Chasing Shadows of You...Chasing Shadows of You...Chasing Shadows of You... in Free Verse More Like This
No matter the years that pass me by,
It seems I am forever trapped.
For when it comes to deceiving myself,
I'm afraid I'm rather apt.
In the end the truth which I sought to avoid, is now knocking at my door...
A rabid rat that chews at me; one I can't ignore.
And though I might have grown this body, from the lonely years I've seen.
I'm afraid I can only chase the shadow, of my dearest Angeline.
- Chen Yuan Wen, 14th January 2012
Player versus PlayerPlayer versus Player:Player versus Player in Free Verse More Like This
Elemental artisttry, as lightning weaves through the air.
I see the bloodthirst in his eyes, the hunger for victory.
A demand to be recognised, yet soon to be silenced;
Perfect and perfunctory - my opponent made defunct...
As I stand above this dying creature;
The flicker of life soon fading from their eyes.
I smile and whisper a word of parting,
For the fool who fell where he lies.
-Unfinished piece by Chen Yuan Wen, 10th April 2012
A Midnight WearyA Midnight WearyA Midnight Weary in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
Amongst twinkling stars,
Much like a cricket's chorus;
Types his essay:
"Failure is red,
My parent's say;
An Asian get 'B'
Is shameful display!"
Words for the Young BloodsWords for the Young Bloods:Words for the Young Bloods in Free Verse More Like This
To all my ninjas sittin' low on the street side,
I want you all to raise your head with pride.
Because I'm callin' out, for the youth to come together
And get those big wigs off the fuckin' power ladder.
You ready? Because we're going at it hard:
See I'm the kind of guy that they're all playin' with
A systematic crisis workin' in the way we live.
The big shots still sittin' and they growin' fat.
With young bloods starvin' just to get their life on track.
We take psychometric tests and make a passing grade,
But ain't no job cause the corporate head is gettin' paid.
And when they screwin' with the money, they ain't never cut.
The young bloods be the first to get their letter up.
I say the system ain't shit and we all got it wrong,
The old mothers are just stayin' in for way too long.
I say we cut them from the system that they fucked up,
And let the young bloods take it; we'll just fix it up.
They set the game, but we're the ones playin' main;
I guess t
You Can't Stop MeYou Can't Stop Me:You Can't Stop Me in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Cold, I'm sittin' here,
You see me cut the lights out
Stains on the inside;
I'm tired of being wiped out.
Cleaned, like the stone weathered down in the rain,
You wore me down to my core; now let me bring on the pain!
Uh-huh, now let me turn it slow for you all
Uh-huh, I'm grabbin' at the stars till they fall
Uh-huh, I'm never gonna die; I stand tall
Uh-huh, I'm breakin' through this fuckin' brick wall.
You know, that I will be the voice in your mind.
You know, that it will be the lyrical kind
You see, the way I put my words into rhyme
If I was rapping out of rhythm, man this would be a crime.
So hear, my voice and I will make you believe
That I, still have a few tricks up my sleeve.
I'm not, a criminal with a disease
So let me hear you once more, let me make you believe
Uh-huh, I'm turnin' it slow for you all
Uh-huh, I'm grabbin' at the stars till they fall
Uh-huh, I'm n
Poetic Practice - Love Like AshPoetic Practice - Love Like Ash:Poetic Practice - Love Like Ash in Free Verse More Like This
Yes sir, he is clinging to insanity.
He remembers all the things he said, profanity.
Bare the shame on his naked old humanity.
He is the doll claiming love for his vanity-
When he woke up, desire!
He made a move like fire.
His whispers; a liar,
His heart snaps, like wire!
But what are you thinking of this man as I make him out?
Is it an image or a type that you seem to tout.
was it all his fault with no one else to blame,
Or were there cracks in the story that they both will claim-
Spit that and live that,
Hate when you love that!
You rip that and tear that,
Scream like you know that!
Stop for a moment and just listen to this silent cry,
Time has stopped now for both of us to say goodbye.
Both turning on these clocks, living lies that have stopped;
And when the love turns to ash, let the gloves be dropped...
- Chen Yuan Wen, 17th January 2013
ENOUGH!There are times when I feel like tearing these pages apart,ENOUGH! in Free Verse More Like This
Or perhaps, throwing this BLOODY song into the fire and watching it BURN!
Maybe I'll start plucking the keys from my keyboard,
Or simply swipe everything off the desk.
Each item shattering into a hundred pieces,
Much like the fragments of my dying inspiration.
I Like To Play With SkinI Like To Play With Skin:I Like To Play With Skin in Free Verse More Like This
My dear friends and watch,
As the feeling of life itself
Crumbles beneath each ounce of pain.
Needles slowly piercing into the body,
Paralyzing nerves and expressions.
A mask of pure horror; living terror,
Kept alive on the barest limit of the border.
Such tempting features,
Leave me eager to slip a knife beneath flesh.
Ripping soft layers of epidermal mache,
Tanned and dried, woven slowly into a loving mask.
And with my latest acquisition complete,
Only twenty spaces remain...
-Chen Yuan Wen, 28th April 2013
A Game We Hate to Play:A Game We Hate to Play:A Game We Hate to Play: in Free Verse More Like This
I stand amongst a screaming crowd,
And you'll hear them shout it out.
"All this shit just isn't fair,
Life's a game but we don't care!"
Hear me, do you think I'm lazy?
When I talk I'm crazy,
Sorry I'm just hazy, but I-
Still think that I'm like Jay-Z
Rappin' here with Stacy;
The boys they call her baby; Haha...
And we're playin' this song for the killers,
The ones with no hope workin' shop at the tillers.
And if you think that we're just the fillers,
You wouldn't be wrong; we're just grain at millers - haha!
All this shit just isn't fair,
Life's a game but we don't care!
We're gonna change the game tonight,
C'mon let's turn out the light!
All this shit just isn't fair,
Life's a game but we don't care!
We're gonna change the rules tonight,
C'mon let's turn out the light.
Lights off, everybody nights off,
Walking through these streets of -
People drinkin' Smirnoff;
Prayers for tomorrows,
Whisper as they borrow
Gangster PiratesGangster Pirates:Gangster Pirates in Free Verse More Like This
Where the ship, where the pirates, where my crew at?
We wearin' black guttin' ninjas like they wood rats.
And if you wanna play, boy you better turn back!
You better run when you see the swords wearin' black.
We are the pirates, top crew, no screw.
Is that a knife boy, man we wearin' two!
I got my boys armed up from the toe to teeth,
Have you ever seen a guardsman give us grief?
We the dogs of the sea and the rest are cats,
Ain't nobody else pullin' off fedora hats.
We don't take what we push, man we live it clean!
Treat our bodies so right that it turnin' green.
We shippin' lyrium, Orzammar to Denerim.
Have you ever seen Sparrow with a Golden Rim?
From the mast to cabin man we do it big,
Even Monkey D. Luffy don't got this rig.
And when the ninjas comin' up all sneaky-like,
Kazekage, Hokage; they don't see the light.
When the dawn comes, tell em all to get right.
Or else we fly 'em like a flag up at mast height!
So where my ship, where my crew, where my pir
Road [Loki x Reader (pt29)]It was strange, it was restless, the sleep you fell into. You could feel your heart pounding through every inch of you, like a drum. Your ears picked up blips of reality, spinning them into nightmarish visions. Thor, it was Thor, calling your name. He was stuck, he was dying, he was burning. Struggling. Fighting.Road [Loki x Reader (pt29)] in Short Stories More Like This
You felt cold. Why were you cold if there was fire? Why was Thor telling you to wake up?
Your conscious awoke. This was a dream. You were frozen. Every image faded into black, all you could see were fuzzy light spots under your eyelids. You tried to make yourself move. What could you do?
You fought the dormancy of your subconscious, trying to maintain a steady train of thought. What had you been thinking about? Dammit! Thor was screaming at you from a mountain top. What had you been thinking about? It was snowing. It was cold. The snow stung so badly it was almost unreal. No, not unreal, real! Yes, that was it, wake up!
The dream snapped. You couldn't open your eyes but you he
Ring [Loki x Reader (pt33)]When your eyes fluttered open, you immediately smiled, chest filled with golden joy. It only took you a second to remember the reason; Loki's arms wrapped snugly around you, his cheek pressed against your back.Ring [Loki x Reader (pt33)] in Short Stories More Like This
And that gave you even more of a thrill because you remembered how close to naked you were. It made your stomach twist, and made you giggle stupidly and smile even bigger. You snuggled against him and snuggled your face into the pillow you shared, trying to keep your breathing at a steady rate.
"You're awake?" he asked, giving your back a light kiss. Shivers ran through your whole body and you smiled so hard your cheeks hurt.
"Yeah...good morning, Loki." That felt so good to say! You turned around in his arms, wrapping your own around his bare torso and nuzzled your forehead under his chin, kissing him just under the collar bone. He let out an audible exhale.
"Oh my, that was unexpected..." He kissed you on top of the head, tightening his arms around you. His cool fingers slid o
Goodbye [Loki x Reader (pt43)]The world was numbed and silent as you all converged under the panel. Thor came running up from where his post had been, by the wolf's cage and hidden from you. It wasn't right to see him so mournful; as a person, he was far too full of sunshine, and it was wrong to see him crying into Steve's shoulder.Goodbye [Loki x Reader (pt43)] in Short Stories More Like This
It had been a cruel death, you decided, watching the world in slow motion as Loki cradled her limp corpse in his arms.
She had just had the hope torn out of her and then she...died. Just like that. You knelt down with Loki and very gingerly touched her pale, freckled face, chest twisting the most at how heartbroken she looked.
"Oh, Lynda," came Loki's broken, weak voice. He bowed his head to her neck, breaths sharp and desperate. You looked Lynda all over, memories of your time with her pouring into your brain. You had shared so little time together but suddenly it was all very precious to you, and it hurt.
You couldn't look at her, so you looked beyond, biting your lip. Iron Man was st
Victory [Loki x Reader (pt44)]Well, it was a nice, peaceful, glitter-free breakfast, until Jareth poofed in, in a flurry of sparkles and barn-owl feathers.Victory [Loki x Reader (pt44)] in Short Stories More Like This
"The metal man told me...that Lynda was..." He tugged his fingers frantically through his blond hair, switching between that, rubbing his temples, and pressing his knuckle to his lips as he spoke. "And it was Jack...he...she saw, and then...oh you horrible creature!" he whined, seizing Loki by the shoulders before he had the time to dodge. "Maybe if you had payed more attention--"
"Jareth, calm down," you said. "Lynda's..."
"Maybe she wouldn't have thrown her life away like that if she had known that I--I--"
"Zat you what?" Lynda interrupted, leaning over the counter with a pair of tongs clutching crispy bacon.
Jareth's eyes went wide and he released Loki immediately. "That I um...you...are not dead?"
"No. I am alive and perfectly capable of scolding you for once again getting glitter all over Thor's bacon. I am not stopping him from wha
Intruder [Loki x Reader (pt36)]"So," you said, toying with the rubbery edge of the calla-lily as you hopped off the bottom rung of the ladder. "You're avoiding an answer."Intruder [Loki x Reader (pt36)] in Short Stories More Like This
"What? Oh." He rubbed the back of his neck, looking at you and then the entrance to the tunnel. "Yes. That. Um...I was going to tell you but you were a bit distracted..."
"Hang on, I'll tell you." He took your wrist and led you into the tunnel, you trying ever so diligently to be patient. It was a bit difficult to crouch through the small tunnel with all of these calla-lilies in your hand, but you shoved aside the irritation and started to nag.
"Some time today, Loki." The tunnel opened up and he turned and glared.
"Patience, woman! I was going to tell you right now."
There was a stretch of silence with him standing awkwardly, not meeting your eyes.
"He's not dead," he said with a strained voice through clenched teeth, toying with his black hair nervously.
You blinked. "Wait, what? You mean you didn't...kill him?"
Cold [Loki x Reader (pt42)]The way you understood it, the goal was to literally freeze the mome raths' ability to transform. Doing so would in effect kill them, and since every single mome rath has to match the next one exactly, they would all go out.Cold [Loki x Reader (pt42)] in Short Stories More Like This
But it wasn't just freezing them, it needed to be biological--so basically, you were infecting the entire race with a sort of fabricated virus that would instantly wipe them out, drawn from an essential element in the spell keeping Fenrir's ghostlike form. How convenient.
"But how do we catch him?" you asked.
Loki chuckled. "Already taken care of, sweetheart. Did you think all the fun stuff waited to happen until you got here?"
From there it was explaining parts and pieces. Harkness and Tony would work the thingy-mah-wutzit from Torchwood, effectively extracting the anideal from the spell. The particles would be scattered, and invisible, and that's what made your job important. Using the ring you would draw the particles together into a dense, visible stream which
Stark [Loki x Reader (pt16)]Tony pushed you down onto an expensive sofa after a long trip to the top of Stark Tower. "I want to go home," you demanded for the enth time, far beyond any pretense of patience. "I gave you Loki, now I want to go."Stark [Loki x Reader (pt16)] in Short Stories More Like This
"Quit your squirming," Tony whined, pouring himself a drink. He raised it out to you before taking a sip. "Thirsty?"
"Tony," warned Steve as he pulled off the mask, removing the drink from Tony's hand.
Tony pointed at you, reasoning with Steve with his eyebrows raised. "I'm being a good host--"
"She's been through a lot tod--"
Steve stared down at him and growled, "Tony, stop it."
"Alright, okay!" Tony submitted, backing down with his hands up in surrender. Steve set the drink down and went to sit by you on the couch, and Tony muttered something sarcastically, grabbing his drink before walking around to lean over the back of the couch. Steve opened his mouth to say something but Tony cut him off.
"So because you have taken a Mjolnir-sized weight of
Pain [Loki x Reader (pt22)]And you came right back out, guns blazing.Pain [Loki x Reader (pt22)] in Short Stories More Like This
Not really. It was more like a discus, like the Captain's, only it wasn't flashy and colorful, and it had buttons.
Pretty buttons. And they did things.
For example, the one you pressed as you left Tony's lab had unsheathed three rows of barbs around the outer edge, leaving a few bleeding cuts in your palm. But you didn't care, you needed to get out there. As if Tony was gonna put you in time-out when they could use all the help they could get.
And they could use that help right about now, because at this point they were horribly outnumbered. Law enforcement were scrambling around trying to get civilians out of the streets and Captain America, bless him, was helping and simultaneously blocking the needled tails of (what you now realized were) the giant squirrels swarming the city. Squirrels. Just why?
You pushed aside the urge to find any sort of method to the mome raths' madness and looked for something to do. Iron Ma
Captain [Loki x Reader (pt39)]"No, seriously, what is it?" you asked as he slipped the ring onto your finger. "Asgardian engagement ring?"Captain [Loki x Reader (pt39)] in Short Stories More Like This
He looked up at you, panicked. "En-engage--!" He shook his head, coming back to his senses. "Uh, n-no. Hah...it's...It heightens your magic abilities. In layman's terms."
You raised an eyebrow, examining the round pink gem. "How about we try not-layman's-terms? I'm not exactly a beginner at this whole magic thing."
He chuckled, patting your shoulder. "Of course you're not...ah, it basically helps to condense your magic energies, as you tried to do on your own. It has a special kind of...well, it's like a magnet, but for energy. It's like...it's like...iron filings in a little clear box of sand. I've seen Midgardian children play with them, run a magnet over the box and all the little filings follow the magnet."
"I'm a little insulted, you're using toddler logic to tell this to me?"
He pressed his lips together and growled. "Are you just out to make me feel like I can't say anyth
Husband [Loki x Reader (pt34)]"Okay stop," you demanded, breaking your wrist away from him. Loki turned around, looking at you curiously. "I don't want to learn any more stupid magic. I want you to stop avoiding my question. Who is Lynda married to?"Husband [Loki x Reader (pt34)] in Short Stories More Like This
"Please don't," he begged. "You really wouldn't like the answer..."
You crossed your arms, stomping a foot firmly on the ground. "Tell me, Loki! At this point, I think I get it, I just want you to tell me."
His expression went from pleading to almost offended. "If you think you have any idea what Lynda and I have been through together, you can think again. Now if you really don't want to fight alongside me, that is perfectly okay, I can just leave you in that room and steal Lynda's vortex manipulator to make certain you won't get out and do something stupid to hurt yourself--"
"Don't you try anything," you warned. "You're trying to distract me by getting me angry but it's not going to work. You tell me right now what's going on with that ring and why it d
NecromancyShe replaces her wristsNecromancy in Free Verse More Like This
with the sharp thorns
of roses and slurred
as she speaks
in an old tongued
language that whispers
She collects stars
on her knuckles,
& her dust eyes
are sad moon nebulas
starved for love.
But, the kisses
she sinks into the curve
of her lover's ribcage
by night, warm that
BloodI've got a filthy mouth,Blood in Free Verse More Like This
& a house of stars
thriving in my throat.
& I still have yet to tame
this grounded constellation
I call my temple. -Slithering
tongue hissing too many
"fuck you's" against my teeth.
I fear I will write myself hollow-
or until my bones are corroded away
& I am nothing-
an insignificant nebula
orbiting the wrong atmosphere.
But, my veins bleed sweet ichor,
& words are only words, Mother.
-this windowpane loneliness- in Free Verse More Like This
has devoured too many stars
making love to ocean beds.
RepossessionYour words tore into my abdomen like vultures feeding onRepossession in Free Verse More Like This
the raw emotion their filthy wings stirred up from the dust.
My ribs cracked from the blow.
But, I think sometimes
of how these were the ribs
that should have chased you away from me,
quietly wondering how you managed to
slither past this cage of bone and flesh
to engrave your fingerprints into my marrow.
You were sweat & spice & scars-
a thunderstorm of black and blue sex
jarring and devouring my insides,
shaped a faithless religion
through the cracks & broken shards
of my hollowed out womb.
(I want my insides back.)
A Gods DebtSutured together by artists,A Gods Debt in Free Verse More Like This
hallowed out, & spit back up,
( you are afraid. )
Hooks longing for her ribcage embrace;
god-hands that can't seem to keep to themselves
grapple the gargoyle exterior of her deflowered frame.
( spread your legs. )
Red-inked and trembling,
prosetry masked as screams
knots into her anatomy.
lub-dubThere are loverslub-dub in Free Verse More Like This
I will never be able to
crawl out from underneath;
I’m caving in, lungs
no longer able
to exhale lovely things.
However hollow, I’ve got
these artist hands,
these god hands of mine
that can save lives.
What’s the point
when I’ve got little
& no one can ever seem
to find my pulse?
Sweat, Spice, and ScarsYour eyes,Sweat, Spice, and Scars in Free Verse More Like This
a thunderstorm of black and blue sex
jarring and devouring my insides,
shaped a faithless religion
through the cracks & broken shards
of my hollowed out womb.
I want my insides back.
Scorpiussometimes,Scorpius in Free Verse More Like This
i wake up with bits of Orion
still stuck between my teeth.
& i grin, remembering
the face of every lover
i’ve managed unscathed,
to crawl out from underneath.
‘ad astra’ inked into ankle bones
like little wings, Pluto’s underworld
ripe, coursing through my veins:
i stake claim to clavicles.
between the constellations
of tongues & weak limbs,
i get off
on all the ways mere mortals
beg me to sacrifice them
to the heavens.
The rule of nines.I know more about half-moon palmsThe rule of nines. in Free Verse More Like This
than most know about
the kind that beg dandelion child,
I know about forged castle ribs & broken homes.
Myths that are half fact & imaginary friend
turned bogieman -
Fangs that tear clear through ice-bone hearts
like they are nothing but pretty paper
to be folded over, again & again & again
by the hands of quivering youths:
Icarus, the reincarnated
sky conqueror searching for warmth.
PERSONAL CATASTROPHE AND PROBABLE SOLUTIONSYour life is headed for a disastrous end.PERSONAL CATASTROPHE AND PROBABLE SOLUTIONS in Free Verse More Like This
Everyone will die.
That is a fact.
You will die.
Your friends will die.
Everyone you know will die.
These are indisputable facts.
Your body will break down and crash in one way or another.
Your heart will stop.
Your brain synapses will cease firing.
100% guaranteed termination.
You and everyone you know has less than 122 years left.
The oldest person alive was 122.
Oldest person alive now is 115.
Death should be your number one enemy.
Do not accept it.
Do not welcome it.
The question is - are you willing to extend, improve your life and the lives of those you love?
Why haven't you done it yet? Do you think it's impossible?
Flying for us was impossible until airplanes were built.
Now, the question is- how do we stop the personal catastrophe of death?
The logical answer is - science!
We can slow death down using modern medicine, and we can stop and reverse some accidental causes of death.
Aging is one cause that we cannot currentl
Your Poetry SucksYes, roses are redYour Poetry Sucks in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
And violets are blue
But you have to understand
Who said they had to,
Its about imagination
Emotion and orignality
Not the reiteration
Of dead men's practicality
They are your sentence
To a world that has to listen
As you create the difference
Whether it be
With angst poem against love
Or how you set your heart free
To fly like a dove,
For these words
Whether or not they be true
Their beauty and ideals
Will be used to define you,
Hope ,in fact, has feathers
And like a caged bird it sings
But these words will only be tethers
That strip you of your wings,
Those are their words
Meant for their time
And meant for their herds,
But this your time
Meant for your words
And whether they be meaningful, stupid
Or completely absurd
I'm sure they'll be amazing.
On my cornerI stand on my cornerOn my corner in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
sometimes with a sign
sometimes with my voice
sometimes I don't stand at all
but today I stand,
I stand on my corner
I scream warnings, tidings
blessings and curse
in the hopes
someone will hear them.
I stand on my corner
and no one walks by
I see no one near
and I cry out
for someone to come
for anyone to help me
to offer me something
even if its just shelter
from the downpour cascading
down my cheeks.
I stand on my corner
and no one stands with me
and the crushing truth of that
forces me to fall.
No one offers me a hand
I have no way to rise
and so I sit on my corner,
sometimes with tears,
sometimes with screams,
with nothing at all
but today I sit
I sit on my corner
you'll see me.
Will ForeverSometimes it's so hard,Will Forever in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
As the world crashes all around,
When someone you loves been torn apart,
And you can't seem to make a sound.
But these things I speak now are from my heart.
I can't swear to always have the right words to say.
Sometimes I might feel helpless and frozen.
And I won't always be able to take your pain away.
I might not have the cure to a soul ripped open.
But I promise you,
I'll be there when the sky has faded from blue.
When you're crying and there aren't any easy words,
I'll hold you tight and try to ease the hurt.
I'm not perfect, and may not always do the right thing.
But if you fall down I'll try to be your wings.
And no matter what comes please know that this is true,
I will forever love you.
You've had the kinds of friends,
That don't stick around if your sadness persists.
And so you hide it once again,
As sugar coated falsehoods pass your lips.
But I've been there where you are,
And sometimes I still am.
I know how you conceal the scars,
BawdyThere once was a fair dominatrixBawdy in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
who flatly refused to wear latex
the wearing of leather
gave her much pleasure
(not to mention her strange rubber complex)
There was an old stripper named Lil
who once showed remarkable skill
her breasts once so round
now dragged on the ground
Poor Lil was quite over the hill!
There once was a man called de Sade
whose behavior was terribly bad
with bull whips he'd sate
his bestial tastes
my God, what a horrible cad!
Love LetterBeloved,Love Letter in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Is it possible to feel too much at times? Can the heart become a weapon, carrying the weight of unspent dreams?
There are rare nights when I seem to ghost dance with the world. I move through it, aware of the physical existence of people, places, things - their connections - and nothing more.They leave no indelible mark; they are a mere whisper on my landscape that echoes vaguely in my conscious mind, a glancing blow that barely registers. Mouths move...words are said, and I comprehend the physical act, the meaning and reality - but it only ripples the surface.
And then there are nights that are quiet electricity and life blooms out of control around me in vibrant and livid color. Every word has a music to it and every nuance of movement shoots through me and pins me to the wall of desire. I am held prisoner by the soft beauty of words not said. I feel the pain of lost tears and memories mumbled in a gentle catechism of failure..
And it is on those nights that I think of you.
DawnDawn in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
How dawns the morn so very bright and bold
that night's dark face can only turn away;
and all our dreams in sunlit skies are sold
as eventide gives pardon to the day.
She feels the cloak of dreams unclasp their sway
and fading softly spun into the gold,
that she will rise from sleep and make her way
ere morning grows another second old.
BeadsAnd I will weaveBeads in Free Verse More Like This
and string glass beads across your skin.
I will pick them out - azure and turquoise
like the beach at noon
when the sand makes love to the waves.
I will decorate you in ivory and ivy
bands to kiss
your wrists and ankles and
I will teach your tongue wicked fortunes -
stories that only night can
follow and languages
man is too afraid to speak.
You will wear me
silk and water -
the warm rush of magic,
a noise that rumbles fiercely
and grows restless
in the dark.
WinterA dream of silver coins and gossamerWinter in Free Verse More Like This
of frankincense and sacred myrrh
tugging, gently tugging at the coverlet
the draperies drawn,
the candles lit.
Winter's wizened face and beard sent packing
by the blazing willow log
a'crackling, gently crackling in the fireplace
the shivered wind
leads on apace
These dreams to warm us lingering like a balm,
and cider mulled with cardamom
bubbling, gently bubbling in a bowl
blots out the wind
and shuns the cold.
Why Poets DrinkChrist,Why Poets Drink in Free Verse More Like This
there is a reason poets drink.
Abstention feels bad -
infertile and stuffed, swollen.
It does not sell books
or win those brass
angels on ribbons.
Tonight my lover is bourbon,
distilled in some soul
south of Carolina.
It plays tricks with colors
and the sounds on my tongue.
It grows words where
none have loitered for weeks
and handfasts me to
the rest of the world.
It is ransom -
a jest of seasons
and my bone idle brain
RoadYou said Kansas was too flatRoad in Free Verse More Like This
and dry, nothing but a sullen map
in the dust as the truck lumbered
down the highway.
I watched you slug back
bottle after bottle of malt liquor,
tossing the bodies in the back seat.
Dead cowboys you called them,
your jaw spoiling for a fight.
I kept my hands on the wheel
and watched the heat move sideways
through the wheat,
trying to pretend your chin lived
somewhere else and that the sun
had something more important
to do than watch me drive.
We ate egg salad sandwiches the way
your mother made them - too much salt
and celery and without the crusts
and drank grape soda warm and fizzing
from the cans and I prayed the rain
would soften the landscape and
lull you to sleep.
The radio was a better friend than me
peeling the vinyl off the dashboard.
I listened while Glen fixed another
heart in Wichita and you drowned
your hangover in some dogeared novel
you found in a gas station bathroom.
And we just drove
with the sound of people
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Beaks pierced with rue; wing tips broken
Frail songs born on air and dying
And frail sounds no voice has spoken
Tiny beating hearts laid open
Shiver of hips
A twist of silk sends coins flying
Shiver of hips
the rhythm poised upon her lips
Dancer, her seven veils sighing
silk upon her bronze skin lying
Shiver of hips
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a ghost of iris-
blue so pale,
it slips off the page
You know the scent;
you borrowed it
from some girl
who was your best friend.
You slept together in the same bed;
she borrowed your sweater
and kissed you
when mother was not looking.
You fed her books
left out in the sun,
ripe as the boy
She put her hand
one warm night
and asked you
what it made you think of.
you said -
teal and purple,
feathered like summer -
like the summer
when you were five
and the heat
just could not keep away
and the sky went out.
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Pluck any of my strings
till you find one
that sings to you -
something dark throated
like the jewelled thrush
upon my sill.
Ponder its strange weight,
the terrible beauty
of its voice;
the way it winds inside you
and pulls you close
like skin shuttering out
And then let it resonate
taut and tight
against your ears -
each note a raw hope
that hides tomorrow
and keeps you running
from the light.
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On The Wings Of A Butterfly
Precious, little cocoon
Recovering from a past life
Shedding an old, tarnished costume
Almost ready to break through to the light
A reason was given
For me to hide away
Inside a solace prison
Where I shall stay
Until the ritualistic tradition
Forces me to adapt and change
Biding time! / Healing wounds!
Courage thrives! / Hope looms!
Pain divides! / Becoming immune!
Eyes shine! / Wings bloom!
The reason has proven
That the power of one can truly overcome
The insults and mockery of evolution
Only fuels the being that I strive to become
The solution is an inner, translucent revolution
And then the path to greatness has only just begun
It's so hard to let go of your armor
But sometimes it's worth to at least try
To open yourself up and make the departure
And take flight...on the wings...of a butterfly
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In The Rainfall
Dripping with blame
Bound by hate
I felt your anger
I held my pieces together
I always wait for the right moment-
To finally break down
I need the pain to flow perfect-
To let it all out
I'm reaching for my tainted core / I won't let you corrupt me anymore
You will not be a part of me / This is not how it's going to be
I always wait for the oncoming storm-
That's the only time
Endure it all until the promised calm-
Just to call it mine
I am myself again
You're gone with the rain
I am my own protection
I can rise above the destruction
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Rain Of Color
All of the struggles I had to endure
I always desperately held on
It was a day after day ritual
Learning to stay strong
Different advice from the wise
I had to fuse it all together
And make sense of every voice
I couldn't allow my hope to wither
Believe in the soul
Embrace the heart
It's what makes you whole
It defines who you really are
Envision the dreams
As if they're real
Remember where you've been
Know that every wound will heal
Every scar tells a story / Every step is towards glory
There's always a chance to triumph / There's always a time for resonance
We always pick ourselves back up / There's no such thing as enough
Born to live free / Alive to feel peace
Hold onto that spark
Even if it's not much
It'll guide you through the dark
It'll help you when you're lost
Compare not to others
Live at your own pace
It always gets better
Faith never really fades
I've made it to this place
Where finally I realize
I've journeyed through the pain
And I have
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In The Distance
I've realized that nothing ever truly ends
Because it's just the beginning of the emptiness
I want to take back my actions / I want to give you reasons
I said all of the words I've needed
And to the mirror
I wish those were silent confessions / I wish none of this had happened
I finally let out all of those feelings I hid
Beneath my surface
They're just emotions from a fallen / Because without you, I'm nothing
I meant every single tear I cried
My one true purpose
I'm feeling so goddamn faithless / To my world, you're everything
I couldn't hold on, I slowly let go of my grip
It took the best of me
All of our moments are worth remembering / This pain in my soul is worth keeping
I didn't stay silent forever, I let my cries slip
So I could weep pathetically
I hope you find the happiness you'r
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In The Snowfall
I remember it
As if it was just last night
Our surroundings were lit
Illuminated by the surfaces covered in white
The way you smiled
It gave me comfort inside
And my heart seemed to be veiled
Knowing you have become a part of my life
Step by step
I stopped blinking
As we tread
I ceased breathing
Chills were sent
Our hands touching
Our lips met
Gazing at you is a must
You curiously peered up
As snowflakes danced down towards us
And it dawned on me that I was madly in love
Mesmerizing my soul
Spreading a calming warmth
Into my core
I held you in my arms
I felt whole
Connected our hearts
Alone no more
Within my eyes
I captured those images
To remember for the rest of our lives
Just to relive something so passionate
It was the perfect setting
I was lost in awe
A memory so desi
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In The Daylight
A false downfall
An unexpected revival
Sunset to moonset
Shining through darkness
In the valley of promises- I will fear no end
On the brink of weakness- I will ascend
Roads of the toughest
Paths of the darkest
I conditioned my flawed limits
So fearful memories won't be paralytic
I had to raise my own spirit
Strength and endurance become so vivid
A chance for change / A moment of fate
A time to make peace / A brief feeling of creed
A sealing of my slate / A silencing of my mistakes
A secret ready to be freed / A chain soon-to-be incomplete
Pain and peace are infinite
Judge the wrath of the wicked
Victims can be vengeful or forgiving
Prolific tears are forever listening
To the cryptic lyrics that layout life's experiences
A few simplistic words can become so endearing
And I start again
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Ashes Of Tomorrow
I can destroy what I create
If I really, and truly wanted to
I can light these feelings ablaze
If I didn't want anymore support from you
I barely stop myself time and time again
I realize there's a sense of cruelty in all of us
It's just that feeling, everything might be in vain
When tempted at breaking down those barriers of trust
To jeopardize all of the triumphs
I want to be the one who is blamed
The fire will reach the sky, and become my guidance
I want to be swallowed by my own inner, selfish flames
I sit behind the scenes of my friendships
Alone, with a fake smile on my face
That old feeling of loneliness is tempting
Cold, but the embers will soon burn me away
Ashes paint the sky / I'm the phoenix at fault
My flames roar as I cry / As all hope finally falls
I need to get back at myself
Delivering a fiery vengeance
I know that I don't deserve anyone else
As all of the bridges simultaneously start burning
I wanted to erase what I made
And I tr
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Believing In Soulmates
You are not an illusion
Nor are you a mere reflection
Though I can't explain what I'm feeling
I just know that you make me want to start believing
Dreaming inside of a fairytale
The reason to smile
Fantasizing within a dream
The reason to believe
Maybe those so-called miracles are truly real
And maybe love stories really have their sequels
Though it's near impossible to try and get rid of this doubt
But I know that I will eventually succeed, because you're here now
Just when I thought I was lost, you came around, then I realized I was found
You have to be the other side
The missing piece that fits just right
So let this love intertwine, as our eyes unite
Because our hearts have been in halves through out our lives
The calm after a loud silence
A long awaited balance
The lone star that glows in the darkness
A bright light to shine for the ages
The one and only warm fire on a world of ice
A longing peaceful paradise
I want you to know that
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Our Numb Tears
Something deep within me / Is longing for relief
A haunting aura around me / Reminding me of the grief
Scratching at the core of my soul / Hope is swallowed by a black hole
Locked in the center of my heart / All that is left is the traumatized part
Laugh, smile, blink, and focus. You just need to act as normal as possible.
You cannot let this pain get the best of you. Don't do anything irresponsible.
The damage you do to yourself also effects everyone else, so don't let it become irreversible.
You're being too hard on yourself, no one is perfect in life, you're only human, you're not invincible!
Shock waves of guilt enter my system / While a deathly peace is in the distance
And aftershocks of regret strike me down / I can't show that I'm hurt when they're around
Tremors of anxiety / Infest my entire body
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'Emo, Gothic bitch, freak psycho'. The words echoed through my head repeatedly. Just because I listened to Black Veil Brides and came to school wearing all black and had black fingernails and dark makeup doesn't mean that I am any of those things. I swear without Black Veil Brides I would've been dead.
Let me back up and introduce myself. My name is Seara. I am currently a senior in high school. I isolate myself from the world on a daily basis; even my boyfriend. He doesn't know that they are still doing this to me and why should I tell them? He seemed to stop carrying about it anyway."Hey look, it's the physco little emo bitch Seara" A voice answered. I turned my head and was face to face with the caption of the football team. "Leave me alone Eric" I snapped. He shoved me to the ground. I felt my head make contact with the bottom of the locker.
I rolled my eyes and picked myself up from the ground. I looked at Eric and was about to sa
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I looked at the clock on my cell-phone. It was almost nine-thirty PM. The Black Veil Brides concert would be starting soon and I still hadn’t heard anything from Sammi yet. I decided to call her and see what was taking so long. I paced my room waiting for her to pick up. She picked up on the third ring.
“Hey Sammi where are you?” I asked. “On my way be there in a few minutes” She answered. “Okay see you soon” I answered as I hung up my cell phone. I ran down the stairs to the living room to wait for her. A few moments later, I heard her honk the horn and I knew that she was sitting in my driveway.
I excitedly opened the door and ran down the steps. I couldn’t wait for this night. It was going to be so amazing. I was going to see my all-time favorite band Black Veil Brides and I was going to get to meet them after the show. I couldn’t wait for this it was going to be the
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While I was playing the game with CC, a thought struck me. Now that Jake and Midnight were together we couldn't very well make her leave while Jake was touring. "Hey Ash, what do you CC, and Jinxx think about taking Midnight on tour with us? We can't make her leave now that she is with Jake" I answered. "Hmm, I like the idea. I think Jake will like it too" Ashley answered."What about you; CC and Jinxx? What do you guys think about the idea?" I asked. "I think it's a great idea" Jinxx answered."Ditto" CC answered with a grin as he high-fived me.
I glanced over at Jake and noticed that he was starting to wake up. I got up off of the floor and walked over to him."Hey there" I answered."Oh hey" Jake answered as he sat up, carefully so that Midnight wouldn't fall off of the couch or wake up."What's up Andy?" Jake asked. "Well I just had a conversation with Jinxx CC and Ashley" I answered."What about?" Jake asked."About Midnight, I asked
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Jake Pitts just asked me to be his girlfriend. I was freaking out inside. My heart was pounding a million miles a minute."Midnight?" Jake asked, his voice breaking though my thoughts. I felt my face go red hot when he called my name. I turned and looked at him. "Will you be my girlfriend?" Jake asked again. I nodded and smiled. I couldn't speak at the moment."I really like you Midnight" Jake answered with a smile. I smiled back and kissed him gently on the lips.
As we were kissing, I got into it. I wrapped my arms around Jake's neck and pulled him close to me. His chest was pressed up against mine. I felt him wrap his arms around my waist. I pulled away from the kiss and he immediately attacked my neck with his kisses. I moaned slightly as he sucked on my neck, giving me a hickey.
He traced his tongue over the hickey that he left on my neck. It was obvious he was toying with me now. I however loved it. After a few moments he pul
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We boarded the bus to get to the restaurant. Midnight hadn't said much to me when we got back on the bus. It hurt me a little to see that we had already hit a snag in our relationship and we had just gotten together. I sighed to myself. Part of me wanted to ask why she wasn't talking to me but I was afraid of the answer that I was going to get. Then it clicked for me why she was acting this way. She was jealous of the fan-girl that was approached us a few moments ago. I wished there was some way that I could tell her that the girl didn't mean anything to me.
I looked over and saw Midnight on the couch, reading a book and listening to her iPod. I walked over and wrapped my arms around her shoulders to let her know that I was there. She put the book-mark in the book and pulled her headphones out of her ears before she turned and looked at me."The girl that was around us earlier she means nothing to me. It's only you I want" I answered
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I lay in Jake's arms. He kissed the top of my head and I smiled."I love you Midnight" Jake answered as he brought his lips down to mine. I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him back full on the lips. I stifled a yawn and Jake chuckled slightly."Tired sweetie?" He asked."Yeah a little" I answered. He got off of the couch. A few minutes later he returned with a blanket and a pillow. He lay back down and wrapped the blanket around the both of us."Lift up your head" Jake answered. I did what he said and he put the pillow underneath.
After that I was able to lie back down. I smiled softly. I closed my eyes and began to sleep. Vaguely I could feel Jake stroking my hair as I slept. I loved the feeling of Jake's fingers in my hair. It was almost as amazing as when we kissed for the first time.
I continued to run my fingers through Midnight's hair. I watched as she slept, her chest rising and falling with every breath
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Sammi looked at the pregnancy test."It's positive. I'm pregnant" I answered quietly."Oh my gosh, I'm so happy for you" Sammi squealed. "Shh keep your voice down" I answered. "Oh yeah; what are you going to tell Jake?" Sammi asked. "I guess I'm going to have to tell him the truth" I answered nervously."He'll be thrilled. Don't worry" Sammi answered. "Will you be there when I tell him?" I asked."Sure" Sammi answered with a smile. I gulped and tossed the pregnancy test in the small bathroom trashcan. After I opened the door, to walk out I saw Jake sitting on the couch, reading a book.
A new wave of nervousness hit me. "H-Hey Jake" I somehow managed to choke out. He closed his book and looked at me. "Hey there's my girl" He answered with a smile as he kissed me on the lips. I smiled and melted into the kiss. We stayed like that for several moments; I was enjoying the taste of the chocolate that was on his breath."Ahem" Sammi answer
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A month later.....
Today was a day just like any other day. I woke up in Jake's bunk. I smiled to myself and swung my legs over the side. I grabbed my toothbrush and went into the bathroom. As soon I was in there, I threw up in the toilet. I gasped to myself as I finished dry-heaving into the toilet. I pulled my toothbrush out and began to vigorously brush my teeth to get the taste of puke out of my mouth. I sighed to myself and thought back to the day that Jake and I had sex on the couch. 'Oh god' I thought to myself.
I picked up the toothbrush and toothpaste and walked back into the main room. On the way, I passed Jake's bunk. He was still sleeping soundly. I smiled to myself and dumped the toothbrush back into my bag. I pulled out some fresh clothes. I walked back to the bathroom and quickly stripped myself of my old ones. After I was fully dressed I picked up the pile of dirty clothes and put them in my suitcase, deciding t
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It didn't take us long at all to get to Midnight's house. Once we got there, John pulled the tour bus into Midnight's driveway. He opened the door and she walked out of the bus and ran up the driveway. She pulled the key out of her pocket and stuck it in the door. Once it opened she ran inside and up the stairs to her room.
I smiled to myself and pulled out the biggest suitcase that I had in my closet. I began to load it up with all the clothes that I wanted to bring with me on tour. After all of my clothes were packed, I pulled my laptop off of my desk and stuck it in my laptop case. I then grabbed my iPod off of my desk and the charger for it and my phone. I stuck them inside the laptop case and took one last look around my room since it was probably going to be a while before I saw it again. I then walked down the stairs from my room and back out to the tour bus.
After I locked up the door again, I walked down the
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I sat on the bus with the rest of the band. However I wasn't really paying attention to the conversation that was going on around me. I was thinking about the twins and how excited I was that I was getting everything that I had wanted in my life. "Midnight?" A voice asked. I snapped back to reality and realized that Jake was talking to me. Yeah?" I asked."Are you alright? You're being really quiet" He answered. I nodded."Yeah I'm fine. Just really excited" I answered.
He patted me on the head."Yeah I know. I'm excited too. I can't believe that we are having twins" He answered as he kissed me on the forehead. I smiled at his kiss. I snuggled closer to him and he pressed his lips to my cheek."You mean so much to me especially now" Jake answered.
John had heard all of the excitement that was going on between us so he came onto the bus and asked what was going on."Jake and Midnight are having twins" Sammi answered with a smile."O