ScreamingThe screaming is too loud, today and tonight.Screaming in Free Verse More Like This
So I clasp my hands over my ears.
And shut it tight.
My eye’s eyes are shut. I don’t scream anymore.
Dry lips, from no longer screaming.
My mouth will remain shut.
Time no longer turning.
I am here for you little screaming girl.
Don’t open your mouth.
You’ll fall victim to the repetition.
The addiction of the screams.
Once I open my eyes
Fading to white, the world around me blurs.
Refusing to scream, just because of the
Others fall victim to the repetition, the addiction.
Sweet little boy, you screamed for so long.
Surely you must be tired.,
And your voice is so horse.
Just trying to make it by.
Screaming my last scream.
Too loud, my voice breaks.
Into little precious pieces
Black voidsA black void escapes my lips.Black voids in Free Verse More Like This
As the infection of pain takes over.
I’m screaming to an empty room.
In it lays all my fears.
My eyes are filled with parasites.
Seeing nothing but black.
Which leaks it’s way into my heart.
Trembling fingers, and sweaty palms.
Bugs clinging to my hair.
Nesting in my skin.
I have been contaminated.
By the sins of others.
Nobody can harm me now.
I have been contaminated
By the whispers of the heartless.
Reaching forth for some light.
It only seems to burn my skin.
My right eye has been removed.
And left with a hole.
Head spinning round’ and round.
Sitting in this dirty contaminated room.
A perfect fit for me.
My wordsThe amount of words spoken everyday can become repetitive.My words in Free Verse More Like This
“I want to be stronger.”
They don’t sink in anymore because we've overused them.
“Why doesn't anyone love me?”
No longer can we start a revolution, or inspire a world.
“We can do it! Keep on fighting!”
Instead we wind up sounding cliche.
“I want to die”
No longer are we the poets who make people cry.
“Life is shit”
Instead we leave a blank feeling, because we've heard it before.
So we are left with this emptiness.
But that can’t be true.
Because it’s too cliche.
Good enoughYou’ll never be good enough to beat that person in video games.Good enough in Free Verse More Like This
Nor that online player who claims they're the best.
You’ll never be good enough to earn that pay raise at work.
Nor become employee of the month.
You’ll never be good enough to be the strongest and smartest in class.
Nor get the best grades.
You’ll never be good enough to be a model.
Nor have the body you've always wanted.
You’ll never be good enough to walk away from that fight.
Nor be able to fight back.
You’ll never be good enough to hold back your emotions.
Nor always be the best friend.
You’ll never be good enough to always do the right thing.
Nor make the right choices.
You’ll never be good enough to make that person love you.
Nor always be loved.
You’ll never be good enough to make it somewhere.
Nor ever be noticed.
But you can damn well try.
EyefulHis hateful eyes.Eyeful in Free Verse More Like This
Which killed my parents.
That which burned my arms.
With sinful marks.
His loving eyes.
Which killed my parents.
That kissed my arms.
With loving hearts.
This all happened, faster then I imagined.
Here I am staring at a murder, falling in love.
I'll kill for you, sweetie. Let's end the world together.
Won't it be fun?
Our killing spree?
Watch us world! As our murders show on tv, and run by your eyes!
WATCH US KILL!
Watch him die
I never could forgive such a disgusting man.
Watch me get locked up.
His dead eyes.
Which killed my parents.
That kissed and burned my arms.
With sinful and loving marks.
Carry OnThey say, "Freedom always wins."Carry On in Concrete Poetry More Like This
But, they just stole my innocence.
So turn around, watch your back,
Look out for the skills you lack,
Because one of these days
You'll get past the haze,
Then you'll finally see,
That we aren't meant to be.
I want you to know,
That this pain isn't just for show,
And you're an amazing guy,
But I'm just too shy.
Plus I'm not right mentally,
So Please, just forget about me.
The time I spend with you is great,
But I'm starting to fall out of love and into hate.
Red blood pours out of my pale skin,
It lets me know I'll never win,
Because this blood is what I could never say,
This blood is just the liquid emotion that I feel everyday.
Bring back my colors because they're starting to fade,
And erase these memories because they're so overplayed
So if I kill my self tonight,
My last wish is to end this fight.
Forget the labels, I've left them behind
Just erase this day, and hit rewind.
Go back to when this was all a dream,
When you where my king and I was
You Never Loved What You'll Never MissOpen your heart, like an open doorYou Never Loved What You'll Never Miss in Concrete Poetry More Like This
So that you can see what's in store
for you and all your little friends
this is how your story ends
If you'd just keep quiet
hide your personality's split
then this rumor mill could stop spinning
because when it spins no one's winning
Never bite the hand that feeds you,
it'll be the last thing you really do,
with out food you'll just starve
and start to fade away slowly, like your wrists' scars
And if you cry I won't wipe away your tears,
because when you cry I disappear
Maybe I don't want to be seen,
I don't want to be a golden girl on the silver screen
So take me out of your spotlight, halo of grace
take me away, let me hide my ugly face
And If you do I'll save you a kiss
because you never loved what you'll never miss
BrokenI'm broken,Broken in Concrete Poetry More Like This
hopeless, and shattered.
Feeling like a book left open,
all my pages are ripping and tattered.
almost numb, all alone.
No one could trust me, I was oh-so deceiving.
I just wish I would've stayed home.
boring, and plain.
All these demons still trying to tempt me,
and now I know, I am going insane.
this is the end of the line.
Two shots to the head,
there's no carrying on this time.
Narcissus is a Teenage GirlI don't careNarcissus is a Teenage Girl in Concrete Poetry More Like This
if people stare,
I only wish to be seen,
I don't always try make a scene.
Narcissus is my name,
and being noticed is my game.
They say "there's no such thing as bad publicity"
but all of their words are 100 percent toxicity.
Would you rather be stabbed in the back
or be graced with a full-frontal attack?
If blood is thicker than water
expect a Texas Massacre sized manslaughter.
Could you listen rather than hear?
When all my drones are run on fear.
What else is new for me to see,
when everyone is looking at me.
And did I ever mention,
I can't not be the center of attention.
So Long, So LongFighting, fighting every daySo Long, So Long in Free Verse More Like This
And it just hurts so much
In every single way
With every single touch
I promised I would try
But I didn't know how hard it'd be
Not to die
And now I see why you told me
That you would always be here
In my heart and in my mind
And at the time, my dear
I had no idea that I'd find
You in a hospital bed
Your heart line flat
And now you're dead
I'll never forgive myself for that
I took you for granted
You never know what you love until it's gone
And this is it
We're at your funeral, so long, so long
In a Sea of DoubtWherever you go I will follow,In a Sea of Doubt in Concrete Poetry More Like This
I am your shadow,
black cloud of sorrow,
and for us there is no tomorrow.
You're a suicidal piece of shit,
dirty little hypocrite.
Your open eyes are full of spit,
so please explain this to me, I just don't get it.
If jumping bridges is what you do
I will still follow you.
You're choking me, I turn blue,
now I know what I never knew.
I lost my conscience in the sea of doubt,
you mouth hangs open like a trout,
I still don't know what I'm mad about.
All I know is that I'm acting out,
and I'm no longer your little girl scout.
A Few RhymesI knowA Few Rhymes in Free Verse More Like This
That every single day, each moment of your existence
A new maze to climb through, a trap you can't escape
But I swear
It only gets better from here,
I can't lie
I've promised myself and you
That I would try
To tell the truth
But I find
It's just to much work
To convince a jerk
That you are good
Unlike the demon you would
Be on any given day
Like my old ways
Believe me I've tried,
I've been a bitch and lied
I tell you it's true
Maybe a broken heart, just needs some... Glue.
I'm so tired of this drama,
The ol' Bush or Obama?
I don't bite,
I'm so sick of this fight
Why's it on the news?
It's just another bruise
On the face
Of the teenage race.
So tired of this pain
Im gonna go insane.
I have tried it all
take a leap of faith and fall
And there's not much else to do
But accept that you are you
Who else could ya be
And why can't you see
Your true beauty
No one else is better
No one else is true
No one's listening. . .With every breath I takeNo one's listening. . . in Free Verse More Like This
I feel as if there's someone hammering at my head
And clawing at my heart
With every move I make
Something is tearing me apart
Making me grow weak
With every word I speak
Someone else gets hurt
And I'm ignored once more
So tell me...
What's the point of me screaming
If there's no one to listen?
AbandonmentEveryone leavesAbandonment in Free Verse More Like This
Don't get attached
It all seems good at first
But never seems to last
One day they'll decide you're not good enough
And cut you out of their life
Then you feel like you did something wrong
And cut yourself with a knife
After a while, you get tired of being abandoned
Being thrown away like you're nothing
So affected by your past
You resort to cutting
You bring your inner pain out
You want to scream and shout
Until you have nothing left to say
Looking forward to the end of today
But not the start of tomorrow
Untitled Everything hurtsUntitled in Free Verse More Like This
Waking up in the morning hurts
Trying not to cry hurts
Plastering a smile that I hate
With a passion hurts
Talking to you hurts
I try to hide it and act like everything's fine
But you always manage to see right through me
I don't even know how...
My wall's been up for so long
It's strong and thick. Keeps people out
Why not you?
You're the cause of my pain
Why can't I keep you out?
The monster in the mirrorI look in the mirror and all I seeThe monster in the mirror in Free Verse More Like This
Is that freaky little monster staring back at me
She does so much damage but means no harm
Her parents she does not want to alarm
So she keeps her feelings bottled up inside
Paints on a smile and acts like everything is fine
Puts on long sleeves and pretends the scars aren't there
It's not like anyone would even care
She waits until nighttime to sit and cry
Thinks about how much she wants to die
When everyone's asleep, she lies awake
Thinking of how many pills she'd have to take
Or how deep the wound would have to be
So people would finally hear her plea
Her need to see blood pour from her wrist
The pain that she had missed
It feels so good but it is so awful
The damage done to me has been so brutal
She looks at herself and makes a face of disgust
Wonders if there's anyone else she can trust
She sheds her tears every day
Wondering when the world won't look so gray
She doesn't hurt like she hurt before
With all the pain she's had to endure
I think she'
Week to Weak.Week to Weak.Week to Weak. in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Why is it the week days go so slow?
But yet the weekends are over in an instant.
I have gotten so used to being constantly on the go,
That every part of my life has become routinely consistent.
Whenever I have a time slot that is vacantly free,
I feel as if I should be developing or preparing for something else.
I always feel as if there is somewhere else that I was meant to be.
I never take full advantage of the short intervals I have to myself.
I’ve had enough of the early mornings and the constant yawning.
Dreaming of over sleeping and then opening my eyes all of a sudden.
Even the usual serene sounds of the birds chirping have become haunting.
Every morning I wake up to my annoying alarm and tap the snooze button.
I work, wait and anticipate for the week to end.
Making hopeful plans to catch up with some old friends.
And before you know it Monday has dawned once again.
I wish the weekends had more days imbedded in-between them.
Unconscious Epiphany.Unconscious Epiphany.Unconscious Epiphany. in Free Verse More Like This
I thrive and depend on your compliments
And it is only then as a direct consequence,
Am I truly able to write with confidence.
Even though your words are only temporary.
I deem your contribution as utterly necessary,
In order to refresh my wavering, selective memory.
My own validation depends on your approval.
Whether it is congratulatory or discouragingly brutal.
Your input is the one thing that is most crucial.
Can I call myself a writer if I don't believe in myself?
When I constantly seek approval from everyone else?
How can I then expect to make any sort of wealth?
Of a craft and skill I still think anyone is able to produce.
Is there any point in me putting my apparent talent to use?
When I limit and submit myself into a negative recluse.
I was told I must have self belief in order to achieve,
The dream that I am so desperately trying to receive.
The body can only accomplish what the mind believes.
I know I must rid myself from any form of self doubt.
Semi-Detached.Semi-Detached.Semi-Detached. in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
She was very sensitive.
As if the volume was turned up in her head.
She started using her mother’s sedatives,
As a solution for her sleepless nights in bed.
She couldn’t connect with any of her relatives,
They never showed an interest in anything she said.
Her attempts at socialising were tentative,
So she conjured up imaginary friends instead.
Her dogged detachment was her only imperative.
She could not risk the chance of being misled.
There was no one to peel back the layer of negatives.
Too many years of tears have been bred and shed.
The smile she occasionally displayed was purely decorative.
She knows people will judge her before they have even read
Her story because they’re too caught up in their own narrative.
They only take the time to read your book once you are dead.
They say we’re born alone and die alone.
As humans we are built to survive and consume.
Even if you are raised from a loving home.
You can still feel out of place in your ow
Intangible Tangent.Intangible Tangent.Intangible Tangent. in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
They say God only gives you what you can handle.
But lately I have realized that this cannot be true.
Every blow has the potential to blow out that candle.
So there is no guarantee that everyone will pull through.
What happens if you can withstand the disturbance?
Will you be constantly waiting for the next wave?
Imagine waking up knowing what lies behind the curtains.
Confined behind the undefined lines of a close shave.
Perhaps we all possess the prowess to overcome any obstruction.
But not everyone has the belief that they can persevere.
We are all victims of a much bigger incomprehensible construction
And there will always be some that succumb to that deepest fear.
What will you become if you somehow conquer all the obstacles?
Doing whatever it takes to ensure that you will survive.
Blaming others for what you have done refusing to be responsible.
Knowing this is the person you had to become in order to stay alive.
In the end we have no choice but to make do wit
Puberty.Puberty.Puberty. in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I just see it as you trying to control me,
Trying to turn me into something I’m not.
It’s like you want me to be sad, depressed and lonely
And that is why you break and regulate everything I've got.
Can’t you see I am doing this for your own good?
That I am trying to protect from all what is bad out there.
If I didn't do it, I can guarantee you that nobody else would.
It was never my intention to turn your life into a living nightmare.
You’re not protecting me, you’re preventing me,
Stopping me from taking and making my own decisions.
Even before I say or do anything wrong, you’re correcting me
And that is why I go to all these places without your permission.
As long as you are under my roof, you will abide by my rules.
You cannot see it now but in the future you will thank me.
That means I want you to go to and come straight home from school.
Recently your attitude stinks, so think before you speak and get an
Self Made.Self Made.Self Made. in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Research and re-emerge when you have found the answer.
Correct and perfect your craft and become your own master.
Refine your design until it cannot be further enhanced.
Instead of waiting, why not try creating your own chance?
Have the nerve to capture what you so rightly deserve.
Duly take heed but never concede to what you have heard.
Manually harness the tenacity to exceed your limited capacity.
Recognize that progress can either happen instantly or gradually.
Stay humble but don’t let it crumble when things start looking up.
Because those in a position of power are also known to be corrupt.
Remain independent; refrain from complying and relying on others.
But understand that those conceited people also needed loving mothers.
Polish and accomplish your dreams and visualise them into this reality.
Remember that failing is nothing but one of life’s constructive formalities.
So be confident go and see the things you have always wanted to see.
Allow yourself time
Breaking NewsBreaking News.Breaking News in Free Verse More Like This
That's somebody's mother.
Who was beaten and raped by another
Individual who couldn't control their seedy sexual desires.
Just because you can't smell the stench of burning skin.
Doesn't mean this world isn't intrinsically on fire.
That's somebody's daughter.
Who was kidnapped, molested and tortured.
By another who couldn't control their dishevelled cravings.
Super heros do not exist in this reality.
Does that mean this world is not worth saving?
That's somebody's father.
Who was shot by another individual who would rather
Resort to violence to settle a trivial dispute.
The things humans can do to each other.
No one can deny this world is not filled with ill repute.
That's somebody's son.
Who was a victim of a hit and run
Situation that should never had occurred.
His family are now seeking solace from a church.
But can anyone really say that in the end
We all get what we deserve?
Describe Your LifeDescribe Your Life.Describe Your Life in Concrete Poetry More Like This
From your pre-destined slumber.
Life's lottery has selected your number.
Your way through this world.
These feelings can't be bought nor sold.
Through the hardships and pain.
These feelings have proven impossible to tame.
Every story must have an end.
Life is one process which is impossible to extend.
There are countless words to describe your life.
Living is something you cannot experience twice.
Make mistakes, learn from them and prosper.
We are all apart of an ever changing roster.
Enjoy the time that we have here.
Take no notice of the conclusion that draws near.
Death will be heard by the tolerant ear.
Would You?Would You?Would You? in Free Verse More Like This
If I sung the same song everyday.
Would you remember the lyrics?
If I told you the world will end tomorrow.
PerfectionPerfection.Perfection in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
She lodges her fingers down her throat.
Clasping onto the wall as she recklessly chokes.
She reinserts her fingers back in forcibly.
Deliriously trying to make her body thinner.
She swoons and slumps to the floor nauseously
As she attempts to regurgitate her dinner.
Her throat aches as she screeches out coarsely,
With her hand covering the image in the mirror.
Her head now rests on the on the rim of the toilet seat.
She wants to eat but she just has not got in her.
She desperately begins to scream out inaudibly.
Her mouth now tastes of something pulpy and bitter.
She examines the red color of the fluid cautiously.
Realizing that she has become too focused on her figure.
Her friend then knocks on the door thoughtfully.
She shouts out, "I'm okay I don't need a baby sitter."
Her friend continues to knock and waits outside awkwardly
Replying, "You promised me, you said that you are not a quitter"
The tap begins to run as she disguises her cough distortedly.
She knows her friend
Losing MeI find peace in loathingLosing Me in Concrete Poetry More Like This
I suffer pleasure from pain
I feel comfort in dark clothing
Whether judgment or acceptance is my bane
I have cried all my tears
Still in darkness I am bound
Wandering desperately through the years
The true identities never to be found
Lost is all
A blanked out, thrown out memory
From the abuses that do appall
Hope and love was my every
But now my life will soon dissolve
Into a screaming dark place with no resolve...
I Love YouI Love YouI Love You in Free Verse More Like This
Means that I adore you for the person you are and would never even dream of trying to change you.
That I accept you for the person you are even if society doesn't,
That I will carry on with what we know is right, even if apparently it wasn't
That I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times,
Being the one to uplift you when you're feeling down, in a bad mood, or when nothing rhymes.
Spending all of my time with you, even far past the point that it is uncomfortable, and
That every second away from you is agonizingly lonely and regretful.
I Love You
I know your deepest secrets and do not, and will not, judge you for them at any time, and
I know that you do not judge me for mine.
It means that I care enough to fight for what we have
And that I cherish you enough not to let go.
Love means an actual emotion, not just a word
The feeling is mutual, and this must be heard.
TimeAh, the first breath's sweet kisses,Time in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Morning dew's fair promises
The love and life patient waiting could bring
Ready, wishing, and anticipating
Hopeful for the next fruitful morning to come
Desiring time in all its splendor from
Delighting in each and every new experience
Learning and growing from all life's experiments
But dreadfully missing the sight of a loved one
Joyously anticipating the morning sun
To lighten every mundane worry
And make the next day better, surely
But now as each second should pass,
Desperately remembering the sweet, passionate last
And wishing dearly that it would return
Back to happier, younger times we yearn
Despairing now in every moment coming
Passing time will prove most numbing
Time, what once you loved and begged to pass
Steals life's moments, approaching your last
Only death and ruin doth time decay,
And youth filled life doth time betray.
FlawedOf every fearFlawed in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Death is past so clear
To be unset
Conceal my fate
Veil my hate
Darken the place
Seal my fate
Broken and cracking
Slitting and split
The blood is lacking;
Flesh now separate
Flawed my fatal design
Never to heal, even through time.
Only SurvivingCompletely seething,Only Surviving in Concrete Poetry More Like This
My feelings bleeding
I insert the hurt
To flirt with the dirt
I stay; delay,
But pay today
The price for thrice with the knife I slice
And strife my life
In vain it was slain, all pain unfeigned
The main vein--drained
But death was left for deft breath
The pulse to persist pulls to exist
Fall in all
Just to survive is not to be alive
When All is Lost...My hate, subject of its own contagion,When All is Lost... in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Though my inner thoughts will never reveal;
Conceptually, my whole life's abrasion,
Because all of my wounds will never heal
Black-pitted horror is all that is seen
The DescentIn the center of the nightThe Descent in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Hellish demented cries, such pain and plight
Grinding, ripping, scratching, tearing
At my body and mind, though not bearing
But driven to crash and break, no wait...
The cries subside
Only now dyed
In a dark black abyss
Only louder than the sound to miss
But when its flaunted return
Brings me to learn
If, perhaps, I would tire
No regard to admire
Except a newfound fondness for the noise,
But my descent, no choice
Down to a world dark and dreary
To reside, weak and weary
Ah, why my calamity
To be dragged into insanity.
BornIn the beginning,Born in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Where do we begin?
In our minds, we progress
In our bodes, we digress
In our heart, to learn
What is right, we discern.
But what of it, forewarned,
In its nascent form
The inability to infer
Just why it differs?
No one can comprehend
Or pay with amends;
The prize of destiny-
A life of bigotry
A hateful word to confess
And they couldn't care less
For the reason it was condemned
For there was no one to defend
That it was just created that way,
But that's not what they say
They knew when it was born,
And adorned it with scorn,
Coming OutIntimidationComing Out in Free Verse More Like This
"Don't," my inner voice forewarned... And as I pondered the fact that I should listen to it more often, the demon on my other shoulder kept begging. Incessantly pleading, beseeching, imploring. It would want nothing more than for me to get what I wanted (...or what it wanted...) Could my desires really be the same as that of a demon? I would be tragically crushed. We had been battling with this reverse psychology for too long.
I had been hiding and denying my sexuality for too long.
But I realize now
Why I can't relate
Why I differentiate
I can't understand
That I wasn't planned
But neither can they,
What would they say?
I can't be who I want to be
Living a life that is fake, sadly
"I'm not living,"
Battered, bruised, and beaten,
Crushed to conform,
Cold, never warm
Time to give in
Bring on the heat
To make me feel
Make me heal
"I'm going to tell them,"
But how would they react?
Would I still be intact?
In fact, actually, I'd be better locked away
A Beautiful LoveAt first it was hard to tell how you feltA Beautiful Love in Concrete Poetry More Like This
So she just played on with the hand she was dealt
Thankfully she began to play her cards right
Though she missed a few moves, she still held on tight
And never let go
Or let her weaknesses show
Soon enough you caught on
And she loved you like music
For you were her song
She didn't need to choose it
Always stuck in her head
Especially as she lay in bed
Just dreaming of the day
That she would hear you say
"I love you,"
And when that day came,
She was, overjoyed,
If I may,
For she loves you too
With all of your feelings realized
The ensuing delight materialized
And your hopes and dreams began to blossom
Into something sincerely and entirely awesome
Yet again despairing and just beginning to cope,
But all that she needed was some courage, bravery, and hope
And with just the right guidance, she knew what to do
And now she's completely dedicated to you.
Look (Right Through Me)Allegory rules the world,Look (Right Through Me) in Free Verse More Like This
Angry, lonely, little girl.
Begging for life by praying for death,
Understanding love but hating breath.
Black lies in spider silk,
Smothering all the voices.
Screaming truth by spreading the lies,
Hearing them all but ignoring the cries.
Heartbreak and heartbeats,
Drowning out broken hearts.
Beating hate by feigning glorified love,
Confined by life but free as a dead dove.
Crimson hopes flooding out,
Killing the pessimist's child.
Singing silence by bleeding it away,
Losing religion but aching to pray.
Killer fame striking hot,
Taming the soul I loved.
Playing the game by sitting it out,
Knowing it all but nothing about.
Sharp amethysts stab deep,
Reminding me of my you.
Showing me care by letting me die,
Listening long but not hearing me cry.
Headphone hospice healing hearts,
Death started by life's poison darts.
Hell's hearse harking hollow hate,
Taking me away from this berate.
He held hearts, he hurt her head,
He's him and I'm her; both better off dead.
Admitting ItIt's not my fault that I can't control myself,Admitting It in Free Verse More Like This
I can't help it that I fell to the dark.
But please, give me yet another chance;
Let me reignite my inner spark.
I understand if you want to give me up,
I know it's the least I deserve.
But please, at least let me try;
I have an honour to preserve.
I'll take the pills for you, my friends,
So that I'm less of a trouble.
But please, know this now, no mistake;
You can't rebuild my rubble.
I'm the crazy electric one with fire inside,
I won't ever give that up.
But please, don't make me not change;
I need help and I'm not ashamed to admit it.
Hello, My Name Is: (Insert Number Here)We're all just numbers,Hello, My Name Is: (Insert Number Here) in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Never number one,
More like six six six,
But never number one.
Order me, add me, take me away,
You won't hear what I say,
Just call me crazy,
And label me some more.
Little lost digits in the wind,
I won't pretend,
Why should I?
I'm just a number.
We're all not important,
Silly little stars,
Not even bothering to shine,
Just silly little stars.
Falling, burning, scatter the sky,
Wish I could fly,
You clipped my wings,
And killed me some more.
Little lost digits in the wind,
I won't pretend,
Why should I?
I'm just a number.
We're all empty corpses,
Crawling with maggots,
In a six-foot bed of nothingness,
Just crawling with maggots.
Mourn me, miss me, know me,
I want to be free,
So please just forget,
And make it all stop.
Little lost digits in the wind,
I won't pretend,
Why should I?
I'm just a number.
A worthless little number,
In a sea of slumber,
Pulling apart the world,
The world that I run.
Because I'm a number.
When Will Tomorrow Come?Icy daggers stab straight at my heart,When Will Tomorrow Come? in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Watching the bike-shed as lovers part.
Kids mounting bikes and sitting in cars,
I'm the dull knife and they the shining stars.
The pavement's hard under my feet,
Lining the length of the bustling street.
Everyone going on as though it matters,
When we all just end up in rotting tatters.
The bell has long gone yet I'm still here,
My thoughts turning to what most fear.
The loneliness festering in my guts,
The cold climbing my ribs like ruts.
The whispers come chaste and kind,
Whirling, dancing, playing with my mind.
They tell me to break free of Hell,
And fall under Death's dark sweet spell.
My shoes scuff slowly along the stones,
I don't want to be the cause of their moans.
School buses dive past,
Each sight I see might be my last.
I don't want smiles; only tears,
For the girl they ignored for fifteen years.
I want them to cut deep and hard,
When it's them is it so easy to disregard?
The road's calling me joyously on,
Telling me to cause a collisio
We Are/You Aren'tWe are the unwanted, the brokenWe Are/You Aren't in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The ones you forgot about.
So don't be too surprised when we
Start to scream and shout.
We are the living, the dying
The ones you all put down.
But you'll know who we are when we
Run this goddamn town.
We are the corpses, the maggots
The ones you all despise.
But you'll be the ones scared when we
Expose all your lies.
We are the hunted, the lost
The ones you all spurn.
But you'll cry for our help when we
Leave you all to burn.
We are the losers, the winners
The ones that you deny.
But you'll be the ones damned when we
Hear the angels cry.
All EndsIf you cut you'll bleedAll Ends in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
If you bleed you'll die
If you're sad you'll smile
And if you smile it's a lie
If you lie you'll live
If you live you'll die
If you cheat you'll win
And if you win you'll cry
If you cry you'll lose
If you lose you'll die
If you run you'll stay
And if you stay you'll fly
If you fly you'll fall
If you fall you'll die
'Cause no-one will catch you
If your life is a lie.
To My SisterYou dress like a Disney Princess,To My Sister in Free Verse More Like This
And play with pretty dolls;
Your laughter warms our hearts,
Your smile lifts our souls.
You stumble when you walk,
And you can’t say my name;
You dance to invisible music,
Everyone says we’re the same.
You have curly blonde hair,
And big brown eyes;
A smiling flower of a face,
And chubby baby thighs.
You will grow to be big,
And you will change;
You’ll learn the world’s scary,
As much as it is strange.
If I could give you one tip,
And know that you’d follow it,
It’d be: be who you are,
Live like there’s no tomorrow.
Don’t strive for beauty,
Don’t live for lies;
Find beauty in living and
Keep putting beauty into
Other people’s lives.
Goodnight, Sweet NightmaresCan I crawl into bed and die tonight?Goodnight, Sweet Nightmares in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Just forget about it all tonight,
Tear away my skin tonight,
And show you what you've done to me?
Can I run out of breath right now?
Lose everything right now,
Bleed it all away right now,
And make you all feel guilty?
Can I not wake up tomorrow?
Not see dawn tomorrow,
Just have no tomorrow,
And leave you all behind me?
Can I leave it all forever today?
Be honest with you today,
Show you the scars today,
And actually ask for your help?
Can I drown in the noise alone?
Drag lines across my skin alone,
Sob my dead heart out alone,
And not let you anywhere near?
Can I not eat at all ever again?
Not make you worry ever again,
Have anything ever again,
And just let it all bleed away?
Can I teach you a lesson in death?
Feel at peace in death,
Finally happy in death,
And just never have existed at all.
Out of PaperSo gone -Out of Paper in Free Verse More Like This
I have so
out of paper
filled to the
What a Sad
run out of
HeartbreakYou'veHeartbreak in Free Verse More Like This
hurt me -
I loved you -
it tore me
I'm lost -
are broken -
I have no
to put it
back together -
I don't know
and fear the
to Love you
like I Should
A Support -
puts it together
he can't do it
but I know
at the glass -
my hands -
How do I
I love so
From the HeartSpeak theFrom the Heart in Free Verse More Like This
hidden in your mind
tasted on your tongue
trapped in your mouth
you know -
Don't think -
Don't think -
the pain -
you need to breathe -
or don't -
You read the
I can't lie
Picture PerfectI cherishPicture Perfect in Free Verse More Like This
a part of
to capture -
in his arms
Snake at your
to me -
I see in
In the NightIn a blackIn the Night in Free Verse More Like This
under the Stars -
endless clamour -
I fall in love
I can't speak
Only in the
do I hear
your voice -
face in a
lit or darkened
Now a proposal
in the night -
how we met -
I See it again
This is my
For a moment -
of the dark -
I can't see -
The DanceLaughThe Dance in Free Verse More Like This
with me -
Come with me
thoughtful love -
midnight sun -
with a rhythm
created song -
a love song
after our song
midnight sun -
Nothing left -
The Open WindowAmazing how it isThe Open Window in Free Verse More Like This
That I deny myself
I was willing to learn
Along with all the others
All the while suspicions aroused
I deny them all one-by-one
How much I've longed
To just make myself noticed
But that is not me
for I hide in the shadows
Yet light fell upon me
Making me seen
No matter how much
I tried to blend in
My window opend up
I smiled at the gentle breeze
But I closed the curtains
turned and walked out
I don't know if the window is closed
Or when I will be in that room again
I don't know if I'll ever see the glimpse
of that outside world I saw again
Perhaps it will come to me
Rather than I to it
for some things have a way of finding me
Bright blue sky
And Soft yellow sun
Here things change
But not too quickly
and not too much
I think it will be very much the same
Ahh, maybe when summer ends
And fall begins
I will see it again . . .
No longer hiding myself in the shadows
Having the teasings one-by-one
I will be my own
Stading by the open window
For YouI love youFor You in Free Verse More Like This
for you -
things that piss
and bring out
the worst -
I still love you
care of me -
know me well
Picked me up
off the floor
brushed me off
told me to
wipe away my
You're what i
really need -
You're amazing -
more than your mind -
that to you
More than that
I love you
for you -
what I know
you to be -
Stand up for
should be -
I love you
dream come true -
can't be reality
A girlish dream -
You've come to me
What a joy to
aren't premature -
Beyond the EyeYou're hearBeyond the Eye in Free Verse More Like This
are the worst -
You hurt me -
I hardly get
the warning -
I now see
You won't comfort me -
Not in the
and I hate
what they mean
Your voice is
just like mine
You have to
have control -
let it go -
I love you
This is the
man I love
You're here for me
you'd be -
We can work
together to show
you light -
I'll talk to you
You hurt me -
I deserve it
We both have
marks of our love
You won't comfort me -
what I need -
I need your
and harsh words -
forget the tears -
up on your feet
You're cold -
can be -
stings my ears
in my life -
I'm not your
A ComparisonI do not dare to speak of familyA Comparison in Free Verse More Like This
When yours was torn apart so suddenly
I do not dare to speak of funerals
When you had to bury several friends
I do not speak of depressions and mental issues
When your demons had almost got you killed
I do not speak of the darkness I am fighting
Compared to your hell it's merely a shade
You all have faced greater horrors
Than I can ever imagine
I never felt such intense pain
I never was already dying
What right do I have to be weak
When you survived so much worse?
Leave her alone!I see you, hear your criesLeave her alone! in Free Verse More Like This
They may come from the heart
You blame others for filthy lies
But yet, you fail to see
And still, you fail to listen
You assume, think you know
But you don't understand
I see you, hear you whine
Maybe you really miss her
Maybe you cannot understand
She has a life on her own
Come on, get up. I know it's hard
Move on, you can't have her back
I see you, hear you still
See, the more you complain
The more pathetic it looks
Without a true apology
She is not to blame for this
She had suffered far too long
I see you and hear you
And for the last time "Stop!"
She has enough of you, just go
Leave her, don't try to call
She had explained it patiently
Over and over and over again
But you never listend, not once