Why Not to get out of Bed.Depression.Why Not to get out of Bed. in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Withering me down.
Down to even less than I think I am.
So why try?
Why not just give up before hand?
No one needs me.
So I'll stay here.
I'll stay here and hate more.
More than I first did,
For lying in bed.
Which shall keep me longer.
So I surrender all of my day,
To the only solution to my sadness.
Sleep the guilt, the hate away.
Sleep the worthlessness down.
I'd rather just pray and sleep.
Pray that I can sleep,
And hope that tomorrow,
Will be a better day.
But if I'm only going to fall,
Why get up?
GuillotineYou wonder how long it will take,Guillotine in Free Verse More Like This
Before you give in to the fear.
How much more before you brake,
Fall and beg them to spare you here.
Seems unfair to face it alone.
To be the only one burden by this fate
Forced to sit anxiously and moan.
Forced to expect it and just wait.
Submissively expecting your punishment.
Dignity allows you not a tear to shed.
They say your intentions were hell bent,
And for that they must have your head.
The blade falls, you're without hope.
Too late now, he cut the rope.
End.EndEnd. in Free Verse More Like This
Back to the room where it's just me.
Back to the dark where it's just me.
Back to the hate where it's just me.
Back by myself, and I can't stand me.
So I sit and I sob in my loathing.
So I sit and I hate in my loathing.
So I sit and I think in my loathing.
So I plot my own death in my loathing.
With pink yarn I weave a long rope.
With pink yearn I braid a long rope.
With pink yearn I tie a long rope.
With pink yearn, a noose, and a long rope.
From the ceiling a fan dangles.
From the ceiling a thread dangles.
From the ceiling a neck dangles.
From the ceiling my corps dangles.
Broken GirlBROKEN GIRLBroken Girl in Free Verse More Like This
Staring me right in the face, a face I never wanted to see.
The face of a young girl, who was not so different form me.
Her cursed features were unpleasant in every physical way.
And she was growing nearer to insanity every living day.
She would gaze at the wall, while her makeup dripped down her cheek.
I 'd just shake my head, wondering how she got to be so weak.
In her eyes I saw a soul that could never mend.
With every tick of the clock, she was a little closer to the end.
Even behind the glass that kept our worlds apart,
It wasn't hard for me to see her lonely, icy, heart.
Pathetic, annoying, stupid, and ugly.
Just never quite as good as she really could be.
I could see all her flaws, all the horrible things she was apart of.
Her lonely heart cracking from abuse, where there should be love.
Day after day she would claw herself, and then break down.
I 'd simply watch, reading her wary eyes and her sewed on frown.
She knew who she was, she knew everyone hated her,
Pricked.Cringe in pain as a single spool hits the floor.Pricked. in Free Verse More Like This
It unravels only a small vestige of thread behind,
For my eye to trace.
A button and a few shreds of clothe.
Some pins and bits of stuffing.
Yet nothing successfully seized the spool.
It reluctantly rolls regardless of its path.
And as I skeptically fallow the fine thread,
It comes closer and closer to intertwining,
With my own path.
Until it rests at my step to reveal the thread holds,
The eye of a guilty, bloody needle.
Unfinished.UNFINISHEDUnfinished. in Visual & Found Poetry More Like This
Deep down inside of me,
There's this pain called reality.
Behind these walls of flesh,
No breathing, I'm out of breath.
My heart has the master plans.
My mind's no longer in command.
A wound that will never mend,
A flame growing into the end.
Where all else melts, these will rise.
Chaos, torment, fear and cries.
It's like dyeing from the inside out,
Wanting to scream and dousing a shout.
Where hate strives and over powers,
Where love weakens and cowers.
The clock suddenly ceases to tick,
My heart stops pumping, I become sick.
BlindBlindBlind in Free Verse More Like This
Its as if I'm blind.
No windows, no color,
So darkness on my mind.
Not a soul for miles,
Who would care.
No one ever smiles.
Cold are the beds,
The room, and the people.
I'm sure that's the meds.
If nothing more I mind so much,
The alone time.
No feeling, no touch.
So I sit and unwind,
Sensing nothing at all.
Its as if I'm blind.
FearIts like trying to tell someoneFear in Free Verse More Like This
about a pit at their feet.
They walk too fast to notice it's there.
On the other side,
A seemingly harmless one eyed girl.
A temptress possibly.
Luring in another unsuspecting bystander.
What's more odd,
The girl warns him.
Over and over she desperately warns him
Of the pit.
But he's blind.
Her eye of desire and longing is all he sees.
She longs to love and to be loved.
So this would be ideal If not for the pit.
Staying and staring
harms them both.
So she gouges her eye and leaves.
Perfection.PERFECTIONPerfection. in Concrete Poetry More Like This
The things heard, turn out to be true.
Worthless. Nobody really needs you.
Lack of a purpose, once empty inside.
Now filled by loathing, believing lies.
To stare still blind, only brings worse.
Crawling tears. Today I must reverse.
So changing, ending the broken frame.
Anything to be, but can't stay the same.
To be good, to be better, to not be me.
Distorted mental images. A Shape to be.
Internal rocks interrupt to go straight.
Then the lied to lies. Lies gain weight.
The skeletal groans hit a hard heart.
Soaking on musts. Never left start.
I can't go back. So it slowly implodes.
Falling in on itself. On a cracking road.
The hate sent poring from veins.
No other option. Bound by chains.
What wanted well became so ill,
Because of a sick desire to fulfill.
Wide glossy eyes eternally closed.
Defeated. Nothing left. Exposed.
The wrinkles grow longer each day.
Blades duller. As all withers away.
Each cell even di
frecklesI gently scrape my nails a crossed your fair skin,freckles in Visual & Found Poetry More Like This
As you tenderly pase your lips on my neck.
If I could control the world, your hand lost in mine,
My eyes locked with yours,
A light Safire blue.
I cant' help but count your faint freckles,
And every last one, mine.
The comfort you your strands of hair must find,
Sleeping over your speckled shoulder.
And Within the confines of my mind,
A goddess haunts every thought.
If only I could caress your powder face in my palm,
Tell you of my sick infatuation.
The desire I hold ,
To hold you.
Red that frames your face a compliment to other features.
With the blessing of your glowing grin.
I count the days until our paths meet.
GA fanfic 2-PrologueGA fanfic 2-Prologue in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Bartonville Insane Asylum, IL
The GA crew gets locked down inside a former Insane Asylum inhabited by restless spirits and malevolent entities.
GA fanfic 2- Lockdown Part 3GA fanfic 2- Lockdown Part 3 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Lockdown Part 3
Something definitely wasn't right, the entire atmosphere of the room changed. I slightly stepped back, getting an overwhelming feeling of dread.
He struggled to speak as something was fighting to take control over him.
"You need to get out of here."
"I'm not leaving you here."
As I stood watching him, he began hissing, gritting his teeth and clenching his fists.
I stepped forward slightly in concern, reaching for his shoulder.
"Come on, Nick. We need-"
Suddenly, I felt a very forcible shove. Screaming as I was forced back and my back hit the wall. My Digital Recorder fell on the floor beside me.
Meanwhile, Zak and Aaron were downstairs.
"Did you hear that?"
"Dude, that was no ghost."
Staring for only a second, they knew something was wrong. They broke into a fast jog, flashlights in hand heading for the stairwell.
A few feet away with little strength he had left, Nick screamed.
I struggled to keep my camera on him, quickly reaching for the
GA fanfic 2- Lockdown Part 1GA fanfic 2- Lockdown Part 1 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Lockdown Part 1
Peering into my LCD screen, everything was in various shades of green on the Night-vision. We walked slowly down the first floor hallway.
Filming behind Zak, he spoke out in a gentle tone.
"Is there anyone here?" he paused, pointed at us.
"I'm Zak, this is Nick, Aaron and Aura. We mean no disrespect for those of you that died here. Can you come and talk to us?" he paused again, listening for any response.
Suddenly just ahead of us, we heard an unexplained squeaking noise which sounded like a patient ward door opening.
"Did you hear that?" I whispered to Zak,
"Yeah, I heard it." he replied quietly.
We stood still for a minute and looked around, I walked forward a few feet and found the first X. I also noticed the door was open further than the rest in the hallway.
"Zak, over here." I quietly called out.
He held out a Digital Recorder inside the room while Aaron and Nick set the Static Night-vision Camera. I filmed Zak as he asked questions.
"Did you make this door move?"
"A Haunting memory""A Haunting memory" in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
For a brief moment, I was a monster
How could've I nearly hurt
The one who looks up to me?
Another sinister being tried to use me,
Not myself, yet I was still there.
She refused to leave and almost caused her harm,
But her will brought me back.
Seeing the fear in her eyes concerned me,
Why did she fear me?
One of the strongest of our team showed
Apprehension whenever she had to work with me.
I still wonder if the brief moment I was a monster
Has taken a toll on her.
I can only hope to know in time.
The brief moment he was a monster,
I had to stay strong despite my fear.
The residing fear lingers on my heart as
I continued walking through the dark.
How I want to tell what happened,
But I didn't know how.
Our leader seems to be noticing my fear
Yet everytime he asks what's wrong,
I force it away and carry on as if it was nothing.
Despite my efforts, my guilt and shame
Haunts me every night while with my team.
For showing love that left me vulnerable,
GA fanfic 2- Lockdown Part 2GA fanfic 2- Lockdown Part 2 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Lockdown Part 2
With Static Night-vision Cameras rolling on the first, second, and third floor,
we headed down to the basement.
Stepping inside the morgue, Zak stood in front while Aaron filmed him.
"We're gonna set a tripod in the back to film Nick while he's inside "
As Zak spoke, I felt a tap on my arm. Knowing it was Nick, I scanned over to see his face. Pointing towards Zak then twisting his hand near his head, indicating Zak was crazy.
I chuckled quietly and scanned back over to Zak and Aaron.
"Nick, you ready?" he asked.
"I guess so." Nick replied.
He jumped on the slab, we took his camera and handed a Digital Recorder.
Quickly, they tested the Walkie-talkies in case of an emergency. Laying down, Zak pushed him inside.
"We've got an X camera filming the outside. Good luck."
He shut the door, which locked from the outside. I could only imagine what was going through Nick's mind.
"He's locked in. Let's go set the other cameras."
As we walked out, I looked back inside, hoping
GA fanfic 2-Walkthrough Part 1GA fanfic 2-Walkthrough Part 1 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Ghost Adventures Title sequence
My name is Zak Bagans. I've never believed in ghosts until I came face to face with one.
So I set out on a quest to capture what I once saw onto video....
With no big camera crews following us around, I am joined only by my fellow investigator Nick Groff and our equipment tech Aaron Goodwin.
The three of us will travel to some of the most highly active paranormal locations, where we will spend an entire night, being locked down from dusk until dawn....
Paranormal PoemParanormal Poem in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Being a Paranormal Investigator
When the dead crosses paths
With the living
So many unpredictable things can occur
Anything from harmless to potentially dangerous
When people are in need of help
And on their last stand
They look upon us for help
And we can answer the call
It's great knowing that you can help the living
just as much as the dead.
Both sides of the abyss are equally in need
However some may choose not to accept help
But for those who do,
Help is never far and in the hands
Of compassionate and caring people
Finding evidence of hauntings and the afterlife
Is a thrill and comforts others to know
That they are not alone and won't be labeled crazy.
Though as investigators, we may work in separate groups
But when all is said and done, we all have one thing in common
We seek to help both the living and the dead to find peace
Nick Groff: Why You are my HeroNick Groff: Why You are my Hero in Free Verse More Like This
Such a cool guy, and like everyone else
But you stand out to me
Besides being a ghost hunter and celebrity
You are my hero and much respect
What makes you a hero?
Just being brave when you have to be
A master of fear
I look up to you
I have come to see now
As your fan, I noticed
something over the years
how you and I are alike
We each were close to death as young children
You had a Near-Death Experience as a kid
Seeing faces around you
I was a premature baby, fighting for my life
before my first breath
We each faced our share of demons
You faced them on a spiritual level,
Not letting them overtake your life
I faced some on an emotional level
Struggling to find my way
We each overcame negative entities
You were possessed at Moon River,
Preventing it from harming your friends
I was nearly possessed once,
An entity wanted to scare me
We are both creative in our own ways
You wrote a fantastic music album
and an intriguing book about The Other Side
I do creative writing including GAC fanfic
Persuasive speech-HauntingsAttention- How many of you have seen the movie Paranormal Activity? For those of you who haven't seen it, the movie is about a young couple who get terrorized by a demonic entity in their home.Persuasive speech-Hauntings in Academic Essays More Like This
Relate yourself to the audience- Although some horror films such as this one may be inspired by real ghost stories, nothing compares to a first-hand experience with an actual haunting.
Relate to yourself- I visited my cousin Jessica on every other weekend for the past ten years. She would often tell me she believed it to be haunted. Some time ago, we conducted our own investigations to find out what exactly was in her house. We now believe that the evidence we collected from our investigations gives us a reason to believe that something paranormal is residing in her house.
Oratorical purpose- I am here today to convince you that hauntings are real.
What are the main points- First I will give a brief explanation of what type of hauntings there are, then reveal my own evidence, and finally explain
GAfanfic 3-Set up for LockdownGAfanfic 3-Set up for Lockdown in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Set up for Lockdown
Aaron set the Exterior Night-vision Camera while we picked up our gear and headed for the Entrance.
Zak spoke to Nick's shoulder camera,
"Norman's gonna lock us inside this old Penitentiary then let us out at dawn."
We each knuckle-pounded Norman and once he locked the gate behind us, we set up a base camp. I was ready for another lockdown and help the guys organize the equipment.
A while later, Zak got his list of X cameras and called them out.
"First X: Tower 9
A guard committed suicide, Matt and Elaine got an intelligent EVP saying "Help me."
"Next: Cell Block A-Cell 32
Elaine attempted to do an EVP session. Maybe we'll have better luck tonight."
Pointed to the next,
"Cell Block B: Cell 27
Della Colman felt her hair get pulled hard and was touched inappropriately."
"Cell Block C:
Norman Walker felt a dark presence and often felt someone punch and hit him. Aaron, that's where you're going tonight."
I heard him cackle in disbelief, made me laugh, too.
"Next X: Wome
Snippy - Poem of DoomSnippy - Poem of Doom in Free Verse More Like This
Oh Captain, my Captain! I say it to mock,
You're lucky as hell but to me you're a c***.
Please spare me the missions, I've no head for heights,
Balloons and big lists lead me only to blights.
Evading the probes of an alien race,
Then having to witness your > : ( angry face...
But what choice have I? I'm involved in these fights,
With Cancerous space-monsters full of red sprites,
And Lemonade weirdos and God knows what next,
Just how can you stay so serene and unvexed?
What price should I pay for your simple delights,
Be eaten by whales after soiling my whites?
I know you won't listen, but you'll come unstuck,
And one of these days you'll run right out of luck,
Your empire will fall, and your ego besides,
It's karma for sure, like the turn of the tides,
And then I will lol, sitting in my own muck,
Coz after all this I just won't give a f***.
Move OnNothing changes as time goes byMove On in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
the sun goes down and the moon is high
And I caught you in your web of lies
I'm moving on now... so let go.
Let go of me (cut this chain)
Let go of me (break these shackles)
Let go of me (open the cage)
I'm closing the gate
You've become everything I hate
So go away, Its far too late
Get out of here
Let go of me (cut this chain)
Let go of me (break these shackles)
Let go of me (open the cage)
My innocence gone, taken
I'm burning, I'm hating.
Just move on
Let go of me, there's nothing left
Let go of me, move on...
Let go of me
Let go, Let go, Let go
Just let go
Tormented by MemoriesMemories of the pastTormented by Memories in Free Verse More Like This
Are haunting All my thoughts.
I try not to be caught
In the shadows of fear they've cast.
Memories of the hatred
The misfortune And despair
The betrayal And the hurt.
Those I love the most
Suffer from my curse.
I'm nothing but a parasite sucking off its host.
Please help me, nurse
Pull the life support.
I've shed too many tears over glimpses of my past.
Memories of the past torture me some more.
I've endured enough pain
I've cried out loud in vain
Remembering all their disdain.
The memories are driving me insane.
I'm driving in the wrong lane.
End it now or else
These memories will torment
My mind for all eternity.
My Fake SmileMy Fake SmileMy Fake Smile in Free Verse More Like This
In front of you I seem so calm.
I put on my black eyeliner and lip balm
And walk around with this fake smile,
But on the inside I am vile.
Inside my heart is black and filled with hate.
Inside my mind is in a turmoiled state.
Constantly thinking of my tortured past and unavoidable fate.
In my inner world I'm always screaming
There my body is forever bleeding
So covered in scars, I'm unrecognizable.
No body part is left unscathed.
I'm silently begging someone to make the pain end,
But outside I just give you that fake smile again.
I wish that these wounds I could mend.
That help would one day soon be sent
A hand eventually lent
No, I am all alone
So Shut Up and put on that fake smile
And don't ever show anyone your tears.
Loneliness or a Chain?Calling me a liar, sparking this fireLoneliness or a Chain? in Free Verse More Like This
Resorting to insults hoping to get the expected results
Causing nothing but pain making me insane.
Go ahead and tighten that rope the more you pull me the stronger I pull away.
Don't speak a word I know what you say
Don't waste your breath I won't hear it even in death.
You wish me only sorrow and pain, showing me disdain
A lone wolf or a dog? Which would you choose?
I can see the answer clearly even in this fog
I'd rather be alone than be chained and pained
I should have known then but I was blind, You only listen to the whispers in your own mind
Telling me I don't cry enough? So you like it when I'm hurt? I told you I'm an introvert...
No understanding? No love? You insult me, making my choice difficult.
Abuse or loneliness? There's no love... My heart heavy like water against the levee
Done with this game, I don't want to be tame
Take your leash away from me, I am a wolf and that's just how it will be
You seek to change me, you seek to chain me,
The Claw NecklaceOnce a lone wolf, searching for anotherThe Claw Necklace in Free Verse More Like This
After so long I had thought I shouldn't bother
Then I was told that you needed a home
Filthy, sore and in desperate need of a comb
Used and broken and cast aside like me.
So sweet at first and then you bit me.
I understood why though even though others couldn't see
I took you home anyway, I thought that was the way it should be
No one ever understood our connection
You were the only member of my pack for so long
My “friends” criticized me, said I was wrong
They said “Why do you always want to take her?”
Because she's a part of the pack, why so jealous?
I thought for a moment maybe I was over-zealous
But when everyone else left, you were still there
6 years you stayed by my side
So often the only one I had to confide
When I felt so alone, when I cried, you put your head in my lap
And at times, you cried with me
People say that pets don't cry, they can't see
Humans are just so blind
Sicker and sicker you became
At first just
Suffering DualityDemons and Angels; Evil and PureSuffering Duality in Free Verse More Like This
Duality takes and all runs together.
The ink runs, black and white goes to gray.
All becomes one and the same.
Mirror, Mirror, Which one is me? Tell me which I am suppose to be.
Two sides constantly fight.
Do I walk towards dark or into the light?
Which one, Which one? Which do I let win?
A path of purity; A path of sin?
My heart torn two parts of a whole.
Both sides whisper loudly to my soul.
Turmoil reigns as king as the hurricane sings.
The king dethroned; whispers turn to screams.
A new king takes its rightful place.
No longer is there black,
No longer is there white,
Only different shades of gray.
There is neither night nor is there day.
Everything is now one and the same.
Giving InEmpty words and broken promisesGiving In in Free Verse More Like This
Is this all just another game?
Lone wolf... Destiny calls once again
Stop resisting, your destiny still remains the same
Day by day and night by night, never change
I see it all fall apart once again before my eyes
Same result every time, caught in a web of others' lies
Working so hard to glue this shattered mirror
Only to watch it fall apart again in horror
Why? Why? Again and again. Near success turn to failure
Reaching for happiness only for it to slip away once again
It's so hard in this current position to remain sane
It's like trying to drive backwards in the wrong lane
When will I finally give in to the future?
For some reason, I continue to fight
Long after losing feeling Long after losing sight
Is this war finally becoming a lost cause?
When do I just stop trying?
When do you stop lying?
When do I just start dying
On the outside from rotting on the inside?
Death and decay, loneliness and hopelessness
I'm running in place, failing again
A Goodbye LetterA Goodbye LetterA Goodbye Letter in Free Verse More Like This
The sight of you, so many emotions emerge
These feelings all so poisonous so we diverge
Anger, Fury, Sadness, Regret and emptiness
After so long actions once silent I digress
I think I said I thought it was better that way
For many months I let it stay and did not sway
You told me to get the poison out of my life
So ironic that you became such a poison…
I pushed you out for good due to our constant strife
My heart and soul slowly again, cold and frozen
I gave to you my heart and you tore it apart
This day I wonder the blame lay on you or I?
Did you want this to happen? Was it all a lie?
Or did I do you wrong somewhere, unknowingly
I’m sorry if I did and that’s why I left you behind
There was no single compromise that I could find
And so I cut your chain and collar that bind me
Saying my final goodbye to you, forever
Please do understand, I tried to get you to see
Still I lie awake in wonder at what would be
If, by chance I had continued to try to ple
The FacelessThis aching heart, These brittle bones...The Faceless in Free Verse More Like This
No one sees what's inside me.
There's no one out there to confide.
I'm all alone in this barren place.
Everyone here is without a face.
I scream so loud without a sound.
No one with ears are around.
I'm stuck here with the faceless ones.
Everyone's the same, Everyone's a clone.
That's why I will always be alone.
I'm screaming, Can you hear me?
I'm bleeding, Can you see me?
It's cold here, Can you feel it?
You can't see me.
Everyone is Blind.
You can't hear me.
Everyone is Deaf.
You can't feel me.
Everyone is Numb...
In this world with the Faceless Ones.
RealityReality in front of meReality in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
seems, to me, like a series of dreams.
Yet I can't escape this filthy sleep--
feels like i'm in it too far deep.
The screen freezes
I'm looking at the frames.
Faces become faceless,
draining and lifeless.
Every time I reach out
the scene's bleedin'.
like a wet painting.
My fingers smear it...
feelI refuse to believe God only knowsfeel in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
where does that leave the rest of the world?
how are we to function living off of unknown?
what makes the naive so unbelievably happy?
do they not understand the misery?
have they accepted it or are they in denial?
Anxiety is amongst thee.
Take the blame and simply plee guilty.
It's the only way to be free.
Or are we really?
How can we know for sure?
What gives us certainty in reality?
Perhaps it's just a dream,
a made up state of being...
But I know I'm real
because of the things I feel.
Such a Lonely DaySuch a lonely day...and it's mine.Such a Lonely Day in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Discontent with the world surrounding me,
discontent with my own perception,
unsure how to regain contentment--
All perspective seems bent.
It's dark... inside and out.
I'm not sure how to bring it all about.
I can barely see right in front of me-- my own writing.
Guess it's the same..
My words are my thoughts,
and the world is my mind--
Hard and empty, blank and black.
I am ALONE
that's just how I feel.
The word 'happiness' seems so unreal.
Why is it I can't seem to regain conciousness?
I'm living in a dreamstate.
Everything's a blur, I can't read it.
No motivation to regain it,
I need no more strain.
I've lost my diary
Now how will I know what I want to be?
No one cares about me.
I am a face-- a thought nonetheless
To myself, I no longer exist.
I'd disappear if only I weighed less.
I Never Thought...I never thoughtI Never Thought... in Free Verse More Like This
I'd be sitting in a hospital
listening to time go by
second by second.
I never thought
I'd see her in that much pain
with no way of escaping it.
I never thought
that of all people
I'd want to claw out
the eyes' of doctors and nurses.
I never thought
I'd want to stay in a hospital
for a longer period of time.
I never thought
I'd have to fight the world
to be by her side.
But if I have to
I will do this forever
because, to me,
she's well worth the fight.
End of a CompanionshipI'm afraid this companionship has reached an endEnd of a Companionship in Free Verse More Like This
between me and my special so-called "friend."
I can't believe you or your sketchy ways,
your even shadier explanation for your delays.
It's a shame to see my friend of three years
become a danger, total stranger, the worst of all fears.
I should be angry, disappointed, upset, and ashamed,
but I wonder if, still, I'm the one to be blamed.
You could say it's my fault;
I made her run away, I can't complain,
But who am I to say she wouldn't run anyway?
I can't say I was oblivious, it was obvious.
The truth is, I've been in denial.
I'm not naive or incomplete, I refused to believe.
My heart couldn't handle it and so my brain took leave!
My hand's reaction is most loyal
to bow-- salute to every royal.
I've got compassion for disasters,
she's got a profession duplicating pastors.
She had my answers,
though, my questions-- insignificant.
Her only reaction seemed indifferent.
Midnight StrangerA relationship falsely accused of danger,Midnight Stranger in Free Verse More Like This
me and my midnight stranger.
Curiosity kept me creeping,
for him, I became interesting.
Both kept our distance,
such a lovely resistance.
Numerous little things in common,
out in the open, as well as hidden.
A secret friendship from around the corner,
a connection, at first, balanced on a border.
Discouraged by an authority figure,
but my only known emotional cure,
a relief of mental stress
by talkative excessiveness.
A mutual respect
and failure to neglect
a cute yet stubborn intellect.
We're two caring individuals--
a bond gone incognito.
He's a devotional companion,
respectable and understanding.
We have different interests
but share identical habits.
We've grown into each other
Can't sleep until our days' be covered,
Can't turn out my light
or get under the covers
Until he says "Goodnight"
without a stutter.
I admit, he knows how to throb my chest--
a rare reaction from a guest.
But, I insist on keeping this anonymous
even though I consider
Senses of WeaknessLook, but don't stare.Senses of Weakness in Free Verse More Like This
Touch, dare not feel.
Hug, don't hold.
Talk, do not speak.
Hear, and refuse to listen.
abstain from breath.
Lay back, but never relax.
These are signs of weakness.
suck up to the stuck upyou're pretending like we're all the foolssuck up to the stuck up in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
bowin' down, movin' around,
actin' like your tools.
you kick 'em to the ground
they get up without a frown.
ain't guna sulk in their own misery.
hope you're what they wanna be
like, "why can't that be me?"
they're dyin' to be free.
but they don't really know
'cause they'll never really own
the guilt that you do
or filth that you've done.
now i don't mean any disrespect
i'm just tryin' to recollect.
to seize all of the memories.
good or bad
what you've had
what you lost
and what it cost
but most importantly
the bases of your needs.
you're too high up on your pedestal
it's no wonder you're misunderstood.
ChainsI sit in a crowdChains in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
But I am completely alone
I have walled myself off from everyone
Bricks packed so tightly together
There is no room for mortar
Maybe it's temporary
Like all the times before
Maybe it's forever
This time around
I cannot say
All I know is that I sit surrounded
A hundred conversations
I hear not a one as I sit
Isolated behind my walls
I desperately want to break free
However I sit paralyzed
By the twin shackles of fear
Forged so long ago
By a small girl
With no skills or aptitude
The work complete
Reinforced through the years
Till escape but is a far off hope
What will I do
What could I do given the tools
Perhaps I'll never know
I could grab them and break
These walls down tomorrow
Or I could stay here
What will I do?
I WantI want to curl up with this musicI Want in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
And let you hold me on your lap
As though I were your small cat
I want this warmth and security
To surround me so
The comfort and strength
I want to feel that
In your hands as you
Comfort and reassure me
I want to feel safe
To feel loved and cared for
To wrap myself up in you
I want my cares and worries
To fall away as you embrace me
To feel as though you'll never let go
I want these things so bad
But I can't seem to find a way
To put these wants into words
I want you
To just smile
And make my day
I want you to say
You'll do that
DanceToday I could not wake upDance in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
My mind would not work
I tried drinking things
I tried watching things
I tried reading things
I tried and tried and gave up
I was just going to be tired
That was just the way it was going to be
Then I tried listening to music
Before I knew it my body was moving
The moves were silly
They woke me up
They made me laugh
They showed me this wasn't the way it was going to be
FeelingsThere on the ground before meFeelings in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Like a dog beaten down
Lay my feelings
As I stared at them
I simply could not comprehend
How they had come to be
So beaten and bedraggled
As though no one
Had cared for them in so long
They had become an
Unrecognizable heap on the street
Treated as so much ignored
Trash to be walked over and past
Not a second look to be had
I stared and could barely
Remember what they had
Felt like once upon a time
A time that seemed
Almost a lifetime ago
Cold and distant
I just stood and stared
Had those feelings
Ever truly belonged to me
Or was it just a dream I had
Once upon a time
That was a lifetime ago
Stay AwhileCome my friend, have a seat with me and sit a spell. Listen to my music and let it carry you away while you forget your worries. Let it wrap around you as you float along. No need to think or worry. Just rest your weary head as I share my silent comfort with you. Lay your head in my lap and let me smooth those lines from your brow. I'll carry your burden to let you rest awhile. I'll take care of things so you can relax and just let yourself be. My fingers slowly combing through your hair, taking your stress with each pass. Close those weary eyes and listen to my song as I hum along. We can simply lay and enjoy this lovely sunny day. Nowhere to be, nothing to do, but lay back and let it go. Let the sun warm your soul while my presence helps relax you. I've got you and I'll keep you free and safe. We can sit beneath the shade of a tree or lay on a couch as we watch the time drift away. No pressing concerns to touch us here. Just you and me, being free. Come stay awhile with me and let yoStay Awhile in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Maybe Some DayI smile and laughMaybe Some Day in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Assuring you nothing is wrong
When you ask I simply
Shrug my shoulders
And change the topic
My shoulders are always here
For you to lean on and cry on
My ears are always open
To hear your tales of joy and woe
My lips keep your secrets
I bleed slowly into myself
Where no one can see
Where I don't have to explain
How I'd rather be
The shoulder you lean on
Than the sad tale you hear
How I'd rather see
Your smile than have you
See these tears I cry
When I support you
I can push all this
Ugliness away from myself
I can see how things
Can be instead of how they
Seem to me and my tired eyes
My heart leaps every day
Only to be bruised and hurt
Again by day's end
Only to leap again
Every blow is a blow
To my soul and I begin
To grow weary of all
These things that everyone
Says will get better
Change doesn't seem
To be coming for me
But that's okay
Because I have you
To listen and talk to
You show me how bright
How right things can be
And that makes taking another
MockeryI feel like everything bright and creativeMockery in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Mocks me through the shimmer of tears
My mouth is dry and my stomach in knots
Can't focus my eyes no matter how hard I try
I feel too full and yet too empty
All at the same time and it's driving me mad
I want to rant and rave while I curl up
And simply give in quietly
My heart beats so rapidly but feels
Like it's not beating at all
Each slow thump reminds me
Of another minute passed in this
Unbearable emotional hell
What good is a voice if the only
Noise it can make is a strangled scream
What good is a heart if it can barely beat
These tears demand release alongside
This rage buried inside
I can't express it all so I lock it away
Slowly it will build inside me
Until parts of it find a way out
But inside it will stay
Never to be seen or heard by anyone
Until I can't hide it away anymore
And it comes bursting out of me
Straight into my pillow
Safe away from anyone else
The only one who should see it never will
Ain't that the biggest ______ of it
Book LoveI love the soundBook Love in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Of the pages as I flip them
Of the pages as I shift my grip
I love the feel
Of the slick cover
Of the resisting binding
I love watching
The pages age
The spine bend
To how it feels
To read books
As good as reading
A new book
Like the plot
Like the action
That can be found
In a book
glowyour phosphorence has dazzled meglow in Free Verse More Like This
you have caught me in the spaces between stars
where the night meets the netted clots of nebuli
you, my comet, my meteoroid
have come to meet me at last
in our very own colliding galaxies
toes curlingher hands unfold like delicate flowerstoes curling in Free Verse More Like This
pink brown flutters of muscles, and veins and her
flowers unfurl their pinkness against mahogany switches
of trees, reeds of spring against the sun
my lips literally burn for you
to him whom i love secretly and from far awaydo you think of meto him whom i love secretly and from far away in Free Verse More Like This
when the light hits your window and the cedar dust whirls around your saw?
is there any moonlight that you long for
i have become more than
and yet lesser without you
i have become the sun empress and the baroness of the moon
robed in purple glory and covered in night
i miss your pale morning light
when you were all that was green and good in the world
the earth i planted my feet in
for i am the goddess of the shadowed things
the lady of the fanged ones who growl and disturb your sleep
and creep under your doors to linger in your moods
withouti miss your easel and your quiet uncertaintieswithout in Free Verse More Like This
they soothed my brash and sea-tossed soul
i miss the way sunlight bathed your young head
framed with grey and gold
and the way i just wanted when i saw you
quiet infatuationordinary people fall in lovequiet infatuation in Free Verse More Like This
solid ground beneath their feet
but stars in their eyes
they're built of hands and touching
moonlight isn't realistic
but some people kiss like the night
dark and velvety and sharp
all at the same time
thoughtEvery love affair ends in either in pleasant fuzzy floaty feelings or a fiery car wreck on I-5. For most of your life, it's a series of the latter,with the first love the most memorable picture.thought in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
You end up spiraling into dark albums, the edgy sad ones that no one but the heartbroken care for.
The music's good, but the tone is dark.
And nobody likes it but you and your darkness.
New GirlThis hurts.New Girl in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
I don't know why I clung to that slender thread of hope.
I still have a sliver left.
I hope without hope.
You know, I was called beautiful today.
It makes it so much harder to believe now.
Like a distant dream.
This hurts so much.
Fragments of me are shattered all across the floor, continually struggling to reconfigure itself into a useful vase.
But I'm not meant to be useful.
I'm meant for entertainment.
Take me off the shelf, dear, and I'll amuse you.
I love you.
And I'll keep saying that until it becomes past tense.
MeetingI miss you.Meeting in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
I'm still sad and angry at you, but I miss you all the same.
I saw you, and we had a civil conversation today.
You talked about your girlfriend, how she has dual citizenship in Germany and the U.S.
And how she has a picture on Facebook of her with a gigantic mug of beer.
Frat boy much?
And . I saw her picture.
Maybe she's better looking in person.
And you why, you almost walked off with all my stuff.
The first words you said were, "Why, hello, my darling Amy."
Just like that.
My thoughts: I'm fucked.
You're more mature, more like me with your "sexual tension" comments.
Which is scary, because the more like me you are, the less I understand you.
Apparently, my broad shoulders accentuated my already hourglass figure.
According to a friend's dad.
Which, in retrospect, is really creepy.
I'm Madam Amy, to you.
Am I really just intimidating?
I'd like to think there's so much more, but maybe my friends are lying to me.
Do I frighten
SalvatoreFamily lost, never to be found again.Salvatore in Free Verse More Like This
Family found of a different blood.
My species is a threat to you,
and my father is a hero.
I watched him die and now I'm cold.
Why would I let you in?
Why do those eyes pierce through?
I saved your life, and for what?
a pet to follow me around?
No, you are far more then that.
Your worth the sun, and one million
diamonds to me. As My frozen heart
began to melt I feel your friendship
and love. Now I have something to
care for, and many others too.
I have a sense of humour now,
something lost long ago. I fight for
pride and for love, no longer for the thrill.
I have a large family, so many to love me,
none of which share blood with me,
the closest Arabella. I have my enemies
too you know, I'm not a well liked guy.
They hate me for my strenght and friends,
and they hate me worse for rubbing it in.
I could reign supreme, with this knowledge
passed down to me, but I have some pride within
my breast, I cannot give up this fight.
I am the saviour of these
Prove them wrongProve them wrongProve them wrong in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Song & Lyrics
I know It's hard to trust myself,
I've let you down so many times before.
I could show you how get back up, but
I can't seem up pick myself up off the floor.
I've judged time and time again, but
somedays I don't know where to begin.
I can only pick out so many faults,
and I can't just pick one at a time.
My drive is to prove them wrong about me,
Show them what I can be, let them all see.
I'll fight the demon staring back at me,
I can't just sit here and let it all be.
I've chose path after path, in hope of
find the right one for me. One day I know
I'll find it, I believe.
My drive is to prove them wrong about me,
Show them what I can be, let them all see.
I'll fight the demon staring back at me,
I can't just sit here and let it all be.
Don't worry now, I'm not leaving you tonight.
Don't worry now, I'll fight to see the morning light.
Don't worry now, I will free my heart until it feels right.
My drive is
Rules of lifeSurvival is what I know best.Rules of life in Free Verse More Like This
I'll keep on going without rest.
A set of rules to suit me.
These are rules you can see.
One is for the trust I hold.
Trust I hold that cannot be sold.
No one can have all of my trust.
It has gone away, gone to dust.
Two is for everything I feel.
No sorrow to be shown is the deal.
I am not allowed to be sad.
Only happy, and never mad.
Three is for the love inside.
I have no love, they all lied.
Wait until I am out of here.
Then I can have a love, my dear.
These are the rules I have made.
I'll keep them close everyday.
Don't judge me for who I am.
I no longer give a damn.
Everyone else has made it clear.
These are the rules I must hold dear
Under these stars(Chorus)Under these stars in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
I'm just gonna keep on telling myself
that I won't be alone forever, I will find
my way to you, Darling I need you.
I live for the thought that you lie under
the same night sky. We both look up at
the same stars tonight. Looking up with
one beholding eye. I can't give up,
I have to keep up the fight.
No way can I give up on love right now.
Your out there for me, I'm out there for you.
I'll find you one day i just do not know how.
One day I know that I'll know what to do.
Theres a writer living inside my soul. I see
the world in a different light. Sometimes I
see things that make me feel so cold. But
one day you will be the light in my night
Don't hold me up to the sky. Don't compare
me to the cover page. Knowing your out there
stops these tears that I cry. I have time to
spare when I am at such a young age.
Jasmine, Michael, and CodyLittle Angel's in the sky.Jasmine, Michael, and Cody in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Our memories will never die.
Your soul went out of our world.
Two little boys, one little girl.
The day sticks out in my mind.
In hot ash, what they could find.
A heartbreaking your breakbreaking depart.
Your memory stays strong in my heart.
A Christmas that we'll never forget.
A tragedy that I don't think I'll ever get.
That fire left scars on everyone.
Taken from families. Daughter & sons.
Why did you have to leave that way?
I think about it everyday.
Memories of angel's, a communities love.
Now you all watch from up above.
I look at the empty lot and sigh.
Sometimes it makes me want to cry.
I see your family, struggling daily.
I often wish It was you I could see.
You left us painfully, we miss you dearly.
I remember your faces, and I speak sincerely.
I ask myself, why must children die?
Some say so we'll have tears to cry.
Some say to keep our world pure.
But it is just so hard what we have to endure.
Babies made into angel's, keeping us together.
Perfect ParadisePerfect ParadisePerfect Paradise in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Song and Lyrics
Excuse my manners, I should say hello.
It is not the first time that I have been here.
I'm used to it, a feeling of loss.
But I can dream up a perfect paradise,
Where the sky is always blue,
where everyone floats in the sea.
And I have my perfect paradise,
and I know that one day it will be mine,
and I understand that deep down one day,
This perfect paradise will be mine.
Millions of smiles that can never be faked.
Days go by without a trace, and I've won.
Behind every rain cloud, lies a rainbow,
you just need to push through the fog.
But I can find a way to believe,
where no one ever has to bleed,
where everyone never knows what it's like to loose.
And I have my perfect paradise,
And I know that one day it will be mine,
And I understand that deep down one day,
this perfect paradise will be mine.
Wake me up, when this world turns around,
I'll find my way through the thick and thin.
Maybe I just need to feel my
RememberThe gunshots echo through our ears.Remember in Free Verse More Like This
I'm used to it now after these many years.
This is a war to end all wars.
Its time to close the disputing doors.
My commands are given, and I charge into action.
My allies now break this battlefield into a fraction.
Bullets flash past me.
Mud, death and decay is all that I can see.
I hit the ground, shot gun in hand.
I have to survive to claim this land.
I am here for my mother country England.
I can't let her fall in a bitter end.
I get to my feet, rush into fire.
This battle has become so much more dire.
I feel a burn deep in my chest.
I lay my hand upon my breast.
Liquid crimson flow on my skin.
I guess this is it for my heroic win.
They drag me through the field with grace.
These nurses can't even see my face.
I am matted with Mud.
I am covered in blood.
My life is flashing before my eyes.
I lie on this stretcher as I begin to cry.
I see my mother's soft, satin hair.
I see how much my father could care.
I see my wife, dressed in all white.
Love is a GameLove is the name,Love is a Game in Free Verse More Like This
Pain is the game.
Watch out for lies,
And steer clear of good byes.
Don't fall so fast,
Don't think this will ever last.
The lesson learned,
Is remembered in the past,
Just for a moment.
There are rules to something so easy,
Youre in love theres no doubt,
And theres no way out.
Once they're out that door,
The waiting game begins.
If they come back they always loved you
If not, they never loved you at all.
Or so they say in this hideous game we all play.
Let'sLet's let go,Let's in Free Verse More Like This
Of all the sadness every single one of us keeps to close.
Let's get close,
Tell me you love me, and I'll never let go.
Let's crack a smile,
Put down the razor and laugh a while.
Let's stay a while,
Heal our scars and let the world see you smile.
SingeingI don't understand youSingeing in Free Verse More Like This
One simple question I ask you
"Do you love me too?"
So silently you looked at me
Oh what I would've give not to feel the way I did
When you said;
"I don't know I don't know I don't know my darling."
It's this crazy feeling
When love is not returned
In the same portion you're dealing.
Oh how impeccable the feeling.
So I asked you "What is it you want from me?"
And you said;
"I don't know I don't know I don't know my sweetheart."
"You're killing me you're killing me."
"You're making my heart tear itself apart."
I thought this was the life you wanted to lead.
"My sweetheart please don't cry
This time will soon pass by."
Emotions are fleeting
But just as fast repeating.
My heart longs for love,
When it is not near,
"My heart it breaks when you're not around here."
"I love you, I love you, I love you."
You keep repeating
The pity in your voice though.
It is quite singeing.
MotivationMotivation you've left meMotivation in Free Verse More Like This
I'm here floating in this dull sea
There's no waves, no wind, no sound
You can't hear even my heart pound
The sky is colorless and my mind is blank
Motivation you've left me
Black and white is now all I see
No imagination occurs in this mind
No adventure lurking there for me to find
Motivation you've left me.
Time TogetherWhen we see each other it’s as if time never divided us apart.Time Together in Free Verse More Like This
We are the same old same old, like it has been from the start.
With inside jokes that never die out,
And an instant comfort that never fades.
That seems to be the best thing about this friendship that in Kinder-garden we made,
There for each other through it all, in arguments our bond may falter,
But it will never fall.
When together, though time is short,
There will be ever happy moment of any sort.
Though the time that we depart,
You distance yourself, maybe to not shed so many tears,
Maybe because I do not, the motive was never clear,
But my friend you should know I shed the same amount as you, maybe more.
Because though I do not quite show it,
I dearly miss you.
To Go Beyond My StanceSometimes I need to think.To Go Beyond My Stance in Free Verse More Like This
Just sit down, relax my eyes,
Don't even think to open them up and blink,
Just imagine a blank world and see everything.
Let my thoughts wander and sort out,
Let the jealousy towards everyone bleed out.
Forget who I love and who I know,
Be myself in my own personal world.
Population of one,
Thoughts in abundance for none.
No one could ever know the secrecy to what I really feel.
The mixed feelings of should I stay or should I go,
What's out of these boundaries?
To see, to think, to feel freely?
I wouldn't know, too scared to leave the spot I stand in,
Hoping, wishing, things will become what I've always wondered.
But I don't know if it ever will.
I'll just close my eyes and wonder still.
What would it be like, to stop gazing out
And go beyond this window sill.