Heaven is miserable without you.
With a toy robot in my hand, I walked to Valentine's house. I stood as tall as I could on my tippy-toes and rung the door bell. To my surprise my friend did not answer it. Her grey eyes blankly stared at me. Valentine strolled over to us, placing an arm around the toddler. They looked nearly identical! He grinned widely and introduced me to her. No words came from her, until she uttered her name. We hung out a lot after. My best friend didn't mind. I actually liked her. She had a pretty smile and long hair. She liked me too.
I can't begin to describe this place to you, but I'll start with the way I know how. The ground, appears to be white cotton against our feet. Happiness is a feeling that you can't help but be surrounded in all around endlessly. Everyone is garbed in white and gold, even silver. The sun shines brightly on us, even when the night is slowly seeping in as it is right now. I see all the others that have passed on. How can I be so unhappy? I cannot help it. Just look to the sky and smile so I can be happy.. Just once
We were eight, sitting on the couch watching cartoons. A sleepy demeanour covered my sister's pale face. Her eyes drooped and her head rested on her boyfriend's chest. I still remembered when they were five. It was at that age they were already seen as a couple. I couldn't believe they lasted that long. The corner of her lips tugged into a smile, as if she had not a care in the world. Suddenly, her eyes flickered at me. "Why Tokyo Mew Mew?" A smile grazed her lips as she drew her white-haired boyfriend closer.
There are children playing with others. Their smiles are so heart-warming and so innocent. Every time I see them, Kyle and Sunny, even Ainsley run across my mind. How are they? I miss hugging them and laughing as they tried to jump up to get the candy off the counter. While everyone hugs me tightly, I smile softly. I can't help but to be reminded of your embrace. I miss your touch. I miss you
It was summer time. The sound of my brother calling me old was too apparent in the background.. I could also hear a certain raven haired girl giggling with him. She kissed his cheek and chortled more. "You're going to be in trouble!" I stood slowly and approached the two. The smaller girl hid behind the male. She peeked her head, whispering something to me. I could see them take each other's hand and race off before I could say a word. The young couple had rushed away.
There is love floating in the warm air. Everyday I see lovers embracing each other and marriage ceremonies. I see old boyfriends and girlfriends kissing and cooing 'I love you'. I see so much amorousness and affection between everyone. I see others just dying for another hug. It's like if they let go, they'd lose them forever. When they would kiss, I could see it could be ever lasting. Were you ever afraid to let me go? I was afraid, because I loved you so much..
Where was Tyler and Vera? I puffed my cheeks out. One of them was supposed to help me to come up with a theme for my next party! I spotted some gray hair. Thinking it was Tyler, I walked in, only to be disappointed. I huffed, frustrated. "Ryo, where the heck is Tyler and Vera?" He merely pointed out to Taylor's house. "Doing something they shouldn't be." I saw and got exactly what he meant. My face twisted in disgust as Ryo continued to speak, "Fourteen-year-olds shouldn't have sex."
I realized, only the happy ones should be here. Why am I still here then? All the bad times start come to me now. Maybe, I really am happy on the inside. Like, all those years. Remember? I could hear my heart break but feel, more complete after. I could love you more then, but I can't say I love less now. Don't share the bad times. Let us just reminisce in the good scenes
I could hear a car back out of the Aphrodite's driveway. A tear-stricken face could be seen on Vera as she drove away, bags in her back seat. Tyler could be seen, walking back home. He didn't seem too happy. Slowly, I walked outside to talk to Valentine. He told me that those two were over. Nearly one year of a good relationship, and it's erased with one mistake, he retold. I didn't get it. Those two seemed so happy yesterday. It's so odd.. But nothing lasted forever.
We slumber in heaven. However, I haven't slept in a couple of days, since I am drowning in chilling nostalgia. You know that they let you bring one thing up here. I fidget the golden ring around my finger, knowing that this is the only thing I have from you. I never lose it, for I never take it off. You can take yours off and be happy without me. Just remember I'm lying here, awake, hollow thoughts fill my sadden head of love, or what it was to me.
It had been nearly two years since the two were even seen happy together. Only once when she had fallen asleep on his bed, and she hadn't come to her senses yet. But it would have been their twelfth year together. Only, it was finally completion of their tenth year together. On this very day, two years ago, they were heart-broken and sore. Vera looked over at me. "Have fun, Dia!" Her hair was chopped to her shoulders, and a smile spread across her face. Things felt back in order at this point.
Back then, when I couldn't stand being half a year being away from you, hardly ten minutes, how could I possibly last so long now? It was New Year's. I couldn't believe myself that I was back there. My heart felt better, but I am back to that empty feeling in my chest. Everyday, getting more dejected. How much more can I take? Even though everyone back home needs you, I'll stay silent so they'll be joyous. The last thing I wish for is to be selfish for wanting you here with me.
Frozen tears descended from the sad sky down in California. I had been sitting here, in the cold snow. I knew there was a surprise this, and I couldn't wait. Luca held my hand, trying to keep warm. This weather wasn't typical here. The clock hit midnight as I could here a few things from inside. Like, Vera and Tyler sitting at the dinner table together. I heard a silent question and Vera nearly yell, "Yes! I will marry you, Tyler!" Everyone knew she really planned on proposing to him. Luca sighed. "There goes a peaceful New Years."
Darkness dawns my mind every moment. When I thought you wouldn't be happy with Sunny, I was nervous and frantic. I feel so much the same, except, I feel like I won't be all right anymore. I know everything would be OK at the end, but I wish I was there already. I wish I could be there right beside you instead of a new girl. Well, are you dating a new girl? I haven't seen with all my jealousy. But I can't be selfish. I know, it's for our best sakes. I'm sorry, I just love you so much, I can't help but envy all the others that are better than me at everything.
A new member of Tyler and Vera's household was brought home after a few days. All of us were waiting to congratulate the two. As soon as they all came home, everyone jumped up to surprise them. She simply greeted us cheerfully and sat down. I took the seat beside her. "Luca, I named him Sunny because I thought of you." I never understood if she was being sarcastic or not. Either way. The look in her eyes appeared as if life suffocated her. Her smile masked it well, but only I could see pass the façade to such melancholy.
After being awake for so long, I grow ever so tired. The night falls down here once again and I am going to finish this finally. I love you, and the darkness is finally putting me to rest. I love you, I love you, I love you. I will never be too far away from you. I'll always miss you. Please make sure that Kyle and Sunny and Ainsley are happy. I don't want you or them to be unhappy. I don't want to be selfish. I'm sure another person is out there for you. I watch over all of them kids. They even said that the right one is out there that's been waiting for you love.
Tears fell from my face. Kyle and Sunny tried to hold back tears. They smiled sadly and said together, "Good night, mommy." I couldn't be the only one sadder. As others filed out of the cathedral, the kids followed them. Kyle held Ainsley delicately as he sped away. I was going to go myself, but I felt something stop me. A light figured stood before me, wings on her back and a white attire sporting her. I felt warm lips press on mine. "Good Bye Tyler, I love you." I forced a sad smile back. "I love you too, Vera. Good bye," Her glowing figure refused to turn around from me. We shared our last smile good bye, as tears fell from her big, grey eyes.
Good night and sweets dreams.
Love forever and always,