.september -. in Personal More Like This
i've been under
the illusion it's
for four days,
i sit on your knee
at the kitchen table,
roll one of the
bullets under my finger
cold gold and
do you know what
that is? -
but i don't think
you do -
you're fuckin weird,
you know that? fuckin
cold, maybe i'll just
start calling you
and he does
they grace me with
three days, and i cannot
to come with me
the only time i like you
is when you're asleep,
i gnaw one leg out of
just to crawl my way
(it takes everything i have not to smash my bottle over your head)
.i wake. in Personal More Like This
(he said dead was the best way that thing could ever have been anyway)
.she says. in Personal More Like This
you weren't made
for anything else
(cutting this cord day by day)
.she says. in Personal More Like This
explain these things
to me -
i say the silence sort of ticks - my sadness
has a face, think blue, think black and grey, think sanguine
red, the end of may, he had a pulse too strong
for me to take,
i killed it, stripped it bare, i carried it right
to it's grave - i say and
my lungs, they feel like frost, they're filled with silver
light and sharpness, rattling pips, a scream - i stayed
inside my bed for weeks, i didn't eat, i didn't
dream - i think in fire, flame, volcano,
resurrect you, keep your name
inside me like a splinter
(i could not bring myself to say yes, but i think you know that)
.i feel in a language. in Personal More Like This
i don't understand,
and the wings of the bird in my kitchen, they
won't get to feel the sky anymore -
and sometimes doesn't it feel good?
to put two fingers round the neck
of a flower and
hear the petals scream for
their withering limbs,
then start choking
.they greet me like old friends,. in Free Verse More Like This
ivory hands gripping my
shoulders a little too tight
to be forgiving
i tell them that i'm sorry,
and they know what i mean,
their smiles fade and the black
holes on their faces start to furrow
and i explain that it's not
quite time, not yet
i still haven't worked up the guts
to let them out
but they've heard this spiel before,
and it's getting harder to
silence the rattling, a myriad of
skulls and ribs that i can no longer
.there are snakes. in Personal More Like This
in coils from me
and green, their mouths
dark fanged caverns
black eyes glittering
they see -
that mother tongue
that they know
i cannot speak
(if you can touch it, you can kill it, you can dream)
.don't come to me at 2am. in Free Verse More Like This
when your heart starts to split
its nuts and bolts
and your eyes are threatening to
burst their banks
i will be too busy trying to
solder my own
laying down sandbags and praying
the tide comes no higher
.i know an angel. in Personal More Like This
tired of holding
up his halo, says
he's thinking of
trading it in for
(and i'd do the same but the boss says, you're not goin' anywhere bitch)
.i've been dreaming. in Personal More Like This
ribs poking up
through the ground,
a white and fleshless
thing that rattles
in his sleep,
haunches bare and clean
as a whisker,
he wretches with
the face of a devil,
he drops me
a sack of love
in the morning,
on the carpet
as well as the eye,
am i showing
enough backbone now?
a crescent moon on
my skull of
so he can gaze
at it even in death,
i don't care much
for the rites but
he looks good
on my bedside table
i close my eyes
to those three
on my wall,
i don't see
i don't speak
i don't hear
(what is this, a fucking cathedral?)
Elle and Mias: Chapter 37Elias was being oddly cooperative when the party returned to the castle and Hilda informed her elder sister about their new 'guest'. Helga wasted no time throwing him into a prison cell; she didn't even bother to interrogate him. And Elias didn't fight or even object. He might have been fatigued, but that didn't explain his sudden mellow demeanor.Elle and Mias: Chapter 37 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"I don't know what you're up to," Elle said to him from beyond the prison bars. "But I'm sure it's nothing good."
"Heh," his lips curved into a smile. "I just thought I'd pay my long lost sister a visit. I didn't expect you to be here, ruining my good name."
"Your name is as filthy as you are," Elle said bravely. "Your sister's better off not knowing she has a man like you for a brother."
"I'm well aware of Elias," a deep female voice spoke up and Elle turned to see Helga escorting Ia into the cell ward.
Now that Elle got a clear look at the woman, it was obvious she was a Dormaeus what with her dark hair and custom eye markings. She carried
Elle and Mias: Chapter 40"You summoned me?" Elias asked as he entered a large study where his younger sister sat scribbling notes at a desk.Elle and Mias: Chapter 40 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"Yes, kindly take a seat," Ia said without looking up from her work.
Elias casually approached the table and sat opposite of her.
"How are you enjoying your stay?" She asked, her eyes and hand still concentrated on writing.
"In all honesty I wish you would have kept me in prison," Elias groaned.
Ia chuckled, "Is that so?"
"What is this about? Surely you didn't summon me simply to exchange pleasantries."
"And why not? I've been so preoccupied with my duties that I haven't been able to visit you. Is it so rare for you to be suspect of your family?"
"When it's the Dormaeus family, yes," he responded coldly. "If this is just frivolous conversation, I shall take my leave."
As he stood to leave Ia smacked him back into his seat with her quill. "Sit. You have no matters here that acquire your attention so you will remain in my presence until I dismiss you. Or are you eager to re
Elle and Mias: Chapter 55All Elle could do was wait. The halls of Kaldberg castle, which once made her feel welcomed, now made her feel isolated and alone. The cloud of death hung low around all the inhabitants of the castle, reminding everyone of their own mortality and words that are best said when happiness, not sorrow, can still blossom from them.Elle and Mias: Chapter 55 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"Daddy " Hilda whimpered as she buried her head into Alu's chest. It didn't take her long at all to accept the Runeskeeper as her father and she had every intention of continuing their relationship as child and parent.
Alu simply smiled and stroked his daughter's short hair tenderly.
"He's not a handkerchief, Hilda," Helga reminded her. "I don't understand how you can cry for an evil man "
"Someone has to!" Hilda sniffled. "He might have done a lot of bad things, but he was still human If we don't value his life, we're no better than he was and I don't think it's possible for anyone to be truly evil "
"How stupid " Helga mutt
Elle and Mias: Chapter 38"ACHOO!" Abernos sneezed and promptly wiped his finger under his nose as he and Viola followed a frost covered trail without the assistance of Leadbury's nose to guide them. "Gah that Leadbury..."Elle and Mias: Chapter 38 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"It can't be helped. He doesn't have fur to insulate his body," Viola said calmly as she marched on ahead of him. "How can you complain of the cold? I'm having no difficulty."
"You're clearly not a normal woman," Abernos sniffled and rubbed his mitten covered hands together for warmth. "How are we supposed to pinpoint Elle without Leadbury's nose anyway? All he told us was to continue heading north."
"Weren't you supposed to be optimistic Mr. Abernos?"
"Not when it's this cold out," he trotted to catch up with her. "Speaking of optimism, you have an interestingly high degree of confidence Miss Viola."
"Because it's all a little too coincidental. We believe Elias was heading to Noric and based on Leadbury's tracking that appears to be where Elle is as well. I'm willing to bet their paths
Elle and Mias: Chapter 57Elle turned her nose to the autumn wind and let a current of wheat scented air waft into her tiny nostrils. After sighing happily, she pointed the stalks out to Berenos. "This section is ripe!"Elle and Mias: Chapter 57 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"Alright!" Berenos called back to her.
Elle smiled and brushed a bit of dirt off her cheek.
Four months had passed since their return from the northland and life overall had been uneventful. Mias was busy enjoying the prospects of being an undergarment conglomerate and taking the Dormaeus family in a new direction. Mias' ties with his sister in Noric also put him in position to represent his region when the embassy got together to discuss politics. He was becoming quite a powerful man without needing to use his magic.
The Stag brothers busied themselves fostering Fionos. Elle saw the three frequently enough and often stayed with them when Mias had business errands he had to tend too. Today was one of those days. She was busying herself helping them with the harvest of their crops.
"I never thoug
Elle and Mias: Chapter 35Noric: the lonely north land filled with mountains and snow was where Elle found herself when she woke up. Her rescuer was no where to be seen, but the friendly warmth of a strong fire and soft fur greeted her in the most welcoming of ways. She was tired, her body not used to the thinner air and thus slept until she could adapt.Elle and Mias: Chapter 35 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"Nn !" She stretched herself out and rubbed the sleep from her eyes. As her vision cleared, she noticed one of the furs was brushing up against her leg like it had a mind of its own.
She threw the covers back to discover a young white furred stag curled up in a ball against her legs. His ears were twitching as he slept and he had the tip of his thumb in his mouth, all very cute of course, but disturbing none the less to Elle when she discovered she had a bed partner.
"EEE!!" She shrieked.
The fawn jumped from his sleep, his gray eyes wide open, and screamed along with Elle.
"Wh-Wh-What are you doing?!" Elle clutched the covers up around her.
Elle and Mias: Chapter 36Elle quickly acclimated herself to the white marble halls that gave her hospitality. The first time she stepped outside, she beheld the crystallized palace cut into the mountain side. It glistened despite the clouded skies and the low light from the deceitful sun that provided no warmth at all and kept the castle's frozen form.Elle and Mias: Chapter 36 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"Is it made out of ice?" Elle asked as she followed Fionos and Hilda into the forest of tall trees beyond the mountain where the castle stood.
"It only looks that way," Hilda said. "During the summer months the layers of ice melt away and you'll see it's all white marble. Of course our summers are so very brief that by the time everything melts, it's snowing again."
"The royal family of Noric tends to build into the mountains because it's easy to camouflage, and the Aquila need to roost at high elevations," Fionos explained.
"Wouldn't eggs freeze at higher elevations?" Elle asked ignorantly.
"You're birds, so you lay eggs, right?"
Hilda burst into l
Elle and Mias: Chapter 43The cold dawn was ushered in by a strong northern wind echoing through the frozen mountains. Its howl rattled the windows of Fionos' bedchamber where the young Stag had convinced Elle to stay for the night. The sound of the approaching blizzard stirred Elle from her sleep and she slowly turned her head to the window. It was snowing, not really a surprising weather event given the region, but the size of the flakes made it look like someone had torn open a bag of white feathers.Elle and Mias: Chapter 43 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
She yawned and pulled herself upright. She sat for a few moments as her eyes and mind came into focus. She remembered locking Elias in him room and informing one of the guards of the situation before heading to Fionos' room. Poor thing didn't have any more tears to shed, so he just sought comfort in her arms until he fell asleep. Elle didn't have the heart to leave him and so she stayed with him to make sure he'd be alright.
She looked down at the sleeping fawn and smoothed back the hair on his head.
Elle and Mias: Chapter 39The click of Elias' boots resounded through the halls, followed by the echoing chip of talons against the stone floor. He quickened his pace in hopes of putting some distance between him and his follower, but alas the friendly horror remained on his tail. His tolerance for annoyance finally reached its boiling point. He whirled and shouted, "Must you follow me?!"Elle and Mias: Chapter 39 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Hilda smiled, "Yes. Lady Ia isn't as naïve as you think she is. You get one chance. If you betray her trust, you'll be thrown back into prison and left to rot. So be a good boy Eli, okay?"
Elias cringed at the affectionate and disgusting nickname she bestowed upon him. "I'm finding it a bit difficult to stay in good spirits with your constant irritating presence."
"You don't like me, do you?" She asked, a smile still on her face.
"You're a feather headed, bird brained, molting mess of stupidity plagued with annoyance and irritation that supersedes a rash!" He shouted.
She giggled, "Eli, you sound like my sister."
Elle and Mias: Chapter 58Abernos hummed a happy little tune to himself as he road through the old farming village on his way home from East Port City. In place of his usual loincloth, he wore a shirt, vest, and trousers. His hair had been combed back, but the wind on his journey had already blown it back to its normal style. His chipped horn had grown back enough for the damage to be unnoticeable at a glance, but the symmetry of the points remained off. He didn't mind it though. It'd grow back after all.Elle and Mias: Chapter 58 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"Abernos!" The busty waitress from the local pub caught his attention. She was still a rather big woman with tight, strawberry blonde curls tucked under her bonnet and an apron shielding her modest dress from dirt and grime.
"Oh, hello Morwen," Abernos slowed his horse and cart. "How are you?"
"Bit sad ya haven't been to see me lately, love."
"It has been a while since I stopped in for a drink, hasn't it?" Abernos scratched the back of his head in embarrassment.
"Been about a month since I last even saw your f