CanvasLet her paint a masterpiece,Canvas in Free Verse More Like This
Let her paint a lie
Let her paint a word inside the shining silver skies.
Let her paint a mystery,
Let her paint a sin
Let her paint the things that lie in darkness deep within.
Let her paint a masterpiece
(but this time there's a twist)
Make the brush a blade and let the canvas be her wrist...
Mind, oh MindSmiley face, smiley face, can't you ever see?Mind, oh Mind in Free Verse More Like This
So much to be sad about, so much that could be
Going wrong for everyone, going wrong for you.
Smiley face, smiley face, don't you feel it too?
Sad face, sad face, can't you ever tell?
So much could be going great, going oh so well
Sad face, sad face, can't you ever see?
Life is spend much better when your thinking thoughts of glee.
Mind, oh mind, why can't you agree?
Thinking everything at once is slowly killing me...
I'm Fine"Are you okay?"I'm Fine in Free Verse More Like This
That's all they say.
And I leave behind
These words in my mind.
I'm broken, I'm dying.
Inside, I'm crying.
There are wounds beneath my skin.
There are trials I face within.
There are things I just can't say.
There are people I must betray.
Beneath a smile, I feel pain.
Behind the sun, there's always a little rain.
And beneath these words I hold in my head...
There's always the thing I say instead.
I leave the truth behind..
So when they say, "are you okay?"
I always say, "I'm fine."
Magic WandDragons fly through poison skies, their whispers in the windMagic Wand in Free Verse More Like This
Ladybugs in black sandcastles, scratches on your skin
Hopscotch over quicksand, and a castle made of dirt
Shining silver crowns and dancing 'round in spinning skirts
Bloody, ruined princesses locked up in towers tall
Watching as the prince quickly begins to fall
Slowly, as the innocence does take her darling life
Please do watch now, as the magic wand becomes a knife...
In a Little Girl's MindThere sits the girl with the things in her eyesIn a Little Girl's Mind in Free Verse More Like This
Monsters, destruction, and sweet butterflies
Hopscotch and daisies, surrounded by screams
Beautiful dresses now torn at the seams
Crayons and paintbrushes, villains and grins
Young, gladsome innocence, hatred and sins
Little red houses on roads left to fade
Gorgeous moonlight shining off of the blade
Blood pouring out as she cries her own name
Knowing she's forced to take each bit of blame
She could have stopped it and left it behind
All of these things in her troubled young mind
She could have saved them if she dared to try
Rather, though, she left herself there to die.
Now, others watch as she sits on the ground
Keeping their distance and letting her drown
In her own worries and things she won't tell
Waiting for her mind to kill her as well…
The Face At The DoorThe face at the door is a demon, a godThe Face At The Door in Free Verse More Like This
He smiles through stitches, his stare rather odd
The face at the door is a cruel, silent being
Yet, people are calm, and the children aren't fleeing
Quiet yourself, for you're the only one
Crying for help at the point of a gun
Learn how to fly, rather, learn how to fall,
The face at the door... well... there's no face at all.
I am not a stereotypeSlide the blade across your wrist.I am not a stereotype in Free Verse More Like This
"Doesn't it hurt?"
I can't feel anything.
Punch your own stomach.
Does it hurt yet?
"Why do you do that?"
The pain makes me feel alive.
"I don't know."
"What's wrong with you?"
I'm dead inside.
I'm just depressed.
Stare at your arms.
"What are you doing?"
I just have low self esteem.
I'm just human.
I'm just me.
What Happened?I used to think make upWhat Happened? in Free Verse More Like This
Made people ugly.
Now I think I'm ugly without it.
I used to think people
Always loved me.
Now I think everyone hates me.
I used to think everybody
Was my best friend.
Now I think no one truly is.
I used to think
Boys were icky!
Now I wish I had one.
What happened to being
I AmI am the shadow, and I am the lightI Am in Free Verse More Like This
I am the sunlight, and I am the night
I am the battle, and I am the fighter
I am the water, and I am the fire
I am a raindrop just ready to fall
I am the world, and yet…
No one at all.
No Longer a Little GirlDear imagination, can't you be the thing you wereNo Longer a Little Girl in Free Verse More Like This
Butterflies and daffodils and happiness so pure
Sunny skies and lullabies and dreams of what could be
Hidden worlds and wonderlands of things they couldn't see
Shining gowns and silver crowns for dancing with the prince
Twirling with excitement, though the others weren't convinced
Dear intimidation, did you find it to be true
All I ever needed was an overdose of you
Silly stares and laughter slowly flood a child's mind
Making me abandon every daydream I could find
Lost beneath the shadows of the sky so dark and dead
Far too weak to turn around, yet scared of things ahead
Dear destructive tendencies, I feel it's time to hear
You were all I had when nothing else seemed to be near
Everything so out of reach, too far for me to see
I decided I would choose the needle next to me
Slicing through my very skin to feel something once more
Weeping through the satisfaction I could not ignore
Dear imagination, can't you be the thing you were?
Name MeDon't call me childish,Name Me in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
When you treat me like a child.
Don't call me crazy,
When you drive me wild.
Don't ask me for help,
When you've left me to drown.
Don't ask me to smile,
When you've made me frown.
Don't make me fight,
When you can't defend.
Don't make me be honest,
When you can't pretend.
Don't tell me to dream,
When you're my nightmare.
Don't damn me to hell,
When you're my only prayer.
Do save yourself;
It's too late for me.
Do ignore the rules;
For me, set yourself free.
What You KnowSometimes the disinfectant hurts more than the infection,What You Know in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Sometimes the pain is better than the protection.
Sometimes the tears sting more than the smile,
Sometimes the yard tires more than the mile.
Sometimes the blood shines brighter than the blade,
Sometimes the heart is blacker than the spade.
Sometimes the kiss is sharper than the slap,
Sometimes the lure is worth the trap.
Sometimes the night is lighter than the day,
Sometimes the beast is weaker than the prey.
Sometimes the cut hurts less than the sob,
Sometimes the break is harder than the job.
Sometimes the lie is prettier than the truth,
Sometimes the alibi is better than the proof.
Sometimes the hate is kinder than the love,
Sometimes the buzzard is holier than the dove.
Sometimes the loser gains more than the winner,
Sometimes the saint is worse than the sinner.
Sometimes the girl is stronger than the boy,
Sometimes the child is more broken than the toy.
Sometimes the poison is sweeter than the cure,
Sometimes the dirty are
Cross My WristsCross my wrists and hope to die,Cross My Wrists in Free Verse More Like This
I will only ever lie
When you ask me if I’m fine
Or if I like this life of mine.
If I had a gun,
I’d put it to my head
And turn bouncy blonde,
Into ruby red.
You want me to stop cutting;
I’ll stop when I’m dead.
The last time I’ll cut
Will be the last thing I see
When I finally put an end to me.
Dying sounds good right now,
Just fading into black
And never coming back
To the agony living brings.
Perhaps you’ll find me hanging,
Or after OD’ing;
Someday soon you’ll find me,
It’s too late now,
I’m too far gone.
Now I’m just a ghost
Of who could’ve been someone.
Things I'll Never SayThere are certain things I’ll never say,Things I'll Never Say in Free Verse More Like This
Like how I thought about killing myself today
Just to keep my own scary thoughts away.
Like how I stay awake way too late
To be sure I don’t awake in a bloody state.
Like how I soaked white into red last night
And turned myself into a ghastly sight.
Like how it hurts too much to breathe
When I make my own skin seethe.
Like how I Google things I shouldn’t
When I want to do things I couldn’t.
Like how I’m scared of being alone
Yet I’m only happy when I’m on my own.
Like how I know I’ll wind up killing myself
And turn into just a dusty photo on a dusty shelf.
Like how I make myself bleed every day
Even though I know I can’t go on this way.
Like how I maybe want someone to see
And for them to somehow help me.
But nobody will ever help me,
Because those are all the things I’ll never say.
My Internet DressI may not be pretty,My Internet Dress in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I may not be smart,
But none of that matters,
When I'm on deviantART.
The screen is my face,
The keyboard my voice,
The mouse is my hands,
Making my choice.
I can be a hero,
I can be a liar,
I can be anything,
That I desire.
You may not be pretty,
You may not be smart,
But none of that matters,
When you're on deviantART.
ThousandsI'm sixteen,Thousands in Free Verse More Like This
Doubt I'll see thirty
Hopefully my blade'll be dirty
And I'll die.
I don't want to die;
Just want it to stop,
Everything in my head
Telling me I'm better off dead.
I cut myself,
I said it.
Just read it.
I'm just some kid
Behind a screen,
So why should you care?
I'm not just 'some kid';
I'm the ones people laugh at,
I'm not a minority;
I'm a majority.
All those kids alone,
That death will come.
We're not hopeless.
We hope for
Ten Tips for the Miserable1. Change your bed sheets.Ten Tips for the Miserable in Free Verse More Like This
You'll find it easier to sleep,
Without letting the stains of
Dried tears seep
Into your dreams.
2. Bake a cake.
Out of handfuls of nothing
Think of a world
The way you want it.
With each wish
4. Drink peppermint tea.
It's really rather refreshing,
Or maybe that's just me.
Sometimes you just have to let
The poison bleed out,
Or else your soul
6. Have a cuddle.
Be it with a teddy,
Or a pillow,
Or a person -
Just squeeze out
All that negative
7. Have a nap.
Let sleep lock away
That voice in your head,
Until it can think of
Something nice to say.
Rub cream into your toes,
The deep black bags under your eyes -
You'll feel like a brand new you.
9. Talk to someone.
Let it all out.
Scream and shout.
It's okay to ask for help.
10. Love yourself.
I know, I
What You WantMaybe you want them to noticeWhat You Want in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Maybe you want them to see
Maybe you want them to care about
How you’re lost and lonely me.
Maybe you want them to ask
Maybe you want them to know
Maybe you want them to care about
How your happiness is a show.
Maybe you want them to quiet
Maybe you want them to listen
Maybe you want them to care about
How your blood does glisten.
Maybe you want them to leave you
Maybe you want them to die
Maybe you want them to care about
How your life’s just a lie.
ftff 5 gazille x leviLevi walked through the park alone, her nose in her book, the word light written on the page illuminating the words for her. Tear drops stained a few of the pages. She wanted nothing more than to dive into her fairytale book and day dream her pain away. Wishing it wasn't there in the first place and it's spot taken by Gazille by her side. But she guessed that was just wishful thinking anyway. She should've known Gazille didn't like her. She had gotten her hopes up only to have them crushed.ftff 5 gazille x levi in Romance More Like This
"Hey pretty thing, why such a long face?" a heavy voice said from behind her.
Levi looked up a little surprised as the man along with 3 others moved around her. She wiped her tears away her tears. "Oh nothing just a sad part in my book." Levi said giving the man in front of her a small smile. "Thank you for your concern though." Levi went to continue walking but one of the guys grabbed her arm.
"Now, now sweet thing, why run off like that? Let us walk you home? Or maybe to our home?" the guy who had
ftff 4 gazille x leviLevi sat at the counter her finger stuffed between the pages of her book as it rested over her arm on the counter. She was starring to the far corner of the guild at the dark haired dragon slayer, who was sitting with his cat eating dinner.ftff 4 gazille x levi in Romance More Like This
"You've been starring at Gazille for a while now Levi." Mira Jane said walking over and placing another cup of orange juice in front of her. "Why don't you go sit with him?"
Levi blushed turning her attention to Mira. "I'm not sure he'd appreciate that. He seems to like sitting with Lily"
"Now you don't know that." Mira Jane poured a beer and handed it to Levi. "Here's something he'll appreciate. A cute girl bringing him a cold drink." Levi gave her a soft smile but didn't move from her seat. "You like him right?"
"Yes, but, I don't think he likes me." Levi said blushing. "He still just, for the most part ignores me." Levi stated solemnly and tilting her head down.
"He likes you; he wouldn't keep saving you if he didn't. Or be keeping an
ftff 12 gazille x leviThe guild hall was quiet when masker Makrov explained the situation to the guild. However if that quiet had been bad, the silence and looks from the members as he put forth Ezra's worries before the guild were far worse. He scanned the face of his members trying to read them. Lily was at Levi's side whispering in her ear. She had tears welling. And he could see the pain on his young students face. The emotions that met him were those of anger, pain, fear, guilt, and regret. It didn't surprise anyone with who was the first to speak out, but what he said did however seem to shock everyone.ftff 12 gazille x levi in Drama More Like This
"NO!" Natsu yelled hoping up on the bar next to Levi. "No way Gazille would ever betray us!"
"Natsu as much as we all think and wish to believe that Gazille is one of us, he has a very dark past. And this is a big temptation to go back to his old ways." Ezra stated to the fire dragon. "I know you and Wendy have a special bond with him, being dragon slayers, but that may not be enough. We have no way to
ftff 8 gazille x leviGazille had his bags at his feet as he sat on a bench in the guild hall holding his little bookworm lightly around the waist as she quietly read one of her books. He'd occasionally place kisses to the back of her head. Pantherlily sat on the table drinking from his tiny tankard smiling at the metal dragon slayers far more open displays of affection towards the solid script mage. "So when are you leaving for your mission Gazille?" Panther Lily asked nonchalantly.ftff 8 gazille x levi in Romance More Like This
Levi's head perked up for a minute. "Wait, you're not going with him Lily?" she looked over her shoulder at Gazille, "you didn't tell me that!" her eyes now filled with worry.
Gazille gave a low growl. "Couldn't just keep your mouth shut could you cat?" he gave an angry scowl to his cat on the table.
But Lily just returned the look thinking it was strange that Levi hadn't already known this. "I thought you would've told her. So why don't you tell her now."
"No Lily isn't coming. He can't come just like you can't. I have to do t
ftff 20 gazille x leviGazille looked down at the tiny creature in his arms, watching the little drops of water soak into the cloth wrapped around him. A soft peach fuzz of navy blue coated its small head. He gave a glance over to Levi in her arm, with help from Lucy, lay a matching dark blue haired babe. Her tuft of hair held back with a little pink head band with a bow on it. Lily was on Levi's tummy smiling down on the tiny child. Wendy was leaning on the side of the bed to see.ftff 20 gazille x levi in Romance More Like This
"Gazille " Levi said softly. He sniffled. "Are you ok?"
"I'm more than ok. I'm I've never been happier than this moment now." Gazille said with a very uncharacteristic genuine smile the lightened up his entire face. "We, we made a family Levi."
"Yes we did. A beautiful family." Levi said smiling down on the bundle in her arms. Gazille leaned over and kissed her forehead.
"What are you going to name them?" Wendy asked. Her eyes never leaving the tiny girl in Levi's arms.
"What did you and Lucy pick out Levi?" Gazille ask
ftff 23 gazille x levi"Gazille come to bed, please."ftff 23 gazille x levi in Romance More Like This
"Why?" he asked from his seat by his kids' bassinets.
"Because you need sleep, get it while you can. You are so cranky to everyone when you don't sleep." Levi moaned from the bed just a few feet away.
"I want to watch them sleep though." He growled out a whine.
"Gazille plenty of time for that. Please just come to bed." She lifted her arm to wave at him and promptly dropped it back loudly to the bed. "I'm cold and lonely." She tried to coax him.
He gave a dark chuckle. "You miss me that bad?" she whined and he chuckled again getting up form his seat and climbing on top of his mate.
"Gazille, sleeeep." Levi moaned out. He caught it with his own lips to hers. She gave him a smile not opening her eyes. "Ok now sleep." He carefully rolled over into his spot on the bed and wrapped a protective arm around her.
Less than an hour later. Gazille was awoken to crying. He sleepily crawled out of bed and over to his kids. Levi was already up and rocking Az
ftff 11 gazille x leviLevi, Wendy, and lily made their way to guild to get some breakfast after her latest doctors visit, before they started their shopping trip to pick up the finishing touches on the baby room they had been building. Lucky as part of her baby gift to Levi had even come over to help with the addition. Wendy had been spending a lot of time with Levi and lily since she had found out about the babies. She had taken a special job from master Makrov as Levi's little helper. She did everything she could to help Levi around town and the apartment, and even spent the night with Levi at Gazille's place when lily would take team shadow gear out on jobs once a month. Being as that was all that jet and Droy could handle to do as they spent the rest of the month recuperating for the next job.ftff 11 gazille x levi in Drama More Like This
It was a bit of long trip from Levi's extra weight she had to carry, at 7 months pregnant, along with all the people stopping her to congratulated her and rub her belly for luck. But she didn't act like she minded
ftff 29 natsu x lucy"Natsu we tried yesterday. Give me a break please." Lucy begged from over his shoulder. He was eagerly making his way back to 'their' apartment with Lucy thrown over his shoulder.ftff 29 natsu x lucy in Romance More Like This
"Come on Luce, it'll be fun." Natsu said with a smile as he opened the door. He planted a hand loudly on her butt with a giggle before he laid her on the bed.
Lucy quickly curled up into a ball. "Please, Natsu not today." She whined out.
Natsu's smile slowly faded. "Luce." He said softly as he laid down next to her. He placed a hand on her head and began to slowly stroke her hair. "You don't want to make a baby?"
"Natsu that's not it." she whined lifting her head to look into his uncharacteristic sad eyes. "I want to have a family with you Natsu. I really, really do. It's just, not like this."
"Luce, you weirdo." He gave her a half smile before pressing his forehead to hers. "You have to tell me what you mean." He pulled back. "I know you think I should understand. And I'm not that stupid. I know you are hint
ftff 24 gazille x levi"Sleep my little hatchlings." Gazille's voice sang out as he quietly strummed on his guitar. "Rest well your eyes.ftff 24 gazille x levi in Romance More Like This
Stars to guide.
Sweet dreams don't hide.
Dark monster won't creep,
For dad will beat.
Sleep my little hatchlings.
Till morn does rise." He rested his fingers against the strings to silent them.
"That was beautiful Gazille." Levi said from the door frame her eyes watery as she smiled at him. Gazille rubbed the back of his head sheepishly as he set down the guitar on it's stand against the wall.
"Your song writing skills are improving." Lily said with a nod as he took his leave from by Levi's feet, ignore Gazille tsking at him.
"You really are though. That was more coherent than your first song." Levi said as she entered the room and went to her night stand slowly shutting the slightly ajared drawer on it.
"You think the kids liked it?" Gazille asked as he walked up behind her and wrapped his arms around her slim figure pressing her against him.
"I'm sure they did. They are
ftff 10 gazille x levi"I'm so sorry Levi I don't know what's come over Natsu. He's always weird. But I don't know why he's now abusing you with his weirdness." Lucy said to her friend as they were carrying some of Levi's belongs to Gazille's house. Levi was pulling the wagon with a few more books in her arms. Loki evening carrying an armful of belongings mostly books.ftff 10 gazille x levi in Romance More Like This
"It's ok Lucy. It's not your fault he's acting weird." Levi gave her friend a confident smile. "I just wish I knew what it was. Maybe my shampoo is bothering his nose or something."
"Yeah it would be nice to know what's causing it. You don't want Gazille to come back and start sniffing you too." Lucy gave her a weird look. "Can you just imagine him coming in and seeing Natsu sniffing you?" Lucy shook her head at the thought.
"All hell would break loose I think if that would happen" Loki added in. "I know I'd be upset if anyone was smelling my dear Lucy while I was away from her."
Lucy turned to look at Loki and her face red with anger, "when d
Never really can fix a heart...I've already hurt because of youNever really can fix a heart... in Free Verse More Like This
I would never walk through hell for you
I would let you burn, in the fiery pits of despair and guilt
After all you've made me suffer for
Was it worth your love?
After all this time, what have I gained?
I've gained 30 more scars
And the breaking of my fragile heart.
I've lost my self esteem,
I've lost more than I ever gave you
I gave you that heart of mine
Do you remember?
The one that was beautifully scarred,
The one that had a wooden sign reading "FRAGILE",
I bet you've just forgotten
That that is the heart you almost destroyed
It's no longer whole, it has lost its function
Can't feel, I won't let it. Neither will I trust.
Broken into pieces, of which you lost most of
Three tiny pieces I've found
I'm still trying to fix,
But the pieces will never fit
Cause you never really can fix a heart...
Lifeless.As blood runs blackLifeless. in Free Verse More Like This
Doors are locked
Her heart begins to crack
No more being mocked
She reaches for the pills
Fear of being caught
The silence always kills
Though she knows she was taught
Wringing the heartstrings
Her perception is altered
Bringing the hate with her
Misconception sets in
Sinking below reality
Out of consciousness
Thought pain was bottomless