WELL[Edit] How rude >:I She deactivated her account before I could even speak to her.......rudeWELL in Personal More Like This
Idk what the problem is here
Why's everyone getting mad at her?
dear people who use <sub> all the timeWai? :Udear people who use <sub> all the time in Personal More Like This
Wai all deh time? :U
Wai not just sometimes? :U
Does it look better for you?
It just looks small to me :U
people are rubbing the garry model in my faceits not fair...people are rubbing the garry model in my face in Personal More Like This
I need/want to watch this ;A;http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vTj1-Bu4PWEI need/want to watch this ;A; in Personal More Like This
So THAAAATS why yaoi fans like yaoi :Dhttp://youtu.be/T0hSLxRU-t8?t=5sSo THAAAATS why yaoi fans like yaoi :D in Personal More Like This
Makes SO. MUCH. SENSE! 8D
god damn loki fan girlsnow I think Loki's hotgod damn loki fan girls in Personal More Like This
thanks a bunch
I wish my videos came out like thishttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EEYhT8MdF6kI wish my videos came out like this in Personal More Like This
HOLY.....SHIThttp://saphirenishi.deviantart.com/gallery/HOLY.....SHIT in Personal More Like This
THIS GALLERY GUIZE
welllllll (im soooo sorry)i peomised someonewelllllll (im soooo sorry) in Personal More Like This
that is....when we were friends
that i would make a hoshi model in TDA form
i guess it doesnt really matter now // FORGIVE ME HIJI-SAMA for being so dishonest ; n ;
and well um
i still have to make some children and selfies for my friends
so after tests imma get on that
but for now
i need a hug ; n ;
im sitll really sorry hiji, how someday you can forgive me
VALENTINESWHERE EVERYONE IS IN LOVE , i dun celebrate valentines day uwu only when people really want me to be their valentine (almost every fucking year ;lkjb;lrlnk;k;qlnkb SCREW U FRIIIIIENDS) aaaaaanyway I KNOW WHO MAI TWINSIES' VALENTINES R GONNA BEEEEE HOHOHOHOHOHOOOOOOOO OUIOUUUUUUIIIIII I SEE :iconiseeplz:VALENTINES in Personal More Like This
GASP! KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASARAI GOT ME A MIKUO SHIMEJIIIII >WGASP! KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA in Personal More Like This
WOMEN ARE HUMANSI AM RAGING TODAY BECAUSE OF WHAT I HEARD OVER THE RADIO, REPOST THIS BECAUSE I AM SO PISSED ABOUT THIS THE WORLD JUST HAS TO KNOW:WOMEN ARE HUMANS in Personal More Like This
you always see comercials about "end violence against women" or "beating or sexual abuse to girls is wrong" nee?
well hear me out on this
i heard on the radio that every 16 seconds a girl is raped in South africa , Africa is the most populated place for raping of girls, they say there is nothing wrong with it but EVERYTHING is wrong with it. they say that when they rape them they expect marriage after the rape, they admit to raping with no shame , they rape to own the women they rape to marry them, and the women have no say in this, they just kneel down and ready to be raped
well I am maybe JUST a girl, but I KNOW when something is ot right. dont force people into marriage then what kind of man are you? dont rape people and be proud of it , how can u live with yourself? seriously.....girls are crying all like now at this time while people are c
does anyone knooooowwhere i can find an awesome art programme to draw wiiiiiiith? i want to draw AWESOMELYdoes anyone knooooow in Personal More Like This
Gimp isnt really good for drawing soooooooo =w=
does anyone knoooooow? :iconbegplz:
i ammmmmmmmmmmGONNA DO A DOUBLE MEME WITH EVERY SINGLE PERSON THAT IS MA FRAIND! I ALSO FOUND A TRIPLE MEME WE CAN DO TOOOOOO 8Di ammmmmmmmmmm in Personal More Like This
for the triple meme i pik to do it with Katey and Kara :3
and THE OTHER MEMES R AWESOOOOOOOOOME 8D SOOOO THERE IS ENUFF FOR ALL MA FRAAINDS YAAAAAAAAAAY LET US MEME NOOOOOOW XD
( im hyper on marshmallows today sowwy OuO AND STRAWBERRYYYYYYS X3 )
Nyan~!I got tagged by la awesome :iconangelicecream97:Nyan~! in Personal More Like This
1. Pick on of your OC's.
2. Fill in the questions/statements as if you were your OC.
3. Tag four people to do this meme!
4. Tell the people they have been tagged.
(Going by the storyline in Tenshitsuji/Himeshitsuji~)
~im gonna act like a tsundere for this one 8D~
1. What is your name?
~sigh~ What a drag do i HAVE to do this? Not like its any of your bussiness but im Ichigo Nachi
2. Do you know why you were named that?
Some demon from the Abyss gave me that name since when i was little i killed my parents, ~shrugs~
3. Are you single or taken?
~moans~ YEEESS I AM SINGLE AND GET THAT CAMERA FROM OUT OF MY FACE WHAT DA FAWK MAN
4. Sorry.Have any abilities or powers?
I am a\one of the Cheif demons of the realm, What do you think?i have all the abilities of every demon known
5. Stop being a Mary-Sue!
~gets up~ DO YOU WANT THIS ROOM TO BE THE LAST FAWKING ROOM YOU WILL SEE IN YOUR CHEAP ASS LIFETIME BITCH?
oh....my.....GEEEEEEERSH I HAS RETURNED BIATCHESSSSSSSSSS :iconexciteddummyplz:oh....my..... in Personal More Like This
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE AND I HAS THE TABLET TOOO
NOW I SHALL TAKE OVER THE WOOOOOOOORLD MWUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAA
READY FOR SOME STAGES!? SPECIAL STAGE TOO!-UPDATE---Update--READY FOR SOME STAGES!? SPECIAL STAGE TOO!-UPDATE- in Personal More Like This
I am now converting my share of stages,once all the stages are converted I will start to upload them AFTER I get back from dinner :3 (yay Chinese food xD) and throughout the night.
----SPECIAL STAGES!!! GIVEAWAY SEPT 22 2012!!---
The special stages are being converted again I have a few new stages to add to it i;ll have the usual giveaway for people who havent gotten it before or my new watchers. like always they are ultra rare and ami exclusive stages you wont find anywhere else but hear! so get it while you can!!
EVERYTHING GOES DOWN AFTER DINNER!
A BIG SHOUTOUT TO :iconkaahgome: !! for helping me convert half these stages to .PMD files making it TWICE AS FAST!!
we got A LOT of stages coming up so be ready!
not to mention its ALMOST time for the SPECIAL STAGES GIVEAWAY (Sept 22 2012) WITH A NEW STAGE OR TWO
WHATS FIRST YOU ASK!!??
SO BE READY!
WHOS READY FOR SOME STAGES!??A BIG SHOUTOUT TO :iconkaahgome: !! for helping me convert half these stages to .PMD files making it TWICE AS FAST!!WHOS READY FOR SOME STAGES!?? in Personal More Like This
we got A LOT of stages coming up so be ready!
not to mention its ALMOST time for the SPECIAL STAGES GIVEAWAY (Sept 22 2012) WITH A NEW STAGE OR TWO
WHATS FIRST YOU ASK!!??
SO BE READY!
Guess what I learned how to do.So I found this wonderful program that actually lets you convert 3D Custom Girl pose data to MMD Pose Data :3Guess what I learned how to do. in Personal More Like This
So I thought of some pose packs
1 - default poses
2 - cute poses
3 - sexy poses (Yes,come on you guys know me )
and anything else.
About the jewerly packOkay guys just to clerifyAbout the jewerly pack in Personal More Like This
Jewerly = shiny,pretty,stones,beads etc
Lolita jewerly = lace,ribbons,chockers,anime,desu/kawaii stuff
So dont expect lolita jewrely in the jewerly pack xD
MAGIC PACK (hopefully) COMING SOON :0Yeah so I finally clicked on a MOD that has a Japanese name (which usually im scared to click thoe cause those are the scary ones xD) and it was a HUGE COLLECTION of magical effectsMAGIC PACK (hopefully) COMING SOON :0 in Personal More Like This
so hopefully if they convert right I will post them
i've had trouble converting see-through/image file mods a lot but I hope this will work
Hears a good question.admit it. rather its Yaoi,Yuri or Hentai (18+)Hears a good question. in Personal More Like This
we've all had our fair share in
pictures (may they be MMD or drawn or whatever)
some of us arnt 18..
so hears a good qustions
we all know child porn is illegal.
BUT WHAT IF.
someone under the age of 18 makes hentai drawing or whatevers
none of which containing real people (aka all drawings and fictional)
BUT ALL characters depicted are 18 or over and DO NOT contain ANYTHING related to the creator.
Is that still illegal? hmm..
FFFF I NEED THIS MODEL NOA!!http://www.pixiv.net/member_illust.php?mode=medium&illust_id=29847826 I NEEEEDDD ITTTT! XDDDFFFF I NEED THIS MODEL NOA!! in Personal More Like This
sadly though they havent gave it out yet :c
Yo its all good!Shiny3dcustomgirl is okay ^^ he/she is very nice and forgave me and I forgive himYo its all good! in Personal More Like This
everything is great ^^
Why I havent been uploading 3DCG stuffOkay so, I havent been uploading 3DCG parts latelyWhy I havent been uploading 3DCG stuff in Personal More Like This
so I got contacted by a Japanese (shiny3dcustomgirl)user who discovered I didnt credit them they told me to credit them I did (they even made a blog entry telling me to credit them how embarrassing! >.
Vanven dayCAN I GET YOUR ATTENTION WITH THE TITLE OF THIS ENTRY? YES? OKAY. lol I love to get attention with my journal's titles XD.Vanven day in Personal More Like This
Anyway, only 4 days for my OTP's day = u = (and the end of the world, yes) and things should be done!! I'm going to do something for that day, probably a little comic but I'm not sure, after this day I'll finish my to do list for real ; - ; I'm so sorry for making my close friends wait so long QAQ, I owe things to Sora and I feel so stupid for not doing them //:iconlazycryplz:// but I also miss her a lot on here, hope her exam goes okay for her QuQ.
I'll try to finish the stuffs I've promised to her and make the kiriban prizes I owe, I'm trying to enjoy my holidays as much as I can since I'm always stressed because of my family issues like having a big brother than mine would ever make me feel happy (he is always pushing me to do what the hell he wants for me...)
I have to confess that I spend a lot of time on Tumblr, yeah, I switch places once in a while, sometime
Sorry another rant...read if you care.Sorry for the massive journals lately but ... I kinda feel bad now. No, no one on deviantart or another any page did something bad to me.Sorry another rant...read if you care. in Personal More Like This
It's a family issue now .__.
I thought I would feel okay next day but no, I'm still grumpy and annoyed, also sad, I shouldn't let this to make me feel this way but sometimes we can't help and feel bad emotions or feelings.
Yesterday I was talking with my dad about the issue of our cat (the younger cat is ill and he needs to be feed by a pill everyday) I was explaning him some things and I have the bad habit to talk loud but that doesn't mean that I'm yelling or complaning, no, I have that natural habit from my mom (she was used to do the same) and well, guess what? my brother appear from nowhere to ask to my dad (he basically ignored me) why I was complaning/discussing to him.
I tried to talk but he said.
"you can talk to me when you get a job"
I just---what the hell, what kind of excuse is that? I tried, I tried to talk and I said "have a da
; 3 ; ...Before leaving to go sleep I wanted to thank everyone ; v ; for today . . .; 3 ; ... in Personal More Like This
you guys are amazing :iconchuplz:!
I love you so damn muuuch <333
Thank you to > 3
I dunno.well, since deviantart is the only place I can expect help or advices I'll write my issues on here, no, isn't from real life it's something more personal and about my tastes and such.I dunno. in Personal More Like This
Maybe this is might be silly for you so you can skip this journal if you want.
I'll be direct, it's about my otp and I don't know what to do with my feelings anymore.
I said a while ago on Tumblr about it and I thought that it was just "something it would get better by just passing the days" but I think it's more serious that I've thought :l
I started to think to close askvanven or give it away to someone else.
I started to think to stop uploading my vanven art on tumblr, which i hardly do now//upload drawings.
I started to think...I dont' deserve to draw them anymore.
why? I can't understand, I tried and tried, yet the negative thoughts get flowing on my mind and it's a sad feeling that I've been building those feelings for almost 3 weeks now... at first I considered this a huge art block or idk...
Project listI think that it would be nice to do an list of my current projects and artworks, also to add my to do list at the moment so you can know on what am I working at the moment and what I'm not working at the moment orz.Project list in Personal More Like This
I'll update this journal a few times in a while when I have something new to add or strike as "done"
(it's kinda late now but I won't have another time to do so...)
Pairing/s: Vanitas x Ventus
Chapters: 1) Sweets
Pairing/s: Vanitas x Ventus
Chapters: Chapter 1 (Part 1 | Part 2)
Darker Than Black
Oh greatSometimes I don't get people...by all means, I don't get why they have to be rude.Oh great in Personal More Like This
One thing is trying to cheer up the author to keep updating, inspire them to move on.
Another different to rant about the way they work or just giving a rude advice.
I mean, okay I understand why readers get excited and they want an update, it means that they love what you write but... seriously? asking an author to delete their own stories because you don't update them anymore? what kind of review is that? you don't incentive authors to write more if you comment that way.
I have to say, I wanted to write lightless as a fanfiction, 4 chapters, exactly the same as the comic but with more details since I love writing but you guys know me, I prefer drawing which I think I'm better than writing...I didn't get a review when sometimes it kind of kill my mood to write again but I recover myself really fast, I mean, it's nice to get reviews, with one i'm happy i think you guys get excited when you receive
I'm not used to this...I just... well, I'm active again but I can't deal with all the messages...but at least I'm not distracted by Tumblr like before, that's good I guessI'm not used to this... in Personal More Like This
because I was used to stay there a lot because I didn't want to spam my personal things here so I forgot about Deviantart for a whileI will be able to reply everything faster, I won't be lazy like before :'D so please, wait for my answers!!!
I'm glad to be here again QuQ I've missed everybody so much, I'm glad that I could talk to =TouchMySitar today, it's been a while since I've talked to her and it makes me happy to see her, also thank you so much for my icon, I really love it ;u;.
I would like to see =RunningFromTime like I do with Sora, I really miss her buuh, but I'll try to
stalkspam her when she isn't on to remind her that I love Roxy the same way I love Sora haha /shot.
About my projects and stuffs... I'll try to finish lightless once and for all since that's the best
hm...Yeah...sorry if I annoy you with my journal lately but I have some questions to tell, it won't be a long journal though.hm... in Personal More Like This
I started to wonder...maybe it's just my stupid imagination but I'm a freaking sensitive girl with the bad habit to "sense" when someone/something feels/seems odd around me...not necessary goes towards me, sometimes I provoke the situation but isn't my fault but I kinda feel a bit bad if I provoked something I didn't want to.
I don't want to overthink or be paranoid so I want to know: am I bugging someone with my actitude, words or whatever I've said or I did until now?
You probably will say "you shouldn't care if it's about people you don't know" but sadly I feel like towards my friends. Maybe it's because I'm feeling a bit unsecure for what happened but--- I dunno, what do you think about me...?
I had a wonderful weekend, I forgot all my problems until now...was nice though.
Thanks :33333Thank you so much to those who commented in my looooong entry c': you made me so happy and I felt way better after reading your comments ;w; I'll reply to you later, today I'm going to my friend's house QuQ I miss her a lot...Thanks :33333 in Personal More Like This
Also thanks to those who gave me a lot of hugs in the other journal, I know some of my friends doesn't know what to say me when something happens to me xD but it's okay, I love you even if you don't know what to say to me.
I have to admit that somehow I wish I could get...---nevermind.
Thank you a lot, I love you my dearies~ I truly believe that I belong here, I fit in this place with you guys, and I'm so happy to be here <3
I don't wanna be popular on deviantart or being noticed by awesome people, I only want to be noticed for my friends and my family.
I'm just happy with all of you ;w; ... I draw expressing my feelings, my happiness, sadness, sorrow, angry, all those type of emotions and showing who I really am, I only want to share my passion for drawing an
-Thanks for your concern guys c': I'm better now.- in Personal More Like This
I don't want misunderstandings so I'll explain a bit better what happened to me.
I won't give names, they haven't any fault of my personality... if I can't handle it, I just take my time to calm down myself.
Alone, probably I shouldn't take all the burden alone but it's mine after all and I'm the only one who can overcome it.
I don't blame any of my friends, I don't hate them, they didn't hurt me.
Sometimes I hate being like this, when I'm irritated things can get me really easily and in that moment, I try to avoid contact with those who mean a lot to me because I know that my instinct wants me to warm them...or get a fight with them.
I don't enjoy that, I hate that...I somehow feel related to Vanitas when things like this happens, and I hate myself for being like this.
I'm not a wonderful person, nice or a good friend when I'm like this...yeah, it's part of myself and I accept it, even if I don't like it, I'
Lenses LensesHey everyone.Lenses Lenses in Personal More Like This
I have good and bad news for whoever is interested. Bad news first, I guess. I busted my kit lens (Nikon Nikkor 18-55mm). Well not really busted - and I don't believe I was careless or anything. I just had it mounted to my D5100 body while carrying it in my bag and riding a tram. What happened is that the outermost part - the one with the focus ring and the lens opening got skewed because of obvious pressure that was put on it. Skewed meaning that if extended further it did not extend normally but a little like the leaning tower of Pisa. Additionally, the zoom ring wasn't smooth anymore if zoomed but got harder tu turn at 35 and 25mm. At first, I didn't realize the damage's extent because it was still fully functional despite the optical appearance. But when I took a couple pictures I noticed that one side of the image was out of focus while the most other areas were in focus. And now the focus ring won't snap in anymore if I set it to autofocus but it will let me turn it
Thank YouHey everyone.Thank You in Personal More Like This
I feel like some of you might think I don't care about es anymore but I do. I cherish each and every I get and I'm extremely glad that you like my pictures. It's just that I feel a standard wall post of "hey there thx for the (es)" is a lot of work - and I hope this does not sound arrogant. It's just I'm getting lots of es lately and I'm sad I don't have the time to reply to each in an individually texted manner. However, I do check out every profile. (But scrolling down to the comments section is often hard work to - so I've resorted to giving llamas as a thank you).
Otherwise, I'm very happy about every pageview, llama, and most of all about every . I have reached more than 250 watchers and I feel the more I get, the less interaction and communication with every single one I can have. Some of you I got to know a little and I like what I know but lots of you I don't know at all except for seeing the username occasionally
Jet LagI've been home now - home being in Europe - for 3 days and the jet lag won't go away. It is almost half past 6 and I am still awake. I tried to sleep but it just won't happen yet. My goal is to fight a 9 hour difference jet lag from California. I can't sleep during the night and don't have the motivation to stay awake during the day since the only thing I really have to do is finish my masters thesis. Which I should actually do. But since I'm awake all night I figured I could edit a couple photos from the Nor Cal trip I took before I flew back home. And there are lots of pics I want to edit and it takes some time to go through all the photos and find the special ones. So I'm going over my photo folders and the ones I did so far are mostly from Yosemite (a couple more to follow) and from the San Francisco Flower Conservatory.Jet Lag in Personal More Like This
I figured I was going to talk about the parts of the trip according to which photographs I edit when. So here goes. I went to the Flower Conservatory in the mornin
Nor CalI'm still on my trip across California but I'm headed back South to San Diego again. The major stops were Los Angeles (going through there again), a foggy Big Sur, Monterey, Santa Cruz, San Francisco, and Yosemite NP. And the whole trip up north was scenic highways along the coast. I've taken sooo many pictures! It's gonna take a while to look through them and choose on which to edit and upload. A couple are up already so go ahead and look at them.Nor Cal in Personal More Like This
Photography Feature, May 2012I've been thinking about doing a feature for quite a while now and right now I feel like actually doing it. I won't brabble about details to save space and time - I'll just say I think there are lots of great deviants who haven't been noticed as much as I feel they deserve to. So let's call this a try to show off some of my favorite artwork.Photography Feature, May 2012 in Art Features More Like This
The topic is photography. It's that simple. I didn't even give the categorizing many thoughts. They're just like objects and elements > nature (plants) > nature (plants and animals) > nature (animals) > people and portraits. Feel free to view (click on) any of them, collect them, them, or any of the artists.
Keeps TurningHey everyone.Keeps Turning in Personal More Like This
Now that we know that the totally serious world ending predictions (or rather misinterpretations) were completely not true I hope everyone's fine and having a good time. I also hope everyone of you is at best health and happy.
Nothing new from my side. Except a couple new photos.
10,000 PageviewsHey guys.10,000 Pageviews in Personal More Like This
As you might have guessed I've reached 10,000 pageviews and that in just under 7 months. This is amazing! Most people probably won't care about this "achievement" but I'm glad and I want to thank everyone! Special thanks go to my watchers for following me and maybe even reading my journal entries. This one's going to be a rather short one since I don't have too much to say.
Since I last wrote something here I've been to the zoo in Vienna. It's a quite famous zoo and was elected Europe's best zoo in 2010. It is an amazing zoo but it was very well visited. Meaning lots of people. Which is kind of annoying. Next time I'm gonna go when it's really cold just to have less people there. Or when the weather is bad enough for people not to visit but for animals to be outside.
Other than that I'm trying to finalize my masters thesis - it's been getting on my nerves. So many things to correct and parts to rewrite but yep, that's science.
Here are my latest uploads:
Happy EasterI definitely have less time now that I'm working full time. Plus I have less motivation to stick around dA and or to go out and take some photos. The night before last (Thursday evening) I fell into bed at 8pm. Yes, that is indeed early.Happy Easter in Personal More Like This
Depending on what the weather will be like this weekend I might go out to explore what Spring is bringing us. The city itself is still boring, colorless, dusty, and sort of uneventful since no trees have leaves yet and the dust and dirt from gravel and salt (used to melt snow on the streets and sidewalks - yes that is a thing) is still everywhere. So I might be exploring the garden or some places close to the city limits (with less infrastructure).
Other than that I'm hoping to find a PhD (doctor of philosophy) position sometime in the next couple of months. A PhD is basically scientific research in a field like immunology, cell biology, oncology etc. and it's like a full time job where you do experiments to unravel unknown mechanisms of cell biology o
The Massive FeatureOkay dA people.The Massive Feature in Personal More Like This
Since I haven't done a feature since June because of lack of time and motivation and being not organized I have finally decided to do one now. And how could I make up for being feature lazy for so long than to to a big feature? The topic is digital and traditional art from my favorite folder. I hope you like it. Enjoy.
asl.fdythfhdjrdddddd. and shit.i like old people and baby people and baby everything and potatoes.asl.fdythfhdjrdddddd. and shit. in Personal More Like This
and i just love this world sometimes and it overwhelms my head. like, how the fuck does a refrigerator work? that's amazing. and the characters on the office? i love them. especially jim. and not JUST because he's sexy. and, babies are so bald and stupid looking and they drool all over everything and fall everywhere and their heads loll everywhere. and i love them.
Shitty shitty shitty shittyhad my first day back of school today, only to be reminded of why i hated it so much. send me away to a school where i actually LEARN something... something i actually give two shits about. nothing makes me happy. if you're nice, i think you're faking it. if you're mean, well, you're an ass. if i actually think you are a genuine good person and i like you, then i'm scared to talk to you because i'm an ass and i respect you too much.Shitty shitty shitty shitty in Personal More Like This
OHHH WOE IS MEE.... whine whine whine, moan moan moan. gahhhhhhh i hate myself
i need a large piece of chocolate cake that i can stuff my face in. then i can be gross(er) and indulgent and comforted.
I missed the comfort in being sad.I've waited for weather like this where i can just hide in my closet and let myself be safe.I missed the comfort in being sad. in Personal More Like This
Or I go outside and I feel sort of a mist and I love it so much it gives me goosebumps but not from the cold.
And I remember days with you running in the rain until we were soaked through and dripping wet
And it sort of makes me sick because i miss it so much
But then I just go outside and pretend and feel the comfort of being that weird sweet sad, which I haven't felt in a long time.
I'm almost at peace with the world for once.
Void Boxall day, i sit in the void box.Void Box in Personal More Like This
i zone. and i escape. and i go away into safe alter reality.
i am not here, i am not here, i am not here.
but there's always that one little hand, creeping out from the past, knocking on the walls of that void box.
i can hear them. they're distant, but they start to gain.
go away go away go away go away...
so then i push a little harder back.
only a temporary fix, but it's the best i know how.
self destruction builds me up, and knocks me down.
over and over and over.
A teeny little taste from when i used to feelso i forgot to take my meds today, and it is the weirdest sensation.A teeny little taste from when i used to feel in Personal More Like This
i have this strange euporic, paranoid, scared, wonderful, crazy, devious, fucked up, urge-to-throw-things-and-scream-and-giggle, impulsive, feeling. and i'm PUMPED. to simply be alive. over nothing, really. and i don't really get it.
it's sort of freaking me out though. and my body tingles. i feel spaaaaaaarkaaaaleeeeeeeeyyyyyy
what the fuck man.i keep seeing all these photos of girls standing in mirrors with their cell phones taking pictures of themselves from the neck to the hips down, classily posing in their lovely bikinis for grown men to comment sickily about how hot they are..... ON DEVIANTART.what the fuck man. in Personal More Like This
what the fuck man. part of the reason i go on deviantart is cause there aren't supposed to be any slutty attention whores on here. thats for facebook......
ok maybe i'm bitching about something that doesn't need to be bitched about.
but its 7 in the morning and i don't wanna see your boobies, thank you. (or any other time of day for that matter.)
Thank Youso, for anyone who is taking their time to read this (i'm even more amazed if you are), i just wanted to say thank you. this is going to sound pathetic, but i like it here better then the real world because you people just seem naturally nice and i feel like i can somewhat pretend to belong. told you i sounded pathetic.Thank You in Personal More Like This
my life's been kind of weird lately, but i might be going on meds which might bring me back to my senses. or at least give me fake senses that aren't crazy and stupid. i especcially wanna thank 69MnMsFTW for that... she sort of brings me back, calms me down a bit. in small little spurts, because i usually don't have the stability to talk long, but she is always there to here me whine and fear about everything. which is crazy and i don't even know how you do it.
but anyways, i appreciate it more than you could ever know or understand.
shiti want to remove everything out of here because everything i see is a reminder of what a huge fucking failure i am. its getting harder and harder to climb out of this hole, and lately i don't even really want to. my evil is eating me and dragging me down deeper and deeper into my hole and its cozy and dark and cold down here, and the rodents eat away at my putrid tainted flesh and i laugh and laugh and laugh... depression is quite silly really. it starts to physically drain you too. my body feels all chunky and compact, like lead, and i feel so old and fragile and bitchy and bored.shit in Personal More Like This
if i could kill myself, i would. but unfortunatly i'm the only thing keeping this family together, so i've just got to stick around and watch all of you scream at each other.
Things I will never understandI'm watching this one MMD group where people can request a whole model. But.Things I will never understand in Personal More Like This
Why would you google a image, say 'this is my OC' and want a Model of it?
I really saw that alot. This is not your OC when you found the image randomly on google you know. That character already belongs to someone. I would be really pissed if I would see someone taking my picture of my character from google and claim it as their OC.
OMG I finaly made it!A Daichi BaseOMG I finaly made it! in Personal More Like This
"Can I haz the Model plz?!?!111!?!"People, use your common sense."Can I haz the Model plz?!?!111!?!" in Personal More Like This
If there isn't any download, or not even the slightes hint that I want to give it out
MEANS THAT IT ISN'T FOR DOWNLOAD.
Really. Can't be that hard. Besides I still don't feel like giving you more DLs.
Some comments on my Yuma WIPs are taking my motivation even more.
Oh and I also dislike when someone comments on my picturs
"WHAT STAGE IS THAT!?!?11?!! PLZ TELL ME"
I don't put effort in my pictures so you can come by, drop not even a single word about it and just ask for a stage.
I'm not a download site.
The Walking Dead Episode 5Okay ... let me casually cry a river at the end okay ...The Walking Dead Episode 5 in Personal More Like This
Well I made 20 new facial slidersWas just about to go save.Well I made 20 new facial sliders in Personal More Like This
Then pmd editor closed itself for what ever reason
So why is it that ...People are always throwing their Selfmodels at me ...So why is it that ... in Personal More Like This
But never want mine, or ask for it.
Or even when they have it, they never use it.
Odyssey Into 2012: In RetrospectFor $marioluevanos and I It was one of those interesting ideas that once let loose to run free in our heads was impossible to force back into the “notions for another time” box. Deadlined chapters and artworks to open mystic gates to safeguard the coming of the New Year 2012!Odyssey Into 2012: In Retrospect in Personal More Like This
Wed Jan 11, 2012, 9:30 PM
For $marioluevanos and I It was one of those interesting ideas that once let loose to run free
in our heads was impossible to force back into the “notions for another time” box. Deadlined chapters
and artworks to open mystic gates to safeguard the coming of the New Year 2012! One more way to show
the world what the talents and imaginations of our worldwide community of deviants are capable of when
challenged with only minimal time and direction! But of course the actual execution of this creative
experiment would require far
Keep Calm And Comic-ConKeep Calm And Comic-Con in deviantART Blog More Like This
Keep Calm And Comic-Con
Wed Aug 8, 2012 by $techgnotic
This year was especially important to me personally and was a milestone of sorts on
multiple levels and for deviantART as a whole. Many of the reasons why will become clear
over the next few months as announcements are made and new ideas are shared with everyone
in the community.
s the multi dimensional, pop fueled, color exploded dream like haze that was Comic-Con begins
to fully dim and fade from accurate remembrance, I can’t shake the feeling that this year was s
Artists on Writers - No. 1Artists on Writers - No. 1 in deviantART Blog More Like This
Apr 26, 2013•Issue No. 1 By $techgnotic•Watch #depthRADIUS
About Artists on Writers
Writers will always find inspiration in the visions of artists, always feeling compelled to tell the stories behind the moments captured in artists’ unforgettable images,
Artists will always find inspiration in the words of writers, always feeling compelled to lend visual reality and habitat to the characters described in the scribe’s haunting words.
I was inspired to create this series by =naikki while looking through her gallery of diverse artwork and reading through her journals which are focused on her favorite inspiring writers and thinkers. I felt certain there must be beautiful artwork in the form of portraits and tributes to these writers and their stories. I found most of =naikki's choices of quot
The Magic Dust of Child ArtistsThe Magic Dust of Child Artists in deviantART Blog More Like This
:icontechgnotic: Sep 12, 2012 by $techgnotic
When recently asked how his political candidate would explain certain positions taken during the
nomination process with contrary positions to be taken during the general election, the campaign chief
replied that stated political positions were “like an Etch A Sketch,” -- meaning they could simply be
flipped over, erased and begun over from scratch.
Were it that adult life were as simple as a happy Etch A Sketch memory from childhood.
(The campaign chief took heavy heat for his flippant, if truthful, statement.) The incident made
me wonder how many of us had early experiences as “sketch artists” with that incredible red toy that
has become almost standard issue for so many children still to this day.
For those unfamiliar w
Faux Propaganda ArtFaux Propaganda ArtFaux Propaganda Art in deviantART Blog More Like This
Propaganda I by ~Yuujakumi
Nov 15, 2012 by $techgnotic
The Comfort of Mindless Obedience
When is information true and useful and when is it just “propaganda?” Why in fact is an image or phrase or animated art sequence “propaganda” rather than it simply being a “lie?” What about acceptable lies that define our society as much as they degrade it - - for example commercials that obviously hype a product with untruths or political advertisements full of unachievable platitudes.
animal farm propaganda
Dessert Of Your DreamsDessert Of Your Dreams in deviantART Blog More Like This
Is it better to possess a thing of beauty, or to experience the ultimate consummation of oneness with that beautiful thing by actually consuming it... and being left only with the memory of its beauty? Leave it up to our deviantARTists to think of a way to have it both ways – but left over as a feast for the eyes, preserved eternally on the digital planes of deviantART.
Craft, design, and artistry as applied to the most delicious and sinful of the culinary disciplines rises forth as we shine warming a light on this small but incredibly skilled serving of artists within the deviantART community. In an effort to taste all of the communities within deviantART, let
Alien Threat in Pop CultureCould the alien invasion film phenomenon be an expression of the hope for humanity's unity? Prometheus, the highly anticipated prequel to all the Alien films (which also features the return of original Alien director Ridley Scott) opens Friday. The film's story involves a team of astronauts sent to deepest space to investigate the origins of human life, only to discover that an imminent alien invasion may soon wipe out all human life.Alien Threat in Pop Culture in deviantART Blog More Like This
:icontechgnotic: Jun 6, 2012 by $techgnotic
Could the alien invasion film phenomenon be an expression of the hope for humanity’s unity?
Prometheus, the highly anticipated prequel to all the Alien films (which also features the return of original Alien director Ridley Scott) opens Friday. The film’s story involves a team of astronauts sent to deepest space to investigate the origins of human life, only to di
Realm of Fantasy, The Anatomy of a GroupDecember 7, 2012by $techgnotic#Realm-of-Fantasy →Realm of Fantasy, The Anatomy of a Group in deviantART Blog More Like This
Realm of Fantasy
The Anatomy of a Group
The grey dressby *sakimichan
The special kind of dedication, spirit and discipline devoted to the assembly and construction of a successful Group within the vast technicolor ocean of artworks, artists and art appreciators that is deviantART might very well be the experiential epitome of what it is to be a part of the deviantART journey. From the very first conception, through the ten thousandth practical step, ^alltheoriginalnames and his cadre of steadfast partners in artful curation have built a virtual sanctuary of the fantastical— #Realm-of-Fantasy. Housing the largest and most significant collection of exceptional fantasy ar
GratitudeGratitude in deviantART Blog More Like This
November 21, 2012
I believe in deviantART. Which is to more accurately say I believe in the concept and the reality of the deviantART community.
When in contemplation of the eternal wellspring that is the deviantART project and how it has become the engine keeping my heart and mind on a full burn as I strive to be an upstanding member of the community as well as a helpful architect and eager participant in the conversation -- my thoughts inevitably settle upon my attempts to define my concept of Gratitude.
Marma Lisa by *HenrySchreiber
No matter your medium of choice as an artist, your artistic intentions or the mystic guiding force that has led you to this community, there is one thing all constituent members have in common:
A first step into this world consisted of a simple return to the practice of
I Need Someone To Relate To Right NowSomeone want to note me?I Need Someone To Relate To Right Now in Personal More Like This
I'm not having the best of times right now in my life, and I know I don't usually tell you guys my problems, but I really need to talk to someone...
I'd rather it not be here, so please note me.
Cows.http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=fvwp&NR=1&v=FavUpD_IjVYCows. in Personal More Like This
I subbed this guy instantly.
Tell me what you think :3
NostalgiaSuch a bittersweet word that can describe every aspect and outlook of my life.Nostalgia in Personal More Like This
Do not think of this as some adolescent impulse to conclude my entire life down to once word in pure split second thought.
Years of consideration subconciously contributed to these results, only fully noticed at this very moment.
The unexplainable has now become lucid, and the sense is nearly tangible.
nos·tal·gi·a (n-stlj, n-)
1. A bittersweet longing for things, persons, or situations of the past.
How many others here cannot simply "let go" of the past?
How many others here cannot simply "move on" from what has happened?
How many others here cannot simply describe their lives without the word "nostalgic"?
End of the World: Dec. 21, 2012?It's been a long time since I've done somewhat of an entertaining journal, and since my YouTube channel will be featuring comdedic videos, and will be starting up within the next month, I may as well get into the random moodEnd of the World: Dec. 21, 2012? in Personal More Like This
So the question is:
If the world WERE to end next Friday, what would way would you like to go out in, and why?
My answer: Zombie apocolyspe. Zombie killing action, SWEEETTT!
HELP! Save a Life!I didn't want to do this, but Jaz, you leave me no choice.HELP! Save a Life! in Personal More Like This
My friend Jaz, a very good friend of mine for nearly a year on DA is planning to kill herself in six days time. She's already aquired painkillers, almost enough so far to end her own life..
I've tried fruitlessly to talk her out of it, but she won't budge. I cannot, I will not let such a close friend of mine die. She is extremely depressed, and thinks so little of herself, even though she is one of the most amazing people I have ever come across.
If you'd like to try and help me, and try to get her not to do this, here is her DA page: http://jaz98.deviantart.com/
I'm sorry Jaz, I just can't lose you. I can't lose another friend this way. Please help me, help her.. Please...
I actually won something o.oSo tonight, I go to see if my poem "The Magic of a Moment" goes on to the district finals for the PTA Refelections Program. The object was to create some form of art work (Literature, Visual, Film, Photography, ect.) under the year's assigned theme.I actually won something o.o in Personal More Like This
I, along with eight others from my school, won under the theme "The Magic of a Moment", hence the title of my poem. This is actually the very first writing award I have ever won, so I'm pretty excited
Following this journal, I'll post the poem as well, so you guys can see it. Unlike most of my poems, I spent a great deal of time on this one. It took me an on and off span of around a month of writing and editing to complete it.
On a side note, for all of you concerned about my previous journal, do not worry. I am not leaving again unless forced to, as I once was. Probably wasn't the best idea to post it at around two a.m. (I believe that's when I posted it) when I wasn't feeling the best emotionally.
Devious Journal EntryForever Banned by my parents from DA. So so so dearly sorry, love you all, can't talk... bye.... <3Devious Journal Entry in Personal More Like This
UntitledI know I am mostly here to help people with their problems, and a lot of you depend (or, used to, that is) on me to be there for you when no one else could. I realize that I am only 13, and much too young to help with any problem you may have. I have run out of useful advice, and do not think I can commit any more time into helping you guys, and nothing seems to work anymore.Untitled in Personal More Like This
So, I'm sorry, and wish you all the best luck in life.
Love Team Summuarybecause there is so much thing you guys dont know XDLove Team Summuary in Personal More Like This
let me tell you some stuff about our lil crew
>Trip, Z4sh, Kuro and Zoka had a big argument
>Trip, Z4sh, Daichi and Hoshi moved to the current house
>Dan raped Zoka
>Zoka and Kuro finally joined the others in the new house
>Z4sh knocked Dan out
>Kuro got gifted Bonny
>Kuro and Trip went out to bring Bonny for a walk, and the "dog" ate all the ducks of the bay
>Kuro and Trip slept toghether (and had a kiss)
>Kitai moved in and took Kuro's old bedroom
>Kuro and Z4sh brang home a little girl
>Z4sh now consider Melony (the lil girl) as his own daughter
>Zoka do not appreciate it
>there is still the Pregnancy question around Hoshi (kind of the wrong moment for Z4sh to adopt in such conditions no?)
it's too much for you guys?
Hoshizora Single?:iconlederpypie: plan to leave the Love Team...Hoshizora Single? in Personal More Like This
So i suppose Hoshi will be alone after that...
No one could tease me as much as she doAs always my sis was lurking at the conversation i was having with :iconcaptain-ralf: on FbNo one could tease me as much as she do in Personal More Like This
Her: why is there so much heart in it? is he your boyfriend *creepy face*
Me: No i just like using them. And we are just close friends
Her: Yeah...*go neer to the door, about to go work* As Daichi and Hoshi at the begining *smirk evily and go away*
she love teasing me as hell
but it's the first time she go that far with me >A
Zoka's choice yet?not really XDZoka's choice yet? in Personal More Like This
well it's my lunch break so i wont have enought time to make a MMD comic or an art so for now i will just post some of the reason about choosing Kristin or Z4sh
-Z4sh would have more attention (he seem so underappreciated ;o; )
-They goes so well together
-We don't have any actual gay pairing yet
-It could make Kristin soooooo sad ;_;
-I like her a lot and is already in a relationship with her
-I don't want to make Chaos nor Kristin disapointed
-I can talk to him easily without being embarrased (just talking i mean here, touching is another thing XD)
-I think alchool may reveal the real you
-It had to end like this because im like my father
Happy (early) V-Dayi wanted to do a picture but have no idea for a poseHappy (early) V-Day in Personal More Like This
have this instead
Trick:Hey Neh, for valentine's day I bought you some chocolate coins
Neh:Awwwws...so sweeet! I love you money!...I mean Honey <3
I heard you wanted to know me...so i will say only 5 fact about me...nothing more okay.I heard you wanted to know me... in Personal More Like This
1- the first thing i do when i came back home is to take of my pants ( i always wear tights under it anyway)
2- my dad died when i was 1 and my mom explained it to me without tact as soon as i was able to understand so it dont bother me at all to talk about death
3- i had only one boyfriend in my life and i dont remember the relationship at all (no need to ask about it i dont remember)
4- i prefer chubby person more than thin ones (yeap deal with it)
5- I dont live with my mom since im 8
Sometimes I feel like RPing with Myselfwhen i do i make an MMD comic...but Im too lazy for that right nowSometimes I feel like RPing with Myself in Personal More Like This
So instead ill just make a Journal
Zoka:*sigh* 6 year of physical difference...22 of age
Hoshizora:You talk about Amu and Cha-Night-erm..whatever his name is...Love is blind i would say...
Z: yeah...but Im not the one in love so for me I can clearly see there is something wrong!...
H: the close your eyes silly!
Z:hmm yeah...but even with my eyes closed I can imaginate then getting married
Z:Wich means...having a Mother youngerr than us...
HK OK STOP THAT! YES IT'S BAD ON MANY POINTS BUT WE ARE NOT THE ONES WHO DECIDE OK!?