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IanHecox's Diary - 24/06/12~Sunday ~ 08:35 ~ 24/06/12~IanHecox's Diary - 24/06/12 in General Fiction More Like This
Aaawwww!!! Most firetrucking adorable episode of Mail Time with Smosh filmed today! I bet all those crazy little fangirls will be pleased to see this one.
We haven't kissed on camera yet, neither admitted we're dating; but we filmed so many cushy little hugs and snuggles. Even I felt like suddenly giggling "asdfghjkl;asdfghjkl;!!!" like a little fangirl! Anthony can be the cutest little fluff ball sometimes (Why the hell did I just call him that?). It was kind of weird, because for the entire time I was lying on Anthony lap!
I wonder how much of all that he is going to cut out? Hopefully not too much; when I loo
IanHecox's Diary - 06/06/12~Wednesday ~ 09:52 ~ 06/06/12IanHecox's Diary - 06/06/12 in General Fiction More Like This
I'm sorry, Anthony, I didn't mean it. He wouldn't have told anyone; it didn't matter… so why did you have to?
Yes, Anthony went at me again. I accidentally let it slip to my twin, Adrian; Y'know, the yaoi thing. But you can trust him, right? Why did Anthony have to go full pelt with fists and elbows at me? And all in front of Adrian, too. I have never before had such a mix of horrible emotions; sad, scared, embarrassed, worried, pain, confusion.
Even through all this, I'm clinging on to him, never wanting to let go. But is that the right thing to do? Will he just hurt me more if I carry on? I need to know
IanHecox's Diary - 05/06/12~Tuesday ~ 22:41 ~ 05/06/12~IanHecox's Diary - 05/06/12 in General Fiction More Like This
Diary, I'm sorry I couldn't write anything yesterday; I was… busy…
Well, you know the yaoi thing with Anthony; there were more pictures, and there were questions… there were answers too. AH! Damn it, you're a book, what does it matter if I rant about Anthony in here? HE'S A FIRETRUCKING BITCH.
The thing is, though, he forced me not to tell anyone about the yaoi, or he'll… beat me… again. He said it would be like yesterday night, but worse. I might have to cut this entry short; my arm is bruised and I can't write very well.
The expression on his face when he said that really scared me;
There's Always Tomorrow - Ianthony~Anthony's POV~There's Always Tomorrow - Ianthony in Romance More Like This
*Click*
I heard the click of the front door handle; several short whimpers followed.
"Wh-wh-who's there?" I stuttered, cautiously making my way across the living room to the hall way. I had no clue who it was; being home alone as well didn't help either. More groans and sharp gasps could be heard as whoever it was plodded down the hall. It almost sounded as though they were hopping. There was then a horrible silence; I could tell the stranger was behind the wall, I could hear their breaths crack out of their throat. We stood, not moving, scared about who would take the first strike.
"Anthony!" Ian's body unexpectedly flung
Let Him BeTitle: Let Him BeLet Him Be in General Fiction More Like This
Author: FrostytheGlaceon
Genre: Angst to fluff?
Rating: 13
Authors notes: Pokemon bitches, oh and funeral and stuff.
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He was dead.
Dan's brother.
Dead.
Sobs and mumbling came from the crowd.
Hugs given, tears wiped, kisses to the cheek.
All that.
Phil looked at Dan silently, remembering how Dan found out about the death.
Phil heard the phone ringing from the distance, " Oh, hold on, let me get the phone. " Phil said, leaving Dan and the Pokemon behind on the floor. Phil picked up the phone and pressed it to his ear. " Hello? " Phil answered happily, not expecting what he wanted. Phil's expression suddenly changed, smiling to frowning. " Oh, uh, okay..." Phil quietly said into the phone, turning around back to Dan. Phil walked over to Dan with his shaky hands, not sure how Dan would take this. " H-here, it's for you. " Phil said, bending down to Dan and giving him the phone, standing back up and taking a few steps back. " Hello? " Dan asked confusedly, his eyes wid
Oh, Your Different As Well? Part 1Oh, Your Different As Well? Part 1 in Romance More Like This
Title: Oh, Your Different As Well?
Author: FrostytheGlaceon
Genre: Fluff, Smut, Angst...?
Rating: Pg-13+...?
Warnings: Usuall stuff from the genres ^-^
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" Phil, wake up! " Dan said lightly shaking Phil.
" Mmph." Phil said still snuggled from under the sheets.
" C'mon, it's 12:00pm already you silly little canine! " Dan said swinging his tail.
" I'm not little. " Phil groaned trying to get back to sleep. " Wake up! " Dan smiled pulling the sheets off.
" Noo, it's cold. " Phil groaned again swinging his poofy tail over his legs. Dan sighed. " Then I will have to join you then! " Dan playfully said about to climb into bed.
" No,
HOLY SHIT!OH MY GOD, DAN REPLIED TO ME ON TWITTER!HOLY SHIT! in Personal More Like This
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Dirty Little SecretLet me know that I've done wrongDirty Little Secret in Romance More Like This
When I've known this all along
I go around a time or two
Just to waste my time with you
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" Anthony, want to play Truth or Dare ? " Ian said.
Anthony nodded.
They both sat down on the white carpet in the living room.
" Ian, truth or dare ? " Anthony said looking down.
" Truth." Ian said confidently.
" Tell me what I have done wrong to you. " Anthony said.
They both stood up.
Anthony already knew what he had done wrong.
Ian walked around in a circle twice around Anthony and said nothing.
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Tell me all that you've thrown away
Find out games you don't wanna play
You are the only one that needs t
I'm Afraid.I'm Afraid. in Free Verse More Like This
I'm afraid to be happy.
Nothing good ever lasts.
I'm afraid to let go.
If I did I would have nothing.
I'm afraid to face the future.
History repeats itself.
I'm afraid to fall deeper in love.
The deeper I fall, the more it hurts.
I'm afraid to accept the truth.
The truth hurts most of all.
Ten More MinutesTen More Minutes in Free Verse More Like This
All I ask is for ten more minutes.
Ten more minutes to talk to you.
Ten more minutes to hear your voice.
Ten more minutes to adore you.
Ten more minutes to hold you.
Ten more minutes to feel your heartbeat.
Ten more minutes to admire you.
All I ask is for ten more minutes.
Just ten more minutes to be with you.
My last ten minutes with you, before I'm gone.
oh good lord.I went to SitC today. Legit one of the best days of my life. Met so many amazing people, I'm going next year, for sure. So if anyone's coming next year, I'll have purple hair xDoh good lord. in Personal More Like This
Also, shall I work on a horror or a smut tonight? Idk which so you chose plz.
love you all <3
I don't like change.CAUTION: WHINING AHEAD.I don't like change. in Personal More Like This
I guess I've never really been a fan of people moving on from things. You know, bands you and your best friend used to like, doing those crazy little things that would make you and him/her laugh till you were crying. And, well, I don't want things to change. In some respects, I want things to stay the same forever. I want to keep some friends forever. I want some days to go on forever.
Like yesterday, for instance. I was happy. Properly happy. Like, ecstatic. I forgot all about my depression. Whatever things made me sad. I went to a waterpark, I've never been to a waterpark before in my life, so it was great. Of Course. The scars on my legs were kind of a downside, but I had my shorts, so I was okay. But all in all, I was happy. I didn't want the day to end.
It's difficult when people move on around you and, I guess, this is what this journal entry is about. It's essentially me whinging.
Recently, as I'm sure you all know, Sarah d
Bully - Phan - Part 20Dan's Mum's POVBully - Phan - Part 20 in General Fiction More Like This
I held Jake tightly, not wanting to let go for the world.
"It'll be okay." I whispered into his ear, I could hear my own voice shaking as I said it. I couldn't believe this was happening. It couldn't be happening. soon enough I'd wake up and this would all just be a sick sick dream... But I never did wake up. This is real life. This is really happening. And I can't get over it. Can't get over how my baby, my Dan, was abused and I didn't notice for all these years. How Ellie... How Ellie was killed. Martin... I don't even know how he could think that way. The sick, twisted, evil creature.
I was jerked back into reality by the black haired boy, Phil, I think his name was, standing up, gun in hand.
"You don't want to do anything stupid with that, kid."
"Oh really? It seems like you've caused enough trouble already so I suggest you keep your mouth shut, Mr Howell. Besides, I don't think you have a right to judge what's stupid and what's not with all that you've done." Phil
yet another pointless journal entryhello,yet another pointless journal entry in Personal More Like This
yay phan.
new sap.
dan kept saying 'it's not the same *crycrycry*' that's no biggie
but his hair
it was hobbity
he's blatantly not putting any effort in because phil's not there
he is sad
and he said he was lonely
he liked being with phil in darkened rooms ;]
i'm about to ruin phan in my next fic xD
YOU GUYS I MEAN RUIN IT IN A BAD WAY. DAN IS A BAD PERSON IN THIS ONE. THERE'A HINT FOR YOU.
i was a desperate childhello,i was a desperate child in Personal More Like This
i was going through one of my old draws and found a book with a bunch of doodles on the front (of people from my primary school... they're really weird. the drawings. not the people. well... some of the people..) so i started flipping through it.
it only had 4 pages filled in so i assume i must have stolen it and said i 'lost' it in order to keep it and get a new one.
about half way through i found a thing that said:
'25/10/08 Dear Diary,
Today was a day that i didn't get married.
26/10/08 Dear Diary,
Today I still didn't get married even though I have new light up trainers.'
wow. i've just realized i was... what, 8 at the time? good god.
Love at first sight - (Anti)PhanDan had spent the day milling around Manchester, doing nothing in particular. We wandered into Affleck's, picking up menial little objects that he knew he wasn't going to buy. Looking through the glass cabinet full of figures his eyes met with piercing blue orbs, staring back. He stood up quickly and poked his head round the corner to see the body the beautiful eyes belonged to. There stood the most amazing man. His black hair swept across his face in a slanted fringe, his pale skin a beautiful contrast to his hair and eyes, we wore a blue and black checked shirt and incredibly skinny black jeans. All Dan could do was stand there and gape.Love at first sight - (Anti)Phan in General Fiction More Like This
"Aha, a wild admirer appears." He chuckled and Dan blinked.
"It... It was a joke?" The guy explained. "Oh, never mind. I'm Phil." He went back to looking at the models. "Sorry, Phil, you're just..." Dan trailed off, looking for a suitable word to fit this man.
"Ugly? Fat? Disgusting? Repulsive? I've heard it all, call me what you like." The black-hai
Imaginary friends - Part 15I watched him prepare the bagImaginary friends - Part 15 in General Fiction More Like This
Any other day I'd be angry for him giving in to the demands of university work, but not today.
Why? I hear you ask.
Because today is a Sunday - he has spent most of it doing literally nothing; and now I'm bored - Watching him doing stupid things whilst high is always way more interesting than being angry at him. And besides so far he has a perfect track record of noticing me when he's high; I'm even starting to wonder why I seem so completely against him doing this to himself.
He sat on his bed and stared at the bag in his hands like it was both his saviour and killer, although I think the 'saviour' terminology
The car crashChris.The car crash in General Fiction More Like This
Something hit us, and it hit us hard.
Or maybe I hit it.
I can't remember much of what just happened, I just know that it hurt.
It hurt me quite a lot and that means it probably hurt them too.
I'm hoping that they'll be okay although I can guarantee that hoping won't help them now.
But it's all I have left to give and I think it would ease my conscience if I knew that they didn't die in the car that I was driving.
no one would want to know that they killed their friends with their carelessness.
I almost wish that I could still feel the hurt now, feeling the hurt meant I knew where I was and just for that small moment where I felt
Imaginary friends-Part 10Phil's first week at university has been an interesting one to say the least with last night easily claiming the title of most eye opening.Imaginary friends-Part 10 in General Fiction More Like This
He set off earlier than normal yesterday evening with all his usual intentions; i.e. to 'have a good time and get to know some people' the early start's what made last night different because it lead to him being more drunk at the end.
Which in itself involved Phil not only finding and making out with someone but then bringing them back to his room where they did things to each other that I know Phil would never do of his own accord – that is unless he was completely pissed.
Phil's 'friend' was also
5 days to Christmas - PhanDan wandered into the lounge where I was eating breakfast on the sofa, because frankly it's warmer in here than the kitchen and its nice to be all snuggled up in the morning with the curtains closed and the Christmas tree lights setting a cosy atmosphere.5 days to Christmas - Phan in General Fiction More Like This
'Morning darling.' Dan said plonking himself down next to me on the sofa next to me.
'Morning.' I said back drowsily.
'You're surprisingly calm today.'
'Am I?' I asked 'I thought this is how I normally acted.'
'Well it is for a normal day.'
'What's so not normal about today?'
'Don't you know? Haven't you looked outside yet?'
'No, clearly I don't know, what's so special about the out
6 days to Christmas - PhanDan threw me against a wall and pinned me to it, placing small kisses and dark patches around my neck.6 days to Christmas - Phan in General Fiction More Like This
'You warm now baby?'
'What?' I asked but Dan didn't stop kissing me to answer, and then I remembered. 'oh that, that was yesterday.-' he rolled his hips into mine '-but oh my god yes.'
'good.' he mumbled as he worked his way along my jaw 'you were a snowman.'
'And now you're trying to melt me?'
'Well that depends, am I succeeding?'
'Fuck yes.'
11 days to Christmas - PhanAfter a long day of doing nothing it almost surprises me how nice it feels to crawl into bed once its over. Dan was under the covers before I'd even entered the room and had already busied himself on his iPhone.11 days to Christmas - Phan in General Fiction More Like This
I settled myself to lie under the covers and he quickly locked the phone, put it on his bedside table, laid down and turned to face me.
'Hey Phil.' he mumbled.
I ignored him. 'What were you doing on there?' I asked
'Nothing really, just a quick bit of shopping, nothing for you to worry about.' He said, snaking his arms around my middle and resting his head on my shoulder. 'Hey Phil.' he asked again.
'What is it Dan my dear darling hu
Phan-Do you need me? Part 11Five symptoms.Phan-Do you need me? Part 11 in General Fiction More Like This
The first one came quickly, it repeats itself often and like others like me it's the one that first pointed me toward the bigger problem.
Symptom number one is Headaches, frequent ones often accompanied by feeling really sick.
That just happens to be symptom number two, feeling sick and then being sick. Both of these are worse in the mornings but the pills help, they dull down everything and I can get on with the important things in my life.
things like YouTube and people like Phil.
He nudged me awake lightly and whispered 'Wake up Dan.'
'Morning Phil.' I mumbled tiredly as I wiped the sleep out of my eyes.
'It's the afternoon
Phan-Do you need me? Part 10'How are the doctors going to make it better?' I finally ask after a long pause. One that was full of horrible realisations and fear.Phan-Do you need me? Part 10 in General Fiction More Like This
He wiped away the old tears from my cheeks with his thumb as he responded. 'Phil we're in the bathroom, sitting on the toilet.'
'So?'
'I don't think here is the right place.'
'That doesn't matter. Just tell me.' I whisper.
'No.' he said stubbornly
'Why not?'
'I don't want to.' he said avoiding eye contact with me.
I got off his lap and turned to face him, unable to understand why he's refusing to tell me. 'But Dan.' I complain 'It's how you're going to get better, how bad could it possibly be?'
Because he is
Phan-Do you need me? Part 7Dan's POVPhan-Do you need me? Part 7 in General Fiction More Like This
-Later that day-
I sit at what could have once been called a dining table but now has become a station for the mac. 'Have you told your parents about falling down the stairs yet?' Phil asked abruptly from the sofa where he was watching something on the TV, I think it's big brother, but I'm not really watching.
'Noo. I'd never hear the end of it.' I replied
'But they're your parents they have a right to know that you fell down the stairs.'
'Not if I don't want them to.'
'I guess.' He said looking back to the TV. 'Then can you remember why you fell yet?'
I shrugged though I doubt he saw me. 'I just fell down the stairs and it hurt a
Phan-Do you need me? Part 6Phil's POVPhan-Do you need me? Part 6 in General Fiction More Like This
I watched curiously as he stood without a purpose at the top of the stairs, saying nothing, looking but not really seeing anything.
Then he dropped the phone he had in his hand, his eyes shut and he fell down the stairs. My first instinct was to get out of the way, and so I did, but now I wish I hadn't. Maybe I would have caught him, broken his fall, and maybe, if I was really lucky, my boyfriend wouldn't now be lying, broken and bleeding into the carpet at the bottom of our staircase right now.
'Dan?' I whisper in question as I drop to my knees beside him 'Dan wake up.' I hold his shoulders and shake him 'Dan please wake up.'
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Balls Deep [Jean Hobbs] Sadness/trigger warningBalls Deep [Jean Hobbs] in Short Stories More Like This
“Balls deep my friend, balls deep!” Jack said, and the two boys clinked their glasses together and took a gulp of their wine, toasting to another good year of videos and another good year to come.
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“Balls deep Mr Howard...” Dean murmured, choking back a sob while he downed back the vodka. It burned the back of his throat but he didn’t care. He drank to get rid of the pain, not for pleasure. He hadn’t drank for pleasure since it happened. It being Jack’s death.
Dean had found his body one evening, just after he’d been away with his family for the weekend. It had b
He didn't just troll the internet [Kickthestickz]“YOU ARE A MASSIVE DICK CHRIS KENDALL I HAVE BEEN DRIVING ALL DAY TO COME AND SEE YOU AND SEE WHAT WAS WRONG AND WHY YOU WERE QUITTING YOUTUBE AND NOW I FIND OUT YOU WERE TROLLING THE INTERNET?” I yell up to Chris’s window.He didn't just troll the internet [Kickthestickz] in Short Stories More Like This
I’m not joking with him. I had been up all night, worrying about why he was quitting. Was my tweet mean? Was it my fault? And the thing about being less beautiful, I was so scared that he actually thought that. Because Dan, Phil and I all agree that he is possibly the most beautiful, both inside and out. I got no sleep, worried about how upset he might be. He wasn’t answering his calls or tex
Hurt [Phan]It’s been a long time since I last saw Phil, several weeks. So it’s no wonder I’m sitting here now, and have been for the last couple of hours. I just need to make sense of the thoughts in my head. I sit with my photo album in my hands, wearing his winter coat. Its cold, but I’ve lost all the capacity to feel anything. I put on a smile for the fans, I even managed to get a starring role on BBC 1, prime time Saturday. Everything is going well, but inside I’m a mess.Hurt [Phan] in Short Stories More Like This
“Are you proud of me Philly?” I whisper. If he’s looking down on me, is he feeling proud of my achievements? I don’t think he
Bruised Love [Phan][Dan]Bruised Love [Phan] in Short Stories More Like This
“I’m looking for Dan.” He snarls, his teeth bares, his eyes flashing with a savage fire.
I gulp, hoping that nobody will give it away that I’m here. I’d been hoping that he wouldn’t find me, but unfortunately I always have the worst luck. I always did, I always would. I thought I had got lucky when he asked me out, but he just wasn’t the boyfriend I wanted. Or needed.
People are different when you date them.
At first our relationship was perfect. We already lived together, and had been for several years. At first our friendship had been awkward – we met over the internet, and he was 5
Little Orphan Philly (Part 3) [Phan][Phil]Little Orphan Philly (Part 3) [Phan] in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
“Right then, Phil love. Are you ready?” Mrs Howell asks, helping me out of my hospital bed and onto my feet.
I’ve been in here for a week, recovering from being knocked unconscious. I could be dead if it wasn’t for Finn calling for Julie to help me, after Jace and Elliot ran away. I came round in the ambulance, but soon passed out again from the pain. When I woke up again, I could hear Mr Howell shouting at Julie for letting this happen to me. When he saw me moving, he simply said “I’ll never let them hurt you again.” Which is why I’m leaving with the Howells. Off to my new home.
Dan&rsqu
Trapped. {Part 16}[Chris’s POV]Trapped. {Part 16} in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
I pace up and down my cell angrily. Apparently I have a visitor, who’s just getting his papers filled in and then I can see him. I’m angry because I’ve been here for a month and nobody came to see me. No, I’m more angry because I know that it won’t be the one guy that I want to see – PJ. PJ got off lightly really. It’s so unfair!
No. No it’s not unfair. PJ wouldn’t last 5 minutes in this place, not really. He’d miss real life too much, and he’d probably try to stick up for the younger ones who are being picked on, where as I know just to keep my head down,
Trapped. {Part 15} [Phan/Neribedtime][Carrie’s POV]Trapped. {Part 15} [Phan/Neribedtime] in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
I grab Alex’s hand as the judge begins to talk. I so desperately want to know what’s going to happen to PJ and Chris. My old best friends, both side by side in the defendants box of the crown court. They’re polar opposites, and whereas they once seemed to complement each other, they now seem to repel each other. Looking at PJ... I realise that if I hadn’t met Alex, I might have dated PJ. We would have worked, if Alex and I weren’t so perfect for each other.
Then again, our relationship isn’t quite perfect anymore. But it could have been worse. I was so scared that he wouldn’t u
Trapped {Part 7} [Phan/Neribedtime}[Carrie's POV]Trapped {Part 7} [Phan/Neribedtime} in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
CRASH!
A bang startles me, and I look around trying to find the source of the noise. Muffled voices fill the air, and the sound of footsteps echoing off the empty walls and floors of the hotel start to become louder. I don't understand what's happening! PJ and his gang are nowhere to be seen.
Dan looks at me, his eyes wide with fear.
"What if they want to hurt me again Carrie?" he whispers, the panic evident in his voice. "What if they k...kill me?"
"I won't let them Danny, I won't let them!" I say, trying to stop the tears which threaten to run down my cheeks.
PJ bursts through the door, his eyes flashing angrily. He run
Kickthestickz RPStranger: PJ was at his usual spot, sat near a park outside his university, he usually sat there or underneath the big ancient tree that was in the park. He was pretty new there so didn't know or speak to anyone, instead he carried around a notepad in which he wrote song lyrics in that he was making up, or musical notes to make a song. There had been many people before trying to converse with him while the male wrote, but he just annoyed them accidently by giving them one word answers. Sitting humming to himself, he ignored the on coming crowds that were making the way out of the University and heading in his direction.Kickthestickz RP in Short Stories More Like This
You: Chris was had jus
Trapped {Part 6} [Phan/Neribedtime][Phil's POV]Trapped {Part 6} [Phan/Neribedtime] in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
It's calm here now, almost like the calm before the storm. The hundreds of police men stand around; checking equipment, eating sandwiches, going through maps, talking quietly. The reporters have all been pushed back so we can barely hear their babble of talk now. The near-silence is eerie, and is doing nothing to calm my nerves.
Alex and I walked into the centre of Newcastle today, into Starbucks so we could upload the video onto our channels. We got lots of hugs from fans who knew we were here, and someone even gave us some clothes so we could change in the loos there, because we stank after camping for a few days! Sometimes
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