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Had EnoughHey there. I don't normally come here to rant, but I have to get this off my chest somewhere. I'm sorry if this sounds bitchy, so please don't get mad at me.Had Enough in Personal More Like This
I've had enough of the way people around me keep threatening suicide. I swear, I've had a fourth freaking person I'm close to threaten suicide on me again and I can't stand it anymore!
Why don't people understand that life might not seem worth living at the moment, but nothing is more permanent than taking your own life. I know that everyone has a different situation they're going through, but you have to remember that life will eventually get better because you can hit rock bottom and bounce back because you can't fall any further than that. This past March I've seen what a suicide attempt has looked like and I never wanna have to go through that again - no it wasn't me for your information. For God's sake, everything might not seem like it's going according to how
Double Spoons (Fate)((this is a poem...made out of my childhood nightmares...and a little snippet of my childhood... it has sensitive material, suggesting molestation, murder and religion (kyrie means Lord in Latin...it's about the Protestant school I went to as a kid)))Double Spoons (Fate) in Personal More Like This
knock, knock, knock on the wood
corpses, tie them up real good
braid their hair together so they share
the same hairline, none to spare
aren't you glad I brought two spoons
now you can have some too
he gently sets me down
laying red petals on the ground
he tells me it's just a kiss
so don't ignore, cover or miss
I have tasted the pain and sweat
I have felt the rose red regret
ah, flutter high above the gentle seas
filled with corpses provided by me
kyrie, kyrie, kyrie, kyrie
Alice, Peter kyrie
Catherine, Gavin today's your day
Shannon, Grace kyrie
Karis, Alex come out to play
Adam, aren't you glad I brought two spoons
now we play over my eternal doom
This reminded me of you guysYou know we've all been through a lot here - the joy and the sorrows. And the comfort of friends. There have been arguments - mostly religious and political. And for that I am sorry. But still we love and reach out. I heard this quote and thought of all of you.This reminded me of you guys in Personal More Like This
"Ideologies separate us. Dreams and anguish bring us together."
Eugene Ionesco
Remember what brings us together and holds us, not what tears us apart.
FallingI told myself that i would never fall this hardFalling in Personal More Like This
I've kept my heart guarded most of my life
Then you came along, and i lost all control..
Your laugh is amazing
I get lost in your eyes
You treat me like i actually have a purpose
You make me feel like I'm in a perfect dream
Then, it turns to a nightmare as soon as you leave
I know that im just another girl
But if you give me a chance, i could be the best you've ever had
I would cry for you
Die for you
Commit any crime for you
My feelings for you are indescribable
And as I watched you walk out of my life, it seemed like silence
but the sound of my heart shattering rang for my ears alone
As warm tears streamed down my cheek
I realized
I was falling hard for you
But you wouldnt be there to catch me in the end
Another quote thing by me
How we FeelDuring the 70′s, mood rings were incredibly popular, it was used as a way to say “Hey Everyone! I am cool, this is how I feel”. The premise of a mood ring is that by using the temperature of the body, a color which corresponded to a feeling was displayed. I shall not delve into the science of it. The point I mean to make here is that at some point, (alas no longer) one could tell how another was feeling with sight alone. That is not the case today. We may wish we had a “cybermoodring” to let others know how we feel, truly feel.How we Feel in Personal More Like This
Paul Laurence Dunbar was a poet whose poem “We Wear the Mask” nicely makes this point:
“We wear the mask that grins and lies,
It hides our cheeks and shades our eyes-
This debt we pay to human guile;
with torn and bleeding hearts we smile”.
Is this not so true?!?! How many of us, for fear of being told to “Get over it”, for fear of being the nexus of ostracism do not reveal t
To start a movementInsomnia...wonderfully neurological disorder...coupled with horribly real nightmares and a superdeep introspective/pilosophical mood and you get me... I would like to thank each and every member of this group. especially the founder...I read your post about possibly closing down the blog a few minutes ago and I gotta say. what we got here is special. I used to dream of creating a place where all of us who felt outcast could come together. a place where those who were in pain could heal together. and I'm not ashamed to admit that this group has helped me so much. so much...anyway that little thank you aside...I don't feel emotion often. typically I see life from a clinical detachment. I see someone dying and think "hey they're dying" with no more emotion than I would notice that I need to buy more eggs at the grocery. So when I do feel emotion it is overwhelming. it rushes at me like a simoom, stripping flesh from bone and bone into dust. I feel positive emotion more rarely than I feelTo start a movement in Personal More Like This
PLEASE READ-Normal*This is a poem for all people who have been deeply affected by this society because they are abnormal. The main idea to this poem that you are normal and you should be proud of who you are; not what people or the media say. If anyone reads this; please remember these words. I'm not asking for feedback; I'm asking just to remember these words.PLEASE READ-Normal in Personal More Like This
What is normal or who is normal?
Is it in the man that uses women for his personal gain?
Is it in the woman that uses the man just for her to be wealthy?
Is it in the education system where they want you to believe in the so-called truth and not what you want to believe?
Is normal inside the packages of stuff that we all consume?
It's good to consume and it's good to have greed
But those things can also be a curse that you will have to pay
The price to pay of being normal
Is normal supposed to be women startving themselves to be beautiful?
Is normal supposed to be men overworking themselves and later gets hurt in the end?
Is normal in the reality
Forever - Real?I hate the word forever. I mean.. I don't hate it. It's just so.. frustrating to think about it! It's so mind boggling and I just don't get it. There isn't such thing! Right?Forever - Real? in Personal More Like This
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What is forever?
People often speak as "Forever untill the end." But Forever is Infinate.. Eternal, right? Forever means no end. But, there is Always an end. When I think of forever, I think of a circle... It's forever but it isn't, It's contained yet the outer edge of the circle keeps going. It just loops around. That is forever. Eternal.
But... How about space?
Technically, it's not possible for it to go on "Forever." What people mean by that is that the universe is constantly expanding. Which is to say that the end of the universe is constantly and steadily getting further away but is still in fact an end. Remember balance is the only thing that keeps everything intact. With every beginning there is an end.
But how can nothing have an end??
Forever... a possibly temporary illusion? A
Tear By TearRip by RipTear By Tear in Personal More Like This
Shred By Shred
Ill Tear You Apart An There's Nothing You Can Do
Ill Laugh As You Weep
Ill Sneer As You Whimper
Bow Before Your King
I Shall Own You Forever
I Will Kill You
I Will Always Hurt You
Ill Cut You An Torture You
But I Let You Go
I Give You Chances To Leave
I Hit You An Try To Chase You Away
You Come Back
I Continue To Hit An Cut An Scream
You Always Stay
I Control You
You Ask Who I Am
Why Don't You Know?
You've Dreamed For Me Every Day An Night
You Pray To Your Precious God You'll Find Me One Day
I'm Your Dream Come True
I'm Your Worst Night Mare Come To Life
I Am You
You Want Me
You Always Have
An Always Will
Still Don't Know Me?
I Am The One You Look At An Become Foolish
Dumb
Stupid
Weak
You Fall To Your Knees An Scream For Me
I
Am
Your True Love
Go the fuck to hell If I hear from you againGo the fuck to hell in Personal More Like This
I'll get a steak knife and I will slit your neck
with all due respect
you deserve nothing less,
A bad thought in your head
I'll burn the whole body so there is nothing left
bleach out my DNA, there'll be no evidence
and that's what'll happen if you
bitch to me again
Monthly Giveaway: MarchUPDATE: Winners have been picked for this month. #287: =WarriorCatMaster and #162: `SavageFrogMonthly Giveaway: March in Contests More Like This
April will NOT have a giveaway, instead, I am hosting two contests. One is a comment contest , and the other is a friendship contest( http://rainylake.deviantart.com/journal/Rainy-Rampage-Critique-Contest-361940089 ) , ( http://rainylake.deviantart.com/journal/New-Contest-Friendship-357172249) I think my giveaways will be officially discontinued and instead will be replaced with actual contests. Stay tuned for more updates.
------------------------------------------Hey all. I've decided to start doing monthly giveaways (for the time being). Every month you will have a chance at a different prize (points, premiums, dA gear etc). Winners will be chosen on the last day of every month, and the new giveaway announced on the first of each month with the winners from the previous giveaway. Please be sure to read through this entire journal for info on how
Monthly Giveaway: February-CLOSEDCLOSED! Winners will be announced soon.Monthly Giveaway: February-CLOSED in Contests More Like This
Hey all. I've decided to start doing monthly giveaways (for the time being). Every month you will have a chance at a different prize (points, premiums, dA gear etc). Winners will be chosen on the last day of every month, and the new giveaway announced on the first of each month with the winners from the previous giveaway. Please be sure to read through this entire journal for info on how to enter.
Prizes:
This month, 2 winners will receive 1,000 points!
Rules:
You must fave this journal entry and comment to enter. You can only be entered once a month.
You don't need to watch me. I find it somewhat strange that people do this for just one journal and then unwatch. Please only watch me if you like my work/articles. Your chance of winning is not affected if you do or if you don't.
No point accounts, or plz accounts
Accounts must be at least one month old to be eligible and must b
Coming Eventually: The Writer's DLC PacksI've been studying writing for ages, and I've been trying to "crack the code" behind how in not just how it works, but how to teach it to other people. The normal method is just telling them, "Well, you got your protagonist, your antagonist, and they do stuff for three acts until it rises to a climax, and there's a theme behind it all." But then this just results in your normal bad stories because nobody has a sense of how to start, how to write a middle, or where to stop. Other methods are essentially, "I have a decent theory of how story works, but IT'S COMPLETELY INCOMPATIBLE WITH ANYTHING ELSE SO YOU SHOULD ONLY LISTEN TO MEEEE!!!" This method destroys your flexibility, some gurus are just wrong, and many theories can be combined.Coming Eventually: The Writer's DLC Packs in Personal More Like This
Rather, I am developing a writing course that details storytelling techniques over the ages, how they work, why they work, and how to use them. The biggest problem with writing is that everyone tries imitating everyone else's techniques, but they never kn
The Four Touhou OCs: A look at Original CharactersUpdated November 2, 2012: Added excuses 11-13, changed some of the language.The Four Touhou OCs: A look at Original Characters in Personal More Like This
I've been getting a boat-load of messages lately about stories "inspired" by Diamond In The Rough, and by "inspired," I mean 20% drawing ideas from (like ChibiChen's rather nice "Mind The Gap" fic) and 80% blatantly ripping off (these fics are mostly unpublished to my knowledge because they never make it past my criticisms). Also in the wake of DitR and the riff I co-opped with Stevothehuman about Lost In Gensokyo is militant anti-Gappy tendencies. I write this to put to rest some concerns about Touhou OCs, address some issues that many people have overlooked, and perhaps inspire others in the ways DitR or Lost In Gensokyo did or did not.
There are four kinds of Touhou OCs:
1. Outsiders
2. Natives
3. Outsider Sues/Stus
4. Native Sues/Stus
The first two are good. The second two are bad if unintentional and good if taken apart like in DitR or Mind The Gap.
Detailed:
1. Outsiders: Characters who hav
Here, have a DNA dump.So, there've been a lot of instances of people asking for various peoples' DNAs lately, so I'm gonna go ahead and compile a list of the DNAs of the people currently in the main station wagon skype group to save some time and such (with some names edited to remove any confusions). Feel free to post your DNA in the comments.Here, have a DNA dump. in Personal More Like This
3.39:Kay:100:215:260:243:211:14:0:51:0:0:0:472500
3.39:init.d:100:143:151:245:171:27:0:11:0:1:61:00004E (htfkid2000)
3.39:Spaz:100:225:134:216:209:2:0:0:0:136:0:42250D
3.39:Tan:100:315:214:327:228:109:0:0:98:0:0: B79871
3.39:NuclearFalcon:100:247:170:243:120:13:0:0:0:0:115:472900
3.39:NinjaSteve:100:196:170:324:126:109:0:11:0:93:0:947252
3.39:Stevo:100:0:192:279:3:101:54:79:0:15:0:654321
3.39:MiniWitch3:100:3:199:245:96:3:0:0:110:0:107:283960
3.39:Vic:100:215:252:245:171:3:0:0:0:111:0:1F1F1F
3.39:Noraneko Sparks:100:70:148:27:89:13:15:79:10:113:10:774000
3.39:RyuKenshin:61:0:180:239:255:109:4:8:135:0:44:C0C0C0
3.39:Hisison:100:0:137:197:120:14:83:0:0:0:21:FBFF6C
3.39
Run The Opposite Wayhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K-7GfUETdEoRun The Opposite Way in Personal More Like This
Living in the same town
For all these years
Doing the same old things
Hanging with the same crowd
And it's starting to get crippling
You've never felt in place
And you tell yourself it's all okay
But something's different today
You want to run the opposite way
And it seems like you're locked in a cage
And you need to find a way of escape
When everyone is setting the pace
It's okay to run the opposite way
The Father sent His Son down
The light of men
The cross He bore was crippling
Rejected in His own town
They couldn't see the Son shining
He knelt in the garden and prayed
Father, let this cup pass from me
It's not Your will for me to stay
Your will for me is the opposite way
And it seemed like He was locked in a cage
And He couldn't find a way of escape
But through the cross He conquered the grave
My Jesus ran the opposite way
Oh, and through the cross He conquered the grave
Oh, He ran the opposite way
Yeah, through the cross He conquered the
Special Prayers to special someone.."God you are the mightiest and the most sublime of them all,please protect and Watch over this innocent soul.You reach whoever you want to be reached i beg you out of your mercy to have their pain released and get them relieved.Let The treatment be fast and please answer what i ask.As you redeem,have their bodies purged and clean god Bless them with your courtesy and i invoke you to allow your kindness be seen."........Special Prayers to special someone.. in Personal More Like This
{~~~Some questions about my art?~~~}Ask me here, don't be shy{~~~Some questions about my art?~~~} in Personal More Like This
I want to know, what do you want to know about me and my art.
Don't worry if your questions will be repeated by others.
Aaand I came back to my computer!I need to draw something, right?
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My birthday.Well last year my birthday was not all that great and every part of me wants this years to be better. Whenever my friends had a birthday i would do something. I'd go all out. A person shouldnt do a nice deed and expect anything for doing it,i know this, but I just want the same courtesy. I want to feel like my friends care to do something for my birthday, cause in past circumstances, it hasnt worked out favorably whatsoever. But my gut tells me thats not gonna be the case. Its just hard not to get your hopes up, after you put in all this thought and effort into making their day of birth great, to hope they'd do the same. Well, I guess we will see. This is just gonna be a test to see what I should do for them when next year comes. And to see if they actually care.My birthday. in Personal More Like This
Friday Favorites -- November #15This week's theme is "Autumn".Each of these artworks was chosen by one of our admins, who also gave a brief explanation of how these artworks fit the theme for this week.Friday Favorites -- November #15 in Personal More Like Thisby *KyleWilcoxVisualArt
"The colours and the gesture of this work reminds me of autumn's rain."by *RaelXArts
"These are like the colors of autumn. And I love how the bottom of her dress looks like small pumpkins. It also makes me think on Halloween! This chibi is soooo cute and a very well done piece. "by ~Kineil-Wicks
"I love the carefree and cheerful feeling this painting conveys, showing that although summer has ended, yet there is still much to look forward to!"by ~aliendroid
"To me, this artwork shows how autumn can also be associated with melancholy and loneliness."by *AnnaArmona
"This piece is incredibly well done. It suggests the short moment when the trees are caug
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