Emo loveOne hand caresses her,Emo love in Free Verse More Like This
the other threatens her life.
The gun pointed to his head,
torments his very existence.
The blade at her throat,
slowly brushes it.
The end together.
The pain behind the smilesThe pain behind my smileThe pain behind the smiles in Free Verse More Like This
Cover bitter thoughts,
Mask unfathomable pain.
Why can't you see me?
How is it that I am invisible.
The scars across my body,
The self inflicted wounds,
A shriek for help,
A silent masked cry ,
Covering the pain, the agony
The unfathomable resistance of a soul,
Trying to piece itself back together.
Sweet, sinful sighs
Taking pleasure in pain...
Leave me be,
Because no one understands.
SacrificesSacrifices in Free Verse More Like This
As the tears roll down her cheeks,
Her mind replays his every word...
Yet it also shows her the truth.....
Both her mind and his words.
She sees him in another girls arms,
"that hurts ...that really hurts" she murmurs to herself.
Her stomach churns and the dagger stabs her in the heart.
She can't think... all logic has disappeared from her
She has no time for logic... not when the pain is so intense,
Silence is sliced in half with broken sobs.
But she smiles...smiles through her tears
Because even though shes broken and alone
She cant help but wish him happiness .
Love demands sacrifices and maybe shes the one that has to endure the heart break and dirty tissues.
But he'll be happy and that's all that matters.
A living deadA living dead in Free Verse More Like This
A deep feeling of... emptiness,
plagues a broken soul.
trapped in a body;
An emotionless pit of emptiness and pain.
Pounding in the deepest of my chest,
the throbbing in my head,
the broken pieces of my soul being,
pierced by the daggers of darkness.
The poison; aggravating, spreading like an epidemic.
Growing with grace and precision
Leaving behind trails of blood.
falls to the floor,
blood, rich in color,
merge at my feet.
A mirrored face,
reflects in the brilliance of the red pool.
A face frozen in agony,
twisting in torment.
Hollow eyes of the dead.
The darkness around her
imitated in the shallow pool.
The hands, pulling at her soul,
gripping so tightly,
the agitated look,
So different from the frozen visage,
The fear in those eyes, so human like,
The distress...in her voice,
Begging pleading that someone may see her,
may help her escape this fate.
And the devils eyes glow.
Finally managing to defeat the broken little soul,
Day In The Life"I thought I was a bad cutter."Day In The Life in Free Verse More Like This
Drive the knife in,
"Like oh my God,
You're completely covered,
I only have a few light scars"
Twist it around
I needed another reminder
That I am a freak
That wearing short sleeves and Capri's
Is against the rules for a girl like me
Someone like you should at least
Sort of understand,
Maybe you're jealous that I cut more
Or deeper, but it is NOT something I'm proud of
Maybe you're just shocked that someone can
Do this much damage to themselves
But honestly I've seen worse
Maybe you just want to have something
In common and that's all you could think to say
But it hurts like driving a knife in
I walk around without them covered
Because I want to convince myself I'm not ashamed
And sometimes it works
But not when a girl like you
Tells me that I am a horrible cutter
And looks horrified when I answer your questions
You ask to see my worse scar
The look on your face makes me want to make more
Because you're horrified
And disgusted, I can see you'r
LockboxThe keyLockbox in Free Verse More Like This
IN the lockbox.
A careless mistake?
of the mind?
All I wanted was my
To magically rock me to sleep.
What an opportunity.
I pick up bottles
read the labels
The contents in my hands
To c.o.u.n.t. out the sedatives
Line them up on the sink
Pour myself a glass of water
Tonight could be IT. My end
Suddenly, my ears perk up
Sound in my head
S c O u P
up the pills
Shut the cabinet
Her Eyes She hated you with a burn so hot she couldn't control it. With a gaze that made you shift under its attention. She never wanted you near, did anything to push you away, out of her life.Her Eyes in Short Stories More Like This
She shoved so hard that your bones broke and something inside you shattered. You became angry, mean, and self destructive. Being near her made you ache and quake with something worse than rage. You stopped seeing her. You just couldn't stand to see the face that broke you with hate. You turned inward searching for the piece she despised so you could rip it out. You wanted to tear yourself limb from limb looking for the offensive part of your soul. You wanted to remove everything from inside in the hopes that you'd remove the bad parts along with everything else. You'd rather be empty of everything than be burned by a look. You wanted to feel whole again, so you chased other girls looking for a gaze drenched in love. But you were so young, what were you expecting? F
Wishes and HopesI hope one dayWishes and Hopes in Free Verse More Like This
All the ignorant folk out there
Realize that it isn't just about
It's about an addiction
It's about pain and emotion
And the dark thoughts in your head
That make you hate yourself and want to die
I wish people could be educated
So they don't say stupid things
Like "You're not trying"
It's harder than they realize
And ignorance is bliss
But my biggest wish is for children
To NEVER be exposed to me and what I do
I can take the insults
The rude looks, the stupid remarks
I can take adults stares and ignorance
But I never want to show a child
What you can do when you hurt.
I never want to be the reason
Some one considers self destruction
I had someone like that for me
And every time a child asks about my cat
I pray that I am not that person for them
My Beautiful Fading PuppetI'm not the person you knewMy Beautiful Fading Puppet in Free Verse More Like This
I'm a close replica
But I've killed the other girl
She's buried never to be found
And I'm a murderer
I killed her
But not her innocence
That was taken long before
I killed her beautiful, flawless skin
Killed her hope, her future
Darkened everything till
She was wandering, stumbling in the dark
I tied string to her limbs
Using her as my puppet
The facade covering the true me
That girl started to fade
As I took her over
Now her heart is still
She is gone
I'm all that is left
There is no more facade
The mask has been ripped off
I show my true self
Bare my scared skin to the light
It's not always pretty
MusicPlug in my oxygenMusic in Free Verse More Like This
And turn up the noise
Music is my life
It's how I get by
Like most people I know.
I conduct to lonely cable cars
Sing to empty hallways
It's my secret weapon
Warding off sleepless nights
Keeping away my monsters
Pumping life through my ears
A straight shot to my heart
Avoiding the blocked veins and broken arteries
Adrenaline courses through me
Wakes me up to reality.
Music makes me step back from the edge
School LifeYou're breaking rules HUGE rulesSchool Life in Free Verse More Like This
Last time you broke them,
You landed in the ER and then the hospital
Cutting, in school
Always carrying a steel acquaintance
Blood secretly seeping through
Reddening your jeans and shirts
All you do is hide
Float through your classes
Everyone around you
Wearing rose color glasses
Immune to the darkness
That disperses into the around you
All you can do is isolate yourself
Save them from the pain
TrappedAngerTrapped in Free Verse More Like This
A foreign feeling
Bubbles up inside
Causes my fight or flight to react
And I panic</b>
I long for a sharp edge
Just to release me, untrap me
I start to feel caged
The bars are closing in on me
I just started to believe
My panic attacks were gone
Over with, just too much stress
Hope shatters into razor shards
I fall and find myself hurt
Now bleeding everywhere
My prison shrinks forcing
My knees to my chest
Dark closes in till the only light
Is refracted off my shattered hope
I can see nothing past my bars
Inside MyselfThere's something weird aboutInside Myself in Free Verse More Like This
Feeling completely alone, while
Surrounded by people
Like I lost my sense of self
Sort of surreal, because I
Don't feel, solid, but not quite like a ghost
Just simply, not me.
Anti social in a word
Crippled by my social anxiety
Confined by my shyness
I'm completely into myself
Self involved , hard to break through
I don't want to be noticed
I want to melt into my surroundings
I flinch when people walk by
Hoping they won't look at me
Thinking maybe if I want it bad enough
I might just disappear
Begging whatever powers there are
For people not to say hello
I can feel the panic rising
And I try to swallow it down
Knowing a panic attack
Would bring more unwanted attention
LeaveWhy do you always do this to me?Leave in Free Verse More Like This
Get out of my life,
You won't even answer my calls.
Why are you still here?
You were always there when I was taken, and now that I finally want you,
You turn away.
Am I just another piece in your sick little game?
Get out of my mind and leave the shattered remains of my heart at the door.
I'm not waiting forever on you, and I've about had enough of this.
I'm looking for someone who will stay by my side,
Not just be there when they want something from me.
Why can I still hear your rustic voice?
And never come back.
GoodbyeGoodbye. That is all I have to say to you, two simple words combined into a meaning of heartbreak, questioning, regret. I'm sorry that I have to say this to you, of all the people in my life. I took you out of my life, but some how you always find a way back to my door. Knocking, politely telling your hellos as if there will always be one in return. I'm sorry, but I can't go on with you acting as if nothing ever happened between us. Goodbye, I've found someone else. I'm sorry it never worked out between us, but I just need some time. Space. If I ever change my mind then I'll keep you in mind, and talk things over. But until that time being, fair well, andGoodbye in Free Verse More Like This
Torn apartDon't you care that it hurts?Torn apart in Free Verse More Like This
My heart was torn .
You gouged it out with your rusty knife.
I feel so shocked.
I feel so hurt.
Did you realize what you did?
God how it hurts.
I feel so alone.
Tears fall from my eyes.
Its all because of you.
If you loved me so much who did you do it?
I was so scared.
I knew I was a fool.
Ah how I was a fool.
Ill let the darkness take my heart back.
You no longer need it.
My heart was torn.
I love the way she bleedsI love the way she bleeds.I love the way she bleeds in Free Verse More Like This
Ever so softly.
Each drop brings me undeniable pleasure.
How queer that watching her tremble gives me such a high.
Her screams give me a feeling of power.
I want to drink it all in.
Absorb her life and fear.
It would taste of the finest wine.
Not even the heavens of the divines could compare.
Ah how bitter sweet it feels going down my throat.
The pattern of cut marks on her body,
The most beautiful art.
The look in her eyes as she realizes she is going to die.
Oh the bitter sweet pleasure.
the winter stormWith the feeling of snow in my heart ,the winter storm in Free Verse More Like This
i bleed petals of white roses.
And cry snowflakes, that melt down my cheek.
being as lost as the winterqueen.
Blinded by the icy storm.
will this heart ever melt?
Will this storm ever pass?
this winter in my soul has gone on for eternity.
And the frost bite in my heart pains me.
This is never going to end .
I am stuck in the past.
we are lost in winter.
forzen forever in our dooming past.
i am the winter queen.
lost in my storm.
Never to return.
marian and sadex
conflicting heartsConflicting heart why must you tare me apart?conflicting hearts in Free Verse More Like This
If only I could love you both.
Then this pain would subside.
If only I could give my heart to two.
Why must you make me chose.
This never ending madness is killing me.
One is loving the other caring.
How could I possibly chose?
I love you both so very much it hurts .
Conflicting heart why must you tare me apart?
in the darknessCovet the darkness where you hide.in the darkness in Free Verse More Like This
Clutch onto the fear that binds you.
Disappear into the fog of madness.
Get lost in the maze of lies.
Even if you hide they will find you.
Turn your tears to silk,
Form the web of truth.
Hide if you like.
The shadows know all.
Beware dark child their coming for you.
DreamingUnder these clouds I dream.Dreaming in Free Verse More Like This
The wind so sweet sings a melody of peace.
I wish this dream would never end
With my rainbow skis and blue roses.
This fantasy of mine runs so deep,
I can feel it in my bones.
Can you hear it?
The voices of the strange ice cat?
Maybe you hear the old dog singing to the night?
The place where time is frozen.
When stars fall down and make fireflies.
Fairies fly by as if it was normal.
Maybe it is normal in this world of mine,
Just walk down the silver road of dreams,
And there is where you'll find me.
Siting under the great willow tree.
Did you know you can see sings in the air?
Just take a look.
Don't worry I'll be here when you get back.
Siting under my willow tree.
Vist me one day?You were never around.Vist me one day? in Free Verse More Like This
I never saw you leave.
the cold stormy nights remind me.
It was never ment to be.
Lost in my sorrow,
lost in the pain.
Maybe one day you'll vist my grave.
If only if only.
You were never around.
Not even on the day you walked away.
Will you bring roses on my birthday?
Leave them at my tombstone,
knowing that i cant smell them?
You came back a year later.
Thank you for visting my grave.
The pain was worth it in the end.
Irony of DeathI told her to die,Irony of Death in Free Verse More Like This
I watched her pale wrist bleed.
I indulged myself in her life wine.
Nothing is as it seems.
I called on death and death came.
She took her away.
Laughing as she dragged the blade across her skin.
She was my most deadly sin
Now she is gone.
Deaths cold heart embraces her as she lives in the earth.
The coffin sinks as times go by and every minute I laugh as she dies in my mind.
The silly twit.
The tragic suicide.
Girl meets boy,
Falls in love,
Ahh how sweet the air smelt.
The never ending smell of rich copper.
Death is her lover now.
To think that I could love?
How silly that girl be!
But if I do not then why,
After my laughter am I brought to tears?
I dig up her grave now eerie as eerie as I could ever be.
The flesh rotten but the scar still lives.
Her pale moon light skin is the same as always.
Even death did not want to take her.
Crawling inside the small little box that I spat on at the funeral.
Ohh the irony now it is she who tells me to die.
Broken FairytaleIf I lived in a world of fairytales,Broken Fairytale in Free Verse More Like This
Then would I be saved?
Come rescue me from my forbidding tower.
Take me from this witches nest.
Take me to my happily ever after.
But will my castle fall before me?
Once I'm saved will my prince leave me?
When I escape from one nightmare, a new one shall claim me.
Oh the fairytales were wrong there are no such happy endings.
the girl of the 6th floorthe girl of the 6th floor is strangethe girl of the 6th floor in Free Verse More Like This
when the sun rises up
her hangings are closed
when night falls
she leaves her apartment
Dressed in a black cape
she descends the stairs to go to her car
this girl is very intriguing
she works at night
or she is afraid of the sun
I do not know
it's an obsession
a kind of desire
I would to know the things concealed
behind this beautiful smile
the bloody nightshe wants bloodthe bloody night in Free Verse More Like This
it is a need
it is an obsession
she wants to tear
a body with her teeth
to feel the pain of her victim
and enjoy that great pleasure
she enjoys ripping hearts
chewing human flesh
she finds it so exhilarating
the night is a game
where the prey is an man
where the vampire is the predator
disenchantedit is a ordinary daydisenchanted in Free Verse More Like This
her mother is drunk
her father went to work
Eryn is in her bedroom
the headphones on her ears to not hear
the snoring of her mother
she is sad
she is in rage to attend this pitiful spectacle
she listens to her MP3 player to calm herself
she mutilates her body for forgetting
and when her mother wakes
she prepares dinner taking care to hide her scars
She dances in a cageshe dances in her cageShe dances in a cage in Free Verse More Like This
trapped in this place
her destiny is spoiled
every night she reveals her body
in a stench of alcohol, and of nachos
she takes not
attention to customers
she makes the show on scene
as if the room was empty
as if she was alone in this world
every night she thinks
it's the last time
but the next day
she dances again and again
escape this reality
is a difficult thing
because dancing is her life
The melody of the pianoI hear the pianoThe melody of the piano in Free Verse More Like This
no one plays
the melody of the past
reminds me of you
when you played at night
naked before going to sleep
I sat near you
we kissed tenderly
an listening to the melody
Now you're gone
you left with death
Death has come for you
but I still listen to music
every night I think of you
My angel take my handthe window opensMy angel take my hand in Free Verse More Like This
a shadow is in the bedroom
she opens her eyes
a hand grazes his face
I came looking for you
you will be happy
our love will shine
like stars in the midnight sky
we live in the night
the sun is our enemy
the blood will be our liquor
my angel take my hand
If you're ready
to follow the path
The scalpel of paindisgusted with its appearanceThe scalpel of pain in Free Verse More Like This
she succumbed to surgery
for a better life
for be noticed
to be loved
the operation is finished
she became very beautiful
a sexy girl
with beautiful forms
This is his new look
but in the mirror
She was always the same
in a modified body
She dared not look
the girl from hellYou are an obsessionthe girl from hell in Free Verse More Like This
I think about you
day and night
you pollute my mind
with of erotic thoughts
I imagine you have
a sexy dress black
a look full of desire
to satisfy my cravings
your body is on mine
immersed in a long embrace
your eyes turn red
I do not understand
what it happens?
the wings out your your shoulders
your teeth are lengthen
who are you?
I do not recognize you
you bit my neck
blood flows to the ground
I do not understand
we made love
and now I have no heart
I am your lunch
I'm afraid to love youI'm afraid to love youI'm afraid to love you in Free Verse More Like This
I am afraid to me attached
I'm afraid of losing you
I fear for the future
prevents me from loving you
because in the past
I have often been deceived
you are different from other?
I would like leave you a lucky
but my fear clings
and prevents me from loving
The tears of witchmy body is crushedThe tears of witch in Free Verse More Like This
this power exhausts me
It gnaws my entrails
it corrupts my mind
remain a woman
not be a witch
not to feel the carnal desire
resist this force
this is a plunged in darkness
a magical world
but extremely hard
every time I use my power
I feel pain in my heart
I am tired, my wrists bleed
my hair will turn red
I need help
this magic is going to kill me
I want to control this power
but I do not know