This
I would never walk through hell for you
I would let you burn, in the fiery pits of despair and guilt
After all you've made me suffer for
Was it worth your love?
After all this time, what have I gained?
I've gained 30 more scars
And the breaking of my fragile heart.
I've lost my self esteem,
I've lost more than I ever gave you
I gave you that heart of mine
Do you remember?
The one that was beautifully scarred,
The one that had a wooden sign reading "FRAGILE",
I bet you've just forgotten
That that is the heart you almost destroyed
It's no longer whole, it has lost its function
Can't feel, I won't let it. Neither will I trust.
Broken into pieces, of which you lost most of
Three tiny pieces I've found
I'm still trying to fix,
But the pieces will never fit
Cause you never really can fix a heart...