Why?Why is life so complicated?
Why am I so cursed and hated?
I'm tired of this constant fight,
Show me how to make it right.
This situation is so tragic,
You're blaming me for using magic.
You know naught of what you speak,
Your mind is closed, your reason weak.
Your actions are so underhand,
Judging what you don't understand.
Witchcraft is no more a crime,
You're living in a bygone time.
Why should I change my convictions
Just to minimise the frictions?
Live and let live, that's my way,
I don't tell others how to pray.
Open your mind, learn something new,
See things from different points of view.
Open up your fettered mind,
Leave the Burning Times behind.
Why can't you see that I'm not evil?
I won't turn you into a weevil.
You won't find yourself with paws,
My broomstick is for sweeping floors.
Look beyond your hate and fears,
Show wisdom far beyond your years.
Swap ignorance for open mind,
You may be awed by what you find.
EscapeI'm trying to escape,Escape in Free Verse More Like This
trying to get away,
trying to ignore what they do,
forget about what they say.
No move I ever make,
can ever be one right,
every simple thing I say,
always starts a fight.
I'm sorry I'm not perfect,
the way I'm supposed to be,
the thing is your slowly killing me,
why can't you see?
I'd really like to run away,
where someone would understand,
to someone who could see my pain,
and gently take my hand.
FlawedInsecurities.Flawed in Free Verse More Like This
Screaming at me,
clawing at every inch
of my body.
That little voice inside my head
sounding strangely like my own,
tearing me down,
from the inside.
Each hate-filled blow,
hits harder than the last.
Each self-inflicted cut,
hidden in shame,
nonexistent to the piercing eyes of others,
visible only in that lonely mirror reflection.
little dotted lines drawn
over every flawed bit of me.
Not pretty enough,
There is not a perfect inch
within my being.
Why can't I be beautiful?
'Best Friend'You left me here,'Best Friend' in Free Verse More Like This
alone in the cold.
I can almost see the wind blow.
It brings back memories,
memories of you.
The way you used to smile,
you know, back we were two.
three musketeers minus one, "best friends".
The warth of your hug,
and those silly jokes you told,
while trying to cheer me up, force one smile out of me.
I opened up to you, telling you everything.
& now thinking back I realize...
you told me nothing.
Nothing worth knowing, anyway.
Whatever happened? Did you just get bored?
I'm not always cheery, not always interesting,
but I thought best friends was more than that.
Maybe I was too eager,
eager to believe I finally had someone,
some to call my best friend.
you were the closest to it,
almost the closest I'd ever had.
now you're just every other "friend" in the hallway.
I ChangedTrying to cover the tears, trying not to show my fears.I Changed in Free Verse More Like This
Why do I keep it all inside? My pain getting harder to hide.
I used to be cheery, it used to be real.
But now it's different, and they're making some big deal.
Saying "Why are you so sad?" and "You look depressed."
Can't you just leave me alone, let it rest?
So maybe I've changed...what's that got to do with you?
Just because I've changed? Well maybe you have too.
Can't Help Loving YouI really cannot help it,Can't Help Loving You in Free Verse More Like This
It says so in my heart,
I really cannot help it,
Though I didn't feel so at the start.
But now we're closer and I realize,
I'm lucky to have you,
All the things you say to me,
The sweetest things you do.
You cheer me up,
When I am down,
You make me smile,
When I frown.
You may not ever realize,
My feelings deep and true,
You may not ever notice,
I can't help loving you.
I'll never stop loving you, there's no way I could.
Silent Killer.silent.Silent Killer. in Free Verse More Like This
One Last GoodbyeWriting one last letter, saying one last good-bye,One Last Goodbye in Free Verse More Like This
My blood falling to the floor, as if coming from the sky.
"You told me that you love me, but we could never be,
I cannot live without you, so I'm doing this you see."
"If we cannot be together, then I don't want to live,
I've got nothing left at all, nothing left to give."
I close the envelope softly, seal it wish a kiss,
Turn to look the other way, and wait for my dismiss.
MisunderstandingPitter Patter, goes the rain.Misunderstanding in Free Verse More Like This
Her cry, filled with pain.
Where is he?
Where did he go?
Didn't I see him? Just a minute ago?
He was here, and now he's gone.
And now a thought begins to dawn....
He's left her, he's moved on.
She loved him, he loved her too.
Or so she thought, and in her mind, a plan begins to brew.
She'll get back at him, oh yes!
She will, she'll make him pay.
She'll even kill.
He took her heart.
She took her life.
And now that man has lost his wife.
He didn't leave her, he hadn't moved on.
He was too late....and now she's gone.
Pitter Patter goes the rain.
And now his cry is filled with pain.
Moving OnWhy don't I want to leave, yet I do?Moving On in Free Verse More Like This
Is it because I won't see you?
Will I miss this okay place?
Or will I miss your smiling face?
Will I miss the people here?
Or is it you I hold so dear?
Will I miss the past behind?
Or is it you stuck in my mind?
Will I miss the sky so blue?
Or dear friend will I miss you?
Stone HeartThe stone wall is peaking,Stone Heart in Free Verse More Like This
Making it's rise to the top.
I try not to think about us often,
I've simply put my heart on stop.
When people look at me,
All that pity in their eyes,
I stare back with my fake contempt,
Causing them to step back in surprise.
They say I take things quite well,
They think I'm doing just fine,
But truth is, I'm not taking it at all,
although deep down I've lost my shine.
I had this gut feeling from the start,
That I would end up broken,
But an idea called love got in the way,
Now on bitter tears I'm chokin'.
In my imagination you were different,
You were just the boy of my dreams,
But reality kicked me in the face,
You're just every other boy, it seems.
Instead of breaking down,
Like any normal girl could,
The stone wall is now peaking,
Just like I knew it would.
-she seeks solace- in Free Verse More Like This
from the crevices of her mind
because it's the only place
where innocence still remains;
and it is the only place
where she can think
without the corruption of the world plaguing her mind.
-i. the world would be a better place if- in Free Verse More Like This
no longer existed
there is far too little time
to hold such bitterness in our hearts.
ii. the world would be a better place if
we found homes
in each other
home is where the heart is,
and my heart lies with you.
iii. the world would be a better place if
to believe in ourselves
it’s okay to fall
when you will rise once more.
iv. the world would be a better place if
the scars that adorn our bodies
in our flaws.
v. the world is a better place
because of your kindness
and everything you do.
-she hides skeletons- in Free Verse More Like This
in her closet;
she hears the monsters
that lurk under her bed
and the demons
trapped in her head.
-you sometimes f o r g e t- in Free Verse More Like This
who you really are
beneath the facade
— — because it is too painful
to acknowledge your sins.
-my breath hitches- in Free Verse More Like This
at the sound of your voice
my heartbeat quickens
at your pulse felt beneath my fingertips
and my world shatters
at the realization
that you no longer remain at my side.
-you do not know of the burden- in Free Verse More Like This
that lies upon my shoulders
nor the pain
that i carry in my heart.
-do not- in Free Verse More Like This
who i should be
what to believe
who i am
i am not you
and you are not me.
-loneliness- in Free Verse More Like This
when you find yourself
in a crowd of familiar faces,
the struggle for breath
-dear fragile heart,- in Free Verse More Like This
that you bear
the tidal wave
of emotions that consume
every piece of me.
that you beat
because i am afraid
of the future.
dear fragile heart,
please keep hanging on.
OverTell me,Over in Free Verse More Like This
Are you lonely ?
Lost within such a Labyrinthine heart,
Ruling from somewhere up so high,
Glaring down at me with those eyes
There you stand,
So opaque and obscure
With all the little pieces of us,
Twinkling in the distance,
Cannot fill the spaces between
Those that separate our hearts.
And I can't even say your name,
I wish I could just tell you
Someday I will find the strength
To say these words to you
What are you really playing at?
One by OneThe human soulOne by One in Free Verse More Like This
Is a thing so hollow
Not even time can fathom
The end to it's fathomless depths
Just like the hole in your heart.
No one wants a broken toy,
That is all that I can ever be
Shameful to burden society
With my petty useless nonsense.
Your eyes betray
So much more than you allow them,
And you are so much more
Than you give yourself credit for.
Haunting melody that calls to me in silence,
As we're gazing at the stars together
Everything goes by,
And we're counting all the scars
One by one
And the hidden meaning behind
The look in your eyes
Says it all.
Flawless BelovedSo many people, swimming in a sea of facesFlawless Beloved in Free Verse More Like This
And you were once lost to me...
Though I'd searched, the place was never right
Timing was off just by a few minutes,
Moments slip like grains of sand
Falling down the hourglass of my heart...
From the moment I first saw you,
I know it sounds much too bold
But I knew you'd follow me home
From there, knew one day you'd be mine
To have and to hold,
Someone who compliments me perfectly,
Going hand in hand with my own ways
And so flawlessly intuned with my soul...
For so long I had wondered
Why there was so much darkness within me,
Why I was surrounded by it
Why it consumed me so completely...
But most of all, I wondered why...
It felt like I was missing half of myself,
Like I was incomplete
And without you, I am.
Without you, there can only be dark
There is no light,
And I know it's cliche' but...
You will always be my light
Even in all of this darkness.
Two halves of one shell
Drawn to one another
From across vast distances,
I HideAll that I am and all that I doI Hide in Free Verse More Like This
Is riddled with pure destruction,
Laced with toxic cyanide;
Never to be touched by mortal hands.
Can you buy a simple soul from me?
No, what I know is not for sale,
And even in your dreams
You could never see anything so pure.
Always saying things like
No, never, broken, so damaged;
Eternal, forever, always, so permanent,
And nothing can ever repair it.
You've stolen such things from me
That cannot be spoken of,
And yet I still must go on knowing
The true source of all this despair
My entire world is dying all around me,
And all I can do is watch the embers burn;
White hot, like the deadly pure magic
Which I am no longer to use.
Addicted to you and all of your charm
Not because of who you are
Or because you treat me well,
But because you cause me pain.
I've always been in love with pain,
Ashen cinders burning to a black death
Always wanting, but never feeling more;
At least I can feel you now
You're the only one in all the world
Who has the p
Wish ListWho was it that ever madeWish List in Free Verse More Like This
The very first wish ?
Longing feeling to have
Something they did not ?
It continues to elude me.
Each moment that passes us by
Is another moment lost,
For it is another moment
I am without you
For so long I have burned
Sinning in my own personal hell,
Only to be saved by you
One day an angel took my arm
And He refused to let it go.
That was when I knew
He would be mine. <3
If now is not to be the Time,
Then so it may be.
If I had a heart full of wishes,
I'd waste every single one
And once I made a list
That I truly wished for
The only thing on the list
Was a name
It was His.
Nothing else in all the world
That I could want
Would ever make me happy
I'll never ask for anything else.
RunBeneath the cadence of your call,Run in Free Verse More Like This
I hear the wolves as they echo through
Darkest hour of the brightest light of night,
Nothing could ever be as dark as you
And what you are to me
What are you to me?
I merely blinked,
As I was eaten alive
Consumed by your hatred
And bled out of such rage.
I've only a single word for you:
Run as far from me,
And as fast as you can;
Else I should catch you
And devour all that is
A thousand ways to fight this feeling,
I shouldn't feel it.
I've never felt that I was human
Surely I must be a monster,
Fighting this monstrous voice inside,
The sound of instinct;
What the hell am I?
I catch your scent on the wind
And know only one thing:
That I must go to you.
Clawing my way past,
Nothing will stand in my way.
Cast OutI will forever be known asCast Out in Free Verse More Like This
The girl with the poisoned heart
No one could touch me
Surrounded by an invisible maze of thorns,
Unreachable, untouchable, undesirable.
And you are made of poison
Deadly, killing me
Weeding you out from my garden
You're not welcome in this Eden,
Cursed with the pain
Of a thousand eyes
Yet why is it none of them can see
All the things you do to me?
Moonlit promises only turn
Into halogen lies,
No such thing as safety
Your eyes burning away at my soul,
Where only darkness goes,
There is a hatred that festers and grows.
In a scream-filled fantasy cosmos,
You are dead to me.
This monster that you made me
Tried so hard to make you see
You are a lost soul,
Who can never be complete.
PrisonerLiving in such a worldPrisoner in Free Verse More Like This
Where every day is the same,
Everyone looks at you
With those accusing eyes
Saying you're ugly and filled with hatred.
I look at you
With eyes made only
For the one they see
In a dead, cold, blind world
Where claws sink into light,
Waves consume the drowning itself,
Love doesn't know it's own name,
And dreams are impossible.
The soul sings it's own dream;
Something most of us could never do
I am in a better place now,
One without cold steel bars
I am not meant to be caged.
That is what I am.
Imprisoned by the very thought
Of being free.
No EscapeTaking small pieces from me,No Escape in Free Verse More Like This
As I lay fragmented and broken
He destroyed what was left of my heart
Casting me into eternal darkness,
For so long I've searched for a way to escape,
Only to be surrounded by this inky blackness
Everything was dismal, nothing made sense
Everywhere I turned, I was surrounded by pain
And all of it came from making a deal with him,
The beautiful devil with the cold, wicked eyes
Same dark smile that haunts me still
Out of nowhere, you appeared to me,
Sent from beyond the realm of dreams
And I was the one who cast you away.
But you hunted me, tracked me down
Using our hearts as a guide
To find your way back to me
It is indescribable, but I will try.
Your scent sends chills through me,
With a voice that breathes life into
My abused, broken soul;
Your touch amazes me with every breath
And when you look at me with those eyes,
My entire world stops
Only for you.
I want to share this feeling with the world,
Yet I do not know how to name
CheshireMysterious feelingsCheshire in Free Verse More Like This
Show me nothing except
This hollow feeling;
I just wanted it to go away
And the way you held me
I was lost in heaven
Until the moment when I was blind,
Bitten by a demon
So smoky and smooth,
You can't make me purr.
Piercing emerald depths with your gaze,
False and untrue.
And it hurt so much
The hatred has now arisen,
And will forever be repaid unto me
With your blood.
Like a fallen swan
I will never speak again,
I will smile, instead.
Grinning as I lick my paws
Clean from crimson,
Bathing in my rage
As I am basking now
Reveling in the joy of your plague.
You couldn't keep me
Locked inside the cage forever,
Now could you?
How could you?
A Bad PersonAm I a bad person,A Bad Person in Free Verse More Like This
Just because you don't like me?
I can't help the way I am,
Nor do I need this grievance you see,
Though the friendship can never be born.
Am I a bad person,
Just because you hate my smile?
It's not a statement of self,
Honestly I find myself to be vile,
But you don't need to send me into oblivion.
Am I bad person,
Just because I act the way I like?
I'm sorry if I'm such a git,
I didn't mean to generate this psych,
Yet your judgement has passed and you've won.
UntitledI smile when it rains,Untitled in Free Verse More Like This
It drives away the black passion and the scarlet pain,
Tearing up my white flesh again and again.
It's the only thing that keeps me sane,
When everything else is driving me insane.
I smile when it snows,
It covers up these ruby scars that will forever show,
Hiding silver marks on golden skin I know.
It's an antidote to this shade misery that flows,
When everyone tries to deduce my glow.
Ready To IgniteMy chest feels like a furnace,Ready To Ignite in Free Verse More Like This
And my lungs are on fire.
Death is my mind's only desire;
But I will carry on with bitter grace,
Knowing my ashes may leave no trace.
My chest feels like a grenade,
And my heart is about to explode.
Shall I continue down this road?
But now I stop because I am afraid,
That the life I lead may never be saved.
My chest feels like an anvil,
And my ribs feel like lead.
In my palms is black blood that bled,
But I am scared so much my stare is still,
With bleak eyes I accept misery for good or ill.
A Secret On The LineIgnore this madness of mine,A Secret On The Line in Free Verse More Like This
I'm still sane you shall find.
It's wonder I can make this even rhyme,
Is there really anything you can call time?
Walking around that anachronistic line.
Ignore this sadness as I sign,
This letter you will find.
I've no theory as to how I could write,
Such words of remorse to you this night?
Scribbling along so many a romantic line.
Ignore this darkness in which we dine,
My secret you won't find.
Is it really a matter to bring to light,
Can you forgive the sincerity of my crime?
Breathing away this traumatic line.
How Did We Get Here?How did we get here?How Did We Get Here? in Free Verse More Like This
When I thought I'd knew you so well,
That I could walk into the very pits of hell,
And save you from those demons of charm;
But all I see in your eyes is pure alarm.
How did we get here?
All I knew of love has been taken away,
Corroded down to ridicule of all we could say,
Dismissed by me but cherished by you long before;
Yet not this time when words are sore.
How did we get here?
I cannot decipher the truth from the lies,
Figuring you out while the pain inside cries,
Why do you hate me with a lover's gaze;
Would you plague me forever feigning this craze?
Doctor DeathDoctor Death will see you now,Doctor Death in Free Verse More Like This
"What is it that pains you?" asks he,
"I have a burning in my breast," says I,
"Looks like a coronary in your chest," says he,
And his cure travels down into my veins of a tree.
Doctor Death will hear you soon,
"What are your ailments?" asks he,
"I suffer from an amorous affliction," says I,
"Seems to me your an addict of addiction," says he,
And his prescription cuts out all that could be free.
Doctor Death will meet you here,
"What is this illness of yours?" asks he,
"I'm dying from a disease," says I,
"This emancipation I'll tame with ease," says he,
And his remedy calmed my rage like the turning of a key.
When Push Comes To ShoveWhen push comes to shove,When Push Comes To Shove in Free Verse More Like This
I know times will get tough.
Hell I don't need an angel from above,
To recite rhymes of reality,
And to say that life is going to be rough.
When push comes to shove,
I stand on such fragile ground.
Oh I wish I could fly away like a dove,
To soar silently in sobriety,
And never hear my death in that sound.
When push comes to shove,
I realise that the task is up to me.
But I cannot do this alone my love,
To pursue this poison called poetry,
And forever may I lack eyes with which to see.
Isolated In SilenceLet that scarlet sound,Isolated In Silence in Free Verse More Like This
Take you away,
To enjoy life another day.
Drum beats reverberate all around,
As your feelings of sorrow start to sway.
Let that noire noise,
Turn you off,
To hear life through cloth.
Cymbal clashes echo like a voice,
As your thoughts of worry weaken your worth.
Let that sapphire silence,
Twist your arm,
To view life without violence.
Nothing speaks but your inner charm,
As your dreams of simple sin makes no sense.
Ex Nihilo (Out Of Nothing)Out of the shadows of nothing,Ex Nihilo (Out Of Nothing) in Free Verse More Like This
Sirens sing sweet songs of serenity,
In a ring under the remorseless rain,
Of those dawning tears of twilight,
Heralding the end of everything.
There's nothing here for me,
And all these scars scare me,
Eyes of eternity ensnare me.
Taking apart the skin of my suffocating soul,
For all my failings of fury are foul.
There's nothing here for me,
Though all my plain plagues me,
Seizures of sorrow saves me.
Playing with the hell in my healing heart,
Then all my despair of death will depart.
There's nothing here for me,
When all those things torment me,
Cries of confusion cement me.
Containing in the woe from my wailing wake,
Where all my feelings of fear I can't forsake.
If This Be My LastIf this be my last,If This Be My Last in Free Verse More Like This
I'd better scar the sordid skin,
With a blade cut flourishing fast.
I might not know where to begin,
But I'll end this loathsome life of sin.
If this be my last,
I'd better bruise the bloody bone,
With a hammer blow anguishing aghast.
I never believed this could happen,
But now here I stand with a knife sharpened.
If this be my last,
I'd better tear out the traumatic tendons,
With a scythe flash punishing past.
I could suffer so much internal pain,
But I'll always have these umbra urges again.
L' HirondelleQuand il regarde le ciel au-delà des nuages,L' Hirondelle in Free Verse More Like This
Je suis une hirondelle lovée dans le mirage
De ses yeux éclairés par les brumes océanes,
Déposant sur mes ailes une lueur diaphane.
Lorsque la nuit s'éveille, ses prunelles s'agrandissent
Vers un profond silence dans lequel je m'immisce,
Pour écouter son cur plus grand que l'univers
M'offrir sans restriction les clés de son mystère.
© Deedrane 2010
PASSAGE A VIDEPassage à vide,PASSAGE A VIDE in Free Verse More Like This
Je me dévide
Vers le ftal
Je vais renaître
A pas perdu
Et si l'aurore
De mon déni.
© Deedrane 2010
Tu ne me prendras plusTu ne me prendras plus dans tes collets tendus,Tu ne me prendras plus in Free Verse More Like This
Tu ne me prendras plus dans ta main qui m'émut,
Tu ne prendras plus comme un oiseau déchu,
Tu ne me prendras plus à mon cur détenu,
© Deedrane 2010
LE CHOIX D'AMELIEMon histoire est sans gloire et ma main est sans nom,LE CHOIX D'AMELIE in Free Verse More Like This
Offrez-vous mon épée et défiez ma passion.
Votre visage m'obsède dans la pure déraison :
Il devient ma folie, mon emblème, ma sanction.
J'ai vingt ans, mais de cent seront mes désespoirs
Ou bien l'éternité, car j'en ai le pouvoir.
Mon âme indestructible condamnée à l'errance
A suivi tous vos pas depuis votre naissance,
Je vous ai protégé puis aimé sans relâche,
De vos tournois galants j'ai méprisé la tâche
Dans l'incompréhension de ces choix subalternes,
Aux prétendants falots, sans aura et si ternes.
Vous ne m'entendez point : Je brule dans un enfer
Qui n'est en rien soumis à une damnation,
Sauf la votre peut-être, dont vous tenez les fers,
Et même Dieu que j'implore reste dans la discrétion.
Depuis des heures entières je vous regarde dormir
En embrassant vos lèvres qui s'ourlent dans un sourire.
Le TrainLe Train in Free Verse More Like This
Deux peaux enlacées qui s'étirent
Dans un cur à cur alangui,
Trésors dérobés d'une nuit
Sous la parenthèse d'un soupir,
Léger comme une soie sauvage
Dévoilant l'ambre d'un sillage.
Et dans l'aube qui se sépare,
Un train s'avance vers une gare...
© Deedrane 2010
SOUS SCELLESSOUS SCELLES in Free Verse More Like This
Alors c'est donc ainsi : on me vole mon histoire !
Et bien, pillez-la donc, offrez-vous ma mémoire
Pour construire vos taudis en mirage d'un château
Qui n'aura de concert que le vent en écho.
En chapardant ma vie, vous n'obtiendrez qu'un prisme
Dont le triste recel est vide de tout charisme
Et qui reflète le spectre de mon incarnation :
Elle ne s'animera pas sous vos incantations.
Une entité indemne se protège dans mon âme,
Et nul autre que moi n'en saisira la flamme.
La coupe du vainqueurLa coupe du vainqueur in Free Verse More Like This
Je saurai être douce, mais aussi pas trop sage,
Effrontée ou câline, j'en ferai mon langage,
Je choisirai les mots qui toucheront ton cur
Et je te ferai boire à la coupe du vainqueur.
© Deedrane 2010
La ChandelleTrop d'horizons pâlis pleurent encore sur ma main,La Chandelle in Free Verse More Like This
Mais pour vous qui partez, mon signe sera serein.
Sous la mélancolie de mes yeux dans la brume,
Une chandelle sera la compagne de ma plume.
© Deedrane 2010
Too many turned pale horizons still cry on my hand,
But for you who leave, my sign will be serene.
Under the melancholy of my eyes in the mist
A candle will be the partner of my rhymes
© Deedrane 2010
Le Tango du Bel EspoirTu dis des mots dans une écharpe,Le Tango du Bel Espoir in Free Verse More Like This
Des mots de soie, des mots d'amour,
Dont les frissons forment une harpe
Qui serait née dans du velours.
Je pose mes doigts, je pose mes lèvres
Sur les sillons de tes paroles,
Et tout mon cur gorgé de fièvre
Est sublimé par leur envol.
Un jour peut-être nos pas furtifs
Se trouveront dans une histoire,
En attendant nos frêles esquifs
Jouent le Tango du Bel Espoir.
© Deedrane 2010
Love MachineIpad, Ipod, gastéropodes :Love Machine in Free Verse More Like This
Mollusques bavant sur une mode,
Tous nos neurones clignotent à vide,
Electrisés par la succion
D'une hydre mettant en consomption
Nos regards fixes qui se dévident
Dans l'hypnotique appartenance
D'une illusion née de la science.
Machines couplées à la machine,
On désincarne la vie réelle
Dans la fusion qui s'achemine
Vers la béance du virtuel,
Alors qu'on danse « La Robotique »,
Souk insatiable et pathétique
Collé-serré avec des codes :
Ipad, Ipod, gastéropodes
© Deedrane 2010