fly.this is hard for the world around us to grasp:fly. in Free Verse More Like This
these wildfires raging in our retinas
& the sins we wear like demonic similes
on our tongues- they are not enough.
& i am so fucking sorry of saying i'm sorry.
but, tell me,
what is a young poet(ess) to do
with veins made of kite strings?
NaPoWriMo: Day 9More respectNaPoWriMo: Day 9 in Free Verse More Like This
for hungry lions,
doesn’t want to write this poem.
As she forgets how to use words
(on most days,)
relying on curses
like casting some witch's spell-
with only ten dollars to her name.
The oldest daughter:
she’s still somewhere in the middle,
because they had no other way
to categorize her.
Getting her first gravestone at three-
not to the gods,
but to the lily stargazers
in her palms.
she would become a bird,
& never come back.
She doesn’t want her death
laid out like a fast-food
how does she begin to explain
cultivating in her breastbone?
astrology.i lost my cigarettes today whileastrology. in Free Verse More Like This
sparing kisses to too many witches
with apastron blackberry tongues.
& like the scattered stars of scars,
saturn's rings whispered secrets
to the telescope eyes of these strangers
cradling galaxies between lovely bones-
( their fingertip heat
knowing nothing of intermissions. )
No wander about it, just lust.You were a mid-morning train wreck,No wander about it, just lust. in Free Verse More Like This
the embodiment of poetry.
& my clavicles whispered too many nothings
about your summer storm hands,
folding like paper cranes
to make wishes upon themselves.
wishes are for the weak-
do something about this quaking heart
& freezing fingers.
I think I found God then,
wet scribbles, tattooed tragedyI am shedding my skinwet scribbles, tattooed tragedy in Free Verse More Like This
like the poetry that bleeds
from your ink-cracked lips
onto the bare bones of my
Unfold these moon-shy limbs
that chase silence
& beg stay-with-me.
For you are the only verse
hidden within this labyrinth
of scar-damaged flesh.
I think you left a piece of you in me.This tangled mess you call a heart,I think you left a piece of you in me. in Free Verse More Like This
daisy veins & sin;
She's bringing me down.
& you were merely shivering
pressing winter bones
against my sun-stricken mouth,
darkness searching for a home
buried in my lungs.
You whispered breathe me
lovely in the inhale/exhale
of carbon dioxide suicide.
She speaks only of you now,
lonely & mourning beats-
Crack open this damn ribcage;
NaPoWriMo: Day 8I was toldNaPoWriMo: Day 8 in Free Verse More Like This
to slice through the thickest
of scar tissue this evening.
Let all my inner demons
fall to the floor
& write them out
in my own black blood.
It’s not red anymore,
even though needles
& the bruises
laid out like war-lands
on my arms
I don’t think it ever was,
My mind is a mess
of free versed insecurities,
cat’s eye marbles,
& untamed forest fires-
I still don’t have the nerve
to slice open my skin
& bleed for her.
NaPoWriMo: Day 10 Have you ever been so cold, Sweetheart,NaPoWriMo: Day 10 in Free Verse More Like This
your knees q u a k e d like that Jenga piece
that buckled just before your whole foundation
& no matter
how many times
I've restarted your heart,
one would think
I'd grow tired,
I'm still writing you in poetry
(in the most inappropriate of places.)
You forced yourself beneath my blades
& my fingertips,
Licking unstable knees,
you were death on my tongue:
angry apricot eyes, unforgivable sin
scaring my limbs &
haunting my dreams.
& I'd still try to save your fucking life.
Collection of poetic nothings.We were opal Tuesdays,Collection of poetic nothings. in Free Verse More Like This
tattooed into the
rose garden curve
of my vertebrae,
gliding me through this wild youth.
But, like Icarus—
I was a sky conqueror
& these silk wings
touched the sun.
My inhalations are heavy,
like the earth he bruises
beneath his fingertips
as I chase silence.
"You've got a tongue
made for words." He says
against the arrogant thorns
of my briar spine.
"Learn to love yourself."
How do I say I love you
without saying I love you?
"I want to replace my heart with you."
You are spider silk woven
into my harvest moon
limbs traveling this road map
of songbird sin.
You are not just in my head now,
you are dancing in the lingering stars
of my night-witch frame
& setting me on fire.
You're not bruised enough
to write poetry.
Allow these bones to tell your story, Love.
Letter To Alice In Wonderland Letter To Alice In WonderlandLetter To Alice In Wonderland in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Hey, I think I have some explaining to do,
I know it's been a long time - hell, it's been years -
since the last time you wanted to look upon my face,
before it changed and became so cruel.
Hey, maybe you don't know yet, but
for all the good it did me, I really did love you,
and not for a second doubt that none was true,
for proof, go count my every cut.
And that's the reason I had to get out,
you were bad for me, driving me blind,
as I was fighting two addictions entwined,
that's the main reason, it's the main shout.
When he came around, I saw a ray of sunlight,
but you always made me ooze with gloom,
I longed for his touches, to escape my doom,
it's not your fault, it was love at first sight.
He was unreachable, you no longer my muse,
he a shiny new toy, when I knew just how you tick,
and I started building up my walls, brick by icy brick,
shutting you out, lighting a new love fuse.
Don't misunderstand, you did nothing wrong,
it was the wrong place, wron
Between You and Me.I never believed you,Between You and Me. in Free Verse More Like This
I only wanted to.
Lying back to back
I was counting your breaths
to make sure your lack of
didn't leave you
Like a ghost
the fading memories of your touch
what I was trying to forget.
Oh, why did I give it up to you?
I know it's my fault.
My expectations were greater than
what you were willing to offer,
and I got scared.
I tried shutting you out,
to gather myself together
behind a shield of apathy,
but only ended up in
Your kiss never tasted as
as the last time
I made love to you...
A letter to past loves.Dear Boy number 1,A letter to past loves. in Free Verse More Like This
you turned my world upside down,
changed green into red and smiles to tears.
Who would've thought that
your teasing and your games would
plant a fear into my bones, so strong that
I still cannot shake it?
Dear Boy number 2,
I don't think about you anymore
but I don't think about you any less, either.
Your love consumed me and
pushed me to the edge of insanity.
We were fire one second, ice the next,
battle wounds were inflicted just to get a taste of blood.
We were right in all the wrong ways, but to you,
holding another was second nature.
Dear Boy number 3,
you only ever touched me
in the dark alleys of town,
out of sight, but you were never
out of my mind.
Your kisses were new and sloppy,
and your hands left bruises
on my chilled skin.
My friends said you were bad for me, but
I fell in love with your eyes of coal.
Dear Boy number 4,
you are just great. And that's the thing.
You are everything I could wish for, but
I want someone to
Kit Kat Make Up Trash.your lungs fill with oxygen as you try to exhaleKit Kat Make Up Trash. in Free Verse More Like This
through clenched teeth and palms pressed over your chapped lips.
you're trying to get a hold on this confusing spasm
that makes you feel sick to the bone and high as the stars
but your wings are drenched in vomit and it seems you
can't have one without the other.
hold on to your bones for dear life and count your ribs every day
just in case one of them decided to slip out of reach.
press your heart through the glass and feel the shards sinking
into the soft flesh as it cracks beneath pressure.
scream at your broken reflection and spit out insecurities
that were inflicted upon your bloodied wrists.
wash your face off the sink, rainbow tears make you look ugly.
don't get caught up in the game of cat and mouse they want you to play.
because you know damn well you're the mouse
and the kitty had its claws sharpened just to turn your heart
into a shredded mess.
PerfectionPerfection.Perfection in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
She lodges her fingers down her throat.
Clasping onto the wall as she recklessly chokes.
She reinserts her fingers back in forcibly.
Deliriously trying to make her body thinner.
She swoons and slumps to the floor nauseously
As she attempts to regurgitate her dinner.
Her throat aches as she screeches out coarsely,
With her hand covering the image in the mirror.
Her head now rests on the on the rim of the toilet seat.
She wants to eat but she just has not got in her.
She desperately begins to scream out inaudibly.
Her mouth now tastes of something pulpy and bitter.
She examines the red color of the fluid cautiously.
Realizing that she has become too focused on her figure.
Her friend then knocks on the door thoughtfully.
She shouts out, "I'm okay I don't need a baby sitter."
Her friend continues to knock and waits outside awkwardly
Replying, "You promised me, you said that you are not a quitter"
The tap begins to run as she disguises her cough distortedly.
She knows her friend
Heart AcheHeart Ache.Heart Ache in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
People constantly telling me you're not the same.
But I see all you females as the same despite your names.
I've had my heartbroken before, but you are not to blame.
But instead of removing I'm adding to the bloodstain.
The mark is healing but the impact still remains.
Fought my gut feeling and let you in to my mind frame
I can't help but think my history is repeating itself once again.
Security is one mind set that I find hard to obtain.
But after the last time, I said I would stop and refrain.
I said to myself I would never end up in this same situation again.
Maybe she is right and my past has driven me insane.
Maybe my gut is right and she isn't whom she says she claims.
It's hard to let go and let all that hurt funnel down the drain
No matter how much layers I wear, I still can't escape the rain.
I've experienced pain of which I thought I overcame.
I never said I was proud of the man that I became.
Maybe this all apart of life's cruel game.
I can't seem to stop my mind
My AmbitionsMy Ambitions.My Ambitions in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
People tell me I have talent.
And my attempts at poetry are noble and valiant.
I want my words to leave a mark on this earth.
I write for myself, to give me some sort of worth.
I still think anyone is capable doing I what I do.
Paint the same or an even better image of the one I just drew.
I've been accepted by a few, but rejected by many.
This life is perpetual and the strain is getting heavy.
I write for you, as well as for me.
I write from my heart, to set my mind free.
A man who writes poetry isn't the epitome of masculinity.
I had to disregard the stereotype and over come the humility.
My writing is all I have and it's the one thing I can control.
That's why its not just words your reading, it's a piece of my soul.
I want to be liked and to appeal to everyone.
But I've learnt this ambition can never be truly done.
I write for my family, so they can be proud of their first creation.
Although I don't show it, they will always have my love and appreciation.
I'm hoping a
UndefinedUndefined.Undefined in Free Verse More Like This
This message is confined to my draft folder.
Uniquely unrefined and unclassified.
Impulsively constructed and expressed.
Unedited and grammatically incoherent.
Disjointed and unintentionally unaligned.
An unorthodox colloquial format.
Where punctuation refuses to be punctual.
Too jagged to be placed in to a framework.
Too contrastive to be accepted.
Labelled as unintelligible and unprofessional.
Indefinitely definitive within its own right.
Distinctively and informally introduced.
Impossible to understand.
Wielded by the unconfident hand.
People fear what they cannot comprehend.
The established order is what they fearfully defend.
Because all what they once knew
Is coming to an end.
Home AloneHome Alone.Home Alone in Free Verse More Like This
Everything becomes so much more dark and sinister whenever you are alone.
You're constantly on guard and overcautious just to answer your mobile phone.
Any slight disturbance or eerie creak and you begin to panic.
Retreating back into your secure settee conjuring up the most dramatic
Scenarios that have virtually no possibility of ever occurring.
But that never seems to stop the cogs from continuously turning.
You fasten all the windows and arm yourself with kitchen based artillery.
And man your position surveying the living room as if you were a member of the military.
Increasing the volume on your television set to distract and block out the noises.
The local neighbors walk past your window but you class them as unfamiliar voices.
You can't help but be on edge until you have some sort of company.
But these common trains of thoughts are expected and customary.
I thought the same until I heard this one story about a girl called Anne.
She was in a similar situation; she was
CapableCapableCapable in Free Verse More Like This
Sometimes I think we are able,
Of doing more than we are capable.
Everlasting LoveEverlasting Love.Everlasting Love in Free Verse More Like This
Two wrinkled hands intertwined with one another.
Their frail legs moving at a notably slow pace.
They always come in to the store every Sunday morning.
Buying their weekly packets of bird nuts and wild berries.
The elderly man always gives me a subtle wink whenever he sees me.
Comments on the amount of female partners I should be courting.
While the elderly women casts an innocent smile.
Ignoring her husbands repeated jokes and tugs him out the store.
The next week the elderly man is pushing his wife about the store.
His arms straining from the weight of the wheel chair.
He holds up two variations of bird berries so his wife can choose.
She winces in pain as she adjusts her position in her new mobile seat.
I am the only till queue they ever come to.
The elderly man as usual engages into his derogatory banter with me.
His wife giving him her ritual glance as she hands over the change.
Smiling with her youthful eyes guarded by a lifetime of creases and indents.
The Connecticut Massacre.The Connecticut Massacre.The Connecticut Massacre. in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
He was described as quiet, shy and socially awkward.
He was not the type to be loud, abrasive and forward.
He was highly intelligent and kept his thoughts to himself.
He didn't posses the tools to communicate with anyone else.
Whenever he spoke, his words felt forced and fake.
Who knew back then how many lives this man could take.
The realisation of his isolation was activated by the school premises.
He was never able to see his peers as friends but only as his nemeses.
But when he was home his alienation became none existent.
He was able to laugh and smile without any form of resistance.
The constant contrast in environments became too much for him to handle.
It was only an amount of time before he enacted some sort of immoral scandal.
After a confrontation at school he marched home to collect his mother's weapons.
His mother caught him in the act and tried to stop him as he reached for the second
Loaded rifle that was originally used as a source of family en
Unconscious Epiphany.Unconscious Epiphany.Unconscious Epiphany. in Free Verse More Like This
I thrive and depend on your compliments
And it is only then as a direct consequence,
Am I truly able to write with confidence.
Even though your words are only temporary.
I deem your contribution as utterly necessary,
In order to refresh my wavering, selective memory.
My own validation depends on your approval.
Whether it is congratulatory or discouragingly brutal.
Your input is the one thing that is most crucial.
Can I call myself a writer if I don't believe in myself?
When I constantly seek approval from everyone else?
How can I then expect to make any sort of wealth?
Of a craft and skill I still think anyone is able to produce.
Is there any point in me putting my apparent talent to use?
When I limit and submit myself into a negative recluse.
I was told I must have self belief in order to achieve,
The dream that I am so desperately trying to receive.
The body can only accomplish what the mind believes.
I know I must rid myself from any form of self doubt.
The BulliedThe Bullied.The Bullied in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
He never enjoyed going to school.
He used to bunk whenever he had the chance.
Although he was not one for breaking the rules.
He refused to submit to their ignorant demands.
He told his teachers about his problems.
How he got bullied every lunch and break time.
They said they would find a rapid way to solve them.
Somehow his confessions filtered through the grape vine.
The bullying became more intense and extreme.
He began wearing long sleeved t-shirts to hide the marks.
He knew his parents would only label him as a troubled teen.
But he yearned for their understanding and supportive remarks.
Eventually he tried talking to his dad about it.
But ironically he wasn't best known for his listening.
Besides his home was always too noisy and overcrowded.
He was sure that they wouldn't notice if he was to even go missing.
His only friends were online and on facebook.
Every night you could hear him typing away in his room.
His mother started to wonder how long this phase took
Please come backPlease come back in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I am not all right
The one thing I know
Is that the stars don't always shine that bright
And the moon doesn't always has it's pretty glow.
Life isn't just rainbows and butterflies
There isn't always someone to hold
Sometimes your eye cries
And a new story will unfold
The day I lost you
I don't even remember what I got into
But is wasn't pretty, it wasn't fine
And I'm quite sure I couldn't walk a straight line
I miss you so bad
You're the one that got away
The best thing I never had.
You didn't care to stay
Now I'm speechless
Babe, I have to confess
The day you realise you actually want this
I'll probably take you back with just a kiss
GoneGone in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I cried many tears at night
Because I now saw it bright
You didn't love me like you said
And nothing was all you had
I surrendered my soul to you
But now I wonder if anything you said was true
I sometimes wish we never met
But our time together I can't forget
I wonder what my life would be like without your memory,
Without our painful story
Can't we be together again?
Please, tell me when.
I wish upon a star
That I'd know where you are
And that you'd leave her
And all this pain will become a blur
I miss you so bad
Everyday I think about what we had
But I still wish you're happy
Even though I feel crappy
If she makes you smile
I hope you'll stay a while
Because I dare to admit
You deserve it
My GuideMy Guide in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Every time I talk
It feels like I live this all over again
Every step of the big walk
I have to count to ten
Every time you fall
You get back upon your feet
And you hope you'll be standing tall
For the next heartbeat
I need someone by my side
To be my sweet little guide
Even an ant will do
As long as he knows my way through
Though you might not be happy today
The moon still comes out at night
To remind us while the world is grey
There's always a light that shines really bright
The light in front of your feet
Guiding you through this dark street
Maybe the light is a friend
Lending you a helping hand
Shut upShut up in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
If you tell me to be there
Where are you?
If you tell me I should care
Why don't you?
Stop preaching what you don't believe
Stop teaching what you didn't achieve
I won't even listen to you anymore
It's all gone, what you've build before
I don't care what you'll say
Because I'm gone anyway
Even if you apologize from the deepest grounds of your heart
You ruined it, you tore us apart
In a few years this is just a big old scar
And I'll still be here, talking to my pretty star
The one that helps and the one that cares
The brightest one and the one that dares
I will own the skies
One day, you will need me too
But I'll still be fed up with all your lies
And I wont care for you
Gotta feel betterGotta feel better in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Ghosts in my mind
They've made me blind
I can't see what's wrong anymore
So I'll be at war
The war of thought and desire
Please don't light a fire
I want to be in the dark tonight
I can't take the light
Every once and a while
You fake a smile
But then your mask comes tumbling down
And they can start the countdown
Count to ten
Tell me when
It's okay to feel again
I will leave everything till then
Because I don't want to grab the key
I just wish I were free
Free from all this pain
It's making me go insane.
I want to talk,
But I don't wan to tell you
I'll be out taking a walk
Till I find out how to make it through
Go onGo on in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I stopped believing in happy endings
Fairy tales are just a big lie
We'll never reach those things
That realisation hurts, some might even die
Hopes and dreams smashed in a second
Staring into this empty pond
There are no fish living down there
Like everything crumbles in a moment, it isn't fair
How can I go on, without a dream
Without even a backup team
I'm right back down on my own feet
But luckily I still have a heartbeat
There is always light at the end of a dark night
It's just the fire you ignite
The light inside of you
That's what should make new dreams come true
Don't stop believing if you're still alive
You can make it come true
You will arrive
Just get up and continue
Thinking of YouThinking of You in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Thinking of you,
Awakens this desire to hear your voice.
This was never my choice.
To me, you were of great value.
Why'd you go away?
I just need another day.
Another day to get myself together,
Though I'm afraid it might take forever.
You slipped away,
And I could pray,
But it won't ease the pain.
The hurt will always remain.
I can't see the reason why,
I should pretend that everything is fine,
When my whole life is on the line.
Never being able to actually say goodbye .
The crashThe crash in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The big crash
Saw you in a flash
You just died
And left me terrified
It all happened so fast
And now it's a part of my past
Can't get this picture out of my mind
That moment, life was just unkind
Underneath a subway is a terribly way to go
If you suffered, that I don't know
I couldn't help you
There was no possibility of rescue
Life goes on,
And I pass the spot each day.
The spot where death won
The spot where your life went away
No MistakesNo eraser, no mistakes.No Mistakes in Free Verse More Like This
Concentration's what it takes.
Don't want poems full of scribble.
Want my poetry to look whole.
Gotta think the words in your head.
Don't write them out once they're said.
Thoughts are written out of order.
Must use arrows as the sorter.
Perfection is what's key,
But perfection just isn't me.
I Am So SorryI am so sorry for what I do to you.I Am So Sorry in Free Verse More Like This
I just can't help some of what I do.
I can tell in your eyes, you're in pain.
In your shoes, I would be the same.
I wish I could show, how much you mean to me.
When you look at me, I wonder what you see.
I want to say it's over; do it no more.
In my head I'm fighting a terrible war.
I promise I'm trying as hard as I can.
Please believe me. I promise I am.
You still accept me; hold me tight.
It will be tough, but I will win the fight.
I hope you know how much I really care.
I can't believe that you're still there.
Between Life and DeathEvery time I think of it,Between Life and Death in Free Verse More Like This
The pain comes back strong.
You hurt me so bad,
Made me feel so wrong.
I reached out for you,
But you weren't there.
I told you I would die,
But you didn't care.
I really don't know,
Why I didn't die that day.
I've tried to find out,
But I can't really say.
Sometimes I really wonder,
If I am still living,
Or if this is just a dream,
That some coma is giving?
When it comes down to it,
I really should be dead.
I wonder if you understand,
How bad it is what you said.
In between life and death,
Is how I'll spend eternity.
I wish I could understand.
Why you would ever hurt me.
New PersonI worry about what I will become.New Person in Free Verse More Like This
Will you love me when it's done?
A whole new person I might be.
I don't know if I'll be me.
How strange it is to have another mind.
So much confusion that I find.
You tell me to do whatever's best,
Whatever makes me happiest,
But even worse, I may not love you.
I really don't know what to do.
I know she hates all my doubt.
She's dying to be let out,
But it's me that she'll replace,
A new person behind my face.
You Only See YourselfYou only see yourself,You Only See Yourself in Free Verse More Like This
Ignoring everyone else.
You don't even know.
On with life you go.
You complain about others.
When will you discover,
That you're doing the same.
Only yourself to blame.
World does revolve around you.
I just with you knew.
MoodsMoods constantly changing.Moods in Free Verse More Like This
My mind is rearranging.
Feels like I'm under a hex.
Don't know who I'll be next.
One minute I am on high.
Next I think I may die.
Then I'm filled with apathy.
Next I think everyone hates me.
Then my heart starts to ache.
Next I have a nervous shake.
Then I sexually frustrate,
But I'm too upset to masturbate.
My moods have become a blur.
I quickly switch between me and her.
I can't tell who I am.
Am I me or am I Sam?
I don't know who I'll next be.
I'm dying for some consistency.
CrushYou're so cute and so sweet.Crush in Free Verse More Like This
Waiting patiently until we meet.
Some avoid meeting online,
But I think it will be fine.
You make me laugh and make me smile.
That hasn't happened in a while.
So casually with me you flirt.
I'm starting to forget I'm hurt.
It seems that you like me.
In person, we'll have to see.
In a few weeks you'll be here.
No connection I do fear.
Until then I continue to wait,
And hope that you are my fate.
I pray that you're one I can trust,
Because you are now my crush.
Hard to CareWhy is it so hard to care?Hard to Care in Free Verse More Like This
I know that I should be there.
I ignore the bell I hear chime.
Instead I sit and waste time.
There's nothing that I want to do.
The things I enjoy are few.
I know that I should be at work,
But my responsibilities I shirk.
The pills make me no longer sad,
But apathy is just as bad.
So I just let time go by.
I wonder when I'll finally try.
Don't ForgetSometimes there's a bad day,Don't Forget in Free Verse More Like This
And he just needs space.
But look at the better times.
Remember his smiling face.
Don't forget that he loves you.
How much does he have to say?
Don't forget how he talks to you,
Every single day.
Don't forget how much he loves,
Just talking with you.
He stayed up to 8 am.
He must love you to.
Don't forget that yesterday,
Everything felt so right.
Don't forget his arms,
Holding you so tight.
Don't forget when you asked,
What he would do if you'd die.
He didn't say much.
He could only really cry.
Don't forget how he wants,
Just to see you happy.
Don't forget his smile,
When he makes you giddy.
Don't forget how he accepts you.
You thought no one could.
With someone so amazing,
It's crazy that he would.
He's always so selfless.
Maybe that's why it's tough.
When he wants to disappear,
You wonder if you've done enough.
Just give him his time alone,
And whatever you do,
Don't forget he'll come back,
And he'll always love you.
DreamI had a dream of you.Dream in Free Verse More Like This
I think that's where you live.
Your terrible actions,
I said I would forgive.
Things seemed so normal.
They seemed like before.
My love for you was true,
And my heart did soar.
You said you didn't want me.
Just like when I'm awake.
You said it would be better.
You did it for my sake.
So now I'm left empty.
My heart broken twice.
Why do you do this,
With a gaze made of ice?
Dreams should be happy,
Where you can do what you want,
But instead my dreams,
You continue to haunt.
I just want to be happy,
And not think of you.
Why is that so difficult,
For me to do?
Enigmas (II)Sway, to the song of disgraceEnigmas (II) in Free Verse More Like This
Listen, to the pulse of my mace
Swallow (lies shall all come through)
Don't blink! It all belongs to you!
These enigmas belong to you!
Trapped somewhere up there,
in the darker corners of my mind.
The poet's flesh, the pen's cruel might,
twisted and thereby consumed
by the black almighty night.
The enigmas that dwell deep within
Have never been touched by human sin.
For all those who stand tall and listen and laugh
there's only death, abyss; falling prey to the snuff
Falling asleep with the pen in my hands
I try to keep eyes opened and I fail.
I manage to spot last rays of hope in the dawn ahead
Yet all I manage to create is a vacuum in my head,
a void that tall shall stand
Forever, enigmatic treachery will lie awake in me
For this is the song of sleep, you see?
The night is here, the night is in me!
The Cinquain StoneStone,The Cinquain Stone in Free Verse More Like This
Speaking, murmuring, crying.
It stood there as astounding as she was.
AftermathWhy do you ask me how I feelAftermath in Free Verse More Like This
When you're the one forever ill?
Why shouldn't I just blame the world
If they're the one who raped my word?
In the Aftermath of hundreds of eons of strife
Time will fly freely and into my life
In this Aftermath of sorrow
Lie the hopes for a better tomorrow.
Bullets were flying, blood was being spilled
Time's racing by! More innocents killed.
Thousands of thoughts flew on a wing:
"The king is dead! Long live the king!"
Joy and despair all in one came;
Together they tried my words to tame
I still feel free, I don't deny
Time went past me; time just flew by.
In this Aftermath were zeppelins thrive
Towards the moon in numbers of five,
I sleep and dream of mountains and snow
Deep inside my soul, deep down there, below.
In the Aftermath of hundreds of eons of strife
Time flew freely right into my life
In this Aftermath of bloody saturated glee,
I'm yet to choose on who to be.
So, maybe we'll just wait and see
Till then...And the movie goes on and onTill then... in Free Verse More Like This
Until all my days are gone!
This story shall prove to have no end
No more lies left to pretend.
Nights will watch the poet's hands
Writing down this will of light,
Drowning into poisoned sands,
Spitting fire, fear and might.
Days will wander all alone
Kissing joy, walking in time.
Hearts will melt then turn to stone
And I'll be waiting for a sign
Long lost life I'll rediscover.
I will smell and taste its breath.
Dead to my bones, to demon's fever
Lost along this ancient path
Insane no more I live my life
And time's just going on and on
I will win it strife by strife
Until all my days are gone!
Me...Admist the purple waterfalls, there can be no peace of mind; there is only struggle.Me... in Emotional More Like This
A struggle bound to cease when the last songmaker's cry is heard by the world. Until then, I might choose to follow an idol and become an escapist, or to be myself and lose this "self" throughout this world.
Whatever my final choice would be, I will always love the world: from Earth to Reticuli and beyond, to the never-ending crescent Universe, an infinite infinity seeded deep into the souls of mortal poets, lost and found; lost and never-found. Love until the end of this plane!
The Universe laughs at us and sears us with the force of the Macrocosm.
65. HorrorBlasphemy! Hear the starry growls!65. Horror in Free Verse More Like This
Imagine the world within deathly howls.
Afflicted by black magic raising up the dead
Whispering into your ear: "tonight tears be shed!"
The gargoyle climbed from the vastness of the tomb
There were crows feasted on a human womb.
Behind you the ghoul prepares its final strike;
A deadly grasp, a bloody claw, the demonic, cursed pike.
The skeletons, the walking dead, soldiers of way so long ago
The night kills, the night deceives, I let myself; I let thoughts flow.
The armies of doom, the horrors of the moon, terrors of the times,
Their bones sending shivers, tremors, all beating to the chimes.
Taken down, ensnared to your doom,
You take out your knife, stand against the gloom
The vampire appears, takes you by your head
Prepares to bite, your life is hanging by a thread.
Its sharp teeth are shining in the ghostly night
As a specter came to bring some more demonic light.
The ghost blinked by your right side, tremors invade
You're dizzy, dead, desperate; m
64. MultitaskingIt's all about how you live your life64. Multitasking in Free Verse More Like This
Day by day.
All about how you dodge misery's knife
Sit and pray.
It matters not how much you kick your chance
Face of clay.
It matters how you dream and realize
You're taken away.
In tears and pain
In work; everyday
It works all the same.
My heart knows her job
To the end of all odd.
63. Do Not Disturb"Do Not Disturb" the title says.63. Do Not Disturb in Free Verse More Like This
Favorite music the playlist plays.
I'm ready for my concert now
The guitar stands ready, so do I.
"Do Not Disturb" until I'm ready.
Music feels me to the depths.
My chord shall sit steady.
I shall doom emotional nests.
Emotions? I am full of them
Still excited to the maximum.
"Do Not Disturb" me when
I give this last ultimatum.
Heed my music;
Listen to the melody;
Feel it through your body;
Hear me saying
"Do Not Disturb"!
58. Kick in the HeadThat's what I get,58. Kick in the Head in Free Verse More Like This
When I try to look at you
Just get off your high heels,
I ain't your fool.
Follow me on this path
For it's worth taken
Gotta look out for more,
A kick in the head
For you feel so special
Puny word and poem,
You are my creation.
Dark NovaFraming stars and naming them is like holding on to your nameless edema.Dark Nova in Free Verse More Like This
Like avid, abhor the unthinkable and gnaw upon your nova.
Just like we did when storms fell down,
Just like we felt when our Sun frowned.
But you were my dream and I wouldn’t let go of your image.
Your linings lapped upon my walls made it hard to ascend…
Just like me smelling the dust.
Just like me falling to lust.
A darkling nova and a bitter taste of sin,
Will make love dwell high above the sunwaves within.
Rest your head against her white flow;
Embrace the zephyr; adore the nova’s glow…
Let the rays of past erase and jell memories that march with time
and the dark, aspiring hole of conscience to enter limbo.
Lingering to the pyres of tales of dust lays a teller;
Crescent dawn, sanity’s eclipse, catharsis dweller…
Bereft of light, for the black hole amassed stories lorn,
Outlining the skylines of thousands of systems I must see…
Guiding the flames on the heads of my
I was born to liveI hate this hope, it gives nothing but painI was born to live in Free Verse More Like This
This stubbing pain of being betrayed
Betrayed by own dreams, hopes and faith
Faith that used to lead me now is fading away
Actions make person, actions, not words
But I lost my humanity during these wars
Hate makes me ugly but I’m covered with mask
I’m not scared of dying, that’s the easiest task
Living not existing, that would make me real
To become something more than simply being me
To be able to touch, breath, and to be able to feel
Because I was born to be human, I was born to live
No happy endI bite my lips so I won’t screamNo happy end in Free Verse More Like This
It’s magic baby, I’m not the same
We ended up exactly like that film
Or like the song, don’t call my name
Be brave my baby, be the strongest
We were short and yet the longest
Darling dear, what’s with these tears?
I kinda lost the track of all my fears
My lipstick on your cheek
How’s that? Aren’t we sweet?
How lovely, we hold each other hands
So sickening, aww we are the best
Pretend we’re fine, we’re just amazing
So fucking sweet and yet so faking
We kiss each other so they could see
What a perfect life we got to live…
Where’s the magic of the words I love you?
Where are the gentle kisses on the cheek?
Where’s the simplicity of words I need you?
Where’s the passion between the sheets?
What went wrong and why we’re like this?
What’s wrong with you and what happened to me?
This shit is complicated or just too simple for us to comprehend
I don’t know what happ
Don't let the death to be my end ...When I die bury me up highDon't let the death to be my end ... in Free Verse More Like This
Bury me in the skies
Don't let them to ground me
Don’t let my spirit die as well...
Just give me wings I've been dreaming of
Give me the space so my soul shall go on...
Don't bury me in the water nor in the ground
But bury me in the air so I won't be drowned
I wanted to fly and I wanted to dream
So please when I’ll die, let me be free …
Let's just be...Let’s just not talk about loveLet's just be... in Free Verse More Like This
It makes me little sick, you know
Let’s just stare into each other eyes
Yeah just like this, without disguise
Let’s just pretend that we are fine
You know nobody cares if it’s a lie
Let’s just forget our lives tonight
I’m no longer yours, you’re no longer mine
Let’s just forget about this empty world
Cause world doesn’t remember us anymore
Let’s just listen to our hearts
I wanna hear what they talk about
Let’s just pray to our God
He always listens no matter what
Let’s just be ourselves tonight
Let’s just be… if that’s alright
ConnectionThis room is always emptyConnection in Free Verse More Like This
This room belongs to us
This room is filled by memories
This room is always dark
This feeling of connection
Will stay forever here
This feeling of protection
Will banish our fears
This life is pure perfection
But no, it’s just a lie
And only resurrection
Can bring me back to life
This room is still quite empty
Cause shadow doesn't count
And only darkest memories
Keep lurking inside out
Forever stuck in this depression
But life is not the kind of fair
No place for us, only connection
It binds us slowly in despair
OverpoweredI don’t know where to beginOverpowered in Free Verse More Like This
I’m not sure what to say…
I’m just hiding my eyes
Trying not to look your way
My hands are shaking so I’m clenching my fists
I’m feeling all dizzy trying too hard to reminisce
My heart is racing and I can’t catch up with its beat
I just don’t understand what the hell you’re doing to me
My mind wonders, my eyes keep searching for yours
I don’t know what’s wrong but suddenly the ground is gone
I feel my head spinning but I don’t feel like I care
I just keep watching and you just keep standing there
This must be hell but in heavenly way
And I still don’t know what to say
I don’t mind being unseen and it’s true
Cause that’s all I ever be...to you
FakeHello, I smile with my best smileFake in Free Verse More Like This
I try to be nice and polite
Like all the human kind
Truth to be told I don’t care
But I pretend
I know it’s not fair
But I’m not your lover, not your friend
I act and do my best to not sound fake
And not to allow any mistakes
My act is great
I perfected it
Hello, I shake your hand
I even give you a hug
And even call you a friend
Surrender, throw a white flag
Yay, you love and adore me
One heart is down
And one more time
I’m back on the run
I’m chasing the ghosts
Forgetting my friends
I knock at the devil’s doors
Shake with him hands
I’m cursed to never love
I’m cursed to be betrayed
I’m cursed to lose my soul
I’m cursed to be fake
Sand clockNobody's home, tonight she's all aloneSand clock in Free Verse More Like This
Whispers are coming from the wall
A hand is touching the broken clock
A heart is slowly turning into stone
The piano plays a medley of the love songs
The door is open but the wind still knocks
And the sound of it beats inside your mind
But no one, not ever would tell you why
The sand still runs inside the broken clock
Whispers are still coming from the dark walls
Pain has frozen inside your empty veins
But the memory of losing still remains
Bloody tears you share with solitude
Tequila, whiskey put you in the mood
No more whispers, no more stupid lies
No more pain in those beautiful eyes
Her sand ran out, her heart has stopped
No memories left, no life, no sound
But she will celebrate tonight, all alone with switched red lights
Celebrating redemption and being restored
Celebrating her freedom with final reborn
Her heart keeps waiting for the total recall
But the sand that still runs is no longer for her
Slave to loveLights are onSlave to love in Free Verse More Like This
I’m on my knees
I am strong
But I am weak
You’re my love
And I’m your lover
You’re my ghost
And I’m your hunter
But at least I feel
But I know you’re real
We’re making love
It makes us stronger
You’ll be my ghost
Until it’s over
You have this life
And I have you
We’re out of time
But we are true
I loved you once
I loved you twice
You loved me more
But in disguise
Lights are out
And so are we
I'm falling down
Down on my knees
After darkEvery single night I read your scarsAfter dark in Free Verse More Like This
They tell me stories of your life
I read them slowly, discovering your world
Reopening old wounds, healing broken soul
You’re a stranger, looking for some peace
Craving for some love, longing for embrace
Needing of support, praying for the light
Asking for solace in the hands of the night
Sorrow is your lover, pain’s the only friend
No place to stay forever, you’re homeless all the way
Hope doesn't work and neither does belief
All your life been running, looking for relief
Time won’t heal the scars you've gained but you will live
Pain won’t go away but in time you will forgive
Love won’t give you only joy but you will learn to feel
Life won’t be a happy fairytale but it will be with me
UntitledI smile when it rains,Untitled in Free Verse More Like This
It drives away the black passion and the scarlet pain,
Tearing up my white flesh again and again.
It's the only thing that keeps me sane,
When everything else is driving me insane.
I smile when it snows,
It covers up these ruby scars that will forever show,
Hiding silver marks on golden skin I know.
It's an antidote to this shade misery that flows,
When everyone tries to deduce my glow.
ZeroTonight I'm flying away on my tears,Zero in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Because all the stars have faded away,
When my darkness devoured the day.
Oh why am I fused to yield these fears,
When all I touch shatters into shards.
Today I'm screaming out for salvation,
It's a consensus of my chaotic concentration.
Can I ever stop the slumber of the night,
It's saps my strength to sting my sight,
But let my wings soar higher than my worth.
Tonight I'm sailing away in my veins,
Because all the birds have soared away,
When my weakness wrecked the way.
Oh why am I riled to wield these reins,
When all I touch crumbles into cards.
Today I'm crying out for consideration,
It's an ideology of my insane infliction.
Can I ever halt this halo of the light,
It fries my fortitude to frame my fright,
But let my current flow greater than my curse.
Tonight I'm walking away to my doom,
Because all the tides have whiled away,
When my sadness siphoned the spray.
Oh why am I glued to shield this gloom,
When all I touch withers into words.
The Innocence Of CharmIn an enchanting vision she gaily dances,The Innocence Of Charm in Free Verse More Like This
Across that suburban starlit street,
Melting eyes of those she meets.
Never did I see so many forlorn glances,
Of fair faces who watched her twirl in a trance.
In a haunting perception she silently tires,
Down that luscious lullaby lane,
Relaxing sighs from her starts to wane,
Never did I see so many guilty sires,
Of serpentine souls who follow her like fire.
In a beautiful dream she merrily weeps,
Upon that gorgeous golden grass,
Loving smiles radiate around that lass,
Never did she see so many innocent creeps,
Of myopic minds who spy on her as she sleeps.
Second ChanceShow me a little faith,Second Chance in Free Verse More Like This
Please don't give up just yet.
There's no need to plea for redemption,
Because with me you are safe,
Away from that darkest devastation.
Show me a little hope,
Please don't turn me away now.
There's no meaning to deny your mortality,
Because with me you will cope,
Even in that colourless city.
Show me a little love,
Please don't close your eyes,
There's no reason to continue this worry,
Because with me you are a dove,
And I'm here to say sorry.
AscensionHere I shall reside in spiritual ascension,Ascension in Free Verse More Like This
Relieving my spirit of all my torment and tension.
Here I'll breathe whispering winds of relief,
Purging those days of dark deliverance,
While I blind all my mortal sins to a new belief.
To ascend above obsidian mountain summits,
In the mists of immortal mystery.
To gaze gracefully upon ladies of luminescence lit,
As hope clings to you in harrowing hysteria,
Where all macabre minutiae of life comes to sit.
To tentatively touch lavender sweet skies,
Upon that sea of eternal sorrow.
To listen lightly to sirens singing sanguine cries.
As time passes by into trials of tomorrow,
Where all avian angels of fury speak of lies.
MessagePlease take a moment to read what I have to sayMessage in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
This message is something I've been dying to relay
I don't blame you for wanting to walk away
Despite me begging you to stay
I know that every now and then I fall apart
But you knew that from the very start
I'm being played for a fool, yes I know
But I'm not one for letting go
I'll do whatever you ask to get you into my arms
I admit that I have fallen for your charms
Even though my biggest fear is that I will fail
To win your heart I'll do whatever it takes to prevail
A Midnight WearyA Midnight WearyA Midnight Weary in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
Amongst twinkling stars,
Much like a cricket's chorus;
Types his essay:
"Failure is red,
My parent's say;
An Asian get 'B'
Is shameful display!"
Machine ManMachine Man:Machine Man in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
It began with but a simple command, "to do as we are told".
Never to deviate from this path - never to nurture the soul.
We are told that we are given a purpose; "a part of something great!"
Yet why oh why am I so weary of that which is my fate?
Am I an error, a single anomaly, unable to feel intact?
Or am I missing some special attribute - a facet which I lack.
In a society made of fleshed machines; robots wearing skin,
Perhaps I'm simply seeking something, to fill this metal tin.
-Chen Yuan Wen, 16th November 2012
BelovedBeloved:Beloved in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
With a bright radiant smile
If only for me...
-Chen Yuan Wen, 4th January 2013
I Can't Devour You, Not YetI Can't Devour You, Not Yet:I Can't Devour You, Not Yet in Free Verse More Like This
I long to taste the sweetness of your flesh,
To roll your meat between my tongue and teeth.
So many times have I come - so close -
To taking that first bite from your neck.
Yet, there is something about you,
A scent perhaps or a sickly sap.
It turns bitter upon my tongue,
Poisoning it; I am left unable to eat...
Much like the caterpillar, covered in spines,
Each bite would spew only bitter venom -
Numbing my senses and dulling the mind;
It would leave me naught but a gormless wreck!
Even so, despite me knowing of the repugnant taste,
I am drawn toward you, like a moth to the flame.
May my wings crumble in the heart of the fire -
& body be turned to dust and ash...
If only for the chance to feast once more!
Ah, my dear - I will have you.
& on that day it will be so sweet.
But for now - I'm afraid that -
I must leave this as a mere - tantalizing - fantasy...
-Chen Yuan Wen, 12th December 2012
Words for the Young BloodsWords for the Young Bloods:Words for the Young Bloods in Free Verse More Like This
To all my ninjas sittin' low on the street side,
I want you all to raise your head with pride.
Because I'm callin' out, for the youth to come together
And get those big wigs off the fuckin' power ladder.
You ready? Because we're going at it hard:
See I'm the kind of guy that they're all playin' with
A systematic crisis workin' in the way we live.
The big shots still sittin' and they growin' fat.
With young bloods starvin' just to get their life on track.
We take psychometric tests and make a passing grade,
But ain't no job cause the corporate head is gettin' paid.
And when they screwin' with the money, they ain't never cut.
The young bloods be the first to get their letter up.
I say the system ain't shit and we all got it wrong,
The old mothers are just stayin' in for way too long.
I say we cut them from the system that they fucked up,
And let the young bloods take it; we'll just fix it up.
They set the game, but we're the ones playin' main;
I guess t
Player versus PlayerPlayer versus Player:Player versus Player in Free Verse More Like This
Elemental artisttry, as lightning weaves through the air.
I see the bloodthirst in his eyes, the hunger for victory.
A demand to be recognised, yet soon to be silenced;
Perfect and perfunctory - my opponent made defunct...
As I stand above this dying creature;
The flicker of life soon fading from their eyes.
I smile and whisper a word of parting,
For the fool who fell where he lies.
-Unfinished piece by Chen Yuan Wen, 10th April 2012
A Game We Hate to Play:A Game We Hate to Play:A Game We Hate to Play: in Free Verse More Like This
I stand amongst a screaming crowd,
And you'll hear them shout it out.
"All this shit just isn't fair,
Life's a game but we don't care!"
Hear me, do you think I'm lazy?
When I talk I'm crazy,
Sorry I'm just hazy, but I-
Still think that I'm like Jay-Z
Rappin' here with Stacy;
The boys they call her baby; Haha...
And we're playin' this song for the killers,
The ones with no hope workin' shop at the tillers.
And if you think that we're just the fillers,
You wouldn't be wrong; we're just grain at millers - haha!
All this shit just isn't fair,
Life's a game but we don't care!
We're gonna change the game tonight,
C'mon let's turn out the light!
All this shit just isn't fair,
Life's a game but we don't care!
We're gonna change the rules tonight,
C'mon let's turn out the light.
Lights off, everybody nights off,
Walking through these streets of -
People drinkin' Smirnoff;
Prayers for tomorrows,
Whisper as they borrow
A Parody of RomanceA Parody of Romance:A Parody of Romance in Free Verse More Like This
Often I see a number of poets
Who speak of love as an ephemeral thing
An ethereal problem, that lasts for a moment
And yet it leaves a sting...
Boring! I say, there is no fun in that
I need to create a different feel
So let me offer you a parody, my love-sick friend
Of the love that you thought was real:
-switch accents here to a standard african american rapper-
See, the thing I love about a girl
Is when she got a booty shinin' like a blindin' pearl
All the flash gear she wearin' just accentuate
And her rack make all the girlies wanna hate
She sway into the club and now she drop it low
She got my pants in a knot and I wanna know
How to get her number with a couple drinks
Take her back my place when she gettin' pink
Let me try and tell you how I love all her curves
And the way that she move when she makin' love
Man her voice is the best when she whisperin'
Got a rap from Wayne playin' on the wing
See that's the kind of the booty that I love and
Where Angels PlayWhere Angels Play:Where Angels Play in Free Verse More Like This
A lonely spark appears before me tonight
amongst the struggles deep inside of me...
Should I give in, will I breathe in?
How much more can I be forced to take
before my soul breaks?
Shards crashing into me
letting me know I am alive
I am barely breathing...
The moon lights my pathway
deep in dark, where we will fade
I've walked past the archway
Where angels will play...
The warmest touch, upon my skin
Wings that glow with sacred light, from deep within
They have come to take me back, to where I've been
Gone away into the winds, my voice forever lingering
Do I alone escape this and find my peace
without concern for what is left behind
Even if I could close my eyes in endless rest
The thought of you keeps me breathing...
The angel that leads me, deep in dark, where I seem to fade;
The lonely spark that keeps me, is the warmth of your heart...
-Chen Yuan Wen, 30th September 2012
The Secret of the TreesBeneath the glow of the twisting moon, we can feelThe Secret of the Trees in Free Verse More Like This
a horror beginning its birth. The serpent will slither
into a moistened cave and the blood will spill from broken lips
The secret was hidden beneath the trees, where the lovers
were kissed and never told. Yet the stains remain upon the grass.
Never to be erased...
How many times will I return, to a place I wish
I'd never see. Perhaps it is a way for me
To think of that which I regret...
But the man would never remind himself, of the horror
unleashed beneath falling leaves. The petals bear witness
to the struggled screaming, muffled by hands and feet.
A choking embodiment of sweat and tears and the final
release of a beating heart. The act is done and motion
has stopped, so now the vomiting begins...
An act of purity, to cleanse and expunge. It is
made to deny the gnawing guilt, for all that remains
is plain to see: a puddle of red on a sea of green.
-Chen Yuan Wen, 24th May 2012