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Things I'll Never SayThere are certain things I’ll never say,Things I'll Never Say in Free Verse More Like This
Like how I thought about killing myself today
Just to keep my own scary thoughts away.
Like how I stay awake way too late
To be sure I don’t awake in a bloody state.
Like how I soaked white into red last night
And turned myself into a ghastly sight.
Like how it hurts too much to breathe
When I make my own skin seethe.
Like how I Google things I shouldn’t
When I want to do things I couldn’t.
Like how I’m scared of being alone
Yet I’m only happy when I’m on my own.
Like how I know I’ll wind up killing myself
And turn into just a dusty photo on a dusty sh
To BurnI want to set my skin on fireTo Burn in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
With Death’s icy embrace.
I want to make my head stop
And my broken heart race.
I want to fade into black
Like fog over the sea.
I want to save them the bother
Of worrying about me.
I want to bleed myself white
Until I really am just a shell.
I want to miss out on heaven
Just to escape this cursed hell.
I want to see her face again
So I can tell her my regret.
I want her face to leave me
So that I can maybe forget.
I want my friends to be happy
But I stop that from being so.
I want to lose all control
And let the red blood flow.
I want to leave this place
And abandon all breath.
I want to do something
living and LivingThis year, I am going to live.living and Living in Philosophical More Like This
That is my resolution; to simply be alive. For that is something that I have never truly been before. Sure, I’ve been breathing and functioning and doing everything that one would class as ‘living’ but I’ve never been alive. Not really.
But then again, have you?
I know what you’re thinking. Of course you have been alive; you’re sat here reading this right now so therefore you must be living. But, if that is indeed what you are thinking, then you have misunderstood my resolution. When I say that this year I am going to ‘live’, what I mean is that I am going to ma
Cut ItI’ve got so much to sayCut It in Free Verse More Like This
But not enough words to say it;
Perhaps I should scream it
Or cry it,
No;
I should cut it.
Blood speaks so much louder than words,
Blades cry so much sharper
Pain screams so much softer
And it’s the only way I know how to talk
Even if it makes it hard to walk
For days after.
I think I’m going to hell,
Well, that’s just swell
Because ever since I fell
Pain’s all I’ve known anyway.
It’s like a blanket,
Hiding all the hate from view,
The shield between me and the monster,
The monster that is me.
Ever heard of freedom?
Yeah, so have I,
But I don’t know what it is
Only tha
Evil, Beautiful, FirefliesI'm covered in fireflies;Evil, Beautiful, Fireflies in Free Verse More Like This
All up and down my legs.
They sleep in my skin
And hide my sin,
My precious red fireflies.
They ignite my body
And set it ablaze.
They turn all of my pain
Into a crimson haze,
My precious red fireflies.
They burn through flesh
In a criss-cross mesh
And spread their wings
All over me,
My precious red fireflies.
They hum silently,
Painfully,
Whispering away my shame.
They burn brightly,
Painfully,
Setting my blood aflame,
My precious red fireflies.
I hate them but they love me
But nobody can ever see
Because they refuse to leave.
Not that I want them to;
Because they care,
They understand
More than you ever could
TodayI saw something in the mirror today that kinda creeped me out.Today in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
It was a girl wearing a smile, not a frown nor a pout.
Her eyes were wide and shining, just as a summer sun.
Her laugh wasn't wooden and fake, but true and full of fun.
Her irises reflected happiness, not a trace of pain.
She was under perfect skies; not a drop of rain.
Angels swam around her, keeping the devil at bay.
Her life was precious and she wasn't throwing it away.
Her lips were red and shinging with a pure smile.
It was a sight her mirror hadn't seen in a very long while.
She wasn't at all pretty but a care she did not give.
Because today she woke up and said, "Toda
This is Me, BeggingIf I could play guitarThis is Me, Begging in Free Verse More Like This
I’d write you a song.
If I could run that far
Then I’d run all night long.
But I’m no good at that
So you’ll have to settle for this.
What is this?
It's a plea
A beg
For you
From me
Please come home
I'm all alone
And nobody understands.
I don't want you to R.I.P.
I want you here with me
But I'm not God
And He hates me
So, for now,
I guess it's R.I.P.
Red ScreamsSmiling at me, shiny silver teethRed Screams in Free Verse More Like This
Begging my wrist
For one chaste
Kiss.
Grinning at me, that evil smirk
Making my heart pound
Going berserk.
So sharp so
Good
I know I
Could
And really I
Would
Because I
Should.
Arm’s too full of blood
Of scars
From attempts to
Join the stars.
Photo album of
Ruby caresses
My diary of my
Crimson lament
Showing one
Statement;
I am still
Alive.
Carry OnI like sharp things;Carry On in Free Verse More Like This
The way they shine
The way they hurt
The way they leave a red line.
I like to bleed;
The way it's red
They way it hurts
The way it washes out what they said.
I like to live;
The way it's wrong
The way it hurts
The way it tells me that I am strong.
Venting in RedNow that I have the meansVenting in Red in Free Verse More Like This
I know I could do it.
Because right now
I don't want to pull through it.
I don't have many friends,
And all things have ends.
A bloody blade will be mine,
Slicing me open one final time.
I only ever take,
I'll take my life
For everyone's sake;
My one selfless act.
I want to see silver,
Splattered with red.
I want to cease breathing;
I just want to be dead.
Wake up now, my dear old friendWake up now, my dear old friend,Wake up now, my dear old friend in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Your daily sleep has reached its end.
Embrace your worldly cares once more
And take one step outside your door;
You’ll find there, waiting for you still,
The tasks and deeds you’ve to fulfill
So do not waste another ray,
Get up, get up and start your day.
You’ll have your sleep again tonight
And when you do, you will sleep tight
But until such times are near,
Get up, wake up, today is here.
ScarsStanding in the showerScars in Free Verse More Like This
Skin turning redder
I stay still and soak it in
This water won't erase my sins
Scars stand out bright white
Burns and cuts all in sight
The real scars cannot be seen
They reside inside of me
I wonder if all I will be
is a creature scarred eternally?
InsomniaWaking in the dead of nightInsomnia in Free Verse More Like This
Wondering about my life
All the things I've left undone
How did things go so wrong
I lay here drenched in sweat
Haunted by the old regrets
Trying to stay awake
Frightened by my dreamscape
Stay up until the dawn
Go to work with face drawn
I struggle on through the day
People curiously glance my way
I finally make my way home
Wait for the cycle to go on
In the ParkIn the park beneath the treesIn the Park in Free Verse More Like This
Couples chatting playfully
I see them in the distance
As I sit upon this park bench
I came here to sit in peace
To read a book and seek release
Their happiness is a torment
A reminder of what is absent
I get up and walk away
I'll return again another day
VanishingWalking under a moonless skyVanishing in Free Verse More Like This
Thick clouds roll endlessly by
This road stretches forever and a day
Why can't this trek just go away
I want to reach the farthest end
To see if I can be born again
I don't know if that is what I really want
All these thoughts do it taunt
I am so tired I cannot certainly say
If I will live to see the break of day
I will keep going and make my mark
Before vanishing forever in the dark
Falling for YouLooking for a pair of arms to fall in toFalling for You in Free Verse More Like This
To wrap around me, to hold me in
Laying next to you on the couch
I feel your heartbeat, in time with my own
All the time I am with you
I feel more alive
I try to see the world
Through your pretty eyes
I know that you're with me
Whenever we're apart
I feel you nestled
Deep down in my heart
All the tears and mistakes were worthwhile
For in the end I found you, my dearest one
You are the reason for everything I do
Breathing in your perfume, I love you
DefeatedAll of these golden dreamsDefeated in Free Verse More Like This
Crash and break inside of me
What happened to the person I used to be?
Was that all a fantasy?
From smart and playful and full of hope
To broken and dark, life without scope
Inside of me my soul screams
Wishing for a master that was still free
Dragging down whatever I encounter
Beware my friendship lest I bring you down here
So many things try to drive me to madness
Can I ever dispell this sadness?
Maybe someday we will meet
So you understand my defeat
AnxietyIcy fingers in my aching gutAnxiety in Free Verse More Like This
Throat swelling completely shut
I lay shake and leak out tears
Unable to escape my fears
I don't even know what they are
The things that have driven me this far
I hold my hand to the burning incense
My only solace in pain intense
The cracking flesh relieves my mind
Helps my anxiety to unwind
The end of happinesshe cut the string of fate that bound him to this worldThe end of happiness in Free Verse More Like This
he cut a bond of love that bound him to a girl
he walks the streets at midnight searching for a light
he walks a path of loneliness away from help and life
he comes to a room that he knows too well
he comes to a room where the memories still dwell
he sees her picture on the wall
he sees the smile for which he fell
he sits alone in darkness a creature all in black
he sits with a sadness he will never lack
he wonders what could have been if he had been the one
he wonders why her smile still outshines the sun
he wishes the world was no longer grey
he wishes he could just go away
he says n
UntitledSomewhere in the forestUntitled in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
A wolf cries to the moon
So I begin to ponder
Alone here in my room
As to what the wolf is after
When it calls out to the moon
I think I thought of something
But I fell asleep too soon.
Through an Absent Set of EyesThey perturb me now; night and day.Through an Absent Set of Eyes in Free Verse More Like This
Pushing and pulling their endless tide
Made of light and shadow, they are no longer,
At least to me. Through my eyes, I see only not
What is there. Infinitely finite in a quiet summation
Of nothing. Purely nothing. It horrifies me.
It fascinates me.
My sleep breeds terrifying colors, even though
My sight is gone. Images and memories of a land,
A sight, a suffering man who was there all but a week ago.
A sufferer who was fighting against a demon that
Was destined to consume all. A monster that was none
Other than himself. The thought that he was what was destroying
Everything he knew, he couldn’t ha
Before the Horsemen ComeThe unknown is coming strongBefore the Horsemen Come in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Faster than winter
I know I can’t be wrong
Eternity will splinter
Change is on our doorstep
And it is not for the better
Four solemn horsemen prep
For their true power to be unfettered
But from where I can see it
Atop the smallest spire
We needn’t worry just one bit
Before conquest can come, humanity will tire
This darkness is settling in
Despite everything you tried
All was lost within the din
And I watched as everyone cried
Rear View MirrorThinking back, I imagine all my friendsRear View Mirror in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Each going off to their own means or their ends
It makes me wonder where everyone goes
Because through the rearview mirror, it never shows
I sit here alone, trying to see
What I can make out through this melancholic reverie
Although this rain is too heavy and this fog is too thick
I will make the past stay; it will finally stick
To remember the past is all I’ll allow
And a light in a mirror is all I can see now
In the reflection, there stands a solemn silhouette
I know that in introspection, this is all we will really get
As I watch the lonely outline as it starts to wave goodbye
The strength
AnxietiesHands over ears, screams hide the tearsAnxieties in Free Verse More Like This
Like monsters, they stand around, eerie and cruel
Grotesque and uncontrolled
They drive me to the point of collapse
So I do.
I’m the ground
I shake and tremble and tear everything down
I am the ground
I don’t understand how anyone stays around me
When I’m like this
I’m like a stone
Rolling out of control
Loud and predictable, we all know where I’m going
Down, as sure as water, I will fall
And as a boulder, I will tear down everything in my path
Escape from the PoisonAn ocean of poisonEscape from the Poison in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Has gained hold of me
I've set off to new horizons
With the hope I'll be free
But storms stand in the way of
The escape from this misery
No longer I'll be holden
By the poison of the sea
Screaming SomethingThere was something about your eyesScreaming Something in Free Verse More Like This
That just screamed “Save me!”
If you could only just scream out to.
Everyone to save you from.
There are just so many to save you
From. How I wish I could help.
I tried to look in your eyes and say to you
“Trust me! I can’t stand watching you hate it!
I could never stand watching you hate me!”
But your eyes went blank; I could see how
You stopped to look, no longer searching,
And you glared at me, knowing that I couldn’t
Save you.
Help you.
Look at you.
With true.
Love now.
Without yours.
My love.
Is lost.
Broken, you watch as my heart is broken,
With a blank face and sc
A Tale to ListenI have a tale to listenA Tale to Listen in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
If you care
About a quiet night
In you underwear
When you knocked
On my door
And told me of everything
And a little more
1-1-6-6In due time1-1-6-6 in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The greenest leaves
Will all begin to brown
And tumble gently to the ground
In every being's life
Everything begins to fade
As they're covered by the shade
Of what destiny begins
As one curtain is drawn closed
A sliver of light shines through
That foreshadows what is next in line
And destiny prepares itself for yet another time
Puzzle PiecesI don't want to bePuzzle Pieces in Free Verse More Like This
a puzzle piece
that just fits right inside.
I don't want to be
a difficult piece
you make fit by pounding on.
What I want to be
is that one piece
that everyone misplaces.
That lone piece that's lost
under the couch
or between the cushions.
That strange piece that
everyone hates when lost,
but adores when found.
That simple piece that
everyone wants
and everyone searches for.
That perfect piece that,
when found,
completes the puzzle perfectly.
That independent piece that
can easily fit,
but doesn't want or need to.
That free piece that
will appear to you
only when it's fully ready.
That one piece that
will change ev
Calm Before the StormKeep your ears open.Calm Before the Storm in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Keep your eyes peeled.
Do you see the stampede
penetrating the field?
It's coming for you
and for all you hold dear.
But just look through its walls-
Do you not see fear?
I hear the wind howl.
It rustles the leaves.
It sways the brittle branches
on the half-barren trees.
The enemy is coming forward.
I'm afraid it can see
my future, my whole life,
and all that's inside of me.
Just light a match
if the power goes out.
You will survive this,
I haven't a doubt.
I wish you good luck,
for I must leave now.
I swear I'll return,
I solemnly vow.
The night is all black.
the lights have gone dead.
I'm lighting a match..
See?
BotherIt's not a game.Bother in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
She's gone away,
and no one even bothered to say,
"Will you ever return?"
When will they learn?
But no one bothered to say it to her.
I left on that day,
I went my own way,
but no one even bothered to say,
"I really love you."
I don't think it's true,
but I'd still say "I love you, too."
We all wonder why
she left us dry,
but we still didn't bother to say goodbye.
And neither did she,
not even to me.
At the very least, now, she's finally free.
I left them alone,
how can I atone?
Would I have stayed there, had I then known?
I can certainly tell
that all of us fell
when I didn't even bother to bid them farewell.
Fun. (With a Period.)"I hate Fun."Fun. (With a Period.) in Stories & Vignettes More Like This
"Well, that's a little negative, don't you think?"
"I meant the band."
"Oh, in that case, it's justified. They totally use autotune."
"I hate autotune."
"You hate a lot of things."
"Yeah, but autotune is close to the top."
"Naturally."
"Why does Fun. have a period at the end of their name? Fun. is not a sentence."
"Even if it was, it would only be tied for the shortest sentence ever, 'I am.'"
"Ha! Really?"
"Yeah! Ha! Losers."
Edging Toward InsanityI'm frustrated, alone, and happy about it. That basically sums everything up, huh?Edging Toward Insanity in Stories & Vignettes More Like This
My brain feels like it's been transformed into some sort of mushy substance. I can't recall many things running through it, only a few. Want to know what they are? Of course you don't, but I'm going to tell you anyway. There's that fan fiction I was reading before my eyes burned out, a swirling vortex of song lyrics, that math concept everyone seems to get except me, and that grade I never should have gotten.
It wasn't a failure, but it was closer to one than I want at this point. It's a failure in my book. Some voice in the back of my head just screamed, "Us
If only You'd say yes.You want to know how i feel,If only You'd say yes. in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
but im in fear of what you would say.
Telling you plainly "i love you",
Is not enough to make you stay
So the reasons that i love you...
is it your smile? Is it your laugh?
is it the fact that i can tell you anything,
and know that you'll always have my back?
Is it because you're like one of the guys?
Never afraid to make fun of us back.
But still showing that you are a lady
that is gentle and with feelings intact.
Just the feeling of seeing you next to me,
is enough to make my heart race.
It would stop at the sound of your voice,
but wont settle for less than first place.
You tell me that you aren't perfect,
Brand new me.Hate me if you like!Brand new me. in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I'm sure I'm an easy target.
Fill me with your lies,
I'll be like a balloon with a hole in it.
Do me a big favor,
And just save your breath.
Ive done all i could to please you.
Now give your fury a rest.
I Make no plans to stand out.
And I refuse to ever fit in.
I Wont settle to be a stereotype,
Im Satisfied Being Justin.
I may not See it all the time,
i may not always admit it...
But there is plenty that i love about myself,
and I'd fight to the death to defend it.
I may not be the perfect shade,
or have Abs like a surfboard model...
But I'll be there when things get heated,
Ill be the leader that you'd want to follo
Two versions of LoveYou tell me that loveTwo versions of Love in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Just doesn't exist
Just a lie that's spoken
While your heart is in bits.
You tell me that Love
Is all but hidden misery
Only the strong are happy
But even they fall prey to it.
You tell me that Love
is just a made up word
made up by the script
But the real thing is unheard.
You Cry to me that love
is the source of your tears
And has only brought you misery
Through out all your years.
But let me tell you that love
Truly does exist
Its there every time your here
When together we sit.
Let me tell you that love
Hides all the misery
it shields the weak from the pain
Lets them live in harmony.
Let me tell you that love
I
Without you.what is a twister without the wind?Without you. in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
What is a high-tide without the moon?
What is a fish without its school?
The result would be me when im not with you
The fish is alone, easy picking for prey
The water can not progress, it is stuck at bay
The twister would fade, just lost in the air
And so that is me, when you aren't there.
Walk with meTake my handWalk with me in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I'll take the lead
Stay by my side
And Walk with me
There are no tears
I feel so free
The sky is clear
With a gentle breeze
The night is young
And so are we
We're destined for fun
so easy to please
Just you and I
Just the way I like
You're always so kind
That's why we don't fight
I want you forever
you fit so perfectly
Our bond will never sever
Just trust me and you'll see
Your soft hands in mine
Your eyes steal my soul
Our fingers intertwined
so many feelings left untold
Now our time tonight is up
I will see you again tomorrow
One last kiss goodnight
and in all the dreams that follow
Passing you by.You were my sole inspirationPassing you by. in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
But now your just a complication
I had thought of you an angel
But you were the devil's cruel creation
I truly fell for your illusion
and I tried to be amusing
You're asking me forgiveness
My heart has had enough abusing
I don't give out many second chances
And I'll barely return your hopeful glances
He wasn't all you hoped to be
And I'm glad you finally understand this
But now i wave to you goodbye
without a second thought in mind
I pray to God that you forget me
Because it hurts to pass you by
Send me awaySend me awaySend me away in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
To a place not tracked my miles
I know you don't want me to stay
So maybe now you can finally smile
Send me away
Like everyone else has before you
I'll find a new place to lay
For what else is a broken man to do
Send me away
Yet again I will play as the fool
Tear up my heart just to play
Then toss me like a useless tool
Send me away
What more can you want from me
Your leaving my heart to decay
So just let go and leave me be
Send me away
Away so I can go back to being alone
Go back to being cast astray
And go back to a world without a home.
I wish my eyes were a mirrorI wish my eyes were a mirrorI wish my eyes were a mirror in Free Verse More Like This
so you can see you as i see
your heart was crushed by an image
built by a cruel society
I wish my eyes were a mirror
So that i may help you to believe
that what they say is lies
and show you how you are to me
I wish my Heart could speak clearer
to help you understand
that you are the only person
that can fill my empty hands
I wish i could be your savior
Wipe away your fresh tears
i would gently say i love you
as i hold you through the years
And i wish my soul was a healer
to undo all of the pain
Make all their hostile efforts
finally end in vain
But to you im just a stranger
or "Just friends a
Into the wild. (Part Two)Face to faceInto the wild. (Part Two) in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
With cold blooded killers
And a Good mile
From some warmth and shelter
I Felt them close in
and I thought of it as the end
But I came so far
Too far to end up dead,
I sprint past the wolves
they dash right behind me
I can hear them getting closer
But there's something they failed to see
We were running on snow
I think covers a frozen lake
And the ice started to crack
With every step we'd make
Almost across
Sweat flowing down my face
They are howling loudly
motivating me to keep pace
Suddenly it cracks
The howling turning to cries
I leap and dive
Barely making it to the other side
I look back
and feel sorry for the beast
Bu
A Father's FarewellShh honey, don't cryA Father's Farewell in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
It's gonna be okay
Daddy's going away for awhile
But he'll be back to stay
No my little angel
You can't come this time
But I won't be gone long
Just something I have to find
Take care of your mother darlin'
She just doesn't understand
But watch the window in December
I'll be home as soon as i can
Take this, My necklace
A piece of me you won't forget
Wear it to help you sleep at night
When life fills you with fret
Now go, my dear child
Tell your mother I have gone
I won't be back tomorrow
But I won't be gone for long
Freaks ShowFingers scratching at my wrist,Freaks Show in Free Verse More Like This
Wanting a beautiful kiss.
The lips they know too well,
Gradually I feel my mind compelling,
Back to almost a month ago,
When I was still apart of the freak show.
Dancing on the stage,
With a pointy blade,
Focused on a luscious vein.
The oh's and ah's of the crowd causes pain,
I finally notice how different I really am.
I finally notice there is nothing I can,
Do to pick up the glass without getting cut.
I finally noticed that all I am is a nut.
I finally noticed that deep down I'm in the freak show for life,
I can no longer hide and fight,
The true me when it's thriving to come out.
In this moment I do doubt,
T
Love To KillHe whispered in my ear, "Baby can I hug you around the neck?Love To Kill in Free Verse More Like This
Your eyes really brighten up when you cry,
Judging by the marks on your wrist you already want to die."
Trying to recover and stop loving you,
But my heart has a mind of its own,
And I can never find better then you.
"You deserve everything that's coming for you.
Everything you do makes me rageful,
I can barely stand to see you breathe.
Now blow me a kiss as you're on your knees."
Each bruise is a mistake, and truly made of love.
I know how his heart of stone really feels,
I just have to mine through the bitterness.
"You won't ever leave,
Don't you know what my dad did to me?
Yo
Me.Anorexic.Me. in Free Verse More Like This
Obese.
Funny.
Stupid.
Idiotic.
Retarded.
Lame.
Emo.
Scene.
Slut.
Disgusting.
Attention seeker.
Obsessive.
Label.
Stereotype.
...
Me.
So much time, so little to doI have seen the beauty of a dove beneath the skiesSo much time, so little to do in Free Verse More Like This
I have told the harshest truths, and I have told some lies
I have seen a child cry into its mother's arms
I have been that weeping girl who held onto self-harm
I have heard the laughter of a man about to die
I have seen the anger resting deep within their eyes
I have been the victim of my own disgusting thoughts
I have seen the best of people slowly start to rot
I have felt the heartache; I have seen a love go blue…
So much time is left to spare, but so much less to do…
When I SaidWhen I said I wanted a fairy taleWhen I Said in Free Verse More Like This
I meant I wanted a prince.
I didn't want to be locked in a
Tower.
I didn't want to be fought by a
Wicked Witch.
I didn't want
This.
When I said I wanted a fairy tale
I meant I wanted to be a princess.
I didn't want to watch a rose
Die.
I didn't want to wear the gown
Temporarily.
I wanted it
Forever.
See,
When I said I wanted a fairy tale...
I expected it to end in a
Happily
Ever
After.
But i never expected it to end like this.
Poor Man's GoldHush the youngest children, for the demon in the skiesPoor Man's Gold in Free Verse More Like This
Treasuring the very thought of anyone's demise
Glitter fades to black and shining moonlight fades to dust
Every cruel man's wonderland is built of poor man's trust
Tragic, empty melodies and blood beneath the air
Fearlessly escape the wind and drown without a care
Treasure death as platinum, as silver and as gold
Every cruel man's wonderland is built of poor man's gold...
Front page...Liquid chains cling to my anklesFront page... in Free Verse More Like This
Feathers of a bird tickle my nose.
Haunted by the voices in this cold dark cell
Longing for the scent of a light pink rose.
Ocean waves beat upon a sandy shore
A sea of hatred and rage.
Dragonflies swim through air so light
...
But this stuff never gets to the front page.
Bipolar DisorderLook over your shoulder. They're watching you.Bipolar Disorder in Free Verse More Like This
Tighten your stomach muscles.
Bounce your leg up and down.
Faster.
Faster.
"Are you okay?"
No.
"I'm fine."
Shut up.
Don't say anything.
Feel it, feel the thoughts melting from your mind.
Freeze.
Stare.
Laugh.
"What are you doing?"
Dying.
"Nothing."
They're behind you.
Kill them before they kill you.
"What's wrong?"
Please save me.
"Nothing."
Crazy. You're crazy.
No one wants you.
Pull the trigger.
Do it.
"Please tell me what's wrong."
You wouldn't understand.
"Nothing."
Laugh.
Smile.
Scream.
"Who are you? I don't know you anymore."
I'm a nobody.
I am Bipolar Disorder.
... "I don't know.
The Face At The DoorThe face at the door is a demon, a godThe Face At The Door in Free Verse More Like This
He smiles through stitches, his stare rather odd
The face at the door is a cruel, silent being
Yet, people are calm, and the children aren't fleeing
Quiet yourself, for you're the only one
Crying for help at the point of a gun
Learn how to fly, rather, learn how to fall,
The face at the door... well... there's no face at all.
I Love You, DaddyDaddy, please don't touch me.I Love You, Daddy in Free Verse More Like This
It doesn't feel good.
It makes me feel..
Naughty.
Daddy, please don't hit me.
I didn't mean to disappoint you.
When you hit me, it makes me feel...
Bad.
Daddy, please don't hurt her.
Mommy didn't do anything.
When you hit her, it makes me feel..
Mad.
Daddy, please don't say you love me.
I know you're lying.
When you say you still want me, it makes me feel...
Sad.
Daddy, please stop screaming at her.
You already killed her.
When you scream at her, it makes me feel..
Angry.
Daddy, stay there.
Let me sink the knife into your throat.
When you bleed, it makes me feel..
Alive.
Daddy, aren't you happy now?
As you
No Longer a Little GirlDear imagination, can't you be the thing you wereNo Longer a Little Girl in Free Verse More Like This
Butterflies and daffodils and happiness so pure
Sunny skies and lullabies and dreams of what could be
Hidden worlds and wonderlands of things they couldn't see
Shining gowns and silver crowns for dancing with the prince
Twirling with excitement, though the others weren't convinced
Dear intimidation, did you find it to be true
All I ever needed was an overdose of you
Silly stares and laughter slowly flood a child's mind
Making me abandon every daydream I could find
Lost beneath the shadows of the sky so dark and dead
Far too weak to turn around, yet scared of things ahead
Dear destructive ten
Evening childWe’d sit on porch stepsEvening child in Free Verse More Like This
Insecticide burning our lungs
Awkward and gangly attempting to grow into our limbs
You with freckles dusting your nose and I with a small dot on my cheek
You called it a beauty spot and I said god was too lazy to give me freckles
We were 15 and lust driven amnesiacs
Dissolving our flesh with cheap gin in your tree house
Throwing pebbles at the sky hoping to shatter it
We were an epidemic of the underdog prognosis
Playing encores to an audience of cowards
For some reason we’d always rush across rail way tracks
Metal bars quivering and our broken sneakers stumbling
We were branded in mistakes and embellis
UnknownI'd listen to radio signalsUnknown in Free Verse More Like This
But all I'd hear is chlorine bleached static
That leaves a the bitter taste of Advil in my thoughts
Drugged up in an anaesthetic haze of morphine induced comatose
I'd clench my teeth to stop the florescent vowels
From escaping my insomniac lips
I've chewed them shut and pasted book spines on my ribcage
In an attempt to be something organic and interesting
Because the plain Jane exterior I've laced between my iris's
Is becoming a contradiction of what little sanity I possess
The lost one's weepingListening attentively to the burnt out soundsThe lost one's weeping in Free Verse More Like This
Rusted wrists don’t know how to do anything
Other than to harm
Crack open the loaded guns
Clench a cigarette between breaths
I’d come to realize lungs are suffocating
So I cut them out with dandelion limbs
And tore out my eyes to avert my gaze
Aching for salvation I was greeted by empty pews
And broken hymn books scattered among the graves
Lost lamb prodigal son, there is no home to return to
Only ruins and car crash features lay
Where tombstones used to stand
Hero ComplexI bartered my soul awayHero Complex in Free Verse More Like This
For the boy with wolf eyes
He locked me behind his teeth
He carved snake bites into my lips
And tore apart the gilded edges of my lashes
In an endeavor to uncover some semblance of my siren words
He broke apart my ribs in an attempt
To find my landmine heart
Which held no sound
Mors AtraDust motes gathered in the corners of her lipsMors Atra in Free Verse More Like This
Bruised and rotting her mottled lungs fell apart
The skin of her wrists were smudged with pretty pink roses
And below her dissolving pupils just above the plains of her cheekbones
Were streaks of yellowed pages and posies
And ten days later she fell asleep under a bed of earth and soil
Hocus pocusI want to hollow out my eyesHocus pocus in Free Verse More Like This
And hold them in my palms
And see things with a new perspective
Because everything around me seems
To be slipping out of focus
And magic words don’t fix broken wrists
MonologueSpinal fluid seems to be seeping between the cracksMonologue in Free Verse More Like This
Of the dark hardwood floors beneath me
As if all the cartilage from my being
Has been used to paste together an arthropod heart
I’ve white washed my pupils and folded them
Into hazy envelopes and sent them off to strangers
Joey had a smoke and burned the moon downOne night on a long road trip to NebraskaJoey had a smoke and burned the moon down in Free Verse More Like This
The skies opened up and bled onto my pupils
And I the taste of gin burned my throat
As my star strewn spine strained against
The static of the radio blasting from your car stereo
We chased god
Only to find kerosene angels
And glow flies hanging from tree tops
The Bambi syndrome(Dis)regarding logic and sensibilityThe Bambi syndrome in Free Verse More Like This
I like to sit on railway tracks, feeling the vibrations beneath my finger tips
Just beneath the blood vessels and haemoglobin
The whirring of the air being sucked out from my lungs
Chicken is not a game for the faint hearted
She called me reckless, and that scared her
Because I craved the adrenaline to flush out the morphine
I balance on bridges, always teetering
Cheshire cat grins as we run across highways
Darting blurring hues of monochrome grey and black cars
In the dark, only headlights visible
Deer in the headlight
Then we ran to abandoned warehouses
Smashed windows and ate shards of glass
Drowning
A mermaid stole my bonesI want to deteriorate into the ocean and feel the wavesA mermaid stole my bones in Free Verse More Like This
Break over my spine
Because I’ve learnt through trial and error
That holding my breath only makes my heart beat faster
And plain white pills do nothing to soothe
The anxiety sewn deep within my bones
The bitter aftertaste still lingers in the back of my throat
much like the feeling
of her breath in my lungs
ShardsThe dream shatters around me like a broken mirror.Shards in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Pieces of you surround me, but nothing seems to be clear.
I'm still cleaning up the mess you made.
You should have put down your fear,
You could have stayed.
I'm done chasing.
I've stopped running.
Have you even noticed that I'm walking the other way?
I'm cut by the shards of what's left of who you were.
Red tears stain the surface while the world is in a blur.
InfiniteWhen you take my hand,Infinite in Free Verse More Like This
my breath goes with it.
You're like a book that's too suspenseful to put down.
You keep me wanting to turn the pages to watch the story unfold.
The surprises seem infinite.
With each detail I learn,
I become even more thankful that you came into my life.
Like a song on repeat for hours,
I never tire of seeing your smile or hearing your voice.
With you,
the adventures are endless.
You never cease to amaze me.
Each day that passes,
I fall a little more.
And I know you're there to catch me
before I hit the floor.
GhostThe dream shatters around meGhost in Free Verse More Like This
Like a broken mirror.
Looking at the wreckage,
My reflection unrecognizable.
A broken image.
A broken heart.
I'm cut by the shards
As I try to piece it back together.
My blood sprinkles the surface
Like a red rain.
The mirror is whole again.
What's left of the dream.
I look at my reflection,
And tears finally begin to fall.
Sta.sh
