So much time, so little to doI have seen the beauty of a dove beneath the skiesSo much time, so little to do in Free Verse More Like This
I have told the harshest truths, and I have told some lies
I have seen a child cry into its mother's arms
I have been that weeping girl who held onto self-harm
I have heard the laughter of a man about to die
I have seen the anger resting deep within their eyes
I have been the victim of my own disgusting thoughts
I have seen the best of people slowly start to rot
I have felt the heartache; I have seen a love go blue…
So much time is left to spare, but so much less to do…
What Happened?I used to think make upWhat Happened? in Free Verse More Like This
Made people ugly.
Now I think I'm ugly without it.
I used to think people
Always loved me.
Now I think everyone hates me.
I used to think everybody
Was my best friend.
Now I think no one truly is.
I used to think
Boys were icky!
Now I wish I had one.
What happened to being
I am a labelI slid the blade across my wristI am a label in Free Verse More Like This
Again and again.
Maybe I’m an emotional freak.
I cause fights and arguments
Maybe I’m a troublemaker.
I use make up to make myself seem
Maybe I’m girly.
I complain about things
Even when sometimes
Maybe I’m an attention seeker.
I fall under so many
So maybe I am a label.
I’m just me.
AsylumWho are you?Asylum in Free Verse More Like This
Where are you?
What... are you?
The blinding white walls
Closing in on you
Who are you?
Certainly not that
happy little girl
jumping through fairy tales
as a sunset paints the silver sky.
Where are you?
Definitely not where
you'd want to be.
What are you?
Blood, scars, wounds.
All you see are shadows
In a room of white walls...
I'm Fine"Are you okay?"I'm Fine in Free Verse More Like This
No. I'm dying. I have to push myself to wake up in the morning, and when I finally do, I want to go back to sleep. Even my best dreams are becoming nightmares. I can't taste food, I can't stand the things I used to love. I'm breaking. I'm fading. I'm dying.
I'm Fine"Are you okay?"I'm Fine in Free Verse More Like This
That's all they say.
And I leave behind
These words in my mind.
I'm broken, I'm dying.
Inside, I'm crying.
There are wounds beneath my skin.
There are trials I face within.
There are things I just can't say.
There are people I must betray.
Beneath a smile, I feel pain.
Behind the sun, there's always a little rain.
And beneath these words I hold in my head...
There's always the thing I say instead.
I leave the truth behind..
So when they say, "are you okay?"
I always say, "I'm fine."
Suicide NoteAll I ask is, when I die, please do remember meSuicide Note in Free Verse More Like This
Not for things I've done and not for things I've heard or seen
Not for what I seemed to be, not even for the truth
Not for what I have accomplished in my shortened youth
Please, just let my feelings hit the cold, damp, moldy floor
I know my emotions didn't matter much before
All I ask is, when I die, don't worry over pain…
All I ask is, when I die, just treat me much the same…
I Love You, DaddyDaddy, please don't touch me.I Love You, Daddy in Free Verse More Like This
It doesn't feel good.
It makes me feel..
Daddy, please don't hit me.
I didn't mean to disappoint you.
When you hit me, it makes me feel...
Daddy, please don't hurt her.
Mommy didn't do anything.
When you hit her, it makes me feel..
Daddy, please don't say you love me.
I know you're lying.
When you say you still want me, it makes me feel...
Daddy, please stop screaming at her.
You already killed her.
When you scream at her, it makes me feel..
Daddy, stay there.
Let me sink the knife into your throat.
When you bleed, it makes me feel..
Daddy, aren't you happy now?
As you lie there, lifeless.
I'm only following your footsteps.
This makes me feel...
Daddy, please listen.
I know you can't hear me, but...
I still love you.
The same way you always loved me.
And it makes me feel...
It makes me feel..
DisappearWishing to disappearDisappear in Free Verse More Like This
never to existed in their mind
no reason to cheer
this is why I was designed
there's a cloud over me and its raining knives
all smiles are faked
no one hears his cry's
as he sits there shivers and shakes
doesn't even try to reach out because there's nothing there
only my own numb stare
no desire to fight the devils wrenches
would anyone notice if I could disappear
because Im starting to feel warm in these trenches
would they even shed a tear?
Sick of the acting
let me compost with the dirt
live????..... ill think Ill be passing
lets make sure this hurts
still wishing to disappear
lets seal this coffin with a drop of blood and a tear
Things I'll Never SayThere are certain things I’ll never say,Things I'll Never Say in Free Verse More Like This
Like how I thought about killing myself today
Just to keep my own scary thoughts away.
Like how I stay awake way too late
To be sure I don’t awake in a bloody state.
Like how I soaked white into red last night
And turned myself into a ghastly sight.
Like how it hurts too much to breathe
When I make my own skin seethe.
Like how I Google things I shouldn’t
When I want to do things I couldn’t.
Like how I’m scared of being alone
Yet I’m only happy when I’m on my own.
Like how I know I’ll wind up killing myself
And turn into just a dusty photo on a dusty shelf.
Like how I make myself bleed every day
Even though I know I can’t go on this way.
Like how I maybe want someone to see
And for them to somehow help me.
But nobody will ever help me,
Because those are all the things I’ll never say.
Cut ItI’ve got so much to sayCut It in Free Verse More Like This
But not enough words to say it;
Perhaps I should scream it
Or cry it,
I should cut it.
Blood speaks so much louder than words,
Blades cry so much sharper
Pain screams so much softer
And it’s the only way I know how to talk
Even if it makes it hard to walk
For days after.
I think I’m going to hell,
Well, that’s just swell
Because ever since I fell
Pain’s all I’ve known anyway.
It’s like a blanket,
Hiding all the hate from view,
The shield between me and the monster,
The monster that is me.
Ever heard of freedom?
Yeah, so have I,
But I don’t know what it is
Only that I’ll never have it in breath
And the only key to my shackles
Chained and ShamedNobody gets it.Chained and Shamed in Free Verse More Like This
I don’t want saving,
I don’t want ”friends”;
I just want all ends
To be met in red.
I hate how plain my skin is,
How it should be painted;
I’m the addiction’s harlot,
I do as it must dictate
And when it tells me to seal my bloody fate;
I bloody well will.
I’m too full of blood,
I need to let some out.
But know this isn’t a shout
This is me coping
With how I’m hoping
Nobody’ll care when I go.
Cutting isn’t for attention;
It’s for a brief suspension
Of everything else.
It is mine and I’m its,
It doing as I want
And I its slave
Until there’s nothing left to save.
I don’t fear death
Half as much as I do breath.
Because I’d be lying
If I said dying
Wasn’t on my list of things to do today.
We Are/You Aren'tWe are the unwanted, the brokenWe Are/You Aren't in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The ones you forgot about.
So don't be too surprised when we
Start to scream and shout.
We are the living, the dying
The ones you all put down.
But you'll know who we are when we
Run this goddamn town.
We are the corpses, the maggots
The ones you all despise.
But you'll be the ones scared when we
Expose all your lies.
We are the hunted, the lost
The ones you all spurn.
But you'll cry for our help when we
Leave you all to burn.
We are the losers, the winners
The ones that you deny.
But you'll be the ones damned when we
Hear the angels cry.
Cross My WristsCross my wrists and hope to die,Cross My Wrists in Free Verse More Like This
I will only ever lie
When you ask me if I’m fine
Or if I like this life of mine.
If I had a gun,
I’d put it to my head
And turn bouncy blonde,
Into ruby red.
You want me to stop cutting;
I’ll stop when I’m dead.
The last time I’ll cut
Will be the last thing I see
When I finally put an end to me.
Dying sounds good right now,
Just fading into black
And never coming back
To the agony living brings.
Perhaps you’ll find me hanging,
Or after OD’ing;
Someday soon you’ll find me,
It’s too late now,
I’m too far gone.
Now I’m just a ghost
Of who could’ve been someone.
Hope (I Won't)I won't let a razor bladeHope (I Won't) in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Take away this life I've made.
I won't let the shame and guilt
Ruin everything I've built.
I won't let being wrong
Stop me from being strong.
I won't let sorrow and pain
Resurrect the demons that I've slain.
I won't let ugly spite
Tell me that I'm not right.
I won't let the dark past
Make my endless hurt last.
I won't let this noose
Leave me hanging loose.
I won't let the world win;
My life is only just about to begin.
To BurnI want to set my skin on fireTo Burn in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
With Death’s icy embrace.
I want to make my head stop
And my broken heart race.
I want to fade into black
Like fog over the sea.
I want to save them the bother
Of worrying about me.
I want to bleed myself white
Until I really am just a shell.
I want to miss out on heaven
Just to escape this cursed hell.
I want to see her face again
So I can tell her my regret.
I want her face to leave me
So that I can maybe forget.
I want my friends to be happy
But I stop that from being so.
I want to lose all control
And let the red blood flow.
I want to leave this place
And abandon all breath.
I want to do something right
And that something is death.
Carry OnI like sharp things;Carry On in Free Verse More Like This
The way they shine
The way they hurt
The way they leave a red line.
I like to bleed;
The way it's red
They way it hurts
The way it washes out what they said.
I like to live;
The way it's wrong
The way it hurts
The way it tells me that I am strong.
living and LivingThis year, I am going to live.living and Living in Philosophical More Like This
That is my resolution; to simply be alive. For that is something that I have never truly been before. Sure, I’ve been breathing and functioning and doing everything that one would class as ‘living’ but I’ve never been alive. Not really.
But then again, have you?
I know what you’re thinking. Of course you have been alive; you’re sat here reading this right now so therefore you must be living. But, if that is indeed what you are thinking, then you have misunderstood my resolution. When I say that this year I am going to ‘live’, what I mean is that I am going to make myself feel alive; not just this zombie-like creature, droning through life like a barely-animated corpse.
This year I am going to feel the wind ruffle my hair, the rain kissing my face, the sun warming my skin and not just look at it as a normal occurrence to be taken for granted. I shall seek to find beauty in the most mundane things and r
Red ScreamsSmiling at me, shiny silver teethRed Screams in Free Verse More Like This
Begging my wrist
For one chaste
Grinning at me, that evil smirk
Making my heart pound
So sharp so
I know I
And really I
Arm’s too full of blood
From attempts to
Join the stars.
Photo album of
My diary of my
I am still
The poetAll the words oh so trueThe poet in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
all the poems right from the heart
the poets mind the issue
his demons he displays in his art
the scariest ones he wouldn't dare put on paper
afraid of the reaction and the despair it would cause
it's hard to believe the poems could get that much darker
just another one of his flaws
a poet with more monsters in his head than friends
releasing some with this pen
hoping one day this ends
before the addictions and monsters take over again
this is the oh so hollow poet
whose afraid of his own mind
a place you'd never want to visit
a place he would never let you find
Do Me A FavorYou can fear death no moreDo Me A Favor in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
You've died to many times
More broken then ever before
To live like this should be a crime
Tried to drown your demons
They know how to swim
They killed all your angels
Your dreams are just a nightmare
When you thought you couldn't fall any deeper in the hole you pulled out a shovel
The smell of death is in the air
Mind and heart being toyed with by the devil
You don't even know what you're doing anymore
All you see is darkness and it has wrapped in a cocoon
Being eaten away at the very core
So death do me favor.... Visit soon
if they knewThey say I couldn't last a day in the real worldif they knew in Free Verse More Like This
I say they couldn't survive one night in mine
they say to hell i'll be hurled
I say I live there every day that's fine
they say you have no one go kill yourself
I say I don't mind being the outcast
they say have fun meeting the devil himself
I say I will i'll make sure we get to you fast
they say just go home emo and cry
I say if you knew my pain you'd cry until you lost both eyes
WelcomeTravel to place where a butterfly turns into a crowWelcome in Free Verse More Like This
theres clouds over everything and its pouring black rain
pain and sicknesses are shinning aglow
there is nothing sane
every breath wispers death
blood splaetters in the field
suguar becomes meth
everythings fate has been sealed
suicide the only way to leave
your bed is the grave
we are on the eve
pain has you enslaved
theres only one light in this world
a lone firefly
a twisted place maybee a firefly could uncurl
as it sings dont die
spelled out in blood saying welcome to my mind
listen to the winds song
beware u might not enjoy what u find
I stay here all day long
Two inchestwo inches never hurt so muchTwo inches in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
two inches so small yet so destructive
two inches used as a crutch
two inches is all I need to live
two inches oh so addictive
two inches allowing you to fake that smile
two inches has you held captive
two inches becoming apart of your lifestyle
two inches brings tears to friends and familys eyes
two inches is all it takes for you to feel
two inches can bring death as a prize
two inches brings scars that will never heal
two inches allows the blood to pour
two inches allows for a little bit the thoughts to fade
two inches puts you curled up in a ball on the floor
two inches..... the length of this razor blade
Outcasted loveGo ahead and hate her I could care lessOutcasted love in Free Verse More Like This
don't you see nothing you say will change how I feel
she's my beautiful wreck of a princess
i'm her rebel prince and these words couldn't be more real
I know you're hoping this poem isn't about her
but it is so stop thinking things that are only to help you sleep at night
these words the words of an outcasted love a sweet twisted to be happily ever after
not holding back my words this time i'm putting them for you to see in plain sight
are they hitting like a dagger to the chest
hurting angering the deepest part of you
knowing that I don't care if you detest
that i'm going to see this all the way through
our broken hearts fit perfect in each others like pieces to a puzzle
no amount of time could tear them apart
only brings the love closer through this long lasting battle
made it this far.... you really think anything could make these hearts depart
NumbCan you feelNumb in Free Verse More Like This
there should be a tear anger pain
not even one emotion you can reveal?
Only able to feel with a slit vein
theres no pain like not feeling pain
call me a name hit me I wont feel a thing
satisfied with more bloodstains
you cant even tell your dieing
your only sound a deafening silence
every breathe as empty as your bottle
your own body absence
your emotions are your own devil
I cant shake this blank stare
there has to be something there
The CostumeHurry up find itThe Costume in Free Verse More Like This
put it on fast
look at him hes so perfect
how does he last
the way he smiles his laughs
I wish I was like that
just even half?
Look at the sunlight gleam off his eyes
everyone around him loves him
no lows only highs
the chances of him failing are slim
no ones around hurry up take it off!
Its wearing you down
collapse to hell it's the falloff
the flames are making you drown
no laughs no smile
you can see the anguish in his lifeless eyes
blades cry out for me to stay awhile
this is his mastperpiece his perfect disguise
now there's nobody there!
Only me and the shrieking silence in this room
HURRY up put it on someones coming dont let them see this twisted nightmare
nobody would enjoy whats behind his costume....
Me Vs. Them Part 2I told you you'd be backMe Vs. Them Part 2 in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I can't take this anymore
someone like you can't just cutback
shut up I'm done be my savior
I always have been
i'm worse then ever
don't worry about that take this gin
it'll take a lot more then that to make me feel better
I know that's why i'm going to give you this razor
once again I'll still need more
cut deeper then it'll help you feel better
fine but i've done that before
that's why i'm going to give you these pills
i'll take them I still don't think it's enough though
don't worry I have more to give you still
I sure hope so
here now i've made you numb
you sure this will do it
trust me i'm positive that'll be the outcome
okay good just get me out of this bottomless pit
I will i'm glad to have you back my friend
i'm self destructing once again
oh don't worry i'll help you ascend
please I need out of this wrenched way of life when will I get out....when?
DeathA word so peacefulDeath in Free Verse More Like This
it soothes my very soul
something that makes most people fearful
it is in my very controll
a solution to every one of my problems
something I can achieve fastly in so many ways
it is the extreme version of being numb
something that would not go away but always stays
so easy to get to and reach
got any idea of what this miracale is yet?
It's something yet so simple I could even teach
it's right here for you to come and get
this gift that haunts many
all it takes is one single breath
it is my friend far from enemy
Together...Together,Together... in Free Verse More Like This
We were once together,
now we are apart,
the days go by,
My heart still feels empty,
bring it back to life,
the way you use to,
make me happy,
the way you use to,
Show me how to laugh,
the way you use to,
the way you use to,
where did i go wrong,
everything was perfect,
now i'm sitting here,
left with no answers.
Tell meTell me what you want,Tell me in Free Verse More Like This
Tell me what you need,
Tell me what's going on,
Tell me what i need to hear,
Tell me everything is going to be okay,
Tell me that you are always going to be here,
Tell me you wont ever leave me,
Tell me i can Breathe again,
Tell me that i'll be okay,
Tell me You love me,
Tell me Something.
Done ForeverThe Walls are slowly closingDone Forever in Free Verse More Like This
in on us where i am slowly
losing myself, i am losing the
faith i had in you, you lied to
me and broke my heart into
a million pieces as i slowly
pick them off the ground
you laugh at me then i began
to cry, who are you, not
the person i thought you were.
Why is this happening
i thought we were perfect for
each other i did so much for you
and now you are slowly breaking my
heart. The words you are saying
are tearing me apart, Did you ever
even care about me or was that a lie
too, what happen to all the promises
we had, did they mean nothing to you?
why do you keep lying to me is it ever
going to stop?
Or are you...
What have i doneWhat have i doneWhat have i done in Free Verse More Like This
what have i done to you
to make you hate me so bad
I tried so hard to keep us together
I tried so hard to be nice
I tried so hard to actually care
I tried so hard to be there for you
I tried so hard to be different from other people,
What did i do,
to deserve this,
I tried so hard,
to keep you happy,
i tried so hard,
to be the loving person,
I tried all that,
I miss youI miss you,I miss you in Free Verse More Like This
I miss your smell,
I miss the way we laughed,
I miss the way we hug,
I miss the way you made me feel,
I miss the way you said i love you,
I miss the way you were always there for me,
I miss you, come back before its too late.
Empty, Broken...Empty,Empty, Broken... in Free Verse More Like This
Empty without you.
Broken without you.
Hurt by you.
Judged by you.
I still want you,
You have me,
in the palm of your hand.
Get. me. Out. of. here.
You never gave upYou Show me the way to life,You never gave up in Free Verse More Like This
you prove to me happiness,
you let me be me,
you loved me more than anyone could,
you never let me fall,
you NEVER Gave up.. on me.
The DarkWords faid into the DarkThe Dark in Free Verse More Like This
where i try to pick up all the piece's
trying to find a way out,
I get lost not knowing
what to say or do
Someone please save me
From this cold Dark place
I'm scared that i'm not going to make
it out alive
Home is where i want to be
Can anyone save me now?
Or am i alone forever?
A place i can't take
A place i don't want to be,
A Dark unknown place,
Where i know no one
As i slowly forget
who i am
i have no one,
Not Even myself.
Blinded i am.
Stop pretending...Stop pretending you careStop pretending... in Free Verse More Like This
Stop pretending this meant anything to you
Stop pretending you don't want this
Stop pretending to tell the truth
Stop pretending to be my friend
Stop pretending to want to be my Friend
Just leave me be,
I'm already hurting enough,
Don't make me explain everything,
I don't want to tell what's on my mind.
Just do what you do best.. and LEAVE already.
FrightmareThere's no monster,Frightmare in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Under the bed.
Just the shadows,
Playing with my head.
There's no zombie,
Behind the door.
Just my hallway,
There's no danger,
That lurks outside.
There's no need,
For me to run and hide.
Protecting me from all harm,
My kitten scampers away on a whim.
There's no way,
Monsters could get past him.
We Regret To Inform YouDear Claire,We Regret To Inform You in Emotional More Like This
We regret to inform you that as of 10:48, Thursday, 21 of March, your grandmother has passed away.
We regret to inform you that your application to University of Georgia School of Veterinary Science and Medicine has been rejected.
We regret to inform you that everything you've ever loved has slipped through your fingers and there is nothing you can do about it.
We regret to inform you that you are nothing and will never be anything more than a pathetic piece of dust that clings to those who are better than you.
We do not regret to inform you that you are suicidal, depressing, depressive, insane, bipolar, have no friends, and will never ever be anything else.
From the deepest pit of our destroyed, shared soul, l
ClaireClear away the mistakes I've made.Claire in Free Verse More Like This
Love me for who I am.
Accept me because
I am only me.
Remember all the times I've been there,
Even when I didn't want to be.
A Unhappy Ending to my Cinderella StoryYou look at me,A Unhappy Ending to my Cinderella Story in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Eyes filled with disgust.
It's not an option,
You must because you married my father.
If I were smooth marble,
You'd be an angry carver,
Your greatest masterpiece.
Sell me in an auction,
Take your kids and leave.
If I were a punching bag,
You'd be the greatest boxer.
And all only because,
You married my father.
You'd wrap up your knuckles,
Beat me til I'm soft.
Then harden me up,
From my hook you take me off.
Promised you were different.
But you're not,
And I want to end it.
I thought you weren't like her;
I was wrong.
You're a spitting image,
Of my very own mom.
ScreamingScreaming on the inside,Screaming in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Smiling on the out.
I don't need this torture;
I don't need this doubt.
I'm sick of denial;
I'm sick of these lies.
Once, just once,
My smile should reach my eyes.
My scars are fading;
My courage is gone.
It's time I move on.
To a world with no sadness,
A world of wonder,
A slip of the knife,
Like a slip of the tongue.
I've ended my life.
I'm finally done.
Life in the ShadowsIs it wrong that I feel this way?Life in the Shadows in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Am I wrong because I'm...
The feeling if being normal,
I miss it.
I can't tell anyone;
I'm so afraid.
The way I was,
I should've stayed.
Is this really a disease?
Is there really no cure?
I'm so confused;
God made me,
Yet God is pure.
So what you're saying,
Is I should change?
That I'm wrong,
Because I'm gay?
Don't tell me that.
I refuse to change who I am.
You don't own me.
tICK TiCKI'm one of you,tICK TiCK in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
And I'll bleed.
Slice through my skin,
I cry tears,
Just the same.
You hurt me,
Without even knowing my name.
Stop my heart,
I swear I'll die.
To see the truth,
Look in my eyes.
Don't ever stop to think,
How your words affect me.
You've missed it.
All your words were shit.
They just keep coming and coming,
I smashed the windows,
And broke the clocks.
I Have Never Really Known YouI see you're hurting.I Have Never Really Known You in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I try to help.
I can't reach you.
Can anyone else?
The one who loves you,
Does he hear your plea?
If anyone does,
It's not me.
I know you are strong,
But it's okay to be weak.
It's okay to fall down;
It's okay to be meek.
Before you fall,
In that briar patch,
You should know,
I have your back.
Soul Best Friends For Like,
Our time together,
Will never pass.
Jump off a bridge,
I'll get on my boat,
And save your ass.
Coming Apart at the SeamsAgain my arms have paid the price,Coming Apart at the Seams in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
For the pathetic thing,
I call my life.
Cuts up and down,
Decorating my arm,
Keeping me safe,
From emotional harm.
Guarding my soul,
All through the night.
Showing that there is darkness,
Even in light.
So no matter how much I try,
To just go past,
The scars on my arms will always last.
They'll line up,
With the ones in my heart,
Until the day,
I finally fall apart.
Butterfly ScreamsIt's fun,Butterfly Screams in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Watching me bleed?
Ignoring my needs?
Destroying who I am,
And all I'll ever be.
But you wouldn't stop,
That I can see.
The butterflies in my stomach,
Scream as the hurtful words
Pin them to corkboard.
I'll cut myself,
I'm gonna lay down,
And hear the butterflies scream.
"Don't even worry."
"I'm perfectly fine."
Words are sandpaper,
And a couple of lies.
So while I'm here,
Down on the floor;
Do your worst,
Your worst and more.
So I'll lay down,
Even when I'm gone,
The butterflies will still scream.
Last night,I broke every bone in my bodyLast night, in Free Verse More Like This
so I could have a reason to drown
in the isolated ocean inside me.
when my dilapidated lungs finally caved in,
I swam ashore and crawled across the polluted sand.
Only glass-edged skin
and salt-licked eyelashes
can help me now.
AstrologicalI have lost myself toAstrological in Free Verse More Like This
Venus & Mars,
tangled in their mismatched limbs.
Just dream dust & shattered prayers
begging for a new set of skin
(she can't remember where she orbits).
Pluck these fractured wings;
the Sun & Moon no longer ache
to see me fly in their luster.
lies, she wrotei. just a mimicry, really;lies, she wrote in Free Verse More Like This
desperate to shine.
ii. counterfeit & clockwise,
tasting words on her
iii. with a dysfunctional mind
& apocryphal dictionary,
she cannot clone it all.
iv. "say anything," the pen
whispers as she trembles
among ink-scented fraudulence.
v. but she just laughs & plays the part,
forgetting what the pages told her:
"truth is stranger than fiction."
PulsateWhat is a heartbeat,Pulsate in Free Verse More Like This
without the heart?
What is a dream,
without the conscience?
What is a word,
without the letters?
What is a hope,
without the faith?
What is a soul,
without the self?
What is a kiss,
without the love?
What am I,
ashes to ashesi am the girl withashes to ashes in Free Verse More Like This
more faith in myths than in
there are more dead bodies in this world than the living.
and if that doesn't frighten you, then i
don't know what would. i guess you could
say that graves are just the closets in which
we hide our skeletons in.
there are ghosts all around us.
and i think that maybe,
i'd rather take my chances down in
the underworld with them than up
here where the earth is slowly
all because of the living.
RebirthFalling further down into theRebirth in Free Verse More Like This
abyss of agony with no way
to go up; and these chains
that bind wrists in iron so
cold that it burns like fire
refuse to shatter; drowning
in tidal waves of chaos and
Give me a blade to cut away these sulfuric bonds at last
and throw me a rope to pull me up out of this hole;
I'm weary of dying inside the coffin they call "the self"
and ready to crawl from the grave in armor woven
from the chains of misery and destruction.
Storybook EndingHer ink-stained lips have kissed too many a forgotten page,Storybook Ending in Free Verse More Like This
and phoenix down]
And her Prince Charming has yet to come,
shattering like stars]
So all she can do is gaze out her tower window,
concealing poisoned apples]
Clutch that corroded and timeworn blade,
tearing down castle walls]
Toss her childhood fables to the waltzing of the moon,
[even broken wings
wish for happily ever afters]
[once upon a time
there was a girl who became her own hero.]
Mother Knows BestThere is too much smokeMother Knows Best in Free Verse More Like This
residing in those noxious lungs of yours;
you've inhaled one too many
How do tar-coated fangs taste
when all you do is howl at
waning, unstable moons?
Just like the she wolf
you wish you were;
but your cub,
she just wants to sing
to ink-wrought stars.
A Black Butler/Kuroshitsuji LimerickThe butler had decided enough was enough.A Black Butler/Kuroshitsuji Limerick in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
His master’s manners were not up to snuff.
He resisted the urge to call the boy a brat,
for he was not allowed to keep his delightful cat.
Being a a child's manservant was certainly tough.
You have scars? ..You have scars? I still love you. You cut? I still love you. You burn? I still love you. You starve/purge? I still love you. You have depression/anxiety/etc? I still love you. You're suicidal? I still love youYou have scars? .. in Free Verse More Like This
Drop that razor, gun, rope, pen, or lighter.
Pick up some food and don't puke it back up.
Look in the mirror and love what you see.
Ignore the haters.
Point a middle finger to the bitches who think they are better.
Laugh at the idiots who think they tear you down.
Don't let anyone's words get you down.
When writing the story of your life, don't let anyone else hold the pen.
You are all beautiful and I love you♥
the girl who seems unbreakable...the girl who seems unbreakable, broke.the girl who seems unbreakable... in Free Verse More Like This
she dropped the fake smile and whispered to herself,
"I can't do this anymore"
R.I.P Mitch LuckerOctober 20, 1984 to November 1,2013R.I.P Mitch Lucker in Personal More Like This
one year ago today we lost an amazing father,husband,musician,lead vocals of suicide silence and an inspiring person to a motorcycle accident.
he'll forever be in our hearts.
he'll forever be missed and loved.
keep stomping up in heaven,Mitch.
"you only live once so just go fucking nuts" ~suicide silence
"keep listening to music cause it gets you though everything, i promise" ~Mitch Lucker
OutcastAloneOutcast in Free Verse More Like This
I am an outcast
I am the unwanted
I am surrounded by people who claim love
But I see their hearts
I am despised
Always creating contention
Never doing anything right
Always the subject of reticule
I ask you this
Is it better to be alone
Or to be surrounded by those who falsely love you?
I do not know
I never will
I do know one thing though
I am the outcast
It's who I am
And so it is who I'll be
Suicide?Is it worth to continue living, if you don't feel desire to live further?Suicide? in Short Stories More Like This
Is it wrong to think like this?
Is it right to live only because of others?
Is it sad to hear everyone's wheeping above your grave?
Is it wrong to say goodbye to life just like that?
Everyone would say yes, but me, I don't think like that.
Can somebody tell me if I sound mad by writing this?
Is it wrong to think like this?
Will someone miss me after all?
I doubt that...
MoonlightIn the moonlight I felt your heartMoonlight in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Quiver like a bow string's pulse
In the moon's pale light you looked at me
Nobody knows your heart
When the sun has gone I see you
Beautiful and haunting but cold
Like the blade of a knife so sharp so sweet
Nobody knows your heart
All of your sorrow, grief and pain
Locked away in the forest of night
Your secret heart belongs to the world
Of the things there sigh in the dark
Of the things there cry in the dark
Memories of a dreamI've been having these strange dreams latelyMemories of a dream in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Memories so true...
Why can't I think?
Why can't I breathe?
Whenever I think of you?
Are you actually real?
Or are you just a dream?
A figure of my imagination
Who lowers my self-esteem
I dream we're at the ocean
I whistle for you and wait
The wind whips though my hair
Loneliness is my fate
I run for you but fall
My hopes now crushed and torn
I awake again slowly
Now is when I mourn
Hidden PainNo one can see the pain that we hide, they're happy for us to keep it inside.Hidden Pain in Free Verse More Like This
Our fear is our own; they don't want to know, Why should we involve them; why should it show?
Do you know what it feels like to be alone?
When every day you know you're going to be sad, you know you're going to cry.
To walk through the halls, but not to be seen. It's like you weren't even born.
When you talk, no one hears you.
When you cry, no one cares. So, you just sit by yourself all day, and cry, as the world just walks past you.
Do you know what that's like?
To live every day, feeling as if no one cares. To be alone, like you always knew you would.
Have people around that seem like caring, but in your heart you feel, they all just are staring.
Divorce"You're being abused."Divorce in Personal Journal More Like This
"You're being oppressed."
"She's a control freak."
"You're being brainwashed."
"You're being manipulated."
"They are trying to rob me of my peace!"
You hear that enough, and soon you won't know what to believe.
From all the screaming and begging them to stop, your shouts grow coarse.
You've been told you have the voice of an angel.
But your strained larynx laughs - you are like a boy going through puberty.
Before long, you flat out sound like a chain smoker Batman.
All you can do is run away, so you scale the stairs and lock yourself in the one place you can call your own.
Because you're a "drama queen."
I Promise You..I know you're hurting and I'm hurting tooI Promise You.. in Free Verse More Like This
But just look at me, and all we've been through.
Together we've stayed, at the other's side
To wipe away the tears we've cried.
The pain at times is hard to bear,
And furious screams fill the air
With the bloodiest hate
When everyone talks of our mistake.
Radiant skin ceases to glow
As it survives blow after blow
Of their savage abuse,
Until you're cast like sour refuse.
It's going to hurt, but what do they know?
They don't see us, taking it slow
Don't listen to their fallacious lies.
No, love look into my eyes.
Look at me.
And forget all the worry
As you hold me today,
Because I promise it will be okay.
Air-HungerIt doesn't matter how deep I breatheAir-Hunger in Free Verse More Like This
Or the air I bring past my teeth
It fills my lungs, but it's never enough
Breathing fills me with disgust
This hunger remains a torturous curse
Each exclusive breath makes it worse
I fill my lungs until they're stretched
But nothing can relieve the pain in my breast
I indulge with hatred as I starve
This inescapable plague leaves me scarred
I want to give up, why should I try
If my endurance only leaves me dry
I supply my life with another breath
As I silently yearn for a quiet death
I plead for my lord to show me mercy
So I do not keep on indefinitely thirsty
But I turn away, in selfish desire
My heart ablaze in a violent fire
Without a thought, I grab my sock
I choke and convulse, and go into shock
And in the darkness, I slip away
Let air hunger itself starve this day
PrisonerMy dark, dirty cellPrisoner in Free Verse More Like This
Infested with maggots
I lick the soiled floor
To please these faggots
They kick me around
And whip my back bloody
Spit in my face
Say "Consider yourself lucky,
We don't need to feed you.
You're at our mercy."
(Oh, so generous)
"Are you thirsty?"
They grab my hair
And slam my face down
Into the bucket
Where I'll soon drown
I flail my arms
And kick my legs
They just chuckle and scoff
As I beg
They force my face upward
And I gasp for breath
Life is a gift
But I long for my death
They throw me down
Back into my corner...
Day by day,
I live this horror.
MonstersI thought I knew youMonsters in Free Verse More Like This
When my love you had taken
Stainless and innocent
Oh, I was mistaken
Your dark side is fierce
Like a mad, headless monster
With a secret to kill
Like a violent mobster
Who are you really
Will I ever know
Or keep believing your lies
And partake in your woe
It doesn't matter though
I don't have a choice
You grab my ankles
And whisper a voice
Come with me to die
In the lake of blood
Three sheets to the wind
We'll drink from the flood
My screaming is silent
Your sweet breath chokes me
And you stroke my face
Before you lean in to kiss me
MemoriesThe words may live for but a nightMemories in Free Verse More Like This
But they will always whisper
To awaken you drenched and screaming
With an unforgettable blast
In the dead of silence
To leave you in darkness with nothing
But the sound of your weeping
To repeat the horrors until you beg for mercy
If only you could forget..
EcstasyIn the busy roomEcstasy in Free Verse More Like This
Exists a ghost among faces,
The brilliant costumes
Bright lights, and porcelain vases
The radiance of music
Delicate angel cake
And static of chatter and voices
The transparent becomes opaque
With thickly painted colors.
And is once again overlooked.