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RememberMemories.Remember in Free Verse More Like This
The thought worries me,
that I might just forget it all.
I'll forget the spontaneous times
where I would feel happy,
for really... no apparent reason.
I'm so scared,
that I'll wake up and
not remember anything,
and even if it means
losing the depressing memories -
I can't bear to let it go.
It shaped me into what I am today,
believe it or not -
all those sad, depressing memories.
And if I were to age and perhaps just
forget it all...
I would lose myself.
What would I do?
Who would I be?
Oh, sweet and painful memories -
please, never leave me.
Keeping secretsHave you ever cried yourself to sleep?Keeping secrets in Free Verse More Like This
And if someone asked you that,
how would you answer?
Truth be told, I used to -
Just lie in bed and think,
think about every single thing
and how I felt about it...
what it meant to me.
But I'll just say no,
because I don't want you to know
about how weak I am.
And it is when all is silent,
the tears will slide slowly,
soaking your pillow.
Like a movie,
the scene plays out in your head
of all those times when you were
bullied, hurt,
damaged and broken.
Replayed and replayed until
all the images end up blur and disjointed.
Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
Yes, I have - many times, in fact.
Bu
Why wont you let go?Do you know what it feels like?Why wont you let go? in Free Verse More Like This
To feel nothing yet delve
into the darkness,
plunging into the unknown.
The unknown consumes you,
and you don't know
what to do with yourself.
Because you're just that detached;
isolated from everyone else.
You don't feel angry, oh no.
That isn't what you feel.
You just feel void, empty.
Like there's no emotion in you,
because
no one can contemplate,
or even understand you.
And you're just plagued
by this idea that
you brought this upon yourself.
All this sadness,
is because of you
and because you
wont let go.
And because you wont let go,
it'll keep coming back and
coming back to haunt you -
you'll
A monster impossible to subdueI painted my hopes and wishes on a canvas,A monster impossible to subdue in Free Verse More Like This
Even though I knew... it wouldn't last.
The monster inside of me came out to play
Using a scarlet river to wash my dreams away
It salivated at the delicious, red meal -
All the happiness that it could easily steal
Using its claws, ripping it shred by shred
Stuffing it down its throat, it maliciously fed
And each shred it ripped, it ripped my soul
I fed and fed until it took its toll
I was sucked dry of my wishes and hopes
After the monster ate, it hung me with ropes
I dangled from the ceiling, tears delicately shed
My voice croaked and I plead and plead
A monster I created that killed all I kn
Magic.Magic.Magic. in Free Verse More Like This
The voices in the wind.
The shiver down your spine.
The sparkle in the eye.
The whispers in the trees
It is Magic.
Impossible.
Incredible.
Unimaginable.
Real.
The forgiveness out of anger.
The strength out of weakness.
The light from darkness.
The life out of death.
It is Magic.
Impossible
Incredible
Unimaginable
My wish.
Feel.You can`t.Feel. in Free Verse More Like This
You can`t feel what I felt.
Rip out your heart.
Pull out your spine
Tear yourself apart.
Then you`ll come close.
Torn apart
Broken
Unfixable.
That`s how you made me feel.
With your words.
They reached inside me.
pierced my soul.
But now it`s different.
I have the chance
to tear you apart.
But I don`t.
It would mean being like you.
Being cold.
and dead.
But I want to live.
So I forgive instead.
LoveI want to fall in love.Love in Free Verse More Like This
I want to feel my heart beat with yours
I want to never let go
I want to love you
I have to fall in love.
I have to find the other part of me.
I have to feel what I can`t
I have to love you
I need to fall in love.
I need to have that closeness
I need you to always be with me
I need to love you.
I fell in love
I found what I was searching for
I have what I needed
I love you.
The Daydreamer's LamentI long to close the gapThe Daydreamer's Lament in Free Verse More Like This
Between the realm of fiction and reality
And bring this lonely soul
A friend from the world I wish I lived in...
Of Nerdiness and FandomsBeing a nerd is awesomeOf Nerdiness and Fandoms in Free Verse More Like This
There's so much to explore
From manga to anime to gaming to cult shows
There's so much out there to enjoy.
Being a nerd is lonely
When there's no one who enjoys it too
At school, without a fandom peer
But...
Being a nerd is amazing
Because you're never really alone
There's so many out there who love what you do too
From fan fictions to art and even music too
Who cares about the haters
When we stick together
A Writer's ApologyI'm sorryA Writer's Apology in Free Verse More Like This
I stayed up late
Last night again
I'm sorry
I stayed up too long reading
Last night again
But how can you expect
For me to sleep with all these ideas
In my head
How can you expect
For me to rest with all these untold stories
In my head
I can't risk
Sleeping and losing
My dreams
Because I can't risk
Becoming another face in the crowd, not following
My dreams
So I guess I'm sorry
Just ban me from everything so I won't
Be inspired
I'm sorry
One day I'll cause someone else to
Be inspired
Amy Alone~A Doctor Who Fan-FictionNOTE: This takes place during the events of the Doctor Who episode "The Girl Who Waited." Spoilers?Amy Alone~A Doctor Who Fan-Fiction in General Fiction More Like This
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Alone.
Sterile.
Hostile.
Alone.
Bitterly alone.
This is where I am now. This was supposed to be a vacation from all the craziness of traveling with the Doctor. Turns out, the number two most popular tourist planet has a deadly plague! And there's two timestreams too...one normal, and a faster, compressed one. At least, that's what the Doctor says. He told me to go into the facility, so he can rescue me. So he said. So he said.
But I know he's coming. Actually, I know both of my boys are coming for me. The Doctor, my Raggedy Doctor from when I was a girl, who came back for me, and Rory, the Last Centurion, the man who watched over
You Can't Tell MeYou can't tell meYou Can't Tell Me in Free Verse More Like This
that my writing is wrong.
It might be for you
But for me it will live, forever strong
You can't tell me
that my words are not right.
They might not be prefect
But I'll still put up a fight
You can't tell me
my rhymes are too mix-matched.
Its just because they are not yours
To me they do not lack
You can't tell me
I did not try my best.
Who are you to evaluate?
Its not like its a test
You can't tell me
that I didn't follow a rule.
Creativity has no list
I think you are a fool
You can't tell me
that I didn't emote at all.
How can you tell me what I feel?
Its not like I'm a doll
You cant tell me
everything that I should.
How can you think you know everything?
And think you know whats "good"?
To contain them...Words are but emotion, finally contained.To contain them... in Free Verse More Like This
~My six word story
Keep RunningSomething broken, or something deadKeep Running in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
and everything that was ever said
Punches, bruises, sticks and stones
and everything that broke my bones
to words they said would never hurt,
to a shoe that kicked my face with dirt
Yes, these tears are made by you
but even tears don't make lies true
Tears that dampened my pillow case
tell a story that you could never chase
and I'll keep running until I die
Because you'll never catch me, I'll watch you try
Between the stallsAmung the sinks and filthy tilesBetween the stalls in Free Verse More Like This
I stay between two dirty walls
I really just need to be here alone
No where but here amung the bathroom stalls.
As I sit upon the toilet lid
I can see the water between my knees
I glare into this toilet bowl
And all I find is a circular sea.
I watch as they drip again and again
The tears come streaming down my cheek
They fall into the bowl directly below
And vanish into the water so bleak.
This is the place I come to hide
This is the place I always go
Where theres a place I can be myself
And not my emotions' puppet show.
I hear the tap of my shoes echo the room
But its shushed asleep by the sound of the flush
This way I can drown my emotions dead
To finally get them to shut up and hush.
I use my sleeves to wipe my eyes
And walk out from between these walls
I walk with nothing but a smile to show
Like nothing happened, even at all
Isomnia.To the mocking flash of my cell phone clockIsomnia. in Free Verse More Like This
The glitter of morning my closed blinds block
In a hunch on a chair or a ball on my bed
Comfortable and comfy but I stay up instead
With paper and pens and paintbrushes I raise
And the stories that unfold on each turning page
Youtube, Facebook, and clicking links
Are the things that keep me from even a blink
Round and round, my thoughts echo and spin
Closing my eyes even seems like a sin
Redbull, pepsi, and midnight snacks
Drinks of sugar in tempting twelve packs
The silence of myself and the embrace of a book
Casting and reeling until sleep's on my hook
They say theres plenty of fish in the sea
But sleep swims deeper than my hook can see
Alone in a dimming desk lamp light
Confronted by morning that stepped through the night
Open curtains, birds with a morning song
It's a shame I had to wait this long.
Stupid BlondeWhy, yes.Stupid Blonde in Free Verse More Like This
I do pick up books.
And thank you for thinking I hold them upside down or I can't even finish the first page.
Why, yes.
I do math.
And thank you for thinking I can't long divide or that numbers shave my mind blank.
Why, yes.
I can write.
And, again, thank you for thinking I can't use a pen or that I <rite tings liek dis>
Why dont you take a label maker and slap it right on my forehead? All to see and all to share?
"Stupid blonde"
Maybe a pawn in your conversation, or ideas just easily ignored.
A voice filtered upon arrival and spilled down the drain to wash away, carried to a place where rubbish seals any whisper left to fade.
Voices become whispers, and whispers become the helpless echos of ideas shed free of a mind that is as fully functional as yours,
My friend, it is but you who label me with a permanent marker, that set my skys with the bleakest ink.
But h
They say love is unconditionalThey say love is unconditional,They say love is unconditional in Free Verse More Like This
A family's love,
The love of a soul mate,
The love for a dear animal.
But love is only unconditional
If trust and hope stand together side by side.
If they are together,
The love will last forever.
But if I cannot trust,
And I cannot feel hope,
The love is doomed.
Shadow in the nightShadow in the night in Free Verse More Like This
I hear you creep,
I hear you sneak.
Footsteps behind me!
A shadow sweeps across the empty lot.
My heart beats franticly in my chest,
As I quicken my pace.
The fear takes over,
As a twig snaps!
Just a bump in the night I tell myself.
But I know better.
I feel his eyes on me!
His gaze of death.
His skin as ice,
The grin of a madman!
I have encountered this monster before.
Not even human enough to be a man.
His eyes like flamed daggers!
Digging into my flesh!
A scream escapes my lips,
As I meet his gaze.
My skin crawls,
And I become ice cold,
As he draws closer.
I cannot think! I cannot move!
The end has come,
The end of
KalonaKalona in Free Verse More Like This
Kalona?
Are you there?
In the darkest shadows,
All alone?
Can you hear my plea?
Kalona.
I know that you are a fallen angel, fallen from Nyx's side.
Enprisoned in this earthy cave!
I can set you free!
Just give me a sign that you can hear me!
Kalona, you are my fallen immortal!
I will release you and you feathery beasts!
We shall all be free.
Free from this wasteland we call home!
I have the power, just say you hear me.
I hear you, now release me unto this world!
AnimalsAnimals, what can I say?Animals in Free Verse More Like This
They are our shoulder to cry on,
Our companions,
The only one who can truly understand us.
They rely on us for everything.
Food, shelter, and most of all, love.
How can anyone harm such beautiful creachers?
People can beat,starve, and torcher their pets,
And yet....thier Love is still there.
Unconditional.
Animals are amazing.
Nothing LeftWhat's left to fight for?Nothing Left in Free Verse More Like This
Corruption infects everybody's veins and brains
Nobody remains, only blood stains
Scars on your delicate face, self-made
Everything and everybody is turning to androids
Repeating the same actions, we aren't supposed to be these droids
Fake tears, fake emotions, where's the sensation?
Of using your mind for self-exploration
Discovering the real you
Seems this is lost too
They fall one by one
This will continue until it's done
Brother after brother
Sister after sister
Mother after mother
Mister after mister
Is there any humanity left to fight for?
MonstersMonsters are made, not bornMonsters in Free Verse More Like This
Your appearance may be of a monster
But only your actions will tell
By your own conviction you're sworn
Your own ideas and beliefs you'll foster
This is what I foretell
In a world run by Hell
Dear InsanityAll is lost within realityDear Insanity in Free Verse More Like This
Love is a fatality
Entities of repetition strike me down
A false façade of hope is found
This endless desert has not the smallest shimmering light
So I journey with my blind sight
Discovering the truth
The unable to deny proof
That the only thing that lasts for eternity
Is my dear insanity
I Have WalkedI have walked through hell.I Have Walked in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I have pushed through its fires.
I have walked over needles and daggers with flaming arrows being fired.
I have walked through blizzards.
I have walked through freezing rain.
I have walked across thin ice and seen the cracks as it gives way.
I have walked over mountains.
I have felt their sharp edges.
I have stumbled over loose rocks and clung to the ledges.
I have walked the smooth paved roads,
And slipped on the smaller gravel paths too.
And felt the thorns tug at me as I pressed through the world to make a new.
But I have danced through meadows.
I have felt the soft grass underfoot.
The tingling of the summe
Farewell LoveI am standing in a field full of dying flowers.Farewell Love in Concrete Poetry More Like This
I heard that once they used to bloom
And picked up by many lovers,
Until one day they met their doom.
Whispers from my past haunt me,
I followed them to this forsaken land,
Grief and despair instantly found me
And buried my dreams under endless sands.
Farewell, love, we had good times together.
You made my pen lighter than a feather,
Yes, you were unanswered and brought pain,
You saved me from the burning sun and heavy rain.
One day I opened my eyes and my muse was gone,
Again in this World I am left alone!
Without aims and full of doubts I wander around,
Searching for something that cannot be found:
A blooming flower…
Fake WonderlandA place where you want to breathe,Fake Wonderland in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
But you cannot get enough air.
A place that you want to leave,
But you can’t, you are in despair.
Freedom is something I wanted long ago.
They used to tie me up with a rope.
I am packing and now I am ready to go,
To rebuild, to change it all there is no hope.
In lies we have to swim every day,
To love we are not allowed anymore.
Anything you want you are not able to say,
They throw you in a room and lock the door.
A fake wonderland that no one can escape,
If your body is gone, your soul will stay.
The truth they can no longer shape,
They want to throw it to the sea away!
You freed me from this chain,
Now my soul can for a while rest.
I want to love you, but I am insane:
To alter this realm I try my best!
Uncertainty In LifeWhen will sadness come to say goodbye?Uncertainty In Life in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I am gloomy, I do not know why!
I do not have any hints about my fate,
I want to know before it is too late.
I do not know if the truth is in my mind or heart,
Sometimes I feel that everything falls apart.
The World around me changes so fast.
I cannot catch up, I think I won’t last.
What is going no one can tell me,
The word “life” no one can spell me!
I am trapped in an eternal puzzle,
Thoughts try my sanity to guzzle.
When love came I though all questions died,
Though time showed that to me it lied.
Nothing is certain in my actions,
I rebelled against all factions.
Last PagesIn my manuscript where I wrote my pieces,Last Pages in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Its final pages to my pen releases.
With lies about love it is full,
Reading it sometimes gets dull.
Her name all over the pages is scattered,
I remember the time when my heart it flattered,
Now I look at it and burn from despair,
I am hopeless, I am not treated fair.
In times of darkness she shed light,
But now again I am struck by the night.
What means to smile I forgot,
By a bullet called reality I was shot.
Facing Reality“Why do you need fame? Is it the money or is it the power you want?”Facing Reality in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
“ Love is the only thing I desire. I want to be near her”.
“Love? Ha-ha-ha! You are a fool to think that love can take you to the top”.
“I believe that one day we will meet each other, the only thing I need is recognition”.
“Look, your time is running out, you have not achieved anything significant and there are a lot of people that have better chances than you do. Give up on the idea and live your miserable life”.
“My writings will save me. I believe I will achieve my goals”.
“If you think your worthless pieces will get you somewhere and will change your life, then you are out of your mind. Look at your writings! Just look at them! No one will read them, no one I tell you. Have you forgotten the time when they were denied by literary magazines? Aren’t you tired of seeing “We regretfully inform you…” and so on
WeakWhen I write I send my words to mid air,Weak in Concrete Poetry More Like This
My soul God can never again spare,
Because I am useless, I am drowning in despair,
And I cannot fight everything that is unfair.
Just watching the rainy sky does not change our lives,
Just wandering around the World brings no satisfaction,
And I am afraid to take the slightest action,
Because I know that you will send me away.
No matter how I try to write you a letter,
My scribbles are not worthy of your eyes,
Alas, I cannot make them better,
That’s why from you they are disguised.
After everyone had from me their vengeance,
Now came fate’s turn to make the final strike.
Do not yield, my love, fight for your independence,
Before you get in your heart a spike.
Strange FriendshipNever my soul you befriended,Strange Friendship in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Because you always me offended,
Though I kept and keep our friendship secure,
This is an illness for which I cannot find a cure.
Many mistakes I made, many troubles I got in to,
My dear friend, it was all for you.
I took the blame for your deeds,
I had done everything to meet your needs.
In times when I covered you I almost got busted,
Good thing that my words everyone trusted.
I have never heard a “thank you” in return,
But know that against you I will not turn.
Though my heart was not meant for you,
In my mind for no reason I loved you.
It will be a secret that I’ll forever keep,
Through these moments of my life I am going to leap.
You are a girl with a future that is lost,
I look at you and see that you are a ghost.
You had your chances, now they are gone.
Saving you is my mission and alas, it is undone!
Understanding PainWhen everyone chanted your name that dayUnderstanding Pain in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I understood that to your heart I had no way.
You do not want stop by and read the poems I wrote,
You are famous; you do not recognize my existence.
My writings are obscure; they are used to clear a dry throat,
But I continue against all forces my resistance.
I wish someday you would understand this pain.
You stabbed me with your charming looks,
I can no longer live with the wound from your grace,
The love that hit me that day you cannot find in any books!
Only God can your name from my life erase!
If one day you will this cursed piece read,
Know that I still for you burn,
I know you my love will never need,
But who knows, destiny can turn.
Unanswered LoveRip out my heart and rid me of this madness,Unanswered Love in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Love causes nothing but sadness.
My admiration for you no one predicted,
By your gaze for years I’m convicted.
I'm acting like a fool because of you.
People think I’m crazy; they don’t have a clue,
That I gave my soul to you,
But now I do not know what to do.
Far away in the Caucasian mountains,
Words hit from my pen like thousand fountains,
To you they want to tell my tale,
Alas to reach you they always fail.
My existence to you is unknown,
No one cares about me, I’m alone,
No matter what, to write to you I attempt,
But struggle is useless to my contempt.
I’m a peasant, you’re a queen,
I’m lucky that you’re face I’ve seen.
With hair made of pure gold,
About which legends have told,
With sky blue eyes,
In front of which no man can himself disguise,
For an in eternity my mind you cursed,
This feeling inside me burst,
Among all things unanswered love is
Winter SecretIt gets harder to keep a secret as time passes,Winter Secret in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
You feel weak; there are tears on your glasses.
The same thing is with me going on,
I forgot about the planet I am now on.
Flashback:
December 2011,
My life was neither hell nor heaven.
In love that winter I had to believe,
Fate decided me to deceive.
The snow was falling like never before,
The blizzard was slamming the wooden door.
The whole city was dressed in white clothes,
Everything was asleep: from trees to roses.
My heart was made of ice,
I was born everything to despise,
Suddenly I saw her eyes,
And a strange feeling me embraced,
Never in my life such beauty had I faced,
All my hatred it completely erased!
To the present we are back,
I am still using the secret track.
I am being watched, they want me to confess,
But all the suspicions I barely manage to press.
I am ought to hide this endless disaster,
Alas, my emotions I could not master,
This love is unrequited; I must get rid of it faster.
I have been
AlwaysDo you see the water?Always in Free Verse More Like This
That used to be me
Flowing, oh so carefree
Leaving Mother Earth
Once in a while
(It was a heated disagreement)
But I come back
I always come back.
Do you see the skeleton?
That used to be me
Cold bones, white, bleached
In the sun
(It was only an accident)
So I stay
I always stay.
Do you see the lightning?
That used to be me
Oh, too late.
(It was a flash you know)
There's not enough time
There's always not enough time.
Do you see the blue marble?
That's where I am
Small, minute
You could block me out with your thumb.
Abundant yet lonely
I am always lonely.
UsColor of earth,Us in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
of fruit, the sun,
and every hue in-between.
Inside is red,
purple, black, green,
and colors without names.
Taste of salt,
of iron, rust,
thick nectar flows through the tunnels.
Made of cells,
proteins, amine, compounds,
and those of atoms tinier than the eye can see.
Walking towards death,
some run, some struggle,
others deny the earth is the end.
Six feet under,
worms, maggots, flies,
feast upon anyone with thoughtless mechanics.
The living continue,
ignoring, hurting, killing,
causing the pain they claim to hate.
Death ends this,
ends hate, war,
pointless battles of the living.
FallingLight is deceiving,Falling in Free Verse More Like This
Its trickery fooling the weak.
Darkness is honest.
We know what lies there hidden,
The soft voices feeding us
Sweet nectar laced with poison.
Demons and monsters...
At least they tell us they're there.
At least we know their intentions.
We assume light is pure.
Light allows these assumptions
And they hide their true evil.
Souls contain light.
That is why we humans are truly cruel.
Why we can fall into the dark sea.
Without that light...
Perhaps we would be pure.
Perhaps we wouldn't feel so much.
Here I speak
And here you listen,
Servant of darkness and mine own light.
What laughter at my words ring through your foul min
Sta.sh
