scarsi have my
they tell a story
of my pain
i try to stop
but i just
writing my pain
across my fragile
you run your fingers
across my wrists
and smile at me
you don't turn away
you don't scold me
you simply smile
they are my way
of battling the pain
shameyou hold my handshame in Free Verse More Like This
you caress my wrist
run you fingers over the scars
i feel ashamed
i feel happy
i feel guilty
i shouldnt bask in your warmth
i dont deserve your affection,
your kindness, your gentleness
my heart yearns for a gentle touch
my mind screams for an understanding soul
someone to love me
to listen to me secrets
i smile and flirt
i pretend im okay
while under the surface
a battle rages
if only i could win,
overcome this brutal monster
then maybe, just maybe
i can truly be me
wallsi put upwalls in Free Verse More Like This
i block you
what you dont
is that those
are to protect
i hide my
behind my high
i surround my towers
with endless mazes
all to protect
from the pain
you can cause
if you dare
if you believe
you love me
then come and get me
scale my walls
teach me there
is a man worth
the heart ache
show me you
can protect me
let me know
i dnt need
HELPHELPHELP in Free Verse More Like This
in red lines
hot red liquid
icy alabaster stone
a physical burn
for an emotional pain
the liquid is
the stone is
the pain is
hypocriteyour voice dripshypocrite in Free Verse More Like This
my vision goes
you don't know
you tell me
what i do is
that i don't
my blood boils
i want to strike you
like all the times
you have me
Testamentyou don't seeTestament in Free Verse More Like This
every time you
every time you
every time you
to the pain
fallingfallingfalling in Free Verse More Like This
of fog creep
i let go
a silent cry
escapes my lips
i reach out
warmtha smilewarmth in Free Verse More Like This
in the dark
a hand held
out to me
so long lost
a kindred sole
a caring friend
you light the dark
you give me hope
that one day
the sun might shine
in the dark
when your there
the light peaks through
my smile is real
as i take your hand
and let you lead me
to a place where
i am safe and content
in a cocoon of warmth
created by your presence
at my side
existyou say you love meexist in Free Verse More Like This
so why don't you
talk to me
hold my hand
kiss m e
this doesn't seem
i love you
you lips against mine
i want to
be with you
yet it seems
you dnt even know i
maski smilemask in Free Verse More Like This
and bat my eyes
what you don't know
is the storm
you see the mask
and take it
The JokerI know the secret God wanted to keep,The Joker in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
And I laid down my hand and said, "Read 'em and weep."
Then he looked at the devil, who nodded his head,
Then looked back at me and smiled as he said
"In knowledge, my child, you win yet you loose,
You are cursed with the will to seek for the truth."
The devil leaned forward in his fit, silk black suit,
Downed a shot and said with aloof,
"He's right ya know, kid,
You're faced with a choice,
Break or bend.
Live or die.
Silence or Noise."
I shook my head, no. I did not understand,
As god stood and left, the devil folded his hands.
He stood and he circled the table and sighed,
"I like you kid, do you wanna know why?
Even here, even now, with now way to win,
You're kicking and screaming, you fight to the end.
You'd think you'd have learned that you're not always strong,
That," He sneered, "you are human,
And you Can be wrong."
And then, my dear friend, he started to laugh,
And with each sickly hiss his voice sizzled and cracked.
"Let me tell you someth
PonderingsCaught amongst the rampant racePonderings in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Staring into heavens face
Wondering if there is a place
For you amongst that empty space
Something kind of like a star
Constant no matter where you are.
So perfectly above the bar
You envy their right to be so far
So daintily far above
The crooked world your supposed to love
But what right have they to sit and judge?
A star knows not of life and love
A star has no urge to kiss and tell
Has never stood at the gates of hell
Has never had to sit and dwell
On just how far he might have fell
A star knows nothing of win and loose
A star fears no hangmans noose
They just sit there, high and aloof
And stare back at the darkened roofs
A stars have a far worse fate
They dwindle outside heavens gate
While they always contemplate
never will they participate
So when next you search for something true
Do not look to the endless blue
For although stars act like they do
In truth they know nothing of you.
My StormThere is a storm raging.My Storm in Free Verse More Like This
The lights flicker and flash
and the wind howls as it throws itself
against the walls, thrashing
like a caged dog,
Mad with loneliness and abuse.
It snarls and growls and howls
as it tries to claw down the walls.
The trees are bending like straws,
grasping desperately to remain rooted.
Their leaves have long sense been stripped off by the bullets of water
that the sky sends hurdling down
at the speed of nothing and anything.
It stings everything bared to its gunfire.
I let it sting me.vI let the torrents of wind try to sway me.
Everyone else is inside,
But not me.I stand in the bare, raw nature
and let it know that I Am Not Afraid.
The lightning strikes around me,
and for split seconds I can see myself reflected in the whips of fleeting light.
I stand in it and let it beat me.
Unfurl all of its frustration upon me.
I let it know that I Am Not Afraid,
that it should'nt be afraid,
that it will never be tamed,
and that I would
Come HomeThe wheels of the bus begin to turn,Come Home in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Another lesson we all must learn,
When you are called you have to go,
A Marine simply can't say no.
They'll chew you up and spit you out,
Stand tall while they scream and shout,
But when you're done with what they need,
Find your way back home to me.
The desert sun's hot on your face,
You can no longer distinguish days
From nights and nights from days,
It all is like an endless game.
Another week, another fight,
And you fight it with all your might
But when you win and they set you free,
Find your way back home to me.
I wrote all the words on the paper in pen,
On each and every letter that I neglected to send.
The words were things I couldn't say but you deserved to hear,
Things like, 'Dad, I'm proud of you' and 'I wish you were here',
Page upon discarded page lay crumpled on the floor,
Because the words I couldn't say somehow shook my core.
Simple things that I knew would somehow make your day,
But 'Find your way back home to me,' was all that I co
Secret SorrowShe found the meaning of life,Secret Sorrow in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Then she swore she wouldn't tell,
But when you gave up on the fight
She damned it all to hell.
She screams out loud her silent plea,
You enter right on cue.
The you that's hiding in her dreams
And whispers, "I miss you."
She cries to herself, at night, alone,
But it's so hard to sleep
When your pillow is a heavy stone,
Drowned by the tears you weep.
And though the bear is not much help,
It's the only thing she has,
So she clings on to its velvet pelt
As she will until the end.
With teary eyes she snuffs the light,
As rings the morning bell.
She found the meaning of life,
Then she swore she wouldn't tell.
The Sound of SilenceOne, just one, one last reliance,The Sound of Silence in Other More Like This
Tell me, what is the sound of silence?
Do you know, can you tell, oh please wont you say?
Is it the sound of night turning to day?
Is it the sorry sound of no surf on the shore,
Or the chirp of no birds on high?
Or the glorious sound of a night without fear,
A night where no children cry?
Is it the sound of the screams that have been heard for so long,
That one no longer takes notice,
Or the sound of the quiet, so long been forgot,
That it screams out in utter defiance?
Is it the sound of the fear that freezes you still,
or the sorrow that tears you apart,
Or the overwhelming laughter that cant pass your lips,
So it silently shakes at your heart.
One, just one, one last reliance,
Tell me, what is the sound of silence?
Unwelcme WelcomeUnwelcome WelcomeUnwelcme Welcome in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Welcome, my friends, from far and near,
Welcome to the home of despair and fear.
Welcome to the life that can only end in death,
Welcome to the sorry world where all the more is less.
Enter into this world of fire, hate and dark.
Enter to the place where the end preludes the start.
Enter here where the confusion is a blessing.
Enter without any hope of any quiet resting.
Stay with me, poor soul, as your pain grows ever stronger.
Stay another week, a year, an eternity longer.
Stay, for I regret to say that you can never leave.
Stay and never again the light of day expect to see.
Leave before it does to you as it has done to all.
Leave before this precarious place becomes the cause of your fall.
Leave while you still can and always think of me.
Leave this sorry prison where I will always be.
Balancing ActBalancing Act in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The Balancing Act
The cool breeze caresses me; I struggle not to look down;
Im walking on a rope of your lies 1000 feet from the ground.
I cross my arms across my chest; my eyes are tightly sealed,
Even if you told the truth, it would not be revealed
It would be no different from all the lies youve told.
I reach out for someone to hold but there is only me
Cause Im all that the rope will hold, the binding threads are week.
A take a breath and then some steps, each cuts like broken glass,
I glance down at the sights below, hoping theyre not my last.
I Smiled as you lied to me and I pretended not know
The truth you would not tell to me, the truth you would not show.
And now Im lost above the world so small, desperately trying not to fall
With the end of the rope nowhere near, it leads into the wide, blue sky.
It suspends me above it all.
A strange serenity overcomes me and I lose my balance.
I fall into the air so soft, where I meet no resistance.
My MonumentI am staring at a wall.My Monument in Free Verse More Like This
A blank, empty, barren wall.
There are cracks in it.
The white paint is chipping.
The spray can in my hand is cool,
and it cry's rebellion.
I hold my breath and stare at this,
and wonder what to write on its
No. As soon as the word is written it becomes a lie.
No, to etch it on yet another lifeless surface would only furthur mar it's meaning.
No. For then the wall would be sure to crumble with time.
No. I need to forget it all.
I stare at this wall.
But it's not really blank, is it?
The chipped pait that leaves the
unblemished stone visible
The tiny, hopeless flower
that struggles to peak through the cracks
that crashes against this wall
Moans out "forever."
and the spiderweb cracks
that sprawl across the lonely walls face
humbly challenge, "remember."
I am staring at a wall.
Raindrop ReliefI rode on a raindropRaindrop Relief in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
While you lit a shooting star
So you would find your way back
No matter where you are.
And as I tumbled down
into the blue abyss
I watched you streak across the sky
and silently made a wish.
I didn't wish for money,
I didn't wish for fame,
I wished that you would smile
Every time you said my name.
And I was falling fast
As you began to fade,
And a tear escaped my eye
As the night became the day.
And now I'm here alone,
and I don't know where you are,
But when I feel real lonely,
I look for my shooting star.
And now and then I see it,
And now and then it's there,
And it's in those moments
When I'm reminded that you care.
The trail it leaves behind
Is a single fire-streak,
And every time I see it
My soul sighs with relief.
Liar in glass.Looking into glass,Liar in glass. in Free Verse More Like This
The memories somewhat faded,
There lies he,
A liar, a traitor, an imposter,
That he infront of me,
The lie that lies there,
Infront of me,
Is the person in the glass,
That glass being a mirror,
And the liar being me.
She....She hides behind a veil of lies,She.... in Free Verse More Like This
They mask her tears and hide her troubles,
Her lips sewn together by fear,
She daren't speak out, not on her life,
Even when drowning in despair,
Even when burning under the pressure,
She wont dare call out for help,
Too scared to reveal her weakness,
Too troubled not to weave her lies,
Maybe she will slip out a hint,
A glimpse of what she really feels,
Although I doubt that.
Because that's the other side of me,
The side I'm too ashamed to let anyone see.
Afraid to be AliveI cannot open my eyesAfraid to be Alive in Free Verse More Like This
I am all alone
When my eyelids rise
My pain is awoken
My bleeding eyes see the pain of the world
Others suffering in silence
But their silent cries can be heard
If you have felt the pain
Of all a body can take
Then the tears of blood streak
Falling across my face
For the people who have asked
Why love, when heartbreak
Why trust, when it is always broken
What it means to feel, as if the world isn't real
Why am I so alone, outcast by the world
Why am I not superior, in some aspect
What can life mean, if each day runs the same cycle
How can we move on, through this pain
So we bleed
So we cry
So we die, on the inside
And scream in your head
Afraid to be alive
Realize the Real WorldWhy can't you realizeRealize the Real World in Free Verse More Like This
Words are not what need to be said
Talking is difficult when you're someone else
But no one understands
That this isn't me
And they think they know me
Who I am, who I was, what I want
They know nothing of me
They are blinded still
When I cleared their vision
This me, is nothing but fake
Created to fool the eye
And when I lead them to the truth
They stumble back to oblivion
Because they fear the truth
They fear what they don't understand
The truth is freeing
It kills and it burns, but
It frees the mind of question
And knowledge is filled
So why don't they accept what they know to be me
Instead they tell themselves
It is not me
Do they really believe, do they think
That they know me, as I know myself
They know nothing of the real me
To write love on his armsTo write..To write love on his arms in Free Verse More Like This
Love on his arms
Baby your my lucky charms
How can I say no
Of course, i'd love to go
Love on his arms
There's no betrayal here
To write love on his arms
The sheer pride
To call you mine
For this time
To write love on his arms
Tea PartyTea PartyTea Party in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
An Italian Sonnet by Remy
When I was younger, I had the best dreams
Everyone was my friend, no one was mean.
I got what I wanted, I was the queen.
In my wonderland where the blue sun gleams
Cups would be full as the tea always steams.
Against the pink colored trees we would lean,
And talk about all the great things we had seen.
We all stayed because the tea always teams.
But now that wonderland has turned to dust,
Sadly, innocence has become corrupt.
Losing such childish dreams is a must,
After all that is a part of growing up.
They will say it is fair, that it is just,
To leave the tea party with empty tea cups.
Wonderings of NothingsWe wonder if they know.Wonderings of Nothings in Free Verse More Like This
If they know what we went through,
About what we're going thorugh.
We wonder what they think of us.
What they dont say,
What they keep between themselves.
We wonder about the truth.
The truth of life, death and all in between.
Why are we here?
What are we ment to do?
Where are we to go?
How will we get there?
We wonder who we will be with.
We wonder what's after death.
We do not fear death,
We fear wondering what's after.
Death is simply just another journey,
But is it a journey we are willing to take?
For we are journeyless.
They don't know we wonder about death,
More than anything during life.
What is mthe meaning of life?
The meaning of life is to be successful.
The meaning of life is to work.
The meaning of life is to live.
The meaning of life is to die.
RemainWhy don't you just go and talk to her like the rest?Remain in Free Verse More Like This
I know you don't really care about me
So why pretend when I can already see?
You act so holy
And you need to see
That no matter what you try to change about me
It won't work.
I like my snide remarks
I like my blackened heart.
I like my hot headed attitude
And I like the way no one reads me right,
I like the way I am.
I like my sick
Twisted sense of humor
I like my anti-social tendencies.
I like being the cold one
The cruel one
The one no one wants to see.
Because that's me.
And sometimes I don't want to change,
And I don't want to be better.
Never will I change.
Never for you.
I will always
Remain the same.
OutshoneCan you see me now?Outshone in Free Verse More Like This
The clouds are gone, and the brilliance of the sky leaves me
And the light is unlike anything Ive experienced before.
And still Im outshone
By those whove seen the sun and stolen its radiance, and fabricated for themselves an artificial starlight, to attract the attention of celestial gods
Such as yourself.
Can you see me now? Im the brightest I can be, but the reflection of the sunset
Isnt good enough.