Sorry SometimesSorrySorry Sometimes in Free Verse More Like This
For the nasty words I said,
For the way it hurt you, I know it did.
That I didn't think before I spoke,
I turned our time into a joke.
That I let my emotions get the best of me
That it cost me the most important thing to me
That things aren't the way they used to be
That I lashed at you when I was only mad at me.
You don't like the things I do,
I always cross the line.
We always end up in a fight
To you I just can't do anything right.
I'm too far from an angel, cept maybe an angel from hell.
It hurts for me to swallow my pride
I'm often too blindsided by anger to see your side.
I don't meet your expectations
Sometimes I can't fight all these temptations.
I don't always walk upright
I want to see you every night.
I was never good enough
All I wanted was your trust.
You can't look past my imperfections.
To you I was never worth the mention.
For all the
LoveLoveLove in Free Verse More Like This
Unrequited oft times,
Bitter stabbing denial, hurts.
A girl called MorphineShe's twitching in the cornerA girl called Morphine in Free Verse More Like This
Coming down from her buzz.
There's a prescription bottle in her hand
I can see her mind turning wheels for once.
I know she doesn't want to do it
But the burn is all she craves.
She never wanted to be a looser,
Somehow it's all she became.
Her eyes whip back and forth
To see who would notice her leave.
She takes a breath, get's to her feet.
The bottle clutched to her heaving chest
She shuts the bathroom door.
The sound of the lock so loud
Inside the four by four little room.
She empties the bottle on the counter
Counting them in two's.
Her life doesn't really matter
So she crushes all sixteen.
With quick precision she lines
The powder into rows of three.
Fumbles in her pocket for a dollar,
Up her nose she swallows every one.
The morphine hits her quickly,
On the floor she falls, she twitches.
Unable to scream,
She'd changed her mind,
The drug took over
Silently she cried,
She fades away from reality.
UnsureI don't know where we're goingUnsure in Free Verse More Like This
Or even if a future for us exists
You stand me up more than you
Lay me down, makes me wonder
Why I even want you around.
It's hard to love a man who's
Yet it's hard to care
About that when I'm in your arms.
I don't want to smother you
I just don't feel I get enough of you
Your like a disease
Like I need you to live
I fear constantly that one
Of us will get fed up
And we'll go our separate ways.
Sometimes I wish I had the guts to say
Everything that's on my mind
But I always hold my tongue
Only letting my tears fall when
My backs to you and I walk
Lover's letterYou asked me not to hate youLover's letter in Free Verse More Like This
Begged in fact.
I think secretly it's what
You want of me.
Cause you're telling me lies
Fucking with my mind.
I know you're messing around on me
I see the story perfectly baby
I'm not as blind as you want me to be.
Though I'm not yours
Your not mine.
Why be a hypocrite?
For when you leave me alone
I seek those that want my time!
Morning, noon and night.
I was true for such a long time, to you.
You know i've never been faithful to anyone
In my twenty-six year lifetime.
But I was,
Although with your cruel words
And noxious ways, your coming late and leaving early's
Wouldn't be so bad if we had a schedule of when you'd roll in,
You buried that, my being true to you.
Just like soon you'll be burying this
Attraction I have for you....
After Burn GlowsYou handed over controlAfter Burn Glows in Free Verse More Like This
Let yourself be in the submissive role.
I crowed in delight, now was my night,
Torturing you with pleasure my right.
The control was short lived
Just like the bonds you broke with a flick of the wrist.
Damn, babe you don't know how sexy that is
Your strength a turn on I can't describe.
Ironic that I love it considering all I've been through.
Even with your hands around my neck, I'm not scared
I get thrilled, it send Delicious little chills
That zap me in parts I won't mention.
I'm seated, glorying in my power,
Cowgirl on a role, It's time for you to slip
Into dominate control.
I don't give up my perch willingly,
Effortlessly you dethrone me,
Even as I grumble I bask in your prowess.
You tease me mercilessly
Prolonging your release,
But give mine to me.
You force me to your goal
While your at the forty yard line,
Covered in my satisfaction
For you it's touchdown time.
And we lay, I on my stomach
You on your side,
Trailing fingertips up and down my spine.
The song you'll never hearThe song you'll never hear in Free Verse More Like This
I have emerged from my shell of anger and hate,
Only to realize it was a transformation too soon.
I've been searching for a way back in for some time now
But your face taunts me into being better than I ever was.
I am really lost in life, not figuratively but literally, gone.
although there aren't a lot of places i'd rather be,
it can't really be right here without it being me,
maybe i'm not in the strictest sense, gone,
maybe i was never here, or i never left for long,
but knowing me, i'm never right, i'm always wrong,
It's like I'm stuck inside some never ending song
As the lyrics carry on and on I become further involved.
I've not been where I need to be in so long,
The road back out of this chorus to me is lost.
I used to love the words, but now I feel I'll drown in them.
it was just a temptation to write more and more,
and with every word my quill spelled out left me with a rotten core,
i look back on everything that i love about you,
There is pain in truthThe hours clock by, my eyes glued to the screen.There is pain in truth in Free Verse More Like This
Waiting, willing your name to appear.
My heart kicks when it does, surpassing legal speed limits.
Two days have dragged on by, every name but the one
I crave has chosen to appear.
To say I'm miserable at best would be a gross understatement.
I'm aching for you, your words, your voice, your arms,
No others will suffice. Mistakes fall from my lips,
As I fall from your grace. I've never been perfect.
Tell me should I quit? Have I become too much for you
To deal with? Don't worry about the pain your answer will inflict.
Ignorance may be kind, but I find the truth a more comfortable pain.
I'd rather know than make of myself a bigger fool.
So tell me baby, do you want me to cease the fight?
To just go quietly into the dark night?
That way you could strike me from your mind
As If I'd never been apart of you, no crime.
A last glimpse of promiseHe looks at me with tear filled green eyesA last glimpse of promise in Free Verse More Like This
Whispers on broken sobs "But I love you!"
Why do I feel guilty for not loving him back?
The truth is loving someone makes no difference
If they don't feel the same.
So why utter those damning words
When you know saying them won't change a thing?
Awkwardly I try to comfort this man I care for as a friend
Saying empty platitudes
"I enjoy spending time with you"
If you want love, hun I can say this
"I love being under you, while your screwing me."
He's so sensitive, so sweet
A joy to be around really
Why oh why can't I love this man
Who is in love with me?
I will have to break his tender heart,
Tragic, as he has so much potential.
I would give anything to make my heart beat for him
As he would give me everything he had to give.
But my fickle heart it beats for another
One who is undeserving of my love.
He drags me through heartache
I hate myselfYou propped me upI hate myself in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I toppled us down.
You were right to be wary
I swear I never meant for any
It's so hard to pick up
Attempt to write.
I play familiar songs
To get lost.
Drown in memories
Cry my heart out.
Your still there
Right where it hurts me most.
....When I think about all the things I did
I hate myself
....When I think about the things we've said
I hate myself
....As I lie here on my bed
I hate myself
....After everything we did
I hate myself
You always expected the worse
I guess that's what you got.
You don't care that you were wrong
With what you thought.
I'm dying from betrayal
And you don't know.
You knew I loved you
But what is love?
Just a desire to fuck
I was true
But you could never see.
Why oh why,
Did I get involved,
With someone jaded as me?
We were doomed to fall.
....She's waiting for you at home
I hate myself
....I'm in hell imagining her with you
I hate myself
....You led me on so easily
I hate myself
....She said and you agree I'm bad new