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Just a MemoryMy resolve melts like wax,Just a Memory in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
And drips down to burn my skin.
The pain within me continues to twist and wrack.
For the thousandth time here I am again.
How did it start, when did I decide,
That these images screaming inside of my mind,
Were the things that would heal me if I just opened myself?
Now this compulsion is destroying me when I thought it would help.
Beauty is fleeting, or so I once believed.
But now the mirror gives greeting to how I've been deceived.
And locked in my memory lives the worst part.
Its that I'm the one who gave this desire my heart!
This force tells me to do things that people say,
Will send me to an early
Music BoxI look into the darkness,Music Box in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
And still can't find the reason why.
How can I still love you after all this,
After you left me to die?
The salty spray stings my face,
And I stare without comprehension.
All that remains is pain,
That was your invention.
Do you remember the music box,
I gave to you so long ago?
So much time has passed on the clock,
And yet still the love burns in my soul.
You said forever and I believed.
Tell me why does nothing but a cold wind blow?
Did I really deserve being deceived?
Betrayed by the one I trusted most.
Now the notes that turn are bitter indeed,
And the sadness they hold can never be explained.
B
Beautiful Fool"You beautiful fool, can't you see the evil in this place?Beautiful Fool in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Why do you still look out with a smiling face?
Do you not sense the darkness that is so deep,
And all the heartbreak we reap?
Are your eyes blind to the suffering that we inflict,
All the cruel acts that are so sick.
You beautiful fool, your joy infuriates,
But at the same time my heart it captivates.
For despite all my anger and hate I am drawn to you,
Like a moth to the light your soul imbues.
I can't understand after all the sorrow,
The tears and things that should have made you hollow,
How you open your eyes and smile each morn.
My sweet, beautiful fool, why aren't yo
A SecretI've got a secret, can you hold it inside of your mind,A Secret in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
And keep it safe even if they make you die?
My dear friend promise me this,
That no matter what it won't pass your lips.
This thing that I tell you please keep fast.
Don't let it out even when I breathe my last.
These words which I've spoken are a token of my trust.
Please keep them hidden until your body turns to dust.
Swear to me that no matter how they hurt you or scream and rave,
That my secret will go down with us to the grave.
Lock it in a box and throw away the key,
For it will never get taken even when death is where we be.
Who I am...I use to think, that I couldn't change... And I actually still do. To me I have no meaning... I can't be helped... I don't want to be helped... Or fixed. I am who I am, a sinner. I was once pure... but that changed when someone ruined my life. I was once a small innocent girl... I was almost killed when I was little, not physically... emotionally. I was a sad pathetic child... Well that's what he said. When we moved away from him, here to Florida, I though it was going to be better...But I was way off. It just got worse... Then the day I was left forever by her, my birth-mom, I went to foster home, to foster home. I never spoke, cause I thougWho I am... in Emotional More Like This
I have a heartI'm a person,I have a heart in Free Verse More Like This
So please don't hurt me.
I'm not a toy,
Or a puppet,
So don't control me.
I have a heart,
And I can still cry...
You might not see me cry,
But I do.
I do when I'm alone like always,
I do when I'm hurt by people...
I have a heart...
It may be scarred,
But it still works.
I have feelings,
So please don't say I don't...
I want you to please stop hurting me intentionally,
Just fill your curiosity...
I have a heart,
And yes...
I can cry.
~By:Alisia Armstrong~
I thank youThis is to my birth-mom,I thank you in Free Verse More Like This
I know I shouldn't write this to you,
because of the things you've done to me,
But I want you to know,
That I loved you,
And I tried hard to gain your approval,
But it was all in vain...
And I don't want you to think,
That you crushed my dreams,
Cause what you've done to me,
Just made me stronger,
Made me smarter...
Made me,
Me.
So instead of hating you...
I thank you,
I thank you for making me who I am,
I have learned many things from what you've done,
And I'll forget that,
But I thank you...
I will never forget what you have done,
And cause of that,
It made me stronger...
Smarter...
And made
Oct 16, the day my life endedI looked at the clock and almost jumped for joy. 'I'm finally going to go back with my birth-mom!' I thought smiling. I kept running back and forth, packing and repacking, my things. Once the clock hit twelve I squealed and ran to the car, followed by my foster mom. I looked out the car window and when we reached my birth-mom's trailer, I jumped out the car and ran to the trailer door. I knocked on it and waited to see my birth-mom open the door. I waited but there was no answer... I waited and thought, "Well my birthday was yesterday... maybe she went out to bye me a birthday present!' I shrugged and waited. I refused to think that she "forgOct 16, the day my life ended in Emotional More Like This
Leave me aloneMy heart hurts,Leave me alone in Free Verse More Like This
And you aren't helping,
I want to scream,
And fall to my knees,
But I can't,
Not yet,
You won't get the satisfaction on seeing me crumble,
I won't let you,
You try,
And try,
And it's getting harder for me to stay standing,
But I'll keep going,
Cause I won't let you tear me down,
To nothing,
And you can try,
But I'm stronger than I was last time,
So give up,
And leave me alone.
~By: Alisia Armstrong~
I hate my LifeI thought i was loved i thought people cared. i was wrong even the people i stood by and loved they just left me and forgot about me. they blocked me on here and i thought i was loved by them. Yes i lost my FB but i tried to stay on for you all and that means nothing to anyone. Love means nothing to me. Not anymore, I truly give up. It hurts too much to think my love to anyone meant anything to anyone... Oh well... just as life i guess *cries*I hate my Life in Free Verse More Like This
Never WillYou left me…Never Will in Free Verse More Like This
And now I finally realize,
You aren't coming back…
Even after you made a promise…
A promise to stay with us,
With me,
But yet you left…
I always thought you loved me,
I always worked hard for approval,
And I waited…
But you never came back…
Why?
Why?!?
DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH IT HURTS?!?
Do you?!?
To be left by your own mother?
To feel,
As if all the things I've done to make you happy…
Was all for nothing…
How could you?
How?
I loved you but yet…
That wasn't good enough,
My love wasn't good enough to make you stay…
It never will….
~By: Alisia Armstrong~
Don't Give UpHave you ever felt,Don't Give Up in Free Verse More Like This
As if you can't go on in life?
Well,
If you do,
You need to remember the good times...
It may be hard,
But its worth it!
I know how it hurts,
I've been through the same thing,
And I still am,
But you need to think about all the people who love you...
All the people that care...
You can't give up!
Don't give up!
You will live through this,
I know you will...
Everyone does.
~By:Alisia Armstrong~
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