CrispTell me you love me
the way you love the sky when it rains.
Would that be a lie?
Then move on, move away,
let my clouds thunder
and my blood pour,
I am sick of this weather
but I'm even more sick of you;
diseased with a molding horizon
dancing along my hips,
I am ready for winter
so let it snow, bitch.
And sometimes that's all there isOnce there was a young girl who believed in three things: breathing, dying, and true love. Three basic things, that shouldn't be too difficult. What she didn't realize was that they are all intertwined. We breathe to escape death, while we also breathe to die. Then true love gives us breath, but true love lost causes us to die even slower and painfully so. No, she did not know it then but she most certainly does now; for she has breathed and loved and died all at once and then altogether. Inhaling only to exhale, breathing only to love, and loving only to die.And sometimes that's all there is in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
I let the water take controlIt's been awhile since I've been underwater,I let the water take control in Free Verse More Like This
so I drew myself a bath
and let the water rush itself into the tub
like blood to the brain,
as it pooled into the fiberglass basin
I felt the tides start to rise
while the pond I created began to
encase every limb,
my lips brushed against the water
in a liquidated kiss
and my blonde locks melted into the sea
as if my name were Medusa and
my strands of hair were snakes,
but my body dissolved into what it used to be,
I became the water and the water became me.
The Art of ForestryIf it were only appropriate to speakThe Art of Forestry in Free Verse More Like This
of a single touch, of what it means,
of what it feels.
Our forearms graze and so I hold very still,
I never want to lose a second of
you against me.
My entire being shivers along the
shores of your skin
and all of my nerve endings are electrified
when I imagine our relationship evolving into
lilac limbs, freshly kissed lips, and
lieing next to you on rainforest floors.
We create a completely nuclear reaction,
a mixture of fusion, friction, and fascination.
So believe me when I say, oh boy I love you,
I really do,
yes, I want you so,
closer than tires upon pavement,
and like a car you turn into me,
and like a car you take me places,
you even take my daydreams to extraordinary realms
where I wake in the midst of the woods,
the air is slick and crisp
and I can feel your muddy, autumn hands
dancing along my flaking, fir tree flesh,
the dirt runs damp between our toes
and we become nothing but creatures of the forest;
living off each other's lo
And I will Always be the MoonWe have gotten so attached to these days and these months,And I will Always be the Moon in Free Verse More Like This
but a deer doesn't know a Tuesday from a Thursday
and a caribou can't comprehend that it was born on a September afternoon,
but they can understand this instant, this moment, this breath,
only now, no longer the past, and only the future when they get there,
there's a healthy lack of awareness in that,
escaping the fear of death but thriving off the instinct to live,
everything so primal and based off gut reactions,
I guess you could say ignorance is bliss,
but ignorance only actually applies when it comes to humanity,
oh I would like a life like that,
one that is organic, tangible, and ripe with bloody berries,
one where carnal creatures run rampant,
one where we rise from the dirt with muddy thighs
because we were bred into these earthly bodies
to hold seconds in our palms like newborn children,
and to throw our heads back and howl against the awareness that we are dying,
for oh this skin is only our host,
i want you because i shouldn't want you at alli want you like i want succulent strawberries dripping over a white lacy dress,i want you because i shouldn't want you at all in Free Verse More Like This
i want you like i want complete silence on a sweltering august night,
i want you like it's dead rats melting over hot gutters and then it's your hot guts on my body.
i want you and your collarbones tied to my strings of saliva,
i want you smelling like you're some wild wolverine with incisors as sharp as rose petals,
i want you broken and bleeding just so i can nourish your wounds.
i want you dangerously close and always so,
i want you angry as you are passionate,
i want you in ways i don't even understand.
Tick, TockTo be honest, from the first day we met I knew you were going to be important to me. I don't usually get struck by people the way you struck me. Now it's more like the way you make me tick and I'm sitting here wondering if you even look at the clock. Tick, tock, tick, tock. That's the sound of seconds thrumming by alongside my heartbeats. I can't help but think that I might love you and how ridiculous a thought to have. How am I supposed to know this when I don't even trust myself? I'm second-guessing, under-estimating, and over-thinking. I just get lost in the way your touch takes control, causing me to lose any capacity to think, at least rationally. It's like the whole world vanishes and I'm sinking into your skin like sand. You take me away from anything real and that thrills me because I'm foolish and it scares me because it does. My common sense has dissapeared in your arms and my worry in your smile. That's why it pains me to be this patient and I don't know if it will ever be wTick, Tock in Emotional More Like This
waketrembling lips,wake in Free Verse More Like This
can't breathe, at least not steadily,
paint me turquoise
or be the forest to my fire,
actually I'd rather you were nothing, at least nothing to me,
now I can feel nightfall coming upon the manifestation of a July moon,
so let's let those clouds burst and rip wide open
just as though the clouds were my organs and
the rain were my blood.
i am a book of blank pages.We're playing that game where we trace letters on each others backs with the ends of our fingers. So I drag my fingertips down your spine slowly, savoring every embrace. I'm drawing electric currents through each vertebrae and I can feel you twitch under my touch.i am a book of blank pages. in Free Verse More Like This
I'd like to hold your ribcage like guitar strings and play chords that echo beneath your skin. You'd sound like a long, soft lullaby that tugs at my eyelids to close so I can dream.
My dreams are the only place we can actually be together, my subconscious takes control
and it's your lampshade lips along the shadows of my feet,
then I'm spilling my shoulders like chandeliers onto your carcass
and I'm drinking in this surreal moment like wine, because it is so bittersweet.
In my conscious mind I'm lying awake at night with toothpicks propping open my eyelids
because days are tasting like stale bread and empty space
and I'm realizing that space might actually be what we need,
screw that, what we need is each other and I need you
as we become ghostsThe air is smooth and thin,as we become ghosts in Free Verse More Like This
running over my shoulders like buttermilk,
curling wax fingers
and smoke escaping my oak tree bones,
I don't know where I'll end up yet but
I know I'm close,
and I know I'm close because I'm still breathing,
inhaling that charred floral scent
where dahlias are breeding in the curves of my collarbone
and lilacs are blooming between each vertebrae,
intertwining with every rib, climbing them like strands of DNA,
oh you know I wouldn't mind if you used my ribs for a ladder,
go ahead and use me up like some sort of construction worker,
for my body is yours to take, my heart to break,
but I should let you know now that this love is a disease,
it will leave you in ruins with teeth like Aztec tombs rotting inside your mouth,
and it will leave your hands forming empty circles in the sky where the stars should be,
but all of this is okay because when we're together I can see the moon in your eyes
and the sun in your lips,
when they dare form a smile, your kiss
the quiet musings of an almost dead womani feel the world. it weighs on me in the empty hours between dusk and dawn, the hours when the birds are nested and the grass can do no more than whisper beneath the touch of the wind.the quiet musings of an almost dead woman in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
i feel the world and it is both new and old, both stillborn and throbbing with well-lived life, and it is heavy with its own weightlessness.
i feel the world but the world does not feel me; i do not feel me. my skin is a prayer to the soft curves of the oceans and the hard ridges of the mountains instead of a testament to my being.
i feel the world echo within my confines-- i feel myself become the world.
know your mind and your heartsome people are like second skins. the banter, the familiarity, is home to my tired soul and i am ready, always, to slip into that second abode and live out my life within its mobile security, to lose myself within another person's confines.know your mind and your heart in Emotional More Like This
yes, i am strong. and yes, i can make it on my own, but that doesn't mean that i want to. i want a home outside myself, i want the freedom that comes with their actions-- i want that second skin and no matter how many other things i control, i can never rein in this want.
all of heryou know a girl that presses her lips to yourall of her in Free Verse More Like This
and promises that she loves you in a
but does not think of you when she loves
#1we have lived within close proximity of one another for years but it has never been peaceful and now, when i am twenty-one and vacant, all i can say is that you have driven me from grieving for never having had your love, to the silent insanity of not understanding why i should have to try to earn it at all.#1 in Letters More Like This
shoes that don't fit should never be worni have used every ocean metaphorshoes that don't fit should never be worn in Free Verse More Like This
known to my tongue
to describe the contours of your bones
and still, it has not been enough
to capture the essence that you let loose.
you are a cacophony of mistakes
and misconceptions in the dark of four a.m.
and i have never found a metaphor
that fits the shape of your ego
with enough space left over for me to fit inside it.
your eyes are not oceans.
no matter how many times
i have tried to force that imagery on them,
it's always a wrong fit.
i am better now,
older than i was
when i first forced you
into the coffin i handmade for you.
it is my eyes that are the twin oceans,
yours are just the deep fissures
that split the sand
to swallow the white whales.
i am tired of forcing you into cliches
that were never made to fit you.
sick of asking you to breathe in,
no - more,
while i lace up the latest petticoat.
you were never meant to slip
within the folds of the ocean;
you were meant to br
crepe paper skin doesn't billow in the breezeit wears thincrepe paper skin doesn't billow in the breeze in Free Verse More Like This
and thinner still.
infected with anorexia,
it breaks down until
the stars shine through;
unable to fathom themselves into
they free float.
has never been more beautiful
than it is today.
when her stomach lining
with her matchstick limbs,
urging them to flash red,
and blue, again:
across her wrists but sirens
in a year, thistles will
sprout from her
and the world will begin
the process of
freedom is smothered before it is birthedi am a canopic jar for organsfreedom is smothered before it is birthed in Free Verse More Like This
placed within me without my consent
during a stay within a womb i did not choose.
i won't run from this quiet fatea quiet storm crashes onto my calves,i won't run from this quiet fate in Free Verse More Like This
half empty and needing,
and the sun has swallowed herself
out of pity,
and out of spite for colour.
decay chews at me,
gnaws at bones already brittle
and watches as they splinter into
coral and catch on the breeze,
swept by thunder into the arms of the storm
as my flesh and flowers wilt together--
and this will be the time when god
buries me in his neverland,
fears dismissed and anxieties
lessened into non-existence in the half-light.
an end to boys like josephthe problem with boys who paradean end to boys like joseph in Free Verse More Like This
as ghosts is that they force your
heart to leap into your mouth
so that you're too busy choking on it
to tell them the bitter truth that
courses through your veins;
they stopper your reality and slam their
fantasy down into your bones until
they ache and thunderstorms rock your soul.
a year later, when their
arms are tired from pressing you down,
you're too lost to find your
way back to scream; too tired to
stir your battered bones and fight
for a right that has always been your own.
but year by year, their arms
loosen and their eyes distance themselves
from you and finally, your lips are red
instead of blue and your bruises have
healed and you scream, and scream again
just to be sure you've been heard.
you spit fire into his wounds and exorcise him
from your soul until you can stand on your
own two feet and make your way back.
he lets you, and you feel the sti
catch a falling star, put it in your pocketthere's something about those little brokencatch a falling star, put it in your pocket in Free Verse More Like This
dreamer girls with misproportionate promises
and lingering whispers,
who walk like angels, lost, and trying
to find a way back home;
whose hearts bleed abnormally loud
and resonant- those girls with
shadows like ghosts [dead and haunting],
that make them a flavor
to taint your tongue.
if you listen close, you can hear the
unraveling words that once knit the hollow space
between their bones,
you can hear their shallow sighs like
sun sets for a final time.
you can hear their ticking time bomb lungs
and you can touch their secrets, because they
wear them on their skin. not like wounds,
more like sun kisses or wispy tattoos
ingrained into who they are; you won't know
what they mean until you connect the dots
and find answers in their questioning stares.
they'd like to remain something unknown, because
they've identified the world as a disease- vile and
insidious, with the capability of sinking
underneath your flesh and changing who you are.
Amnesiacsmaybe you forgot how toAmnesiacs in Free Verse More Like This
wake up without screaming.
she smiles like a broken dawn
and the meek will inherit the
earth, if they don't drown,
first. she's barely breathing;
trying to grow gills because
it's only in the state of dying
that we adapt.
and you won't see the colors
pouring out of her chest, you
won't hear the ebbing swansong
she hums so quietly.
you didn't come to be reminded.
you inject a little further, a little
closer to the heart. numb.
(she died the day she
was given a name)
she made you promise never
to be a number, or a majority;
she made your heart beat in a way
that made you think you were alive,
but you can't believe in anything
that lasts longer than a minute.
you shut down. fingers
close around an empty bottle,
a flaccid tongue writhes
and it tastes bitter.
she's too close, you can hear
her thoughts unwind, you can
taste her mistakes. it's too real.
you were never human, you
tell yourself so you can be
convinced it was never valid.
she's too close and
defeatheredand this is where we bury our hearts,defeathered in Free Verse More Like This
between self-defeating personality disorders
and burnt bridges and midnight ramblings
we promise ourselves aren’t true;
embedding our memories in forsaken homes
like it is a conscious decision to shed
our wings (reptiles don’t fly)
and maybe I am the monster of every
myth: wide-eyed and jagged toothed and
looking to regain a piece of myself the
world borrowed, many moons ago
as I falter and stumble over my own unaware
feet, wreaking havoc, reeking of self-acquittal--
all I ever wanted to do was belong.
dreams are flaws much like the hearts we
flaunt on our sleeves, and I seem to
have lent all mine away; I am
something entirely ignorant, in the dark,
believing fingers fumbling can find answers.
they never told me reflections are backwards
and the world spins the wrong way and
hurricanes are really an embodiment
of all our own withdrawals:
but one day, these walls will crumble,
and I will learn to breathe in dust.
Poets Always Lieambrosial fabrications arePoets Always Lie in Free Verse More Like This
easier to swallow down when
incandescence is a blessing bestowed
only upon those with silky tongues.
deceptions are beautiful
in the right words
because they are salvation, like a
rapture, they save the sickly,
self-indulgent souls from those
tragedies they used to write on the insides
of childhood notebooks about who
they could never be [themselves]
they rescue them from tremulous
corners and closets, hideaways
where they've grown too akin to
the demons they nurse; and drag
them into a land beautiful enough
to wear light as a second skin
(where lies are never discussed
but always shared)
are so much more comforting
than the absoluteness of reality
because self-resentment is as
natural as a heartbeat to those
who were born breathing and
abhorring and denying all from one
steady gasp of what the existent world
had to offer to them
back then their eyes opened, and
their fingers fumbled, born, they realized
the world wasn't as pretty as promi
WelcomeI'm ready for a romance to ravage my heart and tear apart myWelcome in Free Verse More Like This
dusty limbs, I'm waiting for someone to take my breath and
never give it back; I'm prepared to sell all I was for a trip
somewhere new - beyond the paper mistakes I sailed away
down the river long ago. (even rocks and leaden thoughts
won't let the truth sink.)
I left my being somewhere under a waning summer sun
when the trees hummed melodies of moving on;
my soul still stays there, porous and pining and
lost. Dying stars don't lead home.
it's more than just losing
your words, it's losing
I am someone who mourns Sunday morning for another lost
week. I am weak, I am of mice and the men who cower
beneath compromisable truths. I have already
made more mistakes than loose fingers in
two days and a little breathing room.
I am not special. I am the worst
kind of normal, and further
more, I am sorry.
I am me.
and He believedalong the road to change, you decide:and He believed in Free Verse More Like This
you lack a heart. your voice will
tear the world asunder. you
wreak havoc on the unassuming,
because you stopped trusting in
institutional stability the day
God poured over you.
He cleansed you in his tears, He said
He built you strong- it was
an obligation with weighted
requirements. He drove nails into
your flesh to test your faith,
you were pained and you were
you were a prize, a person to
swallow lechery and lead our world
into redemption; you would tempt us
from our questions why
everyone needs a Hero
(but who do you have?)
I cared about you, once, when
you were unbroken and not yet
perfect; when you still believed
the sun had a reason it rose.
but you never felt a thing because
when God drove into you, He whispered
away all human instincts
(no one should ever have to love
a shattered world)
Skylight SongsI am not the dysfunctional light switch,Skylight Songs in Free Verse More Like This
17 times a day on again off again but
I think sometimes I’m caught in the parallels of
my own distorted perception and I just see
a jagged world falling fast and
you are blue, the deep
cyan-scented thing of night I crave, blue.
beautiful bleeding blue who cries like
the breaking sky and sings like a summer night,
I am invisible, changing before your eyes.
nauseous regurgitation of every color
I’ve ever loved,
while these crystalline dreams tinted teal
cradle me to sleep
expired warningsI hate to break it to you but we're all betting on the day whenexpired warnings in Free Verse More Like This
your nightmares will swallow you whole and you won't
remember how to open your eyes. we forget your voice,
it broke and no one buried the pieces. we're giving you up:
secessions (your ribcage is a civil war, your heart is the victim.
there will be no memorial; there are only red flags)
obsessions pick your bones dry, vulture needs, vulgar
mortality argues at least you're not alive
at least you can't see us anymore, counting the knots
in your neck and catastrophes in your mouth. in
your summer cage you were a soggy butterfly bearing
a cumbersome cross. now, we leave you naked and
seizuring on winter's doorstep as the little lamb who
never loved enough.
they haven't paid you for the dreams you pawned years ago
in exchange for a little sleep, no, they tied more rocks to your
ankles and begged you to fly - they said they traded your
misformed hopes for something a bit more fitting, a solid
dose of reality with a hint of self-h
Floodgate EyesPlease promise me something better,Floodgate Eyes in Free Verse More Like This
even if it is a lie-- sometimes believing
is enough. (sometimes knowing is too
much. tomorrow I will wake up
and travel a little farther down the road
to my own self-destruction. You are
I won't look back, I'm already wrapped up
in my fears of the moment. An intricate
web of justifications and anxiety is
tethering me to these uncertain feelings.
Would you finally cut me free
if I caved into you? Because
I think I'm getting close.
And I think I read the world all wrong,
but I can still play along.
because selling yourself short never did
anyone harm, and besides, I'm already
pretty cheap. I think tears used to be
worth something-- I forget.
(Sometimes a pit forms in my stomach
just to prove I've done something wrong.
It spreads like cancer, morphing me into
These moments have never meant less.)
I promised myself I wouldn't die until
I was strong enough to leave something behind.
Until then, I'll just reinforce my
a new daylet's keep it simple. let's just continuea new day in Free Verse More Like This
to talk and share our mangled words, indulging
in those people and memories once
dead to us; let's pretend I'm really a
fabled treasure- because strength
only belongs to those who deserve it.
(you don't yet know
how worthless I am)
and there are things I cannot tell you
no one ever wants to hear
what you don't want to be; no one wants to know
you are deteriorating as the world absorbs
what it needs of you, and nothing more.
it wasn't just an accident
that stole my breath away,
it wasn't fate that tempted the stars
to all come tumbling down.
the path to your own degradation
isn't as romantic as promised.
let's keep it simple,
unlike all the other things that bring me
dreams like nightmares about having
to wake up again.
everyone has a breaking point-
I measure my time in lengths
of giving up.
antithesis.before you let your dandelion lipsantithesis. in Free Verse More Like This
caress mine and let the sun
fall below your
there’s a wasteland inside
my chest that
needs some light.
heart of nuclear waste
in a convenient cage of broken
fences, fragmented and rotting
shrapnel for teeth under this
angelic guise. my eyes – cigarette
burns to the atmosphere, to your
sky-blue ozone tucked
intimate, those parallel universes you
but my blood is a biohazard,
the radioactive words i spill about ending war
and metal lodged in my
harbors, inhospitable backdrops
in my nation’s waters and poison to my pain,
in my steel jaw that unclenches
sedatives; somehow we gas children
alive, leave regions devoid of life
lives full of stress
and disorder, countries wracked with
elapsed atomic memoirs.
the remains of my existence
splattered across a pink-pale slab
ruptured down the middle like the fissured
fingernails and the
mouths as the clouds inside
the biologist.prelude.the biologist. in Free Verse More Like This
i’ve found you many times
written in the frays of an
old biology notebook;
blue was your favorite color
& you lived between margins
of summertime grey. you loved
the idea of science & studied each galaxy,
nebulae, & cluster of stars
as if they were your own. you had scars on your
fingertips & chipped teeth,
but you still managed to smile
even while you were trapped beneath
i’ve found you many times
carved into the canvas of
you never once left a cut
that i couldn’t bandage &
overlook. but i do miss your
familiar sting, your hollow name
etching crests in my
irises. helpless, are the spirits
you once prayed to,
yet here i am:
just as helpless as you.
body & chapters.
i’ve found you too many times
splayed across my living room
eyes adrift in an ocean of
melted fire that trickled
down your young throat
so many times. though i can
recall your heart
entombed within my ribcage,
speaking against my wants
& hating me for
underage armageddon.listening to blood drippingunderage armageddon. in Free Verse More Like This
off your own fingers is surreal;
a pandemic for gods,
insult to injury
upon the wanting mouths of cracked
concrete as the acid rain
falls to split its skin,
to end the world;
“ a p o c a l y p s e ”
into the ears of our children.
(to spew a more terrifying
our lungfuls of air
no longer taste like air.
it’s your pride we smell,
our intestines we rip from our bodies,
to rid our beings of your
from our eyes, the notion of your
skylines of souls,
of my cherishing your precious
& forgotten inside
my belly. “i’m sorry,”
cannot heal the 10,000 cracks
you burrowed deep into the
of this nation
without even giving us the relief
of breaking the cycle.
wallowing in tiger teeth,
& lizard scales to adorn your
fragmented couplets about
broken heartstrings &
poisoned clock springs:
a direful nexus t
the sea lies.between scylla and charybdis,the sea lies. in Free Verse More Like This
i can only wonder whose
lips taste more like saline kisses
and less like misplaced misery. that could remind me
of broken impossibility, that could
allow me to lie my books of yearning poetry down. i
slumber in stories, of wishing that
when i hum to the ocean
mermaids and sirens would come to
seduce me, to steal me away –
hearts sink like stones in freshwater
when given too much
love and thought; though love itself is like freshwater
in the overbearing presence
of saltwater and
a shark’s blood.
waves speak to me, lapping for the sandy
shore: hoping for a child’s
fingers to appreciate its surprising
warmth, its hurtful sting
on freshly cut skin.
i slumber in stories, unrequitedly,
like breathing; painful when the
moon is high, and easy when
the whales sing their lonesome songs.
and someday, if the weather is
right, maybe penelope will let odysseus
leave home again
on another voyage to the great beyond. to lead the sirens
to me, to lure the
the wealth, the wrath, and the war.the empire of blurred visions;the wealth, the wrath, and the war. in Free Verse More Like This
resting its blind eyes
upon a domain of patchwork
bravery and philosophically
musings. i am split between
the king, the court jester,
and the knight: the wealth,
and the war.
an impossible shell of a man
said to rule all mankind, the prideful
yet depressed face painted
in poppy tears and
scrawls of distress,
and the valiance, the metal dripping
from my sides;
the charring dragon’s breath
might as well be
fortune cradles my children, in mountains
of emeralds and rosewater gems, oceans
filled with the impoverished
acids of my belly:
i never want them to
know the pain of hunger,
the price of prostitution, nor the
prejudice of living in a hole
between glass ceilings thinly embracing
and sheltering the protected
simplicity mingles in my bloodied knuckles,
the blocks of woods
in my chipping teeth; poison
in my tea, poetry
overflowing my mind with
thoughts of who i should
the mortician.january: when i was stupidthe mortician. in Free Verse More Like This
enough to embark down the
path of death.
mortician, teach me the ways
of understanding death
a bit too close
to the broken clock
in your equally as broken
mind. i have grown
quite fond of the
smell of formaldehyde,
of the citrus oxides
you deploy to
deter suspicious neighbors.
i want to sleep
& dream of a body all my
own (& maybe for you too), to forget the
scars that caress me, but what i
isn’t always death’s
cup of tea. however, it always
seems like it’s your pleasure
to show me the books on
burials & committals & cults
skirting the ideals of the bible
to better under the world’s
bible of empathy.
so i sit,
split in between an existence
bent on our nirvana,
or an afterlife sewn
into the paper-thin-morale of
july: when i finally realized
that love is real
even in the presence of death.
mortician, teach me how to
smile without my
skeleton wilting under
love is hell, but so is war.our hearts beatlove is hell, but so is war. in Free Verse More Like This
in the same sugarcane
ribcage, our blood running thick;
rosewater glue. slumber
a distant memory,
the globe of spiritual life
floating just above
our blue-bridged horizon,
the hills had never
looked so pink
behind these glasses.
upon the afternoon
the scars suddenly
appeared along my angel wings,
my flesh peeling at the corners,
all i wished was to hold
your heart in my birdcage,
within my asylum for lovers.
i want to kiss you hard
in the pouring rain,
in a rain that could melt our steel bars
& plummet the divine
orb of bursting-orange life
to the ground; a storm that rages
between my collarbone yet ends midst the
hollow lodged in my hips,
i need you to experience
my monsoon. it is painful, though
i need not warn you,
simply because i found you
tossed astray in this bucketing rain.
your hair a forest,
your eyes glossy with lost blood;
i need not warn you
because i found your broken
the warm precincts of my own.
kingdom by the sea.we traveled a broken shore, listeningkingdom by the sea. in Free Verse More Like This
to the calls of many a lovelorn seabird;
shipwrecks carry on the songs of lost-hearted sirens,
memorabilia tucked into threadbare
towels, splotched in bloodstains
of a stillbirth
beneath the ringing clock tower
blaring over storm-rustled depths.
my wife held her locket
amidst the ruffles along her breast,
watched the sunset’s teardrops
settle, playfully nestle
into the blue waters of
the atlantic. we were homebound,
though our baby was
lost at sea.
remains of our love affair lay
in rips on that island’s crest, &
a hurricane hath never loved a woman
so harshly, with what fervor i felt
burning into my
heart, with what hatred i felt
ablaze, running amuck in my lungs
for whatever god dare
lay his hands on my unborn child’s
yet soulless fingertips.
she was never blond, eyes rippling azure
as any dutch lass at the age of
ripened twenty-two, alas;
her chest had grown pale in health,
hair a disheveled, loosely-curled mess,
& as much as my
the physicist.phase one: heartache & alcoholic beverages spilled beside her (the girl).the physicist. in Free Verse More Like This
equation: a sleepy girl that understands
loneliness & hurt ^ years of being alone x a physicist,
trapped under debt & a wanting of physical contact.
i’d never entertained the idea
of leaving the scars along my heart
without stitches or hydrogen peroxide,
though now that i know
the eyes of our cosmos,
a vast & oddly blue universe,
i can say i’ve tasted chaos,
& precious damnation
all mixed into the mimosa of my
very existence. i can say
that nothing had ever felt so good
than letting the fibers
of his irises stab my heart,
yet heal me all the same.
we are but a single stretch of life,
smeared across our
twisted up in gunpowder
that would never ignite during our days
spent in the countryside,
cradled in the arms
of the milky moonlight
as my fingertips trace butchered
russian over his hipbones.
& it was then i learned, as my cracked
ocean, suicide.let me slip forward, off the algae-ocean, suicide. in Free Verse More Like This
covered cliff, so i may rejoin my brothers
and sisters in the waves;
so i may cuddle the sunrise and mourn
the dusk at dinnertime. i swallow blood
by mere chance, the meal a
steal to the shark
nibbling away gently at my wrinkly toes;
eulogizing and crying,
froths embracing my face, tears a foreign delight
to my tired eyes.
the sea and i,
are one. a mother and child,
anthem to appraisal, living to death, contrast
b e a t.
jaws of ocean sweetness snap shut, holding
the fingers of sugar and
saltwater still at my throat’s opening,
bursting through my lungs
in the end: remain! air, not water; no,
air. i inhale the tempting brook, choke;
c l i m a x
you lied the night you kissed me.there is a thick exhaustion in the pit of my stomach, spreading to my shouldersyou lied the night you kissed me. in Free Verse More Like This
till they hang and to my knees until they buckle. and I will sleep for days on end,
and when I wake up I didn't really.
I hate you dear, I hate you so.
because there is so much to do, I could travel to the other side of the country and
paint a portrait of a stranger and I could sit on top of someone's roof and look at the
stars with a boy I don't want to know and I could fall asleep in his bed and listen to
him playing guitar without clothes and he'd take me out for diner and anywhere I'd
want to go and we'd have sex in his car and on the trampoline in my back yard and
we'd eat at my grandparents with Christmas and it would never be enough because
he's everything you weren't.
I think I lost myself, I think I fell out that time you ran away holding onto me and my
skin tore. I looked for her in that empty hole in your chest cavity, but all I found was
lost so long ago, and you wouldn't show me where it went b
I'd like to burn down town.She said I was everything she was looking for but I didn't want to beI'd like to burn down town. in Free Verse More Like This
found. Yet I was never lost, I wasn't even hiding. I was sitting stark naked
in bed besides her all that time and I don't know where she went looking if she
didn't see me.
When I met her I didn't want to belong to anyone but myself. Yet I wanted her, I
wanted her to belong with me and maybe she does, and maybe I belong with her, but
not right now. I can't sit still, can't sit stark naked besides her in bed all that
time while she's out looking.
My chest feels like a time bomb but in a good way. I'm out ticking and waiting to
explode, and once I do I hope I burn down the entire town.
I'm making houses out of people, building hotel rooms in the chest cavities of all
these guys and girls I'm falling kind of in love with, for a night or a week or a year.
It doesn't matter as long as I'm playing these games by nobody's rules but mine, and
I don't have a lot of them left.
We were lightning but it passedI'm not sorry I loved you,We were lightning but it passed in Free Verse More Like This
I'm sorry I didn't love you enough.
despite knowing how good you feel pressed up
against me and how beautiful you are on a
spring morning I'm glad that it is over
and I hope you can be too,
because in the end we might have broken more
than just our hearts
[like windows or collarbones or spirits or
I'm never sorry that I met you,
I'm not even all that sorry that I hurt you,
because maybe the two went hand in hand like we
I don't have a clue who I am today or will
be a year from now but I can tell you
that half a year ago I was yours and back then
that was enough.
in the end we learned it wasn't, but still I loved
you like a spring morning in march;
brief and sudden, with my eyes closed and my
arms, legs and heart wide open.
I won't say I love you 'cause I don't,but I've got a feeling I will someday.I won't say I love you 'cause I don't, in Free Verse More Like This
Today is the second day of summer and it's raining outside, yet I'm sunny inside
because I've got your freckles to wake up to.
And I know this won't last forever but that doesn't matter 'cause you make me feel
like it could, which already scares me enough cause we're way too young to think
about forever. I feel too young to even think about next year. However I can think
about you, and when I do it's sunny inside my veins.
Come on close your eyes, let's not think about forever, let's not think about tomorrow,
let's just find out how our bodies work, search for ways they fit together and ways
they don't. I think your freckles taste like sun and your skin feels like blue skies,
so let';s bring the summer into the bedroom now that it won't get outside.
monologueSome days I look in the mirror and I'm jealous of whoevers lookingmonologue in Free Verse More Like This
back at me, but then again I despise her. I like her smile but not her
collarbone, adore her enthusiasm but not her clemency, I appreciate her
trustworthiness but I know I could never trust her, because the only
one she'll always let down is me.
I'd like to be something I'm not for a bit.
Get out of this skin I'm stuck in and think in ways I don't, speak with
words I'd never say and maybe make a decision or two I would regret if it
were me. But I wouldn't because it wouldn't be
I met myself in a window one day and I stopped in my tracks to wonder
If she'd fuck me if I'd say hi, but she turned away with a hollow in her
eyes that kind of looked like the one inside of me, and I doubted if we
could ever be enough to fill those spaces.
I tried to explain in between hiccups why I was crying, but I couldn't
because I had no clue and I was stumbling over my words because
I had just started summing up everything that had
Hello November,I'd ask you to hold me close but you're soHello November, in Free Verse More Like This
cold on my skin and as I breathe you in I can feel
my throat thickening and my skin tingling and myself
wishing for someone to take to my grandparents'
I'm quite satisfied these days, I shouldn't complain
but I really can't handle the scent of pina collada
since that got me so drunk that night when my
rat died and my date stood me up and my bag got
stolen and I lost the key to my house. The music
this Halloween was terrible, though nothing
close to terrifying, but November, really, how do I
even dance to hardcore? Because my body doesn't
know the ways and I really, really want to dance.
I'm not alone a lot anymore, which doesn't keep
me from being lonely but it keeps me going. I feel
a little wobbly in my fishnets, with everybody
looking at me and nobody to hold but that girl that
kisses me all the time even though she's got a boyfriend.
Don't get me wrong she's great and I don't want her
to stop but it kind of would be better
I am not sure of what we areWe spent our Sunday afternoon blend together on your couch, high on hormonesI am not sure of what we are in Free Verse More Like This
and each other's scent. Without a single clue whose skin it really was we pressed
our lips against and whose hips we were pressing our own into. Now we're trying to
find each other between the sheets of your bed, but it's hard to actually see you
when my eyesight is blurred with lust and your pretty face sort of gets in the way sometimes.
I will have to admit I prefer biting your lips over listening to what they might
have to say, because your voice sounds best when you're moaning into my mouth.
Maybe we're doing this on purpose; maybe I'm doing this on purpose. Maybe I'm closing
my eyes when you kiss me because I don't want to see who you really are, and maybe
I smother your lips with my own all the time because I don't want to hear who you
But knowing I don't actually need you makes it so much safer to fall asleep in your
arms and not having to sleep alone makes me feel li
Kevin,remember the night we fell in love?Kevin, in Free Verse More Like This
no that's not right, you wouldn't because that was all me.
it felt a little like being hit by a car, even though I wouldn't
know how that feels since I've never been hit by one but I'm sure
it's got to be something like this.
remember when I first tried to kiss you and you pulled back,
my veins were knotted; glowing with adrenaline and you turned
away and smiled into the smokers cabin. when you came back
you grinned and you leaned in and you kissed me, but before
I could open my eyes you were gone.
remember the first time I went to your place, we lay in your
bed attached by our knees, and we didn't make love or even
make out because nothing was going to bring us closer together
then we were then.
Kevin, when the new year started you were the first thing on my lips
and I wished you would stay there.
remember when you told me not to wait up for you, and just move
on with my life? and then I kissed you, and you smiled, and you
told me he liked me and I
I won't allow you to allow me to let you go.Darling, you fell asleep so close to me and woke up so very far away.I won't allow you to allow me to let you go. in Free Verse More Like This
I cannot let you go because of the euphoria in my veins when we are skin to skin
but sometimes I trace the blue outlines of mine and quietly long for the times
when they were still filled with the apathy and meaningless adventure of our
Love, I'm sorry for the wordless tears in your eyes that I don't understand, and
I'm so sorry that I can't let you go even though you asked me to,
and I'm so sorry that I love you, but I really, really do,
and most of all I am so very sorry that you
say you're sorry every time
I tell you.
the world is only gonna break your heart.You allowed me a glance inside of you, opened your ever-shut mouth so I could leanthe world is only gonna break your heart. in Free Verse More Like This
into it and look down. It was ugly. It was a total mess down there; it was all yellow with
bitterness, and knotted with heartache. And I just wanted to climb down past your tonsils,
down your larynx and into your chest to clean up the mess. I could untie you, or at least
I could try to. You know I don't like cleaning much but I'd scrub your walls and fix you
up and let in a little sunlight. Still you closed your mouth and when you opened it again it
was all tongue and alcohol and hunger for mine.
You never allow me inside, you never allow me past the front door, leaving me like a
little whore in the alley behind your house. We've been there before, sixteen times or
more, but none of this ever changes. I won't stop wanting you, and you won't stop running
away, and I won't give up and you won't stop fucking me up or over or on my mother's
couch at 7am.
Now it's 6am and we're in your best friend's apartment
CosmologyShe left galaxies on his pillowcaseCosmology in Free Verse More Like This
where she slept the night before
of make up colors,
smudged and smeared,
blurred by silent tears
the stars leaked out with the saline
along with the residue of dreams
that she never meant to have.
Chips of polish decorate his bed sheets,
from her chewed and broken nails,
after scratching at the too-low ceiling
and his too-close back
while she slept fitfully,
searching desperately for space.
A Poet IsA poet is a liar with a silver tongue pen, and a bleeding heart on the other end.A Poet Is in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
We are anagrams and metaphors and sphinxes in sheep skin.
Every letter is an actor that we send into the wind,
And we're only as good as the words you believe in.
Inspiration at Point BlankSometimes I feel as though I am a slaveInspiration at Point Blank in Free Verse More Like This
to a mad muse misfiring synapses
from the barrel of a gun; her shaky
finger on the trigger, locked and loaded,
fae and untamed as the moon, she shoots words
and images point blank into my mind.
Inspiration, oh so random, oh so
She cares not for the hour, or if I am
soundly sleeping and will not hesitate
to enter my dreams like a visitor
who was never asked to cross the threshold.
(I would be utterly lost without her.)
Ink StainedI color your name,Ink Stained in Free Verse More Like This
tattoo your body;
it keeps us connected.
Lips reach for the words,
stutter and stumble;
you will never hear them.
Poems on your skin,
do you feel my pen
trying to find your heart?
Deconstructing HeartsDeconstructing hearts,Deconstructing Hearts in Free Verse More Like This
Hot hands stem the bleeding
That hot hands made.
We clockmakers work,
Taking these mechanical,
With drunken precision
And muscle memory.
These are familiar grounds.
We reek of apathy
In the moment,
So we tell ourselves,
Or some similar [non]feelings.
It's the smell of winter winds,
And distance in the air.
But we are dog-eared,
And beneath it all
We smell of mothballs.
With winter winds we watch
As we take them apart,
Deconstructing hearts --
We are purists.
Searching through secrets;
Grinding against gears;
Acid eating away
At the pace of the lies.
We wounded soldiers,
Pain for pain --
Bitterly we leave them in pieces.
AcquiescentAAcquiescent in Free Verse More Like This
A pact born of your apathetic scorn
And our grave-like silence.
You love me with my mouth closed,
But love was spoken with regret.
We will never speak of it.
My acquiescent, frostbitten tongue
Seems always to agree
With every word you do not say.
I cannot climb up the icy path
'round your treacherous cold shoulders,
It chills my weary, weakened bones.
I find myself passive and insignificant
As a blade of grass beneath your foot,
Crushed, but not rising in revolt.
I have already lost my heart to you.
Words not spoken are forgotten,
So we shall never speak of this.
MineQueen Mab spellbinds the brain into feverMine in Free Verse More Like This
overheating sleeping lovers.
Dance on, with your feet in silk slippers,
send him no visions of her.
See how he reaches as though she is there,
calling her name when I lay right here?
Burn with a smile in your sleep.
MelancholiaSoothe and subdue me,Melancholia in Free Verse More Like This
overthrow the ferocity
that harrows me nightly,
and all through the day,
when I should be
happy with you.
Say you will slay
all of my fears
and the forces that drive me
always to tears,
or this intensity
will surely devour me.
You won't escape its teeth, dear,
because you love me so.
You stand by your woman,
even when the wind is blowin',
threatening to tear our house down.
And the colder the winter,
you just hold me tighter,
will tear us asunder.
bravest of lovers,
have withstood all the tempests I bring,
but together we will drown,
stuck in its jaws forever.
Please don't ever say
I didn't give you warning
about the ghosts that I carry,
my love, they are hungry --
they want your everything.
I love you,
but it will be too late.
This is my destiny.
You chose your fate
when you held on to
the hull of this haunted ruin,
and the merciless,
mad allure of the siren
that has wrecked you
by leading you here to me.
SharpHow unfortunateSharp in Free Verse More Like This
that you should think it sweet
when I bare my claws
and scrawl my name
in lazy caligraphy
and scarlet letters
along the lines of your blue veins.
Marked men never see
the venom in a kiss
that tortures reality
and infects them with
portraits painted free
of flaws and bitterness.
It isn't my intention,
and I warned you from the start,
but you laughed when I told you
I was exquisitely sharp.
I will dice you with my rib cage
when you fall onto my heart.
You will end
as more pieces
of love I can't mend.
A Winter Only WorldWinter has sharp teeth and a wicked bite,A Winter Only World in Free Verse More Like This
The greatest wounds given in the silence at night.
Find your loved ones, grandma's quilt, and hold on tight,
Huddle under hand sewn patches to quell the fright.
Death roams the land in its starkest white;
Lock your doors against its awesome might.
Children labor, ruddy-cheeked, while the sun is high and bright
Making cold men and angel armies who can not fight.
There will be no summer, no temperature height,
No more spring with life to bloom and delight.
There will be no autumn, no red leaves in sight,
There have been no seasons since the sudden blight.
The haloed moon hangs low as a vigil-light,
Blue for the souls on the wintery world in frozen plight.
Love slipped through my handsWhen the stars collapsed--Love slipped through my hands in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Chilled, your smile
w a r m e d
So, I lied.I am a poet.So, I lied. in Free Verse More Like This
that's what my
skin tells me when
I'm slowly melting into
bed sheets not worth
lying in twice.
Half sick of shadows,
I think I've lost my mind.
My thoughts are s p i n n i n g
and my bones are shaking.
But I keep repeating re-peating
repeating your name like a mantra.
All I want to do is sleep.
But you see,
I bleed more than red
and there is this ink pen
digging through my skin.
Words are easier to loveI found little notesWords are easier to love in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
hidden between the
pages of novels
I only bothered
to read once.
and secret crushes
filled the slightly
paper of a lonely girl
with veins that
pumped a writers
a cage around
her own ink stained
[ h e a r t. ]
Paper HeartsShe tattooed love in a foreign tonguePaper Hearts in Free Verse More Like This
On her left wrist
Just so others would ask what it meant.
She sank her teeth into its meaning,
hoping one day the brand would bleed
Its definition upon her skin.
Lingering there, a forgotten kiss.
Lip-stick stained collars,
Little bones wired are ready,
Folded like patterned paper.
Sprinkled every which way.
Sharing herself fully with no one,
She made sure to leave her mark,
On every heart that beat her way.
Shhh...Whispering sweet little liesShhh... in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
along the narrow pathways of my heart
I caught the lurking shadows
behind your large city eyes.
And with barbwire fingers,
You stroked all my pretty s c a r s.
[Don't say a word.]
Poets make the best liars. His black eyes were stars, andPoets make the best liars. in Free Verse More Like This
the c o n s t e l l a t i o n s in their depths
told me sad poetic stories of-
past lovers, grey mornings
What is loveShe has these long, storm fingers.What is love in Free Verse More Like This
The kind that leave me wide-eyed and angry.
This gargoyle heart that beats 6 times slower than it should
As she loves to leave me with half finished sentences
and a p o e t i c tongue covered in ink.
She spreads jealous heat along my cheeks,
as my nights are filled with stardust dreams.
Her words fight off hurricane nightmares.
She is a ribcage embrace,
warming these thin origami bones and
tattooing monochromatic love stories along my curves.
Magic -Collab-Do lessons spelled out in chalkMagic -Collab- in Free Verse More Like This
Melt into your brain when it rains
The letters twisting into scrawls
Like kindergarten art
Such a tender age when we
Still believed in magic
(At least, some of us did)
And our cheeks were the apples
We brought to our teacher:
She never complained.
I never liked chalk.
It leaves my throat
and hands feeling
d i r t y
as I always left
along the blackboard
proving to the world
I was there.
"I will not talk in class."
"I will not talk in class."
"I will not talk in "
lines repeated like a broken record.
[A child's punishment
for speaking her mind.]
I still believe in magic.
2. loveMy love for you is less than three2. love in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
but more than four or five.
I keep it in a box – it’s free
it’s dead then it’s alive.
My love is vast, my love is slight –
for many and for few.
It’s in the clouds, it sees no light,
it’s old but also new.
It has no cost or strings attached
so buy it with a smile.
Its life’s so long that it’s unmatched,
It only lasts a while.
Because of it I was a saint
and sinned away my wings.
I knelt and begged without complaint,
I feasted among kings.
My love for you is gentle, sound –
It’s dangerous and cruel.
It made a clever man, I found
It also made a fool.
My love will watch you walk away
And never let you go.
It’s since I love you day by day
That my love changes so.
46. dropthey’ll make it look as46. drop in Free Verse More Like This
easy as breathing –
[ words rolling off their tongues
like pearls off a broken necklace
& you may comprehend it not,
but their minds are so beautiful
that you are dumbstruck &
left (alone) to operate in a machine
suddenly too clumsy and dated
& this is the way it goes,
& all the money in the world
will not buy you a new one,
or maybe just one like that. ]
you might think that
the sky exists between the
notes in their voice, the universe
is their body,
(the stars are a map to the
soul & you simply can’t read it.)
you may find yourself believing
that they aren't even human at all.
[ the fact, however, is not
scientifically proven. ]
& this is how you dis
FearThere are eyes looming behind meFear in Scraps More Like This
But I can't see through the glass
I'm being watched
On the road
But the creature is coming through my door to make sure that I am asleep
Run and hide before the light turns red
The light is changing
It is darkest then
There are little people
Under my bed
They are my friends
A hand on the window
Close close close
I can't let them take my blood
One minute has passed
The colours have stopped
Turn the box
Find the two buttons
Which one works?
Bugs are crawling over me
I can see them in the dimmed ceiling light
Cry and stumble into the next room
There are people under the window
They are waiting
Monsters are coming
But he's here
My LoveHe saw her as a fireMy Love in Scraps More Like This
Dancing like the autumn trees
A wild bird she was
Flying on the ocean breeze
He could hear her laughing
Her hair unbound as rivers
She was a lovely sound
The freedom gave him shivers
He could feel her breathing
Spinning on the frozen beach
Rhythms through chilly air
Sometimes only she could reach
He taught her how to love
She taught what it meant to fly
And on the sand they shone
Like stars in the midnight sky
you do it to yourselffeeling dead inside isn’tyou do it to yourself in Free Verse More Like This
so bad when you do it
it makes everything
I can’t write it out
but I can read it in,
the water and
one hour’s sleep won’t
kill you but
it’ll bury you,
everything moves a
little lengthier when
paralysed neck to toe
under six feet of soil
life is so much more
manageable in slow-
tiny white teeth –
feeling alive inside
isn’t terrible either,
it makes you want to
SirenIt's cold in hereSiren in Scraps More Like This
Beside the crumbling cliff
The tide is slow
Unsheathe your silver tongue
Reach out to you
Come out your shaking frame
Let's dance young one
The dearest girl of mine
The edge we see
Don't fear the open air
Jump off with me
We'll be with each other
Yes, hold my hand
Together we will fly
Circus MonsterDon't look at the creatureCircus Monster in Scraps More Like This
Holding on the cage
Kneeling and slouched on the
Centre of the stage
The crowd hollers loudly
Jumping all about
The presenter stands up
And begins to shout
"Ladies and gentlemen
Roll up! Roll up! Here
The most horrendous thing
You will ever hear!
"A grossly deformed face
Seen by no other
Today I present you
The circus monster!"
Lights shone on the platform
It shied from the glare
But it was much too late
It caught the crowd's stare
Red, bulging, bloodshot eyes,
Scanned the giant room
Filled with glistening tears
An impending doom
Where can she be? It thought
Was hoping in vain
That the girl would be here
To help bear the pain
How the audience sneered
To view such a sight
They laughed and it suffered
But it did not fight
"You are beautiful," it
Remembered her say
"In your heart," she had cried
"You will find a way."
"Sing!" the presenter said
Or rather ordered
"Sing!" he then repeated
Its thoughts disordered
It opened its mouth wide
FireShe rules the heart as certainly as she rules her art,Fire in Free Verse More Like This
measuring and proportioning everything
into the image of perfection. Her hands draw
and quarter the contours of any shape
she can touch with her fingers, a talent
men gladly pay to see--at which point
she pins her eyes on their features,
ready to make everything they offer
into another piece for her portfolio.
She infuses plasma into all their veins,
burning them all inside out and setting
their fiery forms into clay casts
to make the metal statues with which
she decks her atelier. I'm telling you this
because it doesn't matter
whether she looks hot or cool; if they're dry
both fire and ice burn.
Across the WaterHopping over muddy puddlesAcross the Water in Free Verse More Like This
I returned to the place where I was born,
a particularly sorry-looking set of apartment buildings
overlooking a courtyard with a decommissioned bunker--
it's a midden heap now, like the overgrown victory garden
that had defeated and overrun it, my childhood playground.
There used to be a buzzing classroom there,
with more preschool children.
The wall my father helped to lay down
to keep the hallway from getting too drafty
was shorter than when it was built,
the top bricks gone missing.
Some nights here when I've no time to sleep
I look out of my windows westward,
remembering the buildings in that courtyard--
to me they'd appeared much higher once--
across the ocean.
Foolish foul-ups...Foolish foul-ups will not be tolerated,Foolish foul-ups... in Free Verse More Like This
the yellowed grass demands his greener self,
as if the only color worth seeing in the meadow
was the deep vibrance of summer.
Keener observation from above
discerns worth in every shade,
a lesson learned at night
when everything is cast in black.
The rainbow is not made of individual colors--
each one is an aspect of the whole.
8 things optimism taught mei. I told him I wouldn’t write sad poetry if he gave me a reason, and he gave me three, pressing kisses to my temples, letting his shoulders lean against mine like trees into a breeze.8 things optimism taught me in Free Verse More Like This
ii. He told me that some poems don’t need words, beauty doesn’t always require eyes. He told me there is poetry in the slats of light encased within our interlaced fingers, that there is beauty in the slow passing of dancing minute and hour hands.
iii. I told him that I only saw poetry in the stamps emblazoned within my passport. He said that I was running from so-called misery, not stopping to see that sadness was a mesh, a filter, over happiness - that it was temporary, removable, transient.
iv. I told him that I only saw beauty in a woman sat in a café across from her handbag, as if it was the love of her life. He said that the beauty lay in how she thought the crumbs left discarded by her coffee cup spelt her soulmate’s name.
Spun sugarwords aren’t enough to explainSpun sugar in Free Verse More Like This
the feeling of your arms around
me at dawn when only the birds
can see and only the floorboards
can hear, as your chest rises up &
up under my spectral fingers, the
only time I feel real is when those
russet eyes catch mine, when you
whisper in turkish, I am a ghost in
the dim sunrise, melting into your
open mouth. I am spun sugar, you
are beautiful and the birds sing, a
floorboard creaks, the light slides
through me. Dreams chase & hunt
and I am an inconsistency in your
memory until you wake up; I wait.
'Almost' is almost enough, isn't it?You echo in every lyric, blinking'Almost' is almost enough, isn't it? in Free Verse More Like This
with every beat, I am spellbound
and you are not quite mine, but
close enough to touch, close enough
to kiss. And I am not quite yours
but my pupils are dilating and
my feet are turning and nothing
holds me quite like your words,
quite like your tanned arms.
Hunting starsThe reeds whistle and sing in the golden afternoon. Everything is stained with sunlight, coated in a warm honey colour that makes him squint to see properly. Around him, cicadas chorus louder and louder, reaching a crescendo just as the sun begins to melt into the horizon. The light scatters over the still lake, lotuses leaving liquid gold ripples echoing over the water’s surface, washing up his bare feet as tides. In his shadow, the waves are dark ink, spilling up his paper skin. He sighs, raking his fingers roughly through his tousled mess of hair. Eyes half-lidded, he lets his thoughts unfurl with each exhalation: the image of her smile, her frown, her scowl, dissipates into the drone of insects. He can picture her, legs set wide like a compass in the lake, her face blocking the sun’s descent so that the rays can only disperse around her silhouette. She is sick of him, her voice continues to whisper hoarsely through the reeds, she is sick of his job coming between them,Hunting stars in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
And so the lion caught the lambMy friends told me it would be painful, told meAnd so the lion caught the lamb in Free Verse More Like This
how they regretted the who and the where and
the why. (mostly it was the who, that drunken
swagger translated into love, those wandering
hands into trust) but I never expected bright
sunlight, sober lips meeting with a quiet sigh
as your mother tongue slotted itself back into
your mouth (I couldn’t understand a word but damn
Turkish is beautiful) and I never thought it would
be halfway around the world with a boy who was a lion,
feline eyes heavy, ivory teeth sharp but when you walked
into the room how could I not realise before that your leonine
mane translated into beauty, that your hips were meant to be the
first to kiss mine?
It will be a hell of a story to tell, and my children
will call me lion-tamer as I laugh (and I will read them
the tale of the thorn in the lion’s paw with a smile) and you
will roar from the depths of my memory with startling ferocity,
vivid in my mind as black eyes stare back at me on the other side
Doubts fester like diseasesI feel like he is the anchor at my heelsDoubts fester like diseases in Free Verse More Like This
and his trellis walls are feeling more birdcage
than shelter and I am feeling unsure where I
once was certain.
2. YouI have fallen in love with a poem2. You in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
the red roses blooming over your
knees, the blue violets threading
and coursing through your veins
I have fallen in love with the haiku
of your fingertips tapping syllables
down my vertebrae five, seven, five
I have pressed my heart like a bookmark
between the curled pages of your body,
free-verse freckles scattered across the
line-break nestled in the gorge between
your clavicle protrusions, stanzas faintly
whistling in the gaps amidst your shaped
ivory teeth, two eyes rhyming with mine;
I have memorised the stream of consciousness
murmured into my mouth as we kiss, as you
whisper spoken word lullabies into the crook
of my arms, hands bracketed around my hips
as if I am the metaphor crafted by your simile
smiling lips; the image ghosting behind words
I start to think we are the closing couplet of a sonnet
but darling if you were a word, god you’d be purple-
love, you are a poem,
etched in an alphabet
that I don’t understand,
that I can
Touchin the dreamless dark my eyes cannot discernTouch in Free Verse More Like This
where your staircase spine curls to,
where the mortar cementing your bones ends;
sounds are distorted, fragmenting through the ivy vines
weaving between roof tiles, you are derelict.
i cannot taste or smell, cannot hear or see,
all i can do is touch, fingers exploring the brambles,
the barbed wire fences around your heart;
all i can do is reach for the dead roots of rotten willow trees,
hoping they will curl around my fingers, bark scratching against my skin;
all i can do is hope that each kiss can plaster, can fill in
the gaping maws ripped through the walls, that my legs tangled in yours can
reweave the threadbare carpets, light up the chandelier glowing in your eyes;
all i can do is touch, feel the cobwebs disintegrate against my chest
and hope that one day when you are habitable once more,
you’ll invite me in.
(you asked me once why i kept my eyes shut whenever
we held hands but i can’t explain that
i can't recognise you with
Black and white movies play out in technicolourI’ve never been with a boy before himBlack and white movies play out in technicolour in Free Verse More Like This
who makes me want to listen to frank
sinatra, who makes me believe in old
hollywood films but he holds doors open
for me and doesn’t grab my wrist or my
hair or my ass and I never realised before
that that mattered so much. but this boy –
this boy has a 50s charm, table manners
and pianist fingers. suits suit him and ties
tie tight up to his top button, he brushes
up like a polished dress shoe and I've never
felt more screen siren than when he turns
to me with his moonriver eyes and asks me
if I would like to dance, or if I would like a
drink and this boy, this boy, this boy – this
damn boy has taught me more about
dignity and self-respect than any self
help book ever could and this boy, this
damn boy kisses my palms, my cheek, my
temples before my lips and his pianist fingers
play lullabies along my vertebrae and I have
never felt so big band soundtrack than when
his pupils dilate like trumpets blaring and
Cyclical loveI see a beginning and an endCyclical love in Free Verse More Like This
clasped within the lines of your palms, echoing
in the ripples of your irises;
I remember the apricot april morning
stumbling over your outstretched legs
in the park which I had never seen as
anything more than a cut-through, but
my life changed course and the park
became a destination and I still don’t know
when I noticed that I was waking up
twenty minutes earlier just to
talk to you before work, just to hear
your lilting voice flow through my ears and
fill my mouth with ideas;
And I remember the dew drops kissing my feet
when you convinced me that it was practically illegal
to wear shoes in june and I watched as
the grass pressed hatched patterns into your skin
and for a moment I wished that they were my fingers
holding you in eternal summer lawns, swan choruses,
whirring rollerskates, the smell of peach blossoms;
And I remember you blooming and shedding
the remnants of your cocoon as you pointed out
made-up constellations littering a swelling augu