End.EndEnd. in Free Verse More Like This
Back to the room where it's just me.
Back to the dark where it's just me.
Back to the hate where it's just me.
Back by myself, and I can't stand me.
So I sit and I sob in my loathing.
So I sit and I hate in my loathing.
So I sit and I think in my loathing.
So I plot my own death in my loathing.
With pink yarn I weave a long rope.
With pink yearn I braid a long rope.
With pink yearn I tie a long rope.
With pink yearn, a noose, and a long rope.
From the ceiling a fan dangles.
From the ceiling a thread dangles.
From the ceiling a neck dangles.
From the ceiling my corps dangles.
Perfection.PERFECTIONPerfection. in Concrete Poetry More Like This
The things heard, turn out to be true.
Worthless. Nobody really needs you.
Lack of a purpose, once empty inside.
Now filled by loathing, believing lies.
To stare still blind, only brings worse.
Crawling tears. Today I must reverse.
So changing, ending the broken frame.
Anything to be, but can't stay the same.
To be good, to be better, to not be me.
Distorted mental images. A Shape to be.
Internal rocks interrupt to go straight.
Then the lied to lies. Lies gain weight.
The skeletal groans hit a hard heart.
Soaking on musts. Never left start.
I can't go back. So it slowly implodes.
Falling in on itself. On a cracking road.
The hate sent poring from veins.
No other option. Bound by chains.
What wanted well became so ill,
Because of a sick desire to fulfill.
Wide glossy eyes eternally closed.
Defeated. Nothing left. Exposed.
The wrinkles grow longer each day.
Blades duller. As all withers away.
Each cell even di
BlindBlindBlind in Free Verse More Like This
Its as if I'm blind.
No windows, no color,
So darkness on my mind.
Not a soul for miles,
Who would care.
No one ever smiles.
Cold are the beds,
The room, and the people.
I'm sure that's the meds.
If nothing more I mind so much,
The alone time.
No feeling, no touch.
So I sit and unwind,
Sensing nothing at all.
Its as if I'm blind.
Pricked.Cringe in pain as a single spool hits the floor.Pricked. in Free Verse More Like This
It unravels only a small vestige of thread behind,
For my eye to trace.
A button and a few shreds of clothe.
Some pins and bits of stuffing.
Yet nothing successfully seized the spool.
It reluctantly rolls regardless of its path.
And as I skeptically fallow the fine thread,
It comes closer and closer to intertwining,
With my own path.
Until it rests at my step to reveal the thread holds,
The eye of a guilty, bloody needle.
Unfinished.UNFINISHEDUnfinished. in Visual & Found Poetry More Like This
Deep down inside of me,
There's this pain called reality.
Behind these walls of flesh,
No breathing, I'm out of breath.
My heart has the master plans.
My mind's no longer in command.
A wound that will never mend,
A flame growing into the end.
Where all else melts, these will rise.
Chaos, torment, fear and cries.
It's like dyeing from the inside out,
Wanting to scream and dousing a shout.
Where hate strives and over powers,
Where love weakens and cowers.
The clock suddenly ceases to tick,
My heart stops pumping, I become sick.
Alive Not.She doesn't have thick locks,Alive Not. in Visual & Found Poetry More Like This
Nor does she have tan flesh.
She's not one to fidget much,
And isn't big on talking.
In fact, She doesn't do much of anything.
Might not even think.
But I don't find it odd,
Because she is not breathing.
Lonely Rain Drops.LONELY RAIN DROPSLonely Rain Drops. in Visual & Found Poetry More Like This
as i sit of all my beauty,
i wait to be cherished and held,
like the most tender of all the singing birds in the sky.
my red petals chime in the wind,
as they slowly trickle to the cold dead ground.
it seems like there journey is never threw,
and like every petal is a shimmering drop of lush blood.
the day finally comes,
when ones warm finger tips become my heavenly wings.
and as i part from my once safe and humble hell,
a sound of regret whispers in the winds around me.
its says "turn back",
turn back from the path made of my own tear trench thorns.
but i only hear theses words,
far after its to late.
i no longer sit in all my beauty,
beside my tear drawing petals and blood drawing thorns.
i now sit alone, abandon, betrayed,
by the very same warmth that first did i live from.
every last one of my "he loves me"s and "he loves me not"s,
have turned to ash under the dead heart of a loved one.
my now wilted exterior, of once blond pollen,
sits under only the lone
Flaming SurrenderFLAMING SURRENDERFlaming Surrender in Free Verse More Like This
Another seconds gone.
She grows a minute older.
The tension builds.
Beads of sweat brake out.
She looks closer.
Every single lush trickle
Takes a dive to its end.
In through the nose
Out through the mouth
All stress lets loose
The tension brakes
Dabs of sweat come cold.
A long moment passes
The clock ceases to tick
All rage in her brakes loose.
A shiver runs down her spine.
As she watches
The candle burn
The waxes melt
Blood shot eyes centered,
Wick trapped in wax
Engulfed by the flashing
She grows wary
As all suspense rises
For the next
Right then her h
Why Not to get out of Bed.Depression.Why Not to get out of Bed. in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Withering me down.
Down to even less than I think I am.
So why try?
Why not just give up before hand?
No one needs me.
So I'll stay here.
I'll stay here and hate more.
More than I first did,
For lying in bed.
Which shall keep me longer.
So I surrender all of my day,
To the only solution to my sadness.
Sleep the guilt, the hate away.
Sleep the worthlessness down.
I'd rather just pray and sleep.
Pray that I can sleep,
And hope that tomorrow,
Will be a better day.
But if I'm only going to fall,
Why get up?
GuillotineYou wonder how long it will take,Guillotine in Free Verse More Like This
Before you give in to the fear.
How much more before you brake,
Fall and beg them to spare you here.
Seems unfair to face it alone.
To be the only one burden by this fate
Forced to sit anxiously and moan.
Forced to expect it and just wait.
Submissively expecting your punishment.
Dignity allows you not a tear to shed.
They say your intentions were hell bent,
And for that they must have your head.
The blade falls, you're without hope.
Too late now, he cut the rope.
GA fanfic 2-PrologueGA fanfic 2-Prologue in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Bartonville Insane Asylum, IL
The GA crew gets locked down inside a former Insane Asylum inhabited by restless spirits and malevolent entities.
'A Haunting memory''A Haunting memory' in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
For a brief moment, I was a monster
How could've I nearly hurt
The one who looks up to me?
Another sinister being tried to use me,
Not myself, yet I was still there.
She refused to leave and almost caused her harm,
But her will brought me back.
Seeing the fear in her eyes concerned me,
Why did she fear me?
One of the strongest of our team showed
Apprehension whenever she had to work with me.
I still wonder if the brief moment I was a monster
Has taken a toll on her.
I can only hope to know in time.
The brief moment he was a monster,
I had to stay strong despite my fear.
The residing fear lingers on my heart as
I continued walking through the dark.
How I want to tell what happened,
But I didn't know how.
Our leader seems to be noticing my fear
Yet everytime he asks what's wrong,
I force it away and carry on as if it was nothing.
Despite my efforts, my guilt and shame
Haunts me every night while with my team.
For showing love that left me vulnerable,
GA fanfic 2- Lockdown Part 3GA fanfic 2- Lockdown Part 3 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Lockdown Part 3
Something definitely wasn't right, the entire atmosphere of the room changed. I slightly stepped back, getting an overwhelming feeling of dread.
He struggled to speak as something was fighting to take control over him.
"You need to get out of here."
"I'm not leaving you here."
As I stood watching him, he began hissing, gritting his teeth and clenching his fists.
I stepped forward slightly in concern, reaching for his shoulder.
"Come on, Nick. We need-"
Suddenly, I felt a very forcible shove. Screaming as I was forced back and my back hit the wall. My Digital Recorder fell on the floor beside me.
Meanwhile, Zak and Aaron were downstairs.
"Did you hear that?"
"Dude, that was no ghost."
Staring for only a second, they knew something was wrong. They broke into a fast jog, flashlights in hand heading for the stairwell.
A few feet away with little strength he had left, Nick screamed.
I struggled to keep my camera on him, quickly reaching for the
GA fanfic 2- Lockdown Part 1GA fanfic 2- Lockdown Part 1 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Lockdown Part 1
Peering into my LCD screen, everything was in various shades of green on the Night-vision. We walked slowly down the first floor hallway.
Filming behind Zak, he spoke out in a gentle tone.
"Is there anyone here?" he paused, pointed at us.
"I'm Zak, this is Nick, Aaron and Aura. We mean no disrespect for those of you that died here. Can you come and talk to us?" he paused again, listening for any response.
Suddenly just ahead of us, we heard an unexplained squeaking noise which sounded like a patient ward door opening.
"Did you hear that?" I whispered to Zak,
"Yeah, I heard it." he replied quietly.
We stood still for a minute and looked around, I walked forward a few feet and found the first X. I also noticed the door was open further than the rest in the hallway.
"Zak, over here." I quietly called out.
He held out a Digital Recorder inside the room while Aaron and Nick set the Static Night-vision Camera. I filmed Zak as he asked questions.
"Did you make this door move?"
GA fanfic 2- Lockdown Part 2GA fanfic 2- Lockdown Part 2 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Lockdown Part 2
With Static Night-vision Cameras rolling on the first, second, and third floor,
we headed down to the basement.
Stepping inside the morgue, Zak stood in front while Aaron filmed him.
"We're gonna set a tripod in the back to film Nick while he's inside "
As Zak spoke, I felt a tap on my arm. Knowing it was Nick, I scanned over to see his face. Pointing towards Zak then twisting his hand near his head, indicating Zak was crazy.
I chuckled quietly and scanned back over to Zak and Aaron.
"Nick, you ready?" he asked.
"I guess so." Nick replied.
He jumped on the slab, we took his camera and handed a Digital Recorder.
Quickly, they tested the Walkie-talkies in case of an emergency. Laying down, Zak pushed him inside.
"We've got an X camera filming the outside. Good luck."
He shut the door, which locked from the outside. I could only imagine what was going through Nick's mind.
"He's locked in. Let's go set the other cameras."
As we walked out, I looked back inside, hoping
GA fanfic 3-PrologueGA fanfic 3-Prologue in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Old Wyoming Penitentiary, Rawlins, WY
The team visit an old prison where former inmates still lurk within the building.
Before the Lockdown
It had been nearly a month since my previous investigation with the Ghost Adventures Crew, waiting to hear from them with anticipation. As promised by Zak, they contacted me and requested that I accompany them once again outside New York. Arriving at our destination the day before, I spent the night in my hotel room pondering over the lockdown to come.
Knowing that the following day, I would be on my own Ghost Adventures.
GA fanfic 2-Walkthrough Part 1GA fanfic 2-Walkthrough Part 1 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Ghost Adventures Title sequence
My name is Zak Bagans. I've never believed in ghosts until I came face to face with one.
So I set out on a quest to capture what I once saw onto video....
With no big camera crews following us around, I am joined only by my fellow investigator Nick Groff and our equipment tech Aaron Goodwin.
The three of us will travel to some of the most highly active paranormal locations, where we will spend an entire night, being locked down from dusk until dawn....
My Near-possessionIt happened on the night of November 8th, my cousin Jessica and I were filming our 3rd lockdown.My Near-possession in Stories & Vignettes More Like This
While we sat in the dark basement, she had this alarm clock which changes color ONLY when you press the button on top and she covered it with a pillow to block the light.
Pretty soon, it began changing color by itself.
1)The pillow was too light to press the button
2)There's NO setting to make it do that.
We stared at it for several minutes before I realized her camcorder was on the tripod, so we did get it on film.
After filming the basement more, Jess heard a cackling voice and began feeling like something bad was gonna happen, which didn't scare me much. However, I did wonder why not much else was happening and hoped something more would happen.
But what's really freaky is what happened afterwards:
While we filmed upstairs in my bedroom, I was holding the camera filming the room with Jess behind me. Soon, I began feeling tense with my arms trembling enough to where I gripped the camera.
GA fanfic 3-Walkthrough Part 1GA fanfic 3-Walkthrough Part 1 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Ghost Adventures Title sequence
My name is Zak Bagans. I've never believed in ghosts until I came face to face with one. So I set out on a quest to capture what I once saw onto video....
With no big camera crews following us around, I am joined only by my fellow investigator Nick Groff and our equipment tech Aaron Goodwin. The three of us will travel to some of the most highly active paranormal locations, where we will spend an entire night, being locked down from dusk until dawn....
These are our Ghost Adventures.
Old Wyoming Penitentiary, WY
Walkthrough Part 1
While Zak got ready to introduce our lockdown site, I watched Aaron and Nick set up their cameras to film him.
"Within the town of Rawlins, Wyoming lays the notorious Old Wyoming Penitentiary. Known to the locals as "Old Pen", it was the former home to 13,500 of the worst inmates that the state ha
GA fanfic-EpilogueGA fanfic-Epilogue in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
After the Lockdown
The experiences I had Halden Mansion were truly something I'll remember for a long time. The Ghost Adventures Crew were great; not only were they doing a great job as Paranormal Investigators, but they were great people to hang out with.
I knew that a lot of fans would be jealous that I had that chance to spend an entire lockdown with them and became their official Junior Paranormal Investigator. I felt the spirits' wrath while locked inside, but all I have to say is that no matter what occurred there, I was glad to do it with the best team.
Now I will continue watching the show and keeping an eye on where t
Move OnNothing changes as time goes byMove On in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
the sun goes down and the moon is high
And I caught you in your web of lies
I'm moving on now... so let go.
Let go of me (cut this chain)
Let go of me (break these shackles)
Let go of me (open the cage)
I'm closing the gate
You've become everything I hate
So go away, Its far too late
Get out of here
Let go of me (cut this chain)
Let go of me (break these shackles)
Let go of me (open the cage)
My innocence gone, taken
I'm burning, I'm hating.
Just move on
Let go of me, there's nothing left
Let go of me, move on...
Let go of me
Let go, Let go, Let go
Just let go
Tormented by MemoriesMemories of the pastTormented by Memories in Free Verse More Like This
Are haunting All my thoughts.
I try not to be caught
In the shadows of fear they've cast.
Memories of the hatred
The misfortune And despair
The betrayal And the hurt.
Those I love the most
Suffer from my curse.
I'm nothing but a parasite sucking off its host.
Please help me, nurse
Pull the life support.
I've shed too many tears over glimpses of my past.
Memories of the past torture me some more.
I've endured enough pain
I've cried out loud in vain
Remembering all their disdain.
The memories are driving me insane.
I'm driving in the wrong lane.
End it now or else
These memories will torment
My mind for all eternity.
My Fake SmileMy Fake SmileMy Fake Smile in Free Verse More Like This
In front of you I seem so calm.
I put on my black eyeliner and lip balm
And walk around with this fake smile,
But on the inside I am vile.
Inside my heart is black and filled with hate.
Inside my mind is in a turmoiled state.
Constantly thinking of my tortured past and unavoidable fate.
In my inner world I'm always screaming
There my body is forever bleeding
So covered in scars, I'm unrecognizable.
No body part is left unscathed.
I'm silently begging someone to make the pain end,
But outside I just give you that fake smile again.
I wish that these wounds I could mend.
That help would one day soon be sent
A hand eventually lent
No, I am all alone
So Shut Up and put on that fake smile
And don't ever show anyone your tears.
Dead DoveLaughter, happiness and loveDead Dove in Free Verse More Like This
I thought these things would last
But dead goes the dove,
And... with it the happy past
We walked your hand in mine
And everything in life was fine
There was never enough time in a day
But we were together so it was okay
When I cried you held me
And said everything will be.... okay
When I screamed you said
Baby.... calm down
I know it doesn't seem like much
But I miss the little things
Like when you came to see me for lunch
It meant you cared and missed me so much
One day we were driving home
And you pulled to the side
I said “What's wrong?” “I'll be right back” Is all you confide
You get back, daffodil in hand
Trespassing on someone's land, just to get me that
Time past and with it came change
Sweet gestures slowly ceased
And time spent together became slim
Finally the love seemed to simply decease
My attempts to communicate only worsened this
I was only trying to tell you what I miss
But I drove you further away from me
I kept tryi
Suffering DualityDemons and Angels; Evil and PureSuffering Duality in Free Verse More Like This
Duality takes and all runs together.
The ink runs, black and white goes to gray.
All becomes one and the same.
Mirror, Mirror, Which one is me? Tell me which I am suppose to be.
Two sides constantly fight.
Do I walk towards dark or into the light?
Which one, Which one? Which do I let win?
A path of purity; A path of sin?
My heart torn two parts of a whole.
Both sides whisper loudly to my soul.
Turmoil reigns as king as the hurricane sings.
The king dethroned; whispers turn to screams.
A new king takes its rightful place.
No longer is there black,
No longer is there white,
Only different shades of gray.
There is neither night nor is there day.
Everything is now one and the same.
The Claw NecklaceOnce a lone wolf, searching for anotherThe Claw Necklace in Free Verse More Like This
After so long I had thought I shouldn't bother
Then I was told that you needed a home
Filthy, sore and in desperate need of a comb
Used and broken and cast aside like me.
So sweet at first and then you bit me.
I understood why though even though others couldn't see
I took you home anyway, I thought that was the way it should be
No one ever understood our connection
You were the only member of my pack for so long
My “friends” criticized me, said I was wrong
They said “Why do you always want to take her?”
Because she's a part of the pack, why so jealous?
I thought for a moment maybe I was over-zealous
But when everyone else left, you were still there
6 years you stayed by my side
So often the only one I had to confide
When I felt so alone, when I cried, you put your head in my lap
And at times, you cried with me
People say that pets don't cry, they can't see
Humans are just so blind
Sicker and sicker you became
At first just
Loneliness or a Chain?Calling me a liar, sparking this fireLoneliness or a Chain? in Free Verse More Like This
Resorting to insults hoping to get the expected results
Causing nothing but pain making me insane.
Go ahead and tighten that rope the more you pull me the stronger I pull away.
Don't speak a word I know what you say
Don't waste your breath I won't hear it even in death.
You wish me only sorrow and pain, showing me disdain
A lone wolf or a dog? Which would you choose?
I can see the answer clearly even in this fog
I'd rather be alone than be chained and pained
I should have known then but I was blind, You only listen to the whispers in your own mind
Telling me I don't cry enough? So you like it when I'm hurt? I told you I'm an introvert...
No understanding? No love? You insult me, making my choice difficult.
Abuse or loneliness? There's no love... My heart heavy like water against the levee
Done with this game, I don't want to be tame
Take your leash away from me, I am a wolf and that's just how it will be
You seek to change me, you seek to chain me,
Giving InEmpty words and broken promisesGiving In in Free Verse More Like This
Is this all just another game?
Lone wolf... Destiny calls once again
Stop resisting, your destiny still remains the same
Day by day and night by night, never change
I see it all fall apart once again before my eyes
Same result every time, caught in a web of others' lies
Working so hard to glue this shattered mirror
Only to watch it fall apart again in horror
Why? Why? Again and again. Near success turn to failure
Reaching for happiness only for it to slip away once again
It's so hard in this current position to remain sane
It's like trying to drive backwards in the wrong lane
When will I finally give in to the future?
For some reason, I continue to fight
Long after losing feeling Long after losing sight
Is this war finally becoming a lost cause?
When do I just stop trying?
When do you stop lying?
When do I just start dying
On the outside from rotting on the inside?
Death and decay, loneliness and hopelessness
I'm running in place, failing again
A Goodbye LetterA Goodbye LetterA Goodbye Letter in Free Verse More Like This
The sight of you, so many emotions emerge
These feelings all so poisonous so we diverge
Anger, Fury, Sadness, Regret and emptiness
After so long actions once silent I digress
I think I said I thought it was better that way
For many months I let it stay and did not sway
You told me to get the poison out of my life
So ironic that you became such a poison…
I pushed you out for good due to our constant strife
My heart and soul slowly again, cold and frozen
I gave to you my heart and you tore it apart
This day I wonder the blame lay on you or I?
Did you want this to happen? Was it all a lie?
Or did I do you wrong somewhere, unknowingly
I’m sorry if I did and that’s why I left you behind
There was no single compromise that I could find
And so I cut your chain and collar that bind me
Saying my final goodbye to you, forever
Please do understand, I tried to get you to see
Still I lie awake in wonder at what would be
If, by chance I had continued to try to ple
The FacelessThis aching heart, These brittle bones...The Faceless in Free Verse More Like This
No one sees what's inside me.
There's no one out there to confide.
I'm all alone in this barren place.
Everyone here is without a face.
I scream so loud without a sound.
No one with ears are around.
I'm stuck here with the faceless ones.
Everyone's the same, Everyone's a clone.
That's why I will always be alone.
I'm screaming, Can you hear me?
I'm bleeding, Can you see me?
It's cold here, Can you feel it?
You can't see me.
Everyone is Blind.
You can't hear me.
Everyone is Deaf.
You can't feel me.
Everyone is Numb...
In this world with the Faceless Ones.
MurdocX2D - A big tour ch 15The morning after was horrible. It was like everyone had a hangover. Well at least Murdoc had a real hang over. He always drank so much. The others wondered if he's organs had started to rot by this time. Russel had spent the whole last day on his room talking to Del. His best friend could always help him with problems and cheer him up. Russel missed the time when his friend still lived. Noodle had sleep so bad that she almost couldn't keep her eyes open. 2D had lots of problem with keeping himself calm. He had spent the half night to clean up the blood after Murdoc's and Therese's fight. (Little too dramatic eh?). None of them said anything at the breakfast table. They didn't even say good morning to each other. The band had their last concert tonight on this place before they would keep going. The four band members sat all quiet and ate their breakfast slowly. Suddenly the silence broke when Noodle noticed a scratch on Murdoc's cheek. It was from where Therese had hit him. She askedMurdocX2D - A big tour ch 15 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Gorillaz - The pocky gameNoodle: HURRY UP 2D-KUN!Gorillaz - The pocky game in Short Stories More Like This
Noodle yelled out the words high as she dragged 2D after her. 2D and Noodle had been out for shopping during the afternoon. 2D had been looking for a new zombie movie but he almost already had everyone and he thought that the new one's sucked. Noodle had been looking for clothes that would fit her taste but she hadn't found anything either. After awhile they still hadn't found anything at all. 2D suggested that they should go back to the jeep and go back home. Noodle agreed and followed him. When they were halfway back to the car they passed an Asian shop. Noodle's eyes widen and she quickly grabbed 2D's hand and dragged him towards the store. She told him to hurry up so they could get in faster. 2D flinched in shock as Noodle dragged him into the shop and ran through the shelves in high speed. He didn't even have the chance to ask her what she would buy before she let go of his hand. He yelped as he accidently flew into a shelf nearby. He shook his
MurdocX2D - A big tour ch 16The night slowly turned into morning. The sun rose over the hotel and the first one who woke up was the bassist. Murdoc hadn't got much sleep at all. He hadn't got any damn sleep at all since he came here! Murdoc groaned and rubbed his black messy hair. He rose from the bed and stretched a little. He could hear some small creaking sounds from his neck and he groaned deeply. Today it was only packing and driving on the bands list. Murdoc didn't bother to get dress or brush his teeth. He walked around in the room and started to collect his things that lay all over the floor. The room looked like a bomb had exploded in there. The bassist chuckled when he imaged the cleaner's expression when he or she saw the mess the bassist had left after him. Murdoc didn't have to bother so much about his clothes since he didn't changed clothes that often. And he now realized that he had felled asleep in his black jeans. He didn't care if he had worn them for almost three days in row now. It was how heMurdocX2D - A big tour ch 16 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
MurdocX2D - A big tour ch 21Back at the car park at Kong studios Russel had just helped Murdoc to get up on his legs and dragged him to the car. They needed to get to the airport and get Noodle back. Russel had even tried to make Murdoc drop the damn frying pan he had swing around with after poor Cortez. Russel was so damn tired of this all. He gave the bassist a slap across the face to make him stop acting like a moron. Murdoc had just shook his head a little before he started chuckle and talk a lot of crap again. Russel sighed and grabbed the car keys from Murdoc's Winnebago and unlocked the bassist's new car. Russel blinked at the bassist who only chuckled.MurdocX2D - A big tour ch 21 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Russel: Who will drive?
Russel: Stupid question Get in!
Murdoc: Just make sure to kill us on the way Russ.
Russel: Shut up! Just get into the damn car!
Murdoc and Russel got into the car and put on the safety belt. Murdoc had brought a can of beer with him and opened it while Russel drove away from Kong studios. Russel glared at M
MurdocX2D - A big tour ch 18How long had it been? Three months? Three, almost four months since 2D left Kong studios. The whole place wasn't the same at all without the blue haired singer. He was a part of the place. He was a part of the band. He was a big part of their FAMILY. None of the band members had the feeling to do anything. Noodle had spent the most of her time by looking out through the window like a puppy that waited for its owner to come home and play with it. She had waited like crazy for several hours every day for the singer to come back. Sometimes when she wasn't looking through the window every fifth minute she used to walk into the singer room and lay down on his bed. She used to fall asleep there and later the drummer had to come and pick her up and carry her back to her own room. Russel felt horrible to see the poor girl suffer like that. He had tried his best to make Noodle feel better. He always used to walk up to her and ask her how she felt and suggested different things they could do togMurdocX2D - A big tour ch 18 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
MurdocX2D - A big tour ch 192D woke up early the next morning all tired without any sleep at all. He hadn't got much sleep at all since he read the message he got from Noodle the last night. He groaned as he rubbed his hair and forced himself out of the bed. He was going to take photos for the new collection today. The blue haired singer didn't felt for it at all. 2D went to the bathroom and brushed his teeth. After that he watched himself in the mirror for a while. He didn't bother that much of his reflection like the girls always did. They went crazy if they discovery a pimple or that their makeup were messed up. 2D shrugged and then got dressed. He didn't care about eating breakfast and instead walked out on the balcony. He stared out over the town and sighed. He thought about Noodle's message again. She seemed to miss him very much. 2D felt bad for leaving her without even say good bye. Noodle was like his little sister after all. But yet the singer couldn't go back. He had been gone for a long while and if hMurdocX2D - A big tour ch 19 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
MurdocX2D - A big tour ch 222D stretched himself a little and groaned as he felt his neck hurt. He had been tired of this entire photo taking and posing for today. The clothes he was wearing was killing him too. The outfit he was wearing was a black tight jacket and black jeans. He also had a black tie and a black hat. The girls had almost the same out fir but had skirts and diadems instead. They did some sort of fashion collection of some sort of office clothing. 2D and the girls had to get ready for the next shot so they were just in the middle of getting their makeup put on and get their hair styled. 2D didn't wanted so much of it and got the chance to sneak away to get some water before he would pose for the collection. Just as everything were about to get settled Amelie came running in high speed yelling in French. Everyone around the place got confused and looked at each other. 2D only raised an eyebrow since he didn't understand a word of what she said. Amelie ran up to 2D and put her papers on the table iMurdocX2D - A big tour ch 22 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
MurdocX2D - A big tour ch 17The band kept going. They went from place to place and it took around a month or more. It was a long tour. The band had already been on their places and played their music and concert.It had been long weeks with fans who yelled out their names and lots of fame without any rest. The sad thing was that the band had seemed to forgotten about what happened a week earlier. Murdoc and 2D didn't fight or speak to each other at all. They stayed quiet and did their "work" instead. They only focused on the music and the concert. Noodle and Russel didn't bother at all. They just felt glad that the two guys finally stopped fighting for a while. Sure 2D and Murdoc fought a little but that didn't turned out much worse at all. And without knowing it the tour was over and the band could finally go home to Kong studios again. The bassist sat in the driver's seat and stared at the road with half opened eyes. He had waited so long to finally get home again. It was early in the morning as usual when theyMurdocX2D - A big tour ch 17 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Why Can't I Be Normal?Sometimes I wonder,Why Can't I Be Normal? in Free Verse More Like This
Why I am the way I am;
Why can't I be normal?
Why must I worry,
About every little thing
That may affect the way
People respond to me?
Why must I overanalyze
The way people react
To things I say or do?
Why can't I just accept
That the reactions of others
Have nothing to do with me?
Why can't I be happy
With the way I live my life
And just not care about
What other people think?
Why can't I just accept myself
And stand up straight and tall
With a smile on my face,
And no fear at all?
I really wish I could
Be confident and strong
But I don't know how
And even if I did
I probably wouldn't
Be able to do it.
I WonderI wonder if you care for meI Wonder in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
As much as you say you do
I wonder if you think of me
As much as I do you
I wonder what you really think
And how you truly feel
I wonder about our friendship
Is it a lie or is it real?
I wonder if you'd miss me
If I were to disappear
I wonder what your reaction'd be
If you'd shed a single tear
I wonder if it pains you
To see me in despair
I wonder if you meant it
When you said you'd always be there
I wonder if you love me
As much as I love you
I wonder if you'd stay
If everything about me, you knew
I wonder if you're tired
Of my insecurity
I wonder if I mean to you
As much as you mean to me.
Exactly the SameI wanted to be confidentExactly the Same in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I wanted to be strong
I thought I was almost there
But I guess I was wrong
I am just as pathetic
As I was back then
Those thoughts and feelings
They're all here again
I failed my mission
I'm still so weak
I still haven't found
What it is that I seek
I can't believe it
I thought I changed a lot
I guess it was dumb to think
All those optimistic thoughts
"Look at me now!" I thought,
"Look at what I overcame!"
But I was just fooling myself
I am exactly the same.
BreatheBreathe in, breathe outBreathe in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Slow and deep
Breathe in, breathe out
You need to sleep.
Breathe in, breathe out
Nothing is wrong
Breathe in, breathe out
You need to stay calm.
Breathe in, breathe out
Anxiety, go away
Breathe in, breathe out
It'll all be okay.
Breathe in, breathe out
Just clear your mind
Breathe in, breathe out
You'll be fine.
Breathe in, breathe out
Just a few more times
Breathe in, breathe out
Just close your eyes.
EmptinessThere's an emptiness inside of meEmptiness in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
A thirst that can't be quenched
It's raining loneliness and pain
Rain that leaves me drenched
There's a hole inside of me
A hole that I can't fill
This hole, it hurts so much
A pain that I can't kill
Everyone is leaving
I've got no place to go
No one to spend time with
And I feel so alone
I'm tired of being here
I'm tired of the things I do
Nothing seems fun anymore
Days are hard to get through
I just want to disappear
I don't want to stay
Here in a life that's lacking
I just want to fade away
I'm getting really tired
What am I here for?
You know what, nevermind
I don't care anymore.
The TruthYou want to know the truth?The Truth in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I envy you a lot
The bonds that you all share
Are what I've always sought
I don't think that I can
Ever have such things
Because of who I am
With my insecurities
I crave the touch of a friend
But I'm too scared to ask
I don't want to seem needy
So I'll just wear a mask
I'll keep it all inside
The loneliness and pain
Otherwise I'll burden you
Which will make me so ashamed
Although I don't deserve you
I don't want to be alone
To keep you from leaving me
I'll give up everything I own
Being BraveSo you think you know meBeing Brave in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
You think you've got me all figured out
But you don't know what it's like
To have all this insecurity and doubt.
So you want to know what's wrong
When tears are streaming down my face
You say you want to help me
But some scars you can't erase.
You plead for me to explain
As you squeeze my trembling hand
But I don't know what to say
That will make you understand.
These fears that haunt me daily
May seem small and dumb to you
But they control my mind
And there's nothing I can do.
You tell me to get over it
To step outside my cave
But you see, I cannot comprehend
This concept of being brave.
Trying and FailingWhat's the point in tryingTrying and Failing in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
If all I do is fail?
Once again I sit
And watch my life derail
I messed up again
Like I always do
I feel that it is pointless
To try to begin anew
I'm not getting better
It always ends the same
It'll be good at first
But then I'll be left with pain
But I bring this on myself
I can't do anything right
No matter how much I try
No matter how long I fight
I'm always left with nothing
At the end of it all
Left with nothing but the fear
That I will always fall
I don't know what to do
I don't know what I need
To change the way I am
So I can finally succeed
I'm starting to lose hope
In ever changing me
In ever becoming the person
The Lord wants me to be
Will I ever be that person?
Will I ever get there?
Please help me, Lord
Please hear my prayer
Help me to be strong
Please help me to get through
I can't do this by myself
The one I need is You
So please help me out
Don't give up on me
Or I'll give up on myself
And then where will I be?
If I give up now
I will never be
ChainsI sit in a crowdChains in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
But I am completely alone
I have walled myself off from everyone
Bricks packed so tightly together
There is no room for mortar
Maybe it's temporary
Like all the times before
Maybe it's forever
This time around
I cannot say
All I know is that I sit surrounded
A hundred conversations
I hear not a one as I sit
Isolated behind my walls
I desperately want to break free
However I sit paralyzed
By the twin shackles of fear
Forged so long ago
By a small girl
With no skills or aptitude
The work complete
Reinforced through the years
Till escape but is a far off hope
What will I do
What could I do given the tools
Perhaps I'll never know
I could grab them and break
These walls down tomorrow
Or I could stay here
What will I do?
I WantI want to curl up with this musicI Want in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
And let you hold me on your lap
As though I were your small cat
I want this warmth and security
To surround me so
The comfort and strength
I want to feel that
In your hands as you
Comfort and reassure me
I want to feel safe
To feel loved and cared for
To wrap myself up in you
I want my cares and worries
To fall away as you embrace me
To feel as though you'll never let go
I want these things so bad
But I can't seem to find a way
To put these wants into words
I want you
To just smile
And make my day
I want you to say
You'll do that
DanceToday I could not wake upDance in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
My mind would not work
I tried drinking things
I tried watching things
I tried reading things
I tried and tried and gave up
I was just going to be tired
That was just the way it was going to be
Then I tried listening to music
Before I knew it my body was moving
The moves were silly
They woke me up
They made me laugh
They showed me this wasn't the way it was going to be
FeelingsThere on the ground before meFeelings in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Like a dog beaten down
Lay my feelings
As I stared at them
I simply could not comprehend
How they had come to be
So beaten and bedraggled
As though no one
Had cared for them in so long
They had become an
Unrecognizable heap on the street
Treated as so much ignored
Trash to be walked over and past
Not a second look to be had
I stared and could barely
Remember what they had
Felt like once upon a time
A time that seemed
Almost a lifetime ago
Cold and distant
I just stood and stared
Had those feelings
Ever truly belonged to me
Or was it just a dream I had
Once upon a time
That was a lifetime ago
Stay AwhileCome my friend, have a seat with me and sit a spell. Listen to my music and let it carry you away while you forget your worries. Let it wrap around you as you float along. No need to think or worry. Just rest your weary head as I share my silent comfort with you. Lay your head in my lap and let me smooth those lines from your brow. I'll carry your burden to let you rest awhile. I'll take care of things so you can relax and just let yourself be. My fingers slowly combing through your hair, taking your stress with each pass. Close those weary eyes and listen to my song as I hum along. We can simply lay and enjoy this lovely sunny day. Nowhere to be, nothing to do, but lay back and let it go. Let the sun warm your soul while my presence helps relax you. I've got you and I'll keep you free and safe. We can sit beneath the shade of a tree or lay on a couch as we watch the time drift away. No pressing concerns to touch us here. Just you and me, being free. Come stay awhile with me and let yoStay Awhile in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Maybe Some DayI smile and laughMaybe Some Day in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Assuring you nothing is wrong
When you ask I simply
Shrug my shoulders
And change the topic
My shoulders are always here
For you to lean on and cry on
My ears are always open
To hear your tales of joy and woe
My lips keep your secrets
I bleed slowly into myself
Where no one can see
Where I don't have to explain
How I'd rather be
The shoulder you lean on
Than the sad tale you hear
How I'd rather see
Your smile than have you
See these tears I cry
When I support you
I can push all this
Ugliness away from myself
I can see how things
Can be instead of how they
Seem to me and my tired eyes
My heart leaps every day
Only to be bruised and hurt
Again by day's end
Only to leap again
Every blow is a blow
To my soul and I begin
To grow weary of all
These things that everyone
Says will get better
Change doesn't seem
To be coming for me
But that's okay
Because I have you
To listen and talk to
You show me how bright
How right things can be
And that makes taking another
MockeryI feel like everything bright and creativeMockery in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Mocks me through the shimmer of tears
My mouth is dry and my stomach in knots
Can't focus my eyes no matter how hard I try
I feel too full and yet too empty
All at the same time and it's driving me mad
I want to rant and rave while I curl up
And simply give in quietly
My heart beats so rapidly but feels
Like it's not beating at all
Each slow thump reminds me
Of another minute passed in this
Unbearable emotional hell
What good is a voice if the only
Noise it can make is a strangled scream
What good is a heart if it can barely beat
These tears demand release alongside
This rage buried inside
I can't express it all so I lock it away
Slowly it will build inside me
Until parts of it find a way out
But inside it will stay
Never to be seen or heard by anyone
Until I can't hide it away anymore
And it comes bursting out of me
Straight into my pillow
Safe away from anyone else
The only one who should see it never will
Ain't that the biggest ______ of it
Book LoveI love the soundBook Love in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Of the pages as I flip them
Of the pages as I shift my grip
I love the feel
Of the slick cover
Of the resisting binding
I love watching
The pages age
The spine bend
To how it feels
To read books
As good as reading
A new book
Like the plot
Like the action
That can be found
In a book
toes curlingher hands unfold like delicate flowerstoes curling in Free Verse More Like This
pink brown flutters of muscles, and veins and her
flowers unfurl their pinkness against mahogany switches
of trees, reeds of spring against the sun
my lips literally burn for you
withouti miss your easel and your quiet uncertaintieswithout in Free Verse More Like This
they soothed my brash and sea-tossed soul
i miss the way sunlight bathed your young head
framed with grey and gold
and the way i just wanted when i saw you
quiet infatuationordinary people fall in lovequiet infatuation in Free Verse More Like This
solid ground beneath their feet
but stars in their eyes
they're built of hands and touching
moonlight isn't realistic
but some people kiss like the night
dark and velvety and sharp
all at the same time
to him whom i love secretly and from far awaydo you think of meto him whom i love secretly and from far away in Free Verse More Like This
when the light hits your window and the cedar dust whirls around your saw?
is there any moonlight that you long for
i have become more than
and yet lesser without you
i have become the sun empress and the baroness of the moon
robed in purple glory and covered in night
i miss your pale morning light
when you were all that was green and good in the world
the earth i planted my feet in
for i am the goddess of the shadowed things
the lady of the fanged ones who growl and disturb your sleep
and creep under your doors to linger in your moods
glowyour phosphorence has dazzled meglow in Free Verse More Like This
you have caught me in the spaces between stars
where the night meets the netted clots of nebuli
you, my comet, my meteoroid
have come to meet me at last
in our very own colliding galaxies
thoughtEvery love affair ends in either in pleasant fuzzy floaty feelings or a fiery car wreck on I-5. For most of your life, it's a series of the latter,with the first love the most memorable picture.thought in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
You end up spiraling into dark albums, the edgy sad ones that no one but the heartbroken care for.
The music's good, but the tone is dark.
And nobody likes it but you and your darkness.
New GirlThis hurts.New Girl in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
I don't know why I clung to that slender thread of hope.
I still have a sliver left.
I hope without hope.
You know, I was called beautiful today.
It makes it so much harder to believe now.
Like a distant dream.
This hurts so much.
Fragments of me are shattered all across the floor, continually struggling to reconfigure itself into a useful vase.
But I'm not meant to be useful.
I'm meant for entertainment.
Take me off the shelf, dear, and I'll amuse you.
I love you.
And I'll keep saying that until it becomes past tense.
MeetingI miss you.Meeting in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
I'm still sad and angry at you, but I miss you all the same.
I saw you, and we had a civil conversation today.
You talked about your girlfriend, how she has dual citizenship in Germany and the U.S.
And how she has a picture on Facebook of her with a gigantic mug of beer.
Frat boy much?
And . I saw her picture.
Maybe she's better looking in person.
And you why, you almost walked off with all my stuff.
The first words you said were, "Why, hello, my darling Amy."
Just like that.
My thoughts: I'm fucked.
You're more mature, more like me with your "sexual tension" comments.
Which is scary, because the more like me you are, the less I understand you.
Apparently, my broad shoulders accentuated my already hourglass figure.
According to a friend's dad.
Which, in retrospect, is really creepy.
I'm Madam Amy, to you.
Am I really just intimidating?
I'd like to think there's so much more, but maybe my friends are lying to me.
Do I frighten
RealityReality in front of meReality in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
seems, to me, like a series of dreams.
Yet I can't escape this filthy sleep--
feels like i'm in it too far deep.
The screen freezes
I'm looking at the frames.
Faces become faceless,
draining and lifeless.
Every time I reach out
the scene's bleedin'.
like a wet painting.
My fingers smear it...
feelI refuse to believe God only knowsfeel in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
where does that leave the rest of the world?
how are we to function living off of unknown?
what makes the naive so unbelievably happy?
do they not understand the misery?
have they accepted it or are they in denial?
Anxiety is amongst thee.
Take the blame and simply plee guilty.
It's the only way to be free.
Or are we really?
How can we know for sure?
What gives us certainty in reality?
Perhaps it's just a dream,
a made up state of being...
But I know I'm real
because of the things I feel.
I Never Thought...I never thoughtI Never Thought... in Free Verse More Like This
I'd be sitting in a hospital
listening to time go by
second by second.
I never thought
I'd see her in that much pain
with no way of escaping it.
I never thought
that of all people
I'd want to claw out
the eyes' of doctors and nurses.
I never thought
I'd want to stay in a hospital
for a longer period of time.
I never thought
I'd have to fight the world
to be by her side.
But if I have to
I will do this forever
because, to me,
she's well worth the fight.
Such a Lonely DaySuch a lonely day...and it's mine.Such a Lonely Day in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Discontent with the world surrounding me,
discontent with my own perception,
unsure how to regain contentment--
All perspective seems bent.
It's dark... inside and out.
I'm not sure how to bring it all about.
I can barely see right in front of me-- my own writing.
Guess it's the same..
My words are my thoughts,
and the world is my mind--
Hard and empty, blank and black.
I am ALONE
that's just how I feel.
The word 'happiness' seems so unreal.
Why is it I can't seem to regain conciousness?
I'm living in a dreamstate.
Everything's a blur, I can't read it.
No motivation to regain it,
I need no more strain.
I've lost my diary
Now how will I know what I want to be?
No one cares about me.
I am a face-- a thought nonetheless
To myself, I no longer exist.
I'd disappear if only I weighed less.
End of a CompanionshipI'm afraid this companionship has reached an endEnd of a Companionship in Free Verse More Like This
between me and my special so-called "friend."
I can't believe you or your sketchy ways,
your even shadier explanation for your delays.
It's a shame to see my friend of three years
become a danger, total stranger, the worst of all fears.
I should be angry, disappointed, upset, and ashamed,
but I wonder if, still, I'm the one to be blamed.
You could say it's my fault;
I made her run away, I can't complain,
But who am I to say she wouldn't run anyway?
I can't say I was oblivious, it was obvious.
The truth is, I've been in denial.
I'm not naive or incomplete, I refused to believe.
My heart couldn't handle it and so my brain took leave!
My hand's reaction is most loyal
to bow-- salute to every royal.
I've got compassion for disasters,
she's got a profession duplicating pastors.
She had my answers,
though, my questions-- insignificant.
Her only reaction seemed indifferent.
Senses of WeaknessLook, but don't stare.Senses of Weakness in Free Verse More Like This
Touch, dare not feel.
Hug, don't hold.
Talk, do not speak.
Hear, and refuse to listen.
abstain from breath.
Lay back, but never relax.
These are signs of weakness.
Midnight StrangerA relationship falsely accused of danger,Midnight Stranger in Free Verse More Like This
me and my midnight stranger.
Curiosity kept me creeping,
for him, I became interesting.
Both kept our distance,
such a lovely resistance.
Numerous little things in common,
out in the open, as well as hidden.
A secret friendship from around the corner,
a connection, at first, balanced on a border.
Discouraged by an authority figure,
but my only known emotional cure,
a relief of mental stress
by talkative excessiveness.
A mutual respect
and failure to neglect
a cute yet stubborn intellect.
We're two caring individuals--
a bond gone incognito.
He's a devotional companion,
respectable and understanding.
We have different interests
but share identical habits.
We've grown into each other
Can't sleep until our days' be covered,
Can't turn out my light
or get under the covers
Until he says "Goodnight"
without a stutter.
I admit, he knows how to throb my chest--
a rare reaction from a guest.
But, I insist on keeping this anonymous
even though I consider
suck up to the stuck upyou're pretending like we're all the foolssuck up to the stuck up in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
bowin' down, movin' around,
actin' like your tools.
you kick 'em to the ground
they get up without a frown.
ain't guna sulk in their own misery.
hope you're what they wanna be
like, "why can't that be me?"
they're dyin' to be free.
but they don't really know
'cause they'll never really own
the guilt that you do
or filth that you've done.
now i don't mean any disrespect
i'm just tryin' to recollect.
to seize all of the memories.
good or bad
what you've had
what you lost
and what it cost
but most importantly
the bases of your needs.
you're too high up on your pedestal
it's no wonder you're misunderstood.
Murdocx2D Yaoi story pt 11~~~~~1 week later~~~~Murdocx2D Yaoi story pt 11 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"Whoa, D! That's a lot of food." Russel gawked at the table covered in breakfast food. The singer, blowing on his pancakes, looked up at the drummer. "Oh, ello." Russel walked over to the table and sat down. "Yo, you're eatin' quite a bit of food, this mornin'." 2D blinked at him and looked down at his plate. "Well...I-Um...OH! Hi, Muds!" The bluenette waved at the bassist walking into the kitchen. "Hey..'D." He lazily waved back, heading for the fridge, then looked over at the table. "Holy bollocks! Ya think ya got enough food there, mate?" 2D frowned. "It isn' dat much food." Murdoc scoffed. "Russel doesn't even eat that much, 2D." Hurt showed on the singer's face. "Yer callin' meh fat, den?" Murdoc's smile faded. "Wait, no! Yer as skinny as a twig!" The singer pushes away his plate and got up from his chair, only to be pushed back down by Murdoc. "Jus' eat..." Russel shook his head and grabbed a bag of chips, heading back to his room. Looking to make
Murdocx2D Yaoi Story pt. 28~~~~Big day~~~Murdocx2D Yaoi Story pt. 28 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
2D was sleeping soundly in his room when he suddenly felt a shaking on his shoulder. "Uhn?" What was that? WHO was that?! "Wot?...'o?" He didn't open his eyes. "...Stop shakin' me!" A giggle sounded and the shaking stopped. Noodle. "Noodle-luv...wot're ya doin' in meh room?" He rubbed his eyes sleepily. The young guitarist smiled. "It's big day today, 2D-kun!" She started to pull him up from the bed. "You must get ready!" 2D blinked several times, trying to make up fast enough. "Wot?!" Was it really the day to get married?! A giant smile showed on his face. "Woo!" He sat up straight, ignoring the small pain from the still healing gash in his stomach. Noodle jumped back in surprise.
"2D-kun. I help you with outfit, yes?" The singer smiled and nodded. "Yeah...sure ya can , Noods." He got up of
Murdocx2D Yaoi Story pt. 32Artist's comment: I can't believe I couldn't think of ANYTHING good. I literally spent 2 weeks restarting this over and over. And still nothing good came out of it. Fuck...I'm so sorry...There will be things that I look forward to writing out...but it'll take some time to get to them...I'm filling in the boring stuff as much as I can. Forgive me. :CMurdocx2D Yaoi Story pt. 32 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"Wot the fuck happened?" A distant, muffled voice asked. Murdoc's voice. "Well...we DID get along for the first few minutes...and then...it turned rotten real fast. David--" Rachel's voice was cut off quickly. "Oh! It's always David! If he's got a problem wit' me, then me and him'll talk it out! He needs to leave Stuart out of it!" The bassist was getting angry. "I know..." A quiet growl. "Where the fuck is he, anyway?" There was a pause. "At work. Stuart's in here."
A door opened and light blin
Murdocx2D Yaoi story pt 20I decided to stop dilly-dallying and get right to the birthMurdocx2D Yaoi story pt 20 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
~~~~The big day~~~~
It's been nearly a whole month since the last ultrasound, and 2D was tired of the being inside of him. He was so tired of the kicking as well as the cramps he got FROM the kicking. As he sat on the couch in the Winne, his mind began to roam again. The diaper changing, the child bathing, teaching her manners. "Ugh!" He just wasn't ready. His eyes focused on the clock on the wall, his mind still racing. "Everybody's here wif me...got no camera to see...don' fink 'm all in dis world...da camera won'--" He cut himself off with a yawn. His attention turned to the door as it swung open and the bassist stepped in with a plastic bag. "Oh, 'ey Muds." The bassist smiled and handed the singer the bag. "I jus' went to Taco Bell." Digging into the bag, 2D quickly unwrapped a taco and bit into it. "Mmm. Fanks Muh-doc!"
Murdocx2D Yaoi Story pt. 27~~~3 days later~~~Murdocx2D Yaoi Story pt. 27 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
2D jolted up in bed. "Unh!?" He looked around and held himself. A bad dream. "...Lucinda?" The singer looked around the room and over to the crib, seeing his child sleeping soundly. "Aww..." He looked at the time on the alarm clock.
"Wot da?! Free A.M.?!" 2D jumped out of his bed, tripping a bit.
"Agh!" He caught himself and went to the door, going up the stairwell to the carpark. "..." His gaze fell on the Winnebago.
He was determined to get there. Quietly, the singer sneaked that way. "Hngh..."
Once he got to the door, he knocked quietly, hoping Murdoc wasn't too asleep. 2D waited patiently, humming a song to himself.
"Murdoc?" Another knock and the door suddenly opened. "Oh!" He gasped in surprise. "Muds..."
The bassist looked down at 2D from the doorway. "Wot d'ya need luv?" The singer looked down and then back up at Murdoc. "C-Could I come in?"
Without waiting, &
Murdocx2D Yaoi Story pt. 25Artist Comment: Urgh...Stupid computer is stupid...Murdocx2D Yaoi Story pt. 25 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
2D awoke from the sound of Lucinda whimper. "Hm? Wot? Wot's wrong?" His voice came out raspy and hard to understand.
He looked down at the infant and smiled softly. "Ya 'ungry?" Lucinda didn't answer, but she did thrash her arms about, requesting something. 2D sighed and sat up, wincing from the newly opened wound. "Ow...Okay 'old on, little luv." The singer picked up the child and delicately lifted her head up to his right nipple. "Go on..."
She looked at it and then up to 2D's face, moving her mouth onto the bare nipple. Small suckling sounds were made as she heartily drank, her eyes closing. Her hunger pains disappeared quickly as she got a good amount of breast milk. "Mhaah." Lucinda pulled away and started whining quickly. 2D grimaced. "Now now, Jus' wait a minute.." He picked her up and burped her, making the whining stop.
Murdocx2D Yaoi story pt 18~~~~~December 24, ( 8 weeks and 2 days later)~~~~~Murdocx2D Yaoi story pt 18 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
2D wandered around the halls of Kong, entering the lobby, singing out 'Deck the Halls' into the empty room. " 's da season to be jolly!" Looking around the decorations lining the walls, he felt happy that Murdoc gave in to celebrating Christmas. He usually did though, as long as there were lots of presents, which there were. 2D happily did most of the shopping online, buying Murdoc some new shirts that he'd like as well as a nice pair of cuban heels, since his others were faded out. His gifts to Noodle consisted of Japanese candy, Powerpuff Girls night gown, and a Pikachu plushie. Russel shopped for himself, so he didn't need to get anything for him. While the singer was pondering his gift decisions, he hadn't notice Murdoc right in front of him and nearly bumped into him, hadn't it been for Murdoc putting a hand on his shoulder first. "Wo-Oh! 'ey M
Depressing AnxietyI live in the future,Depressing Anxiety in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
and the future is bleak;
I fear coming hardships,
knowing I'm weak.
It's too hard even
to live day by day
When every hour alone
brings a price I must pay.
still feel fresh,
While Tomorrow already
cuts into my flesh.
I don't have time
to think of Today;
I must prepare for Tomorrow,
I cannot delay!
My thoughts rush by,
my mind never rests,
new trials and tests.
Everyday BattlefieldThe sun comes up,Everyday Battlefield in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
It's another day.
Sometimes you'd rather hide
Than go out to play.
Words of ignorance may sting,
Though you ignore what they say;
You hold your head high,
You do things your own way.
This seems to warrant attack,
But your strength holds them at bay;
Their missiles miss,
And their guns giveway.
You know you'll always live
To see another day.
Ugly JusticeJustice is revenge, dressed up all nice.Ugly Justice in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
An attempt for civility--condoned sacrifice.
The bad guy has to pay the price;
That's still the point, vengeance still the vice.
But unlike revenge, justice is flawed,
Subject to manipulation and fraud.
Led by "evidence" the lawyers laud,
The jury's no more than a moron squad.
Social AnxietyI'm phobic of people,Social Anxiety in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The world's scary to me;
I never know what's going on,
So just please leave me be.
I can't meet your eyes,
I'm far too meek.
It's only a whisper
When I try to speak.
I don't want to seem rude,
I'm really polite,
But I'm too afraid
And my throat's now too tight.
I wish I could do better
And socialize with you.
But how to do it?
I don't have a clue.
The Depressed IntellectualMost people will never think,The Depressed Intellectual in Free Verse More Like This
I rue them this,
Even as I envy it.
Pain is a Feeling.
Feeling is Pain.
What's it like
Not to feel Pain?
But I think,
Therefore I feel.
My thoughts race,
And so does my heart.
It has no end,
It has no start.
This is all a Disease
Of the Intelligent.
Morning ClassOh my life...Morning Class in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
It's way too early.
The lack of sleep
Makes me cranky and surly.
So many statistics...
I need to use my head.
But all that's on my mind
Is my cozy little bed.
What's with this teacher?
He's fully awake!
While my hands are barely moving,
With these notes to take.
How's this guy so happy
When this subject is so dull?!
I think I just might rip the joy
Right out of his soul.
I'm in a rather nasty mood--
I promise you'd be too,
If as soon as you woke up
You had to join this zoo.
You Can't Hide ForeverYour claws are bared,You Can't Hide Forever in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
You think you're quite clever,
But really you're scared
That you can't hide forever.
The darkness you see
Isn't your delusion,
But what can ever be
If you stay in seclusion?
There's more to this life
Than horror and pain;
Happiness is rife
If you'll just get on the train.
Take a chance,
Ride this ride;
Free yourself, dance,
Sing, have pride!