Home Again D:Hello lovelysHome Again D: in Personal More Like This
I just got home...again. I went to the hospital, my third stay at the specific hospital so it was awkward with the staff a little for me in the beginning. I don't want to say what got me there this time but lets just leave it at I took a few dangerous actions against myself and I was saved.
I missed Halloween completely and spent a while there (longer than the average stay)
Now I am healing from my deep wounds and am severely itchy as the scar tissue heals I hate this stage.
Now I'm staring 6 months of outpatient treatment in the face. 6 MONTHS...oh GOD.
As for now I am not calling what I am in recovery, I am simply in a state of decision. Should I continue with destruction or save myself? I know the obvious answer but anyone that's been here will know that it's not that easy.
I'll try to be on now loves, sorry for my absence ....again.
Doubts and Ambition"Scars won't heal till you let goDoubts and Ambition in Free Verse More Like This
You're perfectly worth it,
Forget your mistakes."
"Love will save you from disaster."
~Forever Unstoppable - Hot Chelle Rae
Am I worth getting better?
How long is my life supposed to be?
Am I even doing this right?
Nine days in a locked ward
Has reminded me that;
Although I'm alive
I'm not living
Stuck is an understatement
It's like sprinting but
I never move.
As if I can't leave
Not yet at least
Trapped in this depression
Meant to be here?
I have no idea
Hospital - Life Has ChangedSo I volunteer in the emergency room of my local hospital now. I have been doing this for about two months.Hospital - Life Has Changed in Personal More Like This
This is the ER that I was rushed to a few times. This is where the emergency psychiatrist recognized me when I went in for the third time. This is where I learned all the security guards names because they'd stay with me all night on suicide watch.
I was working today and something weird happened. I had to pee (I know not too weird) but I looked around to ask the guard to walk me to the restroom....
I actually laughed out loud. I can walk myself to the bathroom. I can pee in peace. Kind of a little moment of "my life has changed"
Tearstained TimetravelerThe first tear was harmless.Tearstained Timetraveler in Free Verse More Like This
It was but a droplet in the sea.
For a moment I believed
that this is how it was meant to be.
I was proven wrong.
For when I grew up, my horror broke through.
Around the day of no luck
I reached the 13th birthday.
Happily I lived, not knowing to fear
of losing everything I used to hold dear.
The second tear was shed out of sheer joy.
it washed all away,
it rippled the world
caused all to decay.
The third tear fell down due to following terror
frightened, I wept, sad for my error.
The world was now an incoherent mess I could not make sense of.
After forever I calmed down at last
and my eyes roamed about
an unknown land full of unknown creatures.
My doom is my sorrow, my joy, my pain.
Cry just once and it all fades away.
I solemnly swore, prayed, I hoped
to never ever shed another tear.
Shattered Fairytale -Ch. 11Shattered Fairytale -Ch. 1 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
The voice of a curly haired girl echoed with utmost excitement and happiness as she ran into the throne room. The sincere joyfulness of the jolly call rang like a bunch of bells in the grand hall that was decorated with the colours of the Last Kingdom: bright, clean silver and pure marble white mixed with the light blue of summer skies now accompanied with the golden shine of the little girl's hair. The faint pink lips were curved into a small, yet sweet smile and the only eye that was showing was glittering with childlike energy. As her steps reached the spot right before the throne, the girl stopped and glanced about as if searching for something. The hall appeared to be empty, however, and the girl soon ran back the same path she had first arrived on, descending down the stairs all the way through the front doors until she reached the garden.
Upon hearing the call a head covered with a dirty green cap bounced up from
Nothing But Each Other - Ch. 1717Nothing But Each Other - Ch. 17 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Town of Liars
The snowfall didn't seem like it was going to die out anytime soon. Each of the unique flakes swirled in the air for a shortest moment, dancing around with the gracefulness of a ballet dancer before their inevitable descending to the crowds of flakes that covered the earth and the branches of the trees in the park. The most unfortunate snowflakes would end up melting in the streams of the river that ran right below Bow's feet. Not even the coldness of the winter was yet enough to freeze the river still and neither was it enough to calm down Bow's raging emotions.
The boy stood on the bridge that connected the two parts of his hometown into one big messy city that was secretly having some sort underground civil war behind the scenes. The rich part of the town openly loathed the poor people, who did just the same for the elite. Back when he was still going to school Bow had been a proud supporter of the poor neighborhood and had often started fights with the rich kids. H
Happy dreams yay :DOkay so I saw this really cute dream last night. : DHappy dreams yay :D in Personal More Like This
I was lead into this big ballroom. I couldn't oppose or question why this was happening. It just happened.
When I arrived in the ballroom, there was this enormous fake clamp with wheels under it and with this really pretty lady sitting on it. In front of the clamp there were several other people who were, just like me, dragged into the ballroom without having been told anything about what would happen. They were all sitting on the floor, looking around confused and I was set to sit there next to them.
And as soon as the doors leading to the ballroom were closed the woman on the clamp started singing and dancing. I noted that even though I really don't know the lady in real life, in my dream I was certain that I knew her well and that we were close friends.
The song was mostly about her. She sang about how everyone wanted a piece of her and how pretty she was. It started being annoying after a while but then she suddenly just threw al
Swagtagged -shot-tagged by ~MewMizuSwagtagged -shot- in Personal More Like This
1) Pick 6 characters in any order
2) Don't change the questions
3) Please don't look at the questions while picking characters, it's more fun if you don't!
4) Tag 2-5 people to do the meme (if you want)
5) Have fun!
PICK SIX CHARACTERS::
1.  is deeply missing someone. Who is it and why are they so important?
Grace: Me? Missing someone? Don't be ridiculous! xDDDD
2. Who could make  do anything for them if they asked? (Does not have to be your OC)
Eru: Uhm... Chiryu would be close. Although I think Nandarin would be the one to do ANYTHING. ._.'
3. Would  have the guts to kill ? Explain your answer.
Ashton: ...dude. Why would I kill my best friend?
Bow: :3 <3
4. A science experiment goes terribly wrong and  gets 24 hours approximately left to live. What will  do?
Eru: ...FUCK ALL THE WOMEN! :iconallth
Nothing But Each Other -Ch. 1616Nothing But Each Other -Ch. 16 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
It was a beautiful day in the middle of winter. The sky was cloudy and allowed the two vampires to play out in the nature without the fear of being burnt. Even after having been changed for 3 years, they were still after all that just two little boys who were still to reach adulthood. It was almost unbelievable to think that only six months ago the two of them had been sitting under a tree, ready to face their doom under the burning sun. Surely their savior could have been a little more pleasant to Bow, seeing that it was Grace who appeared there just in time to grant the boy's the shelter of her parasol. But as it was a matter of life and death, Bow had finally accepted Grace's help. Though more than just a little reluctantly.
As they played in the snow, laughing and stumbling, Tie's mind was darkened by a shadow. The shadow had been there for half a year now. Every now and then Bow could catch a glimpse of this shade in the eyes of his brother but if he asked abou
My life according to The Birthday MassacreStolen from ~AoSonikkuMy life according to The Birthday Massacre in Personal More Like This
Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, answer these questions.
You can't use the band I used. Try not to repeat a song title.
It's a lot harder than you think! Repost as "my life according to (band name)."
Are you male or female: Queen of Hearts
Describe yourself: Pale
How do you feel: Left Behind
Describe where you currently live: Nowhere
If you could go anywhere, where would you go: Horror Show
Your favourite form of transportation: Walking With Strangers
Your best friends are: To Die For
Your fear: Pins and Needles
What is the best advice you have to give: Play Dead
Thought for the Day: Remember Me
How I would like to die: Lover's End
My soul's present condition: Sleepwalking
My motto: Make Believe
I should probably chill. xDI saw a dream that I was in a video by Pewdiepie.I should probably chill. xD in Personal More Like This
It all happened by accident... well, kinda. I was asked to help someone play Alice: Madness Returns and it appeared that the person was Pewds. I didn't care though and just helped him out without bothering to be excited or anything.
Aaaand surprise surprise: he had filmed the whole thing.
I wasn't happy about it. In fact I was furious because he hadn't told me about it. My friends in both dA and irl started chuckling about it and were all shocked and shit. Even my dad was. Yet there I was, ready to go as far as to kill Pewds for having filmed me.
Need a chill pill much? xD
I can remember the comment section being all "omg she makes the best jokes" and shit. xDDDD