I'm Fine"Are you okay?"I'm Fine in Free Verse More Like This
No. I'm dying. I have to push myself to wake up in the morning, and when I finally do, I want to go back to sleep. Even my best dreams are becoming nightmares. I can't taste food, I can't stand the things I used to love. I'm breaking. I'm fading. I'm dying.
Me.Anorexic.Me. in Free Verse More Like This
What Happened?I used to think make upWhat Happened? in Free Verse More Like This
Made people ugly.
Now I think I'm ugly without it.
I used to think people
Always loved me.
Now I think everyone hates me.
I used to think everybody
Was my best friend.
Now I think no one truly is.
I used to think
Boys were icky!
Now I wish I had one.
What happened to being
DisappearWishing to disappearDisappear in Free Verse More Like This
never to existed in their mind
no reason to cheer
this is why I was designed
there's a cloud over me and its raining knives
all smiles are faked
no one hears his cry's
as he sits there shivers and shakes
doesn't even try to reach out because there's nothing there
only my own numb stare
no desire to fight the devils wrenches
would anyone notice if I could disappear
because Im starting to feel warm in these trenches
would they even shed a tear?
Sick of the acting
let me compost with the dirt
live????..... ill think Ill be passing
lets make sure this hurts
still wishing to disappear
lets seal this coffin with a drop of blood and a tear
AnorexiaMeet a girl named No One, with a heart of shattered stoneAnorexia in Free Verse More Like This
Staring at the other girl, the one that's not alone
Girl with skin that glistens, with the eyes of crystal seas
Grin of shining diamonds and a laugh like a disease
Flashes just a glance and soon, she's every trouble's cure
She has everything… and No One's off to be like her.
Eating turns into a crime, she'd rather be away
Thrusting fingers down her throat to make herself okay
Watching as her very bones are seen behind her flesh
There she drowns in tears, for she has not yet seen success.
Minutes turn to hours, and these hours turn to days
Every moment slipping, slowly fading into grey
Rapidly, her body turns to nothing but her bones
As she fights for beauty, as she battles for the throne.
Broken hearts must learn to beat, and this she came to know
Learning it the hard way when her heartbeat grew too slow
Yet, she somehow managed still to shine from what's within
Lying in her casket with her hidden, unseen sin.
Final thoughts ins
I'm Fine"Are you okay?"I'm Fine in Free Verse More Like This
That's all they say.
And I leave behind
These words in my mind.
I'm broken, I'm dying.
Inside, I'm crying.
There are wounds beneath my skin.
There are trials I face within.
There are things I just can't say.
There are people I must betray.
Beneath a smile, I feel pain.
Behind the sun, there's always a little rain.
And beneath these words I hold in my head...
There's always the thing I say instead.
I leave the truth behind..
So when they say, "are you okay?"
I always say, "I'm fine."
Canvas Is The MirrorA canvas is a mirrorCanvas Is The Mirror in Free Verse More Like This
The paint drips down with my reflection
The canvas is my mirror
But only because
The canvas is me.
The canvas is your mirror
As the brush tickles its surface
The canvas is our mirror
The canvas is a mirror
The depth of the artwork stares back into my
After all, I do not paint a canvas
Because the canvas
You'll Never Understand...You'll never understand...You'll Never Understand... in Free Verse More Like This
But I'm glad you don't.
Because that would mean
You'd have to go through my pain.
And I'd never wish that
Hurt...Why is it,Hurt... in Free Verse More Like This
That when you try your best
Not to hurt a soul...
You end up getting hurt
More than anybody else?
Sick of societyI may live inside my own, twisted universeSick of society in Free Verse More Like This
I may change, sometimes for the worst.
What's normal to me is not normal for you.
Sometimes I just do what I need to do.
Behind a brick wall, I hoped someone would break it
I threw out my heart hoping someone would take it.
But I got tired of hiding and tired of hating
And instead of throwing myself at every guy, I'm waiting.
I'm sick of the person I tried to be
So basically, here I am, I will be me
I'm sick of the hatred, would you not agree?
.. Basically I'm sick of society.
You Are BlindYou see a picture.You Are Blind in Free Verse More Like This
A girl with a smile on her face.
She looks beautiful.
She wasn't going anyway fancy.
But she wore her black make up.
And her brand new top.
But that isn't what I see...
Look a little closer...
Can't you see the tears that have just been wiped away?
Look a little closer...
Can't you see her right fist clenched,
Fumbling for her over strap bag?
Look a little closer...
Can't you see the left hand grip her long sleeve for dear life?
Look a little closer...
Can't you see her mind is running with thoughts tonight?
Look a little closer...
And maybe you'd have seen the warning signs....
Leave.Leave me alone!Leave. in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Is that so hard to do?!
You don’t care about my feelings,
They are nothing to you!
What have I done wrong?
I just want you to leave,
You hurt me more and more,
So how can I believe?
Your words mean nothing,
Your apologies are fake,
Just stay away from me!
How much pain can I take?!
You got what you wanted,
But what about me?
I only want one thing,
I want to be free!
I can’t take it anymore!
Every night and day,
You just refuse to leave,
So at least stay away!
Mask.I am not happy,Mask. in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
But I still smile,
I am stuck here,
In constant denial.
“Yes, I am fine”,
I smile and say,
I lie to your face,
So you go away.
I hide my face,
Behind this mask,
Keeping the lies,
Is no easy task.
I take it off,
You do not care,
And if I complain,
“Life is not fair”.
Call me a friend,
You do not even try,
Leaving me alone,
Leaving to die.
Time's up.The clock is counting down,Time's up. in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Your moments pass bye,
There is nothing you can do,
You’re about to die…
Grabbing my knife,
Aiming at your head,
You have no last words,
Since you’re already dead…
Asking you the question,
Like I asked before,
You gave me no answer,
So you are no more…
Looking in your eyes,
And your tears fall down,
I will have no mercy,
You will be long gone…
Slicing you down,
From bottom to top,
You had your chance,
But your time is up…
Between The LinesSix years old,Between The Lines in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
tired and cold
a girl stood with rags and bruises.
She turned to stare,
tried not to care
beside her the mommy who always uses.
She happened to see,
a mother of three
tied down by the 'devils' on her sleeve.
The little girl asked,
desire well masked
why must they ruin Christmas Eve?
No answer ever came,
only silence to blame
and mommy walked on without one word.
The little girl followed,
a large gulp now swallowed
left her question hanging and simply unheard.
Mirror, MirrorMirror, mirror, on the wallMirror, Mirror in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Why can't I be nice and tall?
Mirror, mirror, hear my cries
Everything they've said are lies.
Mirror, mirror, do I dare
Ask for longer, prettier hair?
Mirror, mirror, can't you see
This fat is really hurting me.
Mirror, mirror, did you know
This sadness isn't just for show?
Mirror, mirror, let me shrink
Just force it all down the sink.
Mirror, mirror, I can't eat
Does that mean I am petite?
Mirror, mirror, look at that
All I see is tons of fat.
Mirror, mirror, fuck it all
Won't they love me when I'm small?
Mirror, mirror, feel my thighs
I want to be a smaller size.
Mirror, mirror, do you care
About how this world is so unfair?
Mirror, mirror, hear my plea
There's just too much I can't be.
Mirror, mirror, I'm called 'hoe'
Just for wearing a dress cut low?
Mirror, mirror, I won't drink
I'm getting closer to the brink.
Mirror, mirror, please press delete
Am I slowly realizing defeat?
Mirror, mirror, let us chat
Listen for why I want my stomach flat.
Creature ComfortDown into the depths of her mindCreature Comfort in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
lives a creature who's not very kind
His fangs are sharp and ready to slice
been there, done that more than thrice
This little monster isn't all that rare
he shows up in school, dreams, nightmares
The teachers always said she was out of tune
already gone but much too soon
In their thoughts they held her soul close by
made sure she was fine but hoped not to pry
Now, she's still alive, hanging by a string
a tired angel flying with only one wing
You'd think her peers would want to stop in
Take a little time to wash her of sin
Maybe tell a tale or grasp her hand
stare for a while at her wristband
As much as I'd love to tell you a lie
they never said anything but “try not to die”
Her parents, oh God, they were the worst
only came once to sit and to curse
A phone call or two, but that was the end
they were scared their little girl wasn't on mend
This made her sad, afraid of it being her fault
that she had to go and bring her life to a halt
CheersHere's to the mother who never caredCheers in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The brother and sister who wouldn't share
Here's to the teachers who never asked
The students and peers who always passed
Here's to the man who sat on the road
The homeless and weak who cracked the code
Here's to the animals who sat by my side
The big and small ones who held me as I cried
Here's to the father who wanted to know why
The nieces and nephews who waved goodbye
Here's to the counselors who wanted to hear
The faculty and staff who shed not a tear
Here's to the woman who grasped the hard truth
The doctor and nurse who labeled my papers “Ruth”
Here's to the teddy who grasped my hand
The lions and tigers who could understand
Here's to the bully who prayed for my death
The mean and cruel who still called me “Seth”
Here's to the people who prayed not for me
The good and evil whose 'morals' I couldn't see
Here's to the gates who opened their arms
The angels and guardians who meant no harm
Here's to the God who opened his
.What do you want to be when you grow up?. in Free Verse More Like This
They ask it like a dare.
As if letting your unlikely dreams
slip from the safety of your mind
could bring their own
a little closer to reality.
they don't make maps for a place like thisI'm stuck somewherethey don't make maps for a place like this in Free Verse More Like This
between great rollings hills
and a sweet-calm sea,
but the air doesn't smell
of salt or dandelions.
Only this heavy
cloying breeze that sticks
in my throat and fills
my lungs with the sharp tang
of musk and pine
reminds me that I'm
not far from home. And
in the distance there
is a rolling clamor;
a whistle crying long and low.
But there are no signs,
Though I've wandered days
through this strange
traipsing across smooth plains
and sharp plateaus, I've
never crossed the
same path twice...
One thought rings true in
this foreign land:
dear, don't be alarmed
I only lose my bearings so thoroughly,
only become so
IIt's nights like theseI in Free Verse More Like This
I tell myself
that flushing you
out of my life was
the best thing I
could have done.
That rain pelts
the earth hard and
unrelenting for a reason
and the peals of thunder
are just a facade
because nothing could roar
so loud but a crushed ego
and nothing could crack
so sharply but a broken heart.
I blind my eyes and remind
myself that mother knows best
and some sins
are better left unseen.
One day I'll stop repenting
but for now I'll pray
that March is more
a lion than a lamb and
the bile in my throat is
just the remnants of
your sewer-system soul.
VYou've waded through the worst,V in Free Verse More Like This
child, so dry your eyes,
they've got better things to do
than drain the sea.
tie a ribbon 'round your wrist
lest you forget
it's only in the sun
that the shadows don't shine,
and if you say
please and thank you
the dawn will come swift enough.
(to knock you off your sodden little feet)
don't leave me behindThis world I travel throughdon't leave me behind in Free Verse More Like This
is much too big and my feet
are much too small.
I fear the space between us
will swallow me whole.
.I can't help but marvel. in Free Verse More Like This
at the way you wound your roots
around my thighs, always pressing
deeper, thirsting for more.
But you also turned
your bright leaves to my heart,
and if you keep that up
your daisy-face is sure to wither
before spring is through.
Our Peaceless EarthA grand world filled with wonders so brightOur Peaceless Earth in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
was presented to man, but despite
good intent, men still dare
fight o're land meant to share.
"Let us tear it in half!" yelled in spite.
.Someday, I'll spread. in Free Verse More Like This
these fragile wings,
lace my feathers
up tight, and
.How do you make this. in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
dime-a-dozen girl feel like
she's worth a million?
220 Thread CountShe wanted to sleep,220 Thread Count in Free Verse More Like This
to shut her sea-shell eyes and wait
until she was remembered; found
and prised open. Maybe then she would be
finished - stable - content
with eighty good years behind her
and a few more gathered
soft and pink on the horizon.
They must have chosen a pattern
too small; she wasn't cut out
for all this confusion.
Each day a patchwork of choices unfolded
but her threadbare wisdom
couldn't keep her on course.
She wanted to slip between the seams of time
and see what she was weaving toward.
Then maybe she could grasp
the phantom thread of her future
before it was lost in the grain.
Hard TimesI see you’ve been weeping for some time nowHard Times in Free Verse More Like This
You’re all torn out and cold
Even if all you see is darkness
You’re the bit of light that’s shining
And I know you don’t have control
But you can't just let go
Because if one day you do, you might lose yourself
Then I’ll be left alone, with no one to hold.
Please, don't give up.You’re not alone, even if you feel such sorrowPlease, don't give up. in Free Verse More Like This
Please try to calm your mind and forget about tomorrow
I know that life can hurt, but from my happiness you can borrow
Please don't cry anymore, I will help you with the troublesome morrow
Even if the bad seem to be everywhere you go
Just keep in mind that you have to stay away from what’s below
And I know that you’ll learn from these bad experiences
So then you can help those who are inexperienced
Please don’t be sad, everyone has a reason for his or her existence
You can’t ever give up, push through and have resistance
The worst thing you could do is to lose all of your hope
Just promise me that you will try to never mope
No worries. We react with sadnessNo worries. in Free Verse More Like This
In the time of darkness
So it’s okay to cry
Because life can be rough at times
From that you will learn
So you won’t be hurt anymore
Every moment has a reason
You’ll get something in return
Summer. I once knew a girl whose name was SummerSummer. in Free Verse More Like This
She acted like a child, she was so happy and wild
And she would always share her love,
She was always with a smile
But one day I noticed, she was no longer happy
So I approached her and said “Why so unhappy?”
She didn’t respond, she just started crying
Later she said “My father is dying.”
Her father had cancer, bedridden and solemn
I only had one answer, “We both know where he’s going.”
She grabbed my hand and responded with “Thank you.”
So then we stood up, and continued growing
A few weeks later, her father passed away
But I always held her, day by day
She never left my side, I helped her feel beloved
On the worst days of Summer, I gave her my love
I'm left with hope.I know it happened once, but it left me scarredI'm left with hope. in Free Verse More Like This
I won't give up, but I'm still afraid
But I will be brave, I just hope it won't happen again
Because I'm not sure I'll be able to handle the pain
It feels like all I can do is hope, for the best days.
I'll wipe off your tearsTrust me when I say this, everything will be alrightI'll wipe off your tears in Free Verse More Like This
I’ll be here, to comfort you every moment of your life
Cry on my chest if you like, only if it lets you feel right
Because I will always be here, right by your side
I know some things can be unexpected,
And sometimes the bad can’t be evaded
But I’ll try my best, so you can be able to rest
And I’ll try my best to relieve you from stress
Because I care too much to leave you with pain
It tears my heart to see you like this again
You’ve told me to step back, but it's too sad and tiring
I promise you, this will be the last time you’ll be crying
Unexplainable feelingThis cryptic feeling that I’m feeling insideUnexplainable feeling in Free Verse More Like This
I don’t know its meaning but it has caught my eyes
I’ve only felt it once, but it’s been made very clear
That since the first time I met you I’ve hold you dear
And it’s so vivid; it’s strange but also great
It’s close to unexplainable, and gentle as a dove
But only few, barely anyone could relate
That the best of her is that she showed me love
The Truth of InsideLook at me,The Truth of Inside in Free Verse More Like This
Tell me what you see
What you see with your eyes
What is deep in your mind?
I'll stay in my disguise
You're not looking at the real guy
The real guy is hiding inside
Talk to me and you'll regret all the lies
Stop judging from a distance
Come close so we can be friends
But truthfully, because hypocrisy will make us enemies
Then I'll start thinking you're a fiend
If we understand and accept each other
We can become closer, even like brothers
Until then, go to your good friends
Even though I'm the real friend you could have gained
The tenderness that's herWith every word written, with every word spokenThe tenderness that's her in Free Verse More Like This
I try my best to express myself, without it being broken
For what I feel is deep in my heart, is love that I want to be showing
Every day it develops, every day I feel more loving
Is the tenderness of passion, which I’ve never felt before
A feeling that I got from a girl who I truly adore
Beautiful as a rose and gentle as a peaceful dove
My heart gets filled with warmth, a feeling I describe as love
She’s the most beautiful girl I’ve seen, that’s as simple as I can be
So very cute and filled with joy, she’s the only girl who I want to see
Her adorable smile that always cheers me up, she’s the only one I need
She’s everything I ever wanted, I thank god that he gave her to me
King, let me take her handKing, let me take the princess handKing, let me take her hand in Free Verse More Like This
I’m just a jester, but I’m sure you’ll understand
That we’re in love, and I truly make her laugh
I’m no prince, but you have to give me a chance
I’m not wearing shiny armor; because I’m not weak
And I have no servants; I’ll finish my own deeds
I might not be rich; but she’s always happy
And I might not be perfect; but we are both who we need
So please King, open your eyes so you could see
That the princess and I are truly meant to be
I’m just a jester, but I only plead
For you to let us live joyous and safely