infinity plus one two us.i forgot to remember to sayinfinity plus one two us. in Other More Like This
all these stupid things
you would have
liked to hear.
but remember you forgot to tell me
you insisted that cars were not
stop for fools that
ran red lights.
that cars were not meant
to stop for you and
stick and stones
were nothing like knives and
you were destined to
whatever it was
within the earths failing
just smoke more.
i used to scream and cry and gasp
because i wanted you to kiss my
forehead and hush me to sleep
in your arms.
you knew this so.
you just can't follow through
i miss you so.
maniacthey told me i'd be free.maniac in Free Verse More Like This
pushed me towards that bright, white room.
a perfect cube, the corners so sharp, and the walls all
so startlingly straight,
i couldn't tell where it started or where it would end.
they pushed me towards it.
told me i'd be free.
dim these lightsonce the world knows your every insecurity,dim these lights in Other More Like This
we can disappear into fireworks and its-going-to-be-alrights.
you will broadcast amongst the stars,
and nobody will have a choice but to awaken to your swollen ankles.
hard work pays off, right?
its nighttime now, and the stars have all burnt out,
maybe you just outshine them by miles.
do you remember how it feels to be alone?
you could have that mannequin with the rouge lips,
and your sickly words would echo through her caverns
and she wouldnt refuse, unlike yesterday.
i promise i dont miss you,
because you're still sitting by my side
but i cant seem to recognize you in this light.
onefourtyfivewe are not loversonefourtyfive in Other More Like This
because i am a liar.
we are not lovers
because your heart is the solute.
and i am the solvent.
if he wanted me then,
what happened to now.
and he's different.
i decided the boy who
woke up and clubbed till
he can't remember
who followed me to school
to tell me i was beautiful
but i am sorry
for the false number
and the numerous lies
well they never fell from my lips
they never fell from mine
but they still made it to
i can imagine us all
i think it has something
to do with the fact
that i just find comfort in
consoleyou won't kiss me because your lip is split and drowning your tongue.console in Free Verse More Like This
you won't kiss me,
no you wouldn't dare.
i want to tell your shoulder blades iloveyouiloveyouireallyreallyloveyou.
but i think, i already did.
stumbling into your arms on a busy highway with a cocktail that i cannot spell for my life, thinking sexsexsex on the beach in the snow. and you're saying
no, that's okay.
it's your brother in the emergency room.
yeh, he'll be alright.
and you hold me so tight and we watch these brightbrightblurry car headlights.
and i'm thinking baby, you never let me go.
no, never let me go.
you whisper all these words i want to scream.
and for then, it's all so right.
you've seen me like this and that and totally uncontrolled.
and i've seen you, yeah. and your eyes rolling over hills.
and your bandaged hands. your purple, cold cut hands.
and i think, minus your imperfections you're perfect.
and i love this, th
excellentlove is stupid.excellent in Other More Like This
you're just saying that because you don't get any.
that's sex, and that's you.
love is still stupid.
you have a loving boyfriend, why are you complaining.
because love is stupid.
do you love him?
i said love is stupid.
we picked out baby clothes today.
love is still stupid.
so are small cocks. penises. chickens.
that was widely categorized.
because stupid applies to almost everything.
whores are stupid.
you compared a whore to love.
i wish i was pretty.
i need bigger tits.
so he will love you?
what happened to loving boyfriend.
you make everything awkward.
for you, not me.
i talk and talk and talk.
no, you just drink.
i'm not an alcoholic.
i know, you're poor.
no one will read this.
they could. put the bottle down.
they say put the gun down in movies.
i know. okay.
you always say that.
love is stupid.
you sound like a stupid sadstory breakup.
nobody will want to hear it.
Fairytalesyou sat in-between buildings and let balloons get lost in the sky.Fairytales in Free Verse More Like This
[youve never been the same
since she told you to let go]
the city lights burned your eyes,
you hid in alleyways
till the street lights vanished, and all was black.
and she wasnt there anymore to keep you at peace.
she was made of pin prick fingertips when she met you,
and her tippy-toe, arms extended, fingers outstretched display
was leading to where her thoughts were lost
her remains of over-bitten nails drummed the table as she speculated
whats so special about us?
pausing a slight, to steal another breath from his cigarette. his voice weathered when he spoke,
the fool'seriously, this? this is the least of my problems.'the fool in Other More Like This
turns out your least of your problems killed you.
i smoke because i've forgotten what fresh air tastes like
and that stale buds keep pretty girls with glittery eyelids near
and the ones that care, much further away.
i smoke because i've forgotten to remember that i miss
what anything else smells like. i smoke because your eyes
look so bright beneath the spirals.
i smoke because it's one thing that takes away what
i miss about you. it takes away the brightness of the day,
the smell of lavender and strawberries.
i smoke like i've forgotten how to breathe.
cancer sticks were your coffin nails.
and who knew the price was more expensive
than you were worth.
'shut up, this is nothing compared to what i've done.'
then compared to what you've done,
nothing really killed you.
and you never ended up dead.
please call this homeit happened like this,please call this home in Other More Like This
we or me
or there was an us, or many of us.
and there was six, seven, thirteen bottles?
and we would scull.
stop. breathe in,
and i'm not sure if this is a dream or nightmare
or if it happened or not,
you were there and
where am i. where was i.
i remember racing to the end of the street
under dimmed, orange lights
and traffic lights
i remember racing.
i remember your pulse
and it went quicker than us and you
it just left.
you crashed my carhe has an accentyou crashed my car in Other More Like This
he also has eyes
annoying how his eyelashes are longer
than mine. but it's replaceable and
there is always mascara.
he looks unreal in the sunlight. he is faker
than my current manicure, even more
than my best friends hair.
he coughs to indicate attention. he coughs,
when he inhales too much.
he has these lime tanslucent eyes.
those fucking eyes.
and he goes on and
on about how
much he smoked
he was going to kill himself
but he was all too drunk to remember
to remember his brother screaming
he doesn't care and he laughs.
no, not like me at all.
i have you
i couldn't do that to you.
i often sit cross legged opposite him
with his rough hands in between mine.
and today. yesterday. someday.
i say. i say
i am going to miss this.
i walk away.
i will walk away.
I Thought I was Your AngelFall to the floorI Thought I was Your Angel in Free Verse More Like This
No words can reach me
You can't hurt me anymore
So keep yelling words
They only spin around me
I no longer hear you
But I'll just keep pretending
Pretending that I'm not slowly dying
That I don't need you anymore
And I'll just keep wondering..
Where are you now..?
How did we grow apart?
All I have now are burnt memories
And I can't stop thinking of you
You made me who I used to be
I thought I'd tell you,
I'm sorry I broke us
But you broke me
Now I can't feel anything
I can't even convince myself,
That if it wasn't for you
I'd never know who I was
Because I still don't know who I am...
I told you I didn't care
Not about how far away the stars were
Or what anyone could see on the surface
Because all I needed was you
You breathe on my neck
What did you expect from this?
All we had were your made up truths
And my broken words
Leading only to my tears
And your goodbye...
We could've slowed down
Let the world stop before us
There's nothing you can do no
I Only WishHair soakedI Only Wish in Free Verse More Like This
It almost feels like I'm in the rain
But I'm curled up in my bed
You're the whole reason I'm like this
Or is it really my fault?
Eyes never dry
Body never stops shaking
Stop telling me lies
That you still love me
That you'll come back
We'll be together again
Because you know what?
That's just bullshit
I've hard those one too many times
And I'm not going to believe you
You broke my heart
Can you hear it shattering?
Oh wait...I forgot you can't
You no longer care to hear
My words fall upon deaf ears
As well as my screams
I tried to make you stay
But you just turned your back
Said we'd be better this way
You're like everyone else
Why did I trust you?
Let you in?
Why did I believe you were different?
My eyes burn along with my lungs
Holding on to the last jagged piece
The last piece I have of you
It cuts deep into my skin
But I only hold it tighter
Letting the blood trickle down
Falling into the puddle of what I used to
Mine No LongerNothing dulls the painMine No Longer in Free Verse More Like This
Not even this knife
Your words are engraved upon my skin
You voice trapped in my memory
No matter how much I rip my skin,
Your words still remain
No matter how many times I lose my mind,
Your voice is still there
My body goes through the motions
But really I'm a thousand miles away
In your arms
Just like I always wanted to be
You lips meeting mine
Then I hear someone calling me name
I realize it's not you
That I'm only dreaming again
I can't pretend anymore
I break down
My heart shatters
I know you're no longer mine
That you'll never be mine again
I am forced to remember
Remember what we had
What we could've had
Something I can no longer have
But someone I will always long for...
You and me...
Little GirlYou saved me.Little Girl in Free Verse More Like This
Showed me what it's like to be ok.
I listen to what you say.
Then save those words for a rainy day.
Because each word is a work of art.
And I keep them all in my heart.
You healed me slowly.
Gave me your love.
That's why your the only angel in my life.
And when I lost the one I loved.
My knees went weak,
You saw my cry.
But you still tell me I'm invincible.
Even though my words aren't pieces of art,
And my touch isn't as soft or delicate.
Though I'm frayed at the edges,
I'll always be yours.
For you are my angel,
And your wings are always around me.
Your little girl
HauntThe emptiness in his voice echoed in my head like a scream in an empty cave.Haunt in Free Verse More Like This
My eyes scanned the thick white blankets that laid around me.
Lifting my head to the grey, moody sky coldness floated down falling upon my face.
My breath formed white puffs in the air disappearing into nothing.
I would normally smile at weather like this but there's no warmth to hold onto.
No one to smile with me.
Letting go isn't easy.
I know this.
But holding onto you was never easy either.
So what am I supposed to do when you just slipped away?
I love you...
But you haunt me gravely.
I am nothingWhat am I?I am nothing in Free Verse More Like This
What will I be?
What am I to you?
What am I to myself?
What have you proved to me?
What have I proved to myself?
for without you I am nothing
VoiceThe cold burns on my skinVoice in Free Verse More Like This
But your warmth still remains
The dark makes my vision blur
Everything but the sight of you
Your love makes my heart stop
The way your scent still lingers
Your eyes makes my mind shut down
Leaves me alone to drown in them
But your voice...
Your voice is why I can still hear
Your words make no sense
Yet I must repeat them slowly
Quietly your words come out
Saying them one last time I understand
We didn't make it...
The world fades away
All but your voice
Those deafening words
Belongs With YouI took for granted what I had.Belongs With You in Free Verse More Like This
Didn't think twice about losing you.
Because I thought you'd always be mine.
It's funny how thoughts are always wrong.
And reality is always so different,
So far from what you want it to be.
What you need it to be
At night I lay awake.
Thinking of how you used to hold me.
Rock me back and forth slowly.
Stroke my hair while you sang me to sleep.
Your voice was so soft,
I try to replay it in my head.
But I can't get you back
I still smile everytime I see you.
My heart beats a little too fast.
I try to tell myself that I'm ok,
That these feelings will go away.
But we both know that's not true.
No matter how hard I pretend,
I know I'm not ok without you.
You keep telling me it's alright.
That things are better this way,
You insist on this.
But my heart's telling me differently.
As my tears should be telling you.
You don't get it?
My love still lies in you.
And I'm starting to think it always will
My words are my downfall.
Your WordsLaughter filled the air around us.Your Words in Free Verse More Like This
A smile lit up your face.
The whole world seemed to disappear,
Just fade away into nothing.
All except you and me
Fingers laced together.
Your arm tucked around my waist.
Bringing me towards your warmth,
My heart was beating in rhythm with yours.
I wish I could have melted into you
At night I laid in your arms.
Breathing in and out slowly.
Your voice brought sleep to me,
Choosing every word so carefully.
That was my perfect lullaby
The air falls heavily upon me.
Eyes observing everything but you.
You're disappearing along with the world now
Fading away quickly.
There's nothing I can do to stop that
Fingers search for yours.
Missing your warmth upon my skin.
I try to ignore the missing beats in my chest,
Afraid your heart might stop along with mine.
Now I wish I could have you again
The dark lays heavy on my skin.
I toss and turn due to thoughts of you.
You're no longer here to bring sleep,
But I drift to sl
AmazingIt's amazing...Amazing in Free Verse More Like This
How you can make me smile so easily.
Just a few words and I'm laughing.
I would tell you you're a miracle,
But you don't believe in those.
Still...you're my miracle.
How your eyes are so alive.
With one look you make my heart race.
I would try to tell you this,
But you wouldn't believe me.
Still...I believe in you.
How warm you are.
Just one touch and I'm at ease.
I wished for someone like you,
But you don't believe in wishes.
Still...you're my 11:11
How you're all mine.
All the smiles.
All the exchanged looks.
All the simple touches.
Those are all mine.
And for once you agree with me.
Still...you're not mine yet.
It's time to D a n c e -ShortREDIt's time to D a n c e -Short in Free Verse More Like This
his eyes are cold, and on me they linger
drinking in my features like rain and
clinging to my skin as the sun shines high;
he approached me with shaking hands and
fingers laced of whine: h-h-hey y-you're
pretty c-cute: he stutters like an angel with
fear in his eyes and anxiety swimming in
his veins like there's no tomorrow for any
one any more and i laugh like we have all
the days we could dream: so are you: not
a problem with any of my syllables could
you ever find but my heart races like the
dogs up in alaska; mush mush mush mush;
and i take his hand while but
The Morality-Andalitebandit-6The claim in question today is "Homosexuality is morally wrong, because God says so." I disagree. I believe that a person's sexual orientation has nothing to do with morality. Just as it would be silly to condemn a person to eternal damnation and hell-fire for preferring the use of their left hand over their right (being left-handed), I think it is equally silly to condemn someone for preferring a person of the same sex over one of the opposite sex.The Morality-Andalitebandit-6 in Academic Essays More Like This
Let's look at what part of the Bible supports this claim. A few sample translations from various publications include:
New International Version, first published in 1978: "Do not lie with a man as one lies with a woman; that is detestable."
King James Version, first published in 1982: "Thou shalt not lie with mankind as with womankind: it is abomination."
New English Translation, first published in 2005: "You must not have sexual intercourse with a male as one has sexual intercourse with a woman; it is a detestable act."
Do You Know - sara-no-koishiDo you know what its likeDo You Know - sara-no-koishi in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Do you know what its like
To tell your parents you're a dyke
Do you know what its like
To have your parents try and change you because your different
Do you know what its like
To love someone and never say because you're are both girls
Do you know what its like
To lose friends because you're a fag
Do you know what its like
To never be able to stand up for yourself for fear you will be hurt
Do you know what its like
To be threatened because of the sex you love
Do you know what its like
To confess your love then to be brought down because you could never have a "normal" life
Do you know what its like
To try and stand up for what you believe then have everyone against you
Do you know what its like
To live in a world that is against you because you are a lesbian
The Memories - marz-m3When I first saw youThe Memories - marz-m3 in General More Like This
I wanted nothing more then to hold your hand.
And we indeed held hands.
I kissed your forehead,
I kissed your cheek,
and wished nothing more then
to be with you the rest of eternity.
The light of the playing movie
in the empty movie theatre
illuminated your face with cool, blue light.
Your eyes danced with emotion.
I stroked your hands,
your delicate, beautiful hands,
Carressed your cheek
as if it were fragile paper
that might fall apart any moment.
You rested your chin on my shoulder
and whispered ever so softly,
"Where has the time gone?"
I ponder this and sigh
"Time goes where it always has:
into our beautiful and endless
I remember that day as if it were yesterday.
We're 26 and 25 now.
I the older, you the younger.
I cherish the moment
in the morning when I wake
to see your face,
sleeping peacefully in the warm light.
I smile at the sound of our little girl
jumping up and down on her bed,
the frame squeeking.
She'll never call us "Mom and Dad"
Emergence - nokrosDarkness.Emergence - nokros in Philosophy & Perspectives More Like This
Looped in a fetal position, shrouded in velvet black. A corner.
Enclosure. Safety. Locked against the outside forces. Locked
against love... but also against hate.
Slowly, shivering, gaining the strength to stand. Stand, and grasp.
Groping in the dark for the door. Clutching the knob. Unsure.
Afraid. And yet... excited. Hopeful.
Turning the knob. Taking a breath. Pushing on the door, revealing a
glimpse of light. Warmth. Love. Understanding.
Smile. Encouragement. Support. Opening the door more. Happiness.
Relief. A peak at the wonderful world beyond. Excitement. Throwing
the door wide, then--
Blindness. Heat. Burning. Hate.
Crying. Screaming. Madly groping for the door, pulling it close.
Chocolate Mess - angelcowgrl3Chapter 1Chocolate Mess - angelcowgrl3 in General More Like This
How did we get here? Better yet, how did I get here? It seemed only yesterday that I was happy with you, happy with the life weve made together. How can I make our children understand; how can I make you understand? I never meant for this to happen, I never meant to have my entire life change because of one person. I can see it now though, all the signs were so clear. Only if I had figured them out before I met you, before our two children were born. Now the pain Ive been going through for so many years has to be yours and theirs. For that I am sorry.
As a girl growing up in a small town, your options for dating were rather limited. I met Henry in High School our freshman year and we dated off and on throughout the four years. Henry was the pick of the litter, the cream of the crop. He could have had any girl he wanted, so I took it for granted that he cho
Fingers Entwined - effamayNot a soundFingers Entwined - effamay in Free Verse More Like This
Emerges from their mouths
Though their lips still moving
For this is a conversation
We are not meant to hear
We are simply
Expected to know
That we are not accepted
We are not wanted here
Just because we walk this street
Theyre judging us, you know.
Plastic Hearts - ShortAxelyou sit beneath me in butter-cup trees,Plastic Hearts - ShortAxel in Free Verse More Like This
life constructed out of paper boxes and
simple cardboard paper cranes,
you look up from the book in your hands
pages all melted together from the clam
of your delicate palms, eager to go from
chapter to chapter without so much as a
break to breathe in-between the melodies
of vampires and werewolves and love and
lust and life and death and beauty and the
fire blazing in the pads of your fingers
your heads tilts, a globe on its axis, and
words bubble at the bones of your back
and I smile and you smile and the whole
world smiles back at us like the sunshine
in the middle of winter, lighting up the
sky with rainbows forgotten in February
like puppies lost in the deep black sea
you open your mouth and a sigh sings
softly to my ears, like the pulley of an
old stone well in the midst if the Sahara,
ringing with the laughter of seven million
tiny little bells, like the happiness in your
eyes of molten gold and mud and beauty
so very rare, I wonder how it
Please paint the sky...So you're gone nowPlease paint the sky... in Free Verse More Like This
You left us all behind
The world seems lost without you.
So please wherever you are
Remember every night to:
Paint the sunset.
Catch the fireflies,
To make the stars bright.
When I'm sad place the raindrops where my tears fall
Blow me a kiss in the wind.
Place your heart in the clouds.
Make the sun smile down.
Paint the leaves when it's autumn.
Make the snow sparkle like your eyes once did.
Tuck me in when it's winter.
Wake me up in the spring.
Summer tears may be all that's left but
Please, Paint the sky with love once you're gone…
Please keep the sun turned on...
Can you please say something?Can you remind me what it feels likeCan you please say something? in Free Verse More Like This
to laugh until you cry?
Can you help me remember
that there shouldn't be anything to hide?
Can you help me see
that the past is only the past & don't bother with regrets?
Can you help me build forever
and promise me you won't forget?
Can you take me by the hand
and tell me things aren't always as bad as they seem?
Can you really help
try to fix me?
Can you understand why i'm scared
and see me still the way you always have?
Can you help me remember what it feels like
to let everything go?
Can you say that as long as it's You and Me
i won't have to sit empty & alone?
Can you forgive me for being vulnerable
and not being able to stand on my own?
Can you forgive me for crying so much
even if it's silently on the phone?
Can you remember that i love
and trust you all the way?
It's hard for me to tell you...
Pour your heart outPour Your Heart OutPour your heart out in Other More Like This
These fragile these fragile w
Remind me of youI remember so much about you,Remind me of you in Free Verse More Like This
The way you smelled so good,
What cologne you used,
How you smiled,
And how stubborn you were
about me tying your shoes.
I love to listen to you laugh,
And still get butterflies
dialing your number at night,
I melt when I hear your voice,
And love to be near you
Oh and the way we'd argue over nothing-
(I could never win those fights)
So many songs make me think of you now when they play,
The words spill out in old memories,
And seem to reflect how much i love you,
As the melody melts away.
When ever an airplane passes over head,
Or a train passes by on tracks,
It doesn't matter where i am,
I think of you and laugh.
I used to worry I'd miss you with all
these things in mind,
And I'd miss how it felt to be next to you,
Miss your Lips,
And all those times we'd whisper right before we'd kiss.
And I'd miss looking at you,
But then maybe you'd miss me too.
But thoughts of you are clearer now,
And I'm not scared of things that remind me of you,
Because Loving you
UncertaintyJust a cage, is where you keep my heartUncertainty in Free Verse More Like This
The palms of your hands must be sore
From the pieces of me you've trapped there
Just the same, Could you wrap me in your arms
Feeling cold beneath your stare
Take me back to your warm smile
Back to the curve of your lips, a place I know so well
We are so Fragile
We are so young
And who'd have thought love was so
And who'd have thought you'd be standing there
when I looked up.
I found your eyes and you smiled.
Words UnsaidWould you remember my smileWords Unsaid in Free Verse More Like This
If I never smiled again?
Will you remember my laugh
When i'm good and dead?
Is my face one of those
You'll never forget?
I guess there is no holding back now
Here's to regrets!
If I disappeared
would you notice me gone?
If I shed a tear
would you hold me in your arms?
If I told you today how i felt and then said my final goodbye
would you hold me here and keep me alive?
Cause i reached out to you inthe night
and found you weren't there.
So here's my goodbye, i just wish i knew in my heart you cared
AftertasteSitting by the phone watching the skyline grow dark.Aftertaste in Free Verse More Like This
Bright bursts of color long gone, the sunsets never last long.
She sighs and stifles a sob.
She counted every second apart and keeps the light off.
She's fading gently and almost forgets to breathe.
Faulty eyesight, and her heart skips a beat.
The bedroom warps to another time and place, some place safe.
It didn't hurt to say "I love you" then.
It was always welcomed with a smile on his lips.
She'd stare for hours into his eyes, little did she know even beautiful things lie.
He'd kiss her forehead and stroke her cheek.
She'd lean in and feel herself get weak.
He'd taste like the sweetest of things and smell like the cologne she liked.
(She'd smell like him for days)
His arms held on tight and they could stay like this all night.
They'd be pressed so close neither could tell who was breathing and she thought she fit in this scene.
She knew his hands better than her own and would hold on for dear life, to keep him, and maybe to survive
I dare you to stay...please?I dare you to keep on livingI dare you to stay...please? in Free Verse More Like This
And stand strong through all the heartache
and we can laugh at the end of this disaster
smile because we survived.
I dare you to keep those eyes open my love
don't you dare close them long
Giving up isn't an answer
Dear this is where you belong.
I dare you to hold on tighter to me
Your voice is fading too fast now
Feel my hand in yours, isn't that reason enough to stay
If only i could reach you, if only i knew how.
I dare you to take in another breath
Cause you'll miss what this really means
Don't you know what you leave behind
Everything you miss in a blink.
I dare you to whisper
All that you can manage
Scream your hearts desires
Baby we can fix the damage.
I dare you to say you love me
and then try to leave
I love you always and forever
but i want more to fill these empty memories.
I dare you to be strong
Take my hand
Stay with me...
bipolar hearts.we use to watch Fight Club together, because she said that it made her feel a little less alone, and i could never reply so i held her in my lap.bipolar hearts. in General Non-Fiction More Like This
and she told me she was kalea's dizzy mind.
and in real life, you would think nothing of anything really, because she watches the birds fly just like you do. the morning rises on the same side of her window, and she can watch the clock tick away hours, just like you.
and she told me she was kalea's spinal cord.
i watched her pick at her fingernails for too long, and always decided i would leave as soon as they started bleeding. her arms are full of scars where she thought she felt something crawling up her skin, only to find she was still alone. i told her i was here, but she turned over(and i can still hear her uneven breathing)
and she told me she was <i>
william.dreams make him vomit.william. in Philosophy & Perspectives More Like This
he has spider-leg fingers and eyes so cold they could stop your heart.
(and they will.)
every night william goes to sleep knowing that someone else is waking up with his only friend, and he wishes he could brush the honey-stained hair from her cheek.
(not the man, who can't even spell love without cheating.)
william dreams at night.
his spider fingers are creeping up the jagged edge of her spine. her skin is the color of milk, and lightly freckled. william keeps her safe, and has made a tiny door, where he keeps her in his heart.
(he wakes up next to an empty pillow, with an empty feeling)
william writes a book in his nightmares.
she is in every chapter. her legs stretch across every page, and taunt him with sex, and things that spiders are not allowed to touch. she holds
messages.it's twenty degrees outside, and when he breathes into the air, the smoke spells sex.messages. in Philosophy & Perspectives More Like This
but not the loving kind, the kind where taking a shower just isn't enough to get the smell of him off of me.
he's all wrapped up into disney movie, magic shit. when i know that he is just some dirty subliminal message, and i'll get sucked in.(but i'll tell myself it's not my fault, because my sub-conscious should be more aware, and i'll pinch myself to make sure i'm sleeping.)
i know that's not right. (anything to keep me asleep)
if and when he holds my hand he squeezes 3 times, and that means "i love you." and i am aware that i should squeeze back 3 times because that is just courteous to do. but for some reason i squeeze once, and that just means, "okay."
(there is this part of me that wishes my subconscious could catch
mertha.i like to seperate my thoughts into names, to keep them in order.mertha. in Free Verse More Like This
my lonliness is named mertha, and she'd like to meet you.
mertha sits by me on my bed and we draw pictures of tulips and snails and wonder when that math test was. she takes my hand and grips it slowly, while singing that song my mother use to sing when i was 4.
(and i wonder exactly how she knew the words.)
mertha walks with me in the rain and understands that i don't like to be asked questions in the morning. sometimes when i'm sitting in the bathtub with no running water she won't leave me alone, and mertha knows that she is unwelcome.
(but she stays because she knows i'll come back to her)
she hangs over my head when i'm getting dressed in the morning. mertha pulls on my flabby skin and reminds me t
watching you spin.you're a disco dancing, drama queen with dirty hair and the permanent smell of stale cigarettes. but god, are you beautiful, twisting and dancing under circular lights,watching you spin. in Philosophy & Perspectives More Like This
and vomiting when you're done.(acid does some crazy shit)
your hair was once blonde and beautiful like your eyes, but now it's laying in clumps almost everywhere, because you fucking pull out a strand whenever i'm around, i don't know why i do that to you.
but i never really ever offer to leave, either.
there's that one song that i always hear you listening to, it's the same old shit about love and loss and never being able to forget that special someone, i use to get mad at you for giving in to such conforming types of art.
but now i just let you go, because last time i actually made you cry.
"would you rather fly, or read minds?" i told you i'd rather read minds, and know what everyone thinks, because you can fly on a plane anyday, but no one ever thinks the same.
charlotte.it was halloween and charlotte was dressed as an obnoxious pumpkin, because her mother tries to make her a normal child.charlotte. in Free Verse More Like This
(and charlotte will whisper that normal children smash pumpkins, not wear them.)
when charlotte was seven she decided that she would swim far out into old pine lake, and hold her breath until the colors in her eyes turned purple, like the bruises that slid down her thighs and touched apon her fragile feet.
(and it was then that charlotte realized, that no one would be around to save her, and that just wasn't the point.)
charlotte decides to be called "char" because it sounds like something silent, and distant. when you say a word so many times in a row it just doesn't sound the same anymore.
(because charlotte wasn't the same,anymore.
charlotte's first b
lightening bolt eyes.he has lightening bolt eyes and one fucking killer smile.lightening bolt eyes. in Philosophy & Perspectives More Like This
let me introduce you to whom i call "fire-fly."
he has ice white skin and something about the way his hair falls that makes me wish mine would conform to such a beauty.
looking at you for so long makes me feel. Really feel.
he calls them fire-flies but i say lightening bugs.
fire burns hot against his skin, and i can feel the heat in his heart
but lightening bolt eyes can destroy you.
but god, it's so beautiful first, but only at first.
he calls me his "freckled girl" and i call him my heart
and he says that i shine underneath the sun
like it was made for me, and only me
but he has telescope eyes, and those can see to the stars.
he has razor blade hip bones and they stab into me while i dream
lightening bolt eyes and freckles like stars
and in my bed at midnight is the perfect galaxy
and for a second we make one constellation
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her name is alice. there is a slight blood stain on the valley where her lips part, and her eyes are two supermassive black stars that can't show anything but hurt. she can't bring herself to look in the broken mirror puddles that are all over the ground.
(and i don't blame her)
she borrows her mother's raincoat because it smells like home. not the homes that are flooded with laundry soap or soft candles burning in the family room, but more like the paint she spilled on the carpet, or the whiskey on her father's breath.
(and sometimes, she swears she can smell her mother's sadness.)
when alice was little she remembers playing freeze tag with her mother. she remembers feeling anxious, and now she feels sick. "if daddy touches you, stay still, and don't make a sound."
closer1.closer in Free Verse More Like This
she kept the christmas tree
up well past march and its a
broken and sad
the words, no one understood.
but the silence.
and i hum in this
empty house and
echoes. the phone
keeps ringing and i
say. i say:
and you say:
don't. just --
but here i am and
there. there you are.
your face as delicate
as your tears today. and
i touch you as if
you're a paper boat,
about to float away. and i
around your thoughts,
afraid i'll wake
my clothes smell like
you. my skin
smells like you. and
there is a dead tiger
in my bed. we're
an electrical storm
exploding in the sky and
i don't think i've
ever loved you more.
make me stopsomething about nothing:make me stop in Free Verse More Like This
you know, the real tree branches just
don't strectch as far as your arms.
you know, one day i'll be able to get
that cow into my bedroom, up the stairs
with a trail of grass and cupcakes, and he'll
eat grass off my pink bedsheets and i'll
take some awesome photos.
i like to write footones because nobody reads them:
i love you. i love you like nothing i've ever loved before.
i love you forever and i won't be able to tell
you that anytime soon.
i love you i lvoe you i love you.
my cats are sleepiong on thecouch. and i am
writing away words fro my heart. and no way
des ,my head have anythig to do with this. becaseu
as you say, we should defy logic.
logic is insignificant.
is an even number.
i shall evn this on seven. because seven is un
even, and uneven number are pefect in everyway.
and your flaws define you no matter what they are
and no one can be perfect so why why wastwe your
time trying? there is a wolf at t
the places we gohe wrote to me:the places we go in Free Verse More Like This
that he sits in the gutter and he
looks up at my window and he is
there and he is not and we're
okay and we are
he wrote to me:
your silence is not enough. and i
think your feet caught the dust as
you walked away. and i think my
mouth was filled with dust
as you walked away. and i couldn't
say wait and i
let you down again and. you just
he wrote to me:
learn the meaning of wait. and tell
it to me. sometimes the flies belong
in the kitchen and sometimes i forget to feed
the cats and sometimes i
forget to lock the
front door and close the windows
when it starts to rain.
he wrote to me:
will your eyes ever stop wandering? will
you ever see your elbows, will you ever
see your face in the light i see it? will
your watch start working again and will you
open your damn eyes and start seeing
what's right in front of you? but my
lack of direction is like a broken
steering wheel. my lack of direction is
a map torn to shreds and sorry mea
5 postcards from nowhere:postcard 1:5 postcards from nowhere: in Free Verse More Like This
somewhere between here and
there i realised: good things don't
happen because of 52. they happen
because we let them.
and baby i'm afraid of a lot of things.
like the way your fingers read my skin like
braille in the dark. and i may not have any more
secrets left that way.
but you still like to explore every corner of
i have a drawer full of foxgloves and a
sandpit of forget-me-nots. i
love your stretching tree-branch arms.
you are magic, you are magic, i say. and i am
lost in the ocean of your eyes.
secrets1.secrets in Free Verse More Like This
you secretly want her faults so
you can have something to say
you were like her, you have
something of hers. only
i think her faults skipped you
and went straight to me. i
like to collect things i'll
never touch again, collect thoughts
and collect pasts only to
stash them in the cupboard
so i dont open the doors.
its the silences in between
that makes me think of her. and
i think of her everyday
i do i do. i even started
wearing her pocket watch
again because it makes me
feel like im doing something
i know you deserved
half of me
remember the days i was
lonely and i was terrible and
i was mean and i was.
i was not your
i was not i was not and im
sorry, so so sorry.
you dont need to shout for
me to listen. i'll listen
even if you
whisper. even if you
say nothing at all.
i like to keep secrets and i
guess im like my grandma, li
reminders i carry in my hand:dear me,reminders i carry in my hand: in Free Verse More Like This
you do not have a terrible heart. you do not
have sad eyes and love is not a war you need
to win. sometimes i feel like disappearing, but
we are never really alone.
every now and then, you can close your eyes
and still find your way. remember to breathe
because you did not sink a paper boat and you
are not floating underwater. you already know
the answer to the question you are looking for.
remember the small things, like the writing in
the borders of pages. see the things that
everyone else misses. listen to your thoughts
and then lose yourself.
laugh until it makes you cry. see things you've
never seen in people before. stop worrying about
your hair and call him just to say i miss you.
do something different and you will be surprised.
let yourself enjoy the sunrise. try and say toy-
boats ten times in a row without tangling it up.
have silly conversations about cows eating grass
off your bed in your room.
you are never r
Lovely knees, scraped elbowsshe wishes she has lovely knees, instead she has a lovelyLovely knees, scraped elbows in Free Verse More Like This
way to see the world. she doesn't believe in umbrellas, only
the stars in the midnight sky and the raindrops running down
her neck, arms, legs, spine.
she knows things that most will find useless: there are more
stars in outer space than there are grains of sand on earth. dogs
have over three hundred facial expressions, mostly made with
their ears. the average person will spend two weeks waiting
for the traffic lights to change in their lifetime.
she wonders: what if stars are just dead pixels in the sky? what
if they are specks with worlds living in them? that would mean
that we are just a speck to someone who thinks they are alone
in the universe.
she does not get along with logic. logic is not wisdom, creativity
is. she wakes up in the middle of the night and scribbles her
thoughts on post it notes: through the forest, down to your bones.
the air sleeps under people's beds. when we get there, we'll
be lost again: send me a po
look at the clouds todaywhen i met you, i stopped writing. i also stopped waking up to a face full of post it notes saying things like its bad luck to see the woman before the driving test, or my house smells like apple cider and bluebottles have eyes, or i've got static in my arms. i stopped feeling sorry and i stopped falling down the stairs. i noticed the stars at night could have a story and you could have taken the ocean and put it in your eyes. i also stopped writing.look at the clouds today in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
when i met you, i stopped trying to be a nice person and just was. when i met you, i discovered post it notes and then i couldn't use them. i realised my house was not just a picture of a house and that your silence is so loud and my loud is so quiet. when i met you, i stopped writing and i cut star shapes into my blanket because i couldn't reach the sky, even with a ladder.
when i met you, i traced the map of your bones and filled my hands with yours because i stopped writing. i also stopped walking backwards because i noticed that i coul
Beauty Begins With...Beauty begins withBeauty Begins With... in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
the bloom of tulips
and the renewal of
life within nature--
Beauty begins with
the bloom of a new
beginning within you
with the essence of life.
Beauty begins with
the sparkling lakes
while the sun
PresenceMy pillow is you--Presence in Free Verse More Like This
My arms snug around you as I doze;
Having you comforts me into slumber.
My dreams are you--
Thoughts hang and peek upon your beauty-
You dwell within my mind (past, present, future)
The morning sun is you--
Starting my day as you wake me;
Warm kisses graze across my flushed cheeks.
Water droplets as I shower are you--
You calm me, cleanse me- wash away my tears
As you encompass me as an entirety.
The dawning blue sky is you--
I stare into you deep as an ocean, pondering
As you fade away only to re-visit me come morning.
The stars in the night sky are you--
Your luminosity evident and your brilliance seen from miles away.
You brighten the darkness for me, freeing me of fear.
Everything is you, and you are everything,
Your presence is well known to me-
No matter where you may be.
Kiss Me, Kill MeYour beauty, it's elegant, yet,Kiss Me, Kill Me in Free Verse More Like This
It's filled with nothing but deceit.
Your eyes, they show
it's just one big lie.
Your kiss, it's cold, sends
Shivers down my spine,
Yet, they seem so real.
Your smile, it shines brightly,
Yet, it's filled with darkness.
Your presence it's calming,
Yet, it's frightening,
I freeze up with time.
This all means one thing-
You're my end. So,
Kiss me, kill me.
Time once spent happily, but
It burnt away. And, I was
Blindly, foolishly miserable.
Hatred from you resides in me,
You haunt my dreams.. I want to wake.
Your lips, they whisper the truth,
and it is oh so dreadful.
Your formidable plan,
.untitled.Saphire orbs drag.untitled. in Free Verse More Like This
and roll down your
to your quivered chin
where it hangs for a moment-
this moment of purity;
this moment of euphoria,
before leaping off toward
my inflated chest,
as you are curled up
in my arms wrapped
tightly around you.
Your shakey hands
held steady in mine,
I feel the transparent
pearls esape from you
onto my glowing skin--
I feel its sensation
as it soaks in instantly.
You lift up your head
to look at me with
eyes lit of wild fire
giving off a glare
that penetrates deep
inside of me--
I get the hint
thus I slowly lean in,
my ocean eyes
seem to ripple
from the tension
So close to you now
that I hear your
while I brush my lips
My soul lifts and
(except you and I; us)
Before I know it
and my cheeks
flood an ocean red
(as if to match yours)
my heart pressed
against your breast
trying to free from
its case, my chest
and give itself to you.
Your face brightens,
smiling, you l
AnchoredThis space between us- it's my anchor,Anchored in Free Verse More Like This
Even when I don't want to be held down;
Don't want to be grounded.
Even though your very existence
Gives me hope, and the way
Your love gives me wings-
The Anchor keeps me down, as if I'm rooted.
The wind picks up and its grace
Brushes against my face,
And Rustles my feathers-
It teases me with its taunting whistle (no sympathy)
As if to know I cannot fly,
For I am chained to the weight
That does not allow me to lift,
And follow it's path to you.
This pain is a chisel that eats away my heart,
If only I could tame it
To break these chains apart-
So I can fly free, in the bright sky above,
So I can drift with the wind
Just BreatheEven time gets trappedJust Breathe in Limerick More Like This
In those words you tell me,
You know the ones, that
Keep me going, keep me
The sky grows bluer,
When you say those words,
The ones we're always thinking,
That keep us going, keep us
Slowly the wind calms,
When I hear those words,
The ones I enjoy embracing,
That keep me going, keep me
And the sun shines brighter,
When I return those words,
You know the ones, that
Keep you going, keep you
You know the words,
That keep us breathing,
They will never cease
Their eternal meaning-
I Love You.
Your Words Your words are like poison.Your Words in Free Verse More Like This
They circulate through my veins, into my heart and mind,
Oh how potent your venom is,
It's only a matter of time before you make my heart stop.
Your words are like medicine,
They heal me when I am alone and afraid,
Oh how addictive your cure is,
It's only a matter of time before you make me O.D.
Your words are like knives,
They pierce my heart, and drain my body,
Oh how sharp your edges are,
It's only a matter of time before they carve me to nothing.
Your words ar
Little Memory Box1.Little Memory Box in Free Verse More Like This
it's hard to let go
of something you held
on to so dearly
something like you
baby i danced in the rain
in the middle of the night
wearing your shirt
i think i'm sick
i tried to burn
our photos and letters
but i ran out of matchsticks
it's a sign
last night i unplugged my phone
so i could think
for once in my life
then my mobile ran
You're a daisyand i stopped slammingYou're a daisy in Free Verse More Like This
my doors and i stopped
biting my lips and i stopped
writing on my hand
after you left me
i remember that one night
when i sat on my dirty bed
crying on the phone with
you on the other line
then you made me smile
the next day you were here
standing in my doorway with
your black hair hanging over
your amazing eyes
you held me so tightly
and you told me to forget
all about them and that all
that matters is your own opinion
and i believed you
i found a rose in my garden
standing in isolation
Anatomy of a MortalA human is not made ofAnatomy of a Mortal in Free Verse More Like This
Flesh, Bones and Blood
Spirit flows through my veins
Vivacity flushes my cheeks
My scars become history
That will never erase
A human is not made of
Cells, Arteries and Glucose
My heart carries my love
Hate and frustrations
I laugh, I cry, I bleed
I like to feel the wind
A human is not made of
One brain, one body, one heart
Because without another love
A human shall only
Song for you4.57PMSong for you in Free Verse More Like This
i sang for you today
because i knew how much
you liked music
and so did i
but i'm not blind
and i'm not deaf either
to the blatant way your eyes
devour her on stage
you love her don't you?
it doesn't matter what she does
or how much she'll hurt you
you love her still.
i think she's really pretty
and i think she's superior in many ways
i'm still thinking about the
way you smiled when you watched her
it melted my heart
and it broke it at the
love has never been fair to me
i guess this is
i love you too
more than she
Teenage angstFact: i don't know where i stand with the world.Teenage angst in Free Verse More Like This
They tell me i'm pretty
and yet i'm cast aside
like a weed that
They tell me they love me
but then they turn me down
as soon as it seems like
i possibly love them too.
They lie to me
They spit at me
like i'm garbage on the floor
and yet they expect to still be friends.
Fact: i wish i had the world at my feet.
I'm not ashamed to admit
that i want to stand
in a room above the world
laughing at the whores.
To everyone who ever hurt me
To everyone who rejected me
for a flower to look at
Fuck you all.
Fact: they told me to stop writing
so i turned around
to face them.
They know nothing of my pain
the reason why i don't go out
the reason why i hate my best friend
so they have no right.
don't tell me what's right and what's wrong.
Why?Why do you engage meWhy? in Free Verse More Like This
In love conversations
When you know that I'm yearning
To feel a sensation
Our hands entwined
Lips caressing mine
Every time I think of you
I let out a painful sigh
You've decided to leave
Me hiding in despair
So why are you still here
Opening my wounds
Is it impossible to leave
My life a little soon?
no title?there was never a right timeno title? in Free Verse More Like This
for love to find me
and when it tries
all i can do is shy away.
the life i left behind
when i turned my back
on those who hurt me
haunts me still.
you make me laugh
but i know youll make me cry
you make me smile
but one day youll make me die.
all the assumptions
linger in the back of my mind
until i cant
im too scared to love
but im afraid not to
because i dont want to lose you
but i dont want you either.
its a confusing concept
and it confounds me still
but im trying to understand it
i like your voice.
the other day i stared
into the dark
and i closed my eyes
i like your touch.
my night was long
as i tossed and turned
until i fell asleep
i miss your face.
so close to mine
i started to dream
but when i awoke
i forgot it.
or at least i tried.
Life?Mindless rantings of a wearied soulLife? in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
through it's struggles to become whole.
What is this thing that we call life?
Existence balanced on a double edged knife.
Joy and pain, Love and strife
it makes no sense but, such is life
Looking for meaning through this haze of confusion.
The answer is... there is none it's all an illusion.
RunningRun my beautiful muse, runaway.Running in Spoken Word More Like This
I know your chains won't let you stay
They keep the memories, the pain at bay.
I hope maybe you'll come home someday.
Run until you're weak and your strength is wane.
Run to escape the memory. Run to escape the pain.
Run until you can't go on, can't stay sane.
Run until you have nothing but memory and the pain.
When there's nothing but to face the pain, the fear.
You will confront it with rage and with tears.
Your heart will hurt and your soul it will sear.
Wound cauterized, maybe then you'll hear.
We Love You. Come home my dear.
ChangeI stand on the precipice of frightening changeChange in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Behind me is the man that I love and he feels so strange
Pain, anguish, guilt, and fading light
I wish I were a bird who can take wing and make Flight
I keep dreaming of things that cannot be
I love one man but he will not see
The woe, anger, and loneliness he inflicts on me.
The other man is a beacon of hope and of joy,
though he sees me as just another one of the boys.
He pokes and he prods to make me smile,
but he has his own life that I cannot defile.
So here I stand between lover and friend.
One I can't have. The others near his end.
So I will choose and loose and loose again.
RantingDo you understand how you confuse me?Ranting in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Do grasp it? Do you truly see?
Everyone's telling me how I'm supposed to be.
Is anyone willing to let me choose, and choose for me.
No more outside opinions. No more sharing.
I'm facing life head on no more caring
For others opinions and thoughts on a matter.
I can't do this again I might just shatter
VillainsWhat constitutes a villain in the world today?Villains in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
When all our lives are colored in shades of gray.
Are we evil in our own selfish ways,
or is it to keep our guilty feelings at bay?
Angry feelings of malicious contempt
We all feel them yet, believe ourselves exempt.
We want to be righteous and pious
In the end we are all just selfish liars.
?Confusion and consternation? in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Diatribes of condemnation
Attack and defend.
When does the cycle end?
Cause and effect, choice and consequence
Faux Pas and aberration
Tribulations of miscommunication.
MortalityMortalityMortality in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
A reminder of your own mortality whispers not of death but of life.
It starts as a whisper of unattained goals and of strife.
It evolves to scream of reckless abandon.
Yearning for a world, where we can still live on
The shedding of ones fears is liberating, yet responsibility is a cage,
Regardless of what we want the real world creeps in with rage.
The Responsibility of life encourages us to clip our wings
Don't allow it, Fly on to better things
For anyone it is a life altering event.
When you are reminded of the if and when ,
The cannot and the will not.
These are the things we should fight.
Hold onto the youthful idealism of life .
To look and see the beauty in all things is a wonderful sight.
Don't Let Me GoHold me close, my loveDon't Let Me Go in Free Verse More Like This
Wrap your arms around me, my dear
Breathe me in and remember, my heart
Lay your hands on my cheeks, my beloved
Stare into my eyes and understand, my soul
See what I'm feeling inside of me, my sweetness
Don't let me go…
Keep me close,
Don't let me stray too far way.
Watch out for me,
Don't let me fall and break.
Tell me the truth,
Don't let me find lies in you.
Don't forget what I say.
Don't let me forget you.
Don't let me go…
I Was HopingI was hoping to hide my frown from you,I Was Hoping in Free Verse More Like This
Over this distance,
I was hoping to hide the sadness in my voice from you,
Over the phone.
I was hoping to hide the ache I felt in side from you,
By smiling softly,
I was hoping to hide the tears in my eyes from you,
By closing them tightly.
I was hoping to hide all my fears and sadness from you,
To make you happy
I Love YouWhen Im not talking to you, Im thinking of you.I Love You in Free Verse More Like This
When youre away, Im hurting inside for you.
Hurt for you.
I miss you.
When Im talking to you, Im thinking of us.
When youre with me I come alive.
Alive for you.
I love you.
Love me?Do you dream of me?Love me? in Free Verse More Like This
Do you weep for me,
When Im not there?
Do you feel for me?
Could you scream,
And bleed for me?
Could you keep me?
Could you care for me?
Will you hold me,
When Im down?
Will you fight away my fears?
Will you love all of me?
Do you love?