In The MiddleIt's so much easier to find acceptance here,In The Middle in Free Verse More Like This
I don't have to worry about so much scrutiny,
simply take a deep breath and be myself.
I feel warm, comfortable and safe here in the middle,
whereas being placed in front or back (or to either side)
would present me with some difficulty
push me from the little microcosm I've made for myself
a certain percentage of everyone.
Passion UnboundPassion is chaosPassion Unbound in Free Verse More Like This
a lovely yet dangerous sort
reality bends to accommodate
the impressive force
of deep knowledge
barely held in
and every so often
it bursts into flame becomes something else
a miracle, or a curse you'd never dreamed of.
Passion is chaos
a lovely yet dangerous sort.
Touch The SkyBounceTouch The Sky in Free Verse More Like This
back and forth
and beaten all the time
the little things
and leave none else behind
high as we dare
and fall while touching the sky
and never do look down
or back again
Under Your SunYou were both but you were noneUnder Your Sun in Free Verse More Like This
Idle here. Wasting away under your sun.
Life. Words. Love. Whispers.
Bittersweet memories and
you are the most precious one.
Death and Chocolate,
blood and promise
you were both but you were none
Idle here. Swearing away the blame.
Between. Dreams. Beside. Darkness.
Each nonexistent part
a smokeless silent flame.
I Was WrongI used to lookI Was Wrong in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
and look at you
looking up, too.
And you would stare
stare and glare,
at me down there
and I wished that I was strong
as you were strong
but now I know that I was wrong.
I feared you, because you were great
the fear I had taught me hate
the greater part of it was hate.
Now I know what I (always [but never])knew
that I need (real [so unreal]) love too much to keep on loving you.
Collecting StaresDeflecting staresCollecting Stares in Free Verse More Like This
I could get vexed
a jar almost full of idle cares
I think I might collect smiles next.
BoundariesOne step closer to a second, IBoundaries in Free Verse More Like This
tiptoe past the warning signs
and my foot crosses the line.
The BoxThe box!The Box in Free Verse More Like This
The little microcosm
a world within a world
within this, me
and here I am
in a box!
Looking over every inch
of this finite infinity
of my condition
and my captivity
being what it is
but I still marvel at the box!
The cruel ingenuity
the endless potential of the box!
the invention and intentions of the box!
The emptiness as empties it
my closest, dearest enemy
Forgiveness Never ForgetsI miss you so muchForgiveness Never Forgets in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
the almost (but not quite
because you were the best friend
the "while you hurt I'll never rest" friend
the one who made me feel safe
and as though I were someone worth caring for
and like I didn't need to hide myself anymore
and made me feel that I really am beautiful
because I'm beautiful to you
and even though I keep telling myself to let go
there's not an awful lot that I wouldn't do
to make it unwrong for me to love you
to forgive, but I can't make myself forget
A WalkI wander around in familiarA Walk in Free Verse More Like This
(places) I have found
emerging from crawling
(spaces) and subsequently
(unwound) this face and bound
this leftover piece of a soul
I've been faking at
for nearly to long to remember
lost in this cold and breaking that
darkness a december
is what separates my anxiety
from the rest of me
exposing the truth in the translucence of
my thick skin's apparent opacity
in every single step that slides
outward from (this) foot away
from my body are a million
tiny proofs of (it) have caught me in the fray
of verbal communication
as a greeting neighbor passes by
this meeting ends in favor of a short and whispered "Hi"
Deaf Like SilenceAs you hear the apple fall from the treeDeaf Like Silence in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
The water droplet splash in the sea
Fond remembrance of the absent ‘plea’
The frantic silence of a frenzied crowd
And the empty noise of a man made proud
Stimulated by this nothingness sound
You come to weep at fading glory
The missing racket that never will be
While golden auburn leaves come to rest
No echo, no sound, a life-long gruelling test
Back to black, a visual album with no track
Leaking like some rancid gas
Odourless, tasteless, with no sound to back
Fused with cacophony but it does not exist
You’re deaf like silence, you cannot resist
You’re deaf like silence, you
Moths To A FlameYou dive in and swarm, begin the feastingMoths To A Flame in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
On this cadaver of Human wasting
Stripping the flesh from sinew
The muscle from the bone
Feeding on this morsel, you renew
Sent reeling by memories of home
But you return as usual, just another muncher
A bloodthirsty pack of vultures
The clouds drain black, skies invaded
A horde of gibbering fanatics
Dazed by the sun, tricked in the run
You gang up, crowd and consume
Attracted like moths to a flame
Like moths to a flame
A tsunami of pain
A hurricane out to gain
The tornadoes are bearing their fangs
And everyone is scattering out to do the same
Inflict, conquer, devour
Until there’s nothing l
Hanging From The ScaffoldsA baying crowd, roaring at your feetHanging From The Scaffolds in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
After your life, your essence, your soul
The noose is tightened, ready to meet
Trial and error, to put you in a hole
Circling above they surround me
Ravens, Crows, birds of the Devil’s seed
Eyes wary, watchful they wait
Keeping close attention to their prey
The bell knells for your final moment
A call to the burial, your dark funeral
The Crow beckons, the crowd rests silent
A child of the grave, a mindless slave
The only place you’ll come to call home
Is six feet under yer’ goddamn feet!
Coffins laced with wooden struts and cobbled nails
Buried beneath this otherworldly pale
The Walking DeadSteamed up panes, shattered and scared,The Walking Dead in Free Verse More Like This
Broken into pieces, pointed edges will harm,
Cutting and scratching, blood drops to the floor,
As the door knob rattles, opening the door.
Faceless, mutilated, dismembered bodies,
Drag their snapped bones and come in masses,
Drooling, slobbering, mindless oafs,
Blood on their mind, flesh in their hopes.
With nails and with teeth, they eat and they eat,
Endlessly ceasing, heaving to their feed,
The lust for human flesh deep, bred hard inside,
As they roam the wilds and the lands looking for their find.
Zombies, walkers, creepers and eaters,
Mindless machines bred to kill and devour,
Limbs, organs, bon
SuffocationYou made me bleed from every word you say,Suffocation in Free Verse More Like This
Bones hollow, the marrow you swallowed,
I'm bleeding out, no hope for tomorrow,
Dying of agonising pain!
Your concoction for being vain!
Soul sucked dry, I'm now a shadow,
Pale emptiness, now just sorrow,
Wearing this hide, dressed in borrowed clothes,
'Rags to riches' will mold me in a torrent,
Gusting about, the eye of the tornado!
Bled dry, skin a saggy reminder.
Of past glories, of glimpses of the 'morrow,
Malice did this too me, satisfaction brought too,
The wishes of a being whose heart was torn into two!
No hope for us! No life with us!
OncomingYou turn to the sun,Oncoming in Free Verse More Like This
Face ran red with blood,
You repeat, you repeat,
The vows, the curse.
Out of every breath,
Pausing to catch your words,
You repeat, you repeat,
The vows, the curse.
Broken and beat,
Exhausted in this heat,
You repeat, you repeat,
The vows, the curse.
The sign of the end,
A nigh-impossible prevention,
You repeat, you repeat,
The vows, the curse.
Muttered under your breath,
The black mass has come.
ExpressionsI have another confession,Expressions in Free Verse More Like This
Extracted from the womb,
From the fatal loins,
Of displeasing comfort,
And agonising swoon.
RiposteWith brand of flame,Riposte in Free Verse More Like This
Bring forth the rain,
And force into the crack.
Deliver the final punch,
The smack of a stunt,
Brutal and blunt,
In your stance you hunch.
The end to an end,
Bloody and rend,
This fool, this man,
Formed of the image of sand.
False ProphetHickory dickory dock, the mouse ran up the clockFalse Prophet in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
The clock struck six, Satan could now fix
The Earth, the mortals, destroy the accursed
Blind accusations. Thrown like projectiles
Obscene, profane, vulgar with disdain
Against the will of your 'deity', defying command
Breaking orders to 'protect and serve'
From this being with this chivalrous moral code
Preaching from your high throne
Perched in luxury. Throwing the 'dog' a bone
Your decrees fall on deaf ears and numb minds
Who in trouble turned to the right side
A being from Tartarus. Pits of the insane
Lost all memoery. Bereft of all sensation
Dressed in gold, cradled by borrowed robes
Eye For An EyeAn eye for an eye, a tooth for a toothEye For An Eye in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
The world will drown in vengeance and satisfaction
We seek to take from those who would hurt
Get solace through some by-product of greed through grief
We’re a breed of pigs, we seek and we keep
Born from the dirt of disease. Festered through constant breeding
We are the weak, we are the poor, we seek to get our even score
Petty, we squabble and we kick up a fuss
Determined to undermine and force our way past
To get our just desert by personal gain
Trampled by the dozens who riot and fret, greed to blame
We’re a breed of pigs, we seek and we keep
Born from the dirt of disease. Festered through
Love-Lost MonsterCreeping in from behind,Love-Lost Monster in Free Verse More Like This
Feel his blood run down your spine,
He has died,
Right on the line.
You bore your teeth,
And opened his veins,
As your poison crawls beneath,
His skin and pain.
Take his heart of glass,
And crush it in your hands,
He can start anew,
But you exist,
In his very being,
You opened his wrists,
So feel his hand,
Run down your side,
His warm blood,
Solidifying on your spine.
You really hate him,
And he loved you 'til the last,
Then you committed that sin,
And pulled the trigger of the past.
Pent Up RageTears fall,Pent Up Rage in Free Verse More Like This
A cascade of pain,
Strike the wall,
With fists of rage.
You let it build up,
And break you down,
More than enough,
To let you drown.
You knees give way,
To your desire,
To forever fall,
Burn in the fires.
Flames of your heart,
Burning in hate,
Concealed in dark,
Hidden on the page.
Get it out,
Or die inside,
Give a shout,
No-one can find.
The prison of my heart,
An asylum in the night,
Gives out light,
Now ever so slight.
HeavenYou feel the tubes,Heaven in Free Verse More Like This
Against your skin,
All cause of a sin.
White masked men,
But then the morphine,
Puts you down.
When you wake,
You're on a lawn,
Echoes of words,
Now long gone.
"We've lost him,
But I now belong.
Out stretched meadows,
It has no seams.
The first light,
You've seen in your life,
What a sight,
Worth all the strife.
Silent DeathThey come,Silent Death in Free Verse More Like This
As eons pass,
Like ice striken grass.
A whiff of chlorine,
From the gaps,
Through the cracks.
It billows in,
Clouds of white,
Air grows thin,
The smell so slight.
Then it kills you,
The pain is through,
Before you hit the ground.
Then your bones,
Blend with the path,
Join with the stone,
Home at last.
InceptionDrill the thought,Inception in Free Verse More Like This
Into their head,
Bloods been wrought,
Inception of the end.
A prophet calls,
From the recesses of your mind,
Your sanity falls,
Alone 'til the end of time.
He whispers to you,
"Your life is through,
Time to unwind"
Throughout your spine,
As the sun,
Leaves you blind.
You hear him,
He sings a hymn,
Of putting you in the ground.
Your body jerks,
And begins to sweat,
But this is the end,
SorryMy body lies,Sorry in Free Verse More Like This
In a cell,
Oh these eyes,
They've seen hell.
A flash combusts,
Consumes your sight,
Lifes a must,
Extinguish the light.
I am a lamp,
In the dark,
Left a stamp,
That's my mark.
I'll be known,
As the happy one,
But you'll frown,
Knowing I'm gone.
We'll see eachother soon,
For leaving so soon.
RadioactiveFlesh flaking,Radioactive in Free Verse More Like This
Away from bone,
Deformities all over,
Makes us sober,
Mush in our heads.
Unable to think,
Or to speak,
Only what we can see,
A barren waste,
For me and you.
Wear a mask,
At least you can,
And then bask,
In this faltering land.
The OracleShe incites pain,The Oracle in Free Verse More Like This
With every word,
Looks through all-seeing eyes,
At our world.
So take your providence,
And arm your peace of mind,
Or you will have no defense,
Get ready to explode.
She is disgusted,
With what she sees,
Chooses three champions,
Let glory be.
Her silk hair,
And flawless skin,
Even the blind,
Can see her beauty.
A light in the dark,
Holds our memories,
'Til she parts.
She feels betrayed.
ScarsScars of,Scars in Free Verse More Like This
A hidden past,
Shreds my knees,
Tears my soul,
I'm never free,
I was born in this hole.
My soul yearns,
Cries for help,
But I've learned,
It's just a hopeless yelp.
Is marred with pain,
It's not the same.
So dwell within,
A dark abyss,
With only eyes of the wicked,
To brighten the night.
The BansheeCatch a glimpse,The Banshee in Free Verse More Like This
Of her flowing black hair,
Hear her screams,
She doesn't care.
She just wants,
To be left alone,
Born and bred,
In a broken home.
Then she was murdered,
And left to roam,
No harm intended,
A misunderstood soul.
She screams in pain,
Reminded of the past,
Sets minds a-flame,
Burns bright and lasts.
She diminishes souls,
With her haunting presence,
A misunderstood soul,
She only wants friends.
don't you dare say itshot glasses filled to the brimdon't you dare say it in Free Verse More Like This
with half assed sorries
aren't going to cut it this time.
you fed me lies.
poured them down my throat
like smooth whiskey,
fingertips brushing my neck
as if you followed the path
to make sure it settled.
it did, for a while.
erratic heartbeats singing to their own
fucked up melodies
because i loved you, you prick
i painted the stars in the sky for you
traced the constellations onto your bare skin
with the pads of my fingers
and the tip of my tongue.
you used me until there was nothing left.
until i tried to empty
whatever else was in there that still fucking hurt
so that i could feel nothing
and it didn't
March 26th.Dear xx,March 26th. in Letters More Like This
I hate you. I hate the way you put me down, make me feel worthless. I hate your mood swings, and the way you apologize as if that can take back everything you said.
I hate you.
But I'd hate you even more if you left me, and I'm only saying this once.
Please don't die. Please.
Please don't leave me, too.
December 28th.December 28th.December 28th. in Letters More Like This
It snowed today and I didn't think about you. It was freeing, and I could breathe for an entire day without the crushing feeling of your thoughts pressing down onto my chest as if they belonged there.
They don't. Belong there, that is.
I didn't think about you until I saw a piece of looseleaf and felt like writing you this letter. Which is right now, at the end of the day.
I spent the day actually feeling alright. I'm learning to play the guitar, did you know? (Of course not. I don't even know why I ask questions. My therapist said I should, but this is so dumb. You can't fucking answer me.)
Anyway. I'm learning
Onlyyou pressed your palms against her chestOnly in Free Verse More Like This
as if you could reach her heart
through layers of skin
you traced the outlines of her ribs
as if you were looking for the little clasp
that could open them up
and free the trapped birds
fluttering about inside
you slid your fingers down her thighs
as if her kneecaps told secrets
about the way she held her breath
about the way she let it go
you put your hands on her body
and let her believe
that you were learning the way she breathed
as if it mattered
as if she were special
(you kissed the next girl's wrists,
as if she were your only, too)
March 18th.March 18th.March 18th. in Letters More Like This
This letter is for you. They're all not for you, though. Just because they say "Dear xx," on them, doesn't mean they're yours. Don't give yourself that much credit.
I have more xx's in my life.
Actually, no, I don't. But that doesn't mean these are all for you. Because they're not.
You know what I've kind of realized? I don't have friends. I don't. I've made myself kind to everyone, and no one notices me anymore.
I see groups of my "friends" going out, and I never go. I look, and I go, "oh, hey. You seem to really like me. I make you laugh and I make you smile and I thought we were friends."
But when it comes down
March 14th.March 14th.March 14th. in Letters More Like This
There's nothing special about me. I'm just a fucked up kid with too much time on her hands. Time is dangerous, you know? The more of it you have, the more greedy you become. Just a few more minutes of that TV show, please. Give me another hour to write my English paper.
I'm just a fucked up kid who takes things for granted. I don't value my time and I don't value my life and I certainly don't value you.
That's a lie. I'm sorry.
I have too much time on my hands nowadays, and I'm becoming greedy. But now, I just kind of want it to end. Whoever said that they would rather hurt than feel nothing has never had a broken he
uranographyi'm trapped in a galaxy of constellationsuranography in Free Verse More Like This
surrounded by planets and incandescence
your palm slides up my throat
fingers curling around my jaw gently
and i'm left here with nothing but
darkness and specks of stardust
and the overly familiar ghost of your fingers
burnt into my skin
you've wrapped me up in this blanket of the night sky
this homemade quilt of
mismatched luminosity and starry warmth
and i don't know if i ever want
to leave, now
you exhale the moon into my lungs,
and i breathe out the stars
to better days.the sky’s cold and grey and stormy and the wind bites at my lips--to better days. in Free Verse More Like This
today reminds me of you.
you tore at the seams of my heart, you know--
ripped out the stitches that held me together
and tied my heartstrings in knots
february comes and goes
and i can still hear your ringing laughter
the easy lines and slopes of your body
meshing into a polymerization of stardust
there were galaxies in your eyes
and moonlight in your hair
and somehow the night sky’s just not the same anymore
you’ve ruined me, you know
turned me into a storyteller with nothing to say
you’re a magpie,
stealing away the crystalline shards of my spi
Lipstick Lullabiesshe puts on her lipstick, her heels,Lipstick Lullabies in Free Verse More Like This
her dress that barely covers the tops of her thighs
and tells herself that she's okay
that this is justified
she plants a kiss onto a sleepy four-year-old's cheek
tells her to get some sleep
and goes off into the night
she grows from timid and ashamed
to confident and bold
licking bright red lips at any car
that slows down enough to look at her
bending over into the passenger's window
at any car that stops
she sleeps with a sleazy business man that night
who bruises her neck and uses her body
and calls her a bitch, and a whore, and a slut
as if fucking her wasn't enough
as if needing to humiliate and mar
it happens in seasons orange juice andit happens in seasons in Free Verse More Like This
it was a tuesday morning
when you entered my life
tuesdays were lovely
and filled with us
hot tea and
december carried such
like snow, and kisses, and love
cold coffee and
you left me on a rainy tuesday morning
FateLove is hereFate in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Scrape away the hate
Tear away the fear
It is fate
I want to give it to you
I love you, I do
Take it like sands in a sieve
Unvieling the gemstone
Together we will be
Do not feel alone
With your heart
Let it be open
I never want to be apart
It has always been
And will always be
This love from me
It is you that I lift
From chains that are binding
Let my love be blindng
The brightest light
Like the full moon
Keep me in your sight
We will be together soon
Time is a fickle thing
It seems to go by so slow
For you I sing
A song for when you are low
Dance with me
The dance of love
See what I see
The flight of the dove
As it flies with her mate
They are together for life
Again it is fate
Just BeI have told all of my secretsJust Be in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Wrapped them up neatly line after line
And I wonder if betrayal will be mine
I do not know if I have regrets
There has not been enough time
It goes by slowly and then speeds up like a train
I can tell you in this rhyme
And down comes the rain
In a cloud of lies
They would say of me
That she tries
But it takes eyes to see
And mine are a shuttered window pane
Wisdom is not what I have to give
My existence is in vain
In love is how I want to live
I have it but it is still not truly mine
I have to shut my heart
On this dish I cannot dine
This is where we part
Have a good life
I wish you well
Do not suffer strife
Ring the freedom bell
You can only do your best
Just like me
Forget the rest
Be who you can be
The Gay WarriorHer electric rainbow limbsThe Gay Warrior in Free Verse More Like This
Just slipping by edifice
To be ingrained within a spoon
Of sun and rain
She takes her passion seriously
Bringing about change
She rejects animosity
And throws ignorant flesh a bone
One that can be digested
Where thought can be illuminated
And bliss can be known
She carries love in her eyes
Not in her heart
That is broken
It breaks for the many faceless beings
That she tries to puzzle back together
She whittles them
From their wooden selves
Until they can be seen again
She knows nothing of sin
Only of sacrificial longing to be born again
My Heart....Six HaikusYou have stolen mineMy Heart....Six Haikus in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
You are the thief in the night
You said those four words
The ones I thrive on
The words that spell out beauty
I love you and forever
But it has ended
Forever came much too soon
You have left my side
I still think of you
And wonder where you are now
How you are feeling
I have to stop soon
You belong to another
Just as I do too
It came with a cost
Of which we each could not pay
Too high for us both
I Do Love YouI am romanticI Do Love You in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
Without the hearts and flowers
I just use my words
AlwaysPut your hand in mineAlways in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
Let us share our love again
Be with me always
My Friendly GhostI'm startled intoMy Friendly Ghost in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
This atmospheric embrace.
I knew it was you.
I Love YouTell the words to meI Love You in Free Verse More Like This
Make it three
The ones that matter the most
Even more than I am beautiful
Or that I count
And that I am unique
Say it to me
Those three words
I need to hear
It comes after the hello
And before the goodbye
Don't suddenly be shy about it
Say the magic
Pull it out of thin air
Present it to me like a bouquet
Now if you can
Say what I so need to hear
BipolarShe was dismembered by society's constraintsBipolar in Free Verse More Like This
Pushed and pulled apart
Dissected and looked at under a microscope
She had rainbow amoebas
swimming at full capacity in a solution of freeze dried blood
Bleak was her reality
But every now and again she came up for air
However stale it was
The doctors were bent on restitution
Hell bent and fury fueled
Time was catching up
And still she had her own mind
No matter how many drugs that were pumped inside her
She was a pretty pink fleshy mass of thoughts
Depression they wrote
And she fought and fought
So that they couldn't make her into a zombie
The SlayerYou are a slayer of truthThe Slayer in Free Verse More Like This
You twist and bend it to suit you
You have no couth
Justice has no chance with you
I am mediocre
It takes too long for me to breathe
I am destitute
I am weary of your abuse
Your lack of interest in me
I would rather feel your daggers poke and prod me
Take a part of my heart
Stab it mercilessly
Let the blood pool in circles surrounding me
Let it drip
And drop at my feet
Take my guts
Brandish me with your will
Be done with me
My mind is not my own
Because you have stolen my thoughts
You can have my brains
Serve them with rice and fine wine gravy
You say I don
Ineffable: A Rubaiyat Sometimes, when it's tranquil and I get to p o n d e rIneffable: A Rubaiyat in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I begin to fathom we're made for each o t h e r;
I know that God plumped up my chest and its c o n t e n t
to safeguard your worn out bones from curling o v e r.
Laced, our hands trace shadows under mint moon's c r e s c e n t;
we are lost causes and divulged dances o u t s p e n t.
I know my skin is downy as opposed to y o u r s
for you to take shelter under my winged s e g m e n t.
Still, understand that you're the reason I can s o a r,
accept that we're a pastiche of paramour c o r e s.
Panic Attack, InsomniacI cannot go to sleep, let alone in peace.Panic Attack, Insomniac in Letters More Like This
I can't even remember the last time I was able to put my head on the pillow come bed time and actually doze off- minus the pills, that is. It's been far too long that I've been sleep depraved and due to this, my body and mind have grown accustomed to falling asleep only after exerting all my physical, mental, and emotional resources.
Whenever I'm in the public eye, my concealer and best-seller sales rep smiles manage to camouflage my exhaustion well. My good friends and dear family though, have already gotten accustomed to receiving the reply, "I'm tired" whenever they ask how I've been or how I'm d
the perfect loverthe perfect lover in Free Verse More Like This
the perfect lover
would roll through my realm
and all understanding i once held
by his every utterance
of l for
and not in the least, lust
where i stay
worry free and dazed
Little Setting: A Ya DuA ladybugLittle Setting: A Ya Du in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
who had dug deep
to hug cool mud
like a bud leaf
was a little beauty thief
by a treetop pleas
for ease of flight
that it might lay
safe after setting of day
Unwavering: A SonnetNo matter the distance, be it to marsUnwavering: A Sonnet in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I shall install a rocket ship and sail
Even if I've to face galactic wars
I'm ready to fight, regardless of scale
Though I've yet to learn the warrior's creed
I've spent countless knights with this paper heart
I've long been well-versed on how to bleed
Target my body with your poison dart
I'll love you wholly on this good, green earth
I'll miss you even when you're here with me
I'll still love you after age, time, and worth
Yours- I was, am, and will forever be
Words always lack real weight for the lovesick
Yet words crack cold hearts much like an ice pick
little lullaby i'm lost without you,little lullaby in Free Verse More Like This
lost within the hues
of your grayish blue irises
and your skinny angel kisses
that bring me to my knees as
i plummet from all grace
i wish that you could be
the one i die with,
the only skin and bones that
circumventing hearts my frail ankles, wristscircumventing hearts in Free Verse More Like This
are inversely proportional to
your broad shoulders, chest
so it goes
your touch, though tangential
comes at me
Of Ether and AnimosityI'd rather spend my life in regretOf Ether and Animosity in Free Verse More Like This
because I told you I love you
than spend my life in remorse
because I never even tried.
I run my fingers over the brim of wine glasses
so that if I can't find you in the alcohol,
I'll find you in the sound that fills the silence
the way you once filled my chest
with rehearsed affections.
We are remembered by this earth; in the sound of
evening thunderstorms we are commemorated.
You blend well with the utter abandonment
and loneliness that echo off my heart unto
these bathroom walls-- I stand burying my soul
in solitude as I shower off
my intoxication and my distraught.
There are hungry wounds alo
My words are flightless birds Hey, is it okay now?My words are flightless birds in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Is it alright to tell you how
I cannot eat,
I cannot sleep, I always,
Always want to weep
I look for you in lonely corners
Of bus-bus-busy streets;
You are nowhere to be found
Can you keep my secret?
I don't want to keep
Let me spill, shout it out
I long to know all you're about
I want to feel
Your steady gaze
Stuck on my skin
As I graze
Your lips with mine; I cannot find
My head, lost in a maze
I am unscrewed, feigning
My words are flightless
Heartbeats cause erratic echoes
Le Petit AmourIf you tame me, it will be as if the sun came to shine on my life. I shall know the sound of a step that will be different from all the others. Other steps send me hurrying back underneath the ground. Yours will call me, like music, out of my burrow.Le Petit Amour in Free Verse More Like This
If you tame me, it will be as if the moon came to guide me through dark nights. I shall know the taste of a love sweeter than the finest honey. Other loves may call my name yet take me into another darkness. Yours will lead me, like smiles, on a child's face.
I Took Off My GlassesI looked at the worldI Took Off My Glasses in Free Verse More Like This
Through the lenses of my glasses
I see clearly now
Much I've done
Many things I've accomplished
How I've walked through
The moments of glory
Where everything's great and mighty fine
I watched myself as I
Trudged confidently to
The front line, thinking
"I am ready"
To face the enemy troops
I watched myself stumble and fall
As I slashed my overflowing enemies
With my Sword of Will
I watched as I
Fell and tripped more frequently
Got slashed and lashed back
As my Sword got duller and duller
Lastly, I saw that
I fell, for the last time
Long after i had stopped
Parrying my enemies' strikes
And my Sword,
Because It's OkayIt’s okayBecause It's Okay in Free Verse More Like This
Listen to me
This is what I want you to do
Take a deep breath
Close your eyes
Think about nothing
Focus on your feelings
And just go with the flow
Let your guards down
Because there’s no one there but you
But at the same time
Just let yourself feel
What’s truly inside of you
Absorb it, live in it
If only for a moment
You don’t have to let it go
You don’t have to throw it away
Just let it be
And be in it
Just for a moment
Because it’s okay to do that
The pain, the numbness
All of it? It’s temporary
It’s not going to leave you broken
Nights like thisNights like this irritate meNights like this in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
When my thoughts collide with each other
Not making actual sense
Even though my mind was clear
They don’t make sense
They don’t match my feelings
Feelings I felt during the day
They’re different during the night
Maybe because I have no one to hide them from
That I am this way
As long as there’s someone or something to distract me
I can run away from myself
Maybe that’s why I stayed up all night
So by the time I’m on the verge of sleeping
I won’t have the time or energy to think
And thus having a peaceful time
Maybe it’s partly to avoid the nightmares
In a way, th
nothingI live, yet am dead insidenothing in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I survived, yet I have lost
I won… the mask of happiness
I am here… but I am not
I am a mirror that reflects nothing
Water so still, for it contains nothing
I got nothing
I am nothing
So in the end, I have nothing to lose
dunno what this isLife consists of many roads. Sometimes, people can choose which they pick so easily. But there are others, who are trapped on an isolated, thorny and dark road. They are accompanied by demons of themselves. When they saw light, it turned out to be but an illusion. Those type of people, they have two choices. They can stay on that road and travel to find the better one… or stray and make a different one themselves. Walking a path of uncertainties, not knowing what’ll lay ahead, but then again, who ever does? It’ll fill with darkness, and it’ll certainly be different from the rest. It’ll be the type of road less tdunno what this is in Philosophical More Like This
little piece of my thought i guessI forgot what it feels like to feellittle piece of my thought i guess in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
What it feels like to move on
What it feels like to have a purpose
What it feels like to be ‘happy’
I don’t know
Which one is better
To be at peace
Or to be at ease
Peaceful without much problems
But with a heavy feeling in the soul
Or to be at ease with life
Going through more pain and hurt
I don’t know
You tell me
Can anyone tell me?
I sure want to tell them
I want to trudge out of this empty hole
This hole where it’s not numbness I felt but heaviness
Where I’ll just look up and say the only reason I’m living
Is to avoid death, nothing else
It feels so meanin
Blinded Blurred vision PerceptBlindedBlinded Blurred vision Percept in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Perception’s all messed up
I have no right to be living
I know I’m disposable
I’m just hopeless
It’s not a cry for help
It’s just a description
A life-saving expression
But until then
I will stay in thi state of mind
This Kid Like MeThis kidThis Kid Like Me in Free Verse More Like This
Is just like me
Or how I used to be
Been down the same road
Maybe even one more thorny
Almost exactly like me
Wonder what to do…
untitledLet me beuntitled in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
In this temporary bliss
Just for a little longer
I’ll face reality
But, for now
Please, let me be
For just a little
take care of yourselfCan’t love yourself, can you?take care of yourself in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Then I will
I will love you even though you won’t
I will love you though you don’t want me to
I will be the reason you’re still here
I’ll be the person you hate
I’ll be the thing you’ll lose if you go
I’ll do all this for no one else can
I’ll make you love me too
Then, when all is done
When you broke through to the light
When all darkness fades away
I’ll stand next to you
Pat your shoulder
You can take care of yourself now
My writing and my museNever can I be happyMy writing and my muse in Free Verse More Like This
Never can I be sad
Never can I be troubled
Never can I be MAD!
I try to be calm and stoic,
never releasing any emotion.
I just keep it bottled up
but it's like containing a raging ocean.
It is hopeless,
the cracks are showing.
I have to find release
so I begin writing.
I type, type, type
letting it all out.
Or else I will explode,
and we don't want that.
Writing about nothing,
writing about everything.
I don't really care,
as long as I write something!
My muse is laughing now,
hehehe, oh damn so am I!
But we do that all the time
just don't ask why.
Typing, typing, hatred, love
pain and anguish!
We thrive upon those
I am normal...I am normal,I am normal... in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Just like all of you!
They say that I am sick,
I say you are being tricked!
I am completely normal.
Everyone gets angry from time to time.
Have you never hated someone,
Wanted to make them pay for their crimes?
Yes…I am normal.
Everyone want to kill someone.
But they are all such cowards,
Seems like I am the only brave one.
Really, I am normal!
I did what you all wanted to do!
You are all just like me,
So why do you hate me so…
No! I am normal!
Please, I have done nothing wrong!
I know that you hate me…
Aren't you going to kill me now?
This is where we partTo be with youThis is where we part in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
is to be in bliss.
I would do anything
just to feel your kiss.
Yes, I believe I love you,
and I know you love me.
If we would be together
how happy we would be!
This is my heart's desire,
to love you until the end.
I would be your shield,
your lover and friend.
Sadly I know
this cannot be
For in your dreams
there is no room for me.
So farewell my love
this is where we part.
I rather live in loneliness
then having to break your heart.
Behind my maskI ask myself: what is he?Behind my mask in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
What does the mask hide?
What is this thing I call me,
what am I inside?
I once wore a mask,
but now I see that as me.
Have I really forgotten,
what I am supposed to be?
How did this happen,
who made me this way?
I know the answer is me,
I am the only one to blame.
I did create this mask
Because I was too afraid,
to face the world as myself
and the people it contained.
But what did it do?
It made me forget how to be!
What I once called a mask
is what I now call me.
Oh how I would scream,
if only I remembered how.
It is a distant dream,
for me to be free now.
So please do not be me,
Can we not be friends?No end in sight,Can we not be friends? in Free Verse More Like This
for our bleeding world.
Fight after fight,
my cries go unheard.
Many have been slain,
maybe it never ends.
Must we cause pain,
can we not be friends?
To burn a heartI have been raisedTo burn a heart in Free Verse More Like This
to live as a thrall.
Forced to help others,
living as a slave for all.
Finally I understand,
their beliefs are not mine.
My destiny is my own,
I do not have to be benign!
For why should I care?
They mean nothing to me!
No longer will I suffer,
I will finally be free!
No more empathy,
that can cause me pain!
No more bonds on my soul,
I can finally live again!
Yet what is struggling,
Is this my heart?
You want me to help them,
want me to do my part
Bah! I know you,
I loathe you still!
I burn you again and again,
until you obey my will!
But why do I suffer
the more I let you burn?
Guardian lightI am protected,Guardian light in Free Verse More Like This
both day and night.
Sheltered in your brilliance,
I am guarded by your light!
I can almost see it,
your aura so pure.
Never more alone,
you help me feel secure.
My logic may reject you,
but I do not fear.
Maybe you are a delusion,
but I can still feel you here.
Karlek forslavar (Swedish poem)Jag vill inte älska digKarlek forslavar (Swedish poem) in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
men jag har inget val.
Mitt sinne är för svagt
för att ignorera hjärtats kval.
Jag krälar för dig
är inget mer än din slav.
Jag gör allt för dig:
dina önskningar är mina krav
det binder, torterar mig.
Jag önskar inget mer
än att få glömma dig.
Vad jag än försöker mig på
så är alltid där, i mitt sinne.
Tro mig jag har försökt allt
för att radera dig från mitt minne.
Jag hatar att älska dig,
jag avskyr mitt hjärta.
Varför vill det så gärna
min egen frihet fjättra?
Men oavsett allt detta,
trots allt jag måste utstå,
vill jag fortfarande stanna
och det kan jag inte förstå...
Voices in her earVoices in her earVoices in her ear in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
She wished to no longer be alone,
but she never wanted this.
They came to her as she despaired
promising her the way to bliss.
Voices only she can hear
They speak of her darkest dreams
goading her to embrace her anger.
They can see who she really is
and how close she is to surrender
Voices that she so wisely fear
She refuses to become a monster,
yet she knows that she cannot win.
One day she will eventually surrender
for her heart is already black with sin.
Voices that only laughs and sneer
There is only one thing she can do
before she will cause others pain.
With the voices laughing in her ears,
this little girl go
Just being evilI know I am evil,Just being evil in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I know I am probably insane.
But this is who I am,
who are you to complain?
It is not like I try to be evil.
Hard to believe, but its true!
I could do what is right,
but why would I want to?
After all, I am so happy,
I am where I want to be.
Even if I could change
I would still want to be me.
It is like the world approves
of my horrendous deeds.
I am not punished, but rewarded
so I guess this is the right path for me.
So go ahead, hate me, curse me,
spit at the very sound of my name.
But know that I am just being me
so why should I be ashamed?
ReflectionsReflections of reflectionsReflections in Free Verse More Like This
Of a history long unknown,
Ripples within ripples
Of a reflection widely seen,
Wide in scope.
Mirrored in mirrors
Of translucent memory,
AnomalyA crooked crutchAnomaly in Free Verse More Like This
to support the broken.
A dead tree
to hang the damned.
A miser's money
to spend in extravagance.
A sinful word
to wish you well.
A wicked man
to welcome wonders.
Cold and DarkIn a world so dark,Cold and Dark in Free Verse More Like This
So cold and relentless
My feelings freeze,
Break and die.
In a world of frost
Upon emotions brow,
A single flame burns bright
Illuminating this night.
In a world of doubt
Within each heart,
A warm breeze still flows
Rejuvinating the senses.
A wavering flame
In a flurry of ice.
A roaring fire,
In a sea of snow.
A beacon of light
To fight back the night.
Where the Willow Meets the WaterSit down by the shore-Where the Willow Meets the Water in Free Verse More Like This
Where the willow meets the water.
Playing and singing-
A joyous little sound,
Where the willow meets the water.
Laughing and living-
A wonder to behold,
Where the willow meets the water.
Diving through reflections-
A mirror of its own,
Where the willow meets the water.
Splashing and swimming-
Breathing in the day,
Where the willow meets the water.
Cloudy SkiesClear and bright,Cloudy Skies in Free Verse More Like This
This endless delight.
With flitting dreams
That touch and go.
Winding and wending
Their track throughout,
Constant and trivial:
Dreams of dreams.
Deadly and destructive,
Desecrator if the dream,
Harbinger of the flow.
Tears of the hopes
Of the dreams come and gone:
A killer without intent,
A child crying "Help!"
Born of the horizon,
Killed by her too.
Sinuous and silent,
Promiser of delight
Bringing the unknown.
Sounds of WarFlowers bloomingSounds of War in Free Verse More Like This
in the air,
crash and boom,
sung from whom?
[Our drummers beat]
so take your seat.
The DayIn the morning I mournThe Day in Free Verse More Like This
for the days that have passed.
A new dawn,
from the depths of night.
Pinnacle of day,
Depressed by the moon,
the scythe of night,
Dusk cloaks the land
until dawn comes again.
Last WordsA man once livedLast Words in Free Verse More Like This
Off by himself,
In a little tiny grove.
Now he was not the first,
Nor will he be the last,
But for now,
This grove is his.
Remenants from the past
Clinging and begging
To exist forever.
In a hopeless effort,
The man takes of the old,
And makes it his own.
This man is not perfect,
Nor were the others.
He only tries his best.
As it were,
Tales begin and end,
The wind must die,
The man must fade.
Throughout his course,
The man made do,
Refitted and remade
All that he knew,
Leaving everything for another.
Death was a kind thing,
Entering with a knock
And a nod hello.
"Any last words?"
A StrollI've been told,A Stroll in Free Verse More Like This
Of every year:
"Find your way,
And blaze your own path."
So why can't I?
Every path is blazed,
Every step has been taken.
My path is anothers,
Just taken again.
Should I bother?
It is no longer blazing-
I am taking a stroll,
Down another's path.
The path laid before me
Becomes my trail:
Like my words,
Each action is not new,
They're just recycled.
A Thousand WordsA thousand words lost in timeA Thousand Words in Free Verse More Like This
these words unneeded.
A thousand words I cannot describe
comprehension yet seeded.
A thousand words without a meaning
no reason, nor rhyme:
words without feeling.
These thousand words are what you're needing.
HollowI look in my soulHollow in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
To find who I really am.
And I am hollow.
SmileEyes that burn with anger and deep hurt;Smile in Free Verse More Like This
Hands that clench as tears roll down my cheeks;
A smile that lights the room and my own heart.
These are typical things for me;
I am able to show compassion and care for people
And look at the world around me with a brilliant smile.
I am able to have hope.
However, I also feel incredible anger and hatred for others.
I hate people who walk all over others; including myself.
I despise when others assume my gentle nature
Is an excuse to comment on my life; like how I have few friends,
Or how all of my girlfriends have lived so far from me...
I hate the fact that it hurts me so deeply
When I'm OldSome day when I'm old,When I'm Old in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
I want my own studio.
Filled with things I love.
Ethereal WorldThe world is so amazingly beautiful;Ethereal World in Free Verse More Like This
And people can either add to it,
Or destroy it.
Whether our world was given to us by a divine power
Or by a rare chance of evolution,
Our planet and our universe is so incredible.
I once considered ending it all and escaping from a place
I once thought was so ugly a deplorable.
But now as time goes on I can finally see the ethereal loveliness around me.
Maybe I cannot see my own beauty,
But that will come with time.
Until then I will enjoy living in this fantastic world;
Taking in as much as I can before I am forced to leave it
Two Way MirrorI feel like my life is a two way mirror;Two Way Mirror in Free Verse More Like This
A dirty two way mirror.
I get a blurred vision of the other side
And the promises of a happier, more active life.
But no one can see me through the mirror or the dirt that covers both sides.
So all I get to do is imagine what life is like on the other side
And hope that I can experience it one day...
Withering RoseRoses are like love.Withering Rose in Free Verse More Like This
Like the very essence of life itself.
In its prime it is lovely
And brings light to everything around it.
But then it eventually shrivels up
Then falls to ruin
From this loss comes new light and new roses,
But it never seems like it right away.
Fly AwayI want to fly away from here,Fly Away in Free Verse More Like This
and be the woman I've dreamed I would be.
It does mean leaving behind all I know,
wiping the black board that is my life totally clean.
It's worth it though, to throw caution to the wind.
To be spontaneous like the seasons.
To be out going like a small child would be, without worry.
To try and improve my life,
and make memories forever imprinted in my mind.
I want to fly away from here;
spread my wings and fly into the horizon.
Brushing my fingertips against the cotton candy clouds,
watching the place I come from, fade from view.
The TruthDo you really care?The Truth in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
Can you look me in the eyes
And tell me the truth?
Gash in My SoulI feel an agonizing pain where my heart is,Gash in My Soul in Free Verse More Like This
But there is no wound.
No gash that should harm me.
Instead it seems to be coming from inside of me.
From my soul,
Which is bleeding out
And letting the essence of me slip away.
And that is truly more painful than any physical harm.
This ScreenI lay here in bed staring at this screen.This Screen in Free Verse More Like This
I know that somewhere in the world are people looking back through theirs;
They hear my pleas.
But it doesn't keep me from wishing I could have them here...
Being with them and making fond memories.
Thanking them for dealing with me.
For being a friend to a girl chained by her deep depression and family trouble.
I also want to see them so that if one day I am gone,
At least what they said and our memories will remain.