.i wake. in Personal More Like This
(he said dead was the best way that thing could ever have been anyway)
.the first time my father holds me,. in Personal More Like This
he shoves one hand
into my mothers arms
and grabs me
by the back of my babygrow, roughly
raises me up
with his big clenched fist
and i hang there, like a kitten
by the taut pink scruff
what a small nothing
(but now he is nothing, gone, dust)
.how am i feeling? well today. in Personal More Like This
i'm a phoenix, doc, here get me
an ash tray i'll show you
and please i just wanna sleep
like lena does, i got a brain
like a ten ton weight
(and i'm still holding what's dead because no one else can carry it, and i can't get into bed until i find somewhere to bury it)
.i've been dreaming. in Personal More Like This
ribs poking up
through the ground,
a white and fleshless
thing that rattles
in his sleep,
haunches bare and clean
as a whisker,
he wretches with
the face of a devil,
he drops me
a sack of love
in the morning,
on the carpet
as well as the eye,
am i showing
enough backbone now?
a crescent moon on
my skull of
so he can gaze
at it even in death,
i don't care much
for the rites but
he looks good
on my bedside table
i close my eyes
to those three
on my wall,
i don't see
i don't speak
i don't hear
(what is this, a fucking cathedral?)
.there are snakes. in Personal More Like This
in coils from me
and green, their mouths
dark fanged caverns
black eyes glittering
they see -
that mother tongue
that they know
i cannot speak
(if you can touch it, you can kill it, you can dream)
.karma sits on my sofa. in Personal More Like This
whiskey doused, eyes rolled up
to the top of his head, and he says
just do whatever the fuck makes
you happy, mate, just do
whatever you want
(what a terrible thing to be full to the brim with emptiness)
.i know an angel. in Personal More Like This
tired of holding
up his halo, says
he's thinking of
trading it in for
(and i'd do the same but the boss says, you're not goin' anywhere bitch)
.they are all skin and. in Personal More Like This
bone and no heart,
all bite and no bark
and it's a lot easier
to slip back into the
past than it is to
get a grip on the
(and curiosity swears, he never meant to hurt the cat, he just didn't know his own strength)
.she says. in Personal More Like This
you weren't made
for anything else
(cutting this cord day by day)
.september -. in Personal More Like This
i've been under
the illusion it's
for four days,
i sit on your knee
at the kitchen table,
roll one of the
bullets under my finger
cold gold and
do you know what
that is? -
but i don't think
you do -
you're fuckin weird,
you know that? fuckin
cold, maybe i'll just
start calling you
and he does
they grace me with
three days, and i cannot
to come with me
the only time i like you
is when you're asleep,
i gnaw one leg out of
just to crawl my way
(it takes everything i have not to smash my bottle over your head)
Godly Relationships 75: Share Your FaithGenuine faith was never meant to be locked up in the heart of a believer-to the contrary, it is meant to be shared with the world. But, if you sincerely wish to share your faith, you must first find it.Godly Relationships 75: Share Your Faith in Emotional More Like This
How can you find and strengthen your faith? Through praise, through worship, through fellowship, through Bible study, and through prayer. When you do these things, your faith will become stronger, and you will find ways to share your belief with your family, with your friends, with your dates, and with the world. And when you do, everybody wins.
Godly Relationships 37: Pressure of SexIf you're seeing someone who's pressuring you to become sexually active, here's an important question to ask yourself: Why would you date a person like that? After all, if the person you're dating really cares about you-and if that person wants to spend the rest of his or her life with you-waiting isn't really a sacrifice, it's an honor. But if that person you're dating simply views you as a sexual conquest, then you'd better run in the opposite direction.Godly Relationships 37: Pressure of Sex in Editorial More Like This
Common sense tells you to wait; God's word commands you to wait; an your conscience begs you to wait. So wait! And if somebody tells you to do otherwise, they have absolutely no business dating you.
Godly Relationships 40: Live On PurposeLife is best lived on purpose. And purpose, like everything else in the universe, begins with God.Godly Relationships 40: Live On Purpose in Philosophical More Like This
Whether you realize it or not, God has a plan for your life, a divine calling, a direction in which He is leading you. When you welcome God into your heart and establish a genuine relationship with Him, He will begin, in time, to make His purposes known.
Sometimes, God's intentions will be clear to you; other times, God's plan will seem uncertain at best. But even on those difficult days when you are unsure which way to turn, you must never lose sight of these overriding facts: God created you for a reason; He has important work for you to do; and He's waiting patiently for you to do it.
And the next step is up to you.
Godly Relationships 100: Walk with JesusHere's one last tip for you: behave yourself like a Christian every day of the week, not just on Sundays. In other words, make Jesus a priority in every aspect of your life.Godly Relationships 100: Walk with Jesus in Letters More Like This
Jesus made an extreme sacrifice for you. Are you willing to make changes in your life for Him? Can you honestly say that you're passionate about your faith and that you're really following Jesus? Hopefully so. But if you're preoccupied with other things-of if you're a strictly a one-day-a-week Christian- then you're in need of a big time spiritual makeover.
Jesus doesn't want you to be a run-of-the-mill, follow-the-crowd kind of believer. Jesus wants you to be a "new creation" through Him. And that's exactly what you should want for yourself, too.
So remember this: you're the recipient of Christ's love. Accept it enthusiastically and demonstrate your love with words and actions. Jesus deserves your heart-give it to Him today, tomorrow, and forever, Amen.
Godly Relationships 97: Get Wisdom, Be HappyThe world has its own brand of wisdom, a brand of wisdom that is often wrong and sometimes dangerous. God, on the other hand, has a different brand of wisdom, a wisdom that will never lead you astray. Where will you place your trust today? Will you trust in the wisdom of fallible people, or will you place your faith in God's perfect wisdom? The answer to this question will determine the direction of your day and the quality of your relationships.Godly Relationships 97: Get Wisdom, Be Happy in Philosophical More Like This
Are you tired? Discouraged? Fearful? Be comforted and trust God. Are you worried or anxious? Be confident in God's power. Are you confused? Listen to the quiet voice of your Heavenly Father-He is not a God of confusion. Talk with Him; listen to Him; trust Him. His wisdom, unlike the "wisdom" of the world, will never let you down.
Godly Relationships 45: Don't Give UpDo you sincerely want to live a life that is pleasing to God? If so, you must remember that life is not a sprint, it's a marathon that calls for preparation, determination, and lots of perseverance.Godly Relationships 45: Don't Give Up in Philosophical More Like This
Are you one of those people who doesn't give up easily, or are you quick to bail out when the going gets tough? If you've developed the unfortunate habit of giving up at the first sign of trouble, it's probably time for you to have a heart-to-heart talk with the person you see every time you look in the mirror.
Jesus finished what He began, and so should you. Despite His suffering, despite the shame of the cross, Jesus was steadfast in His faithfulness to God. You must remain faithful, especially when times are tough.
Do you want to build a closer relationship with God? Then don't give up. And if you're facing a difficult situation, remember this: whatever your problem, God can handle it. Your job is to keep persevering until He does.
Godly Relationships 8: CooperationAre you dating someone who understands the importance of cooperation? Or are you seeing someone who's more self-centered than that? And before you answer, here's something to consider: happy couples learn the wisdom of "give and take," not the foolishness of "me first."Godly Relationships 8: Cooperation in Philosophical More Like This
Cooperative relationships flourish over time, one-sided relationships don't. So if you're dating someone who says, "It's my way or the highway," choose the highway. And choose it now.
Godly Relationships 96: God is WatchingYou can keep some secrets from other people, but you can't keep any secrets from God. God knows what you think and what you do. And, if you want to please Him, you must start with good intentions and a pure heart.Godly Relationships 96: God is Watching in Emotional More Like This
If your heart tells you not to do something, don't do it! If your conscience tells you that something is wrong, stop! If you feel ashamed by something you've done, don't do it ever again! And if your spirit is being crushed by a relationships you're in, escape!
And while you're at it, don't do anything that you wouldn't do if God were standing right behind you, looking over your shoulder...because He is.
Godly Relationships 92: FeelingsHebrews 10:38 teaches that we should live by faith. Yet sometimes, despite our best intentions, negative feelings can rob us of the peace and abundance that would otherwise be ours through Christ. When anger or anxiety separates us from the spiritual blessings that God has in store, we must rethink our priorities and renew our faith. And we must place faith above feelings. Human emotions are highly variable, decidedly unpredictable, and often fickle. So we must learn to live by faith, not by the ups and downs of our emotional roller coasters.Godly Relationships 92: Feelings in Philosophical More Like This
Sometimes during this day, you will probably be gripped by a strong negative emotion. Distrust it. Reign it in. Test it. And turn it over to God. Your emotions will inevitably change; God will not. So trust Him completely as you watch your feelings slowly evaporate into thin air-which they will.
Godly Relationships 88: An Escape HatchIf you feel like you're being boxed in by temptation, remember this: you're never completely trapped-there's always an escape hatch. And how, you ask, can you find the way out? Well, you can start by talking to God.Godly Relationships 88: An Escape Hatch in Philosophical More Like This
Beth Moore observed, "Because Christ has faced our every temptation without sin, we never face a temptation that has no door of escape." Her words apply to you.
So the next time you face a strong urge to do something wrong, slow yourself down and have a little chat with your Creator. When you talk to Him-sincerely, prayerfully, and as often as necessary-you can overcome any temptation. No exceptions.