Only sun, Only lightOnly sun only light
Only day to the night
Way too much
Way too long
Spent all life
Way too far
Only sun only light
Only day moves to the night
Only one for only her
And all over again
Do not belong
Only sun only light
Summer to autumn
Wishing to die
Story speaks for itself
Lost endless quest
Time will never pretend
Only light goes back to the end
Not a writerToday I took my pencilNot a writer in Free Verse More Like This
And started to think
Now what should I write about?
I'm sick of it
Too boring to read
I'm done with it
I lie on the floor and start to sing
Something so sad and something so sweet
No need to write it down
But nothing about
Melody is quite simple
As it comes from the heart
You might think I'm tearful
But no, I am not
Too many reasons why I'm here
Too many questions unrelieved
So many people should just leave
Away, get vanished, disappear
I'm still holding pencil in my hand
Not writing, not trying to understand
But I'm singing to feel something new
Something weird, something so good
I'm not a writer and I don't know how to write
though all my life is one big poem, one big fight
But I'm still singing
This melody in me
And it sounds so perfectly
Forgive me please
Forgive me for this
But I'm not a writer
Just one big dreamer...
Paper inked with loveI used to write so many thingsPaper inked with love in Free Verse More Like This
I used to smile, I used to sing
I used to be so very happy
I used to be
And then you trapped me
The piece of paper
On the table
A little story
Of a traitor
On the purest heart
To lie about
I was the paper
You were the words
You violate me
So I got lost
I am the memory
You are the ghost
I won't be treasuring
You inked the paper
You inked my soul
It won't get better
It won't let go
They will retell this story
The piece of paper gonna burn to ash
And we will shine in endless glory
But it will never heal this painful gash
Taste meTaste meTaste me in Free Verse More Like This
Lick the poison of my skin
Don't try to compensate
I won't let you win
Drown in me
I taste like the ocean
I'll corrupt you with waves
I'll set you into motion
Don't you love me?
Don't you need me?
I know I don't
Don't you want me?
You're stupid if so
Wreckage of my life
Perfect set for yours to start
I taste like wine
Rich and old
and so goddamn fine
I'll penetrate your veins
and shatter your mind
No reason why
I'd give myself to you
But then again, why would I?
Cocaine heartI just rideCocaine heart in Free Verse More Like This
Slowly into the night
Wind in my hair
I'm driving nowhere
Mile after mile
I slowly ride
Enjoying my life
Life on the road
I keep dreaming on
No one to stop me
No one to say I live my life wrong
So I keep on driving
Searching for the parts of my soul
Day after day, night after night
I'm living it on the wild side
Perfectly balanced and matched
This cocaine heart of my life
One hundred percent pure
Loaded completely with fuel
Beating with rhythm of a psycho
Trembling like leaf under the wind
Who cares how fast I am driving
This crazy life belongs to me
No map to be followed
No goal to be reached
No today, no tomorrow
I'm just chasing my dream
My cocaine heart
My soul and my life
My heart is rainingHatred consumes meMy heart is raining in Free Verse More Like This
But I only hate myself
What a waste
Such a shame
I am nothing
Not worth a name
And him and her
And all of them
But that's ok
It's not like I give a damn
I deserved this pain
My life in vain
After all, it's just a game
But my heart
Is still alive
Beating, breathing, living
Hurting, crying, grieving
Not for me
But for those I hurt
Those I made cry
To those I lied
So many times...
My heart bleeds for them
In the stillness
For me ...
But it's ok
I deserve this pain
But my heart is raining
Loudly into the night
It prays to be heard
Prays to be unfold
To be free
Prays to be loved
My heart is raining
Asking for the savior
Begging for the light
In the hands of the night
Trapped in my hatred
My heart needs saving
It hurts how fast it beats
Locked inside of me
It just needs to be free...
My heart is raining
Please, save it for me...
I can'tI can’t. I simply can’t write.I can't in Free Verse More Like This
I’m lost; I’m out of my mind.
I’m stuck between this and another line.
I want to cry but I don’t know why.
I can’t. I can’t write.
I can’t even force myself to try.
But I want to write. I want to fill this paper with words.
I want to write about everything in the world.
I want to feel the satisfaction of letting go my heart, my soul, my every thought.
I want to. But I can’t.
It’s not writer’s block, and it’s not the lack of muse or inspiration,
it’s nothing but a pure devastation.
I search for the words which not meant to be found,
I’m lost in the emptiness and I can’t find way out,
every line that I write fades away without a sign
and I want to cry but I’m not even able to do that.
No one understands lonely poet that screams into the night,
no one understands lonely girl that hides from the light,
no one seem to understand or care,
no one is out there a
I'm not brokenI’m not brokenI'm not broken in Free Verse More Like This
I don’t have a second part
I am whole
Like I was from the start
I have one heart
And blood in my veins
I won’t fall apart
From the things you say
I have these eyes
And they’re unique
They tell no lies
Only what you seek
I have this soul
But it’s dark inside
It reflects my world
It shows you my life
I have this road
Though I have no love
I don’t need salvation
I have my choice
It belongs to me
And my own voice
Will set me free
After darkEvery single night I read your scarsAfter dark in Free Verse More Like This
They tell me stories of your life
I read them slowly, discovering your world
Reopening old wounds, healing broken soul
You’re a stranger, looking for some peace
Craving for some love, longing for embrace
Needing of support, praying for the light
Asking for solace in the hands of the night
Sorrow is your lover, pain’s the only friend
No place to stay forever, you’re homeless all the way
Hope doesn't work and neither does belief
All your life been running, looking for relief
Time won’t heal the scars you've gained but you will live
Pain won’t go away but in time you will forgive
Love won’t give you only joy but you will learn to feel
Life won’t be a happy fairytale but it will be with me
Hate meWhy can't you say it?Hate me in Free Verse More Like This
Is it so hard?
I won't be blaming
You just need to start
Say it, say it out loud
Why do you hate me?
What I've done to that?
But you stay speechless
Hiding eyes from me
You won't show your weakness
At least not in front of me
Tell me, where we went wrong?
How this can be happening?
Why hate appeared instead of love?
Why your eyes keep judging me?
I can't bear it, I want you to say it
Need to know, need answers to hear
Please, just say why do you hate me?
Open my eyes to the truth I can't see
You hate me for the reason I don't know
What happened, what happened to our love?
I'm standing speechless with my blood getting cold
You left me saying I'll understand someday on my own
To die for ...Before I close my eyes I'll whisper your nameTo die for ... in Free Verse More Like This
So I can be sure I'm not yet insane
I pull the trigger, I slice the knife
To make sure I feel alright
My love brings me to the end
And I'm not ready, not ready yet
Without screaming I will cut the pain inside me
For my last trip I will try to fight it
Burning candle burns like burning soul
I didn't make it, I couldn't make it on my own
I'm doomed to fail, losing my own faith
I can't take it, I can't go through this again
Without hesitation I'll die for you
But I don't want you to die for me too
I want you to live, want you to breathe
Don't want your life to be close to the cease
Through redemption I will go again
And I'll be melted by the pouring rain
But when the death finally will knock into my door
I won't be scared I already know what I'll die for
I Am So SorryI am so sorry for what I do to you.I Am So Sorry in Free Verse More Like This
I just can't help some of what I do.
I can tell in your eyes, you're in pain.
In your shoes, I would be the same.
I wish I could show, how much you mean to me.
When you look at me, I wonder what you see.
I want to say it's over; do it no more.
In my head I'm fighting a terrible war.
I promise I'm trying as hard as I can.
Please believe me. I promise I am.
You still accept me; hold me tight.
It will be tough, but I will win the fight.
I hope you know how much I really care.
I can't believe that you're still there.
Meant To BeTake back some of your love.Meant To Be in Free Verse More Like This
I'm not an angel for above.
Of all the flaws that you see,
Not a single one you find in me.
You're in a circle of self hate.
Can't you see that I inflate?
What I'd do to make you smile;
I'll try it once in a while.
Kiss and hug is all you could ask.
So I make up a destructive task.
Cut you open, make you bleed.
I'm the poison on which you feed.
Somehow I'm amazing to you.
Does it even matter what I do?
Self esteem is way too low,
But punishment is all I know.
Trying to curb my sadistic ways
Or you won't survive many days.
Why can't love just be easy?
Are we really meant to be?
More Than Anyone BeforeThere's never been a loveMore Than Anyone Before in Free Verse More Like This
Like the one you have for me.
I'm floating; I'm surrounded.
Your love is all I feel.
I just can't comprehend
Why it's bestowed upon me.
I don't deserve
Everything that you are.
But even so
I know that it's true.
You'd do anything for me.
You've already done so much.
I wish so much I could say
My love is the same,
But my hearts been broken
By a lover before.
There's so much
That I would do for you.
But I can promise you
I love you
More than I've loved anyone before.
Showing YourselfShowing yourself doesn't make you weak.Showing Yourself in Free Verse More Like This
I'll give you exactly what you seek.
This vulnerability is a part of you.
There isn't anything you can do.
I'm only here to give you help.
Don't have to do it by yourself.
It doesn't matter what you say.
I promise that I'm here to stay.
When you find it's hard to breathe,
Let me be there to relieve.
Want you to know I don't think less.
Only you think that you're a mess.
Please, I just want to be here.
I really do love you, dear.
EnvyThey say that envy's wrong.Envy in Free Verse More Like This
It burns right through you,
Consumes your time,
Effects everything you do.
But I just can't help
The envy that I feel.
You don't even know
My thoughts you steal.
Straight A's just come.
You don't have to try.
While I work so hard
Just to get by.
Yes, I do burn
When you are so smart.
I'm not ashamed
Of the envy in my heart.
I Still BleedDagger's out, but I still bleed.I Still Bleed in Free Verse More Like This
On my heart you unknowingly feed.
When is it I'll be whole?
You're not the owner of my soul.
It's getting better til I sink.
Why do I have to think?
I just want to be safe,
But have no hiding place.
Thoughts will always follow.
They burrow and make me hollow.
So I run as far as I can go.
Maybe the thoughts won't know.
Now You'll SeeNo words come out;Now You'll See in Free Verse More Like This
Trapped in my head.
What am I feeling?
It doesn't stop.
I'll make it stop.
Can't do this;
Only one option.
No way to explain;
You'll never understand.
Now you'll see.
ObsessionYou are my obsession.Obsession in Free Verse More Like This
Source of my depression.
One that I crave.
Love that is depraved.
I still hold on to.
I would die for you.
Even if you're not here.
My mind just won't clear.
Only one I want.
Mentally I attack.
I'd still take you back.
Glad you disappeared.
Return I feared.
Walk through my door.
Want you even more.
Wonder if I'll heal.
Was this even real?
You Think You're LuckyYou think you're lucky.You Think You're Lucky in Free Verse More Like This
So happy to have me.
But I don't understand,
What it is you see.
You're so smart,
And funny and sweet.
Compliments and smiles
Every time we meet.
Don't you see I'm crazy.
Parts I can't control.
You'll never have my heart,
At least not in full.
I've already hurt you.
It won't be the last.
If I were you I'd leave.
Run away fast.
Why aren't you leaving?
I just don't get
That look in your eye.
Why you feel this way,
I don't understand.
But I'll make sure to keep it
Anyway I can.
I Love YouI don't know you, but I love you.I Love You in Free Verse More Like This
This isn't something you have to do.
I see you staring at that knife,
Thinking about ending your life.
I don't know what's made you bitter,
But please just reconsider.
You are loved no matter what.
No ifs, ands, or buts.
I just want to see you smile.
I know it might take a while.
Remember that someone cares.
I wish that I could be there.
I'll talk whenever you need me,
No matter what it may be.
I may not know what to say,
But I can listen any day.
Just remember you're not alone.
Let my love always be known.
You.Why is it so hard for me to tell you.You. in Free Verse More Like This
That I adore you.
That I am a mess really.
That all I look forward to doing.
Is talking to you.
At this point I would do anything to tell you.
How much I do.
But of course my nervousness continues to shake me away.
From what I want.
I will keep trying.
I will keep trying.
SensesI am happySenses in Free Verse More Like This
Can't you see?
My mind seems to have nothing but the simple thoughts of you in them
~Wondering if you are okay-wounder if you would like this.
My nose takes the scent of you, as you walk past me each and every time
~Giving a friendly smiles as you do this~
My eyes just seemed to be glued to you, drawn into your brown eyes
~Taking in your features- almost drawing my own mental picture of you~
My lips speak nothing but you
~"How are you today?"~
My hand touches you and gives me butterflies and a deep sense of warmth
Can't you see.
That you are almost all of me already.
Trusted SecretThe words you said belong only to meTrusted Secret in Free Verse More Like This
I won't let anyone have them
I will protect them, cherish them
People will ask over and over again
So they can dig up your past
So it can define you
I am not one of them, can't you see?
I am not hiding behind a mask of falsehood.
I am right here
There is no one else
I am always here to help carry the burden you are so desperate to hide
You just got to let me.
I am always here for you_
Sudden Realization.Sudden RealizationSudden Realization. in Free Verse More Like This
I finally faced the fact that you don't love me
I don't know why it took me so long to see
Your actions, your words
Yes they were my cure
But I soon saw the hidden meaning behind them
I know you were only trying to help
To save me from myself
But really I am now much to vain/selfish
To let you continue this
I am not saying stop talking to me
Because that is far away from what I want
I fell in love with you
But please understand, I don't want to be apart of a schedule
Of your caring
Keep in mind I love you so much
In fact I always will
But see me for me
Not what you know I can (and should) be
Words of GlassWords of GlassWords of Glass in Free Verse More Like This
You got what you wanted
I can't believe I trusted you
Not only that but I gave you the chance
I done with chances
This time I am not turning back
Of course you will think:
"She will come back-she always has"
I am done
Playing your game, believing your lies.
Have a good life, without me in it.
(not like you cared much to begin with....)
My Only.Here I am talking to youMy Only. in Free Verse More Like This
This smiling person who has it way to bad for you
The only way at times I feel whole is near you
The only person I look forward to seeing is you
The one that I want to watch grow is you
The one I feel is deserving of everything is you
Every sentence I seem to say ends with you
So naturally it would be good to say:
I Love You. <3
Can you Feel Me?I wait, for each timeCan you Feel Me? in Free Verse More Like This
We meet gazes..
When we do it feels as though
it is lasting forever.
I resist the urge
To smile for fear that you will
look away at that momenet.
You're stong gaze makes it hard
To look away.
It almost as you are looking through me.
At times I am almost too afraid
to look back at you.
I STILL want to talk to you...
Is it the same for you?
Now.I see what I want.Now. in Free Verse More Like This
I now know what I need.
It took me forever to see
It has been you, and it always has been.
I have tried my hardest to look past it.
To cross out what I knew to be true.
But I can't go around it any longer.
What a weakling that I have become...
That I can't tell you.
Forgive the corniness.
This is become more than just a fondness of you.
Did I Lose it?I remember this, better than I shouldDid I Lose it? in Free Verse More Like This
I try and forget, erase it from my mind
But it comes back-just as I knew it would
I become frightened because the very thing I am hiding from is myself
I wish I could tell you this
That I am crazy and you should stop wasting your time
But everything in me wants you to still be around me
I know now though, that you don't plan on leaving me
But this sickness-this evil in me
Will not accept the fact that you will be there for me
But as I write this-almost in a pleading voice
Please don't leave me...
Here I am.I walk past you and you look at me with those eyes.Here I am. in Free Verse More Like This
That seem to stop time.
I have been hit with your stare.
I often wounder what you think about when you see me.
Annoying? Ugly? Spaz? Pretty? Nice?
I simply want to know what it would be.
I would not be angry or sad that you feel any of those things.
Because if you did that would be proof enough that you have been acknowledging me.
Would there be a chance that you wounder about me?
I sure hope so.
Because not many people, mean well when they do.
Insane!!!I'm scared, I'm so alone,Insane!!! in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Your heart is made of stone
Is this what you desire?
To set my heart on fire?
And now I'm so in pain!
You're driving me insane!
I'm here, I want to see you,
It drives me mad, I need you!
I'm staring at your eyes,
Your face cold as ice
You're putting on dark glasses,
Behind I feel your flashes!!
And now I'm so in pain!
You're driving me insane-insane-insane!!!
I'm here, I'm scared and lonely,
I feel that I'm the only!
I'm trembling on your voice,
I hear it inside the noise!
You enslave my eyes and ears!
Control my breath and fears!!
And now I'm so in pain!
You're driving me insane!!!
I'm here on my own,
I'm feeling like a clown
You rule my breath and feeling,
There is no hidden meaning!
Your move and sexuality
Disturbed my hall normality!!!
And now I'm so in pain!
You're driving me insane!!!
I'm here again in silence,
There is no great science!
You robbed me of my life
And cut it like a knife!
You stole my mind and feeling,
There is no inner meaning!
Treat me like a beastTreat me like a beastTreat me like a beast in Free Verse More Like This
and I'll fight back as a beast.
It's simple, action-reaction.
Treat me like a beast
and I'll still be your guardian angel.
The Boy And The Butterfly (Alt)Once upon,The Boy And The Butterfly (Alt) in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
so back in time,
When creature, beast and bird and;
could all be shaped like human,
there was a little butterfly,
And as every buttefly
she would live for just one day;
and then die...
She met a boy,
the boy loved her,
He didn't know
and he asked her
"Is it true?
You'll die today?
So I was told,
So they say!"
He scared the little butterfly...
She found the owl, the wise owl,
To ask if true, to ask why
"You are just a butterfly,
It is true, by moon you die."
And it was true, so sad she'll die.
But gods were watching
from up, high,
A butterfly shouldn't cry
A butterfly should just live her life in joy,
A butterfly should just live her day in joy.
So the little was reborn,
As human now
would live and die,
A girl was born,
It was a present from the gods,
as I was told from teachers old.
She lived again,
life was joy,
One day again
met the boy
The boy felt,
He didn't speak,
in darkness cried
Loved her again,
Now was a girl,
WishCardLet the rays of the sunWishCard in Free Verse More Like This
Bring happiness and light into your house,
Let the sun bring you lovely gifts.
Let your heart's music free,
Let your smile to light up your face.
I wish you happiness and joy.
A Chance?A Chance?A Chance? in Free Verse More Like This
If noone gives you a chance for a long time,
then when you are finally given one,
most of the times, you gonna fail.
And you'll ask for a second one,
but you don't deserve it,
because out there there are many like you
still awaiting the first one.
Don't Ask For A Chance, Demand What You Need.
For Eros?For Eros?For Eros? in Free Verse More Like This
Some time in the past, without being asked,
I started thinking
And finally I just felt
Words poetic for Eros,
from a poet, aren't worthy.
I don't really know,
If I was or not,
but they called me so.
So I simply felt
that such words would be Worthy,
Only if the poet, even a bad one,
was born from Eros.
Maybe they are wrong
and I was just born now for you.
Maybe I am wrong.
However For Eros
Nothing I had written,
Nothing I had shared
Nothing I had kept.
Till I met You!
Like a present by God,
Your view was revealed to my eyes.
There's nothing ever appeared to me more beautiful!
There's nothing ever appeared to me as cute!
Open WoundBroken dreams in lovers room,Open Wound in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Pain's flowing in the air,
She's so perfect, my doom,
Pain's growing, I don't dare.
ACHILLESBound To Ride To Troy's Wall,ACHILLES in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Heading For The Fight,
Gods Will Never Know!
Day By Day, There's No Fear,
An Army On His Own,
Day By Day, There's No Fear,
Courage Has No Flaw!
Demigod with royal blood,
Master of the fight,
Demigod with royal blood,
Honour! Valour! Pride!
Year By Year, There's No Fear,
An Army On His Own,
Year By Year, There's No Fear!
He Can't Be A Pawn!!!
"The girl I've earned with my sword,
Rightfully is mine!
No fight! No word!
Till again mine!"
Demigod with royal blood,
Master of the fight,
Demigod with royal blood,
Not a step behind!
Leader of the Myrmidones,
No one defies,
Commander of the Myrmidones,
Only! He! Decides!
Trojans now they attack,
Full of courage fight,
No Achilles, No luck,
Table's turned, now changed side!
Patroclus, in place, he died,
Mourning mixed with rage!
Hector's brave, he won't hide,
Duellists on stage!!!
Crossing swords, the sound of steel,
"Victory Is Mine!"
Crossing swords, the sound of steel!
Hector's falling! Dying!!
The Last SoldierThe Last Soldier in Free Verse More Like This
The Last Soldier
The world was changed forever.
Even though, after all these,
the two generals
the one against the other,
with the same arrogance as before,
like nothing ever happened.
He was still wearing
his helmet and his mask.
He knew what he has to do;
The real enemy was revealed.
but they were both so blind;
The Last Soldier.
Parallel IIParallel IIParallel II in Free Verse More Like This
I'm dying along with myself,
Always on the same nightmares,
Without being able to help me,
But only to wake,
If I succeed, so.
And when I wake up,
I feel worst,
Because I'm tired
and even more alone.
that feeds me and kills me
at the same time,
Always leading me
to do again the same mistakes
and I feel worst,
Because I can't wake up,
Neither I want to sleep.
My kind of love.I want the kind of love that forms colourful wings in my stomach. Wings that fly in circles because they're disorientated from my hearts heavy beating.My kind of love. in Free Verse More Like This
I want the kind of love that's so radiant, I can't even bare to look in its direction without closing my eyes first–– it burns brighter than the sun.
A love that scares the fear out of my life, making anything possible again.
A love that regresses two adults back into kids, playing hide and seek with their future.
I want the kind of love that's a Sunday in the middle of the week –– inconvenient.
A kind of love that dances at a funeral –– inappropriate.
Love that's a muse to an artist –– inspiring.
The kind of love that's a .44 magnum revolver in a trunk of BB guns –– authentic.
Love that sparkles in the dark like pearls around the moons neck.
Love that speaks in tongues possessed by the spirit our two souls create.
Love that regenerates like a phoenix, and flies us on it's back
His and her love."Don't let go", he said,His and her love. in Free Verse More Like This
she complied, as he bled.
"I love you more than life,
my one and only; my wife.
––Don't cry for me baby,
just promise to never forget me"
She wept and held him tight,
shaking, in the cold of night.
She pulled out the blade,
his vision began to fade.
"I refuse to let you go,
you know that you're my beau.
Stay with me… right now,
don't leave me like this…how?
I can't love you more than this,
nothing comes close to when we kiss.
WE have to be kept alive!,
let's BOTH fall and take the dive!
you and me… in the dark…
forever igniting…our spark…
I said I'd die for you, I meant it."
tears fell down his face as she said it.
"It has all lead up to this instant,
you and I, our existence...
We'll rise up to the sky,
we'll be together when we die.
Just me… and you,
Forever in my heart.
you are my missing part."
She grabed the knife on the floor,
and lay still, by his side forever more.
"I love yo
Let me be your poem.Let me melt the cold pain from your skin, transform into the sun and heat your hurt––so it evaporates into white clouds of hope that inspires the trees to sway.Let me be your poem. in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Let me touch you like the first story I've ever read in brail, after deciding to go deaf before letting another sound replace your voice.
Let me shatter every tiny ounce of doubt from your being, using the weight of my love for you–– to demolish it's once relevant place in your thoughts.
Let me carve holes in to the night sky, so you can see how my universe revolves solely around you, making the moon shine bright with jealousy.
Let me fly you to the nearest nebula, so we can finally be as high as this love makes me feel.
Let me drive you crazy like a mirage in a desolate desert, making you crave it so much you imagine it in front of you, dying for a taste.
Let me be the sun to warm you and you can be the rain to cool us down, and we can make the sky blush a million different colours.
Let me be the baseli
Anxious.I retire from the crowd, feeling kinda strange.Anxious. in Free Verse More Like This
This anxiety is drowning me, somethings gotta change.
I gotta get in my mind's soul and start to rearrange––
your confidence for my sadness, care for an exchange?
This loneliness has company,
Gaining on me subtly,
I'm handing out custody,
I'm left with nil––utterly.
I think about tomorrow; wasting my today.
Already feel broke, before I even gotta pay.
I hear what I wanna hear, not what you have to say.
Losing bits of self; as I try and make my way.
This stressing is messing––
maybe it's a blessing;
dressing up depressing.
Trying to fool me, as it's assessing––
keeping me on my toes daily; guessing.
I need a change, now
I want to be the cause of "wow"
Just give me a go; allow,
I'll be the answer to your "how".
© Rocio Belinda Mendez
Distant.I realise it all, but I can't seem to follow through.Distant. in Free Verse More Like This
I'm biting the bullet, but i've bitten off more than I can chew.
These days are copies, all i'm getting are paper cuts.
Sick of reading the prologue, getting stuck in familiar ruts.
Making the same mistakes; time and time again.
What disappoints me in the end; I have no one to blame.
Things are crystal clear one day, the next a distant blur.
In complete disagreement one moment, suddenly I concur.
Why all the confusion? damn this feeling is persistent.
Everything at my finger tips, yet still so fucking distant.
© Rocio Belinda Mendez
InvertI think most of us should work on inverting our lives. We’re too preoccupied as a western society (I’ll only speak for what I know). Too preoccupied and distracted to notice what we’re actually noticing. The things we tend to focus on can be condensed into two brackets. (Money) –– which can comprise of work, saving, providing for your family/friends, getting security for yourself and those you love, gaining materialistic worth that make the every day life easier. And finally consumables; which in this case would be food, clothes, shelter, water, and basic resources.Invert in Philosophical More Like This
Another thing we focus on that can be condensed into a somewhat fidgety bracket is (distraction). Active distraction from the essence of life, from the pulse in your wrist, neck and heart. From the energy surrounding you, from the vital questions that linger on throughout the course of a life. This category can be difficult because something that is distraction to one person when used cor
How did I love you?How did I love you?How did I love you? in Free Verse More Like This
Intensely, immensely, densely to the point of stupid, I think the naked baby had it in for me, little cupid.––Struck me with the bow, the poison started slow, then it caught momentum and began to grow, took over like a ball of snow, quite the blow, but now I know, it was just a once-upon-a-time-ago.
How did I love you?
Let me count the ways, actually let me count the days, the overnight stays, wakin' up to blaze, to sustain a decent daze–– I guess we'll chalk it down to just a phase.––
That lasted years, building fears releasing tears, downing beers, forcing happiness back in gear, oh dear, the end is near, afraid to see us clear––
Incase we saw, our frozen love, began to thaw, yet we stuck around for more.––
We were happy, unless we weren't, too close to the flame, we got burnt, it took us years, we finally learnt––
To call it quits, it was on the fritz, no longer fit–
A stranger walked up to me today...A man walked up to me and asked me for a cigarette… I told him I didn't smoke anymore, and he asked me why? ––I answered "because the person I used to smoke with, isn't around anymore", and he replied…"that's why I smoke."A stranger walked up to me today... in Free Verse More Like This
A woman walked up to me and asked me for drugs, I replied "I have several in store…his eyes, his smile, his hands"…she whispered, "that's not a drug"…and I laughed as I said.. "if only you knew."
A child walked up to me today and asked me to play a game, I told them I was too tired to play games, i'd been playing for years, they replied…"then you must be a pro!", to which I said "yes…a pro at losing."
An old woman stared at me today, and I asked her…"is something wrong?" she answered "I was about to ask you the same question."
© Rocio Belinda Mendez
TeachTeach how to read, not what to read.Teach in Free Verse More Like This
Teach how to speak, not what to say.
Teach how to love, not who to love.
Teach how to think, not what to think.
Teach how to be, not who to be.
Teach how to listen, not what to listen to.
Teach how to stand, not what to stand for.
Teach how to write, not what to write.
Teach how to admire, not what to admire.
Teach how to fight, not who to fight.
Teach how to laugh, not what to laugh at.
Teach how to question, not what to question.
Teach how to accept, not what to accept.
Teach how to succeed, not what to succeed in.
Teach how to follow, not who to follow.
© Rocio Belinda Mendez
Our Words.Epilogues before prologues––Our Words. in Free Verse More Like This
These stories only make sense in reverse.
Tear-tainted-table tops, where tattered pages fly.
An abandoned desk overlooks the open window, what a breathtaking view.
A homely typewriter nests the ultimate-– in it’s inanimate soul.
Shards of sunlight seep through the pale meshed curtains, flying playfully with the inked pages.
We write and die tonight.
We write and die tonight.
We’re all just stories, aren’t we?
Some are long, others short, some crazy and others mundane.
The thing is, we’re also the authors.
Life’s just inspiration, isn’t it?
––For the final masterpiece; act three.
We write and die tonight.
We write and die tonight.
© Rocio Belinda Mendez
Beautiful.They say I’m beautifulBeautiful. in Free Verse More Like This
Because of the way my crystalline heart reflects light off its fractured surface
Well, that isn't a reflection
It’s rejection of the light because it’s all too much to handle
Throw myself away into the dark without even a candle
‘Cause I don’t want to recognize all the pain I’m in
Or realize the truth behind what I am or who I've been
And I tried to make things right but I just keep on making wrong
I never listened to the angel on my shoulder when she called
I count my tears like they’re experience
And my scars like they’re mysterious
And that’s a feeling I’ll remember –
Watching as you left
Watching as you ended what was meant to be forever
And I can see it in their eyes; everyone can empathize
So they say that I’m beautiful because they don’t know what else to say.
But if being broken is beautiful, then it’s the ugliest way...
If Ever I Lost YouWhat weighs on your mind?If Ever I Lost You in Free Verse More Like This
What's taking up your time?
You tell me not to worry and you swear you're really fine
Please open up to me
Tell me of your fears
You know I'll kiss the scars and I'll wipe away your tears
Don't keep it to yourself
You know you're not alone
I couldn't live my life without you ever coming home
I'd be so lost inside
I wouldn't recognize
The person that I see in the reflection of your eyes
Just tell me you're okay, and that you love me too
I don't know what I'd do
If ever I lost you…
Wonder.Do you fear your own death?Wonder. in Free Verse More Like This
Is it hard to conceive?
Draw in your last breath, then-
Your last breath will leave.
Isn't it strange to think,
That there's a timer above your head?
A countdown you can't see,
That finishes when you're dead.
Don't you ever wonder,
What it'll be like when you're gone?
I bet the world will keep on spinning.
There will be another dawn.
But the harsh reality behind it-
We're all going to die.
There's no reason to try to fight it
Not even to question why.
It makes me wish that I could have a little more to give,
Because I'm not afraid of how I'll die...
I'm afraid of how I'll
Awareness.She writes such lovely poemsAwareness. in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
But nobody really cares
She hides them all the time
To avoid the judging stares
She wrote one yesterday
About a boy who said he loved her
But to her own dismay
She caught him with another
She wrote one about school
And the words painted on her locker
“No one likes you, stupid bitch.
You’re lucky I’m at soccer.”
She wrote about her parents
And how she wished they were together
But she knows that won’t ever happen
And forgetting’s probably better
Yes, she writes such lovely poems
But there’s so much more to this
See, her pencil is a razor
And the paper is her wrist.
Please Come Home...I've not grown used to this...Please Come Home... in Free Verse More Like This
I'm not used to being alone...
And I've had enough of it...
For too long I've been without you...
I have so much to say...
Will I ever get the chance...?
I long for our forever...
To stay lost in our romance...
And I've not grown used to this!
I'm not used to being alone!
I miss our everything!
Won't you please, come
I miss our everything...
The warmth of your embrace...
The way you'd hold me...
The way you made me feel safe...
I long to feel you once more...
And taste the sweet of your kiss...
I want how it was just before...
We were seperated like this...
Cause I'll not get to used to it!
Used to you being gone!
And I miss our everything!
Won't you please, Darling,
Won't you -please- come
Since You've Been GoneYou take my hand and you whisper to me,Since You've Been Gone in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
"Darling, I love you and I promise I'll never leave..."
I look to you and without missing a single beat,
I say, "You were my missing piece, now I'm finally complete."
An involuntary smile spreads out across your lips,
And I can't help but smile as I lean in to taste your kiss...
Then the frame stops and it's stuck on this same scene;
My nights have been so haunted with the recurrence of this dream.
I always hope that I'll wake up and this dream will become true,
But I'm so tired of only dreaming...
Darling, I miss you...
And since you've been gone I've been wasting away,
Just trying to find meaning in every day,
I know that I won't, but I try anyway,
I just hope you'll come back and I hope that you'll stay...
Since you've been gone I've been all on my own,
Trying so hard not to pick up the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone,
But since you've been gone that's all that I've known...
(Since you've bee
Cowards Way OutDid you really think,Cowards Way Out in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
That taking the cowards way out,
Would prove anything,
Except all of our worst fears?
Did you even think,
About the ones that you have now?
And the pain that you'd bring,
If you were to leave them all here...?
Do you really think,
You're life is just so horribly unbearable,
That you need to take this knife,
And do something you know is terrible?!
How many times,
Have I told you it isn't worth it?
How selfish of you,
To expect your life to be picture perfect.
HurricaneI don't really knowHurricane in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
How all of this came to be
When I already know
She can do better than me
I feel like she's the desert
And whenever I hold her hand
I realize that makes me
Nothing more than a grain of sand
I can't help but ask myself
How is it that she's with me?
I'm just a mess when I'm alone
And I'm fucking up constantly
In every way, shape, and form
Like the calm of the night
Or like the eye of a storm
(And if that storm were to break...)
I always have the thought
That if people were rain
l would be just a drop
And she'd be the hurricane...
Hurts Like HeavenOh. My.Hurts Like Heaven in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
God, it hurts like heaven;
Longing for all your affection,
Every bit of your attention,
You're a divine intervention.
In this life that's turned to hell.
I can't help it when I reminisce,
In moments that are just like this,
I remember when we had our kiss,
And now how much I really miss,
The times when we weren't separated,
Were the best memories that I've created,
To reunite is long awaited,
I feel like I'm incarcerated,
In my own personal hell.
I can't help it when I think of you...
I hope one day we'll say "I do."
But for now I have to struggle through,
Until the day I get to you...
It won't be long, love, I know we'll be fine...
So, darling, stay strong and keep your hand held in mine...
I'll never let you go and I'll always make amends...
I'll hold on to you forever, or until forever ends...
Social PhobiaPeople scare meSocial Phobia in Free Verse More Like This
this world is a scary place
why is everyone staring at me?
They must think I'm not worth it
Hiding alone in the corner
crying my heart out
why is this world a scary place?
Why am I hiding all alone?
There is no true feeling
no fear that i ever had
a feeling of restlessness
a feel of hate and disgust
Why is it crowded around here?
why are they all looking at me?
I can't control these emotions
I need to hide from this world for good
True loveFrom the first day we started talkingTrue love in Free Verse More Like This
i knew that there was a bond going on
I knew that one day you will be mine
forever and always
Than i started getting to know you
and i found out i had feelings for you
from the day we first met
i knew that i fell in love with you
I love your gorgeous eyes
and hugging you
if i could
i would hug you and never let go
I knew this was love
from high above
the moment i have fallen in love
was the moment i knew it was true
I started getting to know you
and everything about you
i thought that we can work this out
especially since we have so much in common
Now we are finally in love
and you have finally reached my heart
a heart for you
and i wont let anybody get in the way
Cause i love you so dearly
and you mean something to me
more than anybody that ever knows
and to me this is what i called
and forever will be
until the very end
of our living lives <3
I am Fine...I say I'm fineI am Fine... in Free Verse More Like This
when it was always a lie
I hide deep inside my mask
where the pain is hidden inside
Nobody knows what is real
Nobody knows the truth
I will leave this world
as it was always meant to be
A life full of lies
a life full of hate
I want to be forgotten...
than all this pain will go away
I hide deep within myself
Lying to myself all along
I am not fine in this world
Deep inside I am drowning in sorrow...
I want to scream to the world
Tell everybody how I really feel
Will anybody truly understand?
Or even care for that matter..
I am lying to hide this pain
a pain of sorrow and misery
Nobody knows how I truly feel
Cause I am forgotten in this world
My face shows different emotions
than the pain I feel deep inside
I am "Fine" in this life
while deep inside I'm truly dying...
Why am I here?I can no longer feel,Why am I here? in Free Verse More Like This
this pain any longer.
I can't wipe the tears,
that burns my face.
I can't hide from this world,
when I am lost, forever alone.
I wish someone would understand,
but I am alone dealing with the sadness.
Nobody seems to care,
the scars that made my life.
Nobody seems to understand,
the life that I have lived.
I try to be perfect,
but I am hopeless.
I am not wanted,
cause this world doesn't need a problem.
So why am I here?
Facing today and another tomorrow.
Why not end it all?
When this world would be a better place without me.
You're the ReasonYou're the reason I get up every dayYou're the Reason in Free Verse More Like This
You're the reason I smile, just knowing that you care.
You're the real reason I can love,
I can show passion when you are near in sight.
You're the truth, that lies within my life.
The moment we met, I knew this was love.
You're the reason, I can believe in myself.
You're the reason, I can live for another tomorrow.
You're the reason I say I love you,
when I never knew what love truly meant.
You're the reason I show myself in this world,
to prove that my life was never a mistake.
You're the reason I'll live my life,
to believe in myself, and to conquer this world.
You are the reason
That I'll live my life knowing you are there with me.
Does it ever go away?Everybody screamsDoes it ever go away? in Free Verse More Like This
swearing, yelling, hitting!
Does it ever go away?
feeling the pain on the inside
But does it ever go away?
Screaming in pleasure
hurting everyone in site
but does any of it ever die?
Nothing will change
nothing will get better
just screaming in pleasure
and crying in pain
Taunting one another
hurting everyone in sight
will this pain ever go away?
Nothing but pain
tears falling to the ground
will this life ever get better?
What about this cruel world?
Screaming at everyone
swearing every single word
Nothing but pain on the inside
feeling of nothing
but pain on the inside
Blood falling to the ground
with eyes of pain
All this pain
all this screaming
in this nightfall evening
when will this torture ever end?!
If OnlyIf only you understood,If Only in Free Verse More Like This
then maybe we could have a new start.
If only you saw the tears,
then maybe I could be able to move on.
If only you know how I feel,
maybe life could be better.
If only you knew what you meant to me,
then maybe I could call you a friend.
If you truly understand my pain,
then why can't we be friends again?
If you truly cared enough about me,
then why do you not see me as the real me?
If only you know the heaviness in my heart,
then maybe you can see that I truly care.
Where has our friendship gone?
Do you truly want to be my friend again?
Maybe one day life would be easier,
when you are finally in my life.
Maybe you will one day realize,
what our friendship truly meant
I need a friendI need a friendI need a friend in Free Verse More Like This
to understand what I went through
I need a friend
when I feel alone in this world
I need a friend like you
when things don't go my way
a friend that was there from the beginning
that never once left my side
I need a friend in this world
to not feel this pain anymore
I need someone like you in my life
but one day you walked away from me
All I need in this world
to always have a friend by my side
I used to have a friend in this world
but like everyone else
You walked away from me....
For EternityFor you I will live eternally,For Eternity in Free Verse More Like This
'Cause you are the one who is my destiny.
For you I will smile each day,
'Cause you are the one who gives me hope.
For you I will share this love I have,
'Cause you are the one who has never lied to me.
For you I will share my heart,
'Cause you are the one who has never broken it before.
For you I will share my life,
'Cause you are my beating heart.
For you I will love each day,
'Cause you are the one who completes my life.
When I'm with YouWhen I'm with youWhen I'm with You in Free Verse More Like This
everything seems to real
The moments that we cherish
will forever grow
Fate has kept us apart
but our hearts tell us otherwise
cause when I am with you
I feel so real to this world
These emotions that I feel
This love forever grows
Cause baby when I'm with you
You take my breath away.
The love that we cherish
the hearts are together
The moments that we forever share
will be with us for all eternal
I love you with all my heart
That is not a lie
Cause when I am with you
I know that there is a bright future ahead
They SayThey Say.They Say in Free Verse More Like This
They say there is always a silver lining.
But right now my future looks bleak.
They say the sky is the limit.
But my vision is blocked by a mountain peak
They say life is a game.
But I was never any good at hide and seek.
They say were all different.
But does that mean that were all unique.
They say everyone wants to win.
But I have no desire to compete.
They say there are plenty more fish in the sea.
But they didn't say whether the water's shallow or deep.
They say everyone is searching for the same answer.
But I have'nt got it in me to cheat.
They say I'm too negative.
But I know this also comes hand in hand with defeat.
They say a healthy mind is a healthy body.
But I'm not to obsessed with my physique.
They say some situations you must face, face to face.
But sometimes I am not willing to turn the other cheek.
They told me some day I'd be someone great.
But I know that's a promise they cant keep.
They say sometimes shit just happens.
But I've recently discovere
Standing AloneStanding Alone.Standing Alone in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I can't understand myself
Yet I can't stand myself
So I stand by myself
Because I can't be anyone else.
Good Bye FriendGood ByeGood Bye Friend in Visual & Found Poetry More Like This
Bags packed hastily on an un made bed.
Inactive blue tack firmly attached to the walls.
Earthly possessions compiled regrettably.
Unfortunate circumstances have been confirmed.
Your chariot has arrived to take you away.
The hardest part is yet to come.
I know our connection will weaken.
No matter how hard we try to cling on.
Change is something we cannot avoid.
Memories are all we have to hold on to.
Realities rewind button has been disabled.
This game can never be won.
Humour temporarily dilutes the situation.
Silence is the only language spoken.
Eyes exchange compromising glances.
Half hearted commitments announced.
Things will never be the same.
This equations amounts to a complicated sum.
As you stand In the door way about to exit.
Life's bank has withdrawn all the quality time we invested.
Hopeful plans for the future proclaimed.
Of which a fixed date can never be named.
I will miss you more than you ever know.
I've finally accepted the fact that you must go.
Nonet Four MaturityMaturityNonet Four Maturity in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
As I grow older I start to see.
This life for what it really is.
Death is unpredictable.
Success is not assured.
Pleasure is short lived.
Pain is promised.
Living a Lie.Living a Lie.Living a Lie. in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
You say things you don't mean when you're angry.
You call me a waste of space and that you can't stand me.
When the dust settles you say you don't mean it.
You say I should know better than to believe it.
As usual I foolishly upkeep your illusive hold on me.
I allow you to mute my thoughts and take control of me.
You promise and reassure me that it will never happen again.
That this is the last time and you will put it all to an end.
But I know promises only comfort fools,
Who readily allow others to pull the wool
Over our eyes because it is easier to swallow the lies.
Can it be a mistake if it happens more than twice?
Despite my preaching I can never take my own advice.
I've realised that this aggression is a part of you
And because I can never dare to part from you.
I have to believe the love you have for me is true.
Sometimes you have to take a lie not for what it is
But for the truth and reality it suspends.
Withdraw your vengeful tongue and revert it into a kiss.
The Person I Once KnewThe Person I Once KnewThe Person I Once Knew in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
We used to talk everyday.
Laughing, talking and spending time together.
I never thought me and you would stray.
I assumed we would be this close forever.
Now your number is never in use.
You're just a photo in my frame of mind.
It went from mutual respect to absolute abuse.
A bond like ours is difficult to find.
I occasionally think of you and wonder how your doing.
Wonder what you look like and if you still talk the same.
Imagine what your doing with life and what dreams you are pursuing.
Despite everything that happened my memories of you will always remain.
I knew you for a while and you made an impact on my life.
Sometimes I wish things could go back to how they once were.
Dry my tears and remove the jagged bloody knife.
Envision what my life would be like if that incident never occurred.
Would we still be close and have that same connection.
Maybe it wasn't meant to be we were destined for different things.
I just wish I got the chance to apologise and compl
SurvivalSurvival.Survival in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Give a man a fish he will eat for a day.
Teach a man to fish he will eat for a life time.
Give a man a gun he will rob a bank.
Give a man a bank he will rob the world.
We adapt and adjust.
Constantly dithering on the cusp
Of what is considered wrong and right,
Ensuring that our ambitions remain in sight.
We would be willing to do anything
In order to get what we truly desire.
We would be willing to risk everything
Even putting our friends in the line of fire.
We may share the bounty with others,
Allowing them to experience the fruitful taste.
Given the option we will even care for our brothers.
Just as long as we are well endowed with songs of praise.
We are opportunists.
We are convincing and ruthless.
We are the modern day Judas.
FragileFragileFragile in Free Verse More Like This
Is the glass half empty?
Or is it half full?
Is every glass the same?
Is the glass even there?
Or do we need it to be present?
What happens if the glass breaks?
Can it be repaired?
Who cleans it up?
Can it be easily replaced?
Is every glass made to be invaluable?
Is the glass made to be broken?
Does every glass have the chance to be full?
How long can a glass be filled for?
The level constantly fluctuates
We cant help but be affiliates
I cant find the words to enunciate?
I cant find the voice to communicate?
All we can do is appreciate
Can you reciprocate?
Free WillFree Will.Free Will in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Is free will a devout gift or a curse?
Was it free will that granted a desperate man to steal an old lady's purse?
Was it free will that resulted in multiple bodies carried in a hearse?
Was it free will that justified a police officer to shoot the accused first?
Was it free will that allowed a family man's mentality to be so perverse?
Could this world of ours get any worse?
Free will gives us the chance for all of us to be distinctive.
But as a consequence people can act corruptive and vindictive.
But without this choice, our lives would be constrained and restrictive.
Undoubtedly these two differing perspectives are contrasting and conflictive.
Without free will our actions and thoughts would be controlled and predictive.
But with this gift our proceedings maybe considered as harmful and afflictive.
Of course free will does has have it's varied betterments.
This advantage allows us to direct and assert our developing intelligence.
Despite using this intelligence for morally